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gender is so weird. like i’m a boy in the sense that a hexagon is closer to a triangle than a circle. ok

gender is so weird. yeah i’m a girl boy thing. what the fuck do i do with that

#oh here we go. #back at it again #with a NEW gender this time #i actually invented gender y’all #intense boos from the crowd #genderqueer #genderfluid #trans ftm #trans #boyflux #demiboy #how do i tag my gender when i’m not exactly sure what this is #this is like sending a bunch of messages in a bottle and hoping at least one person finds it #oh right #genderposting #cal’s tumblr manifesting to become a shapeshifter #<3

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love that chloe et al is basically just: diversity win! the person who destroyed your trust and self-esteem after a six year relationship and is now out seeing new people like nothing ever happened is bisexual!

#yes i’m adopting that name #when you go from #shade never made anybody less gay #to your hologram stumbled into my apartment #gay pride versus gay neutrality #chloe or sam or sophia or marcus #cososom #ttpd #ts ttpd #the tortured poets department #the anthology #ttpd anthology #ttpd the anthology #the tortured poets department the anthology #chloe et al #taylor swift #<3

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woohoo in that pussy ayyyy

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pssstt…. does anyone know any good swiftie small businesses who do necklaces, probably on commission for an evermore/folklore friendship necklace set?

#swiftie small businesses please rise and rb #swiftie #swifties #taylor swift #taylorswift #taylor swift eras #taylor swift evermore #evermore #evermore taylor swift #evermore ts #taylor swift folklore #folklore #folklore taylor swift #folklore ts #the tortured poets department #the eras tour #small business #ttpd #<3

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sometimes i feel the urge to start a little drama

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Dealing With Executive Dysfunction - A Masterpost

The “getting it done in an unconventional way” method.

The “it’s not cheating to do it the easy way” method.

The “fuck what you’re supposed to do” method.

The “get stuff done while you wait” method.

The “you don’t have to do everything at once” method.

The “it doesn’t have to be permanent to be helpful” method.

The “break the task into smaller steps” method.

The “treat yourself like a pet” method.

The “it doesn’t have to be all or nothing” method.

The “put on a persona” method.

The “act like you’re filming a tutorial” method.

The “you don’t have to do it perfectly” method.

The “wait for a trigger” method.

The “do it for your future self” method.

The “might as well” method.

The “when self discipline doesn’t cut it” method.

The “taking care of yourself to take care of your pet” method.

The “make it easy” method.

The “junebugging” method.

The “just show up” method.

The “accept when you need help” method.

The “make it into a game” method.

The “everything worth doing is worth doing poorly” method.

The “trick yourself” method.

The “break it into even smaller steps” method.

The “let go of should” method.

The “your body is an animal you have to take care of” method.

The “fork theory” method.

The “effectivity over aesthetics” method.

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i cannot listen to loml without fucking wanting to kms because YOU SAID I’M THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE……….... ABOUT A MILLION TIMES. AND THEY LIE AND THEY LIE AND THEY LIE. A MILLION LITTLE TIMES.

TEARING AT THIS PAMPHLET WITH MY TEETH. GET IT OFF MY DESK

#THE LINE ITSELF SOUNDS LIKE IT BELONGS IN ILLICIT AFFAIRS TOO #LIKE MUSICALLY #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #anyways. #not insane anymore (lying) #taylor swift #loml #ts loml #taylor swift loml #ttpd #ts ttpd #the tortured poets department #tortured poets department #ttpd era #ttpd taylor swift #taylor swift ttpd #ts11 #folklore #illicit affairs #taylor swift illicit affairs #<3

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This album was made for me so if you don't like it don't worry about it, this is between me and Taylor

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Taylor Swift writing Peter and Maisie Peters writing Wendy can be something so personal

#ugh yes the good witch and ttpd parallels my beloved #taylor swift #ttpd #ts ttpd #ttpd era #taylor swift ttpd #tortured poets department #the anthology #ts11 #the tortured poets department #maisie peters #the good witch #the good witch deluxe #tgw #maisie peters tgw #maisie peters the good witch

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oh nooo my hand slipped (bought the ttpd cardigan)

#my wallet is crying #oopsie #me when i “accidentally” buy the cardigan of my new fav album #ttpd #the tortured poets department #ts11 #ts ttpd #taylor swift #taylorswift #cardigan #<3

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hey teotfw fandom (nonexistent) who up relating down bad by taylor to james and alyssa…. because it’s literally exactly them. i’m waiting for an full video of them to this song btw

#FUCK IT IF I CAN’T HAVE HIM #I MIGHT JUST DIE #IT WOULD MAKE NO DIFFERENCE #DOWN BAD WAKING UP IN BLOOD #STARING AT THE SKY COME BACK AND PICK ME UP #FUCK IT IF I CAN’T HAVE US #I MIGHT JUST NOT GET UP #tell me i’m wrong #because i’m not. #the end of the fucking world #the end of the f***ing world #teotfw #james teotfw #alyssa teotfw #james x alyssa #james x alyssa teotfw #ttpd #the tortured poets department #down bad #down bad ttpd #down bad taylor swift #<3

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I think Matty Healy is awful but I’m still proud of Taylor putting “but daddy I love him” on the record.

There are songs on the album about her realising he love bombed her and manipulated her. Realising she fell for all of it, she was never going to fix him, and he was never going to be her saviour. She is scathing towards him, but also towards herself for falling for it. She could have left it at that and maybe copped less criticism. Instead she acknowledges the backlash and the defiance she felt in that moment.

It makes me feel the same way her putting Ours on Speak Now does. Grateful that she is open to sharing her stories even when the muse isn’t deserving of the words she wrote, even when releasing it fans the fires of the “I told you so” crowd.

And much like Ours is not a defence of Mayer, BDILH is not an acquittal of Healy. The phrasing she uses is not “he’s a good man they just don’t know him like I do”, it’s “I’m not coming to my senses” “I’d rather burn my whole life down”. The message of the song is not her trying to convince you he’s a good person (he’s not), it’s about a woman stumbling through a crisis and her desperate need to be able to make her own decisions, and that includes her own mistakes - which she seems to be acknowledging Matty was.

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i love the…. almost horror aspects of this album. all the references to ghosts and death…. and sonically, the unexpected shrieking in WAOLOM and the banging and screaming during “old habits die screaming” and even the way the tension subtly builds across the sixteen tracks and by the end you’re so stressed and shaken it’s like! losing your sense of self and feeling like you’ve become a monster is horror. and i’m sooooo glad she leaned into it

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I was someone who felt very uncomfy about Taylor's relationship with Matty for so many reasons, but this album has explained that entire period of her life SO well that I feel like I understand her as a person now more than I ever have before. And perhaps has taught us all to give her a bit more grace.

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i keep reading RSD as “rejection sensitivity disorder” instead of “record store day” and i think that says a lot about me as a person

#me as a ttpd enjoyer be like #rsd #record store day #rejection sensitive disorder #rejection sensitive dysphoria #rejection sensitivity #record store #taylor swift #maisie peters #chappell roan #sabrina carpenter #<3

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not to give a man credit but shout out to killatrav for pursuing his celeb crush who turned out to be an unhinged mess at the time and sticking around anyway to be her hype man