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likeadevils · 2 months

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is there a specific order you like to listen to the red vault tracks in? i’ve been thinking about this a lot ever since 1989 tv came out because the 1989 vault tracks tell such a cohesive story so i’ve been trying to figure out how to do that with the red vault

YES ITS LIKE. THE ALBUM TO REARRANGE FOR ME I GENUINELY HAVENT LISTENED TO THE ORIGINAL TRACKLIST IN YEARS NOW

i think i’ve run through it before but here’s my thoughts on the mains tracklist

state of grace: perfect opener no notes

22: this is and holy ground can switch for me, i think either makes a fantastic track two, but it’s hard to pass up 22 track 2. also i like how the second song and the second to last song parallel each other

treacherous: building off of 22’s “you look like bad news, i gotta have you”

i knew you were trouble: it’s the obvious mirror of treacherous, and also i think it’s important to establish the emotion->exact opposite emotion flip of the tracklist, and treacherous and ikywt are a really obvious example of that

all too well: i mean what else can you choose. also it’s a good flip of ikywt because it’s all the moments where it DIDN'T feel like trouble

wanegbt: “i remember it all too well 😔” -> “I REMEMBER WHEN WE BROKE UP 😡🙄” is just an insane whiplash. ALSO track sixes are such a hard landing to stick and can easily be overshadowed by the track five, and having a song that’s already been released kinda lets the song simultaneously have its moment beforehand and let you kinda check out on your first listen through while you recover from atw

come back be here: i think cbbh really just deserves a main album slot, mostly cause it deserved to be played on tour, but i also think it’s a great whiplash from wanegbt and a great lead in to…

the last time: it takes the more crush-focused aspects of cbbh and plays them out to the bitter end, just that cycle of always leaving and coming back and leaving again. also it’s the end of the first half of the album

red: it’s a great pick me up in the middle of three mellow songs, also i can’t separate this from run which i can’t separate from sad beautiful tragic and i can’t put sad beautiful tragic right before all too well so it needs to be further down the tracklist

run: “loving him was like driving a new maserati down a dead end street” -> “give me the keys, i’ll bring the car back around” makes me go CRAZY

sad beautiful tragic: THE AMOUNT OF PARALLELS WITH RUN IS INSAAAAAAAANE

holy ground: again this is a bit of a floater like i could see an argument for this being track two. and the argument is it goes hard at the start of the red tour

better man: this just needs to be by the end of the album for me. it feels like the start of the summary, wrapping up what we’ve learned and starting the hard work of moving on that the last few tracks will continue

i bet you think about me: that first verse really stretching out the betterrrrr’s after better man is funny. also, after an album of one sided pining in one way or another, it’s just like hey. fuck you. also, at first it kinda bugged me how the last few tracks starts at 4am, then 3am, then the middle of the night, but then i started seeing them as just slowly losing less and less sleep over it, which i kinda love now

nothing new: here is the damage i am left with. even if i move on from this relationship, here is the mindset that will whisper in the back of my mind forever— that i am valuable because of my youth, that my happiness is mockable and my sadness is quaint. this is the thing that led me to the relationship and this is the thing that i will be left with after it

begin again: and then… begin again. choosing happiness, choosing maturity, choosing childlike joy. like, you all know it’s an amazing closer, but after nothing new it just sings

+ forever winter: i think this does add important context to her general mental state? like 22 mentions how everyone is miserable, but really focuses on the highs of being 22. forever winter adds to it, how your peer group is falling apart and even when you are at your worst, you are being someone else's shoulder to lean on. it's not Needed to tell the story, but it is a good bonus.

+ starlight: more good context, especially in taylor's personal life-- as far as i can tell, this is the first song she wrote for red that Wasn't about crash and burn heartbreak, and it really kicked into high gear an obsession with vintage fashion and mid century celebrities that she ended up building part of her personality around. she's not just trying to find her old self again, she's building a new one

+babe: what am i supposed to do, not end the album with this is the last time i'll ever call you babe?

+ state of grace (acoustic), the red demo, and all too well (ten minute version) to get the tracklist to 22 and also fun bts context!

#asks*#claire's versions*

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broodwolf221 · 10 days

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“You’re staring.” - Solas x (a character you havent written with him yet >:3c)

hehehehehehe smutty >) @dadrunkwriting 1098 words cws: none

“You’re staring,” he pointed out, smirking as he saw Blackwall flinch in his periphery.

“Just admiring how you’re handling the wood,” he said after a moment and Solas hummed, unconvinced. It wasn’t the chunk of hardwood in his hands that Blackwall had been staring at. Not the way he held the carving knife, nor the delicate shavings that were littering the tabletop.

He should let it go. He should. Instead: “what do you think?” Blackwall cleared his throat.

“You’re skilled,” was what he apparently settled on. “Have you done this before?”

“Yes. A few times.” He refrained from asking whether Blackwall had. He knew the other man had no ulterior motive to the question, however perfectly posed it was, but his interest was painfully obvious, as was his unfamiliarity with said interest. More than once Solas had caught the Warden examining him at length. At first he had worried that Blackwall might be suspicious, but over time he had recognized the true source.

It was curious. Before, he never would have thought of pursuing any member of the Inquisition. But now that he recognized Blackwall’s attraction for what it was, he had begun to look at the other man in a different light. It was terribly hard to refrain from flirting with him, from pushing him just enough that he’d blush and stammer, but ultimately Solas had no interest in being cruel.

It was just…

“How did you come by this?” He asked the Warden, pausing in his carving to face him.

“By…?”

“This—” Solas lifted the carving knife Blackwall had loaned him. “A soldier, a Warden… when did you pick up carving?”

“Ah. Well, you know how it is. Sometimes all you're doing is waiting.”

“Indeed.”

“I had a knife. Easy to find some wood. It just… gave me something to do with my hands.”

That was what intrigued Solas. Their shared experiences. Oh, all members of the Inquisition had seen battle. But only a few of them had lived it. Bull had, of course, but he kept the difficulty of it locked up. He let himself rejoice in it in a way that Solas never could, even though he understood the use of that perspective well enough.

But he recognized the weight Blackwall carried. There was something achingly familiar about him.

He returned his attention to the wood.

Several days passed before the Inquisitor took them both out. As they made their way towards the Western Approach, he and Blackwall spoke often. At night, Solas worked on his carving more. Sometimes Blackwall watched.

When they arrived it was predictably hot. They made good progress scouting the area more thoroughly, although by late afternoon they had to stop and recover for a while. They had stopped near a small river and Sera and Blackwall both decided to wade into it. Solas tried to discourage them but they were already stripping down to their smalls before plunging in. He sighed.

When they emerged some time later and the sunburn began to set in, he had already prepared a poultice. He gave half to Lavellan, suspecting Sera would be less bothered by her touch than by his, while he tended to Blackwall. As he worked the poultice into the man's skin he also allowed himself to linger just a bit, to really let himself feel the ridge of scar tissue, the firm muscle, the layer of fat.

And all the hair. Solas really wasn't accustomed to that, finding the sensation under his fingers fascinating. Then he had to focus on working the poultice into Blackwall’s face and neck, although a part of him knew that the other man could've done this much on his own.

They shared a tent that night, as they always did. This time, though, Solas did not lay down after taking off his outer layers of armor. And when Blackwall sat up in his bedroll with a puzzled frown, Solas hooked his thumbs in the waist of his breeches, smirking at the Warden's flush. “I think we could enjoy ourselves tonight, if you're willing,” he said after a moment, carefully watching the other man's expression.

“Maker, yes.” The immediate acceptance went to Solas' head—and his cock. He had expected more hesitation, more dithering from the Warden, perhaps an uncertainty about his interest in men. Instead, he just sounded eager and relieved.

Still smirking, Solas drew his breeches and smalls down together, revealing his hard cock. Blackwall just stared for a moment before he seemed to realize his role in this, working quickly to strip away his remaining layers while Solas bit back a laugh at his haste.

The warrior’s cock was thick, even half-hard. He had been debating about letting Blackwall take him but the width made him decide against it, at least for tonight. They'd need more time to make that work. Something simpler for now.

He settled in beside Blackwall, then after a moment decided on something else and straddled him, both of them gasping as their cocks slid together. Then he began humping him, grinding sensitive flesh together, his own slick slowly making the process easier. Blackwall continued to fill out underneath him, hushed, gravelly moans escaping him periodically.

Aside from muted sounds of pleasure they were quiet, unwilling to advertise what they were doing, but the way Blackwall stared up at him spoke volumes. There was a deep admiration in his gaze that made Solas' feel delightfully overwhelmed, even as a distant part of him was wrenched with guilt at the sight. But he tried to let that part go for just this night, this shared moment.

Soldiers finding some comfort in one another… it need not be anything more than that.

Eventually Blackwall's hands settled on his hips and he began to drag Solas against him even as he thrust up, his mouth parting as his breathing sped. “Close,” he whispered and Solas just nodded—so was he. He felt Blackwall's cock twitch against his before the man's whole body tensed, coming across his own stomach. Solas rose on his knees and took himself in hand, quickly jerking off until he clutched at Blackwall's bedroll and started coming, mixing his seed with the other man's, biting his own arm to muffle his moan.

When he was done he let himself fall to the side, slowly catching his breath. He glanced up when he felt himself being observed, grinning to see Blackwall looking down at him. “You’re staring,” he pointed out, amused, and Blackwall snorted.

“So I am,” he admitted readily, and did not look away.

Solas found that he didn’t mind.

#dadw time #broodwrites #solas #blackwall #im....#wolfwarden???#idk. what are ship names.#greywolf??#honestly it's probably smth like solwall but. no.

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richardsphere · 2 months

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Leverage Log: The Van Gogh Job

Well i read the name of the episode and my dutch bones cringe in advance at the butchering of Vincents' name that i just know is imminent. (yes i know that the soft G does not occur in American English, or regular English. Doesnt mean that hearing Ven-Go doesnt hurt my soul)

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So guy has a Van Gogh painting Hidden somewhere (Spoiler: Its probably in the Wurlitzer) Team Leverage tries to find it. Bit weird that this episode starts with him sending Hardison and Parker ahead. (in that he's sending them to be a combination bodyguard and trust-getters, those are Hitter and Grifter roles.)

That would work with my theory re:Nate getting his affairs in order. But im also getting my first direct evidence against it. Nate explicitly telling Elliot not to learn about technology "that will never happen". Because, if he were wanting to get the 3 to cover eachother properly... He'd want Elliot to learn Hacker stuff.

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Elliot shows up pretending to be a gas inspector, only to run into a Mold Inspector... Honestly i dont know if the "someone else is using an inspector guise" thing is as funny as the idea of Elliot literally running into an actual health inspector would be.

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Oh a Parker and Hardison self-insert imagination sequence? Delightfull.

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Oh Elliot, just the thin moment of hope on his face that maybe, somehow this paper scroll in the ladies hands is gonna be the actual Van Gogh they are looking for. Lovely little moment. Its apreciated.

--- Sherrif Nate! --- Even in a WWII flashback, Elliot cant stop de-ammunitioning guns. --- Look im gonna say it, yes the segregation era star-crossed romance is effective. Its also not something i havent seen before. And I also think im too much of a mayo-man to say I can analyse it in a meaningfull degree, so im gonna just say its a nice story and good enough to disctract me from the name-butchering and move on to the obvious.

Its obviously in the Wurlitzer, they'll donate the thing, tell the news the art was in the Wurlitzer which means that now the Rollerrink has historic significance as "the place where the priceless Van Gogh Self-portrait was recovered after it was lost in the war", Rink gets monument status and is thus legally protected and the Van Gogh ends in a museum.

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Oh our Client is betraying us... What a shock. (no legitmately, he's enough of a Little Grey Man type that i actually forgot he existed. Good play on the writers casting someone so forgettable... and once more that's a legitimate compliment to the actor, its just hard to make it sound like one.)

Elliot's little "clink" and smile when he's finished unconcious-ing the goons is delightfull. Like this is a guy who thinks "if only every object i bludgeon with made music". Thats the face of a guy who is about to buy one of those rain-tubes for percussive purposes.

lovely little moment of Nate humanising the episodes traitor-client with the "thats why you loved it" bit. He's pitifull, not evil.

Bedside denouement, romantic yadayada about Dorothy's Loyalties.

And of course the final lesson "dont waste time". (im gonna be honest, its a bit "magical black guy" to have the guys entire purpose in the story be to tell the white character to get her act together romantically... But then again I'm too eggshell-skinned to really comment in depth myself, but it feels unfair not to at least mention that we've got a black character whose only narrative purpose is literally to espouse wisdom on the white character. But also the story needs a wrap up, every story about historic wrongdoings needs a "dont let your generation repeat histories mistakes"-message and having the lesson be given to emotionally struggling Parker makes more narrative sense then giving it to Hardison, the guy who's got a pretty good deal on his own feelings...)

In final summary, lovely episode. Too historically and racially charged for someone as cloud-coloured as myself to really say much more about without getting torn apart for "stealing minority voices" so im Shutting Up Now.

#leverage #leverage season 4 #Tha Van Gogh Job

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dollwritesarchive · 2 years

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I'm so excited that you finally finished jjk omg! Also I feel you on not wanting to wait for the movie unfortunately I didn't get to see it when it was in theaters 😭 so we'll be watching it at the same time once it's on crunchyroll lol. Do you have any plans to read the manga btw? I'll be honest I don't like reading manga as much as watching anime so I would totally get it if you didn't, Its just that I feel like its gonna take them a while to catch up to the manga and I couldn't wait lol

Also the no hard limits 👀 you're an ✨inspiration✨ LOL but as someone that also doesn't have alot of hard limits I love that 🥰 I definitely think you fit in with some of the other jjk writers bc off the top of my head I'm pretty sure the most fucked up fic I've ever read was a sukuna fic lol like I've seen some people get WILD on here with sukuna and mahito. You know I'm just gonna throw this out there ik it's not for everyone but mahito with tentacles LOL just a thought that I cant get out of my head 👀

fr the day that I read the gb fic for mahitos group is the day that I ASCEND I will probably never recover from that ❤

Also I'm probably gonna finally start aot now that I know you're gonna write for it, you've given me the push I needed lol

Some more tiktoks for you 😘

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZTRydmgu7/?k=1

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZTRydx6q7/?k=1 STOP HES SO CUTE 😭

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZTRydFVjM/?k=1

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZTRyd6gEp/?k=1

OMG YOU HAVENT SEEN IT EITHER? Then I’m very excited to hear all your thoughts on it once we watch it!! ❤️ I think Toge has the spiky hair in that? Which is honestly a fucking look

BUT it is gonna be weird not seeing Mahito 😭 my baby boy 😭😭

I don’t think I’ll read it; I don’t read much manga (I don’t have the time and brainpower DKDKKSK) ! The last one I read was funouhan which honestly, very underrated. If you like gore and horror and a sexy wicked man (which I know you do 🤪) definitely give that one a try too if you’ve the time! (But maybe don’t read it around folks because it’s pretty nsfw sometimes) I don’t think there’s an anime that accompanies it. I do think there’s a live action movie but I’ve never seen it. But let me just appreciate usobuki rq 🥰

IVE CONSIDERED MAHITO WITH TENTACLES. Here’s the thing is that I know he would manipulate his shape when you fucked like that’s just so obvious and he’d do it just to be cruel 😭 you’d be so overwhelmed by him already, and then he’s making you take another him in your ass or he doubles his size just to see it poke out of your belly THE MANS SO EVIL I LOVE HIM

The gb fic ideas I have MY BELOVEDS I really need to get on them because I can see them both so clearly in my head and they’re FILTH pure dark FILTH (poor reader, that’s what I’ll say. Poor thing trying to take them all 🥹)

OMG ??? DO YOU KNOW HOW HAPPY THAT MAKES ME

Okay confession (justwhenithoughtisaidallicansaymychickonthesidesaidshegotoneontheway) AOT is, without question, without a shadow of a doubt, my favorite anime of all time. it took me a year after it came out to start it and I was hooked EVER SINCE. Levi Ackerman? My ultimate anime husband. If I had to pick one and only one, I’d choose him EVERY TIME. I would love love love to hear your reactions and thoughts about AOT when you watch it although I will say please power through season 1. It’s not bad but trust me it gets REALLY GOOD seasons 2 and 3.

YES MY TIKTOK FUEL

The gambling scene is still too much for me like mahito is so WHINY HE THROWS A TANTRUM

TOGE TRYING THE VERONICA TREND FIDKKDKD I would open the door before he even started singing I’m sorry but you are not getting away from me ❤️

Also just choso in general DAMN

That last tiktok… you know exactly what to show me. You UNDERSTAND the Doll Gaze ™️

SO SINCE YOU ALWAYS PROVIDE THE GOODS WITH THE JJK TIKTOKS (please keep them coming as much as you want 🥰 they’re all incredible) I would like to share some levi with you in hopes to convince you even more to watch aot !!

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRydCau1/?k=1

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRydVojy/?k=1

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRydbLgK/?k=1

ALSO PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF FUCK watch it subbed. Do not get subjected to Levi’s blink 182 sounding voice in the dubbed version 💀

#jjk nonnie !

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wisespookysalad69 · 3 years

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Racing, Part ll (Allison's perspective)

I was just trying to fall back asleep for the 4th time in the last 20 minutes, due to the stomping above of my roomate, and best friend, Nadira.

Suddenly as I was about to doze off I heard a loud bang and Nadira called my name sounding panicked. I rushed up the stairs as fast as I could. She could be seen lying on the ground holding her chest, chest towards the ceiling, grabbing her chest, eyes wide like a deer caught in headlights. Her breathing seemed abnormal and I began to wonder if it was her heart?

"All..ison.."

"NADIRA?! what the fuck happened? What's going on did something sca-"

"I think *pant* it's my heart, it's beating too quickly and it's.. -UGgnn. Skipping" it's like it's out of rhythm I cant catch my.. *pant* breath.."

She looked so afraid yet so ready to drop dead, I was mortified. Nadira grabbed my hand and placed my palm on her chest, strands of her long, soft black hair fell under my hand against her tanned Italian skin, but under that I focused on the irregular pumping that made itself apparent under my left palm.

"Do you feel that?"

"Y.. yes."

Her heart was beating erratically, extremely erratically. But I had a secret i kept from Nadira, she had no intuition on my.. interest I'd assume because it seems so out of bounds. I had a, fetish, you could call it. Hearts, they got me going and I never ever planned on telling even my best friend.

"Allison"

"Wha-! What?" Do you need me to call an ambulance is this normal is this just something that you havent told me about?"

"Go in my left hand dwaer fhe bottom there's a steth. Grab it.:

"Why would she have a- not important."

I opened the drawer to push past an old cellphone and t shirt she's likely been using to hide it.. like I have mine. Normal materal items would distract you from the potentially abnormal.

I walked back over to Nadira who now looked a little better. She was always beautiful anyway, but less sweaty but still panting. Although still panting she's sitting up now, which is a very good sign. I put the stethoscope in my ears and sat in front of her, Trying to make it look like I had no Idea where to put the stethoscope even though i knew I wanted to start with the pulmonary auscultation location. I gave a "confused" stare at Nadira as she panted and put the steth on her chest. Suddenly, my ears are filled with the sound of her irregular heart.

"BOOMBOOMBOOMthumpthu-BOOMthump. BOOMTHUMP.thump boom.

It almost sounded like her heart was in both tachyarrythmia, and bradycardia. It skipped a lot and was at about an inconsistent 210 BPM..I was both concerned and so incredibly turned on.

"Alli."

Hmm

"What does it sound like?

"Well. Not normal. Your heart is racing. Absolutely racing.. it feels like you cant catch your breath from the rate I'm feeling your chest rise and fall.. your heart is arrhythmic its uh. Skipping beats and youre tachycardic. Has this ever happened?"

"I- no but how do you know all this stuff about whats happening to my heart right now?" I -ugh *grabs chest * thought you were an art student, we're both art students i didnt know you we're into cardiology, what are you like a cardiophile or something?"

Did she just.. call it a.. how would she know? Shes so obvious but im growing more concerned with the task at hand. Her heart seems to be recovering but it should be monitered.

"How did you know it was called being a "cardiophile?" Huh?

"I.. i uh.. i didn't. I made it up. We're both creatives haha.. remember?"

She looked so panicked. It was so cute.. wait?what?

No. I need to listen to her heart furthermore. I put the ear pieces back into my ears and placed the steth onto her apex after tugging her tank top down.

Bathump-bathump-bathump-...babaBuMpBump.. baba..baba.. bababUmpBump. Bathumpbathumpthumpthumpthumpthumpthumpthumpthumpthumpthumpthump- baTHUMP.

Her heart sped up and slowed down, skipped, ect. But was recovering surely, she had her hand to her chest and panted.

"It feels like my heart is beating backwards. Pumping at the efficiency equivalent to a flipflop starting a fire smacking a sidewalk. " my chest.. it hurts. Check my pulse.

I placed my two fingers against the side of her neck and she grabbed my hand and placed it on her heart. Fuck.

Baboombaboombaboombaboombaboom. My heart.. its racing too. Its going at about 160 beats per minute. I'm going to be the one having a heart attack tonight..

Well, this is only part two, will things get even more heated between these two? Idk yet lol, well

I hope y'all liked this, the first part was so successful and I will get part lll out reguardless of how decent the second part goes but will also be starting on other heart-related stories simultaneously, really got off writing this one lol

-Nikki

#cardiophilia #stethoscope #cardiophile #cardio writing #female heartbeat #heartbeat #lgbtq

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reyeslonestar · 3 years

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i didn’t particularly like tk pushing carlos but i remembered tk doing something similar to judd in s1 so i almost see it as a auto response when he gets into certain situations not a great thing but the more i think about it it didn’t feel severely out of character

so my tl;dr is - it’s not out of character, in that it’s not outside of TK’s capabilities, but for it to make sense in the narrative in this episode there needed to be much more groundwork.

if you want to read the full thing, here are the layers that I think make up why this is:

the wrongness and unhealthiness of TK’s behaviour

what was TK actually trying to achieve in that scene?

the lack of lead up to this

the lack of resolution

under a cut so people can avoid this if they need to. and as always all of this is just my opinion.

1. the wrongness and unhealthiness of TK’s behaviour

this was unacceptable behaviour. I know that might be obvious but im still going to say it. TK was completely out of line to push harm onto others, even if he was dealing with stress, fear, or any other emotion. to feel any emotion is completely valid and justified. however, any actions that you take based on those emotions must be considerate of others. being in pain does not justify causing pain to someone else.

2. what was TK actually trying to achieve in that scene?

so ive mentioned this in some of my tags but I think that its more productive to parallel TK’s behaviour in that scene to the bar fight than the judd fight. while the judd fight shows TK’s inclination to a violent response (that he seriously needs to deal with), I think that that particular incident is more of a reactionary response.

on the other hand, in the bar fight and, in my opinion, the scene with Carlos, it’s not that he’s reactionary and looking to lash out, it’s that he's using it in order to provoke someone. he's trying to get Carlos to react, because he wants to get into a fight. thats why he keeps pushing, and keeps asking the same question again - he doesnt actually want an answer, he just wants to piss Carlos off enough to get him to engage. thankfully, carlos has the training and rationale to control the scenario to stop TK really hurting either of them.

3. the lack of lead up to this

so I think this is the biggest thing to think about when we talk about whether this was in character or not. yes we know TK is capable of violent reactions and provoking fights, but that's 1x03 TK. we’re a season and a half on from that point and he’s grown and progressed. he’s shown to be in a pretty good way - he’s in a healthy relationship, he likes his job, he likes his team. the biggest obstacle in his life at the moment is his relationship with Owen, but up until this episode he appeared to be managing that situation - frustrated at times, sure, but I cant think of anything that shows that he would be regressing back to early s1 TK.

TK going to the bar to start a fight in 1x03 came after: the grain silo rescue going wrong because of him, arguing with Carlos at the failed dinner, and then judd challenging him and the subsequent fight. there was a progression of incidents that led to that self destructive and harmful behaviour. and this was all on top of him trying to recover from a recent relapse.

TK trying to provoke a fight with Carlos in 2x12 came after: Owen getting arrested.

and yes, that is a stressful incident, but its a singular incident when he has appeared to be in a healthy environment with a very strong support system around him. and technically you could say that owen’s surgery, and the fact that he turned up late to dinner are part of the strain on TK, but if we are going to count those things, then we need to see the effect that has on TK. currently, we havent actually seen TK struggle until after the incident with Carlos, and so TK behaving like that was really surprising and shocking. it didnt make sense considering the narrative that we’ve seen. if they want to make us understand the characters, we need to see what they’re going through and what their emotional state is.

4. the lack of resolution

yeah so, as I said above. all feelings are valid - not all actions are. and people should take accountability for their actions. I really would have liked more of a conversation had about this between TK and Carlos, but at the very least I would have liked for there to be less of an implication that Carlos needed to apologise for anything. he actively avoided hurting TK, which included not allowing TK to provoke him into anything. I dont think he had anything to apologise for, whereas TK did - and also TK needs to be getting some kind of help to manage his aggressive behaviours, and to manage whatever stresses on him that are causing him to regress.

tl;dr - it’s not out of character, in that it’s not outside of TK’s capabilities, but for it to make sense in the narrative in this episode there needed to be much more groundwork.

#911 lone star spoilers #a has thoughts #tk strand #episode chat 2x12 #fandom discussion #physical assault cw #violence cw #I dont really know how to tag this properly #so if you want me to add anything let me know #asks??#anonymous #show analysis #911 lone star

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ao3gingerswag · 2 years

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Ok, this is kinda stupid but I wanted to write down my Wander Home day dream/head cannon for u💛

So I’ve been imagining that after they get back and before Dean has recovered, Cas has to go to the market because he needs to restock some items or buy more bandages so he has to leave Sam to look after Dean and Cas is all like “what if somethings happened what if I’m not there and something happens 😱” and Dean’s like “i wish he didn’t have to go but ill put on a brave face…😢” and Sam is just 😠🔪 And he gets home and Deans so relieved to see him and Cas is so relieved to be home and hes like “oh! And i got you both something! I hope you like it? Or you can swap or idk, I didn’t know what you would like so i guessed i hope its ok…” kinda embarrassed like he wants them to have nice things but he doesn’t know how to give it and Sam is like “😡 this is OBVIOUSLY a bribe or a trick or something nefarious” and Dean is just 😭😭😭 but both of them try to give the other more of theirs and Dean tries to give some to Cas but Cas absolutely refuses and Sam wont eat it in front of Cas but will nibble at it when Cas is busy and try to make it look like he hasn’t had any out of spite but its quite obvious chunks are missing and then he just demolishes it lol and Cas is kinda 🥲 about it all

So the verse definitely lives rent free in my brain haha 😅 hope you are well!

-🐝

ahhhh this is so sweet!!!!!!!!!!!! no its not stupid at alllll!! im dying cas being like......i must go off to war.....i mean the market...... same thing when i am separated from dean.... ;~; when will i be reunited with my one tru love.......... will he Survive....... and dean being the same like nooooo ;~; my cas!! separated over thousands of miles....it will be eons before i see him again.......... meanwhile sam is like :// geeze louise ://

and ahhh anon im sorry i know its been waaay too long and u sent this a million years ago but come back im on the edge of my seat!!!! what does cas bring for them!!!!!!!! what kind of snack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im thinking some kind of pastry or honey candy....but idk!!!

i love it :))) sam and dean absolutely would try to give each other their treat and it Would Not Work bc they would both refuse cfyvghjkj and yeah dean would try to give cas his and cas is like fcyvgujbhkn dean its for YOU. i totally see sam refusing to eat his treat around cas ;~; but still nibbling at it when cas isnt looking fdcgvbhn yeah thats a ten year old all right. i feel like i can see sam trying to pretend he isnt eating it but then eventually its gone and cas is like :)) did u like it :)) and sam is like >>:(( ....................................yes.

thank u so much for sharing this with me!!! it is so encouraging to know other people still think about this verse :)) i do too!! ive been working on a one shot that i hope to publish in the next few days...tho writing has been kicking my ass lately. ive just been having a rough time overall recently tbh :/// which is why i havent been very/at all active on here :(( im on break tho now so im gonna try to write this week!!!! <3333

#ao3gingerswag #asks #anon #prompts #<333333

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mitchelljoni · 2 years

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Hey, I just read "We learned the Whole of Love" by Emily Dickinson for the first time and it reminded me so much of Emily and Sue in (there's a mile) between my heart and my head that I had to write you. I'm still processing the last update, recovering from it will take some time, I absolutely loved it, you're an amazing writer, but damn this hurt like A Lot. It's so complicated with these two, I understand where Sue's fears are coming from, but being only friends is so not an option for them, being friends with benefits is obviously also not an option which I'm not sure if Emily understands, she seems to be ahead of Sue in realizing things, but I'm not sure if she's quite there yet too. I wonder why does keep spending time with Sam? It makes Sue jealous, so much is obvious apparently for everyone around them. You've nailed all the characters and I'm so much enjoying the dynamics between all of them, it's just perfect. The company dinner was so delightful to read, I have feelings for Sue and Vinnie and their sibling like relationship, just the way all the Dickinson siblings love Sue, this is something that makes my heart swell.

How don't they see that they live like a family and they've built themselves a home for each other with each other, the domesticity of it all, Emily baking and Sue cleaning afterwards, literally everything that you've written so beautifully, every detail, all the little things, how easy it is, dunno where I'm going with this. But I love your fic so much, thank you for writing it and sorry for the rambling!

omfg the audacity of u to send me this im actually absolutely shaking. like why am EYE writing this. why dont YOU take the wheel. we learned the whole of love....i havent read that poem in such a while and going back to it bc of u has actually knocked the breath from my lungs like exactly EXACTLY

feeling very very seen by this comment...! emily also has a lot of work to do i agree! i think the sam thing is.....hmmmmm...........how you say....complex. why does anyone make a bad decision when they know it's a bad one?? surely a combination of torrid factors. sometimes we do things to hurt each other to show that we can etc. sometimes we do things to hurt ourselves to...??? show we can, because we think we deserve it, because it feels good temporarily. and so on and so forth. i believe that there are elements of these dark impulses to emily's decisions too, we just aren't as privy to them because we are so hyperaware of sue's own bad decisions and the thinking behind them, being stuck in her head. hopefully more will become clear as we go on bc im v aware that this is such an obscure response sgkljfdlkgj

the dinner scene was so much fun to write fkljgldfkjg i get STRESSED writing those kinds of fast paced multi-speaker dialogues cause feels like there needs to be a certain precision to the humour and timing. so i feel like very relieved that it felt good to read. and YES yes family domesticity etc......feeling so crazy about this ! thank YOU for this mssg. no apology needed. i love rambling. especially when it is this generous, kind, thoughtful, and so on. thank u so much:)

#anonymous #answered #really shaking at this and at the poem.#wow.

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angrylizardjacket · 5 years

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avoiding the winter sky

A/N: 1374 words. it’s me, back again with a All The Queen’s Men ‘verse mini fic that makes me feel that Riz Ahmed ‘im sad’ picture. anyways..... im sad.

[And All The Queen’s Men ‘verse Masterpost]

September, 1991.

“Mornin’ ‘Zelle.” Jim opens the door for her, giving her a smile and a hug in greeting, she’s got a stack of paperwork in one hand and tupperware contained full of cookies in the other, and she offered him one.

“Rog and Lilith made them yesterday, they’re good, though the kitchen may never recover.” The cookies are chocolate chip, and he takes one with a quiet laugh and thanks, leading her through the house to where she could hear the sizzle of something cooking, and Freddie humming cheerfully. “He sounds bright.”

“Yeah, he’s very cheery today; always looks forward to seeing you.” There’s a smile in Jim’s words that Gizelle can hear without even seeing his face, and when they enter the kitchen, Freddie’s positively beaming at them.

“I think we should go on vacation.” He says, in lieu of a greeting, sitting at the kitchen table chopping onions, his eyes watering just a little. Giselle laughs lightly, swanning over to him to press a kiss to his cheek and put her papers on the table.

“And what makes you say that?” She asks, and he resumes his work as she put her folder down on the table. It’s tradition, they have lunch together on Thursdays, Giselle brings some of her cases with her to look over, or sometimes they watch a movie or play board games, but usually they just end up talking, about everything and nothing, distracting themselves from how tired Freddie is, and the marks that keep appearing on his skin.

“I want to go somewhere warm, everything’s so dreary around here.” And he wasn’t wrong; even though it was only the start of Autumn, the sky was grey more often than it was blue nowadays. “I want an adventure, I miss our adventures.” Once he was finished with the onions, he passed them off to Jim, who was quietly cooking over by the stove, smiling to himself.

“We could go on a pub crawl; see all the bands London has to offer in one night like we used to.” Giselle offers, something in her chest tightening as Freddie’s expression brightens.

“Oh yes, I love a good chance to dress up in disguise.” His eyes shine with amusement at the idea, reminiscing fondly about their old haunt at the edge of town where they used to head when they wanted to remember their roots.

“I could wear a wig and put on a fake nose!” Giselle grinned, getting up and moving around the kitchen with practiced ease, pouring all three of them a glass of orange juice.

“So could I!” Freddie enthused, his smile only brightening as Jim chuckled.

“I think you should both invest in a bright pink bob, very subtle.” He added, thanking Giselle again as she pulled out three plates, smiling at his husband’s obvious delight at the suggestion.

“Oh, we should tour together again! A reunion tour, a new and beautifully bright wig every night!” And Freddie leaned back in his chair, watching with an endearing smile as two of his favourite people finished plating up lunch. The serenity only lasted a minute before he was overcome with a violent coughing fit, and Giselle was by his side as Jim fetched him a glass of water. “Perhaps a tour isn’t for me right now.” He mused, a small, self-deprecating smile on his face as he accepted the drink and hummed with contentment when Jim kissed the top of his head, before heading back to the kitchen.

“What if I go on tour, and you come along as my main backup dancer who sings when he’s not coughing his lungs up?” Giselle offered, and there was something grateful in Freddie’s gaze that she tried not to dwell on.

“And if I do start coughing my lungs up on stage?” He asks with a raised eyebrow, Giselle waves him off.

“It’s interpretive dance; kids these days love that sort of stuff.” She half laughed, and Freddie chuckled.

“Touring’s such hard work though, darling, I don’t want to be dragging dear Jim halfway across America.” He mused, gaze sliding to fix the man in question with a fond smile, which, when he looked up from pushing eggs onto the final plate, Jim returned in kind.

“You think you’ll be dragging me along? Dear, I’ll be right there beside you, whether you like it or not.” He informed them, matter-of-factly, bringing two plates over to the table, before getting the third, all three plates stacked with neatly arranged eggs, bacon, sausages, and cooked onions, along with a slice of toast.

“Well lucky for you, I love it.” Freddie grinned at him, tucking into brunch with Giselle and Jim on either side of him doing the same. “But it is work, touring, I don’t think I have it in me, can’t we just go somewhere nice and warm? I’d love to lie on the beach somewhere.” He mused, and Giselle grinned.

“And which beach would you prefer?” She asked, as if she were already making plans, taking a large bite of her egg on toast.

“Oh, you two pick, I could never decide, I’ve seen too many beautiful beaches to have a favourite.” Freddie grinned, and they sank into silence, all contemplative.

“I haven’t seen nearly as many beaches as you two have.” Jim said, quietly, though he didn’t seem unhappy about it, just thoughtful. Without hesitation, he reaches out, taking Jim’s hand across the table.

“Then we don’t have to pick, we’ll see them all.” Freddie announced firmly, giving Jim’s hand a squeeze.

“All of them?” Giselle asks, eyebrows raised, and Freddie turns back to her with a bright and toothy smile.

“All of best, all over the world; we’ll start with Australia, right after Christmas I’ll fly us there, a holiday present! We can bask in the sun while it’s snowing here in dreary England, how does that sound?” He’s lost in his own world, eyes glazed over as he sits on the edge of his seat, food all but forgotten in front of him; he can see the scene before him, can practically feel the sun on his skin.

“Sounds lovely, Freds.” Giselle said, quiet and kind. “I think we could all use a holiday from this city.” She agreed. “We could visit some friends, oh,” eyes lighting up, Giselle reached out to take Freddie’s other hand, “I know it’s not a beach, but Jim has to see Venice, we could visit in the middle months where no-where’s really right for beaches, we could visit Elton’s little place up there.”

“That does sound pretty nice.” Jim agreed. “I mean, a world tour without the actual tour bit? I think I could handle that; what do you think, Freddie?” And finally, hearing Jim’s voice, Freddie feels his fantasy slipping away, and all he can do is smile.

“Sounds perfectly wonderful, exactly what we need.” And there’s almost a dreamlike quality to his voice, which vanishes once he spots his food going cold before him. “We should eat up, I wouldn’t want to let your cooking go to waste.” And he smiles at Jim, taking back his hands from his companions to keep eating, but Giselle just smiles softly at him.

“I’d follow you to the ends of the Earth if you asked me to.” She tells him, surprisingly serious, and when Freddie looks at her, there’s something a little sad in his eyes as he gives her a fond smile.

“I know, Gizelle.”

Neither one can bring themselves to say it, but they never get past the planning stages. Their time together over the following months is spent poring over travel magazines, Giselle fills a binder with tourist traps they’re determined to see, and picturesque sunset shots they’re determined to recapture, and she pretends it doesn’t hurt her heart when Freddie’s expression fall and he has to outright skip all the pages with actual booking information.

They plan and they fantasize about cocktails at sunset, and when Freddie’s gone, Gizelle puts the folder in the back of her closet, and can’t bring herself to open it again.

#freddie mercury #jim hutton #and all the queen's men #freddie mercury & oc #jim hutton x freddie mercury #jim hutton & oc #im sad #bohemian rhapsody #borhap #bo rhap #the angry lizard writes

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asexual-levia-tan · 3 years

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when i said that i thought about the lore of the pt5 ml au all the way back to pt1 i wasnt kidding btw

we already know that Jonathan's mom was into archaeology (was an archeologist?) so archaeologist -> keeper of the miraculous. she died/ disappeared under mysterious circumstances leaving Jonathan to inherit/ protect the box without ever knowing what it was

the stuff with dio being adopted -> being jealous(?) of Jonathan -> eventually stealing the heirloom to use for his own nefarious purposes happens (naturally, he takes the butterfly miraculous for himself. vampire minions, so thats obvious). zeppeli was either part of the miraculous protectors clan OR a relative of Jonathan's mother (pick whichever depending on if you ship c*ejoe) and comes to teach jonathan about the box/miraculouses and help take down dio to retrieve them

speedy ends up protecting the box after the both of them die, effectively ending the Guardian bloodlines (or so he assumed, before pt2) and created the foundation to protect it

in the case of pt2 he wants to train the both of them to use/protect the box (he was waiting for joseph to be old enough, but also he ended up finding out about Caesar's existence along the way). he's too old/ busy protecting the box while they train, so lisalisa, who has been a miraculous holder since the death of her husband, is the one that takes care of their training instead. plot goes on as usual, with the pillar men being part of the original peoples who created the miraculouses to begin with and thus are a problem (maybe they found out about what evils humans have done with the miraculous and, being unable to destroy the miraculous, decide to destroy humans instead), joseph gets the ladybug, cae gets the black cat. obvious (im a bad writer and also like to follow close to canon with my AUs). with cae's death they lose track of the black cat miraculous.

gets fuzzy from here but basically the idea is that the joestars are the ladybug users, though the foundation Keeps the miraculous until its needed by them. the butterfly miraculous was kept by dio after pt1 so pt3 plot is obvious. and yes they reclaim it at the end

pt4 still happens but i didnt actually think about that. its fine, shh

now we make it to the actual pt5 au. the stuff with pol still happened, old lady had some of dios leftover miraculouses, pol was trying to find and recover some of them, gets attacked by dia and theyre stolen. now we have a mafia full of miraculous users chosen by mr boss man himself

they find giorno. they send koichi to check if hes got what it takes to be a miraculous user (of the ladybug, obvs). he determines a hesitant "....yeah."

Bruno intercepts the drop off. all he saw was a pair of expensive-lookin hairclippies and hes got sticky fingers. what're you gonna do.

problem is. it wasn't exactly a direct drop off (think of how old man fu kinda just. slipped it to mari and Adrian. i think. i havent watched the origin episode in a while) giorno didnt know he was supposed to find something to begin with. foundations freaking out like "THAT WASNT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN"

bruno gets a chibi and the sudden ability to do anonymous good. sweet

the foundation eventually gets in contact with gio, explains the situation, and giorno is on board cause hes got his own agenda. so he joins passione with the express purpose of retrieving the the ladybug miraculous and taking down the boss. cool

now, you may be wondering where unlucky boy leone is. well he's still a cop in this au, at the "god whats the point of this everyone is the enemy and criminals never get the time they deserve" end of things. but also

he liked going to ruins as a kid, right? (i know it was just Pompeii, roll with it) well. he just so happened to find a certain little black ring once, put it on out of curiosity, and wasn't able to remove it. his kwami told him at some point that he would need the ladybug holder to do it for him, so he spent years keeping an eye out. he

never knew he could transform. or maybe he did, but he never thought to actually do anything with it. or maybe he did, but since he's not ladybug he ended up making the situation worse and the guilt of it never really went away (if you prefer leones partner being dead/otherwise out of commission, that's where you can insert it)(we could even say he's stuck as an akuma ((maybe due to leones mistake)) until ladybug shows up and rescues him). until he spots ladybug. and hes actually doing things to help the situation. he can take on these weird superpowered beings and win. so, with the multipurpose agenda of releasing pent up stress from his daily life, enacting a little vigilante justice, and trying to get ladybug to remove his unlucky ring, he ends up transforming and forming a team with ladybug

bonus points if they know each other in the daytime as "nosy cop who doesn't know when to keep his head down" and "Mafioso punk i can't touch because his boss pays my boss" and afterhours theyre superpartners👌👌👌

now this part is speculation because who knows how the anime was gonna go, but i imagine ladybug has to have some sort of positive feelings to remove the ring, otherwise the plot wouldve fallen through pretty immediately. and honestly i just can't help but want gap moe noir!leone who also flirts with ladybug at first because of his ulterior motives, but then starts to back down over time because he actually ends up enjoying the time they spend together (i also want noir!leone who wields that cat tail belt as a whip but thats my personal taste we're not gonna get into. ....a mention of whips twice today wow i swear I'm not into it on the business end of things--)

OBVS we can't have a story without tension so basically. diavolo knows theres more miraculouses out there because of brunos actions. starts looking for the new users to recruit/kill/steal their miraculous/etc. the foundation never really got a good look at who took the ladybug so its pure luck (haha) that gio joins his team while entering the group. once he sees that ladybug is using the miraculous to fight the other miraculous users/akumas hes like. oh hey hes a traitor to the organization. sweet. also gio has the bee miraculous because he couldn't go up against a miraculous user empty handed and also because i thought it would be funny.

he probably secretly temporarily recruits members of the bucci gang to help with battles/ hunt down ladybug (except theyre all big fans of ladybug so it doesn't really work) but to keep the light comedy of errors going he never tries to recruit bruno himself because on the surface hes very loyal to the gang and gio thinks that means he knows the nature of the miraculouses/is a holder himself (he seems to be favored by polpo, who definitely is a holder) and doesn't wanna risk anything

bruno does eventually come to realize the truth that the boss is the one behind the attacks, and becomes momentarily conflicted because Betrayal. but then Trish gets involved one way or another and hes like You Know What--

and yes dramatic noir-lb reveal at some point because two sides of the law etcetc and yes gio recovers the ladybug miraculous at the end

there's probably a million plot holes just in this outline but man. its for fun so whatevs

#wwaffles bein' an idiot #dumb au ideas #long post #jo watches jojo

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