#we love siblings who know everything

[snixx]

mike wheeler in the fic I'm reading has exactly as much tact as I did in high school. what can I say sometimes you really do have to learn the hard way that you do not immediately ask your best friend who is also your soon-to-be ex's sibling "nothing's going to change between us no matter how much your sister and i hypothetically hate each other in the future right?" when you're LITERALLY still in the middle of your very messy breakup and they're furious at you secondhand because of #siblingsolidarity. not to mention he handled the break up itself like an ass like go off thank you author i love it truly the representation for us completely oblivious emotionally challenged idiots we're starved of otherwise NO ONE EVER GETS HOW STUPID WE CAN TRULY BE

#girlblogging.pdf #byler #mike wheeler i know what you are #willel #as someone who has a lot of mutual friends with my sister AND as someone friends with a lot of siblings #i obviously love all my friends to death and they love me but #if you have a choice. for future reference trust me do not befriend two siblings pick one if you must #it's an emotional shitshow for everyone involved #you have to give each of them exactly equal amounts of affection and love and everything all the time that's just the rule #you're an ass otherwise #also we will always pick each other over you even if you did nothing wrong #just know what you're in for when you befriend siblings okay it's not easy #you know my childhood ex best friend i keep posting about? we broke up over a fight she had with my sister #also my best friends are siblings and fighting with both of them because it was a both or neither situation in school was The Worst #i have like a zillion more stories just trust me okay #i love my sibling friends to pieces and the mutual friends i have with my sister and i wouldnt trade them for the world #but im sure as hell not befriending siblings simultaneously in the future #my sister and i are literally the tightest now too because our social circles barely overlap #anyway. that was another episode of me projecting way too hard onto byler fanfiction hope you enjoyed #vagueposting the shit out of tumblr dot com

[widowshill]

65 / 62 / 71

#lela swift understands something fundamental about my psychological condition. which is to say. age gap fucked up couples on the stairs. #love is contained in the convo across the banister where i tell you to leave my house <3 muah. #burke/liz tag #➤ roger collins & victoria winters. ┊ pain sometimes precedes pleasure，miss winters. #compilation tag #okay. a) #the parallels between vicki and burke as the dark-headed poor kid that finds themself subject to collinses & Collins-ness & everything that #it represents. vicki who follows in his footsteps as imprisoned – endangered – almost *ran over* for the sake of the family. #who; perhaps despite their better judgment; *do* enjoy the charm; the noblesse oblige; the aura of... #call it doom. around the collins siblings. #(and as we know. ''devlin has a tremendous range.'' in terms of torch-carrying) #but the romance isn't precisely my point even if i'm more than willing to believe in b/e and r/v #but an older collins – one who is perhaps not directly involved in their ruination but a participant in it. #b) #while i was looking at the scene of burke on the stairs i was struck by a feeling of ''hey you shouldn't be up there'' #and immediately was like. no let's unpack that. #the stairs are one of the most-traveled parts of the scenography other than perhaps the drawing room window or the sofa BUT it's excluded #to the in-group – the family; their intimates. you don't (or shouldn't) be ascending the stairs as a stranger; an enemy. #because it traverses the boundary between the public and the private – where the drawing room is already host to secrets; #to scandal; to a type of metaphorical undressing; #the upstairs is a different realm entirely. upstairs is bedrooms; bathrooms; the tower room. sleep – intimacy – privacy – death. #burke is already trespassing in enemy territory by being in the foyer – to go on or up the stairs peels back another layer of skin. #(and worth noting that liz successfully stops him from doing so) #there's so many good r/v scenes that involve the stairs precisely because it represents that boundary between the intimate and public; #between the idea of the house as a home and house as monument. #... which is a key contention between both b&e and r&v. burke who wants collinwood as conqueror wants the castle; a monument to victory. #elizabeth who sees collinwood as her home – as the place of her childhood – as the bricks and blood of her ancestors. #vicki who is desperate to find her home there past and present. roger who sees it as monument to collins misery – #to ancestors that look down on him with undisguised hatred – to his own inadequacy – to imprisonment – to the tomb.

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Just found out my two siblings are in my mom's will, but not me. Also my grandpa has told the entire family about his engagement. Except for me. Also my dad told my siblings that he and my mom bought a plot of land. Can you guess who they haven't told?

#these tags are about to be a massive trauma dump tbh so avoid if you want #when i was fifteen i came out as trans. and my mom was terrible about it. and my dad was up for a promotion so we were considering moving #and i found a list of my moms pros and cons for moving. on the pros was 'people there dont know about (deadname)' #so that was ideal for a suicidal fifteen year old to find. and tonight i just learned that im not in her will #both of my siblings are. but im not. and its just always been like this #im treated like im not part of the family anymore. and it's been that way since i was fifteen #i heard from my brother that my grandpa is engaged. and he told both my siblings about it directly. he never told me #i reach out to my parents. i never hear back. my aprents text my sibling to check on me (sib and i live together) #everything is kind of shit rn. one of my rats is dying. my family doesnt love me. im broke. my best friend and i arent really talking #because he fucked my ex gf and now things arent really the same anymore. strangely enough. he doesnt reach out anymore #so i have no one to talk to about any of this shit #last night i was crying about my rat and i guess my roommate heard it cuz this morning they said #'are you okay? if you ever need someone to talk to who will never bring it up again you can talk to me' #and thats the most loving thing ive heard from someone in months. from a woman ive known since august #im. just. at a loss. since i found out tonight. that im not in my mom's will #its not about money. or assets. its about the fact that im her fucking child and both of her other children are in it but im not #after she dies shes willing to help them out but i can get fucked ig #i wonder if im gonna be invited to my grandpas wedding. i wonder if any of them would want me at their funeral #i wonder if any of them would come to mine

[fiendishartist2]

guys what if i want to make my own apollo justice game.

#i need to write a prequel to aa4 pls pls pls pls pls #okay get this: so phoenix isnt disbarred yet and he doesnt have trucy. hes still taking and winning cases #one day he gets a call from edgeworth and hes all like ''wright i need your assistance'' and hes like what for and edgeworth goes #''ive been given the most ridiculous case and i think youre the only man in law who can take care of it'' #so phoenix bikes his ass to the detention center and boom. child behind bars #and phoenix is like ??? hey kid what are doing here. and this kid is the most surly mfer on the planet like you couldnt get- #-a word out of him if you tried. hes kinda giving phoenix the stink eye too but hes just the littlest guy on earth #and phoenix feels bad for him so he tries to get a rundown of the case (maybe edgeworth gave him an autopsy report or smth beforehand) #but get this. the kid still wont speak. he hasnt even moved a muscle. and after some prodding you find out this little dude- #-doesnt speak english (i dont love aa6 but i think apollos tragic backstory can be interesting so we're going w that but taking it seriousl #anyways so maya is like omg this kid is speaking khurainese but hers is kinda broken bc shes not from the mainland and only knows it- #-from like prayers #so you only get bits and pieces of the kids testimony. plus he still doesnt wanna talk bc ''dhurk told me not to talk to you'' #so you start following the new lead but you ask too many questions and apollos like oh shit i said too much and wont talk to you anymore #but now you have two leads: khur'ain and a man named ''dhurk'' plus the fact that this is kid might be new to america since- #-he cant speak english but is smack dab in the middle of california. its all v curious and phoenix wants to get to the bottom of it #for the rest of the case i feel like it would go in the direction of ''we dont know exactly whats up w this dhurk guy or where this kid- #-came from but we do get him acquitted and phoenix is able to save him from the dark path he was heading towards'' thus steering apollo- #-in the direction of law and giving him a wayyyy better reason than aa6 gave him <3 #i kind of like the interlinked nature of ace attorney's storytelling. like everything leads into smth else and everyone is impacted- #-by another person before they even become properly entangled w each other's lives #like how mia faced dahlia years before she met phoenix but dahlia was the one to connect them #or how trucy gave phoenix the diary paper but she's also the one who ropes apollo into the waa. even before they know they're siblings #or how lamoire left apollo and trucy as children and when they reunite as adults they cant recognise each other but they all find each- #-other anyways #i could go on but i think this could be cool yknow esp bc i think the most interesting thing about apollo's aa6 backstory is his life- #-post dhurk. like where did he stay? was he a foster kid? was he put into the system? how did that affect him? what kind of ppl took him in #i just wanna know how that whole thing would have effected him bc like when yiu think about it how did he even get to america?? his dad's #-considered a terrorist. idk man i think its interesting and apollo and dhurks interactions are one of the only good parts of aa6

[terrifyingstories]

ya'll i got a practicum!!!!!!!

#out. #cancer mention / #sibling death mention / #i haven't really spoken about this to anyone other than laura and dax but my sister passed away at the beginning of may and we found out #literally two days later that my mom most likely has lung cancer #so it's been probably the hardest couple months of my life and i've been just WRECKED and i thought about dropping out more than once #because i was in such a low place mentally where just. Nothing Mattered and I Didn't Care #but i was just accepted to this amazing placement where i get to work with kids in foster care and foster families and it just feels so #right and i'm just having a Crying Moment because everything has been SO much but i'm so profoundly grateful and EXCITED and i haven't been #able to really feel that in awhile Because of Everything #it's really everything i've wanted as someone who really wants to work with kiddos specifically kiddos in care #plus it's seven minutes away from home which was a big concern given i don't know what's going to happen with my mom going forward and i'm #her primary caregiver (she's 89 besides Everything) #funnily enough literally right next door to my sister's church which like. i'm not religious (big christian family don't practice not into #it you know) but it was a place she loved and that feels nice #ANYWAY THIS WAS A RAMBLE but i'm just feeling a lot of things and wanted to put them down somewhere #now that i've gotten a placement and i have that stress off my shoulders i would love to be around more #grief / #death / #depression /

[quietwingsinthesky]

prev post I don’t want to bother op with this but. that is why s5 lucifer is so good too.

#ex. hammer of the gods. I mean he’s fucking gleeful about the massacre. he’s having fun. #and then this is the same episode that ends with him in tears and breathing shakily over his brother #and there’s no one watching. this is not a performance. he is just. he’s grieving. #and idk!! compelling!!! #joke post yesterday about Lucifer crying more onscreen #but actually it was not a joke I would have killed for more moments like this #late seasons lucifer could have been redeemed for me if like. we just had scenes where he stopped for a minute. #like maybe when he hears about Raphael’s death. maybe when Chuck refuses to pull Michael out of the cage with Lucifer. #and just fucking!!!! let him mourn them in privacy!!!!!!!! #like it’s not much but that would have added a little depth to his spiral!!!!! he’s alone!!!! he’s the only one alive and free!!!! #ahhhh late seasons lucifer who is exactly the same when around the human characters or demons because he just. doesn’t care anymore. #but when it comes to Heaven. to his remaining siblings. he puts in the effort to care about them. #you know just like how much better would it have been if Lucifer was completely and utterly genuine in his attempts to create new angels #and he just couldn’t. he didn’t know he couldn’t and he finds out because he’s trying and he can’t. #nothing much has to change he can still get kicked out for ‘lying’ about being able to. #whos’s going to believe him when he says he didn’t know? #and now imagine a version of Jack & Lucifer’s relationship coming off the crux of that #Jack is the last ditch attempt at creation. the breaking point. #I’m rambling but you see it. you see it right? the desperate grasping at something he could never get back? #the way everything would clash. if he treated Jack with love. but everything else could burn for all he cared. #cause Jack was it. he tried to make angels and failed but he DID make Jack. #and the winchesters trying to keep his son away from him? turn Jack against him? he might. break. about that. #like I’m saying if you kept the basic plot structure of the final seasons and just made tiny adjustments to Lucifer’s character #not even really his actions just his motivations!!! BOOM!!!! fucking!!!!! better show!!!!!! #anyway this has been speculation with will come back at 8 and I’ll talk about the bunker being a mushroom #spn #Lucifer spn

[starsandthorn]

my god i am ADORING the fontaine world quests so much they are so good

#personal stuff #thorn plays genshin #i love how they all show different sides of fontaine while also being connected!!!! and we get pieces of the puzzle with each quest!! #all the alice in wonderland imagery too. caterpillar........ also lyris being called the ''red empress''.....like the red queen perhaps? #and taking everyone back to the ordo after each quest is so cool and satisfying because it really feels like it's building to something #and we'll finally get to see the whole puzzle and figure everything out and AUUGH. #just the whole doomsday clock + the ??? domain talking about the apocalypse and how no more civilizations will be made #and caterpillar's comment that maybe we're already living in the apocalypse. HMM. maybe we are #jsut AUUGH. it's so so so cool. i love lore :] #though each one is supremely fucked up in different ways. and i love it #ann's whole thing with Stories and how what stories are told about you shape who you are as a person #and all the alice in wonderland stuff in her quest #the whole thing with elynas and jakob in seymour's quest. plus the book of revealing with canotila. #then everything about the Master that we learn from caterpillar??? #me going on the wiki like hey what the fuck is going on. and going WAIT THE INSTITUTE AND THE ORDO ARE TWO DIFFERENT THINGS #okay that makes more sense. the institute split and the ordo was made of the people who believed in the abyss and apocalypse stuff #OH MY GOD ALAIN AND MARY-ANN ARE SIBLINGS. sorry this is not a huge reveal i just didn't know what their connection was #i'm not reading all the artifact descriptions sorry </3 #anyway i'm psyched i love siblings. #ALAIN MADE HER A ROBOTIC DOG TO PROTECT HER. cries and explodes forever i love you sibligns. wtf #but yea the master being a fucked up rebirth combo of lyris and rene. #and caterpillar possibly being created from the master's memory of carter who was also ''prepped for rebirth'' by rene before his dissolvin #NO BUT ACTUALLY WHAT THE FUCK. in ann's story lyris giving up her ''time'' to freeze narcissus. what the fuck was that about #with the context that she and rene dissolved and were stripped of personality to become the Master which caterpillar calls narzissenkreuz #????????? #god. remember when i said i felt like i needed a corkboard and red string to figure this stuff out. still true #i could just read the wiki but the black + white contrast makes my head hurty. thank you <3

[latinokaeya-moving]

ok i gave myself 48 hours of no hating bc it was that thing’s bday but i gotta say it now. i honestly hate like 95% of ragbros content it’s so overwhelmingly extremely basic and shallow ‘sibling’ content made by people who seem to be unable to conceive of sibling relationships that don’t fit the cookie cutter ideas that r most palatable to fandom it’s boring it’s so so boring to me !!!

#x #gi posting #THIS IS NOT KA*LUC you people can die. kill yourselves #i don’t know how to explain it but it also overwhelmingly centers diluc’s feelings and perspective on EVERYTHING it’s so so lame. get back #to me when we can come up with compelling dynamics the brothers could’ve had between themselves AND their father that doesn’t solely revolve #around everything coming to a head the day of diluc’s bday w kaeya revealing his secret #i’ve talked abt this before but i ​loveee the concept of there already being resentment of some sort even during their teen years bc of #how differently crepus treated them. of the differences of how their expectations weighed on them. on being as ‘close as twins’ but still #bring vastly different people internally. #i want bratty little self centred kids who loved each other but were never the best communicators. LIKE. just! complications!! yes petty #sibling squabbling and other Siblings In Media staples are to be expected but when those kinds of punch lines n jokes #r 90% of the content for them i get so bored. i’m SO bored

[randomaj]

i think I'm just emotional tonight, but as I was staring into the night, I was just struck by how big everything is.

I can't visit all of the places in the world, not truly, not to the extent I want to. Neither can I consume all of the information there is, it's impossible. I'm just struck by how beautifully unfathomable everything is.

And that's just on earth. To think that there's the possibly that there other inhabited worlds out there, with their own unfathomable cultures. And even if there isn't! Just everything.

There's so much to learn and see, that I can't even imagine or comprehend. I am so small and insignificant and yet everything is so beautiful.

#midnight ramblings #i just love the world so much #even with all the fuckery #we are so beautiful and so is everything #but as much as i want to picture this bright and beautiful future where we can comprehend more and continue to find things that we can't #i know we must first acknowledge and fight back against what atrocities happen currently #we have no future without first solving our problems today #we must look to the future but stay in the present and remember the past #i love everyone and everything and i hope we have a future even more beautiful than we can currently imagine #and I don't want to cloud the tag but Free Palestine Look Out for our Queer Russian ( and other ) Siblings who are being discriminated #and fucking vote #this is likely not making any sense because I am tired and sad currently

[goldensunset]

the sibs and i have been having a gossip session about our parents while we’re all in the car together and while i’m also part of the conversation i’m just trying to talk openly and honestly about my feelings and observations without being overly cruel and malicious but my siblings don’t care they’re just trying to be as nasty as possible and i feel like i’m working overtime trying to rein it in and to be fair to our parents and i am socially and spiritually exhausted

#i feel like i’m the only of us kids left that actually genuinely loves our parents #i love my siblings but there’s definitely this clear drift here #they think just because i’ve managed to start unpacking years of a wild and troublesome childhood with them #that that means i must now hate our parents and see them as bad people #like they do #naw man it’s just critical thinking. i can analyze people and my relationship with them extensively #but that doesn’t only mean negative things #i can go over everything that my parents have done to hurt me but at the end of it all they’re my parents and i love them #and i want to talk to them and help them and take care of them etc #i wish my siblings could see things that way #i truly do believe if we all talk to each other and share our own experiences and views on the subject #we can all make each other happier and healthier people #peach rambles #anyway the real thing i’m gonna say here is: i cannot leave this group situation rn #like as in i can’t switch cars and go with my parents at the next stopping point and leave my siblings together #because if i DO then they’re all gonna start smack talking ME #y’know that thing about how you kind of instinctively distrust people who gossip about others #because then you know they’re probably also gossiping about you behind your back since they’re clearly just that kind of person #yeah that’s how i feel about my siblings #also i hate the mentality that says that because i feel this way i clearly didn’t suffer as much as they do #SCREW that i’ve been dealing with the same nonsense my entire life i understand FULLY how they feel i used to feel that way too #i just learned how to cope better and restructure my brain more healthily #with a different philosophical outlook #hate being accused of not understanding what i’m talking about or being told i can’t possibly understand another person’s mind #listen no one will ever fully understand exactly what it’s like to be another person even if they do come from very similar backgrounds #but people like that can absolutely make the claim that they do understand a significant amount about each other #and i have a right to talk like this to my siblings #anyway #this has been a rant about my family dynamic and philosophical beliefs

[otb-mp3]

Roman and Kendall playing as antithesis to each other… two sides of the Roy coin and we see the masks they’ve put up for years around Logan and each other crumble, Roman standing up to Logan causing his own mask of apathy to crumble and show this empathy he’s always had but been forced to hide, both around his father and siblings all so he himself wouldn’t get hurt… and even after the years of hurt from Logan, Roman still wants to preserve an honorable reputation of his late father… while we also see his dedication to the company and the reputation of the Roy family name… of the same coin we see Ken, even with everything he’s been chasing for from Logan for years sits on a piece of paper in the palm of his hands, it’s all he wanted but is that enough for him… it’s a responsibility that he’s spent years to gain, to prove himself to his father and he has it… his name is on that paper, he has the world he’s desired in the palm of his hands and yet we’re taken back to Kendall, alone again in that bathroom contemplating his fathers discusión, trying to get into Logan’s iron clad sealed head, now he’ll never know what his father truly thought of him by the end of it all, the paper is real, and all the pieces have fallen in the way he’s wished for but is that really all the he wanted? or was he chasing after something much deeper? much more personal?… then we’re lead to the end of episode 4, where we see the dichotomy and demise of the Kendall we were confronted with after Shiv’s wedding, powerless and terrified in Logan’s grip… contrasted with this new revival of waystar successor Kendall Roy of Season 1, who so quickly went behind Romans back, soon to break Shivs already waning trust, completely throwing the power balance Ken Roman and Shiv had come to compromise only 10 minutes before

#this is a horribly written analysis but i needed to get my thoughts out #also let me start off by saying i am a Kendall girl through and through and through #and jesse has set up this story so intricately however i don’t see things ending positively in Kendall’s interest #unless we get a miracle #but the way it’s set up is very cutthroat #and Kendall is left with no more Logan blockade #he is in a grieving state of mind and trying to be a business man all at once #will he know how to balance family against his own desires #against his late fathers approval #all while his siblings have and leverage against Kendall after his confession to them at the end of S3 #as we see Roman both open up emotionally we also see a deeper cutthroatedness and confidence emerge as well #but i think it’s important to acknowledge it being only the second day of Logan’s departure from the world #none of them have processed this yet #none of them are at all in the right state of mind #after years of every Roy having to withdraw from their feelings #to be in a constant business only state of mind #none of them know how to process the fact that this figurehead they loved but were terrified of #that gave them everything but his own love and approval #who manipulated them and played mind games with them while gifting them the world as their playground #he’s gone Logan’s gone the figurehead they all fought to win over is gone #one moment that stuck out was when Ken mentioned his therapist and he was only met with blanketed stares #especially from Shiv #the one woman in a family of men #who arguably had to fight the hardest and will continue to do so #the woman who can have anything but has lost every thing #this season is going to be banger after banger but the emotional investment and toll #on the watchers of the show is going to be intense #succession #succession spoilers #succession analysis

[pepprs]

kind of amazing that i get down on myself for having impostor syndrome and feeling constantly stupid and naive and radiating insecurity about being young all the time when actually there is a completely explainable reason for it which is that i live in this house 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

#groaning and laughing over liz memes with my siblings and explaining to my parents why ppl are doing this / why ppl hate her and #are celebrating her death and they start attacking me for relaying the information (and agreeing with it ♥️) and saying shit like This #Generation has no respect and are so cruel and classless and always pick at problems for no reason and make unfounded baseless claims when I #was literally reading them evidence of the awful things that happened under her reign and they were going i don’t believe that. LMFAO! ok. #and the generational disdain has been such an issue too. like our parents straight up think we are stupid! love and light 💖 #purrs #one of the worst fights i ever had with my mom that was the reason i started going to counseling happened bc of how jason mraz announced #that he was two-spirit and i was talking to my mom about it and said that he shouldn’t have called himself that bc he&: white and she BLEW #UP at me for like 3 days straight for trying to be ‘labelist’ about him and for caring about sexuality and ‘policing’ his / her language and #she literally went out of her way to pick a fight with someone on ig who was saying the thing i was to prove a point to me and she said othe #other extremely hurtful things about me being bi and about me having the audacity to ‘root for the underdog’ and how she was going to cut me #out of her life just like she did with her aunt because i push her buttons too much so ♥️ always very fun to get into debates with my parent #and i know it goes against literally everything i am supposed to know / be for me to be arguing like this and to be complaining about it and #even joking about queen elizabeth but like. idk. i feel so torn between how i feel. i know she was a human being yeah yeah but she was #also a colonialist monarch parasite and i genuinely think the way tumblr explodes when politicians and world leaders die is endearing and #exciting and funny. i adore my job and my colleagues and also working full time is killing me. i recognize that my parents are human beings #and that i am flawed and don’t know everything and am saying stuff without fully knowing what it means and also it makes me giddy to pick #fights with them a little bit. i am kind of a bad person i think and i care about it so much but also i don’t give a fuck anymore. nothing #in my life feels real rn and i am a scared creature in my skin all the time. so no i don’t feel like i can hold my own and represent my work #well because i am living a double life just wanting to play video games all the time and run away from everything but also wanting to create #the golden thing and help people open the door to a better world or whatever and i can’t tell wha ti want to do more because im fucking #EXHAUSTED and experiencing 15 kinds of despair at all times lol! #not to turn a post about queen elizabeth into a vent lmfao but i am so angry. it really fucking gets me that they think im stupid lol. like #i know im stupid for other reasons but it’s not fair to think im stupid because i am pointing out inequities and trying to help you learn or #whatever and it’s not fair that you think that im stupid because im a young person like im literally your fucking daughter and it is made st #STAGGERINGLY clear to me every day how you only wanted babies and you didn’t want us as the messy growing learning imperfectncomplicated #adults we are becoming and it fucking hurts and i hate you for it a little bit. lol 🤸🏻‍♀️ #delete later #idk what i even just typed i an just hitting post and letting the consequences roll in. im a bad person fuck it! #parents tw

[astrxealis]

bothering @noxtivagus is my FAVORITE HOBBY!!

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #everyone wishes they had a sbling relationship like we do Hashtag Sibling GOALS!!!! #okay that's just a joke but i love playing around w lune shes so funny to annoy #and it's kinda shocking to me tbh that. man. others don't know what it's like to have a twin. or even a sibling #or don't have good relationships w their siblings ... like my friend who is a younger twin and not close to his sister :') #my classmates told me she wants to have a twin bcs it's like. your super best friend!! which is true but also it is very annyoing #but i wouldn't trade having a twin for the world >____< even if she's super stinky! #but yeah i feel like there's a certain ... distance w my friends who either don't have good relations w siblings or don't have any #not in a way that we're less-friends but in a way it's something they can never fully understand i think #blood is important but it shouldn't be the. yeah of Everything. non-familial relations are just as important i think #it's interesting to me :] and also pretty sad #i'm INCREDIBLY close to my twin. we do everything together. we're incredibly close #but it's a bit sad too for me bcs yeah i'm really grateful for what i have but also on the other hand #it's incredibly hard for me to make close friends and really open up to others ... #but i have 1/2 longtime friends who i can do so w! one of them less. hence i said 1/2. but the other <3 #and then i made a friend earlier this year and we clicked together SO QUICKLY it is honestly unreal. genuinely #and since then i've. yeah! i have two online friends i'm genuinely just comfortable talking to and then yeah #ig in my social life i'm just lacking more school friends (esp those in my class! i'm getting there though!) and a more variety #by which i mean. people like Me. though i think i have 1 aside from my twin already and two who are good candidates hehe ^_^ #i have older friends which is nice and one i'm pretty close to fr ... but yeah ^^ #woa it's nice to properly organize my thoughts. in tumblr tags LMFAO. but yeah i feel better now . nice! #i'm bad at keeping up convos but i do care for all my friends no matter how close we are or if i find them annoying ^^ <3 #but it really is best for me i think that i dedicate my time to my closest friends and people i think i rlly want to be close w! #though i love to be nice and friendly and. there for others when they don't have much people so i'll likely still #talk to everyone i know aaaa ... which is kinda a lot to me ....... bcs i don't like leaving anyone alone or behind #but yeah ^___^ i'll manage somehow! #i was so hyper just a bit ago but not anymore phew #good for lune LMFAOOO !!! #okay time to do. homework . #bcs i got more ... T____T BUT THEN. i will force lune to HELP ME OUT!!! <3

[thatpunnyperson]

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#we are at T minus 1 day #my sibling's cat dying of cancer has stopped eating because its too hard for him to pick up the cat treats #his mouth is permanently open with his tongue unable to stay inside his mouth #his drooling has increased to the point that his fur on his tail and paws is all crusty from when he rests his head on them when sleeping #he's been getting liquid pain meds twice a day and hates it because we have to restrain him to administer them and also it tastes bad #but we've been petting and kissing him and brushing and scratching him like he loves #but tomorrow between 9am and noon eastern US time #he will leave this world and no longer be in pain or discomfort #24 hours remain and we are not ready but we know its time #luckily my sibling had a ton of friends who are here for them and have offered pretty much everything to make it easier #but its going to be so rough #this little guy has touched so many hearts and is so loved by so many people #he is going to be missed so much #so he's got this last day for us to give him the love we had planned to give him over the next 8 or 9 years #punny speaks #tw death mention

[knifeprtys]

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#sibling death tw #rainne #it might just b bcos im sic in the head but seeing how upset absolutely everyone is is kinda comforting #like ive had ppl tell me they had to leave work when they found out n stuff #and its like right??? it's devastating! she WAS that important and special #ive been inviting everyone to the funeral even tho we haven't made any arrangements yet and i mean literally everyone #ofc i tell them its okay if they cant make it n we understand #but everyones been like OF COURSE I'LL TRY MY BEST TO COME ITS RAINNE!!!!!! #even when ppl who barely knew her are reaching out or ppl she hadn't been in contact w for years its all genuine we r all shattered #i wish she knew how loved she was and how much she meant to people before all of this #i thought it would annoy me seeing randoms come out of the wood work but it doesn't #what dOES is everyone being like now WE have to stay in contact #i hope they dnt mean it #esp my foster parents we had to contact them ofc even tho we've been out of care for the 20 - 15 yrs #and theyre so religious and they were telling us abt their own kids and how theyre pastors and ambassadors now #and its just like . buddy i lay in my bed and i plan to for the rest of my life #my brothers doing good w his life but i am noT a success story #n i cant bare them trying i know they mean well but itsss overrrrrr for meeeeeeee #the waiting abt for everything is killing me too #im gonna try and distract myself today rbing silly little pics on here feels wrong but i rly do use tumblr to like. soothe myself lol #every time smth bad has happened in the past ive been on here just rbing as normal even if i was full on sobbing #its my brothers birthday today too so im still gonna try and make it nice for him #idk how but im gonna try

[scattered-winter]

hoo boy today was a Bad Day huh :]

#im so fucking tired #apparently i cant fucking be a good sibling to my brother like. at all #because apparently he thinks i HATE him?!?!?!? im just. really really upset about that rn #because my siblings are the only people on this planet who i KNOW i would jump in front of a bullet for #i fucking. i cant even form words on how much i love them #and the thought that one of them thinks i hate him genuinely distresses me so much ive been crying for the past half hour #hhh and now i feel like im just being Dramatic #i want to stop feeling emotions <3<3 #i need to talk to my brother and work this out but like. #talking about emotions is something my family Doesn't Do. we never have and never will #there's a reason why i relate to the batfam btw. like. a legitimate reason. #but yeah i need to figure out how to Not lock everything im feeling down and have a chat w my brother #and somehow put into words that he (and my other siblings) are the only people i love more than anything else #like. i love my friends and mutuals ofc #but for my siblings it's...Different #i love them with everything in my fucking soul #and i cant SAY that because i dont know HOW when nobody in my family has ever talked abt emotions to each other #my dad told me he was proud of me today and i legit almost started crying #thats the first time i can remember where he's said that #my family is just like the batfam fr [derogatory] #anywayyyyyyyy #gonna cry myself to sleep and then completely shut down everything emotion-based in the morning like always ✨✨✨ #winter speaks