#what my brain comes up with at 2 am

[sarah-dipitous]

There is no “too much” when it comes to bakugo

#bnha 409 #mha 409 #edit several hours later: I know I could actually just edit it but what my brain at 1-2 am could not come up with was #there’s no such thing as ‘overkill’ with bakugo

[bonetrousledbones]

legitimately the only explanation i have for the process of this is that i listened to lights out by mindless self indulgence once and blacked out for an hour

#trousled arts #eye strain #blood #injury #? #i mean half his face is gone . so #papyrus #undertale #i did most of the coloring with my screen filter on because it is 2:49 am #and then i removed it just to check and. look yall are so lucky i did that ok #all of these colors were at their Absolute value. as in instead of getting them off the color wheel i used the number sliders #as in that red was (255 0 0) #and then i took off the filter and flashbanged myself #god. msi is full of shit people but they hype me up so much apparently where the hell did this come from #i guess my brain decided its been too damn long since i drew papyrus covered in blood. FINE !!!!!! #edit switched out the scanlines for a cooler texture lol #edit edit added the scanlines version back in because i am indecisive 😎 #edit edit edit yknow what they have been combined. whatever

[spaciebabie]

shoutout 2 this person in my class who i can tell wants 2 talk 2 me really bad but instead of doing that whenever she has the chance she'll talk 2 whoever else is around and ignore me entirely unless im mentioned by name

#bruh lmao #so awkward. say something you dingus lol #ik you wanna talk 2 me so bite the bullet already #gyatt #spacie spoinks #literally. she was having a conversation with my partner for the project im doing. and like #heres the thing #if im not invited into conversation i usually dont participate #im like a vampire like that #and so like. after they're done conversating she'll just kind of. stand there. this has happened twice now #like dude sdkfjshlkdfj #im not upset by this behavior i have very awful social patterns as well and have been thru this (i am autistic) #am i gonna hafta say something. lol #probably #''hey bro whats up with you. i dont mean like how are you doing. i mean like. whats wrong with you.'' #cant say that its not funny when you say it irl only when the ppl you're talking with know you're not being mean 😭 #also like. this person has been staring at me lol #which like. makes me flustered so whenever she's around i panic and my face fucking turns red its god awful #for awhile it made uhh. my paranoia get really bad im ngl!! #its already bad when it comes 2 being around strangers but this like made it REALLY bad for a few weeks #im more calm now tho. rational brain won over and im chillin #i gotta work up the courage 2 say something b4 the semester is over or this is gonna bother me for the rest of my life sfkjsdhflkjs #i dont wanna put her on the spot #the only time i see her is when im in class #and . doing that interaction in front of ppl. i dont wanna embarrass her ksjfskjd

[jacobglaser]

You're Trashcan, right? It's been a while. We called you that because they found you in a trash can? It was actually a dumpster. Trashcan had a better ring, I guess.

→  Will Trent // 1x01 Pilot

#i've come all the way back round on this show #the first 2 episodes are still not great but once they've moved away from the books it actually slaps. especially the last few #will trent #faith mitchell #angie polaski #michael ormewood #amanda wagner #ramon rodriguez #iantha richardson #erika christensen #jake mclaughlin #sonja sohn #will trent 1x01 #willtrentedit #mygifs #nat gifs will trent #once again i am drawn in by a mean red headed woman is anyone shocked #i'm still having to detatch it from the books in my brain because the books are literally everything to me #and it will never live up to what i have in my head

[rotisseries]

inspired by elli's poll lol cause this seems fun actually but if you guys have bad answers I'll kill myself on your doorstep or smth

#“rori all of these are your faves how can there be a bad answer” well I still have an internal ranking on some of these #and if all of you pick an option that I think pales in comparison to the others. well. hm #I know what's gonna sweep though because two of these are niche as hell and 4 maybe 5 of these are things you people don't follow me for #fun fact I actually had to scrape my brain to make sure I couldn't come up with any more #I am unintentionally very picky on what is a favorite apparentlyyyy #I also just don't watch/read enough stuff these days so there's that #AND I NEED LONG TERM EXPOSURE TO KNOW THEY'RE STICKING AROUND #so like. I have some options but I don't KNOWWW if they're sticking yet #but this feels like such a small poll lmao #also no sapphics on here this is actually cause I hate women- #NO. JOKING. zelink is here. I almost put gideon and harrow but I'm in a perpetual state of not having finished tlt #and I couldn't put nebetta and darya I was drawing the line at 2 tbos ships. well. actually. changed my mind #not editing these tags actually you guys can see my thought process #WAIT AND SAYMARI. FUCK. I LITERALLY MADE A PLAYLIST FOR THEM I LOVE THEMMM #ok. is 4 tbos ships too many. hmm #I said 2 of these are niche now four of these are niche it's really the “which tbos pairing is your fave” poll #THIS POLL IS SO FUNNY IT'S SO SELF INDULGENT I HAVE TO TAKE OUT AT LEAST ONE TBOS SHIP #I should add one more general one... #cause I do actually want genuine and varied answers I gotta give y'all options so they don't all pool at the first two #I also almost put ellie and abby on here.. that would've been so funny four popular 1 rarepair 3 super niche ships #ellie and abby are soooo interesting to me though so of course the thought of them having something horrible going on together compels me #and they are one of my 3 favorited ao3 tags... they deserve a place... #ok well while I debate on that I'm putting akutagawa and atsushi on here I admittedly have only had like two months of exposure to them #but it is enough I can tell they are so crazy to me #the way my tags are just me overthinking everything on what is supposed to be a fun and silly poll... no one does it like me I'm afraid

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying #shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl #in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated #bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not #her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet #so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive #personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd #compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from #happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is #like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil #not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am #barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me #and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them #but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and #thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard #to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds #nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of #brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but #that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer #defying the stats but for how much longer? #i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it #i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else #excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things #unrelated #ed mention #i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama #bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]

[lukemichaelcalumashton]

i love you complete mess i love you easy for you to say i love you bad omens i love you me myself & i i love you take my hand (joshua tree version) i love you carousel i love you older i love you haze i love you you don't go to parties i love you blender i love you caramel i love you best friends i love you bleach i love you red line i love you moodswings i love you flatline i love you emotions i love you bloodhound i love you tears! i love you 5sos5 i love you 5sos

#i'm a changed person after listening to this album #i love this band so much #<3 <3 <3 #5sos #this is all my brain can come up with at 2 am after listening to the album two times in a row #so this is what you get

[orcelito]

My druid has "fuckboy" written all over her

#speculation nation #shes a druid but she does Not look it. nor does she act like it really. #druid stuff exists to beef myself up as a front liner (spores druid ftw) #and to act as an excuse like 'whaaaat why r u so suspicious of me im a druid 🥺🥺🥺 i just want what's best for nature 🥺🥺🥺' #meanwhile here i am hogging ALL the worms we manage to find (or. well. most of them.) #bc im going full ham into my powers lol theyre so useful #this is a game of pressing Every button and seeing what happens. yet still going along the lines of good? approximately? #it very much does feel like the kind of thing a druid drow would do. willing to consort with the darkness #but still ultimately striving for peace and order. #i am just perhaps a little bug-brained to accomplish this :3 #ive been playing a Lot of bg3. progressing well through act 2. everything is so very scary and i am just 1 druid 🥺 #(i say as if i havent killed literally every single enemy ive come across. im so fucking good at this game.) #the house of healing was by far my least favorite part (so far). that boss battle was TERRIBLE but i managed to get through it. #according to my friends they just talked their way out of it. not me tho. i saw that guy strapped to the table and i was just like #'GET FUCKED BRO' *casts moonbeam* *proceeds to get the shit stabbed outta me* #holy shit he did so much damage. and he was focused ONLY ON ME....... #took me and shadowheart both healing to keep up with the damage he was doing (while astarion and karlach did most of the attacking) #but i did it! hes gone! but holy shit poking around his stuff has been so. eugh. #im in the towers now. so scary. just barely started them tho. gonna look for the prisoners and then proceed from there. #that ketheric dude is fucking terrifying. so big scared about him. but All Men Die The Same �� #.....well maybe not exactly the same given his 'immortality' thing 😂 but i'll figure it out. #anyways yea check out taltana im going for a mixed feminine and masculine kinda vibes with her. and enjoying it very much. #bg3 spoilers/

[boxwinebaddie]

an uncle nina update...i mean UPHATE!

okay there's a couple lines at the bottom i didn't fill in...i don't want to talk about it...that's a problem for future me idc idc! it's done, okay?

BUT AT LONG....LONG LAST....I AM FINALLY....FINISHED fuCkiNG WRITING RM6 AND AM EDITING AND FORMATING IT ON AO3!

when i tell you there are tears in my tears...oh my god...please, clap.

i am going to start deletion progress of probably 1k worth of spaces between lines ( whoever decided that when you paste a google doc it double spaces everything...please meet me in the pit, motherfucker! ) running a fine tooth comb through everything, figuring out where certain italics/blockquote goes, writing the sh*t i put off at the end & crying to taylor swift loudly over the sound of my cracking fingers.

but first...i am taking...a nap....or i'm gonna try. #freeunclenina

because i pulled a writer girl all-nighter.

...and brain hurty so, so bad.

-uncle nina, making miracles happen on the last day of nanowrimo

p.s. if you see me on here answering ask memes and being a circus clown, please close your eyes...i miss her ( my not-stressful inbox )

#call my hands and eyes shelley marsh the way they b burning #i cant believe judgement day is finally upon me #and by that i mean everyones gonna judge me for my mess #which its kind of a mess but u know what! *white mom vc* bless that mess! she is chaotic and very cute to me #i worked...hard on her #when i tell you i had to split...my original idea...into three parts...i need to go to jail #or to the insane asylum or sleep and jail again #but this is gonna be part 1 of either 2/3 i guess #buckle up #there would be less parts but i gave us a little ravenstan pov as a treat because you all waited patiently #but its mostly kyle...in rm its crazy kyle season sorry #but uh! you're all always nice to me but please be kind to me and i'm sorry if its not out by tonight #i am literally so tired like i'm typing so slow rn because my brain is so drained and my hands are strained #BUT ITS COMING GUYS! I HOPE ITS WORTH IT WHEN IT'S HERE BECAUSE WOW...I AM LAUGHING AND CRYING

[the-hilda-librarians-wife]

I've come to the conclusion that when it comes to new characters I have the same attitude as a poorly socialized dog. I swear every time new content comes around and we get the news of new characters my instant reaction is to just. Dislike them. Hope they have little to no importance in the plot. Even when the design looks nice and the characters seem interesting. They're taking screen time away from my faves and my heart tells me to Bite

#this isnt even about the Thing. Its about Astrid #that cool and interesting looking old lady #(im assuming thats her name its what ive seen people use) #Im pretty sure there's something ot be said about my autism here #i dont want things to change. I dont want to risk the show taking a turn for the worse and becoming Insane #if it were up to me #s2 would have just been a reprise of s2 while focusing on different things #and s3 would be a reprise of s2 #which means ofc that the show wouldn't be nearly as compelling as it is. that' why i trust the writers #but at the same time I HAAAAAATE CHANGE #I think the longer hiatuses contribute to this. I am given time to adjust to what can be considered canon and then BOOM #rug pulled from under me with only like 2 months of antecedence. #and I have to be prepared to let go of my headcanons and my current views of this world and its characters #and to accept that these new faces they're throwing at us will be just as important as the ones I already know and love #like I WANT to be spoiler free but at the same time I gotta prepare myself for what's coming #bc otherwise I'm gonna get the air knoked out of me fr #cons of letting a show take over 60% of your brain #turns to the other 40%: at least I've got you. you'll never change or abandon me #*the Cells look at me uninpressed and tell me to get a job* #hilda the series #hilda s3

[w1lmutt]

Head full brain overworked I'm thinking about the flesh in ln2 again

#specifically what the heck it is #and from what i can gather. it. might not be from their dimension??? #reality/dimension warping is kinda what i feel like is the theme w the flesh #especially with how the signal tower doors and the tvs function the same #and both requires traveling through flesh walls. as seen when we first travel through the tv in pale city #and the whole signal tower is secretly flesh #you end up in an endless room whenever you hit the music box. and in the ending you end up on a endless flesh floor till you find the chair #and!! that flesh prison transforms into a room #suggesting it's not exactly real but also when we were chased before the walls started breaking w the flesh coming out... #aughh my brain #idk i am just fascinated with the signal tower mono thin man and the tvs and how they all intersect #i feel like a smarter me would be able to make a more comprehensive thought on what the purpose of the flesh and the signal tower is #little nightmares 2

[misfithive]

Has anyone done a Young Royals x Breakfast Club fic? Like if none of them really knew each other and then they are stuck together for detention. But maybe August is like in charge of the detention instead of the principal bc he is the perfect and he is being his usual self. And add Henry in detention. Simon = Bender (self explanatory) and Wille = Claire (since she is the “princess”)

#if someone has done one please send it to me i will love you forever #this is what comes to my brain at 2 am #i dressed up as bender for halloween one year lmao #young royals #just think about it! #wilmon #simon eriksson #omar rudberg #prince wilhelm #edvin ryding #wilhelm young royals #wilhelm x simon

[da-proti-toku-grem]

feeling like a total asshole today 👍

#an aunt's mom passed away yesterday night #i didn't really know her that much just spoke to her a few times for the typical merry christmas & happy new year you know #so when my mom told me i felt bad for my aunt bc i knew they were really close but i don't feel SAD #but my parents seemed to be like so shocked and sad and my little brother even started crying #and i felt absolutely nothing #idek what my mom saw in my face but she went like 'don't you feel anything?' and like wtf am i supposed to feel #like. i'm sorry for my aunt and everything but i just????? #that already made me feel like an absolute asshole but now we have to go there (like 2hours away by car) #and because i am an adult now i *have* to go to the funeral home (?) today and to the funeral tomorrow #and i REALLY don't want to and thought it's making me so fucking anxious bc i haven't been there since my grandma passed away 2 years ago #i really don't want that feeling that i felt back then to come back #not right now #not when i've been starting to feel a bit better this past week #but i'm already failing at that because they started to come back the moment i was told i have to go #and i feel like a fucking asshole because my aunt's mom literally passed away and she (and her whole family) must be heartbroken right now #and all i can think about is that i'm anxious #i'm anxious to go back there. i'm anxious just thinking that i'll have to express my condolences to people that i don't even know #i'm anxious because i'll have to TALK to people and at least try to look a bit SAD but i can't just fake it #bc if i don't look sad my brain tells me that i'm an asshole that doesn't have feelings like apparently everyone around me has #but if i fake it my brain tells me that i'm an asshole bc why tf do i have to fake my fucking personality #why can't i just express my fucking feelings like normal people do and the only thing that i know how to do is fucking complain #like. i know i rant a lot here but it's literally the only place where i talk about my feelings #i NEVER talk about my feelings with anyone because idk HOW to do it #i have like a million things in my mind that i want to tell my mom or my therapy for example but when i finally convince myself to do it #i just CAN'T. the thoughts won't leave my mouth because i don't know how to phrase them properly #so nothing ever leaves my mind unless i make a post here bc apparently writing my thoughts in english (my 2nd language) #is easier than talking in spanish #and at least if i write them here they don't just stay bottled up in my mind #but i'm too tired of myself and my stupid brain that tells me that i do everything wrong :/ #i'm gonna shut up now bc i once again reached the tag limit

[skeletalheartattack]

cops disbanded forever because the attempted arrest of a skeleton and a cat resulted in the cars being crushed by their huge tits

let's get arrested. together.

#ask #raidendotcom #i hope i dont regret typing that one day #my brains a mess cause i was talking to a friend while listening to waynes novelai stream. i have a slight headache #as i was talking to them i could feel as if what i was typing was starting to become gibberish #i am still recovering #raiden do you think itd be cool if kiryu had big naturals. sorry ive been watching a lot of yakuza videos. #or would majima be more befitting #their astral game must be off the charts i think. #sorry raiden if you cant answer. but im diffefent. whatevrer #after answering this im going back to watching yakuza kiwami 2 #the ragdolls in the game offput me a little bit but i think throwing them off the screen makes up for it #though the battle music keeps fucking me up cause its the one they used in the one scene in the grand of yakuza 0 #its a good song but it feels like it should only be played that once #so hearing the piano for thugs and yakuza on the streets everytime is offputting #but i dont mind it as much now that im getting use to watching it #im excited for yakuza 8 and the other game that comes out this year involving joryu #anyway i didnt mean to hyperfixate on yakuza while were talking about our fucking bobbies. im SORRY #thank you for the ask boobies. i mean breasts. i mean raiden. smile. then evil smile. :) >:) <- for reference

[moe-broey]

Hhnghb

#FULLY MEDICATED AGAIN. #idk.... what to do...... i. want to do so many things. nothing is striking me at the moment though #i have The Pile (all of the ever-growing askr fam collection in my queue storage) #I HAD. SO MANY THOUGHTS. ABOUT VERONICA'S MAP. I WAS GONNA MAKE SOME POSTS ABOUT IT. AT LEAST HIGHLIGHTING SOME YHINGS #i was gona. post more of moe. and drop Some lore but mostly housekeeping #i won a little anya keychain plush at the arcade just to study her and use her as a ref. she is so cute. #i HAD a directing for the al/shari plush bodies but idk. if. i want to commit. i have no idea at thsi point #yesterday was SO fucked up i fucking meant it when i say you only start to feel the absence of meds day 2. #it's crazy..... like painkillers but for your brain..... like it's striking how i do have a lot of these thoughts/feelings #like all of the time but the meds just make them more manageable. put me at a baseline to sit w them better. #AH I WANTED TO BLEACH MY HAIR AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!! I FINALLY ALSO PICKED UP MORE HAIRBLEACH #yesterday was so fuckinh stupid though like all day i was just spacing out and teary. #like ah ..... the horrors............ blinks so sadly and sheds such delicate tears. dude come on #inmy heart of hearts i HAVE to believe in askr meds exist and all you have to do is ask the right person/pull the right strings. #i have NEVER been a 'fix my disability' bitch. we are managing that shit. through treament and accomodations. #it's also just more useful that way to me. to conceptualize and also to make peace w it. #like it has a feedback loop effect to it. through writing i'm inevitably sorting through thoughts/feelings #that WILL be relevant to my day to day life. #i think.... i am starting to feel a little better....... i just lack direction.

[thegeminisage]

having moderate skill in the art of lucid dreaming but not enough to actually lucid dream is wack. still thinking about a dream i had a few nights ago where my front yard was just covered in snow. and i remember turning to my mom and going, is this REAL? i'm not dreaming?? but instead of doing the dream checks like you're supposed to do (looking at hands, flipping light switches, reading things, etc) i just looked at it really hard and decided i was feeling the physical sensation of seeing something with my eyes open like they felt open and not closed. which meant it was real. and for the past two or three days i keep catching myself wishing i'd hung out outside more when we had snow and then remembering we didn't actually have any fucking snow i MADE IT UP.

#personal #the trick is to do the dream checks CONSTANTLY while you're awake #that + writing down your dreams the second you wake up #it'll train your brain to 1. do dream checks without thinking while asleep and 2. remember what you dream #unfortunately i was never as diligent as i needed to be to gain total mastery and gave up sometime in my late teens/early 20s #i am able to wake myself instantly if i feel a bad dream coming on. like before it turns bad #which is handy because i've only had like a handful of bad dreams in the last decade #but i can't fly or breathe underwater or do any of that cool shit