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star-girl69 · 4 months

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So It Goes…

Clarisse La Rue x Fem!AphroditeCabin!Reader

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sypnosis: the one day chiron decides to switch up the capture the flag teams, and everyone knows you’re clarisse’s weakness, In A Good Way sequel!!

i changed my theme it’s me tho promise

a/n: protective clarisse the love of my life i love you i do i think we should get married actually anyways this one is sooooooo i got to explore a more casual side of clar’s and reader’s relationship in this (for like a min) i hope you all enjoy!!

So It Goes… - Taylor Swift

warnings: soft clarisse my love, protective clarisse we KNOW how i feel abt her…., also slightly possessive clarisse i think i love you too, again clarisse gets a bit too into capture the flag, clarisse picks reader up which i KNOW is not inclusive (im literally plus-sized idk what the hell am i doing) but it was so good i couldn’t resist, she has like super strength probs so i’ll just believe (she literally could not pick me up i need to stop being delusional), swearing, violence, kissing, a bit suggestive but nothing crazy, tell me if i missed anything!!

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Clarisse’s bed is one of your favorite places. You’ve spent so many nights here, wrapped up in her arms, feeling like no one could touch you. And you’ve spent secret days with her hands on your waist, yours in her hair, lips pressed together so tight it’s like you were each other’s oxygen.

You love Clarisse’s bed. And you know Clarisse loves her bed too, seeing as it’s a huge source of pride for her- it’s the best bunk in the cabin, and she gets a major kick over the fact that you sleep here just as much as you sleep in your own cabin.

You’re sitting down, watching Clarisse pace back and forth, her spear in her hand.

“Clarisse,” you say. She brought you here just fo freak out. Now she won’t sit down and let you help her, and she wont just freaking listen. “Clarisse, baby, what’s wrong? Can you at least put your spear down so you don’t accidentally kill somebody? If you kill me with that I’m gonna come back and kill you.”

She stops for a moment and leans her spear up against the wall. You let out a sigh.

“Now just sit down-”

She resumes her pacing.

As much as you love just being in Clarisse’s presence, as much as you know you’re her rock, the only thing that keeps her tethered in the storm she constantly fights through, you need her to let you help her.

“Clarisse!” you stand up, placing your hands on her shoulders. “You’re freaking me out, okay? What happened? I-I’m sure we can fix it, I mean…” you rub your hands up and down your arms, which you know she likes, her muscles are one of her biggest sources of pride.

She sits down, letting you stand in between her legs, her hands moving to hold your hips.

“Sorry,” she mumbles. She’s not very good at handling her emotions, but she’s getting better, and at least she’s able to recognize and apologize when her emotions are hurting other people. Well, you, at least. She breathes out. “Chiron decided to switch the teams.”

And now she had to work with the Athena cabin? The Gods know after the Ares and Athena cabins have captained opposing teams for years, Chiron pretends there’s not, but everyone knows there’s a deep rivalry. More than just friendly competition.

“The Demeter cabin will be on the red team.”

“Okay,” you say, squeezing her shoulders. You aren’t really close with anyone from the Demeter cabin, it doesn’t really bother you much.

“And… the Aphrodite cabin will be on the blue team.”

“Oh.”

You’ve never not been on Clarisse’s team for capture the flag. Not only does the entire red team’s tactic rest on you using your charmspeak to protect the flag, but what the hell are you supposed to do fighting against Clarisse?

She wraps her arms around your waist, flopping back onto her bed and bringing you down on top of her.

“I know it’s all Annabeth and Luke behind this. I’m sure that little smartass has made up some sick plan to make me go insane.”

You scoff, planting your hands behind her head on the bed. “You’re the one who can actually fight. I’m, like, so bad it’s not even funny, Clar.”

“You beat me all the time,” she frowns.

And it’s true, you spar with her at least 3 or 4 times a week, and you win most of the those times. But Clarisse moves slower, she doesn’t hit as hard, she anticipates your next move and doesn’t block it so you can land a hit.

“We both know you let me win.”

“I like seeing you smile,” she says, her own matching smile on her face.

“Okay, you big romantic.” You let your hands slip, laying your head against her chest and your arms flat around her head. “It’s not that big of a deal, Clar. I’m sure it’ll be fine, then Chiron’ll probably switch them back.”

“Annabeth convinced him to do it. She has some sort of plan, Y/N, she does.”

“You’ve mentioned,” you hum. “Stop stressing. Nothing we can do about it.”

“Fine,” she hisses.

She wraps her arms around your waist and throws you to the side so you yelp, now she’s climbing on top of you, laying her head on your chest.

“It’s going to be the worst game of capture the flag in history, you know. I hope you’re happy, I don’t even know what I��m gonna do without you. I mean, I guess I could move that group in the west side to just south of the flag, so that’ll be a bit more for them to get through. Oh, I’ll stick that one good archer on the ground- no, no that wouldn’t work, I need him in the trees. But I’ll move his position-”

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You walk to the woods together. When it’s time to split up, Clarisse grabs you by your armor and points her finger into your chest.

“Clar, what the hell are you doing-”

“Don’t do anything I would do.”

“Okay, Clarisse,” you smile, blinking once to avoid rolling your eyes at her ridiculousness.

She smirks, her arm squeezing your waist. She pecks you on the lips before pulling away completely.

“Done making out?” Jackie asks, her and Tyla suddenly appearing next to you.

“It was one kiss, Jacks. Are you sure we have the same Mom?”

“No, honestly.”

You fall into step with the two of them, laughing as you make your way through the woods and to the edge of the river.

Chiron makes his usual speech, the conch sounds, and everyone starts moving around.

Annabeth finds the three of you soon after. Tyla and Jackie fall away, following your other siblings. Annabeth always has this calculating look on her face, like she knows something you don’t, a true child of Athena. You have to admit, she really is one of the smartest people you know.

“Annabeth,” you smile. “I guess you want me by the flag?”

“No, I debated that, but I decided against it.”

She smirks and looks at you before spinning around, pointing to Luke and his team members who are always in charge of getting the flag.

“You’ll be with Luke.”

You frown. “You do realize I have absolutely no skill in battle, right, Annabeth?”

“Yeah, but skill doesn’t matter when you have power. Power over someone.”

“Oh, okay. Who do you want me to charmspeak-”

“Charmspeak whoever you come across, but that’s not what I’m talking about. You have power over Clarisse. I know she’s defending the flag today, right?”

She looks at you sharply.

You smile. “Oh, I really don’t know. But if you say so, sure.”

She starts walking, you follow her.

“Clarisse doesn’t talk strategy to you? I mean, I talk Luke’s ear off.”

“Oh, no, she does, I just don’t really retain any of it.”

She huffs a small sound of laughter.

“I know she’ll be there,” she affirms.

“If you say so!” you say, all sing song, Luke smiling as he meets your eyes.

“Y/N! How’s it feel to finally be on the winning team?”

“I love being on the red team, thanks for asking.”

“Ha. You’re so funny, are you sure you’re not a child of Apollo?”

“Too beautiful,” you glide your hands down your face. “I get it from my godly mother.”

“Luke, do you know what you’re doing?” Annabeth asks.

“Yes ma’am.”

She smiles and walks away, talking to more people while you can faintly hear Clarisse shouting at people. With the change in tactic, you know she’s been slightly stressed, but she won’t allow herself to feel anything other than confidence, outwardly.

She still walks tall. She still grips her spear in her hand a little to tight. She’s a bit too greedy with the things that are hers, she grabs on a bit too tight, but you know it’s just because she’s scared. You like it.

If this were a regular game, you would probably be walking next to Clarisse right now, or kissing her goodbye while you follow Matty and everyone else to go protect the flag.

When you and Clarisse first started dating, she was slow to be so affectionate, but the more of her walls you started breaking down the more you found a complicated teenage girl who felt unloved, and had a lot of love to give too.

The more confident she became in your private relationship, the more she wanted everyone to know. It was her fatal flaw, pride, hubris. She wanted everyone to know she was yours and your were hers. She wanted everyone to be jealous.

“I’m so glad we don’t have to wear those horrible earplugs today. They always make me worried. Someone could be shouting a few feet away and none of us would hear.”

“Stop gloating, Luke.”

“I’m just expressing my gratitude, Y/N, is that not allowed?”

“I don’t want to talk to you anymore.”

“Oh, oh, I know. You’re sad, aren’t you?”

“Sad?” you snort.

“Yeah, sad. Sad you aren’t with Clarisse. You’re devastated, destroyed, wrecked.”

You put your hand on your sword. “Who are you… and what have you done with Luke Castellan? Luke doesn’t know that many words…”

He hits your shoulder. “Shut up, Y/N.”

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You’re walking through the woods.

Not sneaking around in stealth, not running, but walking.

You’ve come across a few of your former team members, but one of the blue team just tackles them and you tell them to turn around and count to 5,000.

For some reason, it’s worse than sitting by the rock, waiting for someone to make a play for the flag. At least at the rock you’re surrounded by all these people you know. You and Matty are usually talking, Marjorie sometimes joins, and you all have fun bullying Corey for that one time he didn’t see the blue team coming.

Luke’s voice drops to a whisper.

“Here’s your job. You can either, one, go make out with Clarisse in a corner, which shouldn’t be too hard-”

“Luke,” you hit his shoulder. He hisses.

“I’m joking, joking. Just keep her distracted, fight her, maybe pull your shirt down a bit? Oh, or I can just cut it so it’s a bit more revealing-”

“Luke, shut up or else I will make you.”

“It’s not a bad idea-”

“Luke!”

“Sh, sh,” he whispers. “Don’t be so loud, we’re almost to the flag. We’re going for stealth, okay?”

“Oh, really, I didn’t notice,” you deadpan. He looks around.

“Blue team, stealth mode, alright?”

Everyone nods. You roll your eyes. You miss the red team.

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After Luke gives you the ok, meaning the blue team has successfully surrounded the red team and the clearing, you take a step forward.

Annabeth was right. Clarisse is there.

It’s fitting. If you can’t be there, she would.

You look up at Corey, but he hasn’t noticed any of you yet. You frown, thinking about how he’s probably going to get beat up.

“Clarisse!” you shout. You watch everyone jump into defensive positions. She can’t see you yet, but she stares in the direction of your voice, her eyes squinting, smiling softly.

“Luke?” she shouts. “That you?”

You frown.

“What the hell?” you say, stepping forward. “You don’t recognize my voice? I thought that was really smart. Like, a cool way to reveal myself, I don’t know.”

You come into the clearing, sword by your side.

Clarisse’s smile drops.

“I-I- no, baby, I just wasn’t expecting Annabeth to send you here-”

“Do I really sound like Luke?”

“No,” she says, immediately. “You sound like an angel.

Matty laughs. Clarisse stabs his foot with the end of her spear. She smiles at you.

“Is Luke here though?” Marjorie asks, subtly trying to look through the trees.

“I don’t know.”

“Well, you do,” Matty snorts.

“You’re going to tell me though right, baby?” Clar smiles, stepping closer until she’s right in front of you.

“Obviously not, you didn’t recognize me. I’m, like, really hurt by that Clarisse-”

“Gods, Clarisse,” Matty shouts at the sky, laughing. You didn’t recognize her, and now we’re all fucked!”

“Shut the fuck up, Matty,” she says over her shoulder. She looks at you, smiling again, her hand reaching out to touch your face. “I’ll let you do that thing you’ve always wanted to do.”

You smile, your voice dropping to a whisper. “You’ll let me give you a makeover? Really?”

“Yes.” Her teeth grit, but she keeps smiling, her thumb rubbing your cheek.

“Hm, I don’t know,” you mutter, your eyes fixing on her spear when you suddenly reach forward, grabbing it from her hands and turning to run away.

The blue team emerges from the woods with war cries, swords start clashing, and it all happens so fast.

The plan was for you to grab her spear, make her chase you around the woods, and hopefully the blue team would be able to overpower the red team without her.

Instead, Clarisse kicks out her foot, tripping you. Then, she catches you and the spear in what you swear has to be a milisecond.

“Clarisse!” you shout, genuinely offended. She beat you so easily. It wasn’t even a fight. You didn’t even get the chance to run.

“Sorry, baby, it’s capture the flag!”

You about to start kicking like a wild animal when she suddenly lets you go. Luke is there, fighting her while you pick your sword up from the ground that fell in the commotion.

One of your team members dropped their helmet and you pick that up too.

You’re not that bad of a fighter, Clarisse just knows everything about you, you tell yourself. But your pride is slightly wounded and you want to prove to her, yourself, and everyone that you’re not just a weak Aphrodite kid or some poor thing that hangs off Clar’s arm.

You can hold your own.

You stick the helmet on and step into the fight. Someone groans and a sword comes wishing through the air, but you block it.

They swing again.

You block it.

You picked up things from Clarisse, and, besides, you weren’t just sparring for fun. She actually teaches you, better than the actual sword practice teacher if your biased opinion is to be trusted.

But you probably just feel that way because she rewards you with kisses.

It seems like you’re actually winning for a second, about to disarm him, when he seems to get fed up with fighting you and suddenly arcs hard over your head, making you lose your footing and letting him kick you.

You land on your back, groaning and trying to catch your breath.

“That was such a bitchy move,” you mumble. He leans over you, about to kick the sword out of your hand-

“I’m gonna fucking kill you, Samuel.”

She holds her spear right under his throat, and he finally seems to look at your face instead of just your blue helmet.

“Shit. Sorry. Sorry, Clarisse, I’m sorry.”

She looks like she’s about to kill him but she just pushes him away.

“I was winning,” you groan. “But then he kicked me.”

She kicks him as he walks away.

You expect her to tug you up and start lecturing you but instead she leans down and throws you over her shoulder.

“Wha- Clarisse!”

“That’s enough for you today,” she says, patting the back of your thigh.

“Clarisse, I swear to Hades, let me down!”

“One second,” she mumbles.

When she places you down on the ground again, you’re leaning against a tree. She grabs your hand, frowning at something.

It’s the smallest cut, barely there, but Clarisse of course acts like it’s the end of the world.

“Does it hurt?”

Your eyes fix on Luke behind her, stalking slowly towards her turned back.

“No, Clar, it’s fine. Now I-”

“I think you should go the nurse.”

Your mouth drops open. “Clarisse, it’s a paper cut!”

“And if it gets infected? Go away, Luke, I can hear you.”

He locks eyes with you but ultimately turns around with a very scared and annoyed look on his face.

“Now do you see why I was all messed up? I knew this was going to happen. You were gonna get hurt, and it was going to be my fault.”

You roll your eyes. “It’s not your fault, Clarisse-”

“But isn’t it? You would have been at the flag if Annabeth hadn’t known how much you mean to me. Instead, you were here. Instead, you were rushing off to go fight someone-”

“I’m not a damsel in distress, Clar!”

She presses her lips together.

“I can fight too. Not as good as you, but I can. I-I don’t want to be weak, I don’t want to rely on you for everything, it’s- it’s embarrassing.”

You didn’t even know you were feeling this way until you felt it. But it’s always been there, you guess. You always watch Clarisse spar and know she could never do anything like that with you. And you thought you were fine with it, and you are fine with having things that you like and things that she likes- but you don’t want to be so useless anymore.

She’s silent for a second.

“I- I get that. I do. But I just don’t know how to tell you I… I love you without showing it. I’m not good at saying it, you know that.”

“Clarisse,” you frown.

She puts her hands on your face.

“You are… the most precious thing in the world to me, Y/N. I really hope you know that.”

You wrap your arms around her neck, you can feel her heart thump from the fight.

“I know that, Clarisse. Of course I know that. You show me every day, I just- I just want to feel like my own person.”

She grips you tighter. “If it’ll make you happy, I’ll teach you to fight. But you have to do it how I say, and you can’t go off and do this-”

You pull back so you can make sure this is real.

“Really?” you smile.

“You have to listen to me, Y/N, and do it slowly, okay-”

“Yes, yes, yes, okay, yes,” you breathe, planting your hands on your face before kissing her. It’s slow, it’s sweet, it’s exactly what you think of when you think of her. You think of the side that’s yours, the side that only you can see.

You break it, leaning down to pick up her spear.

The red team is losing the fight behind you.

“Ok, go win capture the flag. And I’ll stay here. My hand does kinda hurt,” you mumble.

She smiles and kisses your cheek. “Not just a paper cut, huh?”

“Can I still give you a makeover?” you ask as she turns away.

“Maybe!”

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y/n: what why did you not recognize me ☹️☹️

clarisse, genuinely terrified: i have no idea what the hell you are talking about please please please don’t take away kissing privileges please please please

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pepprs · 9 months

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ok so updates w more detail now that i have a little more time to think / write it out. ik it’s silly / tmi to do this on tumblr dot com but whatever lol

i am 90% sure im going to rhode island for a conference in october. this one ive known about for a while and it’s not a big deal bc im not presenting or anything and i’ll know a lot of ppl there and the topic / contrnt / theme is completely in my wheelhouse so i will not be alone and i’ll be in the know abt stuff. lole

i am… 60% sure im going to chicago for a conference in november. and presenting. and i’ll be the only one from my team there. and this will be at a huge like… convention type thing in a field that is not mine and i won’t know anyone there except the other delegation members who will likely all be from the same department. it’s 5 days (!!!) and idk if i’ll be there the whole time but i kinda want to be even if most of it won’t be relevant to me bc.. like id be going alone bc everyone wants me to develop confidence and stuff and realize i can do it and represent us independently. and i want that. but im also fucking terrified in part bc this would be my first time traveling independently since brighton (so like in almost 4 yrs lol). also i have been to chicago before (in 2018 for a different conference) so im scared to like. revisit that. but also excited. like what if i meet someone? but what if im being pushed into this or pushed away? idk and now i can’t focus or articulate myself well bc there’s too much noise and everyone is trying to talk to me (i need to actually be doing work b it im typing this instead bc im freaking the fuck out over all these developments lol). anyways

also…….. i am……. 60% sure i am going to. take a graduate level course this semester. on mondays from 4:30-7. and then apply to be part of that masters program it’s in starting in the spring and ahve that class + a possible winter class count towards the credits. and it would take me 3 yrs to finish the masters. i don’t want one for the sake of havign one and i REALLY don’t want to be in the hell of being torn away from work and self care to do school stuff. but i need a masters degree and have had my eye on this program since i was a sophomore in undergrad and it seems kinda meant to be a little bit. and i get 100% tuition remission bc i work here LOLLLLL so it’ll be completely free which is huge!!!!! and it’s like why the fuck not if i have this opportunity but also im so scared and idk if im cut out for grad school due to my mental illness (unironically lol). help

also i switched desks this week and now i sit where my old supervisor (and my new supervisor / her successor LMAO) sat and this one colleague i have in a different dept who is the sweetest person EVER keeps commenting on it and saying im my old supervisors protege and that im the new her and. it’s making me want to scream a little bit but idk if it’s in a good way or bad way

#im so overstimulated rn so i STILL can’t fully articulate my thoughts well or lay out all the dimensions of why all of this is fucking #insane and it’s taking me so long to type bc of my stupid thumb and all the typos i have to correct 💀 but yeah. i am ummmm kinda becoming #an it girl here maybe and also a jet setter and idk what the fuck that means or is going to do to me. im scared but also excited and hopeful #but also mainly scared. lawl 💖#purrs #lol actually nvm abt the shuttle thing i just realized it won’t be at the right stop for another hour and a half after class lets out 🤪 i #love the state of public transportation in this country it’s so epic and awesome and not flawed at all

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dr3amofagame · 3 years

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the amount of angst in the post-prison writing you did just gave me massive post-prison dream brainrot and i'm just. sitting here thinking about how sam dealt with the curious looks and glances and having to face what's he's done as a warden. and everyone else's reaction to everything because hey, maybe the prison WAS a torture chamber that nobody deserves to be locked in to be treated like utter trash.

(btw i love your writing and analysis! they give me so much life :DD)

thank you anon!! this universe is ,, Fun ,, im ngl -> have this continuation of it, w/ sapnap and sam!! it’s a bit messy but oh well

(edit: i added these two asks as well bc they fit and i thought it’d be a bit redundant to rewrite this scene lmao -> the implication that dream’s admissions abt exile mightve been the result of ,, torture is. uh. yikes.)

(This one is DARK, please heed the warnings)

TW: PHYSICAL/EMOTIONAL ABUSE (heavy warning for this one), starvation, toxic relationship, manipulation, references to the prison and exile, c!sam/warden!sam critical, violence, blood, dark themes, emotional distress, child abuse, torture

“Be honest,” Sapnap starts, quiet. “What did you do?”

Sam opens his mouth - hesitates, looks away. He should’ve known that his vague words and half-explanations that had been enough to push away most of the crowd - or at least, postpone the conversation for later - wouldn’t have been nearly enough to convince the man standing in front of him, but a part of him must’ve hoped, anyway. He’s not ready to speak, not ready to admit anything to himself, never mind someone else entirely - but ‘ready’ doesn’t matter, not when Sapnap is right here, waiting.

(He ignores how ‘ready’ didn’t matter for Dream when Sam had gone in, that first time, pick in hand and nothing but questions and rage spinning in an endless cycle in his mind, whirling together into something incomprehensible, insatiable, vicious - he’s not thinking about it.

He can’t think about it.)

“Well?” Sapnap’s voice raises, impatience coloring his tone, and it’s almost enough to draw a chuckle to Sam’s lips - he’d always been a little overeager, not doing well with silence, waiting, even as a kid. It’s part of the reason why he got along with Dream so well, Dream jumping at the chance to spend time with someone that didn’t shut him down for rambling and Sapnap simply excited at the chance to have someone that would join him on his hare-brained schemes instead of dismissing him as a dumb kid- and oh. Right.

The scrunch of his face is the same, Sam realizes, absently, as the expression Sapnap had when he was little; it’s the same crease between his eyebrows, the same slight jut to his bottom lip. Even with a new scar decorating his left jaw and the shadows under his eyes and collection of faint wrinkles belying his stress, he doesn’t look all that different - still looks young, a kid playing dress up in armor too big and too war-torn to belong to him. It’s easy to forget, but even after all the wars they’ve fought, even with all of the combat experience he’s had, Sapnap’s still barely twenty - only a few weeks out of being a teenager.

(He crushes the thought of what that makes Dream - he’s not. Thinking. About. It.)

“Hello? Earth to Sam?” Sapnap snaps his fingers in front of his face, and Sam blinks away the memories, the guilt, boxing it up and filing it neatly away to deal with - later. Never, ideally.

“Are you going to answer my question?”

Only later is now, there’s no escaping this conversation, and Sam. Really doesn’t want to be talking about this, right now. Sapnap fidgets, leaning on his right foot and then his left and then rocking back again - the feeling is mutual, then, but he knows the look in the younger’s eye well enough to know that neither of them are leaving without an explanation leaving Sam’s lips.

(Netherite and iron and smoke, bloodstained pickaxe tipping up a gaunt face, hand reaching around a too-prominent jawline with bruising force - are you going to answer my question, prisoner? Or are we going to have to do this again?

He’s not-

He can’t-)

“I-,” guilt, thick and heavy, circles his throat, chokes the words rising in his mouth. What can he even say? Can words really capture the sweat-slick desperation, the bubbling lava and heat and smoke stealing away all breath and thought, leaving nothing but a humming buzz of rage burning, hissing, begging for release? Can he really describe the endless darkness and weight settling on his shoulders, the hard edges and jagged fear taking anything soft, anything kind? Words swim in the back of his throat, try to reach his teeth, fall short; bloodstained memories haunt the back of his eyelids every time he blinks; there is so much, too much, to say, and yet nothing at all.

How does he even start?

There is no sympathy on Sapnap’s face when Sam looks, but there isn’t any cruelty either, just dark, watching eyes, lips thin and pressed together, jaw clamped shut, tense. Indifference, or a pale imitation of it, meant to hide the mess of his hair, the tremble in his hands, the helpless, desperate thing growing in his pupils. Sam understands and wishes he doesn’t; regrets, and wonders if he has the right, anymore.

“It- started, as an interrogation,” Sam stumbles over his words, stares at his hands because looking at Sapnap’s face will be too much, is too much. “I was angry. The prisoner- Dream- was desperate. That cell-” he shakes his head, remembers obsidian in his hands, remembers tearing away carpet, paintings, plants, remembers leaving the box bareboned, desolate, a cage and nothing more, “It messes with you. Screws with your head. I knew it, he knew it, but I guess we didn’t realize- I guess I didn’t realize-”

(Blood and crunching bone and shrill screams - tell me what you did to him-)

“I needed information. He wasn’t talking. I got- heated, and he laughed, and something- snapped, I guess.”

(I’ll tell you I’m sorry please please sam stop please)

“All I had on me was a pickaxe. He wasn’t talking, I was desperate - angry - I needed to know. I didn’t-”

(I just knew I needed to drag him away, he was ruining everything, he was destroying everything, I just needed him to leave before he brought down the whole damn server with him - the tnt was supposed to be a one time thing)

“It was supposed to be- one time. Was never supposed to happen, at all. But I guess I got mad - for me? For Tommy? I don’t- I don’t know, and it was- easy, you know? Take away the clock, one day. Give him less potatoes the next.”

(It was easy to do it again, I guess, mess with his invitations a little, take some of his stuff. There was nobody around but me and him and he’d ruined so much, he’d messed everything up - I thought that maybe if I took away his armor enough, he wouldn’t be able to go back. He wouldn’t ruin everything.)

“He’d done- so much. He was so awful to Tommy, to everyone- I thought I could prevent that. I thought maybe if I broke him enough, he wouldn’t be able to hurt anyone again. I renamed the pickaxe Will Breaker, to remind me, to remind him, I don’t know. I-”

Sam laughs, tired, poisonous, ignoring the way Sapnap whispers, stricken, looking at his hands and seeing nothing but red. Dream’s face, bruised, bloody, but glimmering with something almost like satisfaction comes to mind - and oh. Oh.

(Bloodstained teeth twisted in a bitter smile - Sam, I thought I had to.)

He gets it now. He wishes he didn't.

“I thought- ha-” His hand comes up to his face - he’s crying. When did he start crying? ”I thought I had to.”

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The Astrology of Yoosung Kim

So, this is the start of a series of posts where I analyze the charts of the mystic messenger character bc astrology and mysme invade my brain and its rly good practice to nail the concepts down. I'll be going thru each placement explaining what it means as best I can, hopefully providing a good picture of what astrology tells us about their life.

This is not rly designed to be accurate for each character. I won't be using headcanonned placements, but the actual chart that comes out when I input their birth date and place into a chart software (which is astro.com). I think one of the coolest things abt this lil project is when the chart Does end up being accurate with the events of their life or the game.

Let me explain for a minute how I determined the year they were born: I did it by subtracting their INTERNATIONAL age (which is the age they'd turn the year the game takes place, as its always one more than their korean age) with 2016, which is the year the game was launched and thus the earliest year it could take place in... we don't have a year and I needed a reference. I had to make do.

ALSO disclaimer: I'm not an expert or a professional of astrology. Just someone who's into it a little too much and decided to do this for pure fun. I may be wrong in some of these interpretations but that's bc I'm still learning. (also if it matters to anyone, all these will be from a traditional westernastro perspective as that's the one I roll with)

The only placement that's a headcanon here is the ascendant (and, derivatively, every house placement), so that's the one thing that can be debated and honestly I'd love to hear what other takes are out there for their rising signs :) anyway lets talk about Yoosung now. Decided to do him first bc his chart is pretty cool.

(read more bc it's very long: buckle up besties)

Okay, so here's the chart: He was born, using the calculation method I just described, on March 12th 1996. The rising sign I chose form him, Sagittarius, makes him born at around midnight.

The basics: He has the sun in cancer 4H at 21 degrees. he also has a stellium (planet cluster) in this house. Should point out tho that the other planets in the house are gna have a reduced influence/functionality due to how close they are to the sun, but I’ll get into this later.

His moon is in sagittarius 1H conjuncting pluto and the ascendant. It’s not a strong conjunction but since this Is the 1H, the area of the chart that represents Him, it’s still a wildly important planet. His ascendant is also in sag and conjunct pluto, as mentioned.

He was born during the night, which makes Venus the most benefic planet. It’s in the 6H of health and illness, subordinates, and pets, so that’s basically the luckiest part of his life. Saturn is the most malefic planet, conversely, and it’s in the 4H of home and family, so that’s the most problematic area of his life when activated. Will talk more about this later when I get to these houses.

(that's saturn I'm signaling in the left idk if u can see. anyway)

Ok now let’s get into what all of this means, starting with the 1st house and the asc. The ascendant is just the eastern horizon, and the sign that was there at the moment of his birth (in more abstract terms, when his soul entered his body basically) becomes his rising sign and, in the whole sign house system, the sign of the entire 1H.

This sign becomes THE key sign to understand him as a person. His general disposition, personality, approach to life, how he interacts w the world around him, etc. The common themes that color his life can all be found here, in the sign and planets.

The 1H also shows us his physical appearance and how he chooses to present himself physically. Taking into account the fact that the unit of the birth chart is the life of a person and not the person’s psyche, the 1H is the place where we find the person themselves. Everything here, as well as the ruler and its condition, tell us who he is as a person.

He’s a sagittarius rising. Sag is a mutable fire sign ruled by jupiter. It’s kind of like a wildfire. Being mutable, sag responds to its environment. It adapts to the situation, reacts to what is presented to it. As a fire sign, its concerned with action, it’s highly energetic and wants to DO with what he has.

Being ruled by Jupiter, sag is expansive and generous, explorative. The best way to describe sag and especially sag rising, is the feeling of being on a quest. Life is an adventure but more importantly, a journey to seek truth. Sag risings approach situations as if they were on a mission. They're not methodical but definitely driven to make the most out of every experience, try everything at least one. They’re open-minded to sometimes an extreme, there’s this hunger for experience, novelty, and enjoyment.

So basically, he’s a fun guy whose openness and optimism can be mistaken for naivety sometimes, but it’s key to understand that to him, every experience is part of his mission, his seek for truth. He wants to know the world and thus won’t say no to most things. Not because of guilt, but because he sees more worth in saying yes.

That’s his approach to the world, and also how the world approaches him. His life has been a series of experiences that have taught him things, and that’s what constructed his disposition. He’s the kind of guy who’s up for anything anytime and has insane stories, and will urge you to try what you never imagined.

There are 2 other things we have to talk about too if we want to understand him tho: the moon and Pluto. Particularly Pluto.

Being conjunct his asc, it has the bigger influence. It makes his life, other than a cycle of exploration, a cycle of transformation. Likely, there's been moments in his life where he’s undergone intense transformations, becoming a new person basically. A lot of death and purging is involved here, sometimes quite literally. Pluto conj asc can sometimes even indicate death in the early life of the native.

Conjuncting the moon also, Pluto brings all this to the managing of his emotions and inner world, too. Often, his emotions can feel all-consuming, like when he’s feeling something it’s an all-or-nothing, and he expresses them in this way too. His inner world is intense, deep, sometimes difficult to control, most often than not transformative. Because this is in the 1H, these emotional transformations often manifest in his person, either in his looks or personality or both.

Now let’s talk about the moon itself. U can probably guess by now that it’s the internal world of the person, so to speak. It’s more like the emotional nature; how we experience and manage our feelings, and more importantly, our emotional needs. The moon’s sign represents the things we need to do or have in our life to feel okay, and the house is where we express that.

As a sag moon, the stuff he needs is all that was in the asc description: exploration, a mission, to try what’s new, to say yes, to have options, to live freely without any restraints, have the possibility to explore. And being in the 1H, his emotional needs are very much expressed in his person. He doesn’t hide, shows his emotions freely. Whatever he feels, you’re gonna know just by looking at him.

If there’s a planet on the 1H, the native also tends to embody that planet. So he is, besides all these things, a man of emotional nature, with sometimes shifting moods, and also an enjoyer of routine and what’s familiar (which in this case happens to be the seek for the unfamiliar, lil contradiction there). He’s almost motherly in a way too, concerned with protecting that which he loves. He’s a nurturer. And with Pluto here, this is all expressed with great intensity.

But, what does this tell us about his appearance? Since the 1H is also the physical body.

He looks… friendly, to say the least. Approachable. Like a stranger you’d trust to hold your phone. Sag risings have this open look to them, like their face is spreading out from the center, and they usually love to smile. He’s recognizable thanks to his smile and laughter, which is wide and bright. Pluto may give an “extreme” element to his looks, either in his presentation or his looks, like having very dark hair and very light skin, for example. Pluto also tends to give quite intense stares, like he’s staring into your very soul or something.

I’m also gna take into account his jupiter (ruler of the 1H) in capricorn and say he probably has very defined bones thanks to cap influence. He’s kinda bony and maybe even tall and lean. The moon also may soften his expression a bit, keeping the openness and the intensity but adding a layer of tenderness.

Let me stay at the ruler of the 1H for a bit: it’s in the 2H, which is the house of resources and finances, basically how he gets money and whatever else he needs to live and what he does w that. The placement of the 1H ruler can tell us where the native exactly gets influence for their identity, and in this case, a lot of who he is is based upon what he has. He doesn’t equate his self-worth per se with his possessions, but rather builds his identity around that. “I have this therefore I am this.” Might also try to express himself thru possessions. What he has reflects who he is.

Now that I’ve started talking about the 2H, let me stay there for a bit. As I said, it’s the house of resources, how we get them and what we do with them. His 2H is in Capricorn, with its ruler (saturn) in the 4H. He also has Neptune and Jupiter in there. Kinda cute tbh.

Capricorn, being cardinal earth and saturn ruled, is basically the definition of diligence. It sets boundaries for practicality. It plans ahead, looks to the future and prepares. It’s protective but in a somewhat stoic, exclusive material.

So, basically, he’s diligent with his money. Thinks deeply on what to save and what to spend. He invests. When making a purchase, he considers how it's going to impact him in the future. Not one for impulse purchases, definitely one to always keep a strong savings account.

...Or at least, that’s what he aims for.

Neptune is here, adds a layer of confusion to the matter of finances or resources. This planet blurs the edges of everywhere it goes, disconnects from reality. It could be that at first, or when this planet is activated, the matter of finances becomes foggy and confusing. It’s like he has an idea of how to do it but can’t rly execute it, although there are moments where he pulls through, when the benefics start doing their job.

Looking at Jupiter being here w a trine to venus, the sect benefic, this confusion is unlikely to fuck up his finances big time. This is a blessing from the heavens, basically. He’s not gonna have many experiences where he lacks resources. On the contrary, he’s probably gonna have them in abundance, and always be willing to help others out with that excess.

Saturn (the ruler) in the 4H tells us also that he likely gets his resources thanks to his family. Either through working at some family business, or getting a job thanks to a family member. Whatever the case, these 2 houses are intrinsically connected.

As to what he spends his resources on, it’s definitely stuff that will help him in the future, or stuff to better his home life. When this house is activated, he might invest in real estate. He could also spend money on education or travel or donate it, all Jupiter things.

Let’s move on to the 3rd house now, which is where we find siblings, the act of communication in its many forms, elementary education, and everything we do routinely. Errands and short-distance trips, as well as people who are familiar to us, like our neighbors. He has this in Aquarius, with the ruler once again in the 4H, and Uranus is also here with a square to Venus (but I’ll interpret that from a venus perspective since it’s a personal planet).

Aquarius is fixed air and ruled by Saturn. It holds the same strictness as Capricorn but now apply that to the world of human interaction instead of tangible things. As an air sign, Aquarius is intellectual and concerned with ideas. Being fixed, these ideas are unchanging. But with Saturn as its ruler, they’re on the topic of rules and order. How everything works. Aquarius is a sociologist and often thinks ahead about how systems can be better. Often perceived as unique and unconventional because of this.

The 3H is the first house (coming from the 1st) that doesn’t directly concern the ascendant. Yoosung may not be exactly like this towards his siblings or neighbors or ppl he has to see often in general, but THEY could be like this. Forward-thinkers with original ideas about the world.

Smth else could be that he went to an “unique” school, one that used unconventional methods of education. With Uranus here, I would also say that technology was a big element there too. His teachers or classmates could also have embodied this energy.

It could also be that technology (with Uranus) shows up often in his short-term trips. Maybe he has an electric car or something. Applying the Uranian influence, it could also be that his routine environments are somewhat unconventional.

Uranus could also mean that sometime in his elementary school he’s had a sudden change. Maybe transferring schools out of nowhere. Or it could be that such a thing happens with the ppl he’s incidentally around, or in the topic of short-term travel. Maybe he starts biking out of nowhere or smth when this house is activated.

In the topic of communications, it could be that he has an unconventional writing or talking style, or that a lot of his communication is done thru technology, more than is usual, or that what he communicates produces strong reactions in people. Makes them think in a way they haven’t thought before.

All of these are likely, really. Astrology has different ways of presenting itself depending on the person’s life circumstances.

Ok so: 4th house. We’re gonna stay here a while. There is a LOT to go through.

Starting off with the sign: Pisces. It’s mutable water and ruled by Jupiter. Like Sag, it reacts and moves, but now, because it’s water, more concerned with the emotional realm. This is where the spiritual nature of Jupiter comes out, it’s about the personal connection with whatever’s beyond, and it’s generosity is more focused towards the underdog and the outcast than ever before. There’s an element of selfless service to it.

Pisces wants to unify, it wants to blend. It’s mist, the farthest from the material, which is why often Pisces placements are found indulging in fantasy. This, beigh in the 4H, makes for a very loving family environment, where the love given was unconditional and the care was constant. It could also be that Yoosung’s parents and ppl that lived with him were unafraid to be sensitive. It’s possible that this easy love was what gave him his optimistic outlook towards life.

The 4H, as stated, is the house of home and family, but it’s also where we keep our secrets. It’s the most private area of our lives, who we are when we’re 100% comfortable. It’s the comfort zone, whatever makes us feel safe. For Yoosung, that’s emotional openness and indulgence as well as the idea of unity. Having the sun here, this is the area where he gets his ego boost, so to speak.

The sun is one’s ego and vitality. It’s the conscious self as well as our baseline. Think of it as an engine: the thing that makes all other parts of the machine (in this case, planets in a chart) work. It’s what everything orbits around. The sun’s sign is what we aspire to be, the values that guide our life. For Yoosung, that's to be emotionally in tune with the world around him, to connect and to help unite. He’s empathetic and looks beyond what’s seen.

The house of the sun is where that vitality is expressed. It’s quite literally where you shine. He shines in his family environment, feels a deep connection to them and they feel a great love from him too. He is a family man through and through, as that group is quite literally his force of life.

His sun is also conjunct Saturn and Mars (both which are “under the beams”). This blends the energy of the sun with that of both planets. With the Mars conjunction, his vitality is very often also expressed physically or through action. Physical activity, sometimes everything involving competition, excites him and makes him feel alive. He’s a man of action, enjoys the thrill of confrontation, a friendly competitor. Loves the rush.

However, with Saturn conjunct the sun, this gives an element of restriction or perhaps a delay to the expression of his identity. Like his confidence will be gained later in life, and he will build a sense of identity as he grows older. It’s likely that, when he was younger, he felt like there were restrictions in place that messed with his expression (perhaps coming from the family, as this is the 4H, or his resources, as the ruler is in the 2H), but as he matured he overcame these or learned to work with them. This also gives a structured quality to his expression, a somewhat methodical approach.

Staying in Saturn here for a bit: it’s the planet of hard lessons and restrictions. Being in Pisces it can mean that those lessons have been in the area of fluctuating emotions and maybe even imagination, as if he was afraid of being too “in the clouds.” However, being under the beams of the sun, that means invisibilized by its light, these lessons might not have come through or even been there.

It’s also the out-of-sect malefic, making it the most problematic planet in his chart. Things are not gonna go very smoothly for him when this house is activated and it may even be the most troubled area in his life. Besides all the love and care going around his family, there are restrictions that don’t go through and things unsaid that may ultimately estrange his relationship with them. Or it could be the subject of a physical home that is hard for him, as if he finds it difficult to acquire property, maybe again due to something relating to his resources.

However, due to this planet’s energy being overshadowed by the sun and Jupiter trine Venus having an effect over it, I wouldn’t say his issues are shit terrible. They’re problems that look bad but then get solved and everything goes back to normal once the benefics start doing their job.

Saturn is also trining the ascendant. This, in simple terms, means that whatever Saturn is bringing will help Yoosung in his interactions with the world. It could also mean appearance-wise that he ages like fine wine.

Now for Mars, the sect malefic. That doesn’t really mean much here since whatever problems Mars brings (which will be about destruction not restriction) are nothing compared to the issues Saturn brings. in the 4H, this makes his family environment somewhat confrontational. Perhaps accidents with fire are common. Though again, due to being under the beams of the sun, I wouldn't say this happens too often.

Mars, as a personal planet, is our force of action. It’s our method for doing things, who we are at the time of just going for it. It’s naturally brah, our fighting style, and Mars in Pisces brings a rather tender approach to all these things. It acts from down under, it isn’t direct because it approaches things from the emotional dimension. When doing, Mars in Pisces asks “How will this make them or me feel? How will the mood change?” It thinks in broad terms and aims to unify.

It’s also sensitive. It acts thanks to intuitive signals, anything intangible. This sensitivity is quite literal though, and often mars in Pisces champions for the underdog because it can understand their emotions like its own. Often seen as passive since it feels the vibes and reads the room before acting, but that's because its action has to have meaning.

Another planet here is Mercury, which tells us about the mind. How one thinks and sometimes speaks, the processing of information and style of communication. Being in Pisces, his is very abstract. He doesn’t understand things in concrete concepts but rather as a part of something greater, may see the overall messages or pattern and completely skip over the specifics. He understands things by blending the components together.

This all makes it rather hard for him to concretely communicate ideas, and that’s because he attempts to communicate feelings. As long as the message gets through, that's what matters to him. This might make him also communicate with things other than words, like sounds or gestures. Often, words just don’t come to him.

Mercury here and the heavy load of Pisces energy may make him highly appreciate things like music or dance, or any alternative, wordless, emotional method of communication. A lot of the time, he may feel like music or dance communicate what he aims to better than words ever could. He may even be highly adept in these areas, or have family who is, with Mars, the planet of physical action, here.

Mercury is also squaring his moon, ascendant, and Pluto. This is a challenge for the communication of his needs and feelings (moon), he recognizes they’re there but doesn’t know how to communicate them to others. The square to Pluto adds a layer of intensity to his communication, making it slightly threatening. Sometimes his ideas may even be grim or a result of destructive experiences.

His voice, though, may have a whimsical or haunting tone to it. You feel like it's taking you elsewhere. It’s soft and sometimes slow, like calm waters. Because this is in the 4H, he may learn best when at home. But also I’d say that because this planet is 1. under the beams of the sun and 2. in its fall, the area of communication and ideas is not his best.

Overall, there's definitely a lottt going on in his family environment. In part it’s restrictive and confrontational, but also with a back-and-forth exchange of ideas and high mental activity, and where he can express himself. Can feel like the worst place, but also the one he has the most experience with. This is where most of the stuff in his life happens or relates to.

Okay, now onto the 5H, which is in Aries and where we find everything he creates and enjoys. It’s his creative potential, his parenting style, what he does with what he brings into the world and how he brings them. How does he approach that which brings him pleasure?

Aries is cardinal fire and Mars ruled. It’s the first spark to light a fire, quick and swift action, the doing without thinking. It burns bright, but also quick. Which tells us he enjoys that which gives him a rush of adrenaline. He may start projects and not go through with them after the rush has subsided, always looking to keep that spark aflame.

Having the ruler in the 4H, that which he creates usually echoes out into his home life, either by creating it for his family or relating to it in some way or another.

When pursuing someone romantically, he’s direct. He goes for it. He wants to feel alive, feel that spark. He takes the lead and moves quickly, hesitating little. He has a similar approach in intimacy. It’s likely that the ppl who get with him have this feeling that he’s carrying them forward, evading boredom like the plague. It’s all about the rush and the feeling for him.

It may also be that his children are this way, active and direct and very forthcoming. Or that he is this way as a parent. I would say though that this configuration, with the ruler in the 4H, makes him quite a caring father. Everything that he creates, he considers an extension or even a part of his home and family.

Now onto the 6H, which is arguably the best one in his chart. Technically though, it’s regarded as one of the “bad” houses of the chart, since it deals with matters of health and illness and anything that happens to the body, all we have to do to maintain it functional. The 1H is the body itself, the 6H what happens to it. 1H is your hp and 6H is how much damage you take. And with Venys, the sect benefic, in its home sign and trining the other benefic, he’s a tank in every sense of the word.

It’s the house of taking care of one’s needs, of responsibilities, everything that is under our care and how we go to take care of it.

The 6H is also everything that is outside you but beneath you. It’s cadent (before) the 7th, which is where we find other people in his life, so in here we see anything separate from him that is below him. This would mean subordinates and also pets.

It’s in Taurus, which is fixed earth and ruled by Venus. Taurus is the “slow and steady wins the race,” it aims to secure possessions, it’s as unmoving as a mountain. It concerns itself with terrenial pleasures most of the time, things like food and nature, and enjoys the beauty of what’s there. Taurus wants to do things at its own pace and enjoy it while it’s at it.

To sum it all up, he’s a very healthy person. Doesn’t get sick often, doesn’t need to do that much care, he has the chance to rest here. He carries little burdens in these areas: his health is good and he gets well easily, his subordinates (if he ever has them) are loyal, his responsibilities are easy to bear, and his pets don’t have many problems, nor does he have issues with them . It's likely that pets bring a lot of good into his life.

When tackling responsibilities, the worst that can happen to him is being rushed. He needs an environment that is calm and mostly unchanging, that lets him be and do what he has. He finishes what he starts, no matter how long it takes, even if it may take him time to actually set out to do the thing.

When it comes to self care, it’s likely that he prefers stuff that’s natural or familiar, stuff that he knows to work. He is very in tune with his body’s responses to anything physical and tangible, and probably has standards of comfort in place. He wants to feel good and will do what it takes to do so.

Let’s talk about venus: the planet of what and how he loves. It’s what attracts him as well as how he attracts others, what he looks for in relationships and in those things he’s passionate about. Taurus happens to be Venus’s home sign, which makes it also the house ruler.

He’s steady in his passions. Might take him a long time to find something that truly turns him on, but when he does, his passion is as steady and as unmoving as rock. He loves all that which stimulates his senses in one way or another, and these things tend to be physical, anything that can be tangibly held. His love language might be related to food or perhaps some other physical pleasure.

In relationships, he is loyal. His love is also rock steady, and there’s an inherent physicality to the way he loves. His intimacy style is very much sensual and physical. It’s about feeling the love with the senses. He also focuses on ensuring comfort and security.

Unlike the other areas of his life, relationships (and the things he dedicates himself to out of passion) are an area where he wants things to stay the same. He may like constant stimulation but does not, however, like constant change. There can be a possessive quality to his love, an “I will love you forever,” and he expects the same unmoving loyalty from his partner.

Overall, his relationships are kind of a safe haven. Steady, sensual,and fulfilling. Being in the 6H also makes him treat romantic relationships (or anything he’s passionate about) as a responsibility. It’s a 6H matter, something that MUST be taken care of. He shows his love by caring in a practical way. Aside from physical touch, another love language of his could be acts of service. He makes sure his partner’s needs are met, ensuring that both he and them are healthy and secure. Only on those terms can relationships thrive for him.

So, basically, he’s a malewife.

His Venus is making a pretty strong square to Uranus though, so there is the possibility of abrupt changes and general cases of unconventionality coming to his relationships and posing a challenge whenever this planet is activated. With Taurus, Change is already less than desirable, it’s not his style, but this makes it an inevitable wall that he’ll have to learn to get past.

Now onto some more insight about relationships: let’s talk about the 7th house.

In the birth chart, it’s where we find the other person, being completely opposite from the 1H, which is where we find the self. The 7H house responds to the question of “Who are you with?” and often the stuff here doesn’t represent the native themselves but rather where they form close partnerships with.

It’s the place of one-on-one partnerships, people we make commitments to. This could be business partners, best friends, an actual romantic partner, etc. The sign that the house is in tells us what our partners are like and what’s the nature of our partnerships. And it’s always the sister sign of the ascendant, the one 180 degrees away.

His is in Gemini, the mutable air sign ruled by Mercury (and also the sign where Seven and Saeran have a lot of their stuff in just saying). Gemini is the great brainstormer of the zodiac. The most adaptable, out-of-the-box thinker, it wants to figure out what the possibilities are, and has a great capacity to go everywhere, constantly. It’s like the wind: unrestrained and flighty. Communication is important here because it allows for the back-and-forth exchange of ideas, the widening of possibilities.

Those are the characteristics that will define Yoosung’s partnerships in life: intellectualism, conversation, variety. It could be that the people themselves that he connects with have these characteristics, being witty, creative, able to talk about everything with everyone, and adapt their style and personality to the situation. It could also be that the connections themselves are managed like this, and that with every person he partners with, no matter their personality, there is this easy conversation and idea exchange. A contrast to his approach to life, which is, however explorative, ultimately one-track minded.

With Gemini there is also the element of impermanence, constant change, and multiples. It is said that wherever Gemini falls in the chart, the native will have multiple of. 7H Gemini could be, then, multiple partners, connections that don’t last long for whatever reason. Mutable wind moves quickly, changes courses. There has to be this element of back-and-forth and constant movement for the connections to thrive.

The ruler of this house is, once again, in the 4H, which connects his partnerships to his home life. It could be that many of these partners are roommates or become like family to him, or that most of his connections affect his home life in one way or another.

Now, moving onto the 8H, house of shared resources, debts, inheritances, death, all that which is given to another or given to us by another. Sharing in general.

It’s in cancer, which is cardinal water and ruled by the moon. It’s the emotional protector of the sigs, the nurturer. the caregiver. Cancer seeks to shelter that which it cares about. Being water, its approach is emotional rather than practical. It’s the shoulder to cry on rather than the roof on your head.

Whatever Cancer touches in the chart becomes an emotional experience somewhat, your soft spots, and thus the ones you aim to protect the most. Being in the 8H, this makes him sensitive to the topics of debt, reciprocity, and death. It makes him responsible in the management of shared resources: he makes sure nothing goes amiss.

It could also make him emotional, sometimes even nostalgic, about things that are gone. Topics like death and the occult might call to him but also repulse him. It’s an “anyone else but me” kinda situation, interesting when he hears about other people’s experiences but not wanting to experience those himself.

This can also tell us how the people in his life (particularly those in the 7H) manage their resources. They do so in a very felt way, aiming to secure themselves, using material resources as an emotional brace.

In the aspect of sharing, he is more interested in the emotional dimensions more than anything. How is this which he is sharing with the other person bringing them closer, Anything shared might also impact him emotionally, bringing a sense of nostalgia into that which he gave away or was given to him.

The ruler of this house, the moon, is in his 1H, and conjunct his ascendant. This makes whatever goes on in this house-- whatever resources he shares or debts he has or inheritances he gets-- affect his physical appearance, way of interacting with the world, and sometimes even personality. If something is going on here, you’ll see it in him. This also applies to when death ever comes into his life. It has a manifestation in his personality, sometimes changing it (I would say that’s Pluto’s influence).

It could also be (but this is super far fetched), that what the ppl in his life decide to do with their money somehow correlates to his self presentation and personality, echoing out to his 1H and everything that is there.

Now onto the 9H, which is where we find long journeys, one’s philosophy and sometimes religion, and superior knowledge. All that is willingly sought out, journeys that mark a lifetime and knowledge that transcends the basic. It’s also shared knowledge (i.e. publishing).

In simple terms, its college, travel, and beliefs.

It’s in Leo, which is fixed fire and ruled by the sun. Leo is that flame which burns bright and burns constant, but in order to be kept alive, it must be constantly fed. Thus, Leo needs reception, attention, and validation. But what it gets it definitely gives back, as it is the shining beacon. Leo makes itself seen, unable to be ignored, and its inherent confidence becomes a motor to inspire others.

Wherever Leo is in the chart becomes the area where we want the spotlight shined, or where it is shined upon us. So, basically, he’s kind of like a celebrity in his college. Known and recognized, and perhaps also seeking recognition from his peers and mentors (which are more of a 9H topic). This might also happen when he travels, he might find himself in the spotlight and having his ego elevated and confidence boosted.

Having this house in Leo could also mean he’s kind of a preacher when it comes to sharing his philosophy. He knows how to grab people’s attention and make this part of him seen. Whatever it is that he believes in, you will know. It might also be that, again, the spotlight is shined on him in this area, and he gts recognized.

Being a fixed sign, it makes him stern in his beliefs. It might not be hard for him to accept different perspectives, but it definitely makes it hard for him to shift his. The ruler is in the 4H, once again, which makes, in one end, his values and philosophy very akin to that of his family, perhaps also of his culture and country, of his roots in general. It could also make his college environment a comfort zone, a second home, or it could mean he doesn’t go far from home for higher education.

Now let’s talk about the 10H, the house of public image. (also i hit the image limit so this one's gonna have 11 and 12 as well).

It’s the last of the angular hosues, and answers to the question of “what do you do?” In short, it’s who you are in the world. What you’re known for. In our world, that translates to career. The 10H and its sign can tell us what field someone’s in and what kind of job they do there, but more than that, it tells us what they’re like in the job. The qualities associates with the person. Their reputation and legacy.

Here’s also where we find the midheaven, which is the highest point in the observable sky at the moment of birth. It’s quite literally the most visible part of someone. What others know about you before they even know you.

This house is in Virgo, mutable earth sign ruled by mercury. The best way I can describe Virgo is as the red pen making edits to an essay: it fixes. It’s extremely detail-oriented. The way it reacts to its environment is by asking “how can this be better?” It’s constructively critical, oriented towards helping in the most practical manner possible. Having an ideal of what’s in front of it could be, it strives to get as close as possible to said ideal. The perfectionist of the zodiac by excellence, but not in the “picture perfect” way such as Libra, but in a more “trying to make everything the best it can be” way.

This tells us Yoosung has a reputation for being an extremely reliable person. The kind of guy who’s practical and adaptable, can do anything and do it extremely well. When it comes to his image, the way he presents himself to the world, the work that he does, etc. he’s extremely meticulous. He wants to appear as this person who can always be trusted and relied on to do a good job. A perfectionist for sure, but that’s what makes others appreciate him.

He might also be known as an extremely valuable helper, again, because of his keen eye for detail and striving to make everything that he tackles the best it can be. He’s the guy for the job, the ideal supervisor or secretary or perhaps editor. Knowledgeable and diligent. He enjoys feeling useful, caring more about the work being good than getting actually recognized for it.

Of course, this might also mean he puts a lot of pressure on himself when it comes to career. He gets wherever he gets, after all, thanks to a diligently followed routine, a brick-by-brick approach, taking it one day at a time. And due to this perfectionist approach, he might actually be quite hesitant to launch projects of his own, afraid they won’t meet his standards of perfection. If he is a creative, a lot of his stuff will get stalled by this endless amendment cycle, he’s always going to try to make it better. Of course, this helps, in a way, since his work will never be mediocre, but it can also hold him back quite a bit.

This placement could also mean he works in professions related to the sign, which would be anything requiring high amounts of attention to detail. Medical professions, especially surgery, is often associated with Virgo, as well as some kind of editor or perhaps researcher, as Virgo is a mercury ruled sign, after all. His job could have something to do with communication.

The ruler of this house being in the 4th further tells us his job will be connected to his family or home, in some way. Perhaps an architect (4H is also associated with real estate), family doctor, or follow a career path thanks to his family. Perhaps he will be in the family business, whatever that is.

Now onto the 11H (we’re almost done!!!), house of community. Here is where we find friendships, those connections we try to willingly maintain. It’s the house of social life, of groups and organizations as well as fans. The audience for whatever we do on the 10H, an extension of our reputation. Now that you’re known in the world, who are your people?

This is another one of those houses where whatever’s in it might not concern the native, but the people from that area of their life. It could be that this house tells us what Yoosung is like with his friends and in the groups he belongs to, but it can also tell us about what the friends themselves are like.

It’s in Libra, which is cardinal air and ruled by Venus. As an air sign, it is very intellectual and somewhat detached, and being ruled by Venus, planet of diplomacy, this intellectualism is applied socially. Libra goes outside itself in order to understand perspectives other than its own. Represented by the scales, we can infer balance is the ultimate goal of this sign, and it does so by comparison. Every argument has a counterargument, every hero has an enemy, every coin has its flip side. What Libra strives for is to arrive at the middle ground between the opposites, but for that, first, it has to know the foundations of both opposites.

Being Venus ruled also makes it inclined to beauty and art, but in a much more refined way than Taurus: instead of preferring what’s natural and staying in the world of the senses, Libra likes what’s refined, that which is a product of the world of ideas. Constructed beauty. Aesthetics are very important to Libra. It’s about the picture perfect.

So, he’s the pretty friend. The charming one, the kind of guy anyone can get along with. The mediator, he doesn’t start drama but does like to hear about it, not to take sides but to figure out a solution. He tries to see everyone in the group for who they are and relate to them to the best of his ability. He meets people where they’re at, molds himself to them, or sometimes to counter them.

Perhaps many times he has to play this mediator role in his friendships, taking the role of the person who listens and suggests solutions in the most unbiased way possible. Or it could also be that his friends are this way, charming and socially graceful, able to see from multiple perspectives.

Having this house in a Venus ruled sign, it may be that he likes doing artistic group activities. Things like going to the theatre or the ballet or perhaps an open exhibition, maybe he enjoys shopping in a group, everything that blends art and aestheticism with the social. Or that he has friends who do these things, who are fine artists.

He also has two placements here that are worthy of talking about: Chiron and the north node.

Chiron, an asteroid, is known as the wounded healer, similar to the myth it was named after. It tells us about our major wound in life, the thing in the bottom of our soul that most other wounds come from, or that wound which hurts the hardest. But it is also how we heal, the processes that we go through to minimize the pain of the wound and become whole again.

So, it’s the trauma asteroid.

The sign Chiron is in would represent the topic of the wound. For Yoosung, that is company and solitude. Due to certain events of his life, he may have fostered a fear of being alone, feeling like he needs to always be in some sort of relationship or connected to someone in order to feel worthy. As if he isn’t a whole person, and needs someone (or something) to be complete, which makes him always search for answers and healing in other people.

He might fear disharmony, too, making compromises that are actually not good for him. He could also feel like beauty is unreachable for him, like everyone else meets the standard and created beautiful things and lives beautiful lives while he just can’t manage. Or, on the other hand, the topic of connection might be difficult for him, he might feel like he can never truly get through to people and understand them, he can never get to that middle ground like he so desires.

The house Chiron is in can be where the wound comes from, or where in the life it shows up. For Yoosung, that is, unfortunately, friendships. Perhaps it was a friend that he had or a group he was a part of that made him feel this way. It could also be that he always feels like an outcast of sorts in groups, like he never truly belongs, like he needs to prove he’s deserving of belonging. Wounds perdure, after all.

But Chiron is not just the wound, it is also the healing. Ironically, he might be his group's therapist, or healing comes to him in the form of, or because of, a group. Something like a support group might be good for him.

The ruler of this house, Venus, is in the 6H, which could mean his groups and friendships are somehow connected to health. Perhaps they revolve around exercise or diet or some other health-related activity, or maybe it’s pets and small animals. It could also mean he’s friends with his subordinates or that he brings a group mentality to his daily work. Perhaps he’s a member of an union or guild, and his work responsibilities become group activities.

Okay, now we’ve finally, FINALLY made it to the last house: the 12th.

It’s the hiding place. The house of self-undoing, isolation, hidden enemies, secrets that are kept from ourselves, everything unseen basically. It’s where we transcend the physical realm, for better or worse, and go into the mental. It’s our internal maintenance, our subconscious. The part of ourselves we know it’s there but we don’t really wanna look at, as well as things in our life we (or other people) don’t really see.

Scorpio is fixed water and ruled by Mars. As water, it’s dealing with the realm of emotions. Being ruled by mars, it’s centred on action, on fight. But if Aries is the offense, Scorpio is the defense.It acts, but not brashly and quickly, but methodically. Scorpio is a strategist as well as a detective, not concerned with what’s on the surface, but rather with what’s beneath. It will not stop until it finds the core, the roots, the depths.

That’s why Scorpio is often associated with taboos, because it’s interested in what’s hidden. And very often, it goes hard. When Scorpio fixates on something, it won’t stop until it knows everything.

Some topics, you may realize, naturally correlate with 12H topics. The 12H is what’s hidden from us. Scorpio uncovers what’s hidden. So, with 12H Scorpio, there is often a fear or a blindspot to the emotional depths of the subconscious. Like, it’s there but we like to pretend that it isn’t. The heavy, the intense, the deep, is concealed by or from the native. Isolation is a rather dark activity, as it involves facing these depths. Hence the naturally exploratory and lively nature of the Sag rising. It’s not like they’re trying to escape from their own subconscious, but they’ll always be trying to come to the surface.

There is, here, a desire to stray from heavy topics and things that make one feel too much, but simultaneously it could be that Yoosung has things that he’s secretly really really into, or feels like he can only dive into his own emotional depths when alone.

Another thing that shows up here is hidden enemies, as in people whose intentions go against ours but we don’t know it. It could be that his hidden enemies are very scorpian. They’re concerned with what’s under the surface, investigative, sometimes they could be out to get him. But this won’t happen unless there’s a relevant transit here or activation via timelord.

The ruler of this house is in the 4H, which may tell us these enemies may be from his family. The topics of isolation and self-undoing in general are connected to those of home, family, and comfort zone. Maybe his isolation is somewhat of a comfort zone. Maybe his family forces him to isolate at some point or another. There’s many ways to go around this. This is one of those houses that won’t become relevant unless it’s activated, really.

Alright so that’s all i’ll say for him. Interesting chart ngl, that stellium in the 4H fucks shit up more often than not but still, interesting to witness. hope u learned something from this bc holy fuck this took me a WHILE.

If u actually read all of this u deserve a kiss on the lips bc my god

#long post LONG POST #yoosung kim #mystic messenger #mysme yoosung #astrology #pisces stellium #4h stellium #sagittarius moon #sagittarius rising #taurus venus #psices mercury #pisces mars #what were the other placements #i dont remember #i copy pasted this from a google doc i made months ago #been woring on jaehee's since forever. her chart is WILD #dk when it'll be out tho

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moonlit-imagines · 4 years

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Headcanons for being Tony Stark’s stepkid

Tony Stark x Potts!child!reader

warnings: alcohol mention

a/n: i rushed these so bad i just wanted to post dhhshsnsna

prompt: y/n is pepper’s kiddo!

it was just you and your mom for a long time

pepper and y/n potts

she couldn’t keep up with you sometimes, too busy dealing with the manchild that was mister anthony edward stark

speaking of—

“uh, who’s this?” -tony, pointing at you

“mr. stark, i am so sorry, the school closed because some kid set fire to the science lab and i didn’t have time to find a sitter—”

“no, it’s fine, no need to apologize. hey, kid, you wanna sit in the boss’s chair? i’ll let you run the company for the day!” *cue you nodding* “sweet, would you mind that, ms. potts?”

“oh? no, not at all” *mouthing* “thank you”

“so, uh, what’s your name? no, don’t tell me: ketchup.”

*giggling* “y/n”

“no way! that was my second guess!”

tony wasn’t used to being around kids

he had no idea that he was actually kind of good around them

despite a few minor hiccups

“you sit in my chair and im gonna spin you around, sound like fun?”

he spun you around WAY too fast and you were diiiiizzy, also you fell off the chair

“don’t tell your mom that we did that. she may be my assistant, but she scares the shit out of me. also, don’t say ‘shit’”

dude he just thought you were a cool kid!!!

“hey, you know, ms. potts, you dont really need to hire a babysitter anymore. y/n’s doing just fine hanging out here”

“how am i not surprised you befriended an actual child?”

she still took him up on his offer, you seemed pretty happy

when your mom worked late, you passed out in tonys office

tony and you had your own little secrets (like falling off the spinning chair), tony showed you around stark tower, and you practically lived there

“i got you a happy meal from mcdonalds!” -tony every day after your school

in all honesty, you weren’t the “popular” kid at school...not even close

but tony made up for it

“y/n! i found this old racecar toy in a box of old stuff, you wanna hold onto it for me?”

you kind of grew up in stark tower tbh? it was pretty cool

and as you grew up, you started to notice more

“mr. tony, do you have a crush on my mom?”

“do i what? no, no, i do—who the hell am i kidding? you caught me”

“called it!”

after that you did everything to try and get them together

when your mom was talking to tony, you would stand behind her and wiggle your eyebrows and just taunt tony endlessly

no! tony cannot remember your mom’s birthday for the life of him! you are his calendar now

“dude, why dont you just ask JARVIS to remind you?”

“i may be a genius, but that doesn’t mean i have common sense”

“wise words, sir” -JARVIS

when tony disappeared for 3 months you were so sad???? like you were not okay at all

and when he came back, he literally exited the plane saying “WHERE’S ‘T-POTT??’”

(your wonderful nickname. ‘t’ for ‘tony jr.’ and ‘pott’ for ‘potts’)

“my mom missed you”

“oh, i bet she did”

“you turned my child into you, tony. i will never forgive you for this”

“well, at least y/n was here to fill in for me, huh?”

tony wanted to show you the arc reactor but he was actually afraid of scarring you lmfaoooo

but he did let you in on the iron man secret (he knew you wouldn’t snitch)

and just to make sure:

“if you dont tell anyone, i’ll buy you a car when you turn 16”

“man, that’s like, forever away”

“good, maybe you’ll forget by then”

ur mom kinda maybe sorta found out abt iron man :/ she told you that tony was a bad influence

“mom! no, tony’s cool! he’s like a superhero”

“no, sweetie, he’s a rich guy with issues. we’re leaving”

that didn’t last long

not long at all

and soon they FINALLY got together

“jeez, i thought you two would never stop pining after each other”

“couldnt have done it without my wingman” -tony *fistbump*

“as thanks can i have my own iron man suit?”

“yes.” *pepper glaring at him* “no.”

sooner or later your mom and you moved into tony’s house and you got a really big room!!!!

it was completely decked out

king sized bed, flatscreen tv, mini-fridge, microwave, computer, your own bathroom with a smaller tv, a poster of tony??? (you vandalized it and put it in his workshop), and more!!!

okay you were spoiled

“do you like it here? are you sure i made the right choice?” -pepper

“are you kidding, mom? this is awesome! plus, you’re happy, i’m happy, tony’s happy, i think JARVIS is even happy!”

“i am, mx. potts. simply ecstatic” -JARVIS

pepper was really happy!! it was a pretty cool family

you started giving your school tony’s number if you ever got in trouble, you knew he’d cover for you

“mr. potts, is it?”

“sure”

“your child, y/n, punched another student in the face today. we’re very disappointed in their behavior”

“why’d they punch the kid?”

“well, the other student punched y/n first”

“HAH! thank you for wasting my time. send y/n back to class and call me back if something important comes up”

he literally gave you a high five when you got home

“i gave him a black eye!”

“i couldn’t be more proud. i mean, i dont condone violence, but self defense is a whole other story”

a little help in the workshop, tony asks you to hold the flashlight

“why don’t you get one of your robots to hold this for you?”

“are you kidding me, you’re complaining? we’re having stepdad/stepkid bonding time! and dum-e can’t do anything right, i dont trust him”

youve had a few theme park trips as a family ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

also tony has 100% told you to wait in the car and then left you alone for 2+ hours

“i’m not like a regular dad, im a step-dad. want some beer? you can have a little sip. i’d rather you do it in the house”

your mother actually does love how he actually cares about you!

“y/n is 12% my responsibility” -tony

“tony, you are impossible” -pepper

no avengering for you! pepper said no!!!!!!

disappointed but not surprised

iron man 3: y/n potts is put through the wringer

Text Message to Mr. Tony: bro you better come get your girl, me and happy are watching this other guy flirting with her. he’s showing her pics of his ‘big brain’

Mr. Tony: HE WHAT

Text Message to Mr. Tony: Tony he looks creepy i don’t want him to be my new stepdad do something!!!

anyways ur house kinda blew up and ur mom and you kinda got kidnapped and u were right abt that guy being creepy and thankfully no experiments were done on you but like your mom kinda almost died and her and tony were fine!!! all good in the end

you met mr. col. james rhodes that day

“aw, you’re the kid ive heard so much about” -rhodey

“you mean the coolest kid in the world?check.”

“you cant tell me you aren’t tony’s biological child, good god”

you got to meet the avengers later on too! (you’d already met natasha tho, only briefly)

“i know it can be a little overwhelming, right? meeting all these heros, legends even—” -rhodey

“oh, my god, is that thor? thor!!” -you, leaving rhodey in the dust

literally why does pepper trust you around tony something always goes wrong there were literally robots attacking, you were only at avengers tower bc your mom was busy with the company and she thought you’d be safe with the avengers. the AVENGERS.

“please dont tell your mom that i created a bad robot that tried to kill us. the robot will be the least of our problems” -tony

he made happy pick you up and you had to miss out on FUN and it sucked a lot

“it’s okay, y/n! i’m fun, too!” -happy

then your mom and tony took a break and your life got mega-boring for a while, but they weren’t separated for that long. you try not to think about it. it was brutal

Mr. Tony: Does she miss me?

New Message to Mr. Tony: I think so. Either that or she’s crying and drinking wine in the dark for no reason.

Mr. Tony: Damn it, now I feel bad. I miss her a lot. Oh, also, the Avengers say ‘hi,’ I’m in Germany with some bad news, I’ll explain later if you don’t see it on TV first, and I found you the perfect friend! His name is Peter and I think you’d like the school he goes to, it’s in Midtown. Smart kid school.

New Message to Mr. Tony: I’ll look into it, thanks. Also, I don’t like how those all connect. Please update me asap

watching the news to see several avengers arrested, cap on the run, and more!

“maybe it was good i didn’t fall in with the avengers”

tony and pepper finally got back together and you actually transferred to midtown high! peter and his friend group accepted you quickly, it was great. you and flash unfortunately had the most in common

you’d literally text happy right next to peter and he’d immediately reply to you. it hurt peter’s feelings

Momma: Sweetie! I’m working in the office late, leftovers are in the fridge, hope you have a wonderful day at school! 💕

👉👈the vulture tried to kill you for being tony’s stepkid, tony made peter promise to protect you

“y/n, you gotta stay out of harm’s way. mr. stark gave me an actual mission and it’s terrifying, i have to make sure you stay safe”

legit why the fuck was this old man tryna kill you bro grow up

anyyyywayssss your mom and tony got engaged!!

“wow, i thought the day would never come!!” -you

ppl told you tony isnt your stepdad bc ur mom and him werent married but who tf asked

why is the earth always in fucking danger

you and peter were just vibing on the field trip bus and all the sudden: space donut

“go! i’ll cover for you...FRIDAY, call tony”

“...hi there, little one”

“what the fuck”

“oh, so you see the aliens, too? well, at least im not crazy”

tony stark has left the atmosphere

you and your mom were kinda......not chillin tho

she and you didn’t sleep for a few nights, then ppl just straight up disappeared

plot twist: you survived the snap and your family was lucky to be alive, you even got a little sister who became a big handful!

only bad thing was all your friends dusted and you were pretty lonely

but watching morgan grow up kept you busy

“ahhh, shes so big!”

happy times in bad times

bad times!!!!! bc after five years thanos came back as thanos from like ten years ago. outdated thanos. obsolete thanos.

but you made your first and only appearance in the suit tony actually designed for you many years ago

you should have just stayed home tho bc that fight didnt pass the vibe check

“please dont tell me he...no, no, no, no, no”

you and your mom latched onto each other in tears, tony was one of the best people in your life, he made you and your mom two of the happiest people on earth

best stepdad a kid could ever ask for

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papers4me · 3 years

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Fruits Basket, SE03, Ep1

I’m here! The final season continues from where se02 oddly left, right in the middle of a conversation! XD.

-Tohru’s crushed heart (scarf): Excellent symbolism!

Tohru, burdened with trying to lift the curse of teen & adult sohmas, is now also troubled by trying to help Arisa’s romantic life is sad for akito! Too much for compassionate selfless tohru. Unable to help, protect & erase the pain, tohru crumbles. Freezes. Her white scarf (heart) flies away, gets crushed by cars & becomes dirty. But here comes a boy ( who thinks himself a monster) picks it up, cleans & returns it back. He thinks nothing of his deed. nothing heroic abt saving a scarf, really. But do we need to be heroes to save others? kyo saves tohru by being kyo. Not the zodiac cat & not the menacing monster. Her heart is saved by him, shown much care & returned back. Mind you, the heart (scarf) is not brand new after the delima. It’s not very clean after being crushed, some marks remain, but these are marks of growth!!! you walk away after hardships carrying minor scars of victory. This scene solidify kyo’s role in tohru’s life as an equal companion. Not a heroic prince charming. It is the little things he does that shows who he is. kyo isn’t abt big soft words, he doesn't say the best things. he is a man of action. His care, love & compassion comes so very easily & naturally to him thro actions. This is what yuki meant by saying he’s jealous of kyo. Yuki over thinks his steps & doubt everything before he acts. Kyo acts spontaneously then doubts himself later. He saves the scarf (heart) then tells her directly to buy another one if she feels it’s not clean. He failed to see how this trivial action meant the world to tohru. Tohru smiles lively cuz her heart is back to her.

Why is the scarf scene so important? (aka furuba’s best usage of symbolism yet!)

It symbolizes tohru’s toxic flaw that she must overcome! It represents tohru’s tormented heart over other ppl’s pain with severe neglect to her own problems & issues. Arisa’s love life shouldn’t be tohru’s delima, nor Akito’s complex or Kureno’s or the damned curse. Tohru toxically chooses to bear other burdens’ until they crush her.

Hana can’t come to save tohru from pain each time tohru indulges in it. Tohru must realize her own flaw & grow up beyond this toxic type of kindness. Feel & help others, but don’t use them to escape your pain & don’t indulge in their own struggles & neglect yourself. There is a reason hana’s knowing of tohru’s pain is thro “magical” waves, to symbolize that this can’t become a norm, not real. You can’t depend on magic to grow. I love that!

The white scarf bearing smudges of the tires even after kyo washed it shows that kyo’s love & care can’t magically heal all tohru’s pain. It parallels kyo’s words from se01, ep,24 when he said tohru didn’t heal all his pain, but he feels better simply cuz she stayed by his side. Tohru now is feeling better cuz kyo chose was there for her. Love doesn’t magically heal you, kids! But it sure puts you on the path! Also, this once again adds more depth to the (tohru/kyo) equal give & take dynamics.

This scene deconstruct the image of Tohru represented as an angelic mother throughout 2 seasons. Instead, It paints her as a real flawed girl with much need for growth. Exactly, like how we have learned by now that kyo isn’t a horrible monster nor a prince charming saving the day, but a flawed boy with much need for growth. However, these two push each other forward in a subtle way through daily situations! Excellent writing!!

-Kureno. (aka. who tohru should never become):

The harmful kindness: Kureno is someone who hurts himself & hurt many others (akito, arisa, shigure, & consequently the rest of the zodiacs) by giving the harmful types of kindness to akito, by completely erasing his own needs, desires & living for the sake of someone who would be far better without him. Kureno is who tohru might have become if she selflessly continues fighting solely for the sohma’s sake & trying to break the curse while ignoring her own life. She’ll become as miserable as kureno & the zodiacs will become dependable on her.

The destructive pity: Kureno pities this tormented child (akito) & chooses to stay with her until her tears dry. This pity is destructive cuz it is done while he wishes to be miles away with Arisa & it encourages akito to stay as she is. Look, a child whose mom hates her deserves pity. But an adult woman needs to learn to build relationships based on mutual affection & respect. This talk of pity reminds me of kyo & kagura. Kagura pitied the cat zodiac. The relationship was doomed cuz kyo refuses pity. It doesn’t matter if her pity turned into love later. Kyo doesn’t want that from her or anyone. There is NO equality there. We know tohru came to love kyo for all the times he was there for her & all the times he pushed her to improve, to complain, to want things! she said so in se01, ep, 24. But we also know that young baby tohru pitied the cat when her mom told her the zodiacs story. what if kyo thinks tohru’s affection is pity???? that’s a big NO for him & for every person. I really want tohru to be as far from any kurno’s traits as possible!!!

-Akito, the pitiful woman:

Akito was born a girl, forced to be raised as a boy by her mother’s demands? where is the father?? she was hated by her mother. why? she also hates her mom. (hate your child & they’ll hated you). So, akito is doomed by her mom. Akito tries to prove that she’s loved by the zodiac “she specified the male zodiacs” interesting! we saw how she hates both Isuzu & kisa & doesn’t give a damn abt kagura. This woman, forced to pose as a man, actually desires to be treated as a woman. As for the other zodiacs:

No worries abt hatori leaving cuz he’s 24/7 attending to her health.

Ayame makes tea exclusively for her & hatori.

she thinks Ritsu is too timid to attempt leaving.

Hiro’s a baby, momiji is hated cuz she can’t break him.

Kyo is destined to be locked. but Why she cares abt the cat anyway?? She publicly hates him & feels disgusted by him.

She used to control yuki but can’t anymore.

she uses intimacy to bound those who “can” leave her the most: kurno! & shigure? she sleeps next to shigure in the valentine ep. hatori remarked: don’t let akito catch cold. We saw the sexually charged rage in se02, ep10. So, she isn’t faithful to kureno. They don’t have a relationship. She doesn’t even have a relationship with shigure, either. to her, sex is a tool to tie them both to her?

It is ironic that the person who said she despises woman & accuses Isuzu of seducing hatori is herself seducing others. Except, tragically, kureno isn’t with her for herself, but cuz he pities her. We saw her slapping & embracing him. Next scene; her bare shoulders & his unbuttoned shirt clearly implies they got intimate which is what akito does to feel secure in kureno not leaving her. Kureno is not even interested in her despite submitting to her advances, needs & orders. He does it out of pity. Truly the most tragic form of physical affection: sex for pity. wow... how tragically pitiful is the abusive ruler of the zodiacs who looms over them & demands respect & eternal bonds. How can she find someone who’ll love her for herself, if she doesn’t learn to show good sides of her? Yuki wasn’t loved for who he is in school, but for being the “prince”, he showed his real character & got himself true friends & soon a lover!!! Kyo, was feared & pitied for turning into a “monster”, but once he showed his kind & harmless self, he got himself true friends & a girl who loves him for his actual personality! Who will love akito for who she is if she only shows a spoiled child, horrible family head or a pitiful woman? What does shigure love in her? he doesn’t seem to pity her nor pamper her much, does he? perhaps we’ll know more abt the real akito later.

Side notes:

Akito’s mom reminded me of kyo’s dad. Abused children, who are hated by their parents, don’t let go of the hurt easily. they’ll always try to either get their approval, show them they were worthy of their love, or they’re NOTHING like their parents think they are. eg: Kyo’s biological father’s hate has destroyed kyo. Kyo have kazuma & tohru & he still wonder why they love him. It took kyo 17 years to actually promise to call kazuma "dad” one day in se01 finale. You need time to heal the wounds inflected by the ones who should love you the most. Being loved by others doesn’t magically heal you! You need to take few steps forward.

Isuzu is Ren’s clone! finally understanding why the severe hate from akito towards Isuzu. I’ll wait for more Ren/Akito content before analyzing their relationship.

Ren is so sexy. ngl, the scene of the zodiacs touching her belly after she just *conceived* akito is so creepy~ ew!

Hana picked up tohru first before kyo, cuz this show isn’t exclusive for romantic love as much as it isn’t exclusive for friendship. There is balance.

Tohru needs her own future, so does Arisa & hana! Learn to accept the limit of what you can do as a friend, tohru.. forever loving furuba for steering away from “friends stay together forever~yay” anime trope! Furuba is abt independent & individual adult life! building your own future! Epic writing!

Forever fascinated by how much the little small ordinary daily life things has really built kyo-tohru love! It feels so real & very uniquely built! Excellent writing!

Arisa is stuck with an adult man trapping himself in the most unnecessary love triangle. Kureno’s cage is self made, no curse. A very sheltered boy/man not living in the real world. Only two options for kureno if he continues this path: he’ll hurt akito, or akito will hurt him. We know the answer from the trailer, don’t we?

Arisa letting go of kuron is growth! Let go & live, girl!

There is a subtle theme of learning to let go in furuba~

Yuki is the biggest kyoru shipper!

Tohru intentionally hitting kyo with scarf’s pon-pon is my fave side of her! intentional flirting shows change from her little girl’s good girl attitude to her own type of a feisty woman! after all, she’s nearly 18!

The way the camera moved when kyo spotted the scarf was so good!

The director is obsessed with flying!! did he work on attack on titans? cuz the Ren-akito flying fight reminded me of Titan Eren strangling Titan Annie in AOT se01 finale! but chibi version! XD. I’m sorry for akito’s pain, but I was distracted by laughing! XD

look, if you plan to dramatize a situation, know your budget & your skills. Obviously, the director knew the scene is badly done, hence, the wide far away, dim lit shot to hide as much as it can. Couldn’t he do without it? let akito strangle her to the ground without flying!

oh well~these over-the-top shots are now a furuba trade mark~ just praying they stick with one weird shot per season.

#Fruits Basket #Anime Only #Tohru Honda #Akito Sohma #se03 #final season #kureno sohma #shigure sohma #kyo sohma

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wokestraightpuffy · 3 years

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i have so many thoughts about c!puffy and i had no idea who else to come to besides the token mcytblr puffy enthusiast themself so i hope you don’t mind me dumping my thoughts on puffy in your inbox

anyways!! i’ve noticed a theme in her character: she always has to have a role, and these roles align with her relationships with other characters. ok ok so, her mama/papa puffy dynamic? based on that quote about her not having anyone i’ll bet literally all of my money that she adopted that role to be to others what she never had, what she always wanted. this also works if you think about her therapist and supportive, loving friend role. it’s a role she uses to connect herself to other people, to be a caretaker.

after the red banquet she DESPERATELY needs that loving role that she’s adopted, but she can’t play her own therapist because she’s been ripped away from both the mama/papa role (foolish’s death being blamed on her) and loving supportive friend role (killed antfrost) she’s come to this place where the roles she held onto arent (in her mind) available anymore. so she has to pick a different role, and because of the fact that she feels she’s hurt the people dearest to her, she picks the villain.

but the thing is!!!! she’s been actively hurting herself!! she’s been her own villain before she even considered the word!! she’s pushed herself into these roles of things that she desperately wants or needs herself but!! puffy, you cannot be the person you want to be for someone else when youve never given yourself the time to be that person for yourself.

please tell me this is comprehensible and i didn’t just go crazy in your inbox i am so sorry

i dont mind at ALL im absolutely delighted to read any and all tangents about c!puffy bc i love hearing everyones thoughts about her so thank u (´ ∀ ` *)

also holy shit 100% i agree w everything youve said, idk if puffy actively planned to insert self-identity into her characters arc but its something i think about a lot especially w her line about 'having to be mama puffy' and being a little lost when shes faced w the fact that she HAS one. i think her self-worth ties into that too, like she HAS to have SOME kind of role of use to them, otherwise whats the point? and man, the thought of her doing these roles bc shes subconsciously trying to find that role from other people to support herself?? i havent thought of that b4 outside of her acting like the server mom bc shes missing her own, and MAN. it makes sense and it makes me sadge

also it DID makes sense, i always love it when someone goes a lil feral in my inbox i personally enjoy it a lot. release all ur woes abt these block people in my asks, be my guest, i will be here to read ur cries <3

#ask #cpa #captain puffy #deserves to be in the main tag >:D #unless u dont want it to be i will remove it immediately

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prodigious-ladybug · 3 years

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wishmaker thoughts

in terms of it being a single installment in the larger narrative of miraculous ladybug, i don’t have a lot of thoughts on wishmaker other than ‘haha cool someone knows both of their identities at the same time wonder where this will go’ bc like. i am unable to separate myself from the idea that i absolutely cannot judge something (in this case, season- and series-long arcs) until i see it in its Entirety, in its Proper Complete State (which i know doesn’t exactly mesh with television as a serialised art form but jhdfghj wtvr thats a whole other discussion) so i don’t, and won’t, really have an opinion on luka knowing their identities until i see what the show does with it

on the other hand, in terms of its own merits as an episode (as in, the parts of the episode that are self-contained and are supposed to have their own story arc within the 20min) wishmaker was probably one of the weaker episodes of the show? alec’s akumatisation practically came out of nowhere - the show usually does a pretty good job of setting up the through lines that lead to a character’s akumatisation right from the start of the ep (you know, like with actual foreshadowing and good writing and shit) but wishmaker felt more concerned with the interactions between luka & adrien & marinette than having the villain feel natural within the story. which is all well and good, like this episode is about those three and should be focused on luka’s relationship with adrien & marinette if it wanted to have the proper impact of luka finding out their identities, but it just seemed like the episode couldn’t balance being both a run of the mill, monster of the week episode and an Event episode at the same time (that being said, i doubt this episode would’ve been enough to hold its own across a two parter so i get how the unbalance arose). instead of throwing alec’s characterisation out of whack they couldve used his early screen time to lead up to his akumatisation more naturally - surely something about being a tv presenter and having to be fake all the time for a living and not staying true to what his younger self wanted or SOMETHING would like. be putting him down in the dumps or smth. idk. that’s just off the top of my head surely the writers could come up with something more substantial. and yeah this might take away some attention from the emotional core of luka, adrien & marinette but it’d at least 1. tie in with the theme of the episode and 2. set some precedent for his negative feelings instead of him getting akumatised in like. ten seconds hgfdfghjk

the only other thing that kinda rubbed me the wrong way was how wishmaker’s power seemed especially contrived, even for this show? like i Know half of the akumatised powers are to either get ladybug and chat noir to kiss (contrived for the sake of romance which is. generally fine in a romance show and also approved by my shipper brain) or reveal their identities (which actually ties into the plot and the villain’s motivations and therefore makes it...not really contrived) so wishmaker being used to reveal their identities is fine. but um. the leap hawkmoth made in how his powers would do that is. wild. it’s like:

reveal people’s childhood wishes

???

reveal lb & cn’s identities

profit

and again, i know hawkmoth has given an endless list of powers to people that make you think ‘what the fuck was he hoping to accomplish with that?? what did he THINK would happen?’ and i’m all for hawkmoth having dumb plans, being soundly beaten and then having to figure out smarter ways to beat lb & cn, but i guess my problem here is that in this episode he was actually proven RIGHT. like he had no guarantee that lb & cn wouldn’t have childhood wishes a la dino man and mr banana, but he really put out this fairly weak akuma with the immediate assumption that it would reveal their identities and like?? if viperion wasn’t there he’d have achieved it! (well, idk abt ladybug, he’d at least probably hit chat noir, which is. an interesting au to think about). the link between revealing childhood wishes and revealing lb & cn’s identities seemed like a massive leap in logic to me (more than this show usually makes), and idk if anyone else felt that when watching the episode but like kjhdfghjk hawkmoth buddy can you explain your thinking for just a second like i’ll accept what you’re doing i just need to know why the fuck you’re doing it and how you got there

but other than that! i really really liked this episode and i was hyped up the entire fucking time!! i had to keep pausing it bc i was getting overwhelmed LMAO. i guess one thing i will say so that this doesn’t seem like a wall of negativity (which i swear i didn’t mean for it to be, there were only two (2) things i didn’t like about the episode that i felt weakened it, it just takes me a billion words to get to my point) is that however they handle luka knowing their identities in future episodes, i fucking loved the way they handled it in this episode. for some background, i’ve honestly never cared much either way abt luka, i have zero negative feelings about him, it’s just that he has the unfortunate case of not being a character type i particularly care abt, and the writing hasn’t done anything much to endear him to me. he’s fine, and i certainly like him more than other characters, but i’m pretty much as neutral on him as you could get. UNTIL THIS EPISODE! okay not really, something abt him agreeing to be friends with marinette in crocoduel made me go ‘:) what a nice boy :)’ BUT! THIS EPISODE! i’m proud to announce i’m officially a luka stan. LYING BALD-FACED TO LADYBUG? KING. LYING TO LADYBUG AFTER THE SEASON OPENER OF HIM GETTING AKUMATISED OVER MARINETTE LYING??? i am SO here for internal character conflicts YES! this is what i WANT! set up a character who has a strict line in the sand and put them in a situation where they’re forced to cross it anyway, and see what happens next!!!! i really would not mind a whole character study on luka after this. like....the fucking intrigue.......why did he lie, and how does he feel about it? does he regret it? does he consider it a necessary evil? i’m sure all of this will be answered in like. a single line from him five episodes down the road bc that’s how this show handles shit like this but. those last few minutes were really just straight bangers i’m still not recovered

well this was. longer than i thought it’d be. and again, i liked this episode a lot, idk what compelled me to write all this out. i usually don’t have a lot of formulated thoughts like this after an episode of ml; i think that it was just bc there were a couple things i could actually critique in the ep that it made it easier to pick apart my feelings. but anyways!

TL;DR wishmaker, in its self contained elements, felt a bit weak as an episode bc 1. alec’s akumatisation was mad rushed and 2. the way his powers were used to further the plot felt contrived to me (yes, even for miraculous). but, in the episode’s over-arching elements within the season/show, i immensely enjoyed it, primarily because of the amount of intrigue it set up in 1. luka’s characterisation and 2. the possibilities emerging from luka knowing lb & cn’s identities

#miraculous ladybug #ml spoilers #wishmaker #wishmaker spoilers #i really cannot. say anything concisely #anyways this was fun i'd like to write my thoughts out after more episodes but like i said i generally Don't Have Any #like if an episode is good all my thoughts will be 'wow that was good :)'#ml air more duds so i can ramble on forever challenge

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aguecheek · 3 years

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knocking politely on your door. do you have any twelfth night hot takes it's okay if not im just hyperfixating on it so intensely rn

bro listen to me i ALWAYS have twelfth night hot takes. BIG DISCLAIMER that all of this is completely subjective and absolutely not authoritatively true in any way shape or form. if you disagree with me at all, you’re well within your rights to do so, and I don’t feel the need to convince you otherwise. This is ONE POSSIBLE INTERPRETATION. What I’m talking abt in this post is one way I think I’d like to see the play interpreted and performed one day, because I think it adds a lot to the dynamics and gives the actors a ton of new things to explore in a way that could keep the play fresh, especially for actors or audiences who have potentially seen it done a bunch of times. Twelfth Night is one of Shakespeares most openly and explicitly lgbt plays, and I love thinking about new ways you could explore that.

Anyway my hot take of the day is that Olivia is a lesbian experiencing comphet!! More below the cut.

I think that one of the reasons she’s spending so long mourning her father and brother is (yes, obviously she’s in mourning, I don’t mean to undermine that) at least partially because it’s a viable excuse to turn away suitors like Orsino. She spends all her time cooped up inside, turning away any men that come to the door, spending all her time instead with Maria, Malvolio, Feste, and Toby. Andrew only comes in later, and honestly I’m gonna talk about her relationship to a few of the aforementioned people and how it fits into this narrative in a hot sec.

In my opinion, she latches onto Cesario because she perceives him as nonthreatening, sort of a “safe” man. Then, later in the show, when she mistakes Sebastian for Cesario and marries him, I feel as if it’s because she doesn’t actually love Cesario, and nor does she actually love Sebastian. So when she gets married, it feels very much like she’s marrying a Man, not a Person, you get me?

Okay, now I wanna talk abt Toby, Maria, Andrew, Feste, and Malvolio. Toby and Andrew first! Toby is Olivia’s uncle, and he’s pretty invested in marrying her off to Andrew. There are two different interpretations of that intention that could fit into this narrative. The first is the obvious route: homophobic toby. the second is, i think, a much more interesting one, which is the consideration that toby and Andrew may or may not have been having a thing. This is when you get into the possible potential story that Toby’s somehow figured out what his niece is dealing with and is trying to be helpful by taking her off the market but remaining with Andrew himself, giving all three of them that freedom to be in their proper relationships, while keeping up appearances. This also possibly explains one of the reasons he’s so willing to throw Malvolio under the bus for Olivia’s love. Because he knows she can’t ever accept his advances. Do i think he’s right for trying to set Olivia up with Andrew in this hypothetical subtextual narrative? No, not really, but do I get where he’s coming from? Yeah.

Feste is interesting, because he’s a clown. And clowns are ALWAYS interesting. Feste is, I think, slightly more interesting than most clowns. Because he actively influences the plot, and has relationships within the circle of characters. He and Olivia have this wonderful teasing relationship, where he sometimes seems almost to take on a mentor-like figure for her? I don’t know if anyone else picked up on that when reading it or watching it, but there are a couple moments that make me go Hm, that was kinda cute and uncle-y, yknow? Anyway, clowns always strike me as strange fourth-dimensional genderless beings, not bound by the confines of the fourth wall or the world of the story. Feste ESPECIALLY, though. Like touchstone’s just an asshole, Lear’s fool is mostly just fourth-wall breaking and goofy, and feste like……..knows things. This is my really roundabout way of saying i think feste is olivia’s personal GSA LMAO

Maria I don’t have much to say about, like I think there could be something between her and olivia, but that would just depend on the actors playing them. There are a few moments textually, but not so much that it’s a super easy read of things.

Now, Malvolio is Interesting. Because take this narrative and then put in the cross-gartered stocking scene. I’ve been trying to put my emotions about the way this could play out down for a really long time, and I’ve having a hard time doing it. I just think it would be really awful for both of them. If you took my quiz you probably know that I have a lot of sympathy for malvolio and that i think what was done to him was unforgivable. But i have a lot of sympathy for olivia too, and I just think that this scene could be very funny or very heartbreaking or both and I’d love to work with two incredibly experienced actors to see what they could do with it.

Ok ok ok now let me talk about olivia, viola, and malvolio, because they all have something super interesting in common—the ‘vol’ root, meaning ‘wishing.’ It shows up in words like benevolent, and in other characters like Benvolio in Romeo and Juliet. Twelfth Night is about a lot of things, but with the fact that three characters have the vol root? It’s interesting to think about. Olivia spends most of the play wishing for Cesario, Viola spends most of the play wishing for Orsino, and Malvolio… well, his name is a literal direct converse to Benvolio’s name, Malvolio means ill-wishing and benvolio means good-wishing, but that’s tangential. Malvolio still spends the play wishing. What he’s wishing for is up for debate, is he wishing for Olivia? For status? For love in general? Up to the actor. But I think the important point I’m trying to make here is that Viola is the only one who actually gets what she’s wishing for. Olivia marries someone, yes, but she doesn’t marry cesario. Cesario who is...wait for it...Viola. (Not including potential interpretations that present Viola as trans or nonbinary, I LOVE those interpretations and absolutely don’t mean to undermine them in any way with the point I’m making here. For the purposes of this narrative, I feel the need to present Viola as a woman or female-aligned.) Olivia spends the play wishing for a woman and then marries the closest male equivalent that’s available. If that isn’t a narrative that could easily be presented as a lesbian with comphet, I’ll eat my sword.

Final thing I wanted to point out is Olivia’s direct parallel to Antonio. She spends the play pining for Viola, while Antonio spends the play pining for Sebastian. I think it’s made pretty clear in 5.1 that Sebastian returns Antonio’s feelings, at least partially, which often gives me pause to wonder about what tha means for Olivia and Sebastian’s marriage. All i’m saying is that if olivia’s a lesbian, and sebastian’s with antonio, they’ve essentially accidentally achieved what toby hypothetically set out to do with sir andrew.

Basically, I guess all I’m saying is that theres a ton of meat there for actors to sink their teeth into, and I’d really love to put on a version of this show that follows this narrative when im in college, because i think there’s so much to explore with lesbian olivia that mostly isn’t all that touched on. When people think of lgbt themes in twelfth night, often their minds will leap to sebastian and antonio, or orsino and viola, and I absolutely know why, and to be honest I do the same. But i think theres a fuckton to be explored with lesbian olivia, and that it’s worth spending some time contemplating, even if you ultimately decide that this interpretation of the character is not your cup of tea.

#askdrew #infodumping #shakespeare tag #thank u for indulging me anon <3 #ok to rb

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lovenona · 3 years

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idek if i'm doing you a favour by asking this considering how absolutely enthusiastic you are about the odyssey (aren't we all) but pls overshare about all the writing process(tm). what gave you the idea of the absolute masterpiece that is the odyssey? how do you find the mood/aesthetic of a chapter? i have sooo many questions pls TvT

(writing process for me includes but isn't limited to screaming and pacing around, spacing out and coming back with that 1 scene, having random title ideas after a song and ooo is that a pirate!gojo idea i see over my grilling toast?)

[screams] u have unlocked Oversharing Time™ i will be rambling abt writing the odyssey under the cut for all of u who are interested in my brain

first: where did this monster of a saga come from????

answer: i literally do not know bestie 😭 i absolutely didn’t start it with the intention of being a series (much less a series of this size & scope) i'd finished watching/reading jjk in december 2020 n was having a lot of sukuna brainrot at the time . i originally made this blog just to quietly read fics n reblog anime tiddies, but i basically woke up one morning and was like “u know what, pirate sukuna would be really cool.” i made this post to get my thoughts out n thought that was the end of it until like 3 days later when i was suddenly struck with the horrible urge to write more abt the concept, which is how neptune’s hands was born !

after i wrote that (also, lovingly, my first work on this blog!!) i rly did think that the concept was over n i'd move on to keep reading fics n vibing, but a few days after that i was like “wait a minute” n started world-building with siren!gojo (which, at the time of writing, wasn’t even supposed to be the “same” reader as neptune’s hands until i threaded it back into the series !)

so basically i just fucked around for a hot minute thinking i cld just write one-shots of various pirate-themed jjk stuff until i eventually was like “u know what, i think it would be fun as a series” n added toji for some flair (the prequel, david & calypso) before moving on to write part 2. finally when i was like halfway through the mahito chapter i realized i needed an actual plot if i wanted this to be a coherent thing, so i hit up a bestie (@/suedebunn!) n we dreamt up the ending of the odyssey. (to this day, lyn is still the only one who knows how the story ends !!)

after that it was simply a nightmare! now the odyssey just keeps growing longer and i don’t know why!!! i have no idea where these ideas r coming from because they just sort of show up and i'm like “oh that’s nice” it’s very bizarre but also very fun n cool – i have a very clear picture of how the big three will end up (sukuna/reader/toji) and some general notions of what i think would be cool but i don’t usually plan anything detailed in advance until it’s time to sit down and write the actual chapter because i like the way the odyssey just does its own thing

second: how do u manifest the vibes

answer: i love manifesting the vibes!!!! this is the most fun part because u get to vibe around and picture everything without having to do the work of writing it 😭 vibes are very important to the odyssey and i usually start planning a chapter by sitting down and feeling out the setting – weather & time of day are very important to the story both symbolically and aesthetically so i like to figure out what those are like first and work from there !

usually after i pin down the weather and time i like to think about where we’ll be and what the space will be like because being able to imagine where we are (on sukuna’s ship, a crusty port town, etc.) helps put the vibes in motion when trying to picture how u feel, what’s going on, etc. i get a lot of inspiration on the setting both from actual pirate history (which i know quite a bit abt RIP), movies like pirates of the caribbean and lord of the rings, and from real life by riding my bike and visiting forest preserves and parks on my own to get a sense of what i wld feel if i was the mc <3

vibes also come from music !! very important!! i have a beloved odyssey playlist full of songs that help me manifest the energy i’m looking for – i've found from working on this for almost a year now (fcking terrifying) that i'll pick a song or two which becomes the centerpiece for every chapter (for part 4, it was this, and for interlude ii / part 5, it’s this.) i usually require dead silence to actually write but i'll listen to the songs a lot when i'm planning the chapter! i like imagining the events like it’s a movie and the song is what’s playing while it happens which really helps get the vibes rolling

anyway this is so horribly long i apologize 😭 but i'm willing to talk more abt the actual writing n revision processes if anyone ever needs advice or is just genuinely interested i didn’t want to turn this into a disgustingly long ask SKJAKSJA

#this ask has enabled me as nothing has enabled me before #thank u for giving me the chance to write a ted talk #I am forever in ur honor #letters to adele #the odyssey!

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jett-dawson · 3 years

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— ANDERSHAW RANT

so i’m currently in a big andershaw mood. i really really love them. watching episodes five and six makes me so happy. i know this show is still finding its way, i know the drama isn’t super solid and i know the eps are only five minutes long. but i’m just trying to find happiness in what we’ve got. and while jella is obviously just such an iconic and strong ship, i feel like andershaw deserves some love & light as well. hell, they’re still lowkey underrated? even after the episodes? idk but anyways

after reading skyler and ruby’s i was like wait wait. these two bios feel like two different puzzle pieces. pieces that attach? they literally fit so well. ruby is this bold girl. mega aries energy. rainbow dash type beat. she is the girl who makes sure to put loving, supportive energy into her friends no matter what. shes there to hype them up when and if they need it. shes there to put extra flair onto their outfits and just be that very very cool gal. skyler is the shy one. cancer energy. fluttershy type beat. shes timid yet smart, shy and lowkey insecure. she’s not fully sure of herself. shes still finding her feet. shes still looking for the moment where she’s fully ready to shine. she just needs a boost. she needs confidence. she needs support. and yes of course she could get that from any of her friends but like. ruby is literally branded around being the hype friend!! how fitting is that! plus they’re literally just the definition of red and blue gays i’m sorry but it had to be said

then episodes five and six dropped. these episodes really strengthened their bond. seriously. whether you ship it or not, they are now closer than ever. think about it! skyler just lost the love of her life, who she had been dating for like three years, in the most crappiest way possible. who ran after her to comfort her? ruby. but ruby lowkey kinda just got let down as well. she got to go on a date with this “cute” boy from her class. she was excited for the party. she was hyped up, she ran over to her roomies to get excited with them. she was willing to vlog with him. all for him to turn out to be a fraud, not only to her but to her friend. but what did she do? put all of her energy into skyler. WHICH ISNT A SURPRISE. their bios do foreshadow the show, believe it or not. we knew poppy was going to have some sort of dynamic going on with the A’s. we knew sunny was going to have her own cartoon that she works on of her friends. we knew all of this! and you could say the same about the wave two bios, foreshadowing violet/karma drama, amaya coming into a school with an unexpected setting, etc.

but like. think about it. they could’ve had any of the girls go to comfort skyler. they could’ve had jade go, bella go, heck, even sunny! but they chose jade. bc thats her character. she cares. she cares enough. she knew just what to say. she knew the moment skyler started spewing junk abt colin being the reason she got into rainbow high, it was all false. she knew just what to say to help skyler. and immediately was like hey look. ur makeup is running. you’re upset. you don’t deserve this. let’s have a makeover together. and made a cute ass montage of them being in love and doing makeup and hair. bro they put each other’s initials on each others outfits!! that’s what ruby’s bio meant! she knows how to add flair to anyone’s looks! she gave skyler a bit of a makeover!! foreshadowing!!!!

and yet she supported skyler’s speech on the stage. she convinced skyler that colin isn’t worth her time or energy and that they should just turn their colour up and vibe. they didn’t have to do that. they seriously didn’t. opposites ships like these are always the death of me. you see that with jella! opposites in a way!! you see it with other ships from other shows.. ex. rarijack and flutterdash (since i was referencing mlp earlier lol). they just work. it’s the balance. the time. the effort and energy they put in together. and i love it.

and i feel like andershaw is one of the only canon dynamics that have gotten a lot of attention.. other than jella and sky/violet. like the roommates have cute bonds as well but we haven’t seen a lot of them have major like... heartfelt turn of events. i mean i do love the cute moment of skyler supporting sunny during episode one. i do like the dynamic of ruby and violet having the spa nights on thursdays and being the ones invested in vlogging and stuff. that’s cute! but andershaw had like a heartfelt turn of events that strengthened their bond. and it’s not a surprise to me because their bios!! make sense!!!

sky/river seems like an interesting take. i mean all we’ve known is them sharing the 22 and then seeing each other and knowing each other which is cute!! but i guess i just can’t get into it?? idk. like. i usually almost always find straight couples being weak in kids cartoons bc companies usually only throw in males for the purpose of being a love interest and almost nothing else. so i’m used to finding no interest in straight couples for the reason that their bonds are as strong as the main characters friendships! and this is usually in like girl power shows like mlp, precure, winx, eah, mh, etc. like i do love the het couples of eah and mh ngl. rosabella and daring? clawd and draculaura? ashlynn and hunter? deuce and cleo? love to see them. but i guess another factor in it is that we rarely ever get LGBT rep in kid shows like these and. i love to see myself represented in the things i love and cmon man the school is literally called rainbow high. we have to at least have one gay, cmon. please mga

anyways. i wonder what will happen to river tho. i feel like i can get into it if they develop out their relationship while also actually giving river a personality lol. i do love how hes into performing arts though. you don’t see a guy being into performing represented in cartoons every day. but i also wonder if the amaya/river theory will come true. half upset bc id expect someones theme that is literally based off of the rainbow would be gay but. i also love andershaw so NDMDNDJ it’s ok. i ship andershaw no matter what! i wonder what will happen, and if couples will even be a prominent thing in the shows future. i mean... i wouldn’t doubt it? if not, kia would serve like no other purpose as of rn lol. anyways. i love my gays and i’ll probably rant about them another time

#rainbow high #rainbowhigh #rainbow high dolls #andershaw #skyler x ruby #ruby x skyler #ruby anderson #skyler bradshaw

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introtae · 3 years

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check in tag 💗

tagged by @butterjiminie and @gimbapchefs !! thank you guys ily 🥰

1. Why did you choose your url?

is it bad that i don’t really remember?? i think lainey helped me brainstorm it since she was my only bts friend going into making this blog but it just kind of.... happened into existence

2. Any sideblogs? If you have them name them and why you have them

yes! i have one (1) side blog that i use to test different themes/icons etc bc i’m indecisive and don’t like messing with this blog unless i know beforehand whether i’ll like the change or not. anyways the url is @softlytae you can look if u want but you wont find anything of value there LOL

3. How long have you’ve been on tumblr?

i’ve been on tumblr itself since 2018 but i made this blog & started creating gifs in december 2020!

4. Do you have a queue tag?

#q 😌

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

my old blog used to be a marvel blog (which is where i met lainey lol) but i slowly switched over to kpop and then decided to make a new blog when i realized i wanted to delve into gifmaking! :)

6. Why did you choose your icon?

saw kim seokjin and had a mental breakdown

7. Why did you choose your header?

KIM TAEHYUNG 😭 what other explanation do i NEED

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

i think it’s this one??? it used to be a jungkook set for a few months but buff namjoon really came out of nowhere and swept that title away from him in a few days

9. How many mutuals do you have?

i think like 45

10. How many followers do you have?

oh ho ho we want the juicy stuff i see 😏i have an amount i am satisfied with :)

11. How many people do you follow?

89!

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

yes my entire blog is one big shitpost at this point

13. How often do you use tumblr each day?

i log on a few times throughout the day to check in!

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? Who won?

nah i steer clear of drama. no thank you <3

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

it depends on the post i think? everyone is entitled to making their blog their own safe space so i don’t really know how to feel about them

16. Do you like tag games?

yesssss please tag me in anything and everything fun!! sometimes i forget to actually do them myself but i love being included in them and i try to respond to all the games i’m tagged in 🥰

17. Do you like ask games?

yeah they’re fun! i really like the ones where i get to brag abt how talented my mutuals are 😌

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

well @ppersonna is about 186 years old now so i’d say she probably has accumulated a good amount of followers by this point

19. Do I have a crush on a mutual?

all of them. they’re all amazing and i love them 🥺💗

tagging: @ughseoks @ppersonna @kithtaehyung @jiminswn @k-hongjoong @wonsang @taemaknae @balenciaguks @eternal-bangtan and anyone else who wants to do thissss <3

#i tried to include some mutuals i haven't spoken to/wanna get to know a bit better #along with my usual buddies #obvi you guys dont have to participate if you dont wannna!#tag game

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averykedavra · 4 years

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so. asides, huh.

i’m making this post ten minutes before the episode drops and right now I’m scared, who’s gonna be in it, oh no

aaaaa oh my god oh my god it’s here im shaking oh god oh fuck

flirting with social anxiety? VIRGIL

WE’RE GETTING VIRGIL???

we finally get content of virgil oh god oh fuck is there gonna be Drama

my heart is pounding

this intro still slaps yall

new A??

oh god, more waiting.

IT’S ESSENTIAL VIEWING?

ABD ILLUSTRATES??? I LOVE THEM???

wait. wait artist friends?

W H AT

i just SCREAMED an ANIMATIC i will LOSE IT

OH MY GOD ROMAN AND VIRGIL

THAT’S ROMAN ROMAN’S GONNA BE HERE

IS THIS ALL GONNA BE IN CAPS NOW? YES

yesyes patreon gets flashbacks to last night’s drama

THE SNIPPETS OF ANIMATION ARE SCARING ME

now that i think abt it, flirting with social anxiety is such a ro and virge thing

oh god is there gonna be angst oh god oh fuck

thomas ilysm

im SCARED just GET TO IT

no wait dont im not ready

ads. yay. well at least i get more time to prepare

that time was not enough FUCK i’m not ready

just glimpsed the cover of this ep (not what it’s called i’m sure) and jlkhgfdsfghj

NO MY COMPUTER WONT LOAD

COMPUTER STOP IT I WANT TO SEE MY BOIS

gonna log off tumblr and write the rest of this on notes or smth. notes can’t format im losing it. why is this my life.

GAY OR NAY? kljdhgfdsfghj

computer is still struggling to load i am Not Happy with this

THOMAS IVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY TO HEAR UR VOICE LET’S G O

“you too??” thomas ur a mood

ROMAN VIRGIL I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

lkjhgfds get off his back guys cmon

oh no is roman so adamant abt this because he wants thomas to be good

DLKJHGFDS THEY’RE TAGTEAMING THIS IM LOSING IT

THEY’RE F R I E N D S

“you didn’t mean that” roman no, roman stop, roman. roman.

STOP PLAYING WITH PEOPLE’S HEARTS??? ROMAN N O

OH GOD THEY’RE ACCUSING THOMAS OF LYING

THIS REMINDS ME OF SOMEONE,,,, OH FUCK

dkjhgfds uh oh here goes roman mr Gay Prince

“*sighs* cutie at twelve o clock” ROMAN I LOVE YOU

WE DON’T KNOW IF HE’S N O T GAY DKJHGFDSAFGH

dlkjhgfds “you have used that argument on me far too many times” i’m laughing so hard already

awww the stickerssss

paramore!!!

DLKJHGFDS AWWW NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS THESE DORKS ARE SO EXCITED

ads again

wait i just realized that if there isn’t any makeup needed,,,we could have janus

:(( oh no we won’t have remus oh :(((

COMPUTER WONT LOAD AGAIN

i’m five minutes in and i’m already dead

“those jokes are old” “you would know” roman ilysm

ugh,,,pintroverts

ROMAN’S LIL SMILE AS THOMAS GOES CLOSER IM,,,BABEY

kjhgfdghj MICROPHONES im in love with this

“OHHHHHH,,,,ohhhhhh” dkljhgfdsfghjkhgfds

this animation is FANTASTIC did i mention

dkjhgfdgh they’re Trying thomas

GREAT INDEED

ROMAN I LOVE YOU

“the only logical next step,,,go home and regret everything” virgil i love u

gay eyes? gay eyes.

DKLJHGFDGHJGFDG ROMAN PLS STOP OH MY GOD ROMAN NO

virgil is struggling

ads.

VIRGIL’S DRAMATIC SHADOWS I CANT--I LOVE HIM

“i wasn’t testing you, i was just panicking”

“you chose to be a liar”. no. no don’t. stop.

thomas u disaster gay

GERARD GAY,,,,I USED THAT NICKNAME ONCE,,,RAIN ON YOUR BLACK PARADE I AM FEELING PLATONIC PRINXIETY FEELS IN THIS CHILIS TONIGHT

oh they’re fighting over thomas oh noo :(

no no no

“IF I AM, I’LL ADD IT TO THIS LIST”

ROMAN N O

now thinking abt “something we’re both familiar with”,,,A A A AAAA

i dunno,,,plants dkfgsfgh

virgil is just shoving him around jkshgfdhj

thomas u GAY DISASTER

thomas pls ask janus for help with lying u cant lie

“CHECK FOR TREASURE FOR GOOD MEASURE” ROMAN I CANT DJKHGFDS

“hide so he cant see u in all ur shame” i love this so much oh my god

“easy, roman” THOMAS IS STILL STOPPING ROMAN FROM INSULTING ANYONE IM SAD

so,,,,,stalking

dljkhgdf this is so funny oh my god

they should grab patton!! hearts right?? speaking from the heart?

oh wait yeah roman’s mad at him, fuck

thomas is awkward sweetheart

computer goes out AGAIN im LOSING it

halfway thru. already so scared.

HE SAID IT WAS ESSENTIAL WHAT DOES THAT M E A N

yay computer is working again

also i love this animation sm, like seriously, oh my gosh

oh no roman’s expression is this gonna be sad

“least of all myself” thomas this is turning into a breakdown,,,are you okay

oh NO virgil’s expression

“knowing what i want” ROMAN’S EXPRESSION

IM SO SAD NOW FUCKING DAMMIT

this is so good and PAINFUL

WAIT IS THIS THE MONOLOGUE

IS THIS THE FUCKING MONOLOGUE

BECAUSE IT’S GOOD,,,IT’S SO GOOD

okay but seriously don’t go up to someone and say they’re radiant,,,this is a good speech but like,,,please dont use it irl thomas pls

lkJHGFDGHJ THE PERSON IN THE STALL OH MY GOD KJHGFDS

thomas is still a terrible liar oh my god the second-hand embarrassment

roman’s lil WTF roman ily

OH NO VIRGIL STOP

VIRGIL I DONT LIKE WHERE THIS IS GOING

“THE LIES” A A A AAAA

no. no no no. no no no

i am saying “no” out loud OH GOD

“i so badly want this” ROMAN

you cant have true love if the relationship isn’t based on truth,,,yes but also no?

roman i think ur biased here

both of u are

VIRGIL FUCKING SAID IT

“WILL DECEIT CONTINUE TO BE THE ANSWER TO ALL OF YOUR PROBLEMS” VIRGIL WENT FOR IT

GOD OH FUCK IM IN PAIN

“NO, HE’S BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME”

WHO’S SAYING THAT

ROMAN,,,ARE YOU SAYING THAT

ohh here comes the gay panic knhgfxdfgh

“he fears things too???” dlkjhghfd yes virge he’s your soulmate

awwww they’re arguing djkhgfdedghj

“it’s okay EXCEPT IT’S SUPER NOT” virgil ur such a good boi ily

thomas no

thomas stop

“one more chance at happiness squandered” roman dont be mean

“it’s probably for the best” ROMAN NO

VIRGIL IS SO CONCERNED

HE’S PANICKING BUT HE’S TRYING TO DO HIS BEST FOR THOMAS

A A A A A A AAAA VIRGIL ILY

“YOU SHOULD HAVE JUST SAID HI” THOMAS IS GONNA GET A BF

i like songs dkjhgfd THIS IS GOING SO WELL THO

I’M SO HAPPY FOR THOMASSSS (CHARACTER THOMAS)

oh no mysterious suitor is pretentious /j

no wait is THIS the monologue

WHAT’S THE MONOLOGUE THOMAS, WHERE IS THE TRUTH

“that was you???” DKJHGFGHJGF

bruised ego. roman’s hmm. a a a aa

“let’s not waste this one” I AM SO HERE FOR THESE TWO

THIS IS SO CUTE AND WHOLESOME OMG

ROMAN’S IN L I K E IM SO DLKJHGFDSGH A A AAA BABEY HIS LIL HEARTS A A AA

THEIR LIL SMILES AS THEY WATCH IM,,,HHHHH

ROMAN THANKED VIRGIL

AND VIRGIL’S SO SURPRISED,,,A A AAA

“BRAVERY” A A A A A A AAAAA

THEY’RE FUCKIN

THE PLATONIC PRINXIETY FE E L S

ROMAN’S SO GRATEFUL AND VIRGIL’S SO FLUSTERED AND OH MY GOSH IM SOFT

is that the end???

no wait we have,,the end card

should i skip the patreon announcement for the end card

BUT LIKE THIS ANIMATION MEDIUM,,,MEANT THEY COULD FUCKING HOLD EACH OTHER’ SHOULDERS

THAT’S SO COOL

AAAAA ROMAN IN PERSON HI ROMAN ILYSM YOUR LIL THUMB BITE ILY ILY ILY

“PUNK” DKJHGFD

more accurate to say,,,puts on bowler hat DECEIT’S THEME PLAYS HI JANUS

BUT JANUS IS RUNNING IT DLKHJGFDHJGFD

skipping the patreon, maybe i’ll watch it later, can’t buy anything anyway i am smol

AWWW THEY’RE ALL GEEKING OUT OVER IT

THOSE LIL DORKS I LOVE THEM

,,,,virgil’s eyeshadow

VIRGIL’S EYESHADOW

IT’S NEW

OHHH THEY’RE ALL BLUSHY I LOVE THEM

VIRGIL’S EYESHADOW CHANGED WHEN HE GOT LESS EXCITED,,,,I’M IN T R I G U E D

HIS EYESHADOW’S BACK TO PURPLE

AWWW THEY’RE SO EXCITED I’M HERE FOR IT

“JOIN ME,,,NO THINKING” ROMAN I L Y

dlkjhgfdghjkgfdGHJ i’m laughing so hard

“are we ready for this” oh no

oh no oh no

computer wont LOAD there are ten more seconds i wanna see!!!

i had to RESTART MY WHOLE COMPUTER to see the rest >>:((

oh no virgil is apprehensive

that’ll come back to bite them later

ROMAN STOP PRETENDING LIKE THERE ARE NO CONCERNS CHALLENGE

djkhgfdghj “demon” virgil ily

in conclusion prinxiety are best friends and i am living for this and also i’m in material amounts of pain

#sanders sides #sanders asides #thomas sanders #roman sanders #virgil sanders #ts spoilers #tw caps

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liberty-barnes · 3 years

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Miah’s 1K Celebration

so...

welcome to the mess that is my 1k celebration cause i’m unable to make simple choices and can’t stand the thought of letting people down

as you can see, i’m perfectly normal

the literal 1005 people following me would disagree on that but heyyy details

so anyway

one thousand

one bloody thousand people following me

my inicial reaction is whyyyy??? i’m just a bisexual disaster who sometimes writes a half decent fanfic but you deemed me worthy of your follow?

then i started crying cause yk

but bottomline is, i love you all, you’re the bestest people in the whole entire world, so i’m gonna make both a sleepover and a writing challenge

sleepover cause i like answering questions

writing challenge cause it gives me a chance to show you all other artists and discover other artists myself cause we all need them and they deserve more recognition

special shoutout to my mutuals who i’ll tag at the end for always being there for me and supporting me through every high and every low, y’all are the real heroes here

BUT ANYWAY, ONTO THE CELEBRATION PART, WHICH FINDS ITSELF UNDER THE CUT OTHERWISE IT’D BE TOO BIG TO PROPERLY REBLOG (i tend to ramble a bit, but you already knew that)

Starts: December 11th 2020

Ends: December 20th 2020

Who can participate: everyone, anon or not! no need to be following me either

send me asks for:

✨ my opinion on...

🌻 cast my mutuals as...

🎵 i'll put my playlist on shuffle and give you a song

🍉 random fact about me

🦔 what's my favorite...

🍀 i'll give you advice (or just listen to you rant, if you want)

💬 last text [insert person] sent me

💌 handwritten letter

🎬 movie rec

📖 fic or blog rec

📘 inspiration behind [insert fic name], how i came up with it or if you have questions about it

🖋 line from one of my WIPs (tell me if you want fluff or angst, i won't tell you the pairing or anything, that's no fun)

💋 kiss, date, marry [insert people]

🎤 give me a song an i'll do a mini cover of it (it will be 1min long tops cause that's all tumblr can take lmao)

📷 random picture from my camera roll (you can request a theme if you want, like pictures from my childhood or awkward pics or something)

Rules:

• Open to anyone (don't have to be following me)

• Send me a DM or ask with the prompt(s) you want (two people tops per work) and who you're writing about

• Smut is allowed but make sure to put it in the warnings

• I will accept works for any Marvel character or cast member, part of the Holland clan, 1D member or affiliated, Teen Wolf characters or cast member, Maze Runner character or cast member

• Can be reader inserts or not, but please specify it in your DM/ask too

• Tag me when you're done

• All works will be rebloged under #Miah's 1k writing challenge and put in a masterlist that will be specifically created for this writing challenge

Starts: December 11th 2020

Ends: January 11th 2020

Prompt list:

1. “Is that my shirt?” “You mean our shirt?”

2. “Home stopped being a place when you entered my life.”

3. “Stop moving and let me braid your hair.”

4. “Could you say that again?” “Were you not listening?” “No I was, I just like hearing your voice.”

5. “Can you just please hold me?”

6. “You come here often?” “Well considering I work here, yes.”

7. “Can I stay here tonight?”

8. “You’re really warm.”

9. “I’ve been in-love with you since we were kids.”

10. “Why are you wearing my sweater?” “Because it smells like you.”

11. “You are crushing me right now.”

12. “Darling I love you and all, but please get out of my kitchen.”

13. "I leave you alone for five minutes and this happens."

14. "I didn't fall. The floor looked lonely so I wanted to hug it." "Then why are you crying?" "It was an emotional reunion."

15. "There's no such thing as too many fairy lights."

16. “I’m leaving.” “Of course you are, that’s all you know how to do.”

17. “I love you.” “No you don’t”

18. “Any other lies left to tell me?”

19. “I miss the old you.”

20. “What happened to their happily ever after?” “Not all love stories get a happily ever after, sometimes it’s just once upon a time.”

21. “Lie to me. I don’t care what you say, just lie to me. Make me feel okay again.”

22. “Give me one reason why I shouldn’t leave.”

23. "It's okay. It's not your fault that I couldn't be enough."

24. "Please don't leave me."

25. "You have the emotional range of a teaspoon."

26. "Will you shut up for once in your life?"

27. "This isn't about us."

28. "I will shove a christmas tree so far up your ass that when you open your mouth we'll see the fairy lights."

29. "I'm not crying, my eyes are sweating"

30. "Is that blood?" "Yes, but it's not mine." "Is that supposed to make it better?"

31. "I’ll drink to that.” “You drink to everything.” “Cheers!”

32. “Why is arson always your first answer?”

33. "What are you doing?" "What does it look like I'm doing?"

34. "I can explain!" "Then explain." "Okay, I can't explain."

35. "Get out of here with your facts. Just because you're accurate does not mean you're interesting."

36. "How many hearts did you break while trying to keep yours intact?"

37. "I know everything. It's in the job description."

38. "One more word out of you and I'll rip your throat out with my teeth."

39. "Do you listen to girl in red?"

40. "Is that code for something or am I just paranoid?"

41. "With how things have been going, I might as well start working at a circus."

42. "I love (him/her/them)." "Then why did you give up?" "Cause (he/she/they) deserved better."

43. "I want to ask but something tells me the answer will be more disturbing than anything I can think of."

44. "Do you think he's... *flicks wrist*?"

45. "Do I look like an idiot to you?" "Do you want me to answer that honestly or politely?"

46. "Just how clumsy are you?"

47. "So... the weather?"

48. "Just leave."

49. "Don't you fucking dare!"

50. "You don't have to talk right now. But whenever you're ready, if you're ever ready, I'll be here to listen."

tagging and complimenting my amazing mutuals cause y’all deserve it

@parkersbliss thank you for marrying me, first of all, and for being the most amazing wife one could ask. i wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for you and i will never stop ebing thankful for your existence

@peterspideyy thank you for listening to my rants along with grace and supporting me during all my simping, you’re the sweetest thing existing since powdered sugar

@theamazingtomholland thank you for always putting a smile on my face, reminding me that i’m loved everyday and just being you, cause it’s the best thing you could be

@lozzypoz321 thank you for listening to me rant abt my fics and how much i hate writing and then motivating me to write again or do basic things like get out of bed lmao (we still have the best taste in music)

@everything-is-alrightt kenzie lovely, thank you for being the pure little ball of unfiltered joy that you are cause even thinking about you and the jump shit your brothers get up to makes me smile like crazy, you’re amazing and don’t you dare forget it

@spider-trash thank you for being my brother, going alon with my ridiculous schemes for corrupting posie and making me laugh out loud every time you come up with something even worse, you’re the coolest bro i could ask for

and finally, thank you @fallinfortom for inspiring me to write in the first place, being an amazing mum to us, an actual good role model for me to have and for your random appearances in my dreams and the fun english teacher who makes us read tom holland fics instead of english literature. you’re amazing and i’m incredibly thankful to know you

love you all to the ends of the universe and back again, Miah

#libbys stuff #miah's 1k celebration #miah's 1k sleepover #miah's 1k writing challenge

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somefandomimagines · 3 years

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Hi! I was wondering if I could get a haikyuu matchup 🖤

I’m a chaotic 5’2 bi who loves dying my hair bright colors. Right now it’s blue.

My Myers-Briggs personality type is ENFT.

I have adhd, odd, depression, and anxiety. Which is basically means I either give something 1000% in effort, or nothing at all. And sometimes that is determined by someone telling me that I “have/need” to do it. Because I tend to have problems with authority figures and don’t like being told what to do.

I also have a hard time sitting still unless I’m hyper focusing on something (usually reading or going down a research rabbit hole on something that I find interesting). Those episodes only last so long though. Otherwise I like being out and doing things (usually with my dogs). I love traveling to new places and trying new things. I listen to all types of music, but David Bowie and Neil Diamond will always place top in my heart. I love to sing and dance at random. I’m not good at either, but that doesn’t stop me.

Those are my good days though. Some days depression and anxiety get ahold on me and I’ll do a 180. Those days I usually try to stay on my own and read or distract myself with movies and tv.

My favorite genre is horror. I love scary things - books, movies, documentaries, tv shows. Paranormal investigations? Im in! Stephen King’s new release? I already got it preordered.

I love games. I’m not so much into video games, but tabletop and card games are my jam. I’m also pretty good at trivia too (the more useless and random the questions are, the better I am).

I’m also a practicing pagan and witch. I specialize in divination (tarot cards, oracle cards, and tea leaf reading) and have a ridiculously large collection of rocks/crystals, candles (mostly because I like things that smell good) and different tarot and Oracle decks. And random fact; my favorite tarot card and the one I identify with the most is The Fool.

I think that’s all I’ve got at the moment. Thank you in advance 💚🖤💚🖤

So I kinda just skimmed through this but if I get anything wrong please don't be upset :( ALSO IT'S SO COOL THAT YOU'RE A WITCH!! I wanna get into that stuff but I'm too pea brained and can't find anyone to help me lol Anyways I match you with... ASAHI!! - Look, look, I get it, he's a gentle giant kinda guy and you're hyperactive and hated by authority - But opposites attract - He'd be attracted by how strong you are tho - Like you just give off this energy and he can't help himself - You guys meet when you get transferred into one of his classes - Your hair is so cool,,, He likes it - Like he wants to be bold like that too </3 - You guys end up talking somehow - For once... Someones not scared of him??? OMG!!! - You guys get along so well at first too - You're the one to make a move and ask him out on a date tho - You guys go to a simple picnic :0 - He shows you his fashion designs btw- He's super good at that - He also brings the cutest little foods too - Tiny sammiches - anyways you guys have a great time - At some point things get quiet but like- a comforting quiet - You guys have a really cute dynamic tho - You help him get over some of his anxieties and he helps you with yours - ALSO HE'S SO INTERESTED IN YOUR WITCHY STUFF IT'S SO COOL - He could listen to you talk abt it for hours - When you guys study and you can't focus, he'll wrap an arm around you and pull you close - He knows that talking while doing things can help others focus so he tries that? Idk if it works but he finds smth to help - Also you're hyperfixed on smth? RANT TO HIM - Ok if it's horror he might get scared shitless but he'll listen - Poor mans is horrible with horror but finds it cute that you have such an interest in it - He gets you out of trouble with teachers and other school staff somehow - Maybe bc they find him scary or he's a kiss-ass sometimes - When you're having a down day, you've got your big teddy bear there w/ ya - He lets you play with his hair if you want, it really calms you both down - During your down days he'll just quietly cuddle you as you guys watch TV or he'll try and help you get something productive done - Either way, he somehow makes your day better - And then when HE has a down day, you're on his ass in a positive way tryna get him up - He,,, He really likes this one cafe with cat-themed snacks - Anyways gender-nonconforming Asahi ftw - He's a man that likes cute things! What's wrong with that?? - With any gender identity you have, he's fully supportive - Might not understand something clearly at first but he'll learn and do his research! - You're his best source for this info tho - He refuses to let you dye his hair tho - He likes his hair the way it is - PDA? Only small things - Hell even the smallest thing gets him fuckin flustered - You hold his hand? He's blushing - He's not really used to relationships but,,, You help him a lot - He's so happy to have met you - Also if you guys have movie nights and you choose a horror movie? He's holding onto you for dear life - Nishinoya is also someone you hang out with and he'll tease you both a lot - Asahi,,, Poor boy he's so fucking flustered - Tanaka joke flirts with you one day and Asahi puts a protective arm around you,,, It's so out of character that it's obvious - Tanaka loses his shit which makes Asahi embarrassed, but you let your mans know that you find the gesture endearing - Hiking dates are a thing hiking dates are a thing - Asahi loves the views and you love the adventure - He gets along w/ your dogs amazingly btw - Your unpaid dogsitter <3 PLEASEOSUFGHSDIFG

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