#well-fuelled

[tapeworrmart]

A bullet in his head, finally 💥

#This is because he was mean to me in a sickness fuelled dream I had last night 😤 get drawed idiot #Gonna be honest lads I fucking hate this. It always seems when I wanna draw T I fuck it up. He's my boy and I always fuck it up #Oh well I blame being sick #Gta v #Gta 5 #Trevor philips #Michael de santa #Trikey #Grand theft auto 5 #fan art #art #sketch #character art

[reactionimagesdaily]

#that 'well then' is the makers of this new power-up realising that they just fuelled a bunch of kink content #reaction image #reaction meme #daily reaction images #image mood: welp #submission

[cactikiki]

Cooking up an aftermath holiday fic + finally getting my plan for Reprise (aftermath part 3) from my head to a page of notes today.

Also, final chapter of WHTTB releases tomorrow.

It's gonna be a doozy.

>:]

#getting there. ouuugh #we are so getting there #hw2 has FUELLED me #it fed me WELL #and yall are gonna get such a tasty finale. #promise

[mademoisellesarcasme]

unironically one of the best things for my mental health around weight/food has been having kids because underweight babies are scary and bad but overweight babies are Thriving (seriously, a baby too underweight gets labelled "failure to thrive"). So weight is good, actually, because it adds energy and strength and room to grow.

#i need to make sure i keep feeding myself relatively well #i'm worried i'm on the edge of losing weight #this is my third illness this pregnancy #and at 24wks i'm approx 3lbs over my usual weight #but Inside Baby is estimated 1lb and change as of last week #so plus fluid and placenta i'm thinking i'm probably a little less than my usual #and i don't have a TON of fat reserves right now? #as noted: i've been sick on and off #so i gotta keep fuelling this kid's growth as well as keeping my own energy up #answer: food.

[illprotectyou-hearteyes]

So for the first half of the book I was reading Lucy Snow as bi or lesbian, and I think there are really coherent and rich readings of Lucy and the text as a whole through that lens. However the reading that *really* dug itself into my soul was of Lucy as an aromantic character. And I'll spare you all the essay on why, but I suffice it to say that at one point she and a man stumble through an extremely sweet and stumbling conversation in which you can hear them trying so so hard to invent the word 'queerplatonic' to describe what they want to be to each other. And this is what goes through Lucy's head in response:

“I envied no girl her lover, no bride her bridegroom, no wife her husband. I was content with this my voluntary, self-offering friend.” -from Villette by Charlotte Brontë

#villette #crucially!!! #when read through this lens #lucy and paul's relationship reads as no less profound #or less loving #or less committed #than it would be if it was read as more romantic #and it's not treated as superior to more romantic #passion-fuelled loves either! #it doesn't have a complex about being more *pure* than that #it's just begging to be allowed to exist #it just what they want #and in a time and society where #as the book repeatedly drives home #any relationship that isn't one of blood relations or marriage #is continually devalued #there is a quiet and stubborn resistance in it #that suits Lucy so well

[solargeist]

i love bird grian but i also love when people draw him with mechanical wings, or when the server itself looks like steampunk/solarpunk aesthetic (??) ish, its so funky i love the vibes

#scar having a flying wheelchair design instead of wings for an elytra #idk the server is built around. well. BUILDING... #steampunk but with COLOUR yknow. i dunno how else to describe it #everyone having safety gloves n goggles on . kneepads or things like that! #i wanted to write a story where the mc doesnt have powers so they make their own suits and im about to pour that energy onto grian #<- that idea was fuelled by my endless disappointment in b/n/h/a ADJJKDAadg

[highlifeboat]

Speaking of those posts by sex-bots, have you noticed they startes tagging them "Asexual"? Like, I know it's done by machines, that literally have no idea, what they doing, but still... Way to miss your entire core audience 🤣🤣

And yes, i get the irony, considering we are two aroaces, talking about smut here :p

I haven't actually.

I don't see a lot of posts from pornbots, they most just send me messages that look like they had a seizure while typing or follow me and I block them right away.

Although that is really funny they're tagging stuff as "Asexual". Probably going off trends or something and whatever algorithm they use to tag saw the spike in the ace tag.

I like smut. I mean, I don't really read it, but like I've said I find sex to be a fascinating thing.

#specifically inatimate stuff #like everything else is also fine but like #i'm a sucker for intimacy #like the idea of mia and alcina or mel and cass or max and dani or whatever just having passionate/sensual love fuelled sex is very neat an #cool because it's one of those things that shows their trust in one another #but also there are other ways that i enjoy more #like bathing or just sleeping naked or whatever #asks #horror lady00 #like belena and their couple baths or them cuddling naked together makes me feral #especially thinking about bela not enjoying touch from anybody all that much but she enjoys ELENA'S touch #(which is another thing I wanna implement into cassamia as well. Mia's touch aversion and then coming around to Cass. because yes)

[gameboyhamazing]

Hey guys remember a day or two ago when I said I blacked out and woke up to 3k words of Golden Sun fic? Here it is! I’m actually really proud of it (as in ‘I have reread it and enjoyed the experience’) so I hope you guys enjoy too!

The description says it already, but it’s basically a novelization of the scene where Felix takes off his mask, except Jenna is convinced that Felix is full of shit bc Felix is dead so that can’t be him, and her inner monologue reflects that. I had a lot of fun with this, and it satisfied the part of me that was very confused with Jenna easily accepting Felix’s survival

Also it was written when my first GS1 playthrough was right out of Suhalla Desert so keep that in mind

#Golden Sun #fanfic #my writing #gameboyhamwriting #that’s the tag now lol #it is my opinion based on what little I know of her #that Jenna is filled with and fuelled by spite and rage and a little bit of joyous whimsy (of the gleefully malevolent genre) #and I believe this fic shows that quite well #of the maybe 10 minutes I’ve seen of her in TLA this is canon #also I’m of the opinion that Jenna is basically family with Isaac Garet and Dora which also shows up in the fic #what I’m saying is k got hooked on the 10 minutes of Jenna on the first game #*I

[gundamcalibarney]

BEHOLD! More Pride-Related Headcanons!

Reasoning for such below the readmore, while most of them narrow down to “Yeah this label vibes with them” i Do have other reasons for such!

Emily : “Best Engine Ever” and her interactions with Caitlin just Scream romantic pining to me, she had/does that “looking cool in front of my crush yet damaging her self esteem because she’s So much cooler and better than her.” and vice versa just Adds to that. It’s also because i just don’t personally See her in a romantic relationship with male-identifying/aligning engines like Thomas or James.

Rebecca : Her canon disposition, i see her as a Friends-over-Romance type of engine, of course she’s supportive of her friends who are in Romantic relationships bit she just doesn’t really see herself In one. She’s Agender in a Trans way but i forgot to add the flag the same reason Henry is and they’re best friends because of that.

Thomas : The Valentines episode full stop, I see him as someone not interested in romantic relationships like “i just want friends!! Why can’t i have friends without you assuming i’m in a romantic relationship!!!!.”

James : I see him as someone who doesn’t care for the gender binary but still look good whilst doing so, He’s Bi because he just works with So many engines in terms of romance and i’m not surprised with that. Of course ONE DUDE just had to ruin one for us by simply existing but that’s besides the point.

Rusty : Straight up Happened in the Model series because of Britt Alcroft before Mattel decided to be losers but point stands.

Gordon : Gay because of an imaginary story i had where he crushes on Taw Valley and because of my headcanon of Gresleys crushing on people easily with him falling on the MLM side of the spectrum. He was in the closet for a Long while due to Homophobia from some Mainland engines until the years later.

Rosie : “Rosie is Red” is the primary reason, i see her as romance neutral, mainly because she Really doesn’t want to known as ‘Thomas’ Girlfriend’ and generally doesn’t Want to be in a romantic relationship. Demi-Girl is mainly for vibes, she probably discovered that after her repaint.

#core’s art #ttte #thomas the tank engine #ttte headcanons #pride month #ttte emily #ttte rebecca #ttte thomas #ttte james #ttte rusty #ttte gordon #ttte rosie #Rosie’s is actually also fuelled by my dislike of people tending to Label her as Thomas’ love interest #like Yes her interactions in the early series exist but those can also be explained in a non-romantic light as well #also cause it’s annoying how in some internet spaces she’s reduced to his Love interest and i Genuinely Hate That!!!

[imblocking-you]

Gonna go through the next two weeks by thinking I work in the same department as Yoo Sangah because she's also an HR girlie ✨️

#pure delusion i tell you #it's the only thing fuelling me #med psych pero napunta sa hr hayst #yoo sangah #// maple #this is how we deal with jobs #kdj a real one for this escapism #gave us some advice and i'm using it well #god i hope to get thru all this and come out sane still lol #orv #not much of an orv related post but more about my slow descent to choosing self-immolation #omniscient reader's viewpoint #i'm gonna tag anyway #onlookers i present you my shipwreck of a fucking blog and in extension my life #okay back to studying

[jmflowers]

I held my third niece for the first time today and just straight up cried looking at her perfect little face

#ahahaha #we are fuelling Hygge regeneration (and me regeneration) with babies galore #it’s little girl supremacy until my nephew arrives though #personal #auntie nell is doing well

[melting-morning-blues]

i am in tears. 「すずめ (suzume)」 by radwimps (ft. toaka) is definitely kiri's song!!!

beneath the cut are my interpretations of how the song fits kiri!! i may interpret the songs oddly but u just need to know that this song is so KIRI. AND I LOVE KIRI. AND I THINK PEOPLE NEED TO LISTEN TO THIS SONG!! (AND MAYBE WATCH THE MOVIE IF IT'S UP YOUR ALLEY)

also, this post is almost 1k words long because i ramble a lot 🏃 i present to u : me screaming and crying incoherently at a wall about another fictional character

"time is a sleeper, wind the soft skin, the star is a cradle, people are a mirage."

AGGHSGADH this (to me) is kiri feeling like he, in all his lives, was idly living and being washed along as time just continues ticking and ticking, and he's constantly being forgotten and belittled by people who enter and leave and enter and leave his life so quickly....

and because of how "people are a mirage", he can't tangibly seek comfort in them, no matter how much he craves that human connection that keeps SLIPPING THROUGH HIS FINGERS WHEN HE TRIES TO GRASP IT!!!! so he turns to nature for it, "wind the soft skin (this feels like an awkward translation but i'll close one eye) / the star is a cradle"!! like.... nature is soothing, it's healing, it's nurturing, you get what i mean??

and idk how much of this is canon to his character, but i know that he had lived in the mountains before to run a lodge there, so i would say that he can seek solace within nature! (also he's the water omni lord, right, so if you put two and two together, it's not far of a stretch!!!)

if this tear answers your question of why i’m crying, it can't compare to the meaning of us finding each other

OH MY GOD. forming connections, finding people he can bond and share memories and feelings with, finding that warmth to hold and cherish and honour -- these are SO important to kiri, because of how much he has lost throughout all of his lives. because of the countless people he had to let go and the many regrets that i feel he had accumulated for eons.

and (this is a Big stretch) crying alone, which creates that image of hiding away; concealing this part of himself from the rest of the world, would not compare to being able to cry with the people he could form so many meaningful bonds and memories with. because even though crying is (sort of) inconsequential and momentary, the act of sharing pain with someone/many people is brimming with vulnerability and trust. and it's SO. SO. HEARTWARMING.

(oh dear i. am rambling a lot. i'll just share a few more interpretations of lines that stood out prominently to me, but jsut know that "i found a heart that trembles only when i touch your hand / how many meanings must we overcome to get there?" wrenched my heart out of my chest)

it could be stupidity, it could be ugliness, beyond what’s right, i want to hold hands with you / i want to live with you

"stupidity", "ugliness",,, it's like, "it doesn't matter how much of myself i'm expressing, it doesn't matter how raw and desperate and enigmatic i may seem, as long as i can secure this feeling of hope, relief, comfort, assurance, satisfaction, etc etc.... i'll be content," do you get what i mean???

and i'm not saying this way of thinking is entirely healthy, but it does reveal kiri's desperation to find some kind of... validation (??) that has been very blatantly shown to us before (eg. accepting the dark core)

idk, i felt like this was worth mentioning gfjghjshfg i hope this doesn't feel too ooc of him AASFFHG

precious memories i can’t recall, these are the thoughts that can’t be put into words. maybe, just maybe, that’s all this heart is made of

why do i feel like i've only been interpreting this song through kiri's,,,, not-so-positive sides.. because these lines could convey how his personhood embodies the accumulation of experiences and memories from his previous lives. like, he's lived through so much, and yeah it's possible for him to remember what happened in his previous lives. but every memory? every feeling? every person's face, name, voice, and every experience that he deems "precious"? (and i'm sure he finds all the memories precious)

it must hurt to not be able to honour and celebrate parts of his own existence that he can't tangibly remember...

it must hurt to know that that's what he must carry within himself, as someone who has lived through eons.

--

ok this one is... very, very farfetched and it probably makes sense to me only, but there's a vocalist for this song, right? (toaka!! she's phenomenal, and her voice is so mesmerising and clear...) there are also backing vocals (most likely sung by a choir?) that feel like the "kiri"s from the past, pushing present kiri forward, providing him with courage and conviction and hope, highlighting his voice filled with emotion, determination, an endless thirst for knowledge, a yearn to fully understand and accept both his present self, his past selves, and miserea, and a hope for a brighter, more promising future.

and though his voice may waver and he may be overwhelmed with his inner voice (and multitude of memories), he still wants to shine a light and celebrate the lives "he" had lived before, so he sings along with the many "kiri"s of the past!! (THIS IS MAKING ME VERY SENTIMENTAL, CAN YOU TELL)

also toaka's voice is so soft, so smooth, so gentle, so emotional... it's so KIRI!!! this is his singing voice, i rest my case.

andd..... with that being said, i conclude my lengthy and long-winded essay about why すずめ is kiri's character song and why you desperately need to listen to this lovely lovely masterpiece (that has been looping in my playlist for the past month)!! also watch the movie, すずめの戸締り (or just "suzume", i think), cuz it looks really promising!

that is all, have a kiri picture from the wiki (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)

ok byebyee

#[ mio talks aloud: ] #[ mio writes: ] #[ o'tune: ] #[ mindworks: ] #future card buddyfight #kiri hyoryu #i just realised i didn't really mention/talk about miserea... #UMM WELL #i think that's another part of kiri's identity (well actually “kiri” is part of miserea's identity.... it's complicated) #that demands for another conversation as a whole! #anyways. i love kiri!!! #also i dono't think i gave his character as much justice as i hoped for but if my interpretation makes sense then that's more than enough #i ended the post very awkwardly but i was fuelled by adrenaline so i didn;t know how else to finish err yea 👍 #im sorry for rambling loll #take it as my contribution to the fcbf tag

[punkmacabre-arc]

#    ( 𝔮. )     —     ◟   WHICH  TRAGIC  DEATH  WOULD  YOU  SUFFER  ???

THE SACRIFICE:

you     die     saving     the     thing     you     love.     maybe     it     is     family,     friends,    perhaps     even     a     cause.     they     will     carry     your     face     with     them     for     the     rest     of     their     lives,     &     every     milestone     they     pass     will     make     them     think     of     you.     it     does     not     matter     because     you     won't     be     there     to     experience     it     with     them.     years     down     the     line,     they     will     meet     people     who     do     not     even     know     the     weight     of     your     name     upon     their     skin.     this     is     what     your     selflessness     gets     you     in     the     end.

tagged by: @ducygnenoir ( mwah 🖤 ) tagging: @ofsoul, @whitelace, @lakeletters ( zee & daenerys ), @selinaes, @lusifr & if you see this ur tagged now < 33

#✞ ⠀ ⠀ ᶠᴵᴳ ⁵ ⠀ . ⠀ ⠀ games #OH HO THIS STINGS #his own selfish needs are fuelled by his love for others #that is one of his v core doctrines #and in his love for other his own selfish needs (especially with magic) are what devours everything #it's a bashit insane cycle of addiction - can't ever quit magic that's been a survival tactic since early childhood days #but can't ever quit his desperation to love and be loved #it's COOKED if u asked me #but the thought of constantine ever breaking it and doing a selfless act ? and that act being the thing that kills him- not magic or cancer #someone get matt reeves or mike flannigan on this ASAP #two men i'd trust to do a constantine adaptation right #'dying for a cause' it'd fit so well with his punk anarchist views as well #christ i'm so unwell about this uquiz

[cj-kenobi]

i miss when nature documentaries were juicy (showed real not cgi animals and told you actual fact about stuff)

#im sooooo sick of some new documentaries #watched one that talked about comic energy from millions of years ago still fuelling life today like yeah buddy its called the sun either #tell me facts about it or move the fuck on #like i didnt learn a single thing and that is the entire point of a documentary surely #like no. i am here for you to ram as many facts about whatever into a 40 minute windo as possible if i dont learn some random shit about a #volcano or an animal i didnt know existed then what is the point #also they never show blood at all anymore and im so confused about that #im also sick to fucking death of cgi animals and shit go film it !!! #i miss the little making of sections at the end of them as well when you'd get to see the camera crew camping and hanging out and stuff #or when they'd just stick david attenborough on the side of an errupting volcano and get him to talk about it lmao #this is so specific i know but still #documentaries

[lockandkeyhyena]

why are you "obsessed with your cinders art" if it looks like shit... probably the worst wc art ive ever seen. looks like a fucking circle. get off tumblr and practice your art and come back when youre actually good lmao

come on please put some work into your hate anons man. this is just sad.

#would be fascinated to know what fuelled this #oh well at least its not a terf this time #girl i was a bullied autistic child you really think ur doing anything???? come ON get CREATIVE #yeen rambles #ask #do u guys want me to tag hate anons? am i famous enough to be getting hate anons now?? #can someone explain the thought process that causes someone to send an anon like this i am FASCINATED i want to study you anon

[tequitoclown]

I hate waking up early. Not because I have to wake up early, but because I lay in bed dreading it to the point where I don't get much sleep beforehand.

You can never win on this bitch of an Earth.

#I was also watching videos on Kirby Lore #Did you know there may be a connection between Void Termina and Fecto Elfilis? #Elfilis was able to absorb power from the Butterfly right? And they became Chaos Elfilis. #Well Void Termina was also fuelled by the force of chaos. Whose to say the butterfly isn't the source of Chaos? #I'd go more into detail but man my dog has a vet appointment tomorrow shit #Look it up and thanks for reading the tags #tequito.txt