#would you not ache? would you not cry?

[vintageshits]

amazed (not really) about the fact that the only thing keeping me sane at the moment is shitposting/headcanoning/ranting/fangirling/mentally dating a fictional character from a book that is 158 years old, and that the same things that I find appealing in him are the same things that make me miserable in real life (no job, no money, family overwhelmed by the fact that I am not doing so well, devoted christian partner wanting to show me the way), but he’s so smart, handsome and babygirl, and I am not.

#anya’s nonsense #personal #you know what character I’m talking about #i would die for him #I won’t even tag this where it should go because it’s not even related to the book #what would rodia do I ask myself every night before cry myself to sleep #idk if I need help but venting is the best medicine ain’t it? #maybe that’s why I ache when people talk about love in that certain book #because I can no longer see it as the great thing it should be #maybe I should just get a job lmao #that would fix me

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

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#update for my friends here #(and then I gotta go read aristotle lol) #I'm doing ok. I think maybe I've made some friends here. particularly a couple of girls on my hall who have been very kind to me. #wish my emotions would come back and be normal #and by 'normal' I mean not just random crying whenever I try to sit still and think for a few minutes. #there's so much happening. my heart is pulled so many ways. I'm not sure how to resolve any of it. #and I'm aching for resolution. #but I think God is trying to show me how much more I still haven't done or experienced #even though a lot of times I feel like I've lived all of life there is to live and there's nothing left anymore. #I wish I had more trustworthy people in my life who are older than me and can help speak into this experience. #I need to call my parents and siblings back home. I miss them. #I keep questioning my decision to come here. maybe I should've stayed home. #I don't know. maybe it's all an exercise in trust. #I'm still afraid most of the time I think. I wish I could put that fear to death. I wish I could just lean back and trust. #everything just moves so fast. #if any of my post-college (undergrad at least) friends would like to give me tips for slowing down and being intentional with life #and relationships and stuff #during this phase of life--I am extremely open to hearing about them! #love you all <3

[mari-beau]

Boomers saying "Just wait until you get older" to (younger) chronic pain sufferers is one of the most disgusting, condescending and selfishly arrogant ways they belittle and devalue the pain/experience of others.

#sorry but also not sorry #today was bad #one of the worst I've had with the crushed nerve in my arm #like so bad I was nauseated #I have a lifelong unfixable repetitive work injury for nothing... literally from a job I worked with no benefits and shit pay #so don't talk to me about how your back or knee aches a little sometimes #like it's worse than the severe pain I experience on a semi-regular basis that would have you crying to your doctors for opioids

[bibuck-saved-me]

learning about buck’s childhood just makes the grocery store moment so much worse. he talks to the 118 about his problems because he thought he could trust them with it. because the only other person he could ever talk to about anything was maddie, and even she was always just a little bit out of reach. he tells them so much bad stuff because they’re supposed to be the safe place he can go where nothing hurts. somewhere he isn’t alone. his family, to remind him that he is loved and everything is gonna be okay.

what eddie said told buck that it never was a safe space. that every time he spoke to them, when he thought he finally found someone who cared enough to hear him, there was a part of them that saw him as a nuisance. an exhausting nuisance who complains about everything. who’s problems are so minuscule, they don’t matter at all. he was an inconvenience. something they had to carry but didn’t want to.

just like his parents.

#please don’t yell at me for this i do love eddie and the 118 #as someone who relates a LOT to buck this is how i perceive the situation #when you grow up invisible and you finally trust someone with all of you it leads to a lot of opening up #about all sorts of things even just stubbing your toe cuz for once in your life you have someone! who might care! #even though it’s just your toe #because in the past it was never just your toe #it was every single thing that hurt #every bad moment you kept inside because you were alone in the world #there was no one there to hug you when you were sad #buck’s parents may have started out caring when he got physically hurt #but they were always emotionally neglectful #and when they did care they cared for the wrong reasons in the wrong way #and even that faded with time #their love wasn’t just conditional it was. it was so rare #how many times did he sit alone and ache and ache and ache #and all he wanted was someone to hold him. tell him he’s gonna be okay #how many times did he cry himself to sleep #how many times did he sit and wonder what he did wrong. why they saw through him. why he wasn’t enough #what could he do to be enough? what would make them look at him and see him #and be happy with what they saw #happy enough to smile at him #god what he would’ve done to have someone smile at him #and then he thought he found it. he thought he could be enough for someone. they loved him #they listened to him #and then eddie says that it’s whining. that it’s annoying and exhausting and awful #that buck should suck it up and deal with it on his own #and. and the pain he must have felt #911 #evan buckley

[cosmicdreamgrl]

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#me? cry in the car before going to a work meeting because i feel like my heart was taken from me yet again? #unfortunately yes #visitation would be good they said #it will ease the ache they said #i'm here to tell you that it felt like both the best & worst thing to ever exist #because you have an hour of bliss & then realize you have to say goodbye to him until next month #and time is not real & neither of you wanted to leave but here we are #so yes i feel raw #but the world doesn't care so i sobbed sucked it up and went to see people afterwards like nothing happened #life is so great huh #what a joy indeed #steph.text

[halfelven]

i am sick with want

#i wish i could be around people without hiding all emotions #or not having emotions #or otherwise having to run off to cry #making them uncomfortable #and i want so much out of life it aches #but i’m staring at the wall wanting to talk to someone #but who would want to hear it? #it’s so much pain #and i don’t want to hear what they think #they would have done in my place #you don’t know!!!! #you don’t know unless you lived it #txt

[everwisp]

moments in @emilycollins00 new guy fic that made me cry and made my heart ache, please give it a read if you have the time! tysm again em it was amazing 😭🩵🩵

#i was about to just post the whole thing but stopped myself #look at me annotating -ish #sent my live reactions to em as i was reading it cause yeah 🥲 #i loved it so much and i just skfnskfkem #i went so crazy on these its unrealll #like like ‘something everlasting’ AHHHH HELP #it got me more than it should’ve tbh #when it mentioned he memorized his vows on the first week akcneif #then then he started crying and the way i gasped #AND THEN HIS REALIZATION HE MADE SOMEONE HAPPY!! SIR ILL BREAK DOWN WITH U #AND THEN #‘Wherever you are thats where i want to be if you’ll let me’ THE WAY MY HEART ACHED #AND THEN THE ENDING !!! #‘Thank you… for allowing me to love you.’ SIRRRRRR U ALREADY HAVE MY HEART WHAT MORE DO U WANT #this was fantastic 10/10 would read again and again #ever rants #everuwus #sending ​all my love and good vibes to u em ✨✨

[drusill-a]

This Christmas my only real family are my two mongrels, my yorkie, my cat and an almost empty bottle of wine stolen from my brother's wedding gifts hidden behind my bed.

#i cried for several hours last night to the extent that my head still ached for half a day afterward #there were a few mini-crying sessions during the day also #yesterday i laid out to my mother what i think #more openly than i have in many years #it started with her asking why i was upset and i replied something that she shouldnt bother #and should return to spending the holidays with the people she loves the most #aka Jarosław Kaczyński his crew and those protesting in defense of /free media/ #it would have been nice if i hadn't burst into tears immediately but you can't have it all #(all while my brother and sister-in-law tried to clean the room next door and pretended not to hear) #overall i'm shocked at how strongly the realization hit me #that nothing will ever change when it comes to my parents #and it will only get worse #they will become more hateful #more narrow-minded #more hating imagined enemies of poland constantly finding new ones #as apparently i still had some hope! #given that i cried for about two hours after i stopped yelling at my mother #(also on the verge of tears) #but i had hoped that when tvp will be turned off #a detox from that trash would bring some truth to them at least in some matters #instead they simply switched to tv republika :))) my mom promised to cut down on watching politics said on holidays #said we simply won't discuss it and watch sth else #and she and my father will be more careful not to subject me to watching rightist propaganda #and today no change they've been glued to the same channel for half the day :)))) #it hurts so damn much because they are good people #just with zero critical thinking skills so susceptible to manipulation #i was numb for years #and suddenly such a reaction is a surprise for me #i didn't know i had hope that something would ever change so it's an interesting revelation in terms of introspection #// negative // no point in this rant i'm just processing!

[dizzybevvie]

apollo. beverly. buddy. omg... please feel free to explain what the easily solvable issue is cuz omg...... Big Deal it seems

OK THIS IS KIND OF EMBARRASSING BUT BEVERLY (15, boy scout, uhhh my blorbo my little meow meow) HAS THIS BOYFRIEND IN THE CAMPAIGN. HIS NAME IS ERLIN, HE IS ALSO A BOYSCOUT (the in universe alt is Green Teen lmao), HES GINGER, I CARE ABOUT HIM VERY MUCH. I care about this relationship so deeply. I love them I literally cannot NOT gush about Bev and Erlin theyre adorable theyre amazing i adore them.

Im not gonna cover everything, but for context when Bev & Erlin got together (~ep 20?) there was a big war going on in their home city. technically the war is still happening but it has since moved. Beverly's house gets bombed etc etc, they have to flee to escape the city. They split up, with Erlin and his family fleeing, Bev's dad and the other Green Teens are sent to a different dimension (THROUGH A KISS FROM BEV AND ERLIN MIGHT I ADD), and Beverly and the rest of the party go somewhere else that isnt important rn.

Since that episode, Beverly has been collecting things for him. A book about his interests, a poster, some drugs?? i think??? Just little trinkets he thinks Erlin would like for when he next sees him. The DM and player of Beverly have said that the relationship was never planned, it just sort of happened, but after that theyve discussed a long standing mutual crush and other stuff that makes me weep.

Bit of a time skip to around episode 50? By this point, theyve had a few more adventures, and have ventured into this other dimension to try to find Beverly's dad and their friends. They do, and after a lot of hardship and other stuff, they have a big celebration. Beverly, in his defense, is a LITTLE drunk, and meets this autumn looking boy. To be perfectly honest they hit it off. At the end of the bit, the boy tries to kiss him, and Beverly very maturely says something to the effect of, "Im sorry. theres someone else." and leaves. at this point im sweating fucking bullets. I am way too invested in Beverly and Erlin to be normal. But im thinking, oh, sweet, a breath of fresh air. And then he doubles back and kisses him.

And there are so many factors to this. I am fully aware that Beverly is 15. I am fully aware it is both his and Erlin's FIRST relationship. I am fully aware that they will probably be fine after a couple of conversations. but the BETRAYAL 😭 I was heartbroken im not even gonna lie LMAO. I paused the episode and I called Raya to rant about this stulid bullshit 💀. Am i angry at Beverly the character? No. Do i think Erlin's gonna be fucking DISTRAUGHT? Yes.

For me, if it was in the moment and then a, 'fuck, sorry, i shouldnt have-" Thatd be more acceptable. but its the fact that he clearly chose not too and then changed his mind. 😭😭😭

And yes. Beverly has gone through a lot in the past couple of days. His dad and friends aged 25 years in a month. His Dad keeps telling him, after being away from him for several months, that if they are to let anyone die, to let it be him. Another one of his father figures is going through a MASSIVE identity crisis. A war is happening. Beings that are as close to gods without being gods are putting expectations and pressure on his shoulders. I fully understand that this is a situation that is not as bad as i have presented it and that it is fairly easily fixed. but I was so fucking sad? We havent seen Erlin in like, 30 episodes. Hes literally a refugee rn. hes going to be so sad. He is going to be sooooo sad. 😭😭😭

TLDR: I have an unhealthily strong obsession with DND boyscout bfs, and one of them cheated, and I am so unreasonably sad.

#and yes it was only a kiss how did it end up like this it was only a kiss it was only a kiss but like #theyre 15 #Im like embarrassed to tsg this #you have no idea how unreasonably upset this made me #and their friends who soent 25 years in a different dimension? one of the questions thsy ask is about him and erlin like. AH #they have liked eachothwr for so long. got together at the eorst possible time and thsn. HDVSKBDKSDNSBD #ERLIN :((((((((( #erlin has had like 30 minutes of screentime total but i would actually die for him #I also have to gush real quick about how little things about their relationship are so realistically child like? #They NEVER have a discussion about it. they just kiss two (2) times and Beverly is like Oh yeah; Erlin; my boyfriend- #I care about them so much. my blorbos. my little meow meows. #having trouble ending this i have so many feelings abt them :( #I legitimatelt have not felt like this in like. 4 years #i didnt cry but i felt sounded and looked like i was crykng #anyway. uh #this is way too long but there is so much neccessary information to understand dnd podcasts its stupid LMAO #naddpod #apollo answers shit #beverly tag #i feel like im aching #eddie tag

[brainrotrelief]

Ok I’m going insane so here are some random Good Omens thoughts that are plaguing my brain and keeping me up at night.

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How many romcoms do you think Crowley has watched for him to know that getting humans wet and looking into each other’s eyes makes vavoom???

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Actually I need Crowley and Aziraphale to have a little movie night to watch Pride & Prejudice (2005). It’s Jane Austen, there’s balls and there’s wet humans looking into each other’s eyes professing their love.

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Let’s talk about the ball a little bit, actually. I can’t stop thinking about that moment. It’s probably my favourite in the entire series, actually, Aziraphale grabbing Crowley with a little giggle and dragging him to dance. To Aziraphale balls and dancing are love, that’s his whole idea of human romance. That’s how people fall in love, that’s how people realize their love. And as soon as Crowley walks in, all Aziraphale wants to do is dance with him. He’s so giddy and excited and embarrassing. He takes a beat before asking. And then he grabs his hand without receiving a proper answer and drags Crowley to dance. Even though Crowley has something to tell him, something he could have said standing. It doesn’t matter. Aziraphale wanted to dance with Crowley, that’s all that mattered to him. Because maybe then they’ll know, and they’ll realize, and they’ll feel and let themselves feel, because when you dance it’s only your partner and you, nothing else even exists. No heaven, no hell, no God, just us. Aziraphale just wanted to experience simple human love and romance with Crowley.

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And in a similar note. “We don’t dance”. But we could. And we will. And we do.

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“Nothing lasts forever” is possibly the most heartbreaking thing Aziraphale could have said to Crowley. Because that’s exactly what Crowley was asking for and offering. He was asking for eternity, he was asking for forever. So, to Crowley, Aziraphale didn’t just say no to staying, to rejecting heaven, to being with him, he said it could not happen at all, because nothing, not even what they have, the life they’ve carved up for themselves, can be timeless, he makes it sound entirely impossible. Aziraphale may have meant something else, but when you offer eternity to someone, and they say nothing lasts forever, there’s really only one way to take it.

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Crowley has fallen twice, and the second one is being far more more painful than the first.

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Knowing Crowley made the stars and made them with such love and pride makes the idea of them running off to Alpha Centauri so much more special. That’s a place he built. That’s something he made. With love. And he wants to be there with the Aziraphale, he wants to share it with the angel he loves. He wants to go back to the place where he felt so much joy with the one being that makes him feel that way again. I want us to share this beautiful thing I made, this beautiful thing that I love, just as I love you.

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Anyways imagine Crowley finding and reading Aziraphale’s diary and take a few shots of holy water with me.

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I can’t stop thinking about Crowley saying “he’s just some angel I know” because imagine hearing that with no context. At that point Nina doesn’t know Aziraphale is a literal angel, so to her this is just a person very casually referring to someone else as “just an angel I know” and I really can’t think of any sweeter sentiment.

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Fell first, fell harder, we know. Confessed first, confessed second, oh boy do we know. But the realizations. They’re killing me. Aziraphale has always known it’s love, he just didn’t really know what to do with it. But not Crowley, Crowley genuinely had no idea what it was, there was something there but he never fully understood it, he never even questioned it. Like yeah there’s Aziraphale and I like him and we hang out and we’re always relying on each other and we trust each other and we accompany each other in our loneliness and that’s just what it is, it happened so naturally to him he never stopped to think about what it was or what it meant. It was just. Aziraphale and him. That’s it. And he’s so comfortable in it, so content in it, that there’s no hesitation, as soon as he realizes what it is, as soon as he can name it, he goes for it. Because to him it would entail no change. It would just be them. Being them. Forever. Which is what he already wanted, and what he already thought he would get.

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Because Aziaraphale calls him when he’s bored, when he’s done something clever and when something’s wrong. Because they’ve been talking for millions of years. Because he says something clever and Aziraphale says something unintentionally funny. That’s just how things are. And it’s great.

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But when did it start for Aziraphale, anyways? Surely 1941 is a big one. That’s when it really hit him. But he clearly had a bit of a thing for Crowley since they first met, and we’ve seen him care for him and worry about him and be happy to see him throughout history. So maybe 1941 was his big moment of oh god I love a demon, but for Aziraphale it’s something that’s been lingering in and around him literally since before the beginning.

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And I just want to say. Crowley’s confession. Good god. He chokes up he hesitates he stutters. All because of how much he’s feeling. I can’t bear it.

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I know we’re all thinking about God’s plan and how Aziraphale and Crowley come into it and what if this was the plan all along and what if they were made for each other but I hope that’s not it. I hope they are fucking up every plan. I hope no entity in all of existence could have seen it coming. I hope no one understands it. I don’t want them to be just a piece of the puzzle. I don’t want them to be exactly according to anyone else’s plan. Because they are on their side. Their relationship is the ultimate act of defiance. The fact that amidst all the chaos and all the plans and all the fates, they found each other and grew closer and understood each other and accompanied each other and ultimately fell in love with each other is what makes it so special. They are just two beings that happened to find each other, and in finding each other, they found something that meant more to them than hell or heaven or even God and God’s plans. This isn’t God’s story, it’s Crowley and Aziraphale’s. Love is an act of revolution. It is literally bigger than God.

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Anyways no one’s ever going to love me like this I’m going to bed.

#aziracrow #good omens #aziraphale #crowley #gomens #gomens 2 #good omens season 2 #im going insane #this is a cry for help #im gonna be sick #this is giving me a tummy ache #i might actually throw up #neil gaiman #mr geiman why would you hurt me like this #ive been nauseous for a month #aziraphale and crowley #good omens series 2 #good omens 2 #someone hold me please

[caffeinated-and-annoying-bard]

Bro you need to stop saying stuff like "I'm not that much of a good person. I talk to you because I want to" or "you're the best friend I have, that's why I don't believe you when you say I deserve better" I will cry right this instant. No homo but you are loved and deserve to be so. Please don't think you deserve to be treated badly.

#val ramblings #when he said that i was driving and if i started crying we would crash but all i wanted was to cry and tell him that even #-even if he isn't who he wants to be #he still is himself. he *is* and he should be aware that this him and past him and future him are all lovable and i loved him 5 years ago a #-and i love him now and i will love him when he wakes up in a place all of his own and his chest doesn't ache when he sees a mirror #i will love him through all of that. that i can assure him but how do i make him understand that the love is in the continuity and i don't- #-plan on just letting him think he doesn't deserve love just because he doesn't love himself. i will love you thrice as much until you d- #-don't need it to balance it out. and then i will continue with the pace. dude you're everything to me #and everyone else can go sharpen a slime

[vanibear]

we have now reached the stage of family vacation where i have a meltdown

#mmmmmmm they were just straight up playing an antivax youtube video on tv . it took every ounce of my composure to not burst into tears on #The spot .Ive now gone to bed early so i can go cry very quietly upstairs in my bathroom #its just. it makes me insane my family is so fun and awesome until it comes to their politics !!!!!!!!!! #i try not to think about it very often .but sometimes im just hit fully with the fact that if they knew who I truly am . #there is a scary scary chance they would just never accept me. #its so easy for ppl to say oh if they wont accept you just walk out and leave they never really loved you anyway #but it’s so complicated in real life i cant just leave my family i love them !!!! they love me !!!!!they are all I have #and the thing is I never talk to them about this stuff .i have no idea how they would react and it is Scary #i ache with my whole being sometimes to just share everything with them. im so tired of secrets .it hurts I just wish i could just live #openly with them like some people do #but the possibilities and consequences are just far too grand for me for now #so I just live in this limbo. and I do a good job most of time ignoring the fact that I do #but sometimes (like tonight) it just hits me all once .the weight and burden of all that I hide from everyone. #pride month especially. it can be a very hard time for me #oh I think I hear ppl coming upstairs now gotta make it look like I haven’t been crying bc i do Not want anyone to ask .i will not be able #to answer without sobbing and I cant explain slash excuse my way out of this one without talking abt what’s really going on #And I don’t want to have that conversation for a Long time #ok byebye #kat post

[bisaster-energy]

literally don't listen to the oh hellos valley album if thinking about sam winchester makes u feel anything because those songs are so fucking samcoded it'll tear ur heart out

#listening to second child restless child like 😐😶 #IN MEMORIAM BUT INSTEAD OF A SON RETURNING TO A FATHER. #it's well. you know. #I actually related some of them to cas but those two are like 🤞 #WISHING WELL??? OUGHHHH #i made mistakes do i even need to delve #that entire album can go into a Sam playlist unedited #if u can't tell I'm currently crying listening to this album ATM #i don't talk about sam enough but if i cared about him less i could talk about him more #but srsly the thing about sam and cas is that they do both want salvation. some forgiveness. #assurance that they're not some broken evil thing meant for nothing more than proving time and time again that that's all they'll ever be #and that assurance hinges on dean wayyyyy too much but that's another conversation #monstrous. other. that's THEM and they ache with want to repent but. how can u repent unless u change? #so sam attempts to mold himself into a normal shape stuff his self into a cardboard cutout of what he THINKS is correct #and we know cas is like is a drawing is done and then someone hit the erase all button over and over #but once he escapes the lobotomies he is still trying to be something else to some extent. he couldn't be a good angel #so he tries to be a good human but he can't even achieve that much so he's left looking in from the outside and #tells himself it's not that cold out anyway that this suits him better #does dean know why cas lingers at the doorway. does he know that sam is scraping at his walls fit to burst. #anyway the whole world would benefit from a more fleshed out sastiel relationship regardless of what kind #im in my feelings rn sorry for spn posting do u still think im hot :/ #cee's bullshit

[darabeatha]

𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐈𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐄 𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐄 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘?

              𝐓𝐇𝐄 "𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐒𝐄𝐍 𝐎𝐍𝐄" .    back again young one? still not comfortable with your new title? yes, I can see you are one that prefers the simpler things in life but you do deserve the rank they have given you. oh little sparrow, have you just now realized you are an owl? soaring the skies with gleaming, outstretched talons. you lived your life blinded to your own abilities, but now the truth is out. you did not ask to be a hero, which pains my heart to the core. but alas, the people have given you something so true and bittersweet you cannot bear to refuse them. for they have given you their trust. they praise you, songs will be sung of you, ballads written, feasts in your honor. but "why me?" you quietly whisper to the stars. if you could speak their language you'd hear their simple reply, "because." you, out of the finest candidates were chosen to be a sacrificial lion in golden chains. your loved ones chanted your worth as it echoed from the steeples. but what was your say on the matter? I guess you had little to none, and unfortunately, neither do I.    but destiny is not a burden, it is a gift, you feel weighted by the entire world, your shoulders ache from the hopes, fears, and dreams of the people who have chosen to follow you.    but their adoration isn't blind my dear. you are strong, you are worthy of the armor, of the crown. when you look back you will realize that you, my young god, were truly the savior many called you. do not run from your purpose, seek it. and I do not mean the heroic of sorts, no, search for what makes you alive young hero, for here's a secret, you are just as much a hero to others as you are to yourself. if wouldn't make you a villian, to tell them no...

#; 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐄 𝐗𝐈 ; headcanons. #;headcanons #headcanons #;dash games #dash games #/BITING ONTO A CHUNK OF WOOD RN #/i think if he heard that quote 'destiny is not a burden' he would break down crying on his knees #'you feel weighted by the entire world #your shoulders ache from the hopes fears and dreams of the people who have chosen to follow you' #for context;; c.onstantine was basically holding the already doomed falling pieces of what had once been -one- of the biggest empires #-as the byzantine empire (or also known as eastern roman empire) was the continuation of the roman empire- #basically he sort of inherited an empire that was already crumbling #there is that self imposed weight of the entire history of an empire ending with him #everything he admired; the hopes and fears and dreams of his people; he feels that weight deeply #this is one of the explanations in regards to my interpretetion as of why he decided to die on the battlefield #not like an emperor; but more as like one more of the people who were fighting for c.onstantinople #i feel like deep down he knew it was inevitable; yet this proved little to hinder him #'as my city falls; i will fall with it' #there was simply no other path he would have choosen #escaping to live for another day was unthinkable for him #i also feel like besides him perceiving this response as nothing but his natural role as an emperor #there's also some sort of;; atoning for his failure to protect c.onstantinople and holding the crumbling pieces of an empire with- #his own death #if he had escaped he would have probably never forgiven himself #'you out of the finest candidates were chosen to be a sacrificial lion in golden chains' #ALSO THE RESULT; 'THE CHOSEN ONE' #SOMETHING ABOUT;; #REMINDS ME ABOUT HOW ITS OFTEN SAID that its a curious thing how the new rome was founded by c.onstantine the great #and fell by another c.onstantine #and how old rome was founded by romulus and lost to another romulus

[aqricus]

i just finished watching the black phone and i’m ngl i was SO certain that robin was gonna rock the grabber

#OR VANCE🤨 #that mf could’ve fought a bear #but a man in a cape bested him #bruce had me crying fr. like all he could remember was finn having a good arm in baseball #he couldn’t even remember his name #he was so sweet too #idk it just SHOOK me for some reason. like he jUst played finn and was all smiley going home and then BAM #dead. can’t remember his name. just that ‘finn’s arm is mint’ #screaming crying sobbing throwing up #AND GRIFFIN????? #his lines had my heart ACHING #but the way he showed up in a fuckinf backbend was uncalled for LMFAOOOO #scared the shit out of me😭😭 #like why would you do that😭 #robin had me mad asf when he got snatched though #like you’re in a deserted area and see a black van and a man in a fucking cape get out of the van and head toward you #my boy was STRUTTING too #paperboy had my blood boiling for him though #i’m so curious as to how they all died like their actual causes of death #vance was beaten up and stabbed in various places on his body i feel #bruce caught some kind of axe or blade to the head #griffin’s throat was likely slit #but robin and paperboy? zEro clue #and my ideas are just theories anyway. well except for griffin bc it’s obvious