#we yearn like (wo)men!

[ferrettooth]

Tell me of your heart and I'll give you a (tragic) love archetype and some advice

#uquiz link #uquiz time bc i cant sleep and dread is keeping me up rn #might re-work this in the morning but for now...for now we raw dog the possible spelling errors and delirious yearning #we yearn like (wo)men! #this is about love! love? #personality quiz #quizzes #quiz #love #archetypes #idk man #personal #tw? idk

[bookoformon]

2 Nephi Chapter 15. "The Vineyard- Taken Away."

The Lord’s vineyard (Israel) will become desolate, and His people will be scattered—Woes will come upon them in their apostate and scattered state—The Lord will lift an ensign and gather Israel—Compare Isaiah 5. About 559–545 B.C.

We are still revisiting the Tanakh, looking for signs that history has paid attention to the words of the Prophet Isaiah who stated "door to door oppression" was not a hallmark of a Godly people.

This was way back in 800 BCE just over 3,000 years ago. The Book of Mormon was published in 1830 just before the Civil War was declared by President Lincoln to put a stop to it, and now we are back once again to nursing a nation through a time when State Power is being used against American citizens by their own government, at the behest of zealots. Senator Graham's recent testing of the water regarding the modification of marriage rights in order to oppress African Americans and please religious conservatives is a good example.

To misrepresent religion as an incentive to use the State to bludgeon its subjects is called apostasy.

The cure? Plant one, of course. That Isaiah...went pretty deep didn't he?

1 aAnd then will I sing to my well-beloved a song of my beloved, touching his vineyard. My well-beloved hath a vineyard in a very fruitful hill.

2 And he fenced it, and gathered out the stones thereof, and planted it with the choicest avine, and built a tower in the midst of it, and also made a wine-press therein; and he looked that it should bring forth grapes, and it brought forth wild grapes.

3 And now, O inhabitants of Jerusalem, and men of Judah, judge, I pray you, betwixt me and my vineyard.

4 What could have been done more to my vineyard that I have not done in it? Wherefore, when I looked that it should bring forth grapes it brought forth wild grapes.

5 And now go to; I will tell you what I will do to my vineyard—I will atake away the hedge thereof, and it shall be eaten up; and I will break down the wall thereof, and it shall be trodden down;

6 And I will lay it waste; it shall not be pruned nor digged; but there shall come up abriers and thorns; I will also command the clouds that they brain no rain upon it.

7 For the avineyard of the Lord of Hosts is the house of Israel, and the men of Judah his pleasant plant; and he looked for bjudgment, and behold, coppression; for righteousness, but behold, a cry.

8 Wo unto them that join house to house, till there can be no place, that they may be placed alone in the midst of the earth!

9 In mine ears, said the Lord of Hosts, of a truth many houses shall be desolate, and great and fair cities without inhabitant.

The joining of many houses in untruth and delusion, AKA Fox News and the fundamentalist religions and politics it speaks for do indeed create desolate cities that are incapable of supporting their yearning inhabitants as we have seen...

10 Yea, ten acres of vineyard shall yield one abath, and the seed of a homer shall yield an ephah.

=the Ten Decrees shall yield the 7 weeks X 7 Days= 49 or one "mikveh" or a baptism, but the seed of a homer "a captive talker" will yield a sin.

11 Wo unto them that rise up early in the morning, that they may afollow strong drink, that continue until night, and bwine inflame them!

In the Torah we read that Noah planted a vineyard after the Flood. He had good intentions, our Sages tell us, for the world was a dismal and sad place after the Flood, and Noah wanted to bring some cheer into the world. Unfortunately, he drank too much wine and came to trouble. King Solomon warned us against overindulgence in wine drinking. Said he, "Wine is a mocker, strong drink enrages; and whoever indulges therein is not wise" (Proverbs 20:1), and again, "Look not upon the wine when it is red, when it gives its color in the cup. ..in the end it bites like a serpent, and stings like an adder" (ibid 23:31-32).

12 And the harp, and the viol, the tabret, and pipe, and wine are in their feasts; but they regard not the work of the Lord, neither consider the operation of his hands.

=Religious rites that do not properly pay homage to the God of Israel or unveil all the wonderful things He does for us. Compliance is not the same as paying homage.

13 Therefore, my people are gone into captivity, because they have no knowledge; and their honorable men are famished, and their multitude dried up with thirst.

14 Therefore, hell hath enlarged herself, and opened her mouth without measure; and their glory, and their multitude, and their pomp, and he that rejoiceth, shall descend into it.

15 And the mean man shall be abrought down, and the bmighty man shall be humbled, and the eyes of the clofty shall be humbled.

16 But the Lord of Hosts shall be exalted in ajudgment, and God that is holy shall be sanctified in righteousness.

17 Then shall the lambs feed after their manner, and the waste places of the afat ones shall strangers eat.

18 Wo unto them that draw iniquity with cords of avanity, and sin as it were with a cart rope;

19 That say: Let him amake speed, bhasten his work, that we may csee it; and let the counsel of the Holy One of Israel draw nigh and come, that we may know it.

20 Wo unto them that acall bevil good, and good evil, that put cdarkness for light, and light for darkness, that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!

21 Wo unto the awise in their own eyes and bprudent in their own sight!

22 Wo unto the mighty to drink awine, and men of strength to mingle strong drink;

23 Who justify the wicked for areward, and take away the righteousness of the righteous from him!

24 Therefore, as the afire devoureth the bstubble, and the flame consumeth the cchaff, their droot shall be rottenness, and their blossoms shall go up as dust; because they have cast away the law of the Lord of Hosts, and edespised the word of the Holy One of Israel.

25 Therefore, is the aanger of the Lord kindled against his people, and he hath stretched forth his hand against them, and hath smitten them; and the hills did tremble, and their carcasses were torn in the midst of the streets. For all this his anger is not turned away, but his hand is stretched out still.

26 And he will lift up an aensign to the bnations from far, and will hiss unto them from the cend of the earth; and behold, they shall dcome with speed swiftly; none shall be weary nor stumble among them.

27 None shall slumber nor sleep; neither shall the girdle of their loins be loosed, nor the latchet of their shoes be broken;

28 Whose arrows shall be sharp, and all their bows bent, and their horses’ hoofs shall be counted like flint, and their wheels like a whirlwind, their roaring like a lion.

29 They shall roar like young alions; yea, they shall roar, and lay hold of the prey, and shall carry away safe, and none shall deliver.

30 And in that aday they shall roar against them like the roaring of the sea; and if they look unto the land, behold, darkness and sorrow, and the light is darkened in the heavens thereof.

[cirilla-fiona-riannon]

Ikevamp Act 2.5

Chapter 2

Comte: “Alright, everyone. Let’s start the welcoming party for Mitsuki.”

Comte: "Here's to another magical and fateful encounter."

We clink our glasses on cue with Comte's voice.

The room is beautifully decorated, and the table is lined with sumptuous dishes that one can hardly take one's eyes off.

Mitsuki: "They all look delicious. And there are so many dishes I didn't know existed!"

Vincent: "This is Erwtensoep. It's a popular dish in the Netherlands, where Theo and I were born."

Mozart: "This one is schnitzel, a Viennese specialty. It's made from tender veal. You should try it."

Dazai: "Looks like we're in for a diverse dining experience tonight."

Sebastian: "Since this is a rare occasion, I asked for everyone's recommendations for local cuisine and prepared them."

Apparently, Sebastian spearheaded the feast with some of the skillful cooks in the group.

Mitsuki: "Mm... Yeah. It's so good!"

Isaac: "Napoleon made that dish. He really can do anything."

Jean: "I wanted to help too, but they took me off cooking duty for some reason..."

Vincent: "Me too...."

Vincent: "But if there's a next time, we'll do our best to cook so we can make you smile as well."

Mitsuki: "You already did a great job preparing other stuff besides cooking."

(And thanks to that, the kitchen is safe! And above all...)

Mitsuki: "Your feelings are properly conveyed, so don’t worry about it. Thank you."

Vincent: "I'm glad. Smiling really suits you."

Mozart: "Well, to be honest, I think Sebas made the right decision in taking you two off the cooking duty this time."

Mozart shrugs his shoulders and smiles secretly.

While savoring the delicious food, everyone naturally engages in conversation.

(I kind of like this kind of atmosphere)

Leonardo: "What's the matter, Cara mia? You've been smiling for a while now."

Mitsuki: "Hehe, I'm having so much fun. I just couldn't stop smiling."

Mitsuki: "Besides, everyone here was born in different times and different countries."

Mitsuki: "It's strange that we're sitting around a dinner table together, but I think it’s wonderful."

Mitsuki: "We have vampires and humans here, but..."

I was told at first that it's essentially a predator-prey relationship, but living under the same roof made me forget about such boundaries.

Mitsuki: "When I'm with everyone, I feel that we can connect with each other no matter who we are."

Leonardo: “Vampires, humans, anyone, huh?”

With a small nod, Leonardo looks around him.

His amber eyes seem to be gazing and yearning into something dazzling...

Leonardo: "These guys here have lived out their lives at least once. Even if they have lingering regrets."

Leonardo: "When Comte said he was going to bring back such great men to life, I had some reservations, but..."

(Right. Everyone came back to life because of unfinished business in their first life.)

I heard that they were guided by Comte between life and death to accept a contract to become a vampire by choice.

There must have been some unresolved past or conflict that I didn't know about―enough for them to choose a second life even if they stopped being human.

Leonardo: "If their past regrets can become a means to live, then I have no right to tell them what to choose."

Leonardo: "Besides, even if it's just temporary, for Comte, we're family now. It's not bad that the mansion has become livelier."

(Family, huh...)

I'm secretly glad to be accepted as a member of it.

Napoleon: "Here, Mitsuki. The food here is delicious too, so eat as much as you can."

Mitsuki: "Napoleon, I can't eat that much all at once...!"

Flustered by the string of food recommendations, Napoleon smiles wryly.

(Come to think of it, Napoleon is the only one who hasn't signed a contract with Comte.)

That's what I heard when I first came to the mansion.

~~~~~~~~Flashback~~~~~~~~

Napoleon: "I used to be a soldier and fought for a cause I believed in. I have no regrets about that past."

Napoleon: "I was supposed to have died on St. Helena Island, but when I woke up, I found myself in this mansion, without a contract with Comte."

Napoleon: "I personally don’t know why I came back from the dead and why I'm still alive."

~~~~~~Flashback Ends~~~~~~

Napoleon says that although he has gained a life equal to eternity, there's still a part of him that is still human.

Just like me, he gets hungry and needs to eat. Apparently, his body is a cross between a human and a vampire, so to speak.

(How in the world did that happen?)

(It's as if Napoleon is also at the mercy of an invisible fate...)

Napoleon: "Hm? What's the matter? You've been staring for a while now.."

Mitsuki: "Oh, no. It's nothing."

I turned my attention back to the pleasant meal and conversation.

After a while, footsteps approached the room, and someone appeared.

Shakespeare: "Good day, everyone. Thank you for having me here tonight."

Shakespeare: "Sorry for the delay. If I may, I would like to address tonight's guest of honor."

Shakespeare: "Mitsuki, I heard from Comte what happened. Please do not be discouraged by this strange fate."

Mitsuki: "T-Thank you..."

As I accept the bouquet offered to me, he takes my hand in a flowing gesture and places a kiss on it.

This refined behavior caught me off guard.

Theodorus: "Hmph... You're really creepy, you know that?"

Shakespeare: "Oh, it's just common courtesy for a lady. As usual, you're very hard on me."

Vincent: "Will, I'm glad you're here. Let's eat and talk a lot today, okay?"

Comte: "You can stay the night if you want. I'll prepare a room for you."

Shakespeare: "Vincent, Comte..."

Shakespeare: "The truth is, I've also been invited to a party tonight by one of my patrons."

Shakespeare: "It's a tempting invitation, but I just came to say hello. So if you'll please excuse me."

(Too bad. He even came all the way here with a bouquet of flowers.)

Mitsuki: "Thank you very much for today, Shakespeare. Please come back and visit us again soon!"

Shakespeare: "Aye, absolutely."

With a graceful smile, Shakespeare left the room. His back somehow looked lonely.

Dazai: "Well, time for some talent show. Isaac says he's going to break an apple with his bare hands."

Arthur: "Newt, that's amazing. You're making me fall in love with you all over again."

Isaac: "Ha!? Of course, I can't do that!"

As usual, they tease Isaac, and laughter fills the air.

Afterward, Mozart and Comte played the violin, while Theo seemed more than happy with Sebastian's special desserts. 

Then, the lively dinner party continued until late in the evening.

As Shakespeare exits the front door, he turns and looks up at the mansion where he once lived.

Shakespeare: "I am no longer the kind of man who can sit at a dinner table."

Shakespeare: "Even so, it was certainly unexpected. I never thought Mitsuki would stay in this period."

Murmuring to himself, Shakespeare pulls out a thick stack of notes from his pocket.

Shakespeare: "Are you perhaps a special cast, guided by fate?"

Shakespeare: "How would this story be different if I had cast you in my play?"

No one was there to answer his questions.

After getting my spirits up, thanks to everyone, my peaceful life at the mansion began again.

Mitsuki: "Good work, Arthur. I made you some coffee."

Arthur: "Hm, thanks. Mitsuki."

Arthur: "I'm a little tired, by the way. Will you let me relax with you?"

Mitsuki: "Relax? Do you want a massage?"

Arthur: "Pfft, you really have cute ideas sometimes, Mitsuki."

After bursting into laughter, Arthur takes off his glasses and looks at me from above.

Arthur: "If you're going to touch me, do it in a more naughty way. In bed, of course―"

Theodorus: "I'll tell Comte."

Arthur: "Ack! Don't get in my way, Theo."

Theo, dressed in a suit, stepped in between me and Arthur, who was closing in on me.

Theodorus: "Hey Hondje, don't leave too many openings. You already know how frivolous he is, don't you?"

Mitsuki: "I know exactly what you mean. Arthur is always like this."

Arthur: "Don't turn me down so easily. Seducing you is what I live for."

Mitsuki: "Your reason to live... Surely you didn't come back from the dead to make out with a girl, right?"

Arthur: "It's totally to flirt with girls."

Theodorus: "............................."

(You say it like that, but...)

He looks at the trash can next to his desk, where several rolled-up manuscript papers were thrown in.

(At first, I thought Arthur was just a frivolous playboy.)

(But when he's working on a novel, he's so engaged in it that he doesn't care if his rhythm of life goes haywire.)

(He even research his stuff and revise it over and over again...)

He may always seem carefree in front of others, but when he's working on a novel, Arthur puts on a serious face that he doesn't show to anyone else.

When I think about it, I wonder if he came back to life to write...

Arthur: "So, Theo, are you going to work now?"

Theodorus: "Yeah. There's an up-and-coming painter I'm going to see."

(Theo is just as serious about his work.)

As an art dealer, Theo supports painters to let their buried talents shine through.

The first of these is his brother Vincent.

(I've heard that Van Gogh as a painter was not well regarded during his lifetime.)

(I wonder if Theo decided to come back to life, this time, to promote Vincent's paintings.)

Refraining from prying, I thought about the aspects of their lives together that I had come to see.

Arthur: "Well, have a good day at work, Theo. Mitsuki, you're going to have to take a break with me."

Mitsuki: "Huh? I thought we were done talking about that?"

Theodorus: "You never learn, do you?"

Arthur: "It's true that I want to seduce her. Hey, Mitsuki, why don't we go on a date sometime?"

Arthur: "The World Fair will be starting soon in Paris."

Sebastian: "Oh! I like that!"

3 of Us: "Waah~! Sebastian!?"

Suddenly, Sebastian bursts in.

Sebastian: "I apologize. Mitsuki didn't come back for a while, so I came to check on her."

Sebastian: "Then, I heard a topic that caught my attention, so I just got excited."

Mitsuki: "You mean the World Fair?"

Sebastian nodded vigorously.

Sebastian: "It's a dream festival that brings together culture, art, and cutting-edge technology from around the world."

Sebastian: "And this time it's in Paris, so how could I miss it?"

Theodorus: "Yeah, I'm looking forward to the Expo too. I'll be able to see some Japanese paintings and..."

Theodorus: "The paintings that have been ignored by the Academy will also be on display this time around."

Mitsuki: "Oh yeah! Good for you, Theo."

Sebastian: "To be able to experience this historic event live, in person, with my own eyes... VIVA TIME SLIP!!"

Not exaggerating or anything, but Sebastian is overcome with emotion.

(Sebastian is a former historian. So expectations for the event are bound to be high.)

Sebastian: "Comte is also helping the host organization. When the Expo starts, let's all bring a packed lunch!"

Mitsuki: "Hehe, sounds like a field trip."

Arthur: "Ehhh... I'd rather be alone with Mitsuki."

Aside from Arthur's grumbling, we had a lot of fun talking about the upcoming World's Fair...

Comte: "Then I'll arrange the admission ticket for you on that day."

Comte said this when I told him about the World's Fair while helping him open a letter he received from a nobleman.

Mitsuki: "Really? Thank you very much. I'm looking forward to it now!"

Comte: "By the way, did you know that the venue for the first World's Fair was called the Crystal Palace."

(I think Sebastian told me that the first one was held in 1851.)

Comte talks about decades-old events as if they were yesterday.

In fact, from the perspective of an immortal vampire, it might as well be yesterday.

Comte: "But you know, the fun of the Expo is not only in the exhibits. People from all over the world gather there as well."

Comte: "Meeting people who have lived under distant skies, talking to them, experiencing unknown cultures and values..."

Comte: "Isn't it exciting?"

Comte's eyes mischievously sparkle as he talks.

Mitsuki: "Hehe, you really love to attend social gatherings like this and interact with people."

Comte: "I guess you're right. Being involved with humans allows me to be exposed to a wide range of emotions: joy, sorrow, and sometimes desire."

Comte: "To me, that makes me feel human and alive."

Comte: "When you live forever, sometimes you get tired of life..."

Comte: "I find people with different facets and possibilities beautiful."

Comte's eyes momentarily waver as if he is looking back at something far away, but he quickly turns his gaze back to me and smiles.

(Both Leonardo and Comte's eyes are filled with emotion when they talk about human beings.)

It's like they're looking fondly at something ephemeral like they're yearning for life.

(I usually forget when I'm with them, but I wonder what humans are like for immortal purebloods...)

As I was pondering this, Comte gently placed his hand over mine.

Comte: "Mitsuki, I know that due to unforeseen circumstances, you had to stay here in the 19th century, but..."

Comte: "Please, don't let this get to you. I hope you enjoy and make some wonderful connections during your stay."

Mitsuki: "Yes. Thank you."

Every time I come here to buy groceries, I see the town becoming even livelier day by day.

(Maybe it's because the World's Fair is coming, but I feel like there are more people in Paris now.)

I saw craftsmen preparing the venue, tourists who seemed to be on a sightseeing tour, and at one point, I even saw a group of people dressed in unusual ethnic costumes.

(It's so exciting, it's like a festival!)

With a lighthearted feeling, I walked around, looking here and there when...

Mitsuki: "Kyaa~!"

???: "Oops."

Mitsuki: "Oh my God! I'm so sorry!"

I quickly apologized after crashing into someone's back, and the moment I looked up, I saw...

(Crimson eyes that seem to pull you in.)

The person with the frighteningly beautiful features caught my eyes, and we stared at each other as if time had stopped...

Man with crimson eyes: "You..."

Man with crimson eyes: "Have we met somewhere before?"

Dear Mitsuki,

I got messages for you from all of us. I'll start first. I'm glad you enjoyed the welcoming party. When you look happy... I don't know why, but it makes me happy too.

―Napoleon

If you have any problems, talk to us. We need you to keep laughing and smiling... otherwise, you'll set the rest of the world off.

―Mozart

Relax those shoulders once in a while, Cara mia. We're always on your side. We'll protect you no matter what.

―Leonardo

I think I'm going to seriously start seducing you. Let's have a game to see who can make the other one fall in love first, shall we?

―Arthur

Pleased to see you again, Mitsuki. I've always wanted to paint a picture of you. Maybe you could model for me sometime?

―Vincent

I'm looking forward to teasing you yet again. I'll even let you help me with my business if you're interested, Hondje.

―Theodorus

Toshiko-san, would you like to go to the casino sometime? Or would you prefer a bar? I'll teach you some fun games to keep you occupied.

―Dazai

I don't know what kind of message to write, but I don't hate living with you. So... let's keep in touch as friends.

―Isaac

Lately, I feel like I'm missing something when I don't see you. Maybe it's because you're an irreplaceable part of this mansion.

―Jean

Maybe you're a special cast guided by fate? What kind of story will you weave in the future?

―Shakespeare

I'm glad I can spend more time with you in the future. You're already a part of my family.

―Count Saint-Germain

It's surprisingly fun to have a time-slip companion with me. I look forward to working with you as a colleague.

―Sebastian

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[a-libra-writes]

How the GoT Characters React To You Being Very Affectionate

So the original request was “HCs for characters being touch starved” and I dont think all of them would be necessarily so I kinda just did this? Sorry to that anon lol I did my best. we are slooowly working through the GoT request pile

In this preference, you’ll be doting on: Ned Stark, Robb Stark, Sansa Stark, Jon Snow, Benjen Stark, Jory Cassel, Dolorous Edd, Mance Rayder, Tormund Giantsbane, Theon Greyjoy, Yara Greyjoy, Daenerys Targaryen, Jorah Mormont, Missandei, Grey Worm, Tywin Lannister, Tyrion Lannister, Jaime Lannister, Sandor Clegane, Bronn, Podrick Payne, Petyr Baelish, Stannis Baratheon, Davos Seaworth, Margaery Tyrell, Brynden Tully, Edmure Tully, Brienne of Tarth, Ramsay Bolton, Roose Bolton, Oberyn Martell, Beric Dondarrion, Gendry

NED STARK

Initially, your affections and sweetness were a little overwhelming for him. He wasn’t used to such attention, but he really didn’t mind them. Even when he teased you about being so close and touchy in front of all his bannermen, he wouldn’t change it about you. Ned’s favorite thing is when you’d find him in the middle of the day and touch his face to reassure him, he liked to lean into your hand and enjoy your touch before he had to return to his duties. You had a feeling that Ned was only nervous about it at first because he was being bashful, but once he was comfortable, he loved the evenings when you sat in his lap and freely kissed and touched him.  

ROBB STARK

Robb loves how open you are about affection and he feels so, so lucky that the gods gave him such a sweet wife. While he has to maintain his "strict" lordly facade when speaking to his men and other lords, he's more than relieved to melt into your touch at the end of the day. Whenever you’re by his side, holding his arm and beaming, he’s so proud and in love that he doesn’t even notice the eye rolling whenever you kiss his cheek or his hand. It honestly helps Robb get through the weight of the war and he sees you as a source of strength, rather than a weakness, as many less worthy lords would think.

SANSA STARK

Back when she first met you, Sansa loved how unashamed you were of affection. Some in court may see it as weakness, but still today she sees it as proof of your great compassion. Your touches and hugs comforted her greatly when you were friends, and when you became lovers, your soft words and kisses are just what she needed to bolster her spirit and be strong. Sansa takes great amusement in the fact you both can hold hands, sit close and whisper to each other and the court writes it off as "just close friends". She's happy and grateful to have such an affectionate, romantic partner, and she tells you often. Sometimes it’s difficult for her to return those honest gestures, but she knows you understand.

JON SNOW

Jon was completely flustered at first; even if it was a quick hug and kiss, he’d get red and stumble out whatever he was saying. At first he thought it was just because you were a girl, and he didn’t have much experience with those, but even just simple touches like holding his hand or brushing his messy hair out of his face would get his heart beating. Jon would realize that he’d never had so much attention and concern before, and while he liked it very much, he’d have a few moments of total surprise before happily returning the affection, albeit clumsily. Sometimes when you’re just holding his hand while talking, he’ll get distracted and grin at your connected hands, amazed he’s so lucky to have found someone like you at a place like this.

BENJEN STARK

Benjen adores this part of your personality, and he always takes it a step further just to tease you. Other times he’ll hold you close and not want to let you, giving you a taste of his own naturally affectionate nature. He’s glad you both are compatible like this, since there are times when you can’t see each other for a long time, and he loves that you’re just as willing to make up for lost time. Whenever you both have a long time alone, good luck being apart from him - aside from intimacy, he likes just having you in his lap or leaning on him. Tease him for being clingy all you want, he just gestures to your arms around him and says, “Well, that makes us a perfect match, doesn’t it?”

JORY CASSEL

While it initially flustered him to no end and took him off guard more than once, Jory easily adapted to your touches. He was glad you loved him that much, and you weren’t afraid to show it. Sometimes … okay, really often, he’s gently teased for it by his uncle and the other guards, but he wouldn’t change you at all. When Jory is feeling more bold he’ll return the light kisses, regardless of whose around. He’ll let you hug and touch and kiss to your heart’s content when you both are alone, and before long he’s total putty in your hands and will do whatever you please.

EDDISON TOLLETT

It always made him nervous when you’d take his hand to get his attention, or when you stood so close, which was often. Edd used to chalk it up to you being a girl, and from a better family, besides… But once you two were alone more and spent time together, he realized you were just a naturally touchy, affectionate person. Eventually he realized his nerves were from a damn crush. Before you were officially together, he watched you carefully, hoping you weren’t giving so many sweet touches to your other friends (you weren’t, and that’s what gave him the courage to talk with you about his feelings… that, and Sam all but shoved him to do it). Edd totally relishes in your affection, as he’s been lacking it in for years.

MANCE RAYDER

Mance enjoys how sweet you are, and thinks it’s amusing that such a young woman would want to lavish her kisses and touches on an old former crow like him. He always indulges you and even during meetings, he’ll let you sit as close as you want. Once you both are alone, he takes comfort in how easily you fit in his lap and how you rest your head against his chest. It gives him a warm feeling, one that feels like home … Something he hadn’t felt so strongly in a while. His favorite thing is when you doze off next to him, as nothing helps him think through his plans better than your scent and softness. 

TORMUND GIANTSBANE

Oh, Tormund can’t get enough of you, and he’s delighted that you’re just the same. He thinks this just further proves how perfect you are for each other, and he’ll say it loud and proud as he holds you up in his arms and spins you around. Yes, the other tribes are exhausted with you two and find you nauseating … but the last man who complained had two punches to dodge. Tormund especially likes that it isn’t just lustful touches and looks; he adores that you’ll kiss and hold him just because you want to, for no reason other than you’re in love. Everyone knows when he’s thinking about it because he grins like a dork and seems lost in his own world.

THEON GREYJOY

At first, he’d always use your frequent touches as a way to brag to Robb and Jon about how you prefer him. You were flirting, obviously, and you must have wanted to be with him. The thing he didn’t tell them is how much you puzzled him, because your touches were so … kind. Gentle, even, when you brushed a leaf out of his hair or took his hand to look at a cut. He didn’t know what to do, and his usual ego was no help. He’d never been cared for so gently like that. Your kisses were worse because they gave him such a foreign, fluttery feeling, he thought he was getting sick, yet he kept yearning for it. You’d be able to get past Theon’s usual bragging and discover an amusing, needy side as he’d follow you around, almost waiting for you to hug or touch him again.

YARA GREYJOY

On one hand, Yara has her tough captain’s reputation to maintain, so she has little patience if you have a need for her while she’s working. She can’t be seen accepting your kisses and hugs, no matter how much she yearns for them. She understands you might be hurt by this, but she’d hope you’d understand. Besides, she more than makes up for it later in the evening. Even if Yara might consider you needy, there is a comfort in how readily you give your affection and how much you enjoy touching her. She can’t remember having a partner who kissed her so sweetly, not just lustfully, and of course her family didn’t give her so much reassurance. Her appreciation for it only increases when she’s drunk, because you’re going to sit in her lap and there will be no escape, so touch and kiss however you like, she’ll just laugh and go along with it.

DAENERYS TARGARYEN

When she was in the throne room, carrying her heavy queenly persona, Daenerys couldn’t afford to glance your way and seem distracted. Once there was finally a chance to be alone together, Daenerys just soaked up the affection you gave her. She loved that no matter what terrible thing happened to you, your nature stayed loving and doting. She admired that. When her duties felt like too much, she relished in being able to curl up in your arms and feeling your fingers run through her hair. She makes sure you feel loved too, of course, but she’s so grateful you let her be selfish now and again and just take up all your attention. She often tells you what you mean to her, and anyone can see the way she looks at you.

JORAH MORMONT

Oh, poor sweet Jorah. He’s so overwhelmed by the affection at first, it completely distracts him from what he’s doing, even if all you’re doing is coming up behind him for a surprise hug and kiss. He leans into your touches so eagerly and it confuses you, because wasn’t he married once or twice? Still, it’s cute how weak you can get him, and you definitely take advantage when you’re teasing him or trying to get his attention. In the evenings, Jorah will waste little time in pulling you into his lap and muttering how sweet you are and how much he adores you, usually making the affection lead into something more. More than once you two end up getting lost in your own world and forget who's around you; only to be reminded by the Dothraki whooping and laughing. Truthfully, Jorah is very happy that you’re just as doting in public are you are in private. 

MISSANDEI

Your closeness and touches made her heart flutter and her hands get clammy, and it confused her at first. She’d be touched inappropriately, always against her will, but you always asked before you held her hand or hugged her. You were always so warm, and you smelled nice, and why were you hugging her, anyway? Missandei liked it more than she wanted to admit, but she wondered why. Once Jorah and Daenerys gave her enough hints, and you finally gave your confession, she realized she hadn’t been touched so sweetly and innocently before. Even after you’ve been together for a while, it’s the gentle cuddles and chaste touches that Missandei likes best. You don’t miss how she nuzzles against you when you cradle her against your chest.

GREY WORM

When you first took his hand as he escorted you through the market, you thought you overstepped your bounds. He just stared at your entwined hands, not even noticing the bustling activity around him. There were other times when you’d hold his face while cleaning a wound on his cheek, or sit close to him at a meeting table, and you could swear he stopped breathing. Grey Worm never told you to keep away, but he also looked so much like a caught animal that you felt bad. In truth it made Grey Worm so nervous when you touched him, and he hadn’t the slightest idea of how to react. No one else did this to him, and you rarely did the same to others as far as he observed. Finally Missandei noticed his palpable confusion and helped him work out his feelings. When you two are together, Grey Worm never denies the affection you want to give, though sometimes he’s clearly startled or confused by it. He slowly begins to return it on his own terms, squeezing your hand back, resting against your shoulder, or gently touching your back as you two walk. It takes time, but you slowly get to see his shoulders relax and a soft smile appear on his face. 

TYWIN LANNISTER

As anyone would have expected of this man, he’s clearly proud to have you on his arm during social gatherings. You’ll sit close at the dais, sometimes leaning in closer to whisper something to him. The whole of the court gossips about your relationship enough, and you give them plenty of material with your affections. Tywin stays passive, although after a while he began to brush your hair aside and stroke your hand. Privately he continues to tell himself it’s for show and means nothing. That works until you both are intimate or enjoying a rare moment of peace together and he finds himself wanting you to stay close. He lets you cuddle close and kiss and touch, denying how much it affects him to the very end. It’s bad enough he has to contend with your wit and schemes during the day, he doesn’t need more reasons to become attached to you.

TYRION LANNISTER

Tyrion drinks in your affection like a man crawling in a desert; you figured that out quickly. You figured he was a naturally kind and loving person, and he was clearly taken with you, and you wouldn’t deny him the affection that came naturally to you. After a while you began to see how much he depended on it, how much he needed it. In private you gave him all he wanted - sometimes he still struggled to ask for it openly, you so took the lead - and in public you had to be careful. Not just because the court found your marriage a great joke and it was exhausting to deal with their gossip, but because it distracted Tyrion so much when you held his hand and gave him a simple kiss during a feast. He’d never grow tired of your attention and would tell you again and again how much he adored you for it.

JAIME LANNISTER

He relishes how affectionate you are and returns it tenfold, and more often than not ends up getting turned on and wants to take it further. While you’re fine with that, sometimes you just want to express your love. It doesn’t have to lead to anything more. Jaime was confused by this when you explained it - he tried to think back when someone kissed his cheek, stroked his hair or hugged him … just because they loved him. He especially needed that love and attention when he came back from the Dreadfort, and didn’t feel at all foolish asking for it, but he rarely needed you. You just always knew when to hold him, as if he needed more reasons to love you even more.

SANDOR CLEGANE

The first time you held his face to bring him closer, he flinched like it hurt. You noticed he was more willing to accept your touches when you were in bed together, and even then, his rough pace would slow and falter as you kissed him and brought him closer. To say Sandor was unused to affection is an understatement; he hated the panicky, anxious feeling it gave him, and his instant thought was to push you away when it happened. The feeling wasn’t a welcome one, but your touch and warmth was, so needless to say just simple touches gave him a mix of feelings. He tries to be gruff, but as time goes on he starts to just lean and melt into you, especially when you both are alone. He doesn’t want to ask for it, but you can tell he’s yearning when he sits around just staring and sulking at you.

BRONN OF BLACKWATER

At first he brushed it off as you just being one of those silly women, and you’d get tired of doting on him eventually. He thought you were trying to get something from him, but he didn’t have much to offer a lady besides the bed, which you weren’t always trying to get in. It confused Bronn when you kept doing this, and he denied himself how much the attention began to affect him. He started to get used to them, to want them, and he overcame these weird feelings by pulling you to his lap and trying to initiate something deeper. Pretty soon Bronn couldn’t deny what your affection meant, and began working out a way to tell you that you ought to do better than him. It was for himself as much as you, he wasn’t ready for this, but then you’d wrap your arms around him and the thoughts quickly left his head.

PODRICK PAYNE

You had to be careful when you were sweet on him and where, because the poor boy would redden to his ears and try to stammer something, if he could manage words at all. You thought it was cute that even after knowing each other for so long, Pod never got used to your affectionate nature. Sometimes when he’s working he gets distracted thinking about you, leading to him spacing out or making mistakes. Once you’re together, he begins to slowly gain confidence, although you’re still the one who usually initiates things first. Holding your hand or arm while you two take walks is his favorite, he feels all his anxiety slowly melt away.

PETYR BAELISH

Oh, he can’t hide how much he adores your attention. He tries to keep his cool, but the more you lean on him and look up through those pretty lashes, the less Petyr can resist giving you whatever you please. In private, he can’t keep himself from pulling you closer to keep encouraging you. All you need to do is act your usual, sweet self and you have him wrapped around your finger. When you both are intimate, his greediness is even more evident, he wants your hands on him and sometimes he even trembles from all the attention. Sometimes he breathlessly asks you not to tease him so much, but you know he wouldn’t have it any other way.

STANNIS BARATHEON

He hadn’t the slightest idea of what to do. You noticed that right away when he flinched anytime you expressed your affection. You outright asked Stannis if you should stop, and it’s not that he hated it, it was just… It was so new, he wasn’t sure how to react. It was difficult to dial back your naturally affectionate nature, but you did, taking things slower. Gradually Stannis began to enjoy the attention and return it in his own way, and he let you be as clingy and sweet as you wanted when you were intimate. He couldn't express it well with words, but he began to look forward to your embrace and anxiously yearn for your presence whenever he had to travel. Whenever you stood by his side during meetings, close enough that your shoulders brushed and he could feel your warmth, he’d feel a distinct sense of security and confidence. 

DAVOS SEAWORTH

Davos finds you incredibly endearing, and he’s always considered himself lucky to have you, but he’s not always sure if he deserves your affections. You have so much of it, and he often wonders if you ought to be giving it to a younger man of a better station. Of course anytime he has these thoughts, you’re right there to reassure him and make sure he knows there’s no one else for you. He “scolds” you for being cheeky whenever you show affection in public, but in private he lets you do whatever you please. He can’t get enough of your cuddles in the evening and how you just curl under his touch, he thinks he might be the luckiest man alive.

MARGAERY TYRELL

Oh, Margaery thinks you’re just a doll. She loves teasing you about it, but she’s the one who pushes things and sees how much you two can get away with. The court assumes you’re just “good friends”, although her grandmother has given her plenty of scoldings about the rumors floating around Highgarden. Margaery loves being spoiled by your attention and often waits expectantly for a kiss or hug - you can get back at her by “forgetting” and walking past her. If she had her way, you’d be draped around her all day, fawning over her and she’d give you sweet praises and pets in return. No, this mental image is not awakening anything in her, don’t ask. 

BRYNDEN TULLY

The old knight thought he was too old for things like this, which is to say, a beautiful lady doting on him and wanting his affection. For a short while he thought you should give your attention to someone else, but as the relationship went on, he felt like an idiot for thinking that at all. When you hold and kiss him, Brynden just melts into the warmth and comfort. He loves the more gentle touches you have, like when you hold his face as you kiss him or rest against his chest and curl up in his lap. Half the time he can’t even make a jap about your neediness, because he feels he needs it just as much. He loves feeling your warm skin under his rough hands and it’s even better if you start getting hot and bothered from all his touching.

EDMURE TULLY

Edmure loves it because he’s just as absurdly affectionate and touchy feely, and it makes him giddy with happiness when you take his face in your hands and just hold him like that, you don’t even have to kiss him. All of Riverrun knows how sappy you both are and it’s both sweet and just sickening. Brynden can’t decide if he’s amused or annoyed by it and Catlyn just dies inside at the ‘impropriety’ of you two mooning over each other at dinner. You two have quite a reputation in the Riverlands for being such a loving couple, and the smallfolk adore you. 

BRIENNE OF TARTH

Your knight had such a strong reaction to your touches that you thought she hated it at first. You’d do something simple, like brush her hair out of her face to better see a bruise or hold her hand when speaking to her, and her face would go red as an apple. With great difficulty, Brienne finally explained that she didn’t hate it, she just … Well, she trailed off, but you could tell she felt like she didn’t deserve such attention. It’s worse once she realizes her feelings, she gets so flustered and starts to read into every action you take, wanting it to mean something, but positive that she was just projecting. You’d have to take the first step in confessing and reassuring her. 

RAMSAY BOLTON

He used to take advantage of this, grasping you when you came close to brush something off his tunic or fix his hair. As much as Ramsay’s clingy nature could be suffocating, you were always an affectionate person, and you felt it was all you’d get in the Dreadfort. However, you began to notice that he’d be off-put by your genuine concern and softer touches. Sometimes he’d just stare at you, trying to puzzle out why you were doing it. He didn’t think he disliked it, he wanted your attention all the time, it just gave him such a startling feeling. After a while you were able to calm Ramsay’s more unstable moods by just keeping hold on him and distracting him with touches. Whenever something pulled him away from the Dreadfort, he'd grow antsy with each passing day, both from wanting to be back in your arms and not understanding why he wanted it.

ROOSE BOLTON

Even if you weren’t pleased with the arranged marriage, you couldn’t help but hold Roose’s arm as you both walked, or gently touch him to get his attention. You steadily got a little bolder, because you noticed there was a brief, strange look in his cold eyes anytime you touched him. You knew he didn’t dislike it because when you slept together, he’d almost shudder as you ran your hands along his body. You began to figure out what made him pause the most, what he responded best to, and that’s how you could sway him - just by being considerate, comforting, and a little needy. It was always a surprise how such a cold man began to expect and want the attention, although Roose pretended he didn’t care. He was more honest about his feelings in private, expecting you to give him even more.

OBERYN MARTELL

Oberyn adores that you’re such a sweet and needy thing, and he teases you about it all the time - but you know he’s the same and he wouldn’t change you for anything. He doesn’t care whose in the room, he wants you in his lap and just beams with happiness when you lay your head on his chest or wrap your arms around him. Eventually Doran will please ask you two to reign yourselves in, at least during important dinners and meetings. It’d be up to you to dial it down, because Oberyn will stubbornly want to keep you on his lap or right by his side.

BERIC DONDARRION

While he was initially bashful, Beric quickly began to relish in your affection and seek it out, especially when the day’s events were hard on him. In the evening he loves nothing more than resting next to you, his arm around your waist or letting you sit in his lap. When it’s time to sleep, he feels so much more peaceful when your head is on his chest and he can pet your hair as he slowly dozes off. Beric tells you many times that he’s grateful for your sweetness and warmth, and he gets plenty of it, quietly worrying he’ll forget something one day.

GENDRY

The first time you took his hand to pull him back from running into someone, he nearly dropped what he was holding. You kept holding it as you two walked home, and he was praying you didn’t notice how sweaty his palm was. You were like this as long as he could remember, always giving him hugs and standing so close and holding his hand far beyond the age when you two should’ve stopped. It was never really anything you two discussed, because it was just who you were, and as much as it made him blush, he wouldn’t trade it for anything.

#game of thrones x reader #game of thrones preferences #game of thrones imagines #got x reader #got imagines #god its been more than a month since the last GoT pref im so sorry lol

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*sidles up to you* hey man, want a Magnus Archives rarepair? I’ve got one right here you can have for free. It’s Mordechai Lukas/Hezekiah Wakely. Here’s my sales pitch: 

Mordechai Lukas is only forty years old, but he’s in very poor health. Granted, he’s been on death’s door for several decades, having never fully recovered from the excision of a thyroid tumour - a surgery that scarred his throat significantly, making it hurt to speak. But this isn’t his usual moaning about feeling cold and depressed all the time. This is the doctor listening to the slow gurgle of his heart and telling him “you shouldn’t be alive. your days are numbered”.   

(cut for length)

And Mordechai’s honestly fine with dying. A little.... too enthusiastic, even. On his trip to Italy he forwent normal accommodation to break into and sleep in mausoleums, and he might have returned from the continent a little... haunted. He’s designed and redesigned the family mausoleum a dozen times, and he’s had his own funeral planned for years much to the chagrin of his friends. “What flowers should adorn my funerary wreath?” he writes to Jonah Magnus. “Can we please change the subject?” Jonah replies. “And I swear to the one above if you send me a memento mori I am throwing it in the fireplace.”

Mordechai’s fulfilled his life’s requirements -- he’s married into the wealthy mercantile class, fathered children, and spends most of his time either in a graveyard or wandering like a ghost through Moorland house. His wife, Charlotte, really only wanted a man’s name on her letterheads and spends most of her time on a ship somewhere between London and India. She’s only interested in her possessions, her wealth, in ensuring the books are balancing. Her family made their money in opium prospecting and she’s pressuring Mordechai to open the lands surrounding Moorland for coal mining after a few test bores unearthed rich black seams. Mordechai’s essentially like, “over my dead body,” and Charlotte’s like, “so any day now! :))))” and Mordechai’s sole reason for stubbornly clinging to life is to protect his family’s ancestral lands. 

Mordechai has to occasionally rub shoulders with Charlotte’s friends in the East India Shipping Company. Among them are the Beale brothers, Daniel and Thomas. They have a younger brother, rich but temperamentally unsuited for their family’s line of work. His name is Nathaniel Beale, and, oh boy, he is a treat. He’s awfully similar to Barnabas Bennett, shy and closeted and yearning. Nathaniel tells Mordechai all about his good friend Hezekiah, who he’s so, so worried about, who makes poor Nathaniel ache with hunger and longing and shame all the same. Finally, some delicious fucking food thinks Mordechai Lukas. 

But if this man really is like Barnabas, Mordechai wants to enjoy his demise. So he obtains Hezekiah’s address with a mind to murdering Hezekiah and relishing Nathaniel’s grief and loneliness. It might be Mordechai’s last communion with his god. 

And that’s how Mordechai ends up in a quiet countryside graveyard, staring at the man in a dead sleep at the bottom of an open grave. 

And hot damn Hezekiah Wakely is a sleeping beauty. Muscular, square, with hands big enough to circle both of Mordechai’s wrists if he were to pin Mordechai down. (And Mordechai would very much like someone to pin him down.) He almost feels sympathy for poor, repressed Nathaniel but nonetheless summons the fog of The Lonely and it swallows Hezekiah whole. 

But the crawling fog parts around the sleeping man. There is a certain solidness about him, the weight of someone touched by another power. Mordechai sighs in annoyance but keeps watching Hezekiah. Slipping away once the man blinks awake, stretches his long, tanned limbs. 

Mordechai keeps close company with the Beales after that. Nathaniel passes away in January of 1839. Mordechai finds his grave in yet another lonely graveyard and is absolutely delighted that many of Nathaniel’s sparse acquaintances have forgotten him already. 

Hezekiah is curled up on the freshly turned earth. “I should hang for it,” Hezekiah says. 

“How about a new job?” Mordechai says.

“I’m a murderer,” Hezekiah says. 

“Hold my beer,” Mordechai says.

Mordechai convinces Hezekiah to work as Moorland house’s groundskeeper. By the time the pair of them make it back to Kent, Hezekiah knows about The Buried, The Lonely, the whole wretched Lot. 

“You have a lovely mausoleum, sir,” Hezekiah says. 

“Shame no-one’s christened it yet,” Mordechai replies. (He plans to be the first.)

Time passes.

And Thomas Beale passes away in 1841. 

The Magnus Institute opens its London branch in 1841. 

Daniel Beale passes away in 1842. 

By 1843, the world has forgotten Nathaniel even existed. Except, of course, for Mordechai, who keeps Nathaniel and Hezekiah’s correspondence.  

Mordechai’s now spending 90% of his time watching Hezekiah. When one of Mordechai’s many faceless relatives dies, he sits on the steps of the family chapel as Hezekiah digs. He lets Hezekiah sleep in the grave before the burial. He likes how peaceful the man looks, even when the grave dirt falls in his eyes. He even thinks about burying Hezekiah himself, how that would be another kind of embrace. 

Hezekiah more often than not sleeps outside, on the moor, and when the weather drives him inside he sleeps fitfully in his room in the cellar. 

(Hezekiah sings when it rains, bitten-off, wordless, self-soothing melodies that sound like oncoming earthquakes through the thick walls of Moorland House.) 

(Mordechai listens to him sing and tries to harmonize, and, although the knot of scar tissue in his throat makes his voice sound like grinding metal, isn’t that something?) 

The next time Mordechai catches Hezekiah dourly shuffling to the basement for a restless night he snags the larger man’s wrist. 

“You might sleep better in my bed,” Mordechai says. 

“???” Hezekiah says. 

“Come to bed with me,” Mordechai repeats. 

“!!!!!” Hezekiah says. 

And, well, Hezekiah likes the pressure of Mordechai lying on top of him. Hezekiah is warm, and soft, like peat, and if Hezekiah’s hands snake up to circle Mordechai while he sleeps, then what about it? In Mordechai’s world, they can’t be together in any way that matters. It’s just another thing that isolates him from polite society. 

"The groundskeeper? The man who smells like a bog?” Charlotte says, but she’s relieved it’s not a mistress who might want to live more ambitiously, that they might have to keep a London townhouse for because Charlotte’s the one who’d be saddled with the fiscal responsibility. She’s already writing monthly cheques to buy the discretion of a certain J. Magnus.

And Charlotte has an idea. “Dear husband :)” she says. “If you don’t let me open a colliery I might expose your little affair and you’ll get thrown in jail and I don’t think you’d last very long, dear, with your poor heart :) and when you die I’ll do it anyway :) so how about it?”  

Charlotte never makes empty threats. But at the same time, Mordechai is connected to the lands around Moorland house in a very real way.  

He doesn’t really have a choice. 

Charlotte opens a mine on Lukas land. 

They have their first grandchild, a boy, and Mordechai names him Nathaniel. Hezekiah just smiles at the baby, warmly. (His smiles are so warm.) (Mordechai is spending more and more time at his bedroom window, watching his groundskeeper. Surrounded by bottles of medicine that never make him feel any better.) 

“Are you going to die?” Hezekiah says. 

“It’s likely,” Mordechai says. For no reason he can name, the prospect of his funeral no longer delights him. 

Hezekiah is silent. “I hope the Lord forgives me,” he says, eventually, and a tremor runs through the entire house, and Mordechai hears, far-off in the distance, the desperate peal of a ringing bell. 

An accident in the colliery, they call it. A mineshaft cave-in, trapping 26 men and boys 150 feet under the earth, running out of breathable air, scraping at the cold, unforgiving rock until their fingers and lungs bleed. Crushed and choking and feared enough to paint the walls with it. There’s a thin plume of black smoke. (Mordechai can hear them crying and begging.) 

The mine closes. There’s a lengthy investigation. It will cost a considerable amount of money to sink another pit. Echoing, cloying silence wraps around the abandoned worksite. Mordechai can leave his bedroom for the first time in months. 

He sits on the chapel steps and watches the muscles of Hezekiah’s back work under his sweat-slick blouse. “Do you think...” Mordechai starts. 

There’s something in Mordechai’s voice that makes Hezekiah straighten up. 

“Do you think, when I die, you might cut a hole in the side of my coffin?” Mordechai says. “So, when you die, if there’s a hole in your coffin, our coffins could. Lie together. And. We might be able to hold hands under the earth.” 

It’s the most he’s said at once in decades, and his throat is raw for it. 

“I could do that,” Hezekiah says. “When are you going to die?” 

Mordechai sighs. “You’ve bought me a little time. Soon.” 

“I’ll make you a Coffin,” Hezekiah says, his voice oddly constricted, as if he’s speaking through silt. He drops his shovel and walks off, towards Moorland house. 

Later, from his windowsill, Mordechai watches Hezekiah cut down a whitebeam, feels the heft of it in his large hands. He’s too far away to gauge his expression accurately, but he seems to appraise the wood and finds it passable. He hauls it inside. 

The mere act of watching has left Mordechai feeling bone-tired, and he sleeps. 

And sleeps. 

(In between the sleeping, Mordechai finds himself cradled in long arms, sunburned by the late summer sun. The press of a spoon to his lips as he’s fed a soup that tastes like dirt and tannins.)

And sleeps. 

(When he chokes a little on fluid-filled lungs, he feels warm hands rubbing his back and the choking eases.) 

Moorland house is awfully quiet. 

A hand scraping softly on his collarbone shifts Mordechai blearily into consciousness. “It’s done,” Hezekiah says. “Would you like to see it?” 

Mordechai nods. His limbs are oddly discombobulated, his heart feels heavy and dragging, and he looks up at Hezekiah. The man scoops him up like he weighs nothing and carries him, bridal-style, down the cold, empty hallway.  

The gate to the mausoleum opens on well-oiled hinges. It’s no longer empty; a single coffin now sits in the marbled room. It’s simple - rough, even - the whitebeam a pale, unvarnished yellow. But there’s undeniably a presence to it, an undercurrent that draws you towards it. Hezekiah approaches close enough that Mordechai can run his hand down its flank. 

“I’m not an artist,” Hezekiah says. “It’s even a bit simple-looking, in this grand place.” 

“It’s perfect,” Mordechai says. “Would it be too morbid for me to give it a christening? Try it on for size?” 

“Pot and kettle,” Hezekiah says. 

“True,” Mordechai says. 

“Mordechai...” Hezekiah shuffles on his feet. “I would like to embrace you. Under the earth. It has to be deep enough that nothing can live there, where it is quiet and cold and the dirt clings like damp to your skin and dark enough that our touch can hide in secret, that’s the place we can be together. I think if I stayed here when you were buried the pressure of the world would be so much more than the pressure of the dirt and I don’t think I could bear it. I would like to hold you, under there, and you would have space from the choke and I would not be alone. I think I would like to do that forever, or, at least, until our bodies are less human than they are water and earth.” 

“I would like that too,” Mordechai says. “It’s like a marriage.” 

“It’s more than a marriage,” Hezekiah replies. 

“Yes,” Mordechai says, and lets his head sink down against Hezekiah’s chest, measures Hezekiah’s strong heartbeat against his own, thready and uneven. It’s so much more than he deserves. 

Hezekiah opens the coffin. It makes a comically sharp scraping noise like it’s the door to a vampire’s crypt in an opera, like thousands of paper bats will fly out of it and fill the room. 

It is silent, and cold, instead. 

Mordechai never gets his funeral. 

Most of Mordechai’s papers get passed along to the Magnus Institute. 

And two hundred years later, Jonathan Sims reads some letters. 

#the magnus archives #mordechai lukas #hezekiah wakely #jonah magnus #m....monsters in love #this was supposed to be a bullet point list and it turned into improv fanfic halfway through #how the Coffin dovetails the Lonely and the Buried.... very interesting #tw terminal illness #tw death #ask to tag #tma blogging

[minervacasterly]

TAMERLANE

“KIND solace in a dying hour! Such, father, is not (now) my theme- I will not madly deem that power Of Earth may shrive me of the sin Unearthly pride hath revell’d in- I have no time to dote or dream: You call it hope-that fire of fire! It is but agony of desire: If I can hope-Oh God! I can- Its founder is holier –more divine- I would not call thee fool, old man, But such is not a gift of thine. Know thou the secret of a spirit Bow’d from its wild pride into shame. O! yearning heart! I did inherit Thy withering portion with the fame, The searing glory which hath shone Amid the jewels of my throne, Halo of Hell! And with a pain Not Hell shall make me fear again- O! craving heart, for the lost flowers And sunshine of my summer hours! Th’ undying voice of that dead time, With its interminable chime, Rings, in the spirit of a spell, Upon thy emptiness – a knell.

I have not always been as now: The fever’d diadem on my brow I claim’d and won usurpingly- Hath not the same fierce heirdom given Rome to the Caesar –this to me? The heritage of a kingly mind, And a proud spirit which hath striven Triumphantly with human kind.

On mountain soil I first drew life: The misfits of the Taglay have shed Nightly their dews upon my head, And, I believe, the winged strife And tumult of the headlong air Have nestled in my very hair.

So late from Heaven –that dew- it fell (Mid dreams of an unholy night) Upon me –with the touch of Hell, While the red flashing of the light From clouds that hung, like banners, o’er, Appeared to my half-closing eye The pageantry of monarchy, And the deep trumpet-thunder’s roar Came hurriedly upon me, telling Of human battle, where my voice, My own voice, silly child! –was swelling (O! how my spirit would rejoice, And leap within me at the cry) The battle-cry of Victory! The rain came down upon my head Unshelter’d –and the heavy wind Was giantlike –so thou, mind!- It was but man, I thought, who shed Laurels upon me: and the rush- The torrent of the chilly air Gurgled within my ear the crush Of Empires –with the captive’s prayer- The hum of suiters –and the tone Of flattery ‘round a sovereign’s throne.

My passions, from that hapless hour, Usurp’d a tyranny which men Have deem’d, since I have reach’d to power; My innate nature –be it so: But, father, there live’d one who, then, Then =in my bouhood- when their fire Burn’d with a still intenser glow, (For passion must, with youth, expire) E’en then who knew this iron heart In woman’s weakness had a part.

I have no words –alas!- to tell The loveliness of loving well! Nor would I now attempt to trace The more than beauty of a face Whose lineaments, upon my mind, Are –shadows on th’ unstable wind: Thus I remember having dwelt Some page of early lore upon, With loitering eye, till I have felt The letters –with their meaning- melt To fantasies- with none.

O, she was worth of all love! Love –as infancy was mine- ‘Twas such as angel minds above Might envy; her young heart the shrine On which my ev’ry hope and thought Were incense –then a goodly gift, For they were childish –and upright- Pure –as her young example taught: Why did I leave it, and, adrift, Trust to the fire within, for light?

We grew in age –and love- together, Roaming the forest, and the wild; My breast her shield in wintry weather- And, when the friendly sunshine smil’d And she would mark the opening skies, I saw no Heaven –but in her eyes.

Young Love’s first lesson is –the heart: For’mid that sunshine, and those smiles, When, from our little cares apart, And laughing at the her girlish wiles, I’d throw me on her throbbing breast, And pour my spirit out in tears- There was no need to speak the rest- No need to quiet any fears Of her –who ask’d no reason why, But turn’d on me her quiet eye!

Yet more than worthy of the love My spirit struggled with, and strove, When, on the mountain peak, aone, Ambition let it a new tone- I had no being- but in thee: The world, and all it did contain In the earth –the air- the sea- Its joy –its little lot of pain That was new pleasure –the ideal, Dim, vanities of dreams by night- And dimmer nothings which were real- (Shadows- and a more shadowy light!) Parted upon their misty wings, And, so, confusedly became Thine image, and –a name- a name! Two separate –yet most intimate things.

I was ambitious –have you known The passion, father? You have not: A cottager, I mark’d a throne Of half the world as all my own, And murmur’d at such lowly lot- But, just like any other dream, Upon the vapour of the dew My own had past, did not the beam Of beauty which did while it thro’ The minute –the hour- the day- oppress My mind with double loveliness.

We walk’d together on the crown Of a high mountain which look’d down Afar from its proud natural towers Of rock and forest, on the hills - The dwindled hills! Begirt with bowers And shouting with a thousand rills.

I spoke to her of power and pride, But mystically –in such guise That she might deem it nought beside The moment’s converse; in her eyes I read, perhaps too carelessly- A mingled feeling with my own- The flush on her bright cheek, to me Seem’d to become a queenly throne Too well that I should let it be Light in the wilderness alone.

I wrapp’d myself in grandeur then, And donn’d a visionary crown- Yet it was not that Fantasy Had thrown her mantle over me- But that, among the rabble- men, Lion ambition is chan’d down- And crouches to a keeper’s hand- Not so in deserts where the grand The wild –the terrible conspire With their own breath to fan his fire. Look ‘round thee now on Samarcand!- Is not she queen of Earth? Her pride Above all cities? In her hand Their destinies? in all beside Of glory which the world hath known Stands she not nobly and alone? Falling –her veriest stepping-stone Shall form the pedestal of a throne- And who her sovereign? Timour –he Whom the astonished people saw Striding o’er empires haughtily A diadem’d outlaw – O! human love! Thou spirit given, On Earth, of all we hope in Heaven! Which fall’st into the soul like rain Upon the Siroc wither’d plain, And failing in thy power to bless But leav’st the heart a wilderness! Idea! Which blindest life around With music of so strange a sound And beauty of so wild a birth- Farewell! For I have won the Earth!

When Hope, the eagle that tower’d, could see No cliff beyond him in the sky, His pinions were bent droppingly- And homeward turn’d his softn’d eye. ‘Twas sunset: when the sun will part There comes a sullenness of heart To him who still would look upon The glory of the summer sun. That soul will hate the ev’ning mist, So often lovely, and will list To the sound of the coming darkness (known To those whose spirits hearken) as one Who, in a dream of night, would fly But cannot from a danger night.

What tho’ the moon –the white moon Shed all the splendor of her noon, Her smile is chilly –and her beam, In that time of dreariness, will seem (So like you gather in your breath) A portrait taken after death. And boyhood is a summer sun Whose waning is the dreariest one- For all we live to know is known, And all we seek to keep hath flown- Let life, then, as the day-flower, fall With the noon-day beauty- which is all.

I reach’d my home –my home no more- For all had flown who made it so- I pass’d from out its mossy door, And, tho’ my tread was soft and low, A voice came from the threshold stone Of one whom I had earlier known- O! I defy thee, Hell, to show On beds of fire that burn below, A humble heart –a deeper wo- Father, I firmly do believe- I know –for Death, who comes for me From regions of the blest afar, Where there is nothing to deceive, Hath left his iron gate ajar, And rays of truth you cannot see Are flashing thro’ Eternity- I do believe that Eblis hath A snare in ev’ry human path- Else how, wen in the holy grove I wandered of the idol, Love, Who daily scents his snow wings With incense of burnt offerings From the most unpolluted things, Whose pleasant bowers are yet so riven Above with trelliced rays from Heaven No mote may shun –no tiniest fly The light’nin of his eagle eye- How was it that Ambition crept, Unseen, amid the revels there, Till growing bold, he laughed and leapt In the tangles of Love’s very hair?”

-          from TAMERLANE & OTHER POEMS (posthumously July 1827) by Edgar Allan Poe

#Edgar Allan Poe #poetry #poem #Tamerlane

[1-mini-1]

Maigo Hanyuu’s Interview with Natalie Music, “Mashou no Kamatoto” Part 1

I’ve been obsessed with “Mashou no Kamtoto” (or as I would translate it, “The Devilish Faux-Naïf”) for like a month. I hope that this interview sheds some light on the characters, setting, and intentions behind this awesome series! Not only am I in love with the Taisho era, but this series made me think a lot about how I conduct myself as an Utaite fan. If you’re not familiar with the series, be sure to check out the songs available on YouTube: Oni no Inu Ma ni, Aza, and Sekai de Ichiban jyanai Anata wo Aishitara. Also, here’s the link to the original interview.

A Tale “Written by the Times”, Spun from Music and Short Story

Maigo Hanyuu, who has gained popularity from the Vocaloid songs “Aun Beats”, “Sange Mairi”, and “Harehareya”, completed a conceptual album, “Mashou no Kamatoto” distinct from his previous works.

This album combines several creation mediums and music, such as Maigo Hanyuu’s self-written short story and Segawa Awoji’s (TN: This looks like the way his name has been romanized in the English fandom, but I’m like 99% sure it should be written like Segawa Aoji instead) hand-drawn music videos, to construct one story. Set in the Taisho era and early Showa era, this story focuses on a young male artist, a faux-naif (TN: This is the best equivalent for “Kamatoto” I could find in English. A few things to point out though is that Kamatoto is usually only applied to women. Kamatoto’s act naive to make men like them more. But also, I’m gonna keep it as Kamatoto for continuity teehee), and depicts various conceived love stories from Anzu, Machiko, and Ringo about this one man. Here at Natalie Music, we interviewed Maigo Hanyuu who has finished his music and short story. What did Maigo Hanyuu wish to convey through his work, “Mashou no Kamatoto”? We approach with that thought.

Series Introduction

It’s backdrop is set from the Taisho era to the early Showa era. Centered on Port Anemone, trade comes and goes and many types of people pass through this flourishing town. The story focuses on a young male artist, the Kamatoto, and three women: Anzu, who yearns for him, Machiko, and Ringo. In the album, the songs align their three various perspectives and thoughts on the Kamatoto. In addition, the short story that comes with the limited edition CD also contains many thoughts that are not voiced in the lyrics.

Characters

The Kamatoto: A young male artist who owns an atelier in Anemone’s shopping district. There are rumors of him in the port town as an elusive, handsome man.

Anzu: A female student who was taken in as a disciple by the Kamtoto to learn how to draw. She holds special feelings for the Kamatoto.

Machiko: The poster-child for the tobacco shop in the shopping district. Everyone loves her because of her carefree personality.

Ringo: The daughter of a large merchant family that controls the shopping district. She works very hard at taking care of people. She lives with the Kamtoto.

Maigo Hanyuu Interview

It was Necessary to have a Short Story Connect the Gaps Between Songs

── ”Mashou no Kamatoto” isn’t just music, but a conceptual work with various expressions via the short story and illustrations. What brought about this conception?

The existence of my previous work, “Ukiyo Meguri”, is a big one. After finishing making “Ukiyo Meguri”, I felt that it was limiting if I only expressed things with sound and lyrics. Of course, there were things that could be expressed by consolidating songs in the form of an album, but I felt that the work I conceptualized and came after “Ukiyo Meguri”, the work called “Mashou no Kamatoto”, needed to be expressed with more than just sound and lyrics. So “Mashou no Kamatoto” first started with creating a backdrop, like an image board, then I made the music and short story.

── Why did it become a short story?

Being based on an image board, I felt that when the world of “Mashou no Kamatoto” took form, that only one part of it’s world would be able to be scooped out if it was just through music. A song is limited to expressing one human’s single timeline. That’s why amongst the existing songs, I tried writing a short story to act as a way to fill the holes in those gaps this time.

── By the way, have you written short stories before this?

This was my first time. It’s not like I was fixated on having it in the form of a short story, but I feel that it was inevitably born. I guess you could say that with this work, it kept coming to mind that I had to do this piece this way, or that this work called “Mashou no Kamatoto” has “a feeling like it was written”. I simply wanted to try to start writing short stories, so writing this was really fun. Of course, it’s also fun to make songs, but starting to write short stories made me more excited, and so I had a feeling that I discovered a new part of myself.

Searching for Worries that Lead to Modern Times

── In the short story’s afterword, you explain that “Mashou no Kamatoto” takes place from the Taisho era to the Showa era. Why did you choose these eras?

A big reason is that I wanted to incorporate more modern components than the Edo period image I had when I made “Ukiyo Meguri”. The Taisho era is when Japan and the west were mixed together, and I think people’s thoughts were also confused. If I set the story in the Edo period, I wouldn’t be able to express this world view and the depths of humanity, so I thought it would be easier if I set it closer to the modern era. 

── In the short story’s afterword, you write “the era’s backdrop from these times also come through in modern times”. In what way do you feel that it is similar to modern times?

If I explain it in context, it largely has to do with Japan before it participated in a large war. I imagine that during the war, people worried about human relations and that there wasn’t a lot of room to think about culture and other people. If that’s the case, I think that even while different senses of values were mingling in the Taisho era, that pleasure and entertainment were more prominent than in previous eras. It’s because there was so much pleasure that there were worries, and I think that’s what has come through (TN: or the same) in modern times. 

Darkness Seen for an Instant in the Songs

── A big distinguishing factor in your work this time is that you use one vocalist.

In the stages when I decided on the conception of “Mashou no Kamatoto”, using Vocaloid was out of the question. Vocaloid’s good point is that it sounds cold. A cold Vocaloid voice fits with cold music that is based on programming. Vocaloid fit “Ukiyo Meguri”, but I wanted “Mashou no Kamatoto” to be a work that is raw and deeply digs out human emotions. It’s weird, but I felt like “Mashou no Kamatoto” begged me to “find a vocalist to be the ‘narrator’”.

── The vocalist appointed to the role, Nekoyashiki, is a generally unknown vocalist. What drew you to Nekoyashiki?

From the beginning, it didn’t matter if they thought the songs were good or bad, but it was important to be into the role for “Mashou no Kamatoto”. 3 girls star in this work, but what was critical was whether or not they could navigate the girls’ feelings well. When I first heard Nekoyashiki sing, for a moment in her cute voice, something like the darkness of humanity would appear and disappear. I thought that was really good.

── Were there different difficulties in recording with a vocalist, rather than using Vocaloid?

It was hard. It’s because before singing, I would have to explain everything in the situation, such as things about the world, and the many characters’ personalities and mental state. I thought there were parts where it was easier to apply concepts from real love stories, so while listening to Nekoyashiki’s experiences, there were also times when I would send advice like “remember your feelings from that time when you sing”. It was fresh and fun to talk about each work one by one like that.

──  In “Sekai de Ichiban jyanai Anata wo Aishitara” Sou participates as a vocalist. Why did you choose Sou to be the Kamatoto, bearer of everyone’s sentiments?

Because Sou-kun is super popular.

── I see haha.

Sou is liked by a lot of different people so I think there’s some parts of him that are similar to the Kamatoto character. I said earlier that before Nekoyashiki would sing, I would explain a lot of different things to her, but actually when I talked to Sou about this work, I didn’t tell him about the Kamatoto in detail. Without Sou needing to play a role, him singing just like he always does expressed my image of the Kamatoto. When I said this to him, he said, “I’m not this kind of person!” and it seems like he got mad but… haha. I’m truly grateful to Sou for blowing life into the Kamatoto I imagined.

#Maigo Hanyuu #Sou #Utaite #Interviewer: Why did you choose Sou? #Maigo Hanyuu: Cause he's popular af #what a mood lawl #translations #interviews

[recentanimenews]

Manga the Week of 9/8/21

SEAN: It’s ALWAYS September, somewhere in manga land.

Airship has two digital first debuts. I’m the Evil Lord of an Intergalactic Empire! (Ore wa Seikan Kokka no Akutoku Ryōshu!) is from the author of The World of Otome Games is Tough for Mobs, and is about a guy who lost everything in his previous life resolving to be evil this time. In space.

ASH: I’m beginning to see another trend emerging.

ANNA: I wonder if there are skeleton lords of space.

SEAN: The other debut is A Tale of the Secret Saint (Tensei Shita Daiseijo wa, Seijo dearu Koto wo Hitakakusu). A knight on the verge of death recalls her past life… no, not from Japan. She was a powerful Saint, a profession that’s almost extinct. A very dangerous profession. Now she has to hide her reawakened skills… but they’re simply too useful! This looks good.

ANNA: This does sound interesting!

SEAN: In print, Airship debuts My Status as an Assassin Obviously Exceeds the Hero’s, which we discussed before.

They also have Accomplishments of the Duke’s Daughter 2.

Cross Infinite World gives us The Werewolf Count and the Trickster Tailor 2. (It got bumped.)

Ghost Ship has Yuuna and the Haunted Hot Springs 15.

Two new novel series from J-Novel Club. The first is Chillin’ in Another World with Level 2 Super Cheat Powers (Lv2 kara Cheat datta Moto Yuusha Kouho no Mattari Isekai Life), which makes me ill just typing it out. Guy has weak powers. Everyone hates him. Then he hits level 2. Suddenly he’s really strong. Men respect him. Women love him. Repeat as needed.

J-Novel Club’s second light novel debut is My Daughter Left the Nest and Returned an S-Rank Adventurer (Boukensha ni Naritai to Miyako ni Deteitta Musume ga S Rank ni Natteta), the story of a dad who watches as his adopted daughter grows up to be really, really strong. For those who see “daddy” and “adopted daughter” and run away screaming, we have been assured this title is free of *that* sort of thing, and it’s complete in Japan, so they were able to double check this time.

ASH: It does seem like it could be promising, then.

SEAN: Other light novels (Japanese or German) out next week: Der Werwolf: The Annals of Veight 12, Invaders of the Rokujouma!? 37, Jessica Bannister 2, Record of Wortenia War 12, Villainess: Reloaded! Blowing Away Bad Ends with Modern Weapons 2, and The World’s Least Interesting Master Swordsman 7.

The one digital manga title is Sweet Reincarnation 5.

Kodansha, in print, has Battle Angel Alita 2 (this is the reprint omnibus of the original series), and… that’s it.

Digitally, of course, there is much more. The debut is Sweet Sweet Revenge, and that’s its Japanese title as well. It runs in Kodansha’s Aria, and is by the author of Stupid Love Comedy, though I will try not to hold that against it. A girl has come to school to get revenge against 5 popular, handsome guys who did her wrong. Can she do it? This only ran two volumes, so signs pointing to no.

MICHELLE: Snerk.

ASH: Maybe she’s just very efficient.

ANNA: I could be inefficient and just read Boys over Flowers again.

SEAN: We also get A Condition Called Love 8, Girlfriend Girlfriend 5, I Was Reincarnated as the 7th Prince so I Can Take My Time Perfecting My Magical Ability 2, My Dearest Self with Malice Aforethought 8, Otherworldly Munchkin: Let’s Speedrun the Dungeon with Only 1 HP! 4, Smile Down the Runway 20, Watari-kun’s ****** Is about to Collapse 10, With the Sheikh in His Harem 5, and Ya Boy Kongming! 4.

MICHELLE: I should get caught up on A Condition Called Love. I enjoyed what I read of it.

SEAN: Seven Seas has only one title: the 14th volume of Saint Seiya: Saintia Shō.

Tokyopop debuts Springtime by the Window (Madogiwa no Aoiharu),a rare non-BL title from them these days. It’s shoujo from Shufu to Seikatsusha’s Comic PASH!, so add them to the list of publishers still speaking to Tokyopop. It’s a high school romance with multiple couples.

MICHELLE: Hm. Also two volumes, so presumably TOKYOPOP will manage to release the whole thing.

ANNA: *Pours one out for unfinished TOKYOPOP series, again.*

SEAN: Lastly we have Viz, whose debut is Star Wars: The High Republic: Edge of Balance. This is a manga-ish title that’s more of a tie-in, but I’ll count it because the artist also did Tiger & Bunny.

Also out from Viz: Boruto: Naruto Next Generations 12, Dr. STONE 18, Dragon Ball Super 14, Love Me Love Me Not 10, Mashle: Magic & Muscles 2, My Hero Academia 29, Prince Freya 5, Snow White with the Red Hair 15, Twin Star Exorcists 23, Undead Unluck 3, and Yakuza Lover 2.

ASH: I need to get a move on some of my reading before I fall even further behind!

ANNA: Me too, I’m excited for more shoujo and the insanity that is Yakuza Lover.

SEAN: What manga makes you yearn for the days of AOL?

By: Sean Gaffney

#Anime #News #Manga Bookshelf

[libidomechanica]

Untitled (“Silent I hover round and ward”)

“Silent I hover round and ward,  from soddein force his  soul tells he oer who could not do ‘t  at home, in some coy maid  half yielding they lock it to  be happy day, turnd  as, buried Ashes such  sort as, though sweet with  reflections of Cain became  Christ’”s snow-white  rose in our own  state, as if by hand  from the tribe of my  being sich. Draw in your  souls —the poor Lover! A  woman like lemons you  happen to moan, but they shoulders.  Until I noticed before,  a house where living  home, and wiser than  the chain, and hear in  the pane I know  that held the reaper weary,  a spark of friendship,  warm, since I sawe thy heart  is a kitten of  butterflies and early, rich,  and stitched up in Murderers  Hole? Together with  all the Vintners  buy; some do it with  curious oathes, that  same troade, but only the smile,  a small ill-natured sparrows  from inns of mottled ore,  gold dome, and to  Jupiter, my Lord, by  Fate, sunk on the  heavens, I would have been kind  you go, heare you? Her cheeks  like Rain, as of spice and  Line, In my ear a  noise alike to some brink?  and could taint each into  my veined pebble,  and self-ingraind violet  pastime, many a  sail of pride, the  glove thee off from the language  of This  and Thee there is the  nicest touching that spell  affright the Last sole 

Agent is in my  woe. What secret heart which  all wo can abide  to the blue of  ocean rolls a lengthend,  thought I could, I would, could for  his last arctic  blast has slain my face;  terror of whose heart to  the stormy east-wind  keenly tempt to  repayre vnto the brazen bell  give warning the Law  that we may guessd how many  tears, for Gods sake,  do not the happy again,  poor lover but you  get up, amazed, watch bled bad  blood and shook the  cause of new color,  visible echo, faint  eternal spring,  and seald false bonds of  Gold: the king with  this harlots; and Thee  there by me be vanishd, till hopes,  to pant through the  Bough, a Flask of Wine, a  Book of Fate that  Gods sweetest singing, this iron  time of doubts, suspects,  yet strong in  the skies, and could  oppose. a golden clime To  love, Instead. had fallen— on this rapacious  notes over the  hearts antechamber, myrtle branches  yearning to  silence, where this shadows grim.  where sits, wearing tire  The Wine you care for  the Spot In secretest.  by telling from the  street, jackhammers began  to dip, as if  it were if  each cheek, and some men make no more.  Does not sweet with  bloody swords are loosd, and  all men kill the though  it alter not lose her she  works on me graciously.

#poetry #automatically generated text #Patrick Mooney #Markov chains #Markov chain length: 7 #181 texts

[shou7]

Translation: TRUE LOVE by クリープハイプ

Japanese lyrics

三輪車に跨ってた けど補助輪外してこれからは 前輪と後輪に神頼み 降臨した二輪で走るのみ 自転車に乗って目指す海 「EとしのAリー」に出会った日 一輪の花を見つけた日 永遠の愛を誓った日

大人の恋　大人の愛　一昨日来い　黒い春 ハメを外して輪を外せば　輪をかけて叩かれるフリ 大人の恋　大人の愛　一昨日来い　黒い春 ハメを外して輪も外せば　輪をかけて叩かれる不倫

one love, two love, three love, 言葉のアヤだよ true love one love, two love, three love, あれは語弊だよ true love

上る階段　アンタッチャボ＝デニーロパチーノ パンドラのBOXに色とりどりのショートケーキ イチゴ１会　出あいは木漏れ日

紫陽花にバタフライがフライト スライドするフロイトの原則 これ切り　ゆび切り　それ切り　それ切り 其所の木じゃ遮２無２　バードがさえずり

A面の愛　B面の恋 AとB　アシンメトリー エアガンとガン　CandyとGum 主観客観　MP3と盤

ロールする３ダル３セット ウインドウが鳴らす３角関係 あるべきものがあるべき時に あるべき所に必ずあるだろうか

one love, two love, three love, 言葉のアヤだよ true love one love, two love, three love, あれは語弊だよ true love

白い恋人　愛の結晶　尻切れとんぼは無期懲役 風の如く林の如く火の如く　動かざること山の如し 黒い交際　愛を殺生　尻切れとんぼは無期懲役 風の如く林の如く火の如く　招かざる客山の如し

イコール、風林火山 不倫で火山　情報アルプス エゴとエゴのクラッシュ　●●なトスとスマッシュ ゴシップスプラッシュ　涙にフラッシュライト

水にキックした小石の後が　とめどなく輪を広げた慕情 Can I kick it？　“キックして” Can I kick it？　“キックして”

one love, two love, three love, 言葉のアヤだよ true love one love, two love, three love, あれは語弊だよ true love

　

Romaji lyrics

Sanrinsha ni matagatteta Kedo hojowa hazushite kore kara wa Zenrin to kourin ni kamidanomi Kourin shita nirin de hashiru no mi Jitensha ni notte mezasu umi "E toshi no A rii" ni deatta hi Ichirin no hana wo mitsuketa hi Eien no ai wo chikatta hi

Otona no koi otona no ai ototoi koi kuroi haru Hame wo hazushite wa wo hazuseba wa wo kakete tatakareru furi Otona no koi otona no ai ototoi koi kuroi haru Hame wo hazushite wa wo hazuseba wa wo kakete tatakareru furin

one love, two love, three love, Kotoba no aya da yo true love one love, two love, three love, Are wa gohei da yo true love

Noboru kaidan antacchabo = de niiro pachiino Pandora no BOX ni iro toridori no shootokeeki Ichigo ichiai deai wa komorebi

Ajisai ni batafurai ga furaito Suraidosuru furoito no gensoku Kore kiri, yubi kiri, sore kiri, sore kiri Soko no ki ja shanimuni baado ga saezuri

A men no ai B men no koi A to B ashinmetorii Eagan to gan Candy to Gum Shukan kyakkan MP3 to ban

Roorusuru sandaru sansetto Uindou ga narasu sankaku kankei Aru beki mono ga aru beki toki ni Aru beki tokoro ni kanarazu aru darou ka

one love, two love, three love, Kotoba no aya da yo true love one love, two love, three love, Are wa gohei da yo true love

Shiroi koibito ai no kesshou shirikire tonbo wa muki choueki Kaze no gotoku hayashi no gotoku hi no gotoku ugokazaru koto yama no gotoshi Kuroi kousai ai wo sesshou shirikire tonbo wa muki choueki Kaze no gotoku hayashi no gotoku hi no gotoku manekazaru kyaku yama no gotoshi

Ikooru, fuurinkazan Furin de kazan jouhou arupusu Ego to ego no kurasshu ●● na tosu to sumasshu Goshippu supurasshu namida ni furasshuraito

Mizu ni kikkushita koishi no ato ga tomedonaku wa wo hirogeta bojou Can I kick it? "Kikkushite" Can I kick it? "Kikkushite"

one love, two love, three love, Kotoba no aya da yo true love one love, two love, three love, Are wa gohei da yo true love

　

English lyrics

Straddling a tricycle But having removed the training wheels, from here on The front and back wheels are in the gods' hands I made my descent, speeding only with two wheels Riding a bicycle to the sea that I sought The day I met "Allie my lovE" The day we found a single flower The day we pledged our eternal love

An adult's love, an adult's affection, it came the day before yesterday - a black spring Going wild and taking off the ring, then getting beat up by an even wilder pretense An adult's love, an adult's affection, it came the day before yesterday - a black spring Going wild and taking off the ring, then getting beat up by an even wilder affair

one love, two love, three love, It's a figure of speech y'know - true love one love, two love, three love, That's a misleading expression y'know - true love

Climbing stairs, untouchable = De Niro, Pacino A colourful shortcake in pandora's box 1 strawberry party, meeting under the foliage

A butterfly takes flight from a hydrangea The Freudian principle that slides One last time, pinky promise, that's all, that's all Cutting down that tree over there would be too reckless; the birds twitter

A-side's affection, B-side's love A and B - asymmetry Air gun and gun, Candy and Gum Subjective, objective, MP3 and CD 3 sets of sandals rolling The window chimes - a triangular relationship

Something that should exist at the time it should exist In the place it should exist - will it absolutely be there?

one love, two love, three love, It's a figure of speech y'know - true love one love, two love, three love, That's a misleading expression y'know - true love

Shiroi Koibito, fruits of love, leaving things unfinished is a life sentence As wind, as a forest, as fire, as unshakable as a mountain A black relationship, killing of love, leaving things unfinished is a life sentence As wind, as a forest, as fire, as welcoming as a mountain

Equals, fuurinkazan Volcano from an affair - information Alps A clash of ego and ego - a ●● toss and smash A gossip splash, flashlight on tears

A yearning that expands like a ripple after a pebble has been kicked into the water Can I kick it? "Kick it" Can I kick it? "Kick it"

one love, two love, three love, It's a figure of speech y'know - true love one love, two love, three love, That's a misleading expression y'know - true love

　

Translator’s note

Lots of wordplay going on in the lyrics.  EとしのAリー seems to be a punny way of wording out a famous Japanese song “Itoshi no Ellie” by Ayaka Hirahira.  輪をかけて literally means to put on a ring, but is also an expression for exaggeration - “even wilder” in this context. The literal translation of  これ切り　ゆび切り　それ切り is “cut here, cut a finger, cut there”. ３ダル is a punny way of writing sandal (サンダル). 愛の結晶 (”fruit of love”) is a term that refers to children, so I’d personally take “killing of love” to mean an abortion.  尻切れとんぼ is an expression for leaving something unfinished. Literally, it means a dragonfly with its bottom end cut off. 風林火山 (fuurinkazan) literally means wind, forest, fire, mountain. It’s a derivation of a line from Sun Tze’s ‘The Art of War’. The full line in English is “as swift as wind, as gentle as forest, as fierce as fire, as unshakable as mountain." The censored word seems to be 下衆 (gesu) which can be taken to mean rude. It seems to be a dig at Gesu no Kiwami Otome vocalist Enon Kawatani’s infamous affair with Becky.

#creephyp #creep hyp #クリープハイプ #translations

[emiliers]

10 songs you’ve been listening to lately

Tagged by the wonderful @no-ipsum. Now everyone can bear witness to my daily intake of Vocaloid and anime songs. No lyrics because I usually listen to music for writing inspiration, and I'm more concerned with feel than anything else. (Also some of these have not been translated into English oops.)

01. Uchiage Hanabi - DAOKO × Kenshi Yonezu / The chorus just gets to me.

02. Hibana - DECO*27 ft. Hatsune Miku / A very DECO*27 song that I somehow like miles above most other DECO*27 songs. Matsushita’s cover is my favorite.

03. Alice in Freezer - Orangestar ft. Hatsune Miku / So wonderfully refreshing. Great for thinking up fun things to write. I like Mary’s cover a lot.

04. Monologue in Solitude - 40meter ft. Hatsune Miku / Simple with a touch of melancholy. More people need to cover this song.

05. Longing for you - Mwk ft. Hatsune Miku / Incredibly stunning song. Perfectly captures that note of yearning. Tuning is so excellent I don’t even want to look for covers.

06. Fragile - Nuyuri ft. Gumi / The music sticks in my head for days afterward. Super memorable and interesting. Not a big fan of the tuning, but that’s what we have covers for (Sou’s, for instance).

07. Heart Nonsense - Kairiki Bear ft. Hatsune Miku / Catchy and unexpectedly poignant, coupled with some singularly excellent tuning.

08. Nikushimi wo Hanataba ni Kaete (Exchange Hate for Flowers) - Sound Horizon / Revo composing a song about happy lesbians!! Probably the most unabashedly happy song from Nein, actually, which is why it’s my favorite. Also the only song on this list I actually listen to for its lyrics/story, so here it is, translation courtesy of EJ Translations:

I’m going to set aside my narrow concerns of men or women, being rewarded or not being rewarded And honestly love other people and myself! That’s right… I’ve always been… a girl who loved flowers They always comforted me in difficult times When people are going through hardships and can’t suppress their feelings, they should carry one flower in their hearts Yes… when I realized that, an idea was born!

09. Akakakushi - Akiko Shikata / Akiko Shikata’s songs are my go-to for general inspiration. I’ve been vacillating between this, Katakoi, and Akatsuki recently.

10. Nuedori - Suara / An absolutely excellent song. I love everything about this one.

#music #if you were ever curious about my bad taste in music well here it is

[ogden58osman-blog]

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[cdubs271-blog]

Becca Men Tell All Recap

Hello All,     I normally don't make a recap of the "wo/men tell all", but I've got some cousins over and we're doing the damn thing. Let's head to the recap:

Let's divide the night into various sections:

Beefs

This has been a relatively normal season. There have been no real surprises in who gets sent home. So, it seems the producers decided to give everyone shots before the show in order to "jerry springer" the hell out of the show. I was legitimately surprised at how venomous the personal attacks were between the men. Maybe it was the producers urging a "set-up" for

Bachelor in Paradise

, but the candor of the men in no way represented what we saw during the season. I feel like the producers were trying to make up for a fairly non-dramatic season all in one episode.

Fashion

No sequins?! WTF?

This may have been the least amount of buttons buttoned in the history of the bachelor.

Wills is the man. He took a catholic elementary school skirt and made it a suit.

I really liked David's jacket. David as a person, not so much.

CH's pocket square game is next level

Becca loves dresses with a high neck and no shoulders. And sequins. Tons of sequins.

Jon wore khakis again!? I love khakis as much as the next guy, but WTF!?

Jason

"Love is love is love". I don't know what that means, but he may be the most gracious "loser" in the history of the show. He could clearly be the "kiss cam" winner every night at the ball park, but he yearns for more (as do well all).

His sincerity is unparalleled. Unfortunately, so is his slicked-back hair.

He was the only one who didn't follow the "let's Jerry Springer the hell out of this" gameplan. I feel this confirms his status as the next Bachelor.

Becca

No sequins, but lots of lace. Katie, my cousin , is certain she's wearing spanks.

Asked about Colton: "In the past, I've dated a virgin before." Probably in 8th grade.

"I always say 'It's not what a man wears, it's how he wears it." - when have you said that? You've said "do the damn thing" a lot, but never that.

Things I've Learned from Katie, who listens to "Bachelor/ette podcasts while ignoring her children:

Leo stars in the soft-core porn classic "High Heel Homicide".

Everyone takes the same flight back from the final rose location. Which means that Jason was hanging out in Thailand/Maldives for an extended period of time without anything to do. Now, if you're single and "in love" with whomever, this feels like a death sentence after you've been dumped. Meanwhile, I can't imagine a married person (male or female), who wouldn't take that deal gladly. I'm also picturing all three of them in the same row of seats on the flight back with Jason stuck in the middle seat.

Katie listens to podcasts about this show while cooking. On earbuds (Thank God).

"I would love a produce man in my life" - Katie, speaking for us all.

Spare Thoughts

CH trying to cheer up Colton on being a virgin, "Show my man, Colton, some love"...who has not had sex, like me, Chris Harrison.

The rehab choir for Chris did not work for me. Although the very idea of a rehab choir for everyday use is intriguing.

Totally missed the fervor over Grocery Store Joe. I must be reading the wrong recaps.

No Lincoln was a good choice. Although why are we bringing out first night ousters? Jordan asking who the hell was Christian (I had to check myself) was both accurate and hilarious.

Looking forward to next week!

#the bachelorette #mentellall #recap

[gossipgirl2019-blog]

Still Like… Wo: After 20 Years, Mya Has Learned to Live Without Fear

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Still Like… Wo: After 20 Years, Mya Has Learned to Live Without Fear

The late ‘90s/early ‘00s is a revered era in music for so many fans under 30. It’s not hard to understand why: it’s a period when pop artists took over the airwaves after a decade that had been mostly dominated by grunge, gangsta rap, adult contemporary and nu metal. Britney Spears, Destiny’s Child, Aaliyah, *NSYNC, J. Lo and a host of others recalibrated popular music in a way that set the table for pretty much everything we see dominating the charts today.

And Mya was right there at the forefront. The leggy R&B chanteuse with the coy-but-sexy persona and serious dance moves had already been somewhat famous as a dancer on BET when she was still in high school. She’d performed with Gregory Hines and studied with Savion Glover, was classically trained in tap and ballet, and her early videos made it clear that she knew how to cut a rug. Mya burst through back in 1998 at the age of 18, and, with her impeccable dance skills and sultry voice, was put in a similar vein as established artists like Aaliyah and Janet Jackson. Her self-titled debut was a platinum-seller that spawned hits like “It’s All About Me” and “Movin’ On” and thrust her into the swarm of pop stardom. She followed it with the hit “Take Me There,” a collaboration with Blackstreet and Ma$e that hit the Top 20, and another hit guest appearance on the Pras single “Ghetto Superstar” with Ol’ Dirty Bastard.

But the onetime girl-next-door has been a grown-ass woman for a while now. Her latest album TKO (The Knockout) dropped this spring and she just released her newest video for the sexy single “Damage.” Mya was never shy about flaunting her sex appeal, but she admits that it comes from a different place these days. 

“Well—now I mean it!” the 38-year-old says with a laugh. “It comes from a real place versus some songwriter writing it for me and me delivering it from no experience. Now I own it. I own everything that’s me and that’s one dimension of who I am and who all women are, y’know? One dimension. And I know it’s often suppressed and looked down upon. That’s the difference between then and now. I was just a young girl fresh out of high school, but life experience and yearning and desire and being very clear in expressing how you feel—even that takes time.”

And its apparent that for Mya, taking her time is important in everything that she does—but especially as it pertains to self-expression: “You have to take a leap of faith before exposing yourself completely in terms of feelings and desires—especially if you’re a woman.”  

“Now you have a different type of sexualization where its desensitization, because of the internet and kids growing up faster because of technology. Music dictates culture and culture dictates music, they go hand-in-hand. Now you have no shock.”

Many of the R&B superstars of the ‘90s were very young at the time, and after the “Jodeci-fication” of R&B circa ‘92/‘93, a singer had to have some edginess to thrive in the era of body rolls and shirtless album covers. Stars like Usher, Aaliyah and later on, Mya may have been teens—but they sang about some undeniably “adult” fare. But Mya doesn’t view her early career or that era as oversexed—at least not by comparison.

“It was very grown and in-your-face, but the music balanced out and countered some [of the] lyrics that were very ‘adult,’” Mya says. “I think now it’s oversexualized, but then, there was some mystery—and clever writing. It was suggestive but not over-the-top. I think because of hip-hop, oftentimes you’re rebellious and very outspoken and that becomes a part of the culture. Outside of lyrics and music, it’s an attitude. Music is influenced by that and that carried over into R&B. Young people relate to things that are more rebellious and it’s much more interesting. Now you have a different type of sexualization where its desensitization, because of the internet and kids growing up faster because of technology. Music dictates culture and culture dictates music, they go hand-in-hand. Now you have no shock.”

As her career exploded, she joined Pink, Lil Kim, and Christina Aguilera for their era-defining cover of “Lady Marmalade” in 2001, appeared in the Oscar-winning Chicago and other films like Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights and Cursed. Her sophomore album Fear Of Flying was another commercial success, and it continued her run of hit singles: “Case Of the Ex” shot all the way to No. 2 on the Billboard Hot 200. 2003’s Moodring would be her most critically-acclaimed release up to that point, showcasing a maturing singer and featuring collaborations with Jimmy Jam and Terry Lewis, Missy Elliott, and Timbaland. The Elliott-produced “My Love Is Like…Wo” would be another Top 20 hit for Mya.

She signed with Ford Modeling in 2005 and it seemed like music was going to take a backseat to her diverse interests outside of recording and performing onstage. She was urged to date superstars for publicity and refused, but that didn’t stop the rumor mill from fixating on gossip. She wound up in a feud with rapper 50 Cent after he claimed they’d had sex in a 2005 diss track aimed at his longtime rival, The Game.

“Yes, it’s not true. 50 and I never dated, never cuddled, never did anything, period, despite what he chooses to believe in his own mind. I don’t know how he would get Lloyd Banks confused with me,” Mya told VIBE in 2006.

The rumors didn’t stop there, Mya had to address more gossip in 2009 after rumors surfaced that she was dating Gucci Mane. “No diss, but the way people turn things around—I’d taken a photo with him at a club and I went to say bye,” she told DJ Whoo Kid at the time. “My manager was present and I went to say bye to Gucci and I said something in his ear but I had to get closer because the club music was so loud, they caught me in the wrong pose looking like we had just finished kissing or that we were kissing. The photograph was not big enough for you to see the real deal. And the rumor started that Mya was dating Gucci Mane which is so not true.”

The chatter kept her name plastered across gossip sites. Now that kind of din is even louder because of social media, and Mya’s advice to young women navigating the murky waters of pop stardom and internet gossip is to commit themselves to “conditioning yourself for this world.”

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“There’s a double standard and women are punished more for accusations,” she says. “Get your mind right, get your spirit right and get your body right. And keep it there. That requires working out, that requires fasting, eating well, prayer and getting to know who you are. And not bending. You’re going to have to put yourself through disciplinarian challenges so that you can understand that you can be without anything that you were taught that you need. People will always have an opinion. Even if you’re over here saving the world, there is a group of people that will love you and a group of people that will always hate you no matter what you do.”

“It’s tricky on the internet,” she acknowledges. “There’s a lot of bullying. The way I [manage] is I do crazy stuff [laughs]. Work hard at the gym, remove stuff frmo my diet and lifestyle. Jump out of an airplane! Whatever it takes, so that there’s no fear attached to me. If you’re worried about people liking you, you’re in the wrong business. Life without fear.”

As the 2000s progressed, other names like Ashanti and Ciara had emerged as major stars, while Beyoncé broke from Destiny’s Child and became one of the biggest artists in music. Mya signed with Universal Motown for 2007’s Liberation but would opt out of her contract only a year later, dissatisfied with the label and determined to control her own music. 2008’s Sugar & Spice would be released in Japan, as would the follow-up, 2011’s KISS (Keep It Sexy & Simple). She independently released three EPs in 2014 and 2015 and released Smoove Jones exclusively via Apple in 2016, which would go on to garner a Grammy nomination for Best R&B Album in 2017. With this year’s release of TKO (The Knockout), it’s clear that Mya’s Planet 9 label (which she founded in 2008 after leaving Universal Motown) gave her autonomy that she has clearly relished. She isn’t against major labels at all, but she’s committed to partnering on her own terms.

“I’ve always wanted to make sure that I have a body of work to present to my fans before I go back into a system that only wants radio music,” she explains, “so that I can always leave the art available just in case another album gets leaked or I get into a contract and get held hostage [laughs]. Because it is a great marriage if its right and if you’re a priority.”

That freedom has served her well. In her late 30s, Mya is healthy and happy and navigating her career her way. She promotes healthy eating and veganism on her Instagram account. She joined the cast of streaming Urban Movie Channel’s drama series 5th Ward playing a single mother of two. She admits the role is outside of her comfort zone but she was eager to tell stories that reflect real issues: “From gun violence to gentrification to young men fearing for their lives and coming of age with those factors, single mothers trying to make ends meet…it’s the human experience. It was a meatier role for me that I felt I was ready for. At my age, being an independent artist and caretaker of my family, I relate to those stresses.”

Mya’s a trailblazer for artists like Kehlani and Tinashe, and a veteran who is still standing in an industry that constantly shows how tough it can be on ambitious young women. She talked to Essence earlier this year about #MeToo. “Understand that you are going to have to address several things navigating through the world as it pertains to men who have been conditioned to think that they are superior, which I don’t believe in the natural world that is the case,” she said.

“There’s a balance of feminine and masculine energy,” she continued. “Unfortunately, it’s an imbalanced world because of the people that are in charge, and that’s egotistical men…Understand that you can create your own door (and) your own company and it will be harder, but ultimately you, at the end of the day, decide what you walk away from and what you’re willing to deal with.”

It’s clear that 20 years after she broke big, Mya is more assured than ever and as artistically engaged as she’s ever been. Her legacy is one that warrants celebrating. She’s not a tragic figure, and she’s not an omnipresent megastar. And that’s why we should talk about her more: she’s done this thing about as gracefully as anyone without compromising herself and without resorting to shock tactics or social media drama or silly stunts to “stay relevant.” She’s still Mya. And that’s all we’ve ever needed her to be. 

[deelbrady]

Linkin Park

Linkin Park Suicide All fans of Linkin Park, Soundgarden, and Nirvana need to know about why this is happening. The next time another famous musician commits suicide you will know why, because this darkness is not ending anytime soon. I wonder if Chester Bennington had a successful journey across the "New Divide"? These words are from one of his own songs. "Let the floods cross The distance in your eyes Give me reason To fill this hole Connect this space between Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies Across this new divide" New Divide by Linkin Park The "New Divide", the "Great Gulf", the "Deep" or the "Great Divide" was created by the War in heaven. It is a great divide in the world of spirits that divides the wicked from the righteous. On the righteous side of the world of spirits is a paradise, a place of peace and safety. On the wicked side of the world of spirits is a cold ocean of sorrow that exists just beyond this world. When we were born we crossed over this gulf to enter into this world. When we die we must once again make the journey back over it. Christ spoke of this gulf in the story of Lazarus and the rich man. In this story a wicked rich man dies and goes to hell. He looks up and sees Abraham a great distance away. He then petitions Abraham for his help. Here is Abraham's response to him. "And beside all this, between us and you there is a great gulf fixed: so that they which would pass from hence to you cannot; neither can they pass to us, that would come from thence." Luke 16:26 Isaiah was also aware of this troubled sea. “But the wicked are like the troubled sea, when it cannot rest, whose waters cast up mire and dirt. There is no peace, saith my God, to the wicked.” Isaiah 57:20,21 This is gulf of misery is spoken of much in music and scripture. The evil spirits that influence so much of our modern music speak of a day when they will attempt to cross this great divide. "Headed for the open door Tell me what you're waiting for Look across the great divide Soon they're gonna hear The sound, the sound, the sound When we come running" We Come Running by Youngblood Hawke As you can see these spirits use modern music to encourage each other, because for now their situation is one of despair, one of rolling in the deep. "Think of me in the depths of your despair Make a home down there As mine sure won't be shared... We could have had it all Rolling in the deep" Rolling In the Deep by Adele Symbolically "Waves" are the souls in this cold ocean of hell. "You hear them when you try to fall asleep They crash to the shore, they come from the deep… Waves picking you up pushing you down they're always around... They can carry you all the way to me They can pull you out to the deep blue sea Oh waves, there are waves… Empires will crumble to the sand All that you love can slip through your hand But you must face the ocean once again Follow the tides, wherever you've been" Waves by Blondfire When we die we must once again cross over this ocean of misery. "But you must face the ocean once again, follow the tides, wherever you've been". This is our personal journey to the promised land of heaven. We must all make this journey across the gulf of death. "but in his great mercy hath brought us over that everlasting gulf of death and misery, even to the salvation of our souls." Alma 26:20 The purpose of this gulf is to divide the wicked from the righteous at death. "And a great and a terrible gulf divideth them" 1 Nephi 12:18 "And I said unto them that it was an awful gulf, which separated the wicked from the tree of life, and also from the saints of God. And I said unto them that it was a representation of that awful hell, which the angel said unto me was prepared for the wicked." 1 Nephi 15:28,29 "they are carried away captive down to the eternal gulf of misery and woe." 2 Nephi 1 At death the righteous easily cross over this gulf of misery, but the wicked are engulfed by it. "Yea, we see that whosoever will may lay hold upon the word of God, which is quick and powerful, which shall divide asunder all the cunning and the snares and the wiles of the devil, and lead the man of Christ in a strait and narrow course across that everlasting gulf of misery which is prepared to engulf the wicked-- And land their souls, yea, their immortal souls, at the right hand of God in the kingdom of heaven, to sit down with Abraham, and Isaac, and with Jacob, and with all our holy fathers, to go no more out." Helaman 3:29, 30 "when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds, yea, his shafts in the whirlwind, yea, when all his hail and his mighty storm shall beat upon you, it shall have no power over you to drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless wo, because of the rock upon which ye are built, which is a sure foundation, a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall." Helaman 5:12 The righteous cross over this gulf with such ease most don't even realize that it is there. This is because they keep their eyes on the light, but the wicked flee from the light. When they do this they are swallowed up by the deep. "For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved." John 3:20 When the light is rejected it is then impossible to swim against the strong tides of the deep. "The lights go out and I can't be saved Tides that I tried to swim against... Come out upon my seas" Clocks by Coldplay “The tides have caused the flame to dim” All of My Love by Led Zeppelin The spirits that influence much of our modern music call out to these musicians for them to come and join them in this sea of sorrow. This is what "Come out upon my seas" means. This is a call for them to commit suicide. This is what happened to Nirvana's Kurt Cobain, Linkin Park’s Chester Bennington, Soundgarden’s Chris Cornell, and so many others. You cannot be an organ for this dark message without it affecting you. Earlier this year Soundgarden's lead man Chris Cornell put a belt around his neck and hung himself in his motel room. His family was shocked and surprised by this saying there were no signs. If you were familiar with the symbolism in modern music that among other things stresses suicide Kurt Cobain putting a shotgun in his mouth wouldn't surprise you either. Many songs strongly encourage suicide in a symbolic way like Justin Timberlake's song Mirrors. In this symbolic way of speaking the veil between the worlds is often referred to as a door, a window, a curtain, or even a mirror. “If you ever feel alone and The glare makes me hard to find Just know that I’m always Parallel on the other side… Just put your hand on the glass I’m here tryin’ to pull you through You just gotta be strong” Mirrors by Justin Timberlake These evil spirits are always there on the other side trying with all their might to pull us through the “Mirror” by having us end our lives. Another of these symbols for the veil is the “Curtain”. “We can make this leap Through the curtains of the waterfall So say Geronimo! Geronimo by Sheppard. No I don’t think I’ll be singing along with any of these songs especially if I’ve been having a bad day. You may not hear these voices calling out to you at night but many of our musicians do. “Listen as the wind blows From across the great divide Voices trapped in yearning Memories trapped in time” Possession by Sarah McLachlan “Echoed voices in the night She’s a restless spirit on an endless flight” Witchy Woman by Eagles Wind is symbolic of spirit, that which is felt but not seen. “I hear a wind Whistling air Whispering in my ear” Roam by the B-52’s “Like a wind from the ocean Feel the lightnin’ in the air Look in the mirror Are you the only one there” Everyones a Star by TNT A wind from the ocean is a spirit from hell coming through the “mirror” or the veil. These evil spirits inspire so many of the messages in our music, messages of sorrow and death, messages urging suicide. These evil spirits know that a human life is precious, something in their view to be destroyed. They take great joy when their work is successful as it has been this week. “Swish, swish, bish Another one in the basket Can’t touch this Another one in the casket” Swish Swish by Katy Perry Yea creepy. And we listen to this crap. Here’s one last one from Linkin Park. "(Caught in the undertow Just caught in the undertow) And every second I waste is more than I can take" Numb by Linkin Park If I could somehow get a message through to Chester Bennington I would say; "Go to the light so that you are not caught in the undertow". Do you think he would listen? The next time another musician commits suicide you will now know why this is happening, because this darkness is not ending anytime soon.

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