#it’s so hard to stay alive

[iceicewifey]

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#i am quite literally at my wits end #i have never felt this felt this fucking terrible and i cannot get it to go away #i don’t know what to do about it but i literally cannot take this anymore #i have felt like shit for months straight and it just keeps progressively getting worse #i can’t see a way out of this #i’ve felt so disconnected for so long #i wish i could just disappear. fall off the face of the earth never to be seen again #i’d be out of everybody’s hair then and nobody would have to worry about my big dumb ass bothring them #because i know that’s all i ever do #and i’m sorry #i’m sorry for being a shitty mutual #i’m sorry for taking so long to work on commissions too. it’s really annoying and i don’t have an excuse #all i ever do is cry anymore. and complain. #trust me i hate me too and i can’t blame you at all if you don’t like me #i’m an inconvenience. i know. #it’s so hard to stay alive #joining the 27 club was a joke but man i don’t think i can do this #i’m not gonna do anything ​i have people around me. i just needed to let this out.

[wr0wn]

When I wake up, I'm afraid

Somebody else might take my place

#leon kennedy #leon s kennedy #leon kennedy fanart #re2 leon #re4 leon #leon resident evil #art #digital illustration #illustration #fanart #resident evil 2 remake #resident evil 2 #resident evil 4 #resident evil #love him #love this song #my babygirl #trying so hard to stay alive #im proud of this one #artists on tumblr

[ttimecode]

these are so funny to me. i love this guy

#madcom #'he has a hard time staying alive' LET ME TAKE CARE OF HIM PLEASE #i stop him from running onto oncoming traffic (i need to test myself if its safe first) (vehicular manslaughter) #he likes dancing (stare) #we can 🥺 dance together 🥺🥺 (we are both going to fuck up) #i love him so much. my big guy 💙

[abitofboth]

no HANG ON the fact that original timeline loki sacrificed everything to save the universe against thanos. and this timeline’s loki saw himself die saving his brother, his universe, in that time theatre, and he did it again. he sacrificed everything again to save the multiverse.

in both timelines, he went from having nothing, to having everything- a love for thor, for asgard, the universe, and a love for mobius, for the tva, for the multiverse- and his love for for everything was the very reason he sacrificed himself and went straight back to nothing again.

Loki could never be a villain again. his heart is too big for that

#loki spoilers #do you see what I mean??!!!! #og timeline loki fought so hard to stay alive #he finally found a home with thor and with asgard #and the second that was put under threat he sacrificed himself trying to save everyone #tva timeline loki found a home with mobius and the tva #he admitted he never want to be alone again #that he couldn’t part from his friends. he didn’t want to #and he saw that all under threat. the entire multiverse #and he sacrificed everything #he let himself be completely alone again to protect the ones he loves #DYOU SEE WHAT I MEAANNNN!!!!! #loki #mcu #marvel #millie talks

[purplebehittindifferent]

Someone give him a cookie or something-

( hi 👋 @lilybug-02 hope you don’t mind I keep drawing your guys-:))

#he’s trying so hard #but no #his sibling refuses to stay alive #the chara timeline #oh hi Lily!! #I wanted to draw you guy :) #cause idk- I wanted to? #finished the update today so I wanted to do something fun #fanart #deltarune #dr #I swear every time I draw your charachters im like “OH SHE PUTS SO MUCH INTO THOS #so talented 💜💜💜

[quillkiller]

outtakes from my rita skeeter character study i did feverishly at 4am last night/this morning

#my delusional princess with a disorder #worlds worst person with narcissistic tendencies #only still alive out of sheer force of will and spite #mediocre journalist and writer with huge dreams and an ego the size of the universe #will sleep her way to the top #genuinely believe shes ’self made’ and ’rags to riches’ when in reality bella’s presence is giving her work and status and clout #she sleeps like 3h a night and wakes up with a cigarette hanging from her lips and face pressed against her notebooks #the type of person who lies to herself so often that shes gaslighting herself into believing it #’god ive been working so hard’ <— girl who stayed in bed all day staring at a notebook and chainsmoking #eventually gave up all together and decided to watch a kathrine hepburn film instead #but she genuinely believes no one is doing it like her……. #she doesnt ever cook only orders in #her flat is a mess and bordering on gross #she hasnt slept in her own bed in a year she always falls asleep at her desk or in her armchair #fails every single job interview and is off putting and intense #MY GIRL THE LOVE OF MY LIFE #rita skeeter

[writer-room]

Honestly Rayla is equally 100% ride or die for Callum too.

That's so true I almost mentioned it in that post. They're so ridiculously feral for each other it's hilarious to watch. Callum's the legitimate "we ride AND die together" whereas Rayla is the "I will ride and die FOR you" sort of deal yknow?

Could be literally any situation, no matter how dangerous, and she's already decided she will die here. Does it ensure Callum lives? Then batter-up buckeroo we're going in swords blazing! Everyone cheer and clap for her human or she'll blow this whole place up. Kinda person who says "even if you hate me I'd still lose everything if it meant you were okay". She thinks they're in a tragic love story where she's always at risk of losing him but that's okay as long as it keeps him safe and happy like y'know Viren parallels, she'd risk losing her very self for him over and over. Except Callum would wait until the end of the world itself, and even beyond, and she wouldn't even have to ask.

The difference between them, really, is that Rayla will die for Callum on any given day. Callum will kill for Rayla on any given day. Something something matching sets

#tdp #the dragon prince #asks #rayllum #tdp callum #tdp rayla #talk #someone in the tags of that post said 'raylas self loathing works hard but callums devotion works even harder' and they own that post now #its theirs. they summed it up beautifully. they own it #'yes hes cringe but hes MY cringefail loserboy!!!!! get your OWN' #everyone else would say the 'hes a 10 but--' except for rayla. shes just 'hes a 10. hes just a 10 striaght-up' #he is not. he is so not a 10 i love him but hes not a 10 shes just so ill for him #so insane that the girl who has issues abt not being or being wanted by anyone or not good enough for ppl to stay/want her #proceeds to find maybe the 1 guy in the entire world who will choose her no matter WHAT #and even when SHE was the one who left & he was pissed he was still 100% sticking by her. hes staying #oops she showed him affection. now hes stuck forever! shame. welp guess thats how it goes! #and its partially bc of that she'd die for him. she needs him to b okay even if shes not there. mix of that loathing like #'he could still b happy without me so i need to ensure he lives so he can STAY happy at my own detriment. he means more than me' #girl if you died he would literally crumple into dust. fold in like cardboard in the rain. lay face-down in the sand & just die there #same w callum hes like 'i can hurt myself over & over for her if shes alive. if the danger is dead then she can live longer. i will live bu #tear myself apart so long she is safe' #bestie. if you reach the point of no return she will sacrifice herself to get the old you back WHAT THEN

[creative-hanyou-girl]

You guys know on how InuYasha, the few times he talks about it, badmouths his father and says he doesn't care to avenge his death when he battles Ryukoltsei?

I wonder if InuYasha starts to regret his mindset towards his father once he himself becomes a father. Or at the very least, he starts to understand his father better. Especially if you want to go by the Movie 2 canon where part of Toga's death was from protecting InuYasha and his mom.

Just makes me wonder if InuYasha looks at Moroha or any of his other children and has the thought that it'd break his heart if any of his kids felt resentment towards him like he felt for his own father, especially when everything he ever does is to protect them. And I wonder if it makes InuYasha start to look at his father's memory differently, now that he's a parent himself and would do anything and everything to protect his kids, even if it meant dying and leaving them without a father.

Not that he'd go and try to get himself killed, as he wants to actually be alive so they don't have to grow up like he did, but you know he'd sacrifice himself if it meant his children could live, just like his father did for him (according to movie 2).

I don't know, I just wonder if InuYasha starts to ever regret the way he looked at his father's memory back when he was a teen once he becomes a father to Moroha and starts to understand his father's actions as a parent now that he himself is a parent. Ya know what I mean?

#not that Inuyasha will ever have to worry about missing his daughter's life because nothing bad ever happens to break any of them apart #and the same for any other potential children he and Kagome has #its just a hypothetical #Yashahime? i don't know her #all I know is Teenage InuYasha vs. Papayasha #and how differently the 2 must have thought on the same topics #like their father. and how InuYasha felt so bitter or angry at his dad for leaving him in the name of protecting him #while simultaneously secretly yearning and missing the opportunity to know him #versus Papayasha who looks at Moroha & any other potential kids with the overwhelming understanding that they are his whole world #and he'd do anything to protect them. including laying down his life if it came down to it #& how he realizes that his father felt the same way for him & in that way Inu starts to understand his father in ways he didn't before #but he also understands how hard it is to survive without a parent esp. as a hanyou & refuses to let himself get killed battle- #-leaving Moroha and his other kids at the mercy of struggling in the world without his protection #so he resolves himself that. while he is willing to die for his kids. he must work even harder to STAY ALIVE for them above all else #so that they never have to grow up without him and wonder if he even cared or why he wasn't with them #the way he did with his own father #inuyasha #inukag #moroha #moroha higurashi #inukag child #inukag baby #inukag family #inu no taisho #inuyasha family #inuyasha movie 2 #inuyasha headcanons #inuyasha theory #post canon

[goobiestar]

Hello everybody this is an emergency!!! Pls buy my commissions!!!!

Pls reblog if able to, im begging, this is the best I can do

So, as some of you know I am a 15 year old living in San Diego, California and prices here are impossible unless you are rich or have family to back you up. So, we don’t have that actually.

My mother quit her job awhile ago but recently got back into another job, she didn’t have a go-to job after quitting her other one which made us 6 weeks behind rent/payment, making us loose over 40k, I am not able to get a job yet so for now, i must do comms.

In just 6 days, we might loose cable, electricity, water, anything! If we dont do something, something has been eating our bank and we need over 4k and right now we have.. $1.36 in total in bank.

Hopefully, i might be able to get started on commissions, please if you’re able to, we might loose something in less than a week if we dont do anything, if you arent able to buy and rb—please just atleast try to reblog, i am panicking right now and I have no idea if this is an exaggeration or not, we NEED money!!

I am only using Venmo:

@Goobiestarstar

Please pm me here on tumblr or on discord (Goobiestar⛱#6188) if interested

(I am so sorry these prices are high, if able to i would really appreciate tipping)

#//important #PLEASE REBLOG!!! #KEEP IN MIND I AM VERY NEW TO COMMS.. SO PLEASE.. understand if i sound stressed or confused im not familiar with many things still #I WILL BE SLOW.. and i am really scared doing this because im goong head first to stay alive rn #will take paypal soon #but for now venmo #i dont think im gonna get any i think this is the end for now im sorry yall #i am just so tired and so scared its too hard to sleep #emergency commissions #art #PLEASE TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY #i am done acting like everything is okay everything is NOT okay rn #i am actually so scared rn its not fun seeing people out on the streets every day and i dont want to be with them #my dad usually exaggerates so…

[goldkirk]

it is SUCH a good day to no longer be in a cult 😭🌈✨💖

#GOD I LOVE FREEDOM #look at my clothes!!!! look at my cubbies with rainbow paint and dnd stuff and forbidden books in them! #I fucking love life!!!!!! #even though it’s hard! even though I’ve still got a lot of legal and financial problems! #I am so fucking grateful I’m alive and I stayed alive long enough for this! #I’ve got trauma and body issues and financial hell and a genetic disorder and family problems but MY LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER ALREADY #thank you to everyone who helped catch me when I had to jump #you’re all responsible for changing and saving my life #I love you and I hope I can pay it forward someday #personal #Katie has a face #also stream shiny happy people if you can #cult survivor #ex cult #ex homeschool #ex Catholic #cult escapee

[croissantconnoisseurdinosaur]

Cursed Soukoku x y/n fic idea

IDEA: Imagine a fic with Soukoku x afab y/n, and after giving birth to a baby that's half Chuuya, y/n and Chuuya both die tragically, leaving Dazai to raise a baby that's not biologically his, but made up of the two people he loved most in the world.

That's it.

I'm not writing it, but I did sure imagine it for a second.

Edit: I reblogged this with a little something extra added in, so click on that if you want to read the happy ending

#soukoku #soukoku x reader #soukoku fanfiction #bsd fanfic #fanfic ideas #if anybody likes this idea and decides to write a gut wrenching series of Dazai barely clinging onto life himself while needing (1/2) #to stay alive to raise this Chuuya-y/n baby go for it! Just tag me so I can read it! (2/2) #I bet there will be legal custody troubles for him at first too... #he's gonna struggle so hard

[rockbottomwithashovel]

I'm trying so fucking hard guys. Anyway, I highly recommend writing a "I can't die until..." list cause it's making me feel a little better. Here's mine (I've taken down the picture and rewrote it) (I might add more idk)

1. Can't die until I see Green Day live

2. Can't die until I've tried every Monster flavour

3. Can't die until I've hugged 2 of my besties (who live on the other side of the world)

4. Can't die until I can play an MCR song in full on guitar (preferably and a pierce the veil one, but idk I can ever do that lol)

5. Can't die until I've made out with a girl (I'm bi)

6. Can't die until I've dyed my hair

7. Can't die until I've had a full bowl of sugary cereal (maybe my biggest fear food, but one of my favourites too) in my pj's watching a cartoon like I did as a kid

8. Can't die until I've at least attempted uni (I didn't spend $400 just to die first)

9. Can't die until I've finished writing the book I've been planning since I was 14

10. Can't die until I know what's wrong with my body

11. Can't die until I've been to Italy, Japan, Korea, Spain, Greece, all of Britain (England can suck my dick, I'm counting it) and other countries

12. Can't die until I see Fall Out Boy live (2023 doesn't count cause of the Incident and they had to leave)

13. Can't die until after my and my twin's 21st birthday party, it's gonna be EPIC and I'm not ruining her year of planning

14. Can't die until I've finished my drawings

#rock rambles #delete later #Tw sui #Suicide prevention #Im trying so fucking hard to stay alive guys #If you are too i believe in you and you're not alone

[azaracyy]

today, cupimon prays for your happiness too.

#digimon #cupimon #oc:elise #made myself draw more personal oc art when not working on comms haha #tbh the motivation behind this was a moment of weakness. like. wanting people to tell you you have done well and everything will be ok #but i also want to heal others that way. it's complicated. the world only seems to get harsher and harsher #holy or angel type digis are good picks for such and cupimon are adorable #imma be realistic this is a pretty tough time to be alive. let's not even try to compare with past eras or the like #the truth is so many of us are struggling so friggin hard we don't even know it anymore bc it's become so routine to our life #but it's honestly? really twisted? if you think of it that way. we're so used to suffering in life. it's so sad. #can only hope things get better someway. somehow. may good news even a little arrives to each of yall this week #btw really sorry folks. after the ai fiasco this site has gotten itself into i'm gonna post even lower res version for my newer works jic #artists writers creatives. do stay safe. keep yourselves and your work safe as much as you can #do what you need to do regardless it matters to you or not ok! #png

[cienie-isengardu]

I remember scrolling MK reddit and a post basically asked why Bi-Han let Sareeena live and consensus was basically Bi-Han thinking with his lower head and feeling bad for her, though a lot of people leaned towards Bi-Han being horny unironically and sparing her because he thought she was pretty and because he didn't seem her a threat.

Like lmao, I get Bi-Han is not socialized that great and I can see where people are coming from but I'm hoping he's not that shallow lol.

Nah, Bi-Han is not that shallow. The man does not comment on women's beauty - or anyone’s for that matter, the way the clearly horny characters do, like Johnny, Erron or Kano. His intro dialogues also has no sexually creepy undertones, the way Kano and Mileena sometimes imply things. So I think it is safe to assume that Bi-Han in general is not a sexually driven type of person. 

It would help a lot if the game or tie-in material gives us more direct reasoning for his action, however even the provided basic knowledge allow us to see the main difference between Scorpion and Sareena and it’s not about gender (though that may play some secondary role), but the fact that Hanzo, presumably, wanted to kill Sub-Zero, not for rivalry over the Map but because he was a Lin Kuei, an sworn enemy of Shirai Ryu clan, while Sareena was doing just her duty - following Quan Chi’s orders and there was nothing personal about their fight. So in a sense, Bi-Han could feel some kinship with the woman even despite her attempt at stopping his effort to save Earthrealm and trying to kill him, because he understood well what it means to serve merciless masters, as he himself, no matter how praised, was ultimately just a tool in Grandmaster’s schemes. Sareena has never been anything other than another obstacle in his path to beat down Quan Chi and steal the amulet back, so I can see why murdering her could feel pointless as it didn't serve any real goal of his.

Hanzo on other hand was tipped by Quan Chi about Sub-Zero’s mission - something the sorcerer did not deny at all 

Quan Chi: Greetings, I see the ninja has been successful in retrieving my map... as I have forseen.  Sub-Zero: Let's get something straight... I am not a ninja. I am Lin Kuei. Scorpion was a ninja!  Quan Chi: Ah yes, your Japanese counterpart. It's unfortunate that you happened upon him in your battle with the pesky Shaolin monks.  Sub-Zero: Scorpion was tipped off... he knew I was breaking into that temple, and if he weren't there - there wouldn't have been a battle! You are responsible for this sorcerer!

and as the game shows, Scorpion managed to get inside the Shaolin Monks Temple before Lin Kuei. But instead of quietly stealing the man and getting the hell out of the place while his rival was busy fighting Shaolin Monks, Scorpion literally was introduced as a man who mocked and provoked Sub-Zero  (“You will fail. Hahahaha”) and challenged him to fight over the Map ("The map is mine Sub-Zero. Fight!").

When the both men met again in Netherrealm, Hanzo accused Bi-Han for killing him in cold blood to which Bi-Han responded he had no choice. 

Warrior: I am a dead man. But somehow you have retained your mortality, which would mean you are vulnerable to death.  Sub-Zero: Wait... I know your voice.  Scorpion: Yessss... I am Scorpion. You killed me in cold blood.  Sub-Zero: I had no choice. If I had not stolen that map I would be the dead one.

Maybe Sub-Zero did not trust Scorpion to not attack him again as he did not believe Shirai Ryu would respect the act of mercy. Maybe he figured out he must kill his sworn-enemy, because Lin Kuei tradition demanded that and if Grandmaster learned about Sub-Zero sparing Scorpion’s life, he would be severely punished. Whatever was the reason, Bi-Han took no pride in killing Shirai Ryu, as he did not boast about that. When returning to Lin Kuei Temple, Bi-Han greeted the leader with “Grandmaster, in honor of the Lin Kuei, I bring you this sacred Map of Elements.” but there was no as a bonus, I also killed the filthy Shirai Ryu dog. Instead, he was clearly angry at Quan Chi for creating the whole situation in the first place by hiring the second assassin of the enemy clan (“[Scorpion] knew I was breaking into that temple, and if he weren't there - there wouldn't have been a battle! You are responsible for this sorcerer!).

So to my understanding, killing Hanzo was dictated by unfavorable circumstances and long-termed enmity between Shirai Ryu and Lin Kuei clans that forced Bi-Han’s hand while Sareena was just a demoness doing her job the same way as he was doing his. Frankly, Fujin too was not killed by Bi-Han, nor I don’t think sources implied he attempted to murder any Gods of Elements or Shaolin Monks on purpose - otherwise I think Raiden would be much more angry at the Lin Kuei assassin. Or at least mentioned that, in similar fashion to intro dialogue in which Liu Kang said "The Shaolin's losses have left many angry" to past!Scorpion, who took part in murdering Shaolin Monks in MK11.

Also, when Sareena came to aid Bi-Han in his fight against Quan Chi, Sub-Zero was understandably surprised by demoness’ action:

Sub-Zero: Why did you help me?  Sareena: You are still mortal... that means you can escape the Netherealm.  Sub-Zero: There won't be anywhere to go if I don't get the amulet back.  Sareena: Take me with you... I've waited an eternity to escape.  Sub-Zero: You don't understand. I can't leave without the...

but there is literally zero implication he finds Sareena sexy or hot or trying to pull the card “I spared your life so you own me” to get a “reward” from her. I repeat, a relatively sexy/beautiful lady just asked Sub-Zero to take her with him and Bi-Han’s mind was solely on the mission - getting back the amulet before Shinnok destroys his realm. 

Dunno about you all, but that interaction for me doesn’t sound like Bi-Han was thinking with his dick or in any way ever was smitten by Sareena’s beauty; he was a man on a mission and there is a chance he may be just more merciful than people want to give him a credit for. 

The last one brings me back to MK9, in which I still think Bi-Han's head gesture was a voiceless support for Johnny to not kill Baraka, the same way Raiden did for Cyrax. He may not have any love for strangers, he may mock Hanzo, but I don't think he is the cold killer that takes pleasure in killing like some characters do.

#mortal kombat #my replies #bi han #sareena #sub zero #hanzo hasashi #scorpion #quan chi #hanzo was unlucky but the question is if bi han saved his life would he respect that? #while sareena there is a chance they had some mid-fight talk that gave bi han the sense it is not personal for her she is doing her job #so the threat was less than letting the sworn enemy to stay alive #i'm trying hard to remember if original bi han even made any comment about women's beauty and nope nothing comes to my mind right now

[melveres]

I am five seconds away from creating Help Wanted posters for the Devourer fight in the Catacombs DONE AND DUSTED NEVER AGAIN

#w101 #wizard101 #literally spent 4-5 hours doing it yesterday night with a friend and two random players #one of them was the hitter and the other a life wiz who Refused to heal #my fire wiz friend was the other hitter and i got delegated to being healer and boost dealer… despite being a storm w 5k health #also fun fact! this is one of those fights where you need to stay alive by the end of it for it to count as done <33 #we found out the hard way <33 #the storm hitter and the life wiz (who spammed bad juju and nothing else.) got their quests done and ditched us #so. if anyones a healer and Willing to go through that fight then that would be much appreciated #pretty sure its the last dungeon in the catacombs too… so close to being done w that questline QQ #we did our best it should of counteddd <//333 #matter of fact i will DRAW ur wizzy in full-colour if u r willing to help us get the quest done (fr this time) /srs #(​i am fr abt the art btw)

[fizzie-frog]

It's the middle of the night and I'm going to work tomorrow again. Low mood and problems and stuff, so I'm gonna post a little pic of Fizzarolli's little beautiful, enamored face to comfort myself cause he's my comfort character and I love him so much, look at him. He's so pretty.

#when your comfort character has been burned alive and amputated #sounds about right #Fizzarolli #Fizz #Helluva Boss #I love him so much though #He's such a cutie patootie #He's so soft and squishy #And he deserves the world #I want to hold him and pinch his little cheeks #Honest to God it's hard to remember that Fizz is probably like in his 30s when he's always so tiny and pretty and squishy #Stay squishy #Typing more in tags than the actual post #Hello to anyone who's reading these