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vanishingcherry · 1 year

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Hi! I see the requests are open so can I get social media au for Ollie Bearman with camille pidoux as the y/n face claim? (I'll drop the detail of request and the face claim's intagram on the next one)

based on this request. hii! thank you sooo much for your request, i absolutely loved the details and tried to make it as perfect as possible.

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(EXTRA)ORDINARY LOVE

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olliebearman date nights with my love

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olliefan1 this is like a hair appreciation post

formula1forever its the way we dont even know what she looks like but everyone is already simping over her

↳ olliefan2 its her vibes... theyre captivatingly powerful

olliefan3 I JUST WANNA KNOW HER NAME PLS OLLIE

olliesmysterygf we love someone who loves books

For as long as you could remember, Ollie Bearman had been in your life. Your parents claimed that the two of you met in 4th grade, but you could swear you had known him much longer. It was as though your brain was engraved with images and stories from his childhood, his old picture-books being your main source of entertainment at his home.

The two of you were inseparable growing up. Everyone gave up at some point, your parents, teachers and even friends. You came as a set, and that didn't change when you started dating.

Admittedly, you had been hesitant at first. You loved him, there was no doubt of that. It was clear as day to the both of you as well as everyone else. He loved you too, more than he thought possible. But his career prospects meant he would be far away from home majority of the year. Quite simply, you were afraid he would forget about you one day, leaving you behind, heartbroken and alone. Even as friends you found it hard when he left, it felt like the other piece of you was no longer there.

However, in classic Ollie fashion, he managed to convince you. Alongside a plethora of gifts and little notes, he made a promise to never do anything to hurt you or let you forget your worth. Till date he had kept that promise, not once giving you reason to worry.

The two of you were older now, no longer little kids running around in the backyard after school, but the intensity of your love was the same. Although you couldn't be with him in person all the time, you cherished the moments you could. You went on dates all the time, simple and quiet ones, but they were incredible nonetheless.

Ollie would regularly take you to bookstores, feeding into your love of reading. He didn't read much himself, and was perfectly content sitting back and watching you pick out things to read, looking over the back cover before bringing them back for him to hold. He didn't mind, he'd do anything for you. You were perhaps one of the few people in his life who had never used him for his fame, never befriended him with the sole purpose of scoring passes to a race. It was why he had vowed to himself to never lose you, he understood how rare it was to find someone who cared as much as you did.

Another sign of Ollie being perfect was the fact that your cat absolutely adored him. The moment Ollie entered a room, your cat would forget about everything else entirely, although you understood why, you sometimes wished you could do the same as well.

You loved him, and he loved you. That was all you knew, and all you needed to know.

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yourusername a little bearman appreciation post (because no matter what, ill always love you)

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yourbff HIS HAIR IN THE SECOND PICTURE

↳ olliebearman ITS HELMET HAIR LEAVE ME ALONE

olliebearman thank you my love ❤️

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yourfriend you guys are so cute together!

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olliebearman so, so proud and so delighted to tell you that the love of my life got into cambridge! shes the genius out of the two of us, if you couldn't tell... i love you so much darling! ❤️

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olliefan4 CAMBRIDGE? DAMN RIGHT SHES A GENIUS

f2fan ollie is a genius too, he was smart enough to get the prettiest person ive ever seen

↳ olliefan5 yes bcs i want that pink sweater so bad

olliefan6 he brings her flowers that so sweet

↳ bearboy and the way the flowers match her outfit too like this man thought of everything

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olliebearman it seems you have found her... so i present to you the most wonderful person in the world- my girlfriend yn.

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olliefan7 not the emphasis on "my girlfriend" like that man knows were gonna try and steal her

yourusername thank you bebe

↳ olliebearman ❤️

↳ olliefan8 SHES COMMENTING ON HIS POSTS NOW

↳ olliefan9 yes cause we know who she is now

olliefan10 SHES SO PRETTY NO WAY

olliefan11 watch this account become a yn fanpage now bcs honestly i would do the same

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red-balloon12 · 7 months

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Throwing one of these so we don't big the writing thread with specifics.

FWIW I have found in my writing *waves at AO3* that starting with an incredibly simple and seemingly small plotline *really helps* it'll expand on its own.

'I'm going to rewrite X!' or 'Here are my 8 OCs to join the main cast!' are huge undertakings, and can quickly turn into a mental and emotional load.

Just as an example of what I mean. One of my stories started from the core: Road Trip.

Picked out two characters:Chloé &Marinette (chaos factor)

Okay, why would they be together?

Following Adrien. (Easy canon motive)

Why?

Gabriel(antagonist) is taking him and Lila on a second 'First Love' tour since the furst one failed (canon happening)

Needed Canon Divergence- Felix's plan failed, lovesick Marinette transformed back early(humour scene) so Gabe is going to unleash akumas across the globe on the trip to ruin Ladybug's rep.

Inciting event- Marinette overhears Lila(love rival) bragging about how she'll convince Gabriel to arrange a Marriage for herself and Adrien on the trip. Marinette panics, then plots. Reveals Lila's plan to Chloé causing the other to fly into indignant rage and call for her private jet to follow them. Mari gets to come along because she got the itinerary from Adrien earlier.

And 81k later hijinks, emotional trauma, healing, action et al just from just bouncing the characters off each other, almost no planning. All from 'road trip.'

This happens regularly 😂

My longest AU was in fact 'this was just gonna be a one shot to see what this rare pair might look like.'

Because of me being a Chloenette shipper (fanon version with MOST of season two in mind) I’d simply just abandon them following Adrien or simply get lost while trying to follow Adrien and them having hijinks in the place that they end up in and forgetting about him.

(As you can see I’m a firm believer in “Chloe and Marinette shouldn’t have to bond just because of Adrien and their mutual dislike for Lila (or any other girl that “threatens” their relationship with Adrien.)”

But with that being said, yeah I can see how one would get carried away with a prompt like this- Sooo much potential.

I wanted to start my own story but I haven’t gotten around to doing so YET (it has nothing to do with ML)

#answered asks #my first ask in a while #miraculous opinions #chloenette #Chloenette warning #ml criticism #writing #canon divergence #ml salt

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oc-cinematic-universe · 1 year

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Hey I'm about to go to sleep but PLEASE for the love of GOD tell me more about your strange little demon bug boy (affectionate) he's everything to me

He reminds me of a love-bug (those bugs that come around this time of year that are black with red heads that mate and die and everyone finds them incredibly annoying?) [I like them personally </3]

Also this poor gayboy is going THROUGH it I need to give it a hug and a kiss on the forehead please please please tell me everything btw I'm insane about your guy ok? Tysm and also I hope you filled your pill box, sleep good, drink water, and eat food. Gn man 👍

WAAA YOURE SO FUCKING SWEET IM GONNA CRY I love this piece of shit man sooo much. I didn't know love bugs were REAL but im storing this information in my brain youre so fucking correct

Here's a bunch of miscellaneous information about it that didn't end up in the giant 24 paragraph post:

- It's so fucking bad at video games bro. Its SO BAD at video games. It streams on twitch and it loves to speedrun stuff but its speedruns take like 8 hours. for games that normal people can get through in 1 hour. and its still so proud of itself every time it pb's

- I don't know his gender and I sure as fuck don't know his sexuality. He falls in love with every single person he meets without fail. I've been calling him pan but I do not fucking know if thats correct and at this point I think its funnier if I never know

- Amedeo wasn't actually all that hated by the other members of the gamer club before things got bad. Eden was willing to hang out with him if he asked, he just never did. Aiden genuinely enjoyed his company, before he. Yknow. Killed them. But even after that they at least think he's entertaining to fuck with so that's gotta count for something. People didn't... HATE him for the most part

- On that note, it and Eden's friendship FUCKS ME UP MAN, oh my god. When she finds it in the manors backyard she tackle hugs it before it can run. It thought she hated it, and she didn't. She just wanted it to come inside and eat something. It's such an important moment for it, it's something it'd never forget. So when months/years later, she comes to it, shaking, barely able to get the words out, telling it it was the only person she could think to come to and the only person who would understand what she'd done, the people who's lives she'd just ruined. Amedeo is ready to Kill for her. It tells her the same comforts she told it all that time ago. When it had ended up in the manor, it ended up falling asleep on the couch resting its head on Eden. When Eden comes to it, she ends up falling asleep resting her head on it. And that fucking kills me. They would die and kill for each other

- He actually has a very normal and loving relationship with his parents so if you thought all of his issues mustve been because of the way he was raised, surprise! He's Just Like This AHFSGDAFHSHD He still regularly calls his mom to tell her he loves her <3 She likes to watch his speedrun streams and call him to tell him he's doing a good job and she's so proud

#asks #in a manor of speaking #amedeo #eden #THANKS FOR THE REMINDER ON THE PILLBOX i started filling it as soon as i saw the ask

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bibookmerm · 11 months

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getting my shit together

Ok, first of all: there are several skills I lack that it is becoming apparent I need to learn/improve.

One is driving. My wife and I are looking to get our first car. She needs it for work. She drives. Our roommate drives. But I dont. And I was just talking to my friend about how we can never get our friends together bc most of us dont drive/dont have cars. We need more gays that can drive, so I have to step up, lol.

Two. I need to feel confident hand sewing. It's not that I "cant". I know how to thread a needle and do a backstitch, running stitch, whip stitch. But I am very slow bc I havent had much practice, so it annoys me, so I avoid it. I have a dozen little fixes I could do and I should do those. People who sew regularly can do these things in like 10 seconds. I wanna be them.

Three. I need to learn to swallow pills BEFORE my top surgery in March so I dont have to be like "do u have liquid painkiller 🥺" because what if they're like "no". And also, needing an alternative is pricey. (this is something where I believe my disability comes in. Coordinating my muscles in new ways OR more quickly than usual is difficult for me. Like of course I swallow food every day, but normally I take my time chewing first, so to place something in my mouth and quickly swallow it feels daunting. That's the best way I can explain it. Just feels like a different ball game lol. My pcp gave me a trick to try, so I will try it.)

The other thing is, I am at a level of stress I personally find untenable. I am not wading through any major personal tragedy at this moment, so honestly I feel kinda like. Damn. Why is ~everything so hard~? Am I being dramatic? What happens when shit truly hits the fan if I am already unstable now? Well, I clearly need to put some measures in place now so I can tread water.

Such as:

Establishing a baseline level of cleanliness/clutter for the apartment. Aim for everything to be above that baseline most of the time, but understand sometimes it will sink to that level when something else must be prioritized above household chores for a minute. In its current state, I'm embarrassed to invite anyone over here. I want the baseline to be just, what I could deal with someone seeing. If I don't feel comfy having someone sit at my kitchen table or couch for an afternoon, it's too messy. I need to specifically write down the "acceptable level", get it up to that, and keep it there/above. This could also be a conversation with my wife and roommate to be clear on what everyone defines as acceptable and all work to keep it at whoever's ideal is highest.

Buying some wardrobe staples. My clothes not fitting is uncomfortable. I expect to gain more weight as I stay on T, sooo I should get some stuff that's a little loose now?

I've noticed I need more gender validation. I get misgendered constantly, working two public facing jobs, and I've started thinking some self depreciating thoughts. Maybe I need to work harder to counter these things within myself and not seek it from others, but yeah, this is one reason I need therapy. I had such a positive self image like a year ago and I'm losing it :/

Challenge my social anxiety. Another thing it's a good idea to have a therapist's guidance in. I feel so overwhelmed that I forget quality time with friends helps me recharge! I need to balance draining peopleing with healthy peopleing.

There's more, but if I can do this much, the stressors I cannot change should be easier to bear. Now to actually go set all the things in motion.

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ban-joey · 1 year

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list of star wars posts that irritated me. one was along the lines of “why are people so happy to not see jedi in something? they’re what make star wars unique from other scifi/fantasy” 1) wrong 2) let me explain

for one thing the need to have something so deeply entrenched in Multiple Genres be “unique” is very funny to me, because it’s not. og star wars is essentially an arthurian tale in space. add to that the fact that GL’s inspiration came directly from a bazillion ww1/2 films and you’re arguing a point about standing out that.. doesn’t really exist. sure the jedi are a “unique faction” to see in science fiction, but they’re also a religious order of space monks. even somebody who has never seen anything related to star wars could get some idea of the jedi based off that combination of words.

second, why do you like the jedi so goddamn much? this is the thing that always frustrates me. there’s a difference between force-users and the capital J Jedi. you went from religious space monks in the original trilogy, to a fascinating shift in perspective in the prequels/clone wars in which they are religious space cops serving an increasingly fascist government when they’re supposedly not meant to get involved in government affairs unless it’s basically a human rights issue, but ultimately end up committing sooo many violations of that sort. they’re horrendous to the clones, to droids, regularly treating both groups the same--disposable and not-people. they’re not all-knowing and have absolutely no idea what’s coming for them when order 66 comes around, despite the unsubtle clues. hot take, obi-wan IS partially at fault for what ultimately happens to anakin--because he continued to uphold a dying system and ideology that actively drove people to the dark side and refused to connect on any emotional level with anyone because of the jedi code.

i love the jedi for their flaws, and star wars is ultimately at its most interesting fantastical point when it criticizes them, as in TLJ. burning the codex was poignant and cool as hell. but limiting star wars to just the jedi is just dull. there’s so much more going on there, politically, sociologically, economically, etc. you get the bare minimum information about that packaged in bad writing in the prequels and the clone wars cartoon, little itty bitty morsels of finally fleshing this strange galaxy out in a way that makes some sort of disjointed sense. andor takes the whole thing at face-value and decides to turn it into something legible and personal in a way star wars hasn’t since the originals. it proves that you don’t need the jedi to make star wars cool, and yet every time there’s a red herring with luthen, I lose my fucking mind, because I love the idea of finally getting an INTERESTING jedi. but i would honestly prefer it if he wasn’t.

star wars is cool and interesting because of all that (politics & logistics), having cool big huge ships and caring about that design in terms of speed and what those ships are used for (i.e. tie fighters were created to patrol planets, not chase after X-wings, which is why they eat it a lot), time scales that make no fucking sense apart from trying really hard to make space smaller than it is, unique sound design, differing designs of people and planets that star trek couldn’t come anywhere close to, and a lot more.

also, just because this is the most obvious point. the jedi are fucking dead in andor. yeah yeah certain people escaped. they’re in hiding. do you remember how obi wan went to be a hermit for like 20 years. yall just fucking forget about order 66 as soon as you complain about there not being jedi in something. do you understand the scale of that situation. do you understand how many people were killed. fake fan

#i am just ranting a little bit. i am not a fan of the jedi.#as like an order. force users are interesting kind of but. fuck the jedi fr

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emptylittlebug · 1 year

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3/2/23

I guess I kinda ghosted this account yet again, huh.

I’ve got to get better at being consistent again.

I’ve accepted a change of position at my job. I’m going to be working 100% remotely soon. I train for the position next week!

I’ve purchased a desk and some things for my “home office” aka my living room. My desk is PINK! 😍

I need to make sureeee to remember to take my adderal! I keep forgetting it a lot of mornings lately. I remember around 10-10:30 but by then it’s too late to take it because I won’t be able to fall asleep until midnight or later. I did remember to take it today :)

I have no clue what my weight is. I’ve been in such a depressed funk lately I can’t even be bothered to clean my kitchen floor enough to unbury the scale that’s under a mountain of clean clothes. I’ve also been eating like SHIT sooo who knows. I’ll be sure to update when I do.

The only thing I’ve had any motivation for lately is spending money (🙄 fucking bipolar mania..), crocheting (but not finishing a damn thing.. thanks adhd!), and rearranging my house… which is also not getting done because there’s so much else preventing me to getting it done, like cleaning my bedroom and decluttering and who knows what else.

Well maybe this is why I’ve been avoiding posting here… it feels like nothing but a depressing crybaby rant-ish post… which is 1000% not my intention.

Please take care of yourselves 💖

I plan to be back to regularly scheduled posting sometime soon.

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nostaren · 3 years

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Smno inumaki telling darling to conceive ,Unconsciously becoming scared around yandere inumaki and covering your ears in Cursed energy , trying to talk about being scared of inumaki with yuta I'm the anon that asked in that blog about yandere inumaki forget I'm glad you liked it ! He lives in my head rent free it's just his CT fits perfectly!

THAT’S YOU??? hi omg welcome little forget anon, you found your way into my blog with your ideas!! (๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ have you seen that I’m in the process of making that forget thingy into a short doujinshi? I’m sooo excited for it aaaaaaa

continuation to this thirst

I switched this up quite a bit because what you described was very similar to this by @/yuutasprincess and I think it’d be disrespectful of me to write something that is similar to another author’s work

He’d already taken you in your sleep once. What difference did a second time make?

Two times turned into three, three to four and so on.

A month after the first instance of ejaculating inside of you, Inumaki started to wonder why his cum hadn’t taken root yet. At first it was a curiosity, but as time went on he found himself wanting, needing, your belly to swell with his child, to show others he was the one that had fucked one into you.

The Inumaki clan was relatively small in numbers, of which even less had inherited the cursed speech technique.

He was doing you a favor. You didn’t belong to any sorcerer family, and as such it would be a privilege to become part of his by bringing one of theirs into this world.

The sooner that happened, the better. Life as a sorcerer was a dangerous one and you could never be too sure when your time of demise would come.

So why weren’t you pregnant yet?

He made sure to look through every drawer, nook and cranny in your room with no success of finding any sort of contraception.

It didn’t take long for you to realize that the excessive dampness you regularly woke up to wasn’t normal in the least—not even possible for your body to produce, the substance being too thick to be urine and too milky to be your ejaculation fluids.

The revelation of what it actually was disgusted you, but more so it was terrifying, because when thinking hard enough you could just barely make out memories of a familiar form moving above you in the dark before falling into deep sleep.

Who did you know that could make you lose consciousness with the whisper of a word?

The answer was glaringly obvious, as much as you willed it to be false.

In your time of anguish and disbelief, you found yourself in the arms of sweet Yuuta who comfortably rubbed your back, asking if you had at least been protected from the continuous intrusions to your body.

As you sobbed into his chest, it was revealed that you had an IUD, but that didn’t matter because you wanted it to stop.

He’d deliver the news to Inumaki.

That’s what friends did. Right?

#tw noncon #tw dubcon #no smut this time but it’s heavily implied #toge and yuuta are partners in crime and no one can tell me otherwise #ren thirsts

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ecto-american · 2 years

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4 and 5 for the ask game!!!

Fanfic ask game

4. Are there any writers that inspire you?

There are sooo many that inspire me. If you wrote a thing that I liked, you basically inspired me. But some specific people for specific reasons:

@darthfrodophantom was like the first author I ever personally read that had like deep ideas and headcanons and interpretation of canon. They had a lot of great ideas, and it was one of those that encouraged me to think deeper about what potential moments in canon had. I also remember essentially ripping off some moments of their stories as a kid (sorry!) because I just thought those moments were SO cool and interesting, and I wanted to explore those concepts myself.

@currentlylurking because we had just talked a lot, they were one of the few people I talked to semi regularly in earlier phandom times. For those who don’t know, I was mostly a phandom hermit who kept to myself until almost 2019, didn’t message or talk much to others (in part due to being shy, another part due to bullying, but mostly just the autism making me unsure of how to really approach anybody), and they were another person who had great ideas and concepts.

@kinglazrus because the quality of writing is SO good. Very distinctive writing style with a lot of just perfect tones and well written moments. One of those people that I’m convinced can write even the eyerollingly dumb prompts into something really moving and special that people won’t forget. Just has such a way of leaving a huge impact even if only using a small handful of words.

@sailor-toni because she’s just a really good editor. I’ve only read a handful of her stuff but as an editor, I’ve always seen her give really good, constructive, thoughtful and solid feedback and editing. Always seems to have really good resources or tips for anything ranging from being stuck to obscure facts needed. It’s really inspiring and cool to see somebody always so willing to put their whole heart into editing.

@ghostgothgeek is a very great motivator and is really good at dissecting women characters. As in, very good at giving life to women characters that aren’t Valerie and giving them a really good story. I feel like the phandom has a lot of issues related to sexism and not focusing much on women characters outside of Valerie, but I’ve seen a lot of it and double standards being called out by her.

@wastefulreverie give me your fucking ability to not only post a lot of content, but a lot of really good content that’s well written and has a lot of beautiful charm to it. Another person with a really unique style and great ideas.

5. What’s the fic you’re most proud of?

Definitely Broken Ectoplasm. It feels the most well thought out. I feel really proud that I was able to, in my opinion, provide a very realistic situation where Danny would be exposed to his parents (as I don’t believe Danny would really be opening to voluntarily tell them) and having Jack and Maddie experience realistic human emotions about this reveal, it not leaning into immediate unwavering acceptance but also not dissection rejection. They’re scared and confused and have no answers to the big questions and concerns they have, like “is Danny evil? Did he really do all those terrible things?” and “is this all my fault?”, but they ultimately love Danny more than anything and have guilt for how they treated him.

#asks #ask nick

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thatmessyacademic · 3 years

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heyaaa! i'm alzz :)) not so new as i've been lurking around the corners of the studyblr community for quite some time now. but is new to blogging so here's my introoo!

> smthn abt me

she/her

asian; fil

closeted gay (no one i know knows tumblr sooo)

a weird mix of introvert and extrovert (ambiv)

just finished grade 12 (animation) and is waiting to be admitted to sum college (business/hospitality mgmt program)

will be using this brief time before back-to-school szn to learn about the track i should've chosen during my senior high (abm for business) its a long story frenz, i will be sharing a diff post about that soon c;

interests: reading. harry potter. mcu. the 1975. indie opms. sports. women. some men. tchaikovsky. dead poets society. hermione granger.

> what's with the studyblr (and my goals)

to regain the motivation to study

to make studying a lifestyle because there's so much to learn and so little time and its amazing how our minds are capable of grasping all these infos.

to meet people who share the same goals and struggles in academics as i dooo! becoz we're in this togetherr (and the pandemic made me forget how to socialize with people so send help pls)

have been wanting to study french since i was 12, and for a while i kind of did? (if watching french series and memorizing french songs is called studying, then yes, i did) but now i wanna be serious about this thing

aside from learning business, i am also a student of poetry (this is a hobby/interest of mine that i long to integrate into my daily tasks as i believe that writing is a muscle. it must be exercised regularly so that it may tone up and develop<33).

> what's in the blog

prolly my dark academia obsession (several topics in this culture)

daily tasks

my journey in poetry! i'm making this poetry account in IG (and Tumblr, soon). i'll be sharing the link and username in my future posts :)))

greek myths and their aesthetic

my journey in becoming a business student:))

> studyblrs that inspired me to do thisss

@caffeinatedstudies @studywithvi @studyfrance @amourstudies @lovelybluepanda @amystudying @luminous-studiess @stuhde @telesun @kei-i @studyblr @essayisms @studylustre

i think that's about it? sorry for the long intro, i'm a bit excited to meet y'allz:)) i'll be tracking the tag #gostudyalzz c: have a superb day, academics

#studyblr #studyspo #student #poets on tumblr #new study blog #french langblr #dark acadamia aesthetic #dark academia #slytherin #sapphic #study aesthetic #academia #studyblr intro post #studyblr introduction #gostudyalzz

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the-writers-bookshelf · 3 years

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Dear Aubrey, your article of creating a writing process is just sooo good and so helpful for me ❤

I'd say I'm the night owl 🦉 and yeah, I get all of your points to build a routine -> Writing goal? Planning regularly dates with yourself to write?! And, not to forget, how and especially when is your motivation flowing and your muse willing to work?

There's so much to consider! To give you a background and perhaps something to think about, there're obstacles in life you can't push away for a long time or solve, like a problem. To me it's a nursing case in my family which makes it impossible to make plans at all. You're running all day after your work, household, getting med visits done, stay in contact with friends/family, and you yourself - time to get some rest? To do some sports? Having pastime just for yourself? What a cracking joke!!! 🙈🙄 (*holding a sarcasm sign*)

But, I'm not willing to let the situation have full control over me, so I'm looking for little time spaces when I'm feeling in a good mood, I have experienced some weeks ago to write 10k words in 2 days, but yesterday only checked (*opens the laptop*) "yep, WIPs are still there...".... sometimes I write barefoot, sometimes I write one handed with ice cream in my free hand 😋 ... and on some days I'm lying face down on my bed praying for the world to stop turning sooo fast, this rollercoaster of life... phewww!

BUT: like Chris Martin sung "nobody said it was easy!" 😉

To me it's just sooo important to stick to people and motivators like you to keep going forward. To continue to write, doing it because it's fun, to create a new world - only my new world - in my mind, to improve in writing, recognizing my development and just to be freaking proud.

And that's what I finally realized: just 4 months ago I started writing, struggled a lot with expectations way too high and to find MY way, but when I check my AO3 stats now I see a word count of 26k words (only the four months until now) and I'll probably publish another 5-8k words till the end of the year 😳 and if that's not mind blowing enough: I'm non-native English speaking, so I'm writing in my second language.

This isn't meant to be fishing for compliments but as a huge "THANK YOU SOOO MUCH" to you for telling all the talents out there "You can do it! Go for it!"

Your motivation is for sure the fuel for so many writers out there to keep going 💪

Sorry, this got longer than intentionally planned, but I needed to get it off my chest. Sending you all the hugs my dear, have a wonderful Christmas time!!! 🎄🎁😘❤

Thank you so much for taking the time to write such a lovely message!!!

I think that's the key component of developing a sustainable writing process for each person - it won't look like "I set up a schedule to write daily/every other day and I will stick to it no matter what!"

Sometimes it's like what you're doing - carving out time here and there.

It's really nice to think of a daily writing schedule. I applaud writers who write daily regardless of what's going on in their lives.

For me, that is physically not possible. I burnout and I have nothing left to give to ANY factor of my life, let alone writing.

And sure, you can argue, "You should write whether you're tired or not!"

But at some point, you NEED to prioritize your well-being. That's part of what "sustainable" means.

And I LOVE what you said about surrounding yourself with people who are supportive and motivating! That's a topic I want to touch on in the future because it's SUPER important!!

By the way, 26k in four months is GREAT. And you JUST started writing!?!?! That's FANTASTIC! Keep up the phenomenal work!! (and don't forget to squeeze in a nap or two! ;)

#asks #13shadesofanni

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heyitmelexie · 4 years

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Movie Night

Frankie “Catfish” Morales x GN!Reader

Word count: 1704

Warnings: none

Rating: General audiences

A/N: Day 7 for @honeymandos December Writing Challenge! ❤️

Frankie is not married here and does not have a child – events take place before the events of Triple Frontier. Reader’s best friend is also gender neutral!

I know Hamilton and Disney+ were released in 2020, Triple Frontier in 2019. But I’m not mentioning any years here. I just wanted to use the musical for this prompt, sooo please don’t think too much about it.❤️

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Movie night with Frankie is something you look forward to every week.

The two of you just started dating about seven months ago and with your jobs consuming most of the weeks you didn’t see each other very often. That’s why you started carving out a little bit of time each Saturday night to have a movie night together.

Last week you spent it at your place, today you will have it at Frankie’s.

Those Saturday’s have become sacred nights to the both of you by now. Sometimes it was the only time you could see each other all week so you made sure to never miss it.

As you get in your car to drive to his house, your phone dings, signalling that you got a new message.

You unlock it and see it’s from Frankie, a smile forming on your lips upon reading his name.

Don’t forget the dips, love! Can’t have nachos without it 😱

You giggle at that and slightly roll your eyes.

I’m not the one who forgets half the things every time😁😉

As you drive to his place you recall the first time the two of you had met.

- around 7 months prior –

Ben Miller was the boyfriend of your best friend – now their husband. You had always gotten along with him really well, much to your friend’s delight and would visit them regularly.

One day he was throwing a little birthday barbecue party for your friend, inviting you and some of their other friends. Frankie was one of them.

You were the first one to arrive, because you had promised Ben to help prepare everything before they would come home from work. He had then revealed to you, while you were setting everything up, that he planned to propose that night and you had been super excited for them, knowing how much they love each other.

After a little while all the other friends started to arrive. Because Ben counted you as a close friend, he felt that it was in order to introduce you to his best friends which he knew from his time in the military.

You knew Will already, Ben’s older brother, who hugged you once he saw you. Santi and Tom both hugged you as well as Ben introduced you to them, both being extremely welcoming and immediately starting a casual conversation.

Frankie had arrived a little later as one of the last, feeling a little out of place as he saw a bunch of people he had never met before. But as soon as he spotted the boys, he relaxed a bit, making his way over to them to say hi.

Upon hearing his voice from right behind you, you jumped a little and then turned to look who it belonged to.

When Frankie laid his eyes on you his mind went completely blank. He thought he had somehow died and woke up in heaven, a literal angel standing right in front of him to welcome him into paradise.

Frankie never believed in love at first sight. Sure, he did love a few partners before, but it never held long, and it was never like this. He had never experienced this feeling before. One look at you and his heart burst into a million stars, butterflies erupting in his stomach, rendering him speechless.

As he stood there, frozen in place, mouth slightly agape and brain disconnected from the rest of his body, he didn’t hear you talking to him or the boys’ laughter until Santi slightly slapped his shoulder in a brotherly manner. He blinked and looked at him, mind still blank.

“You can’t just stand there staring at people, Fish, you’re scaring them away” he said, laughing and shaking his head.

You giggle slightly, thinking it was rather cute how he stared at you like a deer caught in headlights.

“I, uh… Sorry, I didn’t mean to, uhm… malfunction. It was rude of me to stare. I’m Frankie” he said, face as red as a beet, holding his hand out to you.

You flash him a bright smile, making his breath hitch and his heart almost hammer out of his chest. When he took your hand in his, he swore he could feel his skin tingle where you touched him, warmth spreading up his arm. And when you told him your name, when he finally heard your voice for the first time, he felt like he was about to combust.

In this exact moment he was thanking his past self that he decided to come to this party after debating for an hour whether he wanted to socialize tonight or not.

And you were secretly thankful that Benny had decided to invite his military best friends.

- present –

You now stand in front of Frankie’s door, arms full of snacks and use your foot to knock. Not even a minute later the door opens, revealing your boyfriend in black sweats, white shirt, red flannel and tousled hair that is sticking up into every direction.

He flashes you a big smile before taking some of the snacks out of your arms to carry them into the living room.

You shut the door behind you, slip out of your shoes and follow him. He had already prepared the drinks and even strung up some fairy lights. It looks so cosy and you can’t wait to just snuggle up against him and enjoy tonight.

Once you put the snacks into some bowls and poured yourself a glass of your preferable drink, you sit next to Frankie and snuggle right into him. Tonight is your turn to pick out a movie.

“So, what are we gonna watch tonight, amor?” he says, his arm wrapped around you.

You grin widely before starting the streaming service and looking for your choice of the night.

When you find it, you hear him groan slightly next to you, making you giggle before starting Hamilton.

“A musical?” He looks at you with his brows furrowed, slightly pouting.

You lean up and kiss his lips, making him hum in response.

“Don’t judge a book by its cover. Or a movie, in this case. Hamilton is amazing and I couldn’t wait to show it to you!”

Your visible excitement puts a smile on his lips and he gives in, shaking his head slightly before leaning back into the couch with you.

“Fine, fine. I’ll try not to be too big of a party pooper.”

Snuggled into his side, stuffing your face with popcorn, you silently mouth all the words to each song. Eyes wide in excitement, you stare at the tv and don’t notice Frankie constantly looking down at you, smiling at your giddiness. It fills him with warmth to see you so happy right there in his arms, watching this movie with him which obviously brings you so much joy.

Frankie isn’t really a fan of musicals, but for you he pulls himself together and really watches it.

To his surprise, he finds himself actually liking it and occasionally bobs his head to one or the other song. Which you notice and it makes you even happier than you have already been.

When the movie ends, you look at him expectantly, smiling so wide one could fear it would split your face in half.

He looks at you and laughs softly.

“You’re so adorable” he says, planting a kiss on your nose which you scrunch up in response.

“Sooooo… what do you think about it?”

“I have to say that it wasn’t as bad as I expected it to be” he says, earning himself a light jab to his side which makes him laugh.

He pulls you into his lap and wraps his arms around your waist. You then notice that he looks at you with a slightly more different expression.

“I’m tired of only seeing you once a week. Or just at lunch for like 20 minutes at most. I miss you all the time” he sighs, drawing little circles onto your hips with his thumbs.

“Yeah… me too” you cup his jaw with one hand and press a soft kiss to his lips.

“I want you to move in with me” he suddenly says. Your eyes widen at that and you freeze, trying to process what he had just asked you.

“I mean, I… you don’t have to, I’m not forcing you to do it. I just… I’d love to see you more, to have you around me. I’d love to see little things from you everywhere I go, your toothbrush next to mine, your mugs in my kitchen cupboard, your smell on my pillow. I want to fall asleep with you in my arms and wake up with you still there…” He feels a heat creeping up his neck and cheeks, looking to the side. He is nervous, you still hadn’t said a thing.

But then you take his face into both your hands and make him look at you, a fond smile playing on your lips.

“Frankie, there’s no way I’d ever say no to this” you whisper, and he releases a breath he didn’t know he was holding.

“Oh, thank god. I thought you were going to think me crazy” he says, scratching his chin slightly and chuckling.

You giggle at that before throwing a handful of popcorn at him.

He gasps, his awful, non-existing skill of acting coming through, making you laugh, the sound like music to his ears.

Before you can move away, he basically jumps at you, trapping you on the couch beneath him. And then he starts tickling you.

You laugh and squeal, trying to squirm out of his grip but he is too strong.

He doesn’t stop until you beg him to let go, barely able to bring out a single syllable, breathless from laughing this hard. Your heart hammers in your chest but you giggle up at him, glowing in the soft, orange light of the fairy lights.

A single popcorn falls out of his hair onto your forehead, making both of you laugh. He gently brushes it away and then leans down to softly rub his nose against yours before kissing you so tenderly that it takes your breath away.

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Lemme know what you think ❤️

@absurdthirst @softpedropascal @tangledlove27

#Frankie Morales #Frankie Morales x Reader #Triple Frontier #Pedro Pascal #Pedro Pascal characters

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kooala · 4 years

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once you realize - chapter one

USERNAME CHANGE!!

!!used to be kookie-off-his-kookie but now it’s kooala!!

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader, Taehyung x his girlfriend Mina

Tags: best friend! Jungkook, idol verse, friends to lovers!

Genre: fluff, mutual pining, basically the cutest falling in love story

Wordcount: 4.3k

Warnings: language

Parts: chapter one / chapter two / chapter three / chapter four / chapter five / chapter six / chapter seven

Summary: Seeing your friend regularly turned out to be difficult because of your colliding schedules, but seeing him again after a couple of months something about the way you thought about Jungkook seemed to have shifted. If only you wouldn’t have started getting close with someone else before you had realized how you felt about your best friend.

Masterlist

You knocked on the practice room door hesitantly before opening it an inch, peeking inside to see Jungkook and Jimin sitting on the floor, sharing snacks, and talking about something.

“Look who we have here.”, you announced your arrival, opening the door more to walk in and hug both of them in tightly because it had been months since you had seen each other. The conflicting schedules and the fact that they tried to keep male and female groups separated most of the time made it difficult for you to see each other.

“Oh my god, what are you doing here Y/N?” Jimin was the first one up on his feet and you hugged him in tight, realizing how much you had missed him as a friend over the past months.

“I figured I was going to come to say hi, it’s been forever.” Smiling you walk over to Jungkook who peeled himself off the floor, walking towards you to wrap you in a massive hug that embraced you completely. He seemed to have gotten broader, taller even.

“If I had known we would’ve made up some nice plans.”, he smiled over at you after letting you go from the hug and the three of you just smiled at each other, starting to talk and catch up as you follow them up to their rooms for chatting.

You had met BTS back in your days when you had just debuted with your group because social media and tv had picked up on the fact that Jungkook and you had similarities in the position of the group. Not only were both of you the Maknea’s back then, but both of you had the same sense of competition and mastering things with ease - most of the time.

This had resulted in a couple of collaborations and backstage videos together, where both your girl group and BTS had to compete, both Jungkook and yourself ending up fighting over the deciding points and differences that would make your team win. But as random as it had been to meet during competitive videos, all of you had gotten along well immediately and you had especially grown close with Jungkook, Jimin and Tae, who were all similar to your age. Jungkook never enjoyed the fact that you were a year older but you had always loved it because it annoyed him so much.

Those years seemed to be long gone now but the friendship had stood the test of time over the past couple of years and it had turned into a tradition to meet up with some of the idols from other groups who were around the same age, going for dinner and some drinks whenever possible. All of you had turned into a strong core group of friends.

“Honestly, we just talked about going out for a drink a couple of days ago and mentioned that we have to call you guys up before doing so!” Jimin announced as you entered Jungkook’s bedroom, all of you sitting down on the couch in the corner.

“I wish I could but there’s no time at the moment. I’m so happy we got tonight off, it was only because they canceled a broadcast last minute. Mina is with Taehyung already.” You say, wiggling your eyebrows excited because they all knew how close the two of them had gotten randomly out of the blue over the past couple of weeks.

“Of course she is.”, Jungkook laughed and sunk lower onto the couch, putting his feet up on the table.

“How did they end up talking again anyway? I never saw them hang out before.” Jimin pulled his legs in on the couch and it seemed like he was thinking hard about it.

“Oh wow there is an entire story behind all of it and I’m surprised Tae hasn’t told you.”, you start laughing. “You better go ask him sometime.”

Both of them looked like they were ready to tickle the answers out of you but they both seemed to have decided that being quiet might be the more gentlemen thing to do.

“What should we do? Should we get some drinks? Or watch a movie?” Jungkook asked after a while of catching up about each other’s schedules and Jimin got up after looking at his phone.

“I’m meeting up with Yoongi and Hoseok, I can’t. You can come if you want to?”, he asked, running his fingers through his hair while opening the room door.

“I can’t go out or be seen.”, you smile excusing and he nodded understanding.

“Okay, then I hope you’ll be here after we return from dinner to hang some more. See you guys.” Leaving the room he closed the door and there was a sudden moment of silence that made you chuckle and after looking over at Jungkook, you couldn’t help but notice that he definitely had been working out more. He seemed thinner, more toned, you could’ve sworn his jaw never stood out like that before.

“You really went all out, didn’t you..”, you mentioned, poking his firm chest once and he put both his hands over it a little shy and protective before he started chuckling, his ears turning slightly pink.

“What do you mean?”

“Oh you know very well what I mean don’t make me compliment you.”, you laugh and he got up with a smirk on his face because you hit the mark with your statement.

“So do you want to watch a movie? Game? Order food? We haven’t made a cover in a while.” He mentioned in thoughts as he walked across the room while making different offers, switching on a floor lamp and a couple of lights on the shelves before turning off the ceiling lamps, turning the room into a more dimmed and chilled mood.

Although you, like everyone else, had always thought of him to be very attractive, seeing him with his slightly longer, messy hair in a sweatshirt and sweats - you couldn’t help but wonder how things had changed under that sweatshirt...

“I don’t know, what are you up for? I’m too exhausted for gaming. I’d fuck it all up for you. Movie and food? ”, you ask and sit up to walk over, dropping on his bed to get your phone out and look through all the places to order from.

“Do you want fried chicken? Or ramen? I don’t know why but I’m really craving some soup right now.”, you chuckle and the bed dipped down by your waist when he dropped down on it next to you, looking at your phone screen as well to choose one of the options.

“I’m always for fried chicken? Totally your call. I’m good with anything.” He sat up more, leaning against the headrest as he pulled two remotes from his nightstand to let down a massive white screen on the opposite wall to project movies on.

“Oh my god since when do you have that?” You sat up, crossing your legs to watch the screen roll down slowly, all amazed by the size and quality of it.

“To impress hundreds of innocent girls coming in here.”, he chuckled and you rolled your eyes, looking over to him because he was mocking your reaction a bit.

“Oh, yea because there are sooo many girls in here all the time. You’re lucky they like me and allowed me in after that stupid no people in dorms rule.”, you chuckle and he shrugged.

“I have a lot more freedom now than I used to. Which is also why you’re here - because I’m a biiig boy now.”, he laughed and you couldn’t help but agree with his statement. They hadn’t even flinched when you announced your arrival to the security team, letting you through without any issues.

“Crazy how much things have changed, isn’t it? I mean obviously things are going amazing for all seven of you but also little things. You’re not the Maknea anymore and all of that, crazy to think that. I mean in this setting right now you are, but who’s really keeping a record, you know?” You smirk while teasing him, getting a little lost in your thoughts, watching him look through the movies to pick from, and eventually turn your attention back to ordering food on your phone, handing it to him then so he could pick some things for himself. “You enjoy this way too much.”, he mumbles quietly.

“Sometimes I forget how far we’ve all come, honestly. We met when both of us were... what, seventeen?”, he asked and smirked.

“Well I was, you were sixteen. Don’t try and brush your age under the carpet, I’ll forever be older than you. Wiser, prettier, more talented... ”, you smirked and he rolled his eyes.

“Want me to formally talk to you? Pour your drinks first?” Jungkook asked a bit cocky and you looked at him as if you had to think about it for a moment.

“You know what? That’d be super fucking great actually.”

Laughing at your cursing he shook his head, ordering his food quickly before dropping the topic, both of you rummaged through all the movie options available to you.

The food arrived and you still hadn’t picked a movie and eventually the both of you played rock paper scissors for the power choice, with you winning it meant you were going to pick one of the horror movies you enjoyed watching only with him. It was going to be a win-win situation.

“I usually hate eating in bed.”, he mumbled as he unfolded his fried chicken box, careful not to get crumbs on it. “We can put a blanket down so it doesn’t ruin your sheets?”

After getting up, putting down a blanket, and then opening the food while watching the movie, both of you were sitting down content and happy for a solid thirty minutes with comfortable silence only interrupted by the occasional ramen slurping from either of you, switching bowls and items between each other.

Namjoon had burst in at one point, looking surprised at your presence in the room and saying hi to chat a couple of minutes before leaving again. It had been so nice to relax and feel like a normal person in their twenties without any obligations, feeling trapped or like all eyes were on you. It was relaxing and you really appreciated Jungkook for being the lowkey, chill person he was.

“You know -”, he started talking after both of you had finished eating, lying down all comfortable and stuffed to the brim, ready to enjoy the second movie you had just started.

Lying on your side and hugging in the massive pillow a bit, you looked up to him snuggled all cozy and cute next to you in the pillow. “I kind of missed you, not going to lie. It has always been nice to have someone from outside the group that’s.. you know - not a dude.”, he chuckled and looked over smiling. You weren’t sure what kind of undertone was swinging in that comment so you just waited for him to elaborate.

“I don’t get to see loads of people because of schedules and all. I mean I don’t have to tell you, you know what it’s like but I’m just saying it’s nice we have kept in contact all this time. And it’s fun seeing each other grow up. I haven’t seen you in a long time and you’ve changed a lot since I last saw you.”, he chuckled and looked down at your face.

“I hope what you’re trying to say is I got more talented, funnier, prettier, more toned I’ve been working out you know I’m a muscle machine... ”, you joked, counting it off on your fingers and he laughed at your comment, putting one of his arms behind his head, looking back to the screen.

“You’ve always been super pretty, there was nothing to improve.”, he chuckled and you kept looking at him, waiting for another reaction but his gaze was focused on the tv, if purposely out of interest in the movie or simply to not look at you was unclear.

“Thank you..?”, you mumbled hesitantly and he chuckled at the sound of confusion in your voice, looking back down at you.

“You’re very welcome.” The smile on his face was so bright that all of a sudden you noticed the lack of distance between your body and his. Both of you weren’t close or intertwined on the bed, there was still a good amount of space between the both of you but the comment about how he had always thought of you as pretty, somehow made that distance seem significantly smaller.

“Rich coming from you, but - ok.”, you chuckle quietly and knew he understood immediately that this was supposed to be a compliment judging by his lack of response from being shy.

The movie had turned into a third one and you couldn’t help but doze off a couple of times, your mind heavy from all the stress you’ve been having over the past couple of months and being in the comfort of someone who made you feel great just the way you were, combined with the dimmed lights and a full belly, it hadn’t taken you long to fall asleep.

You felt him get up at one point and leave the room and you only woke up again as he laid back down next to you, putting a blanket over you quietly.

The next time you woke up, the movie screen was playing the end credits, music blasting through the speakers as you frowned, disoriented for a couple of seconds. Only then you realized Jungkook’s head was buried at the crook of your neck, his body leaned towards yours, him almost laying on his stomach next to you, cuddled into your side, breathing deep and slow as he was sleeping. His breath was tickling your neck which made you wake up in the first place and the sudden lack of proximity between both of you made your stomach twist in a surprisingly good way.

You pondered for a moment, thinking about if you should act like you were sleeping and just enjoying how warm his body was or if you should scoot out before he woke up so he wouldn’t feel uncomfortable or intrusive.

Selfishly, maybe a little dazed by the scent of his freshly washed clothes and hair lulling you in, you opted for closing your eyes and turning your body towards his more, enjoying having someone close which you hadn’t felt since joining the company all those years ago - not soft like this at least.

Through your almost completely closed eyes, you could see that he had woken up just now, lifting his head suddenly confused by the position both of you were sleeping in, just like you were a minute ago, and to your surprise, you could see him look at your face for a brief second longer, lingering, before laying back down on his stomach, scooting in an inch closer, making your bodies touch. Although it was in an innocent way of sleeping next to each other, you could feel the heat radiate from his body, making you tingle and feel like wanting to giggle. Taking it a step further, you reached your hand out, seemingly still sleeping, and wrapped it around his back, leaning in cuddly, resting your hand on his waist. You couldn’t help but feel like your arm was very heavy on his back and suddenly regretted your decision. What if this was something he didn’t even want? You could still always act like you were asleep but you hadn’t even thought about how he would feel about that move of yours. The urge to do it alone confused you completely since it was Jungkook you were lying next to - not just anyone. It was one of your closest friends, not your lover.

Hesitantly you stretch your arm, acting as if you were just waking up, pulling it back in onto your chest slowly and start blinking. You were curious to see if he was going to play the asleep role a little longer or not, curious to see what happened now that you had done a little more than what friends would’ve done in their sleep.

Opening your eyes, them genuinely feeling heavy from being in a daze and the dimmed light in the room, you tilt your head over to look at his face. To your surprise, his eyes were openly looking at yours, you could see his back rise and fall with every breath and he didn’t do anything except look at you, not saying a word.

His gaze made your cheeks feel hot and you knew that they were blushing. Cursing yourself for your weak reaction and being so obvious about the fact that you knew what happened, otherwise you wouldn’t have blushed, you felt like an idiot for openly making this feel awkward although it seemed like you were the only one feeling awkward in this situation.

Jungkook’s lips grew into a soft smile, looking at your features, slowly letting his gaze drift over your face before turning his head into the pillow, smiling shy to himself. You could see the corner of his mouths turned into a bright smile in his pillow and the affirmation of his behavior made your heart jump a little more than it already has

You weren’t sure what to do now since you hadn’t been in a situation like this in a while - in fact, you had never been in a situation like this at all which made you hope that Jungkook was going to do something now, anything to guide this weird situation in one of two directions: he was either going to confirm your suspicions, making it obvious that what just happened, didn’t happen on accident but because he wanted it to - or second, he was going to turn this around and make it feel comfortable and easy, putting it off as two friends just falling asleep and accidentally waking up almost in each other’s arms.

Either way - he had to make a move because you wouldn’t be able to do it for him.

As if reading your mind, he turned around to his side, facing you and stretched his arms and legs, yawning into the pillow, looking like a soft marshmallow, making your heartache a little bit with the urge to reach out and touch his cheek and lip softly.

There you were, just staring at him comfortably and when he noticed your gaze he gave you another bright smile, scrunching up his nose gently which gave you the deadly shot you had needed to know that there was no point of return for you now.

When you started speaking after the silence all you could get out was a whisper. “I should really go, I’m already going to be in a lot of trouble for coming back so late.”, you mumble into the pillow and his eyes examined your face carefully, looking for something he couldn’t quite put his finger on yet.

“Okay, let me drive you.”, he smiled and although it took both of you a couple of minutes, you managed to crawl out of the bed heavy-hearted. Taking a deep breath, stroking your hair back and hoping that you didn’t look like a complete mess, you went to grab your things, following Jungkook out the door to the hallway.

“Ah, good. I was just about to kick you out so you don’t get in trouble. Mina left earlier - can you believe they’re lovey-dovey all of a sudden? Still freaks me out. He’s so tiny... ”, Namjoon said laughing and you smiled at him.

“Yea happens to the best. People growing up, I bet they’re doing loads of dirty things together.”, you teased a little bit, seeing his almost ‘shocked parent’ expression. “And thank you. I fell asleep so that was on me. I’ll see you guys soon though. And you don’t have to drive me, I can take a cab.” You stirred the conversation away before Namjoon could get mad at you for being disrespectful and smiled at Jungkook instead, trying to sound as casual as possible and not wanting to cause any inconveniences since you were well aware he had to start early as well tomorrow.

“It’s no problem, really.”, he smiled and you knew that this was off for him judging by Namjoon’s confused look while Jungkook went to grab the keys and put on his shoes, along with his coat.

“Thanks.”, you smile at Jungkook, waiting by the door. “And thank you again. Good luck with the tour if I don’t see you before that.” Bowing your head a little bit towards Namjoon you walked over to the elevator with a smile on your lips, feeling nervous and excited for the car ride ahead.

“Dirty things together? You really want him to kick you out, don’t you.”, Jungkook laughed once the elevator doors closed and it started moving.

“I don’t know why I said that - I panicked.”, you admit chuckling and following him down to the parking garage you look at all the fancy cars standing there, none of the members ever able to drive them properly so all they did was appreciate the beauty when they walked past them.

“Such a waste.”, you mumble as you walk past Hoseok’s G-wagon with a sad expression on your face. It was a matt grey color, almost a green tone, looking exactly as extra and badass as you’d expect Hoseok to look in a car like that one.

“Wait till you see the luxury vehicle we’re going to have to take.” He pushed the button on the car key and the Hyundai Palisade’s lights started flashing.

“Honestly, this car still confuses me because the front is ugly and the back looks like a Range Rover.”, you admit and Jungkook chuckles as both of you get in the car.

“Sure you don’t want me to drive?” The little dig at his car crash back in the day made him squint his eyes in your direction, seemingly not amused.

“Do you want to walk?”, he retaliated and you lifted your hands in defense, putting your seatbelt on quietly. Sometimes it was hard not to tease him because truth be told, he was kind of sexy when he got a little mad and annoyed or disappointed.

“Can I at least be in charge of music?”

He drove out of the parking spot smoothly, making his way out of the garage. Jungkook was a good driver and you knew he was.

“God they’re already mad.”, you mumble looking at your phone but deciding to ignore trouble until you had to face it face to face in about twenty minutes, you closed the conversation to plug your phone in and got right to picking some good tunes.

One of your favorite things was hearing Jungkook sing in enclosed spaces like cars or small rooms because his voice seemed to fill out the entire space, going through your brain and tingling it in all the right spaces. His voice was everything and when both of you sang together and you got to perfectly harmonize because both of you were perfectionists, those were the moments that truly made you happy in your friendship.

Each of you recommending songs, both of you immediately got to singing along together, trying to find an even better one until silence dominated the car ride, making both of you enjoy the songs and just listening to them while driving through the still busy streets.

“Car rides always freak me out, what if someone sees us at the light.”, you chuckle and Jungkook shrugs smiling, resting his elbow on the car door, sliding his hand through the hair on his neck absent-minded, making you want to scream from excitement.

“They won’t. Don’t worry.” He smiled and started singing along to the song playing and only now you realized what kind of song had come up next in your playlist. ‘Outta my head’ by Khalid was one of your favorite songs at the moment but given the context of the earlier situation, it just seemed to hit a little different this time with both of you in the small car together and your brain going foggy only thinking about how Jungkook was snuggled in by your side earlier, smelling like heaven.

“I was thinking, maybe next time we can make food instead of order? You still want to show me how to make those Italian little balls we had last time.”, he stated as the red light turned green, driving off into the street of your apartment.

“You mean Gnocchi?”, you start laughing and he seemed a little embarrassed by your reaction. “They’re... I mean yeah, we can do that if you’d like.”, you chuckle smiling as he stops the car in front of your apartment.

“Perfect, I’ll text you then.” He put the car in park and smiled over.

“Thank you for driving me and distracting me tonight. I had a lot of fun. Even not having to sleep alone made me happy.”, you smiled at him, hoping he got the little nudge and without wasting too much time and being suspicious, you exited the car and smiled at him, the door still open.

“Anytime. I’m glad you came over and stayed. I’ll see you at MCountdown?” You nodded smiling. His eyes met yours with a sincere expression and with your cheeks blushing one last time, followed by a shy smile, you nodded and closed the door, waving to him one more time before walking towards your apartment building. When you looked over your shoulder, he was sitting in the car, waiting for you to get inside safely and when you gave him a last quick wave before opening the door, he smiled to himself knowing you were safe inside, starting the car again and disappearing into the night.

Whatever just happened was going to only be the beginning of what was about to come.

If you’ve managed to read this far, I’d be more than happy if you could like and share my first chapter if you enjoyed it! If you have any suggestions for improvement or any drabble requests - make sure to shoot me a message!

thank you so much for reading and I hope you’ll stay for the second chapter 💖

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Woo I'm so happy that we're able to request something from you!😍I love your writing sooo much and I have been following you for a long time and you improved a lot!^^ (definitely not saying that anything I read was bad♡You are awesome!!!) How do you think would the RFA react to their Lover or crush not paying much attention to them due to important work?I think that especially Jumins/Sevens and Jabeas reaction is super interesting since they drown themselves in work.. Thank you so much!

RFA with a MC who seeks for attention

Hey you!! Thank you a lot for saying these kind words to me! I am so happy that you kept staying by my side! Thank you! So, I hope you like the story! I gave my best….! I actually was/ I’m still unmotivated to even write something and this request made me want to really keep writing…Hahaha, my head has been odd lately...so, enjoy! BTW, I think that all members of the RFA are fucking working too much! Like, Jumin and Jaehee are two workaholics and Saeyoung is obsessed with whatever he does but also Zen. We shouldn’t forget that he is still trying to become bigger and more famous and also works hard so that his family finally acknowledges him. And even though Yoosung is our little baby he too wants to work hard for the Mc so...I just realized that I am dumb because I could have refreshed my mind while Quarantine Time, oof...Okay, I will stop talking now.

Ps.: The Layout is weird because I‘m not at home and instead working on my phone.

Jumin

You observed Jumin working on his desk.

He was stressing out himself and it worried you.

Your husband wasn’t sleeping a lot lately and he didn’t even eat.

His best friend was the caffeine and his enemy was the due date of his work.

Well, it was understandable that he was working so much.

Jaehee didn’t want to tell you either but someone made a big mistake and due to that Jumin now had to correct everything.

A work of more than two years in just three weeks.

Your husband was amazing but also crazy.

,,Jumin…’’ you mumbled.

No response.

,,Baby…?’’ you called him again.

You sighed as he seemed to not hear you.

You approached him and stroked his shoulders, down to his chest.

,,Husband?’’ you asked him again, looking at him.

,,Mh?’’ he asked you but of course he wasn’t listening.

,,I am...selfish...can’t you take a break for a few hours?’’ you asked him, laying your head down on his shoulder.

,,Sorry, my love, I really need to…’’ he stopped and instead kept on working.

Well, you wanted to understand him but he was hurting himself like that.

And so, with all the strength you had, you turned his chair, so that he would face you, and sat down on his lap.

,,Please, just a bit…’’ you begged and pressed his head against your chest, making him relax his whole body and lay down the pen.

Well, you enjoyed the feeling of his warmth even through Jumin fell asleep on you...

Zen

,,If I can do this very well, I can finally have my Debute!’’ he laughed excitedly and began to learn his lines.

Your eyes stayed glued on the silver-haired man who by now wasn’t even paying attention to you anymore.

And you as his manager knew that he needed to also have some rest.

You were taught a lot while you studied to become a manager and this was one of your tasks, to make sure that he would also take a good rest.

The work he would do would be much better that way anyway.

And as his girlfriend you thought that you also had the right to have a bit of his time.

You kept watching the situation for two days.

Hyun was smoking a double amount of cigarettes and was drinking also too much beer.

,,Hyun, could you please pay some attention to other stuff?’’ you asked him, a bit annoyed.

But just a bit.

,,Mhm,’’ he mumbled and kept learning his lines, moving his hands while reading.

,,Hyun!’’ you called a bit later.

,,Sorry,’’ he mumbled.

You just through that he would now pay some attention to you but you were just so wrong.

Your boyfriend got up and instead moved to another room, closing the door behind himself.

That’s when you became tired of it.

Even while you took your meals together he wasn’t paying any attention to you.

And that’s when you decided to play your joker.

,,Hyun, it’s okay if I meet someone later, right?’’ you asked him with a cute voice.

He just nodded, and so you took out your phone and acted as if you were speaking to someone,,Oppa! He said yes, it’s okay to meet my Ex...will you pick me up~?’’ you asked.

And now, finally, you had his whole attention.

,,Give me your phone! I never said yes for your EX!’’ he hissed angrily.

And so, a few minutes later, the both of you laid together on the couch, your body on his while he explained, why he was still trying so hard...

Yoosung

After seven years of marriage you knew Yoosung by your pockets.

You knew all his movements.

You knew his thoughts, worries, and secrets. Things he didn’t even know, you knew them all.

It was just natural that you knew that something at work was troubling him a lot.

Being a vet was hard and by now you realized that Yoosung had a big issue with letting go of some things.

He couldn’t bear goodbyes or deaths.

Especially whenever a dog died.

Your husband would be a total wreck afterward.

And so you guessed that also this time his overworking behavior had to do something with a dog.

He came home late, really late, and went off to work really early.

Someone else would think that he was cheating.

But he was just overworking himself.

,,Yoosung,’’ you whispered when he finally came home.

As if he was in trance he took off the shoes and walked straight in his room, working on some documents.

You walked behind him, calling him again and again.

,,The baby‘s gender!“ you spoke up, making him finally look at you.

Panic was in his eyes.

,,You missed the date. You weren’t by our side again.

Could you please just...give us some more attention?“ you asked him, almost tearing up.

,,Mc I-”

,,I understand that something is troubling you. Everyone has times like these...but you will become a Daddy soon...let’s go through there together,“ you cracked out.

And after a long hug, which helped the both of you, Yoosung finally confessed his problem at work and you finally told him the baby‘s sex...

Jaehee

At first your shop was going just alright.

Guests came regularly and just in the perfect amount.

But slowly the visitor went back and Jaehee was panicking.

She couldn’t understand why that happened.

What was the reason?

Sleepless nights approached her and the both of you didn‘t even have the time to speak to each other.

And even if you had the time, Jaehee was always working, checking over and over the win and if she already had to fill out a file for bankruptcy.

,,Jaehee Kang,“ you spoke up.

You just needed a bit more marketing.

You guys just needed money, someone just had to invest into you.

You already had a solution.

Jaehee just didn’t want to realize it.

,,Jaehee!“ you called her again.

,,Not now, Mc,“ she told you and seemed to write something down.

You decided to go back, take a pan and threw the heavy metallic gadget on the floor, making her shriek in panic.

,,Did you go crazy?“ she asked you shocked.

,,No! But you did! Take a break and talk to me! You need to overcome your feelings! You know better than anyone else that Jumin could help us.

We need a good marketing strategy! It’s hard on you but you seem to make it worse!

Get yourself together now, Jaehee and talk to me…“ you blasted.

The woman observed you until she put aside her stuff and agreed with you.

Saeyoung

You thought that after Saeran would be with the two of you, that Saeyoung would relax a bit.

He had his family back after all.

But you were wrong.

The better his brother became, the more he threw himself in work.

The lesser attention he paid to you.

The situation was becoming odd and you didn’t know what to do.

No matter how hard you tried, Saeyoung wasn’t giving you any attention.

That’s when you came up with the only way to stop him from working - hacking his gadgets.

Of course you couldn’t make it work yourself and so you asked Saeran for help.

It took him a while but he too noticed that Saeyoung was overworking himself.

And it seemed, that your solution was the only one.

Saeran took out his own laptop and began to hack in his brother’s.

,,FUCK!“ he yelled out and stamped into the room of his brother, finding the both of you.

For the first time in a while Saeyoung was paying attention to you, even through the both of you were fighting.

But not long afterwards he calmed down and began to calmly understand your point.

,,There‘s no need to worry...we’re here too and we can also support you...just give us the possibility to help you and don’t drown yourself in work…“ you patted his back.

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new 52 scarebat ship meme

(I had @heroes-etc give me more questions, but for scarebat this time, since we talk about it 24/7 but I never post about it. These are from this ship meme.)

4. Their favorite physical feature on each other?

There’s only one feature of Bruce’s appearance that’s scarier when he’s not wearing the batsuit, and that’s his creepy blue eyes. Especially the way Greg Capullo draws them where they’re sickly pale and have ridiculously constricted pupils.

So his eyes would definitely be in the running for Jonathan’s favorite feature, even if seeing them would require Bruce’s mask to be off, which is something New 52 Scarecrow explicitly avoids. Yes, that character trait only exists to justify why Batman’s identity is still secret after Scarecrow mind controls and subsequently institutionalizes him in “Gothtopia,” but I think it’s interesting so I’m going to pretend it’s not shoe-horned in there for meta reasons.

Actually having to see Bruce without the cowl on would definitely permanently break the illusion of Batman as a nightmarish inhuman bat demon, which I’m sure is a large part of the appeal for anyone as obsessed with fear as Jonathan Crane. But Bruce’s creepy eyes would be a serious consolation prize.

Bruce’s favorite of Jonathan’s physical features is rough, because Jonathan is famously not great re: physical features. I’m going to say his mouth, because a) that’s where the snark comes from, and b) the New 52 establishes that in one of their earlier encounters, Jonathan had sewn his own mouth shut, so it’s one of those things where a bad first impression turned positive later on leads to more fondness than if you’d made a good impression in the first place.

I just looked up the panel where he does it and I DID forget how incredibly gross his lips look here, which makes the fact that I have chosen it as Bruce’s feature seem really funny in retrospect. But I do think that seeing Jonathan’s mouth healed and unmutilated would be a reassuring reminder of how he’s stabilized since their first encounter, at least to the point that he isn’t hurting himself anymore. Also, Bruce buys him a lot of chapstick.

Bonus alternate answer that did not make it into the Google Doc:

9. How open are they with their feelings?

Bruce and Jonathan are both pretty competent deceivers in the New 52; Bruce always, Jonathan depending on how the writer is feeling (though you could argue that Bruce just has a stronger grip on reality, while Jonathan’s skill at obfuscation varies with how lucid he is).

...I was going to use Detective Comics #23.3 as an example of Jonathan being a good liar, but actually upon re-reading I’m realizing that only 1/4 rogues buy his attempt at manipulation. So maybe he’s considerably worse at hiding his intentions than he thinks he is. Regardless, he doesn’t ever attempt to disguise his obsession with Batman.

Whether or not he’d express romantic feelings or try to hide them is debatable. There’s no Masters of Fear equivalent in the New 52 establishing that he was ever mocked or punished for expressing romantic feelings for someone, though there is a flashback panel in his origin emphasizing that he was always lonely in this regard (and coincidentally doesn’t specify that his interest is in women, which is fun).

In Green Lanterns #17 he has some internal monologue about how fear is his romance and he needs Batman to feel it, but it is an INTERNAL monologue, so it’s not clear if this is something he would express to Bruce or keep to himself. Or if he’s even fully processed it himself, given how incredibly out of it he is in this comic. Most of his spoken lines are just kind of screaming incoherently. Bruce gets pretty snippy with a Green Lantern at the end of the issue for suggesting that Jonathan should be punished for his crimes as if he were in control of his actions.

Bruce is a similarly complicated answer, since for all his deceptions and shadowy mystery he pretty much wears his heart on his sleeve when it comes to romance. It’s just that his heart doesn’t express or process emotions the same way as anyone around him, which can create conflict. His (seriously underrated) love interest during Scarecrow’s origin arc, Natalya, spent most of her time dating him thinking that he didn’t care about her for this reason. He was trying to express that he loved her, but he mostly did so through complimenting her skills, which she never took as serious declarations of affection because he wasn’t being straightforward and she was insecure.

Jonathan does not himself seem like someone who would be especially secure in the idea of another person having romantic feelings towards him, so I assume that while Bruce might THINK he’s being open with any romantic feelings he develops, he would in reality just be really confusing.

13. How do they react to being away from each other?

I actually think that in general, Jonathan is one of the few people who would have no issue dealing with Bruce’s tendency to unexpectedly go AWOL for long periods of time, given that he himself has a tendency to fixate on his work to the exclusion of everything else.

But New 52 Jonathan specifically probably has pretty serious abandonment issues due to his father putting him in “the pit” and dying before he could take him out, meaning that Jonathan was waiting for his dad to come back for him for God knows how long, until Jonathan Sr.’s employers finally sent the police to investigate.

So while in general I think he wouldn’t be very clingy, any impression that Bruce had died or otherwise wasn’t coming back for him would probably be incredibly triggering. If Bruce could assuage this reaction by occasionally sending updates that at least indicated he was still alive, then I doubt Jonathan would have any problems with his absence.

(@heroes-etc: bruce sending like a checkmark emoji once a day. jonathan hears his phone ping, looks at the screen, and goes hm. good. and doesnt respond.)

Bruce meanwhile has no problem ditching literally any love interest at any time if something crime-related comes up, unless he’s considering quitting the cowl for them (as Joker probably accurately fears will happen with Catwoman in Prelude to the Wedding). But I don’t think he’d stop being Batman for Scarecrow, nor would Jonathan ever want him to — he’s interested in Batman, not necessarily Bruce Wayne.

But even though Bruce wouldn’t have an emotional problem with distance, I think he would get similarly paranoid if they went too long without contact, though for different reasons than Jonathan. Unlike some other villains (*cough* Joker and Riddler), Scarecrow has machinations that don’t require getting Batman’s attention, so if he decided to continue with his less legal experiments, he would not feel compelled to get Bruce involved. While the “World’s Greatest Detective” would probably not have an issue keeping an eye on Jonathan while he’s in Gotham, he’s considerably less capable of that in space. And Jonathan is definitely a rogue he would be obsessed with keeping an eye on, even if he reformed.

Batman & Robin Eternal established that Dick’s first supervillain conflict AND first mission leaving the country was chasing Scarecrow across the world for an entire summer, which is kind of insane considering how early it was in Batman’s career. Like, he did not have an army of children to watch Gotham for him while he was gone. He had one child, and he took that child WITH him. He left Gotham undefended for months, JUST to catch Scarecrow. Sooo that in of itself implies he wouldn’t be great at keeping his distance.

15. Does their view of themselves differ from their partner’s view?

Well, Jonathan occasionally sees Bruce as a giant bat demon, so yes.

Outside of that very obvious differing view, Jonathan in general sees himself and the rest of the rogue gallery as more vital to Batman’s identity than Bruce considers them; the extent to which he’s right varies depending on your interpretation of Bruce’s character, but it’s definitely not something Bruce would ever consciously think or say.

This is related to something that’s definitely a misconception of his, though, which is that the majority of Batman’s job revolves around supervillains like him. In Kings of Fear, when Jonathan blackmails Bruce into letting him come on patrol with him (which is a whole thing in of itself), he’s shocked at how boring most of Batman’s work is. Which probably goes along hand in hand with sometimes seeing Bruce as an almost mythologically inhuman figure.

In his defense, it’s not like he has a lot of context for what the minutiae of Batman’s job is like. He’s either fighting Batman, hiding from Batman, or imprisoned by Batman in Arkham, a place where everyone else also spends all their time fighting or hiding from Batman. Which would really skew your perspective.

Interestingly, Bruce and Jonathan are both people who pride themselves on being extremely self-aware. Both of them probably inaccurately. You can rant about how you have a perfect understanding of your troubled mental state all day long, but if you’re still dressing up like a monster at night to indulge the power fantasies you created as a traumatized child by scaring the hell out of people, there’s probably a level of self-realization you haven’t gotten to yet.

Bruce however is at least self-aware enough to regularly be able to analyze his way out of fear toxin induced hallucinations, which Jonathan is unable to do — when he’s not depicted as having become immune to his fear toxin due to overexposure (as he is in Green Lanterns #17), he can be defeated with the same formulas that Batman regularly manages to resist (like his honestly embarrassing breakdown in Nightwing #50).

Which ties into the difference between how he sees himself and how Bruce sees him: Jonathan obviously visualizes himself as a “master” of fear. He actually has the same internal monologue about fear and trauma that Bruce does in Batman: The Dark Knight #13: “Make it your own... run to what you fear... stare it in the eye... until it whimpers and backs down.” But Bruce doesn’t see Scarecrow as conquering his fear; he sees him as addicted to it, to the point of his own detriment.

Which is interesting, because Jonathan clearly sees his Scarecrow persona as a way to regain control after being victimized by his father’s fear experiments throughout his childhood. I guess Bruce’s perspective would be that Jonathan’s father instead got him addicted to fear as a child, so his attempts at agency as Scarecrow are just a) reliving his trauma over and over and b) compulsively inflicting his own trauma on others. There’s probably some truth to that, even if overall it’s probably an oversimplification (and coincidentally pretty much EXACTLY what Riddler argues Bruce is doing by “funding” Batman in Batman Annual #4, so there’s that).

20. Did either person change at all, to be with their partner?

The obvious answer here is yes, because Jonathan is a supervillain with no regard for human life while Bruce is a superhero who has dedicated his life to protecting people. So presumably one or both of them would have to make serious compromises to be together. HOWEVER. Scarecrow’s primary motivation is to research, understand and inflict fear, while Batman’s modus operandi is making his enemies afraid of him. So despite their contradiction in morals, they’re uniquely positioned to advance each other’s goals, were they to ever join forces.

Bruce never has a problem using fear toxin on Scarecrow, presumably partially out of an “eye for an eye” sense of poetic justice, but also because Batman is practical and it’s a nonlethal weapon that’s always available to him while fighting Scarecrow. If he could have fear toxin customized for his own use, it’s hard to imagine him being unwilling to use it. In Gothtopia he actually advocates for using what’s leftover from Crane’s new formula on all the inmates at Arkham, which seems about as insanely morally ambiguous as it gets. Arguably, putting fear toxin in his smoke bombs would be considerably less wrong than drugging mental patients out of their mind when they’re supposed to be receiving therapy (this is also the issue where he illegally releases Poison Ivy because she did him a favor, which is both morally questionable and relevant to the current topic).

Jonathan obviously already thinks Batman is the most interesting possible case study in fear; it’s why he keeps coming back to Bruce and Gotham despite being one of the more independent villains in Batman’s rogue gallery in the New 52. So though he would have to give up actively kidnapping people (which would be a huge sacrifice, I’m sure), teaming up with Bruce would give him unrestricted access to his favorite test subject. Unfortunately, it seems very possible that he would fall back to old tricks if he ever felt that he’d gotten everything he could out of a partnership with Bruce. Fortunately, that would probably take a VERY long time.

#scarebat #jonathan crane #scarecrow #bruce wayne #batman #ship meme #every day i think about the parallels between bruce and jonathan's childhoods that were set up by their new 52 origins #well. not every day #pretty goddamn regularly #i used to absolutely despise the new 52 scarecrow origin + characterization #but scarebat redeemed it for me

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