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people are always like “are you a morning person or a night person” and I’m just like buddy I’m barely even a person

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mannn

everyone around me brags about going through a pod in a week or less and I’m over here hitting it when I can and I don’t make a single dent in it at all, wtf man. Like yea I can make it last but by the time I do make a dent it’s pretty burnt.

#vape

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wat

holy shit guys, it feels weird to say this but I’m 18 now. I don’t feel like an 18 year old yet when does it hit lol

Update: of course I post this a week after my birthday, life doesn’t give me time to process on my actual birthday lol

#I’m a year older #Random thoughts #unorganized thoughts #I’m 18 now yayyyy

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holy shit

guys I’m literally freaking out, just for some context I’m a senior in high school and have been in a committed almost 3 year relationship. And this dummy texts me “wouldn’t it be so silly if I proposed to you while your in uni” and I say back “if you doo, wait till after freshman year as that’ll be my most stressful year” wtf like I know I wanna be with him forever but like, what if he’s joking? I don’t think I can that that

#Freak out #Rant #rant post #happy but like wtf #:D

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Welp fuck, I just weighed myself and I’m 101.7???! What the hell, I’ve been eating less then my actual calorie limit and yet I went up.

I’m gonna go on a 3 day fast to try and loose that weight before it sets me back too much.

I’ve done some research oki

so I’m a 17 year old female, and I’m 5’4. Currently I weight 96lbs, however I plan on losing 10 pounds.

to do this within a 5 week timeframe I would need to lower my calorie intake 1000 calories ( 544 calories restriction), or I could burn 1000 calories per day. However I could also make this a 10 week period- which I won’t- and burn 500 cal per day.

this is because

500 cal burnt= 1 pound per week

and 1000 cal burnt = 2 pounds per week

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I’ve done some research oki

so I’m a 17 year old female, and I’m 5’4. Currently I weight 96lbs, however I plan on losing 10 pounds.

to do this within a 5 week timeframe I would need to lower my calorie intake 1000 calories ( 544 calories restriction), or I could burn 1000 calories per day. However I could also make this a 10 week period- which I won’t- and burn 500 cal per day.

this is because

500 cal burnt= 1 pound per week

and 1000 cal burnt = 2 pounds per week

#Ana diet #Calorie restriction #calorie counting #an0r3c1a #tw ana diary #⭐️ving #@n0r3xia #low cal restriction #weight loss #disordered eating

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hiatus

I’m going to be taking a break from all social media for a bit, I know that this is sudden but I just went through a breakup and need some time to process it all

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update

Yay my labs are done so tonight I got to use my new pack of blades:)

Tw sorry lol

man I would love to slit my wrists rn but I can’t since I have to get labs done in a few weeks and I know that they won’t be healed by then. I might just go it on my tights tho but that’s an awkward place to me yk

#Tw #self harm #Sh

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Tw sorry lol

man I would love to slit my wrists rn but I can’t since I have to get labs done in a few weeks and I know that they won’t be healed by then. I might just go it on my tights tho but that’s an awkward place to me yk

#Tw #sh #self harm

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Tw

does anyone else ever feel too numb so they purposely trigger themselves to feel something? I know it’s not healthy but it’s one of the only ways that I feel anything right now.

#Sh #triggers #unhealthy coping mechanisms #Honestly I don’t recommend this #It makes me feel physically Ill

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hi

I’ve learned 2 things tonight. That I shouldn’t combine four of the things that I combined today, and that I regret my decisions- Sorry make that theee things-

Firstly, I hate the taste of The devils lettuces.

Secondly, under no circumstances do not mix the green leaf, nick, an empty stomach, and no sleep together. It does not ent well at all. Trust me lol.

Thirdly, have you ever done so much of something that when you look back at yourself you don’t even recognize who you used to be? I’m thinking back to how I was not even two years ago, and I now don’t know anything about me. But I’m too far in now so I can’t stop. And I know that most of the people in my friend group think of me as the dummy drug addict, but that’s not what I wanna be. I never wanted to end up like this, and I’m genuinely disappointed at myself. Sorry if this doesn’t really make sense, I am incredibly not well rn, in more ways than one lol. Anyway, I truly hate what I’ve become, and like I know what you’re thinking, ‘ just stop doing them if you don’t like it’. But like it’s really hard to stop and now it’s like the people around me just expect that that’s all I do, they assume that if I’m a little off at school then I’m high. ‘Oh they were quiet today- they’re high’ oh you didn’t answer my text earlier- did you get high?’ Like no aly I didn’t do that, i forgot my adhd meds than got so depressed that I was genuinely contemplating and planning out my suicide bitch. I told someone that I care a lot about that I would try to sleep again, but I’m honestly scared that I wouldn’t wake up because I’m pretty sure that I may have almost over done it but idk, ignore that lol. We’ll find out in the morning if I’m alive lol, if I don’t make an update then y’all know why.

#Weed #drugs #tw drugs #suicide #vent #Tw vent #high rambles #Why did I do this #i didn’t mean to do this much tonight

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first goal

Guys I’m so happy right now, I’ve reached my first goal weight. And I can honestly really tell:) I looked in the mirror this morning and I freaking have a thigh gap!!!!

#Thigh gap #disordered eating #weight loss

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I just want a hug and -15lbs ..

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Things to to instead of eating

Chew gum

Smoke cigarettes

Listen to music

Play horror games

Shower

Cry (actually works xd)

Give food to siblings

Go for a walk

Situps

Draw/make something

Paint

SH :/

Check BMI

Check how much more till GW

Ways to stop feeling hungry

Warm water

Eat ice (sometimes works haha)

Smoke

Chew gum

Squash/Juice (Only extreme cases) :P

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Drink water. Water is your best friend

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new plan

due to some body issues that I’m having, I decided that maybe going on a four day water fast would be a good idea. It’ll help with my uti problems and help me to lose a few pounds before homecoming. This should be easy as I’ll be at school for most of the day, however today is Wednesday, which means that I’ll be fasting at work on Saturday. That’s gonna be kinda hard for me, if anyone had any weight loss/fasting motivation for me it’d be nice :D

#Weight loss #fasting #Water fast #ed #tw//ed #disordered eating

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Hi everybody!!! I just really needed to say this please be careful who you talk to on here there's many Groomers/ pedophiles in the ed community especially for us minors here's some things you can do to protect yourself

1. Don't send pictures of yourself to people you absolutely don't know

2. These groomers/pedophiles will disguise themselves as Ed accounts so beware of random accounts texting you

3. If there's anyone who you are associating yourself with starts to make you feel uncomfortable BLOCK THEM!!! I CAN'T STRESS THIS ENOUGH

4. These "people" will ask you for personal information private photos etc. And pretend to be your ana coach/buddies and im speaking for experience please by careful I don't want anyone being taken advantage of or even worst.