#you'd think she fucking hates me

[avisisisis]

i cannot stop thinking about anissa and marky though [COMIC SPOILERS]

how did he react when he learned what his mother did? just like mark, he lived a lie. he thought his mother was kind and nice — the only thing that is true is that she loved him, but now, he has no idea if he should believe it

and. you've grown up being conditioned to believe that violence is peace, and that kindness is a lie and a weakness. you hurt people. by hurting a person, by destroying him irreparably, you found the boy you love most: your son. and you don't regret it. you hope one day, once he sees him, he'll get it. but you still don't regret it. you can't say you're sorry

marky will grow up without his biological father, because when mark hugs him he can only remember his mother and what she did to him. your father can't love you the way your mom did. you can't love your mother the way your father loved his

the worst part is, that it she hadn't done it, you wouldn't have existed. you wouldn't be here. your father will grow to love you. you will grow to accept each other. but you tend to wonder — if he never sees you as anything else other than your mother's son, then who will you have when everyone else you know dies?

#i hate anissa but also her character was done so well #like i hate her #fuck her #but jesus christ. #wow #i feel so bad for marky honestly #when anissa said “i don't regret it. tell him. tell him he'll understand when he sees him” #that shit hurt me #that was the WORST time for you to die girl #i was like “idc about anissa thank fuck she died” but then #i put myself in marky's place. and WOWWW #you gotta be strong to deam with that #YOU GOTTA BE STRONG TO BE ANY INVINCIBLE TBH #LIKE WOW. #thinking about mark now #imagine learning that the person who hurt you the most is a better person now #and that means she regrets kt #but then you learn right after her death that she does not regret it at all #you don't even get to hear an “i'm sorry”. not that you'd have listened to it #then you learn she had a son. with you. named AFTER YOU #honestly i can't blame him for allowing things to be THAT awkward w marky #i am so glad the reconciled tho I don't think I'd be able to live if mark's son hated him #tw sa mention #invincible #invincible comic #comic spoilers #marky grayson #anissa invincible #mark grayson #b4 anyone gets this wrong: I DO NOT SUPPORT WHAT ANISSA DID. it's just that marky's relationship w her is smth i would love to see explored

[rhineposting]

saw someone unironically saying "rhinedottir fed nigredo to durin to make nigredo grow better and stronger because durin's stomach is actually nurturing like hummus 😊😊😊" god if you're up there can you revoke this person's rights to speak about rhinedottir, or any morally questionable girlboss for that matter. if you can't accept that a lady had her son swallow her other son whole then just move onto characters who are actually nice instead of rewriting the actually not so good characters to fit your imaginary narrative better.

#rhine rambling tag #rhinedottir #i swear to god no one has it worse than rhinedottir fans we're in the FUCKING TRENCHES #if it's not people claiming rhinedottir is gonna be an eden or black swan or mobius or whatever honkai girl expy #or saying she's a descender because of that one “flower that is not of this world” line WHICH WAS DEBUNKED SINCE 2. FUCKING 3 #its people doing olympics levels of mental gymnastics to convince themselves and everyone else that she's not a horrible person. #SHE IS. THAT'S LITERALLY THE WHOLE POINT #god. reminds me of an ex-friend of mine that was 100% convinced scara was a psychopath who would turn evil and sadistic after 3.3 #and downright saying that the “little doll” story should have been deleted because it didn't fit THEIR interpretation of scara #that was based entirely in wishful thinking and poor misconceptions that have been cleared up PATCHES AGO. #but they just COULDN'T accept that scaramouche wasn't this inherently murderous goth sadistic mommy kinda character #and called ME and MY FRIEND *DELUSIONAL* #last time i spoke to them they said that neuvillette would never cry because he uhh didnt understand his emotions??? WHAT #THATS NOT HOW IT WORKS MAYBE IF YOU WERENT BUSY CRANKING IT TO SCARAMOUCHE IN NURSE LINGERIE YOU'D ACTUALLY KNOW WHO THE CHARACTERS **ARE** #aight that was quite the tangent #ok new tag #rhine hating

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[thedreadvampy]

so me and Sam FINALLY watched the last season of Capaldi's Who

and tell me how, after literally over a decade and for perhaps the first time in his fucking career, Steven Moffat wrote a not just tolerable but really actually good two-parter and fully stuck the landing. like the editing and pacing were still a bit off but the storyline was original, fun, interesting and emotionally invested, and most importantly, rather than ending on a damp fart or the most furious autofellatio in history, the final part didn't fumble it and ended in a way that felt emotionally satisfying and like it made sense for the characters. like the last time he successfully wrapped up a multiparter in a way that didn't feel cheap and hollowly disappointing to me was literally The Empty Child/The Doctor Dances, and a) that was in 2005 and b) tbh The Doctor Dances is about a tenth as compelling and memorable as The Empty Child.

so after 12 years of either hackery or great ideas that fall apart in the second act, Steven Moffat writes what I would genuinely consider to be a memorable Good Doctor Who serial. it ends with bittersweet pathos, a solid closer for all the main characters, and sends Moffat's showrunning career out on a genuine high despite failing ratings and budget cuts (and the fact Doctor Who hasn't been consistently good since about 2009). good job Steve. with grudging respect I admit you pulled it out of the bag on this one.

wait what's this there's one more episode left? and it stars Mark Gatiss? and you literally spend the whole episode inexplicably just shitting all over the legacy of Doctor Who by inventing a version of the First Doctor that bears literally no resemblance to the character that William Hartnell actually played, just so you can spend the whole episode saying misogynistic things to run yourself off to how much more Totally Feminist your version was than the version you made up in your head of what Doctor Who was like in the 60s? and it added literally nothing to the season except to take all the wind out of the sails of the actually good finale you already wrote?

even when he writes a good episode this fucker still finds ways to disappoint me.

#red said #as I remembered it is by a LONG shot the best that Doctor Who has been under Moffat and I do think giving Capaldi more creative control #helped a lot. cause he's a massive nerd and also he approximately knows how to construct a story. #bill is the first female companion Moffat has ever written with an actual fucking personality #(even if being mean that personality is maybe kind of just what you'd get if you put rose Martha and Donna in a blender) #(at least she's not a blank slate with the words SASSY. SEXY. written on it) #matt Lucas is genuinely surprising bc despite hating the man it's kind of impossible to not like Nardole by the end?? #michelle gomez finally gets some room to get her Anthony Ainley on and be the Master PROPERLY #i was hooting and clapping my hands at the John Sim Master's dumb disguise #like the cast is GREAT #(and while he still can't shut the fuck up about her at least Moffat isn't shoving River fucking Song down my throat 24/7) #buuuuuuuut uhhhh the politics are. incoherent and the vibes are rancid in a lot of the episode plots. #they clearly WANT to do Social Commentary but weirdly keep bringing up colonialism and capitalism and then taking the side of the baddies? #how are you doing to do a piece about the British Empire colonising Mars with a posh villain and a whole comparison to the British Raj #then come down on the side of the British state? same with the ninth legion piece? and the zombie spacesuit one is fun #but it wraps up with 'and then they complained to upper management and capitalism ended forever the end' #uhhhhh in the one with the microbot colony again we conclude the Morally Correct Answer is colonialism #don't get me started on the monks plot which is a) literally just ripping off the Year That Never Was but without the emotional impact #but also b) has some really weird and genuinely fucked up ideas about both geopolitics and uhhhh consent???? #so yeah the philosophical core is either incoherent or Fucking Horrendous in almost every episode #it's frequently derivative but tbh that's often to its benefit bc it vibes like trying to figure out what actually makes episodes memorable #and the budget is clearly cut to the bone bc the visual effects look worse than 2005 and the post edits are really weird and janky #like the pacing and ordering is weirdly off and a lot of the shot to shot transitions are awkward or confusing. #plus the sound design in the first few eps is. unhinged. it sounds like offbrand versions of standard stings it's all just Slightly Wrong #but for real i liked it more than I've liked any other season of Moffat Who. it's messy incoherent and often politically INFURIATING #but it has some actual heart and energy. and it feels like doctor who. and i would say moffat is spending like 10% as much time #wanking over his own past triumphs (and Alex Kingston) #and a lot more time like. trying to write something which works. he's not like successful 100% of the time. or even 50%. #but there's a lot more warmth and creativity. mackie capaldi and lucas have actual chemistry as a core cast #and i think it helps that everyone in the core cast is SO PSYCHED TO BE THERE. like it just wasn't a slog like all Moffat's other seasons.

[flintbian]

Someone talk me out of putting "my other car is a fucking warship" sticker on my wheelchair

#ive wanted to put this on my wheelchair for YEARS and now ive finally succumbed and bought the sticker #it got here in the mail today but im not sure if i should do it #don't worry fucking is bleeped out and the sticker is small so you'd have to get real close to see it #but im imagining ppl behind me on the bus maybed being bothered by it idk #although if someone got the reference id make an instant friend and it's funny anyways as my 'car' is a wheelchair lol #ive never decorated any of my mobility aids and i wouldn't beyond this sticker but i think it'd maybe be hilarious #to see that on there #but i also hate when ppl look at me or any attention and im physically disabled ppl stare enough but alsp #whenever i go to something like a ren faire in costume i can always say the stares are at my costume instead of abled stares reasons #so who knows maybe it'd have the 'theyre looking at my horns' kinda effect #ive had my chair for around six years now she needs some decorations #anyways yall got any recs of where i should put my other ten stickers? my art bin is nearly packed 😁 #p #the fucking warship speech obviously lives in my head rent free #as does the entire show but Anyways

[time-like-tears-in-rain]

god i relate so hard to martha rewatching her episodes is fucking rough.

#i too got fucked up over a skinny bland white boy in a nice coat while #trying to get my career started #and was dragged backwards and into all of his shit #and figured oh god if i fuck this up he's gonna die #he's gonna kill himself #i'm never getting a relationship with him but i can't leave and also i kinda like it here #and my parents violently hate each other if i'm not here for one of my siblings than no one is #and my other sibling is a bit of a mess so i have to be the good child the smart successful child and my career has to come first #but i just want for fucking once to have a fling with adventure #a fling with whimsy i'm so desperate for it #and i'm stuck between my parents and yeah i also hate my dad's new woman but i literally cannot change shit #and this guy is saying hey lets go do something fun and stupid that does nothing but eat time #and i'm like sure!!!! #even though he's fun around other friends he's quiet and withdrawn with me and dumping on me about another woman #and it's like..... #I'T S LIKE...... #just me and my leather jacket against the world #yeah rose is my favorite and you'd think that my favorite would be clara bc she was the evil one #and i relate to donna's listlessness and perceived ineptitude when she just needs her fuckin adhd diagnosis and to get away from her mother #but god. i hate seeing the fandom #belittle the heartbreak part of martha's story because you don't get it #she thought she loved him and even though it started as just liking him AS SHE FOUND OUT THAT HE WAS UNATTAINABLE SLOWLY OVER TIME SHE WAS #ALSO FALLING IN LOVE WITH HIM SLOWLY OVER TIME. #i get it i get it i loved it and it fucking SUCKED. #annie irl

[dirt-grub]

If you fuckheads are still trying to justify this garbage game for garbage fascists, here’s a comprehensive fuck you to the defenders of it, or just the people who claim its “not that bad” to support. your allyship is literally nothing if its so flimsy that a shitty video game is too hard to boycott.

#jk rowling #fuck terfs #hogwarts legacy #harry potter #swinging a bat at a bees nest with this but im fed up with fascists #also yes. it is that serious. she has political influence. she sides with right wingers that also hate the quote 'real' women #yall seem to think you're defending by stanning her #theres going to be a bill introduced in the US if trump wins again that outlaws being transgender pretty much straight up #so fuck you absolute invertebrates who can't commit to caring about people because of a video game you'd otherwise forget about in a month #gonna receive nasty shit in my inbox #it only fuels me you fucks #cant wait for the false equivalences too. 'you said i was a fuckhead and thats mean. you're as bad as me advocating for fascism and bigotry' #also thank you james stephanie sterling the queen #they do not MISS! #which ive recommended their channel before bc their career got fucked when they came out as trans #but even more so now!

[sleepknoot]

You know as a kid, there was such a unique thrill in finding fandom spaces. As far as I was aware, my brother and I were the only people who had ever played the Devil May Cry games or watched the anime.

Imagine my disappointment when I discovered FanFic.net and tried to roleplay with the people in the community during the early 2010s.

#Easily the worst fandom experience I've had. Especially on the roleplay side of things. #Lot of people who saw my 13 year old ass as a threat to their ships? Even tho I never spoke to them. #But these people HATED my OC so much because she was Dante's kid. You know. Because I was a child who adored Dante? #AND I WAS CLEARLY A CHILD TOO. I WAS ALWAYS TRANSPARENT ABOUT IT. #In my rules and bio I'd tell people I was a minor. Posting about ''Guys my first day of high school I'm nervous 🥺''. #I'd be minding my own little business and I'd look at mutual's mutuals blog rules: #''GRRRR BARK BARK BARK. I WON'T ROLEPLAY WITH OCS WHO XYZ (obviously directed at me)'' #See I look back on it and can take the piss (I was as annoying as you'd think) but holy fuck did that alter my brain for the worse. #A young me seeing 20-35+ year old acting nuts over fiction and children being children. #That's why when I see ''I miss the old RPC. People were nicer.'' shit I roll my eyes so hard. People were not nicer. #I was getting rape and death threats from these fucking animals because they felt a weird way about my OC. #zombert.txt #Sorry for the novel in the tags. I just went on a lil tangent.

[elytrafemme]

every single fictional character i like should split and have mood swings like me. "ohhhhh but it's not canotical" "ohh they have good control over their emotions and stable views on the world" i don't fucking care. i see cq in his fake desert i see klavier's control dialogue i see dahlia and her serial murders and komaeda and the gun literally fuck with me right now. we need to stop being cowards about our fictional character headcanons i think everyone should kill people always because i can't

#neg #omg am i having an episode right now is this episode coded is that what we're doing oh my God should we tell all your friends #should we call the president oh my God mare is having an episode right now guys don't freak but it's finally happening aaaahhh #we've been waiting forever but our queen's finally back she's having an episode oh my God we stan like crazy oh my God i'm calling everyone #can we have a cake at the episode tell me we're having cake at the episode i'm buying a cake it's official girls oh my God AAAH #she's so crazy LOVEEE her. oh my God!!! #anyway i think my blond bitch rockstar fave should get to kill the titular character! #sorry i hate the fucking name censoring in tags i'm trying to ween off of it cause it's like not accessible tee bee aych #but like i need to speak my truth so we're doing epithets #he should literally get to kill him and rip his carpet up WHY DOES NOBODY TALK ABT IT #they all make him cry or whatever this isn't the right blog for this but i've got images okay #enough crying enough consolation hugging where's my apology only for it to not be accepted and things to be fucking over #where's MY catharsis you know. this barbie needs catharsis! #i'm super light headed i should super stop posting but like who am i going to text in these conditions #the answer is nobody nobody wants to text my phone like they can blow it up it's fine w/e #i'd make instagram stories but it'll be like a whole thing and they'll report me again for mental illness #i'm going to stop apologizing for having breakdowns publicly actually. if you were like this you would too. #actually maybe you wouldn't because you'd be soooo well adjusted well i'm a weak bitch like actually #and my bones are fucking breaking right now so i'm gonna tell everyone about it <3 #i licherally don't want to damage public property now and by that i mean my room LMAOOOO #this is nawt public property but the paints so nice

[piplupod]

i hate having a bad memory because there was some guy in public walking in front of my sibling and me, and he had a bunch of nordic tattoos and a vest on that had a bunch of patches and elder futhark runes all along the bottom. and i could not for the life of me clearly remember what symbols were the nazi (folkish odinist) ones so i was just fucking shaking terrified until i could pull my sibling through an opening in the crowd to get away from the guy

anyways. i got home and looked it up and yeah that was a nazi lmfao. i fucking hate this bc I don't think I'm able to do anything about that since i am malnourished and tiny compared to most other people, and this guy was lowkey huge (tall and beefy). i wish i could do literally Anything about this kind of thing, i hate that these people feel safe to walk around with literal hate symbols proudly on display

#im shaking again bc im so upset fjfdjfkl i hate this so much #i wish i could be tall and strong and able to hold my own in a fight #the best i can hope for is fighting scrappy and being able to run fast enough to where somebody else might help me #but even then... i don't think i could do that fjdlsl i am rly not physically well the past year or two #it is just really fucking awful to have to let that guy go freely walking around #my sibling actually looks indigenous dnfjkdl i look like a whitey but she has the darker skintone so i worry abt her #i just wanted to get her out of there and away from him bc idk what he would do #we were in the middle of a crowd but i just have zero idea what to expect of someone who wears hate symbols openly lmao #god i hate this djfjdll i feel very sick and shaky #like i was 90% sure he was going to be a nazi bc ppl dont wear that many runes if theyre not nazis usually but like. the confirmation- #-is just... scary idk #he had the three triangles and the o rune and everything lmao #granted the o rune didnt have the upturned bottom lines but still like... i dont think you'd have Just That on a patch for good purposes #nazi tw #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[toygirljackal-archive]

Fuck I feel so dumb

#vent in the tags #she doesn't follow me anymore. why does such a simple thing hurt so much. #I'm mourning a relationship that barely even happened... but it feels so impossible to move on from... #I... really hate that I feel this way. it feels unfair to people I love now... #vaguing but do you ever instantly hit it off with someone and fall immediately in love but then fuck it up and become unable to interact #for like weeks. and she cared about you and you cared about her but it didn't work and it was your fault. and you try to move on... #but every fourth thought is about her and how much you wish she was in your arms and you in hers. and you love other people but not like he #like somehow this person you've only known for a week and a half is more important than anyone else but she's the one person you forced awa #and it's been weeks and you still can't say anything because you know you'd only hurt her. but what if you could make her understand? #but if she can't you'll just be hurting her over and over and you can't bring yourself to risk that. bc you love her #you love her too much to love her. cruel irony #and maybe if she wanted she'd text you. but maybe she's feeling the same way and is waiting for you. so you're torn #do you share your feelings honestly and risk hurting her or leave her alone and risk hurting... #would it be better if you made yourself the bad guy? would she hurt less if she believed you were as bad as you think you were? #would it be better if you told her a lie. that you moved on. that you didn't love her anymore. or would it break her heart? #all I want is for her to be happy. and I know I can't give her that... #and she shared her struggles to feel worthy... and I KNOW she's worth it all and more... a million times more than I could ever give her... #I feel like I gave her false hope and broke her even worse... she said I didn't hurt her. I don't believe her but I really hope it's true #I think I'll be thinking about her forever. wondering “what if”s till I die

[arklay]

did not just think about diana finding al just sitting on their bed holding their wedding photo in his hands after she brings him back, and he's just looking at it, visibly distressed, and the moment she touches his shoulder he starts crying and buries his face against her chest because he thinks he really ruined their relationship. good lord

#leah.txt #pair: ewskers #baby boy she would not have spent years regenerating your body if she hated you i am going to disintegrate i can't do this #i think when his viruses are stable his emotions are very much Not. i think the mutant strain changed specific brain chemistry and he lost #a lot of empathy and just the ability to really feel emotions. he was very numb. he knew he should feel a certain way and emulated that but #he didn't really *feel* and after everything is stable he's feeling things he hasn't in over 10 years and he's also in a very bad state of #mind from everything that's happened so oh boy things aren't going great for them #also numb except like anger. and hatred. he was being turned into a literal killing machine after all. notice how blood thirsty he got? #i have so much post volcano lore for them i can't do this i need to just. explodes. and like they are still working through things ofc (it #takes years) when diana is alerted of activity with the company and even though they go and do all of that like he is still trying to find #himself again and decondition everything spencer and umbrella drilled into his head. they are still evil and scheming don't worry there #besties. and they still think they are better than everyone else. this is fact in their minds. but like. there's a lot going on for him #i put him through a lot of pain and as much as i joke that i want to put him through a blender it actually makes me really sad. he doesn't #need more trauma lmao. yeah he is evil and fucked up but no child deserves what spencer did to him #fictional man making me really sad. i need to wrap him in a blanket #sir why did you have to go and try and kill everyone on the planet whadda hell is wrong with you i'm holding your hand #maybe if your wife was there kissing you then you'd calm down a little bit and not throw yourself into a volcano #not unfolding time coming on shuffle as i type this what is wrong with you spotify i can't go through this right now #i like to see powerful men weak and cry but also he is a ball of trauma and it hurts me #i have Many thoughts about why he did what he did in 5 cause yeah it's out of character for him to follow through with spencer's vision #but i don't think that's what he was doing. kinda hinted a bit at this with that one fight fic but also i have a whole essay somewhere

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[semercury]

people keep saying shit like "you only hate this character because she's a woman and is confident and gets close to the male character you enjoy, you're just delusional and weirdly jealous" and it's like. maybe i actually don't like her because i have eyes and a low tolerance for emotional manipulation.

#stuff sarah says #like listen. i support women's wrongs. trust me #and yes. it's true i'm part of the crowd that wants to self insert with Specific Man Character #and like. i really want to like her. i want to be like wow neat morally gray fucked up character! #but i just can't! #and i'm sure people are also like oh you don't ship them bc you can't stomach the idea of unhealthy ships you baby #and like. actually no. i'm all for the ships that are fucked up and unhealthy. i think it's interesting #i just see so many people be like uwu they're perfect for one another and it's like no? she doesn't care about him? #she straight up said i kept you alive bc i thought you'd be useful to me #and honestly? i'd be really interested in like a fic that explored the fact that she def has conflicting feelings about him #but as a whole. no. i don't like her #there's smth about lying to someone who is trusting and caring and taking advantage of both those traits that i just can't stomach #like yeah yeah she pulls a gun on him. but it's the emotional manipulation i can't stand at the end of the day #idk. i just don't want to be lumped in with the ''i hate this female character because they get in the way of ships'' kind of people #bc that's not it #idk. i'm just thinking of how i'm going to deal with certain things in my fic #blah

[casiavium]

About to go on vacation with my friends and while I do like them and their company if I have to deal with one oh I love every woman ever too bad I'm stuck with my stinky gamer bf how ever did you manage to get a girlfriend I am going to fucking snap

#not real names used #but yes [jessica] tell me again about how beautiful women are and how you would pick literally any one of them over [josh] your generic man #because wlw relationships are soooo much easier aren't they #because it's not like I'm afraid to fucking hold hands with my gf is it? that she's not out to her parents because she's worried about #how they will react since they're super conservative? since her brother goes to christian college? #it's not like because I am now visibly gnc with a fem gf we can't always pass off as 'sisters' or 'just friends' in an emergency. #because no one believes that #it's not like your fucking boyfriend is the type of man who thinks it's hot you like girls and doesn't think you making out with one #at a party is cheating #but yes you'd choose any woman ever over him. you're just so pitiful and unworthy you had to date him #if wlw would just stop complaining about how hard it is to get a girlfriend and fucking DATE EACH OTHER we wouldn't HAVE these problems #you know what? men deserve better. I'm siding with the het man who has bi wife energy over the bi wife who 'hates' him any day #it's not ~quirky~ ~cute~ or ~validating your identity~ to degrad your SO for their gender just because they don't make you look #visibly queer enough to get hate crimed on the streets of Old Town Williamsburg #(which to be perfectly clear had not happened to me personally BUT to MANY of the people in LGBT circles I know. everyone has a story) #and if ONE person comes into my gd ask box with some bullshit about biphobia—the real biphobia is the fact that they are perpetuating #a stereotype that bi is just a stepping stone to gay #be fucking proud of your attraction to men or don't date them. they're real live people too [bethany] they do have emotions just! like! you

[pog-with-a-blog]

I was gunna actually successfully not drink or smoke after emdr and actually let myself process all the shit that came up like I'm supposed to but then my brother decided to come in and argue with my dad so I started drinking and THEN my dad randomly decided to bring up my past sexual abuse so NOW I am past the point of drinking and haven't decided what to do next but point being fuck my life

#mp #emdr #i would like to be out of fight of fight #for one fucking evening #is that too much to ask #my therapist also tried to tell me that i get too angry and she doesnt like that i yell at her and thats always why im in conflict #like no #fucking no #i am aware of the anger and i push it down way too far and let it eat away at me because i know it will cause even more problems #if i show it directly #she asks me to access those emotions and then tell her what im thinking about #of fucking course im gunna yell about it #i dont even yell like at her #i just yell about things that make me upset #this house #chronic pain #etc #and she says she doesnt enjoy being yelled at #like maam if you were having a good time then you'd be the one paying me #i hate everything im gunna go drink more #im actually really pissed at her #like #i told her i fucking know and she said well I'm underscoring it because its important #YES IT IS IMPORTANT THATS WHY I AM FUCKING HERE #TRYING TO PROCESS THE ANGER #SO DONT TELL ME TO STOP YELLING #NOW CAN WE MOVE THE FUCK ON TO THE STUFF THATS MAKING ME ANGRY #INSTEAD OF ADDING ANOTHER ONE TO THE LIST

[neonpigeons]

health insurance is such bs. and so are pharmaceutical companies. I got a letter today from my health insurance telling me it'll no longer cover the current long-term insulin I'm on (tresiba) because it's more expensive and I'll have to go back to an older type (lantus, which is less effective) unless my doctor gets a prior authorization.

I hate this country

#being diabetic isn't even that bad. the worst part is the fucking insurance companies!!! #i had trouble with tresiba on my parent's insurance too. it was costing $900 for a 3 month supply WITH INSURANCE #it's cheaper on this plan but fucking hell #im sure my doctor can do the prior authorization thing she wants me to be on this #i was on lantus for a long time but it's not as effective as the newer insulin #ugghfhfhs i was already in a bad mood #when i got home from the store my dad yelled at me cuz noodle was barking #so I used my anger to clean out the fridge. now im just tired. #i hate it here so much #ari speaks #I've been diabetic since i was 9 yrs old you'd think it would've gotten better over time but no