I could not know how tomorrow looks like, the mood I’ll get up to or the people who’ll talk to me. I could try and guess, shoot my shot and make a try. see what happens next and plan nothing. I could not know what the next few seconds hold for me, but I perfectly know what’s going to happen on this day in a year. I woke up this morning and felt my heart skipping a beat - 18th of october. a date that just a year ago meant absolutely nothing to me. a still meaningless day for most people out here. and yet, in a year, today, I’ll have sat down at a desk and got nearer to my future. in a year, today, all the studying, all the efforts I’m now doing will partly be put down on paper and sat aside for a month or two, closed in a drawer no one knows about. part of my future will be determined by this day in a year. what a responsibility! shivers down my spine thinking about it. there’s still so much I need to do, not enough time to do everything and to be everything, but somehow I’m managing to cope with it, get through it and work well on the fundamentals. building up a future for yourself no one, with a few exceptions, knows about is hard and overwhelming and it makes you busy. but, gosh, the satisfaction will be worth it all.
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if you’re struggling to get off your phone, make your phone boring to be on.
the reason most of us are stuck on our phone scrolling for hours is because we are “bored” elsewhere in our life.
so we fill our time by using social media, games and other apps to entertain ourselves when, in fact, a lot of the time we are not fully entertained in the end.
i’m sure you know the sick and drained feeling you get after mindlessly scrolling for three hours straight. if you want it to stop, you need to stop giving into the screen and to stop giving into the screen, you need to take the power away from the screen.
so make your phone boring. delete your apps. time spent on social medias like tiktok, instagram, youtube etc can be reduced significantly just by deleting the app, or by adding an app timer. it’s the same with games or any other apps that are eating up your time and energy and giving nothing in return.
this is bound to be difficult given how greatly we rely on phones and social media. we’re “addicted” but it doesn’t need to stay that way.
so if you want to be on your phone less, my homework for you is to delete an app, any app that you know is a major distraction to you. if it’s too difficult to go cold turkey, then add an app timer and gradually reduce the time limits until you no longer feel like you rely on the app. you can do it!
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people who actually believe that theory that usopp will die to prove he's a brave warrior of the sea is so ridiculous when oda can't even kill a giant who was in a flashback 22 years ago
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I'm still grieving the dreams I lost due to my disability and I just added another one
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Every time I see someone use Purple Haze Feedback for 'UwU FuGio real!!' or paint Giorno as a coldhearted sadistic master manipulator I feel myself coming closer and closer to snapping
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"You belong to me."
"Those who die on the battlefield are not royalty, nobility, or commoners. They are the defeated, who die."
"I feel no responsibility to comrades who've lost lives under my command. Because they chose to fight in each battle.. Just as I chose this. But if there is something that... I can do for them. Something I can do for the dead... Then it is to win. I must keep winning to attain my dream. To realize my dream, I will perch on top of their corpses.. It is a blood-smeared dream, after all. I don't regret or feel guilty about it."
"Do I need to give you a reason each time I risk my life for your sake?"
"While many can pursue their dreams in solitude, other dreams are like great storms blowing hundreds, even thousands of dreams apart in their wake. Dreams breathe life into men and can cage them in suffering. Men live and die by their dreams. But long after they have been abandoned they still smolder deep in men's hearts. Some see nothing more than life and death. They are dead, for they have no dreams."
"In this world, some people born are like keys that move the world and exist having no connection to the social hierarchy established by man."
"It is my perception, that a true friend never relies on another's dream. A person with the potential to be my true friend, must be able to find his reason for life without my help. And, he would have to put his heart and soul into protecting his dream. He would never hesitate to fight for his dream, even against me. For me, a true friend is one who stands equal on those terms."
Among thousands of comrades and ten thousand enemies, only you... only you made me forget everything that I wanted.
"I'd dream, that on nights of the full moon, I'd become a small child and find myself embraced with a nostalgic warmth... But... When I wake from the dream... All that remains is a vague sense of longing...
And that, too, soon fades away - along with a single tear, like morning dew."
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i'm taking the jlpt this sunday and had a stress dream last night abt it bc it sort of snuck up on me and now it's kind of a question of how much my actual japanese abilities will carry me (versus if i should've been cramming on flashcards this past month) but the listening portion is far simpler conversation than my coworkers and i have so. i think that maybe instead of "damn i should've been studying japanese" my perspective should just be "i speak japanese"
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Getting a good hit of indica that’s a little stronger than vapes I had last time after I ran out of my indica is Hallelujah Praise The LORD and that kid with ADHD
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Housekeeping
I was intending to eventually come back to this account, but it's been 3 years and I don't feel any more inclined to return to tumblr.
I guess this is an official memo to say that this blog is dead, it will not be revisited, and nothing more will be posted.
If by some happenstance people still remember me/want to see my art (I'm making bits and pieces once in a while, less fandom, more original and ethnographic), you can find me on instagram at zosiagabriela. If we were mutuals, you can ask for steam/discord/reddit (you can message on here but I'm more likely to see it on ig).
Hope everybody is doing well and enjoying baldur's gate💖
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didn't get cast in ensemble. they did cast a girl at callbacks I literally taught the harmony to though. fucked up
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revisiting Fallout 4 cause its been a hot minute but man. Does anyone else think the Commonwealth should’ve been a lot more dangerous to match the stakes the game kept trying to raise.
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Poll about creating characters for a game really has me thinking about my methods because while I don't usually situate a character in the world/create a full backstory beforehand I feel like I need such a strong sense of who a character is, how they behave, and at least the skeleton of why they behave like that that I usually get bored and feel like I'm playing some flat nothing when I don't have that. I guess that isn't the same as having a fully rigid concept, especially since I'm happy to change things radically in conversation with a game when it's going well, but it's still enough of a distinct Guy Who Already Exists In My Brain I couldn't call it a loose concept. And usually when things go well for my looser concept characters and I develop them during a playthrough I just hit a point partway through where it's like... cool! I have completed the concept for this character now, I can stop playing and relocate them to a Real Story. They almost never feel like they fit right until they're in something where they're starting from that state, haha. I'm like this with tabletop stuff as well. I'm not always the ten page backstory guy but if I'm not at least coming in with some needlessly complex portrait of personality the character is not going to stick for more than a oneshot. Just doesn't interest me to play! I don't feel like I'm seeing through their eyes yet. Can't get in the right zone mentally. I think that's what it's really about for me- a loose concept is rarely immersive, and without that immersion I just struggle to feel like the actions are coming from the character instead of me and come together into a cohesive story about the character (rather than one about me pushing buttons).
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nano day nineteen
words today: 3047
words total: 42967
more good progress today! realized how hard it is to write a conversation between two people who do not speak the other's language! usually whenever i write firefly talking to people its either in her pov (she tends to understand others better than they understand her) or its like, eda, king, or luzmari. eda who is soul-bound to firefly. king who can See Dust and thus lowkey read minds to an extent. and luzmari who is. well she doesnt have any special power shes just lived w firefly for long enough to understand.
needless to say the collector is Not good at owlspeak. they will be one day! but that day is not today.
its always so fun when the characters sort of run away from you. king and the collector weren't going to start fighting until the last chapter--but they certainly disagreed! so now the fight's started sooner, which is good overall, i think--i've still got the big whammy saved up for that last chapter, and they've spent the entire story drifting apart. its a good way to kick off the final third of this fic.
my favorite part of what i wrote today:
“Quite frankly,” King says, and he shrugs them off, “I don’t even think you understand that you’ve doomed the entire Isles.”
He recoils, and his head stings as though King clawed him, but there’s no wounds he can see. Still he doesn’t remember how to breathe. The world is blurry at the edges. King’s stardust is so far away and thundering.
“I—” Their words catch in their throat. “What did I do?”
“You aided Belos!” He looks so much like his dad. With the snarl ‘n the anger ‘n the way he towers over them, ‘n they cower back further, wanna bare their teeth but it’s all blunt so what good would that do? “Without you, Belos’s would’ve never been able to start the coven system! To cut down all the palistrom trees! You talk a whole lot about missing how things were when you’re the reason they aren’t like that anymore!”
“He said he would free me!”
“Oh,” King snaps, and his eyes cut right to the center of them, piercing, “and you believed him?”
“I don’t.” Everything is going fuzzy. They keep blinking to keep how many Kings there are straight. “I was trapped. I didn’t wanna be trapped! I didn’t do anything to be trapped! I just—I just, I was good good good and your stupid dad trapped me! So it’s his fault!”
“Somehow,” King says, “I really doubt you did nothing.”
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if I were an animagus, especially a cat, I would literally never turn back, would not even consider it.
like, I'm just gonna walk into someone's house and get adopted for life, goodbye 🚶♂️🐈⬛️
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first year of college down let’s go
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