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I can't explain the terror this gif makes me experience. Like I like this movie, the Onceler is my favorite character even, but it feels overwhelmingly like a horror videogame death screen. Like a Poppy Playtime or a Bendi and the Ink machine-style death screen. This catches me off guard for a typically bright art-style movie that is without any of the real deep meaning behind the original Lorax. Something about it makes me feel like I should be holding a controller and I messed up the gameplay somehow.

#Im actually an anxious human disaster turns out #horror games #video games #video game death scene #death sequence #The lorax #once ler #onceler #the onceler #jump scares #irrational fear #bendi and the ink machine #poppy playtime

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update, everyone is fucking pretty/handsome/attractive. That means you too. Yes, you, you may think I'm wrong/lying but I'm here to say nope you are gorgeous. I don't make the rules, I just report my findings.

being attracted to men is a gift actually

#Men are attractice #Women are attractive #there is no moral opinions put to love or attraction.

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not me deciding on a whim to start a YouTube channel cause I have crippling ADHD.

#adhd #youtube #gaming #impulse control #i blame markiplier #just kidding @markiplier i love you #not shocked I just thought it would happen later in life #might be calledd house of game #keep an eye out #ill open with horror games because nothing says Christmas like horror games.

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clicks away from video while sighing softly*

*says a fact in a conversation and a wikipedia citation appears next to my head*

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did you know? i love to hurt myself

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jokes on you, im actually all three ha!

Reblog if you are ASEXUAL, SUPPORT ASEXUALS, or really really want to WEAR A REALLY FANCY BLACK CAPE

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The song about not wanting to be free hits different when you are panicking about your future and not sure if you will be able to make it out there. Like I know that is not how prison is but it doesn't sound to bad. I do not have to worry about the future just the now.

#markiplier #heist with markiplier #i can feel a maladaptive daydream of this place coming up #feels safer than reality if that makes sense

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whos ready to watch me hyper fixate to close to the sun and play through every single ending of a heist with @markiplier cause im actually insane turns out. School has broken me.

#markiplier #heist with markiplier

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watching @markiplier has been interesting because he has made me cry (on two separate occasions and only one of them was sad), made me throw up because I was laughing to hard and made the stupid mistake of drinking water, got me out of a nonverbal episode, gave me motivation to draw, and has given me some mother son bonding time. And I only really discovered him a month ago. I cant wait to see what he creates. Not to mention his videos have allowed me to act more childish and have a childhood I didn't think I could have. Its been a wonderful time and I cant wait for more.

#markiplier #not to get emotional on main #rant time woo

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I just got my mum to play a heist with @markiplier with me, I had already played it for several hour long chunks, but not gotten all the endings cause hyperfixations. But the entire experience went something like this.

My mum: Oh markiplier your dumb but I didnt want you to die!

Me: is just thrilled that she likes is and didnt go cool I got one ending im done.

My mum: How do you try again?

It was amazing. But also reminded me of how simularily we think because we both got pretty similar endings with the both of us only getting one different ending seperatly.

#markiplier #I did show her the darkiplier ending #darkiplier #heist with markiplier #we both have adhd so we both vibe with markiplier as well #me: markiplier just died #Mum: Oh nooooo really?

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is being into coffee an older sibling thing bc everyone i know who loves coffee is the oldest child

#oldest and you can pry my black coffee from my cold dead hands. #i prefer the coffee to be cold though. So like iced black coffee #cause im gay #but im also depressed #the eldest child with depression who is also very very gay

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Not every character needs to be in a romantic relationship reblog if you agree

#im just in a rebloggy mood today apparently #its the Christmas spirit infecting me

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I FOUND A SHINY POST NOW EVERYONE ELSE HAS TO DEAL WITH IT.

#im a crow #i see something i like #i take and share #no exceptions

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I love my sisters bunny but its not the smartest. It just slid down my back in a panic and is not panicking in my lap. This is the third time it has done this in a minute or so.

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It will never cease to amaze me about how petty I am about things, especially when it comes to fictional characters. Like I will refer to John Walker as Shmaptain Shmerica for the rest of my days. Not cause its easier. But because I know it would piss him off. Hes never going to find out and me calling him shmaptain shmerica will have no real effects on anything. But i will call him that regardless

#petty #im not petty #your petty #the whole system is petty #fatws #the falcon and the winter soldier #john walker #shmaptian shmerica #sam on the other hand shall forever be labeled as my favorite captain america to ever exist and will be refered to as such #MARVEL #mcu #marvel tv

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Should I react to this the way I want to, or is this a trauma response: A continuation by me.

am I overreacting or do I have a valid reason to feel the way I do: a novel by me