#youll still get just as much out of it

[miasmultifandomdump]

It annoys me how so much of modern discourse around female characters is, to be frank, misogyny repackaged as being progressive.

If a woman's strengths and interests are associated with being feminine, such as cooking or enjoying nice clothes or being kind and compassionate, the entire fandom jumps on her as stereotypical or weak. It's seen as cool to bash on "women's work", never mind that your average misogynist has been doing it for decades, hell, centuries, and the jobs that are mocked as women's work are actually pretty essential to humans surviving and thriving.

And then, of course, if a woman shows the slightest hint of nonconformity, the entire fandom jumps on her because "oh!! she's trying to be not like other girls!! she wants male attention so bad!!" It doesn't matter how she is to the other girls in her life, if she wears combat boots and listens to punk instead of Taylor Swift, she clearly hates every other woman ever according to certain parts of fandom. It couldn't be that she's neurodivergent or LGBT or hell, even just a tomboy, she has to hate every other girl on the planet. /sarcasm

AND JUST TO CLARIFY. These tropes can genuinely be negatively done. The traditionally feminine girl can be a weak character and the tomboy girl can be an ass. But when you're calling a girl a "pick me" just because she doesn't live up to your idea of what a woman should look like or what you think feminism is... congratulations. You've simply repackaged sexism and called it woke. And lots of girls who see this crap online are going to suffer for it but hey, it was never actually about them, so who cares, right? /sarcasm

Anyway, to all the girls reading this post, you go ahead and be who you want. Be a princess or a president or a pop singer or a punk rocker or hell, all of the above. You're not a "pick me" you're not a "handmaiden" you're not trying too hard to be "not like other girls". You are fine. Don't let pseudo-woke nonsense get to you. It's just white noise.

#and to all of you guys who are maybe younger just know. youll learn to drown it out #you might still roll your eyes and if you have anxiety like me you might still have bad days but. it gets better #you are worth so much more than worrying about people who refuse to give you good faith and their stupid judgements of you #fandom critique #feminism #female characters #strong female characters #pick me girl #pick me #handmaiden #nlog #not like other girls #all queued up with nowhere to go

[luck-of-the-drawings]

OOOH BABY THIS ONE WAS A LONG TIME COMING. NIGHTMARE NIGHTMARE NIGHTMARE!!

YOU THOUGHT IT WAS A DAY LIKE ANY OTHER. A DAY OF ADVENTURE WITH YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS. OH HOW TIGHTLY YOU HOLD THEM TO YOUR CHEST, AND OH HOW TERRIFYING IT IS TO WATCH THEM GET EVISCERATED BY SOMETHING YOU DONT UNDERSTAND. MAYBE IF YOU JUST LISTENED A BIT MORE, IF YOU LET THE SMART ONE LEAD THE CHARGE, THIS WOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED. ONCE AGAIN YOUR IMPULSIVENESS LEADS TO DISASTER. HEAR ME NOW, YOUNG TIDESTRIDER, YOUR STUPIDITY WILL BRING THE DEMISE OF EVERYTHING YOU WERE BORN AND FORGED TO PROTECT. HOW COULD THE PROPHECY HAVE CHOSEN SOMEONE SO USELESS? I BET YOU WISH YOU CHOSE THE RIGHT LEVER. FAILURE.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide spoilers #jrwi riptide #cw gore #cw blood #cw eyestrain #THE NIGHTMARE ARC WAS CRAAAZY IVE BEEN WORKIN ON THIS SHIT SINCE THAT EP CAME OUT OHHH MY GOOOODD #ITS DONE ITS DONE I DONT CAAAARE I CANT LOOK AT IT ANYMORE JUST TAAAAKE IT #IT WAs meant to just be a buncha silly doodles and. well. then i saw all the beautiful colors in the world #and i just really wanted to draw jay getting fucked up by a lazer #IGNOREEEE THE DIFFERING ARTSTYLES THIS HAS LITERALLY BEEN COOKING FOR MONTHS AND I AM TALENTED IN MANY DIFFERENT WAYS #I LOVE COLORS!!! if you look clooosesly youll notice that gillions eyes are bright green everytime #the dream stuff is all reddish and the waking world stuff is blue #I ALSO LOve drawing tears and that weird thick blood pouring from the wounds in his chest #i also LOVE drawing Dead Eyes (eyes of some1 who is dead) poor chip lmaooo everyone point n laugh at this guy who got Power Word: killed #he care so much for gillion tho... when he was breaking jay out he was like 'we gotta save gill' BUT #THAT WAS DREAM CHIP. THATS HOW GILLION SEES CHIP.. gillion knows these two love n care for him so much AUUUUUU #MORE IDEAS: i like to think gillion knows what price looks like bc chip has shown him Via his funny magic Disguise Self Bandana #also kinda unrelated but still in this episode. ive never seen gryffon act so homosexual. admitting he goes to like. 'male service' or wate #like that was all in gills dream. does gill just see gryffon as a fruit or somethin. does he Know? #okayokay i think i got most o the worms out of my BRAIN. i just love blood and terror and horror and fear so mmuuuuch #and i hope u love it too. have a good day if you can help it

[dizzybevvie]

If I die within the next week know it wasnt an accident

#I dont have the energy to elaborate rn and this is a /lh #i just have sooo much nostalgia for rob/dob and every plot point is wrapped up in a lil bow instead of stretching for 9373927393 episodes #i get thats some peoples style! its just not rlly mine :3 #as a kid i loved every dragon from Book Of Dragons having its own episode #and i feel like ppl forget that when rtte was coming out; they could only go so far! #like the second movie had already come out. they knew where they were going #which is definitely a strength of the show in some regards #but rob/dob didnt have that #we hsd no idea where rhe franchise was going #which made big lore revelations so meaningful #Hiccup discovering the box with a present from his (thought diseased) mother??? THAT WAS SO WILD TO 5 YEAR OLD ME #or Borks papers and the isle of night (which turned out to be a ruse but like!!!! IT STILL FELT SO BIG AT THE TIME!!!!!!) #idk. #i feel like ive been trying to downplay my love for rob/dob which really ignited my love for the franchise to begin with #bc the animation was janky and no one had really seen it and no one in my entire life had ever valued it like i did #(read: i was autistic and didnt realise caring so much about something wasnt “normal”) #But i rewatched it this year and yknow what? it holds up. i ADORE riders of berk. FIGHT ME. #(Sonic destruction Knuckles voice) Try some shit youll catch these hands #FIGHT ME. YOU'LL WIN #httyd #rob/dob #riders of berk #defenders of berk #race to the edge #NOT RTTE NEGATIVITY BTW!!!!! I LOVE RTTE TE WRITING IS RLLY GOOD ITS JUST THE FORMAT OF ROB APPEALS MORE TO ME PERSONALLY #how to train your dragon #hiccup how to train your dragon #beverly says stuff

[spacedlexi]

Hiiii, your art is gongeous first off

Second, you have any tips for getting good at anatomy and proportion? I see your sketches from your wips and streams and the figures and poses look so spot on always

thank you!!!

the best way to get better at anatomy and proportion is to do some life studies. there are a lot of sites you can use that will give you (generally) good poses to work with. if its at all possible for you though i Definitely recommend taking a life drawing course. one of my favorite classes was the life drawing class i took where i was the Only actual student in the class and everyone else were people in their 60s+ just taking it for fun. my prof was incredible and would give us really great demonstrations and knowledge about skeletal and muscular structures. also the models we got in class were way more diverse than a lot of the models online sites use

life studies can be hard when you first start though. it really helps to understand sighting (which is where you use your pen/fingers to figure out angles and sizes and stuff). heres a more detailed explanation

i did some figure studies the other day and i left a lot of my sighting lines. i use them not only to figure out the angles of limbs but also to help me keep things in proportion. ALSO watch your negative spaces!! that will help you get forms/proportion right too

there are also a lot of "proportion rules" that can help you when just drawing bodies without a reference. A Lot of rules.... the face alone has So many..

when i draw figures without a reference (which is..most of the time..) i think in terms of tubes. really helps with foreshortening (so do contour lines). but i still operate under the guidelines i learned from life drawing in terms of proportions/muscle/bone structure. ive gotten to the point where i just eyeball it while sketching but if something looks wrong i just check my proportions. the more you do it the more second nature it becomes which helps you focus on learning new parts of anatomy. i usually draw these figures first then just draw clothes over them, which then helps with folds/draping and stuff like that

i hope this is understandable lol............ these are all just the vague rules i remember im sure theres so many more and i am still learning myself but i hope this helps you get started. trying to find good proportion sheets/tips online can be hard and just result in some really basic stuff like the 7/8 heads tall rule which is sometimes 7.5 and i just 😵 not helpful, especially since its not even always correct. i still basically use the same general rule but slightly modified (in red). in green are some proportion rules i know (plus a couple in red), and in blue is just a little more detail

again if you have the opportunity at all i Really recommend taking a life drawing class. you might be able to find some good videos on youtube or something too. ALSO look at yourself in the mirror a lot! like really analyze yourself, the length of your limbs, where your hands fall, how wide your shoulders are, stuff like that. just Look. whenever im stuck on a pose i always go and pose in a mirror for reference. in general im always just trying to learn from the world around me :)

#its weird writing all this out because it makes me realize how much information just sits in my head while i draw and i dont even realize #i really just feel a lot of stuff out i keep the 'rules' in my head generally but dont be afraid to break them sometimes too #the more studies you do the more youll be able to just tell when somethings not right #once you know enough you can make up your own guidelines too #whatever helps you remember/visualize #anon i hope you see this its been like 3 hours since you asked #ok i think ive said everything i can think of?? #replies with lexi #incognito #good luck anon i hope this was helpful #long post #i also made a head proportion sheet with the 'right' way and my own modified version but this post is long enough and you asked about poses #now i gotta get back to finishing this still life lol #i should be working but i love to give art tips when i can

[exlimix1a]

I'm not sure if it's too early to mention it...but have any of you heard of Sheezy?

(Not the early 2000s site, but the revival project from 2020-2022)

#Becaaause it's coming back soon~ #and yours truly is going to be a moderator on it heehee! #It might be a bit early to mention it because it's still being built/currently in a supporter-only beta while it's being put back together #but if you had an account in the 2020-2022 revival project youll be able to return to your account in a few weeks when the beta opens up to #all returning users! #and then after that registration for the site will open in chunks #For those who don't know! Sheezy is an art community site! #I was on it in 2021-2022 for a few months before it shut down and it was genuinely one of the most pleasant experiences ive had as an onlin #artist #The focus isn't numbers so much as community and discovering new people #and I'm honored to be a part of bringing it back now that the team has a proper foundation and time to dedicate to our little project C: #exli speaks #Im just so excited for it! #It isnt perfect and we're fleshing things out as we go and the website will improve exponentially over time #but AAHH #I might link the subcription page in the comments if people are interested ($3 gets you into the supporter beta while the website is built #and the bugs these supporters discover are fixed for the official launch) #but honestly it might be more exciting to join for the official launch too...

[fiomeras]

I wonder how many mascot horrors we'll get to the point the toys and silly character designs they rooted and were based from lose the nostalgia that made the genre effective and normal toys arent recognized as toys anymore but scary escape boo boo's plush factory merch lookalikes

#i talk #this goes out to the ipad babies whos never stepped into a toys r us &only exposure to toys is 24 hours of garten of banban youtube videos #dont even know if toys r us is still holding up . those things used to be packed. my only recent memory now is one of them shutting down #dont know!! i have alot of thoughts on mascot horror. its just a shame recent developments seem like theyre going nowhere with the genre #i still think it could be good. most is just evil factory but i think thats nobodys fault. websites just push that content more than others #its such a common setting and plot it loses the suprise & the contrast of twisting nostalgia into something scary had #from how much recent titles always use the same formula with little to no changes. youll know what to expect #its diluted... but i really dont blame any developers for it. Its a tried and true method on getting media recognition really fast #hmmmmm if it makes sense...

[moonsidesong]

man i was so excited to download puyo chronicle when i first hacked my 2ds since it never ran that well on our home pc with citra and it ran even worse on my laptop. but i didnt get that far into it for reasons that i assumed were just because i wasnt as into puyo anymore at the time. well. now im here again. and im realizing maybe this game just isnt very good

#im in the ice area right now and theres really not a very good sense of forward momentum in the story lol #the character models look nice but the writing is pretty flat #and the common enemy encounters are pretty lame #at some point i just started avoiding and running away from them #theres not much incentive to do them? most of them go down with a four chain anyway which is. yknow #pretty easy to do even for a beginner since they start you out with a 3 chain setup from the getgo #i also need a word with whoever had the brilliant idea of making you do ice puzzles when you cant even see that far in front of you #like thats the thing i dont even MIND ice puzzles in fact sometimes i actually really like them!!! #but when you cant even see the spot youll stop at next it just becomes guesswork #which sucks #bri talks #i still intend to get to the end just to say ive done it #but i dont think ill be replaying it any time soon

[slutcore-starships]

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#someone convince me to go to bed #. or i just wont #i fucking hate it so much #‘oh stay off your phone for an hour and turn your nightlight as low as possible’ #have u considered making out with the devils loose asshole #yeag ill just go ahead and stare at the ceiling all by myself in the dark for an hour (sarcastic) #oh and youll absolutely get interrupted by something #usually a bad dream #and wake up sick to your stomach #all so u can . get this . stay tired!! still have no energy!! like whatever

[arolesbianism]

I am still not over the level cap thing what do you mean level fucking 10

#rat rambles #like do they not realize how fucking pathetically low that is? #like it is So easy to get a follower to level 10 especially late game #like in every playthrough of this game Ive done I always have at least one follower whos past level 40 usually several #Im glad they didnt retroactively lower existing followers levels but it still sucks #it just makes leveling them feel kind of pointless when theyre likely going to passively max out after a certain point anyways #like genuinely I dont even understand what the point of this change is #because its not like getting broke. high level followers is much of a concern early game #and mid game is usually only a potential issue balance wise if youve been putting in a stupid amount of effort since the start #and by the time you get to the late game I. genuinely dont think it matters. #like in early late game again youll only have genuinely broken high levels if youve been going hard at leveling followers #and by the end of the late game its like ok and. let ppl be powerful cmon man. #like theres So many things they could have done to adjust the balancing that wasnt this #like if theyre concerned abt faith generation then make a cap on that or make it not a one to one level thing #if theyre concerned about demons then they could again adjust the scaling slightly or simply make it harder to level followers #they could have even used the deciple thing to help with that by having it be a prerequisite to higher levels #like maybe you could have a couple rings of inner circles with each tier unlocking another ten levels #and they could even add a lower cap at like 50 or smth just dont make it fucking 10 #that might genuinely be the worst part of this update and Im not even joking when I say this just killed my motivation to play more #its one of the few things that you were able to keep working on and expanding after unlocking everything else #I genuinely really hope they change this because if not then I think Ill have to drop the game thats how bad it is to me

[intervoids]

and honestly, the heart of art isnt technical skill or vision or anything that takes skill or ability, not to me. I dont think to most people.

I think the heart of art is loving life and hating it as you can only hate something you love with all your heart. and in how you see what you are in how you live and relate to others and the world as it meets you.

i really feel like something godlike wheel knocks over some hump in the road within me and moves like floating on air, and i feel lighter, i feel kinship with the wind when someone likes a thing i did that i felt was a bit petulant or childish or crude or tasteless or just lacking in something substantial or something to care about. not only in "art" art but also in telling jokes, which i think it why tumblr is the best art website to me

because of the jokes, the kind you just tell and sometimes people really like it and its never the ones you really like and its all just so artistic this place where i can say anything and literally a few people whose opinions i vaguely value somewhere in the background see it and ignore it for any number of reasons that are perfectly fine and like literally it takes so much of the pressure off.

i think that's art, making a joke you only kinda like and nobody liking it enough to muster a little half-hearted chuckle. and i would die to relive that moment over and over no matter how humiliating it always feels no matter what, because its fine. that's what love is, is genuinely not caring if someone finds you funny, but still just hanging around

#ive filled your dash with so much ranting unintelligible and telligible and yet so many people still follow me #i know only a few get the full blast #but still #even if you unfollow because of my unpredictable levels of annoyingness --> its all fine! were all gonna be happy in this #eventually! even if it takes drugs and youre miserable curled up crying at all times theres something out there that youll crawl on top of #and youll rest there like a caveman might or like a lizard should and youll love live and being alive #despite or because of whatever struggles it doesnt matter #just knowing some old clock tower still stands thousands of miles away makes me happy and feel a deep sense of peac #e

[aria0fgold]

Will forever love and adore the game Ib, it's the very first rpgmaker horror game I've played and it has a very special place in my heart. On that same note, it's also very funny how my memories of playing this in the past was all bout how scary the game was but now that I've revisited it, it actually aint even scary bro.

#ariaplays #ariaplays: Ib #a short and nice experience #miiiight go back and get the other endings and check out the area that unlocks during a second playthrough #went with garry's happy ending. love him so much #felt so bad for mary tho.... maaaan... its either garry or mary and im so sorry mary but garry... #i remember back then as a kid i hated mary sooo much cuz the first ending i got was her happy ending #and it tore my heart apart seeing garry slowly die. the part where he just told ib he'll just be sleeping for awhile like bro... #i know you aint bro... bro you're gonna die arent you... the moment you close your eyes youll be dead arent you.... broo.... #ya best believe young me couldnt rest at all until i get garry's happy ending #and after a few days. i started thinkin more bout mary and i was like: actually... she aint rlly that bad... #and yea she rlly aint shes just a really lonely kid who wants to get outta the gallery and eat sweets and have friends #sad that theres no ending where both garry and mary could leave with ib... #also ive ingrained some fanlyrics for the character themes so much back then that i still remember it a bit today #hearing garry's theme and im like: if you ever feel scared or lost-- #for mary's theme it'll be like: welcome to my world that's painted with sadness--

[im-smart-i-swear]

Does Tashi have the memories upto the kerberos mission or before the mission? (Also love that he's being 'I do not see' about the entire clone thing, love that for him)

Im not really sure about it tbh! The option i'm leaning the most into is that he has Shiro's memories up to a few months/weeks before the mission. It just makes everything so much worse for him beacuse he doesnt even know about Shiro and Adam' Whole Thing.

For him it looks like one moment he was preparing for the biggest mission of his life and the next thing he knows, he wakes up surrounded by dozens of fucking corpses who look like him why do they all look like him

also i like to headcanon that the reason for why there were so many of the clones there is bc those are the failed attempts - discarded bc of mistakes in the cloning process or failed memory transfers or something(most of em were propably braindead or unable to survive)(dont ask me how the guys even survived falling from however high that place was. that's not importrant)

Tashi knows something's wrong from the beginning - some of his memories are disjointed or missing, there are names and places he should remember but he doesnt, and they all feel distant - but he pushes all his doubts and suspicions deep down beacuse there are people who need him here.

pretty much the same goes for taks and taka too! all three of them came to a mutual understanding that its best to just try and not to mention the fact they have the exact same name and life stories. theres more importrant things to think about like, y'know, not dying!!

Thank you for the ask!

#ask #my funky guys #rip tashis mental stability😔 #even after years of knowing hes a clone a part of tashi still yearns for shiros old life #also after he officially accepted that hes a clone(and that everything he knew is effectively gone) he just redefines his sense of self #by dedicating his life to ensuring his new family is happy and safe. his relationship w/ his family becomes the thing that defines him #beacuse hes not strong or good at fighting or capable At All(its not like he taught himself how to make clothes and food and set up traps #noooo no no hes soo dumb and only good at being an okay big brother..) #yeah. im starting to think this guy might have some sort of a problem🤔🤔🤔🤔 hm. #oh anD THEN after years of living in total isolatin they get out and theres SO MUCH STUFF and so much they can do and places they can go!! #and tashi starts panicking bc what if they dont need me anymore?? what if the people i spent years caring for decide to leave me and to #explore on their own??? theyre not stuck toghether anymore. they can leave. and then youll have no purpose again. #you'll be alone. #woah this got a bit sad huh. #dw they work it out! surprise turns out tashis family doesnt want to abandon him the moment they have the chance!! #he'll propably always be a bit clingy tho #(<- btw a lot of this stuff also fits soup. theyre both like that. tashi lets it show more)

[frightgothcar]

looking at him isnt enough i want him to fall asleep on my chest 

#like the kind of sleep where youve been working outside all day and when you come in the door its like stepping into winter and youre too #damn tired to even shower and you get your muddy shoes off and maybe your pants too if youre lucky and just collapse on the bed and its #still too damn hot to cuddle but the fan starts blowing and the surface of your skin is growing icicles and hes kinda wrapped around you and #you can hear his breathing go steady and youre so fucking exausted but a little bit of light is coming through the window just enough so you #can see his face and youre like wow. and the next day when you wake up you get to kiss him on the forehead and massage his sore muscles and #go back out to work except the hard part is over and you just have to clean and at the height of the day you go back inside to rest because #the sun is brutal and you drink iced tea and listen to him talk about something he loves #while laying your head down on the table like its fourth grade and you just stayed up late for the first time and you go out in the evening #just to wrap things up and its still warm but not hot and the insects and frogs are singing and the air smells fresh and alive and you #watch him play with his cat who isnt allowed outside usually but shes on a little expadition and its just so adorable and once the mosquitos #start biting you go inside and shower and spend the evening in bed talking about your plans and what youll do next and its just a lovely m #moment #maybe you listen to music on a low volume while you fall asleep and you think about how the other night made you just that much more greatfu #for this one and that you have someone with you who wants to do both the literal/metaphorical long days of hard work under the hot sun and #chilling out just enjoying each others company

[murcielagatito]

bro sugar mommy ava sugar baby janine

#IM GOING TO KILL MYSWLF JUST THINK ABOUT IT #SHE HAS A FULL ON NBA RICH AS BOYFRIEND SHE LITERALLY GOES TO CHURCH THATS HOW SHE GOT THE FUCKING JOB #SHE GETS THE JOB BECAUSE SHE LIKES BEING FINANCIALLY INDEPENDENT BUT KNOWS SHE CAN GET WHATEVER SHE WANTS #SO SHE GETS THE JOB EXCEPT ITS BORING SO SHE FINDS STUFF TO FILL UP HER TIME #SHE BECOMES A FUCKING TIKTOK STAR AND THEN BEGINS SELLING CLOTHES ONLINE BC WHY NOT SHE LITERALLY LOVES FASHION SO MUHC #AND SUDDENLY SOMETHING VERY ENTERTAINING HAPPENS AND SHE MEETS JANINE AND ITS NEW ENTERTAINMENT #SHE ENDS UP LOVING BEING AT ABBOTT SO SHE GETS SAD SHE ALMSOT GOT FIRED #AMD THEN JANINE KEEPS INTERFERING WITH HER LIFE #AND SO SHE FUCKING REALISES THAT OH MAYBE SHE MIGHT LIKE JANINE A LIL BIT SO SHE FINDS OUT ABT JANINE STRUGGLING TO OAY RENT N SHES #IVE GOT A SCHOOL THING I NEED UR HELL WITH AFTER SCHOOL YOULL GET PAID FOR I #AND JANINE SAYS YES BECAUSE WHO FUCKING WOULDNT WHEN YOURE STRESSING ON RENT #AND AT FIRST ITS STRICTLY IN SCHOOL #AND SO IT BECOMES A REGUKAE THING #AND SLOWLY IT MOVES FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY FROM ANYTHING SCHOOL RELATED AND IT TURNS INTO JUST HANGING OUT AND GOING ON DATES AND IT #SPIRALS INTO SOMETHING THAT SHOULDNT BE HAPPENING AND THE INTIMACY BECOMES TOO MUCH #AND JANINE STILL GETS CHECKS BECAUSE AVA IS GOOD AT MAKING THINGS UNREJECTABLE #SO SHE USES THE OFFICIAL SCHOOL ENVELOPE EVEN THOUGH THEYRE AVAS OWN CHECKS #AND JANINE KNOWS THAT THAT JUST SOMETIMES HAPPENS WITH EVERYONES SALARIES BECAUSE ITS HAPPENED PLENTY OF TIMES BEFORE BC OF THE SCHOOLS #POOR FUNDS #BUT AVA WOULD NEVER SAY WHY #AND SO JANINE JUST ACCEPTS IT #AND ONE DAY SOMETHING SNAPS IN AVA AND SHE REALIZES SHES FALLEN SO IN LOVE WITH JANINE SHE DOESNT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE AND JANINE IS #CONFUSED BC ITS SO SUDDEN AND AVA IS SO QUICK AND SO SHE ASKS AVA WHATS WRONG #AND AVA IS LIKE AVOIDING HER SO HARD #AND SHE FEELS HORRIBLE BECAUSE SHE FEELS LIKE SHES BEEN MANIPLATING JANINE FOR SO LON #BUT JANINES NOT STUPID AND SHE KEPT COMING BACK JUST TO GET TO SOEND MORE TIME WITH AVA #IMMA STOP I CANT CONTINUE #AVANINE #AVA X JANINE #SOMEBODY PLEASE TALK TO ME ABT THIS IVE RUN OUT OF TAG SPACE FUCK

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#other ppl: youll be fine! u r passionate abt what u do #no u dont understand. its not passion. im being consumed. im being devoured whole and alive. #its out of control and its killing me #stop trying to tell me im good. i can assure u its a problem and i want it to fucking stop. whats the point of being successful if u cant #even fucking breathe? #this has been my weekend in purgatory for some reason. but fuck u i got the fucking application 98% done so im gonna read it over tomorrow #when my brain doesnt feel like its gonna explode and thrn send it to the dude and idk see wtf he has to say about it bc im positive i #overwrote it bc im unhinged. whatever tomorrow im gonna spend another 4hr transfering algae #if i can. turns out ive given myself a headache and now i cannot sleep lmao #lol i wrote all that yesterday night. it appears i was having a bad time. and i continue to have a bad time bc my manuscript is 98% ready #for submission but i leave at 7.20 tomorrow morning for my flight and wont be home until 7pm in this time zone at the very least #which means ill have to fucking wait all day to submit i guess unless i use plane wifi or something. fucking idk #i also havent sent the application in yet and i havent bought any Christmas presents bc my brain is splitting into a million pieces #its 10 pm now. will is sleep tonight? who's to say i still have work to do on this fucking manuscript #at least my coauthor thinks itll only get sent back with minor revisions so it must look pretty ok #part of it is just me bitching abt inconsistent methods across papers bc it annoys me but also i dont give a fuck #i will fucking psychically control ppl to read this paper and use its knowledge bc the way they talk abt the topic annoys me so much #which is additionally annoying bc like i said i dont give a fuck #anyway im procrastinating #unrelated #my parents texting me today: yay we r excited to see u 🤗 #and im just laying on the floor eminating a demonic aura