#missing abusive ex

[vitalventing]

Missing your abusive ex is so confusing. Obviously I don’t miss the way I was treated but I miss who he was on the good days, I miss parts of his personality and the way he thought and moved himself. I still care for him, even though he has been so awful to me. What do I do with these feelings??

#ipv #dv #abuse #abuse victim #abuse survivor #abusive #toxic relationship #abusive relationship #intimate partner violence #domestic violence #domestic abuse #missing abusive ex #emotional abuse #mental abuse #psychological abuse #toxic ex #abusive ex

[thatdiabolicalfeminist]

Wanna help a poor 23 year old and her young child?

R is 23 years old and has a young child with her abusive ex, who is not kind to the child either.

R can only get her half of her kid’s time when she can drive to do pick ups and drop offs.

She works, but she has very little money left over after making rent. She has no living parents and her siblings live well below the poverty line.

She needs to raise $1877 more to get a functional used car.

R’s kiddo’s spring break starts in a week, March 24th. The kid is supposed to be with R for all of spring break, but unless R can get the funds, R’s abusive ex will have the kid the whole time and that would be really hard on both R and the child.

If not even 10% of my followers contributed one dollar each, R could get a car and parent her child again.

Please, can any financially secure adults help? If you can’t contribute, would you be willing to share around R’s gfm and/or this post?

Every penny helps.

https://gofund.me/cdae3fbf

she also has these other links:

https://venmo.com/u/justapeachycreature https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/robinseigneurie

I’ve known R since she was a baby and she’s very important to me. She’s been through a lot and has been trying her best through some very very difficult circumstances. Please, can anyone help her and her child?

#every post in my #rose #tag is about her #and yes she's using a pseudonym on some of her stuff cuz her ex SUCKS and would use this against her like he's tried to use everything else #she had to miss work today cuz she had a panic attack worrying about her kid being alone with her abusive ex that long #he's so MEAN and he isn't nice to that kid #i love R and her kid so much you have no idea how important they are to me #and that child is the center of her life

[mysoulbreak]

‘I understand that I’m not perfect, that I can be clingy and overly emotional but I just want to be important’

- me

#sad thoughts #heartache #heartbreak #unrequited love #breakup #sadgirl #poems on tumblr #i'm sad #ex boyfriend #most heartbreaking thing I have ever said #sorry for being depressing #kinda depressing #i still love him #toxic relationship #toxic love #i miss my ex #i miss me #sad poetry #sad quotes #sad poem #you broke my heart #mental health #heartbroken #emotional abuse #abandoment issues #spilled poetry #spilled thoughts #relatable

[ruminate88]

“I guess I miss the times he acted obsessed with me. He made me feel so beautiful and wanted but after we broke up; I felt ugly and so stupid for thinking he ever cared about me when clearly I was a joke to him.”

#heartbreak quotes #sad quotes #heartbreak #online relationships #my story #emotional abuse #unpacking #healingjourney #toxic quotes #toxic love #toxic boyfriend #toxic relationship #toxic people #obsessive love #betrayal #betrayal trauma #i miss him #i miss you #i miss 2014 #dear ex #dear andrew #dear diary #writers on tumblr #writers and poets #love bombing #trauma bonding #manipulation tactics

[lunarharp]

lazy scribbling of my baldur's gate 3 characters

#*emerges from 430 HOURS of life-changing playtime blearily like a lost and confused kitten* #i lost my interest in drawing bc everything is too sad & horrible right now. it was a luxury and privilege to lose myself in this instead #what follows will be my personal and trivial emotions about that #i'll do better proper drawings later. for me. they are both so very dear to me... deeply dear...unforgettable journeys of fate #truly have played like one possessed for the past few weeks. you have no idea. what do i do now. what do i do. #their personalities are so vivid to me though they mostly made the same choices. both intersex and they/them - canonically <3 #i missed out on FOUR PARTY MEMBERS in my first playthrough due to not understanding anything whatsoever. #gloaming ended up with wyll and pavane romanced karlach and astarion. and ended up with the one i did NOT plan on. this wasnt the plan #one of the most fulfilling romance paths i've ever..i cant say more..it all got too immersive and now i have to just.. MOVE ON ?????????? #live in THIS world where i can't gut imperialism personally and emerge alive from that? #without Long Resting? without my character requesting a kiss from their beloved after a tough day ?? #without preparing my little spells? without channelling divinity from my death god to keep us all alive? #without dyeing my man's clothes fancy colours for him? without him Approving whenever i lie and double-cross our enemies #without sharing clothes with my ex? without choosing to eat the heavy food first so that the weight is easier on her Carrying Capacity? #without orchestrating ways for all of my friends to kill the abusers that ruined their lives for a decade or even 200 years? #without experiencing degrading horrors on a daily basis but in a cathartic way where we always make it back to our rooms at the inn #WITHOUT SPEAK WITH ANIMALS??????????? #at least there's music. just like with persona 5 that will always be with me. always #like how p5 melodies take me back to those feelings. those rich and personal feelings.... BUT THIS WAS A WAY MORE NUTS EXPERIENCE #i thought i would hate it. i did at times. thought it would desensitise me to various things. it did. but there was so much more..it was... #Well anyway *continues my life* imagine if dnd was real..something to think about

[carefulfears]

Explain what you said on Twitter

assuming that you're talking about when i said that imo the conversations around "scully, you're making this personal" aren't aligned with the intent/impact of the scene (actually i think what i said was that the scene is very serious but y'all never talk about what's serious about it so you loop back around to being unserious) and tbh i can do a post on my own feelings about the scene sometime when i'm feeling more with it if y'all want but i just meant that people bitch about that line every single day talking about how it's hypocritical and how infuriating it is and how much you hate mulder in s6 etc etc but i literally never see anyone even think about like...the actual meaning of the scene and implications of the line and the context and where they're each coming from. it's all just a very shallow and reactionary discussion in my experience

(i ended up talking more in the tags lol i never shut up in the tags)

#interesting to watch byers' reaction in that scene tbh. considering he's the one who said he 'always wondered' why mulder and diana split up #he very much has a look of 'don't go there' when scully keeps pushing it #as pointed out in randomfoggytiger's analysis of the scene which is linked on their page #this obv isn't shade to anyone who's talked about the scene lol #asks #scully LOATHESSS diana lol and has literally every reason and more #i just think the convos around that scene are missing the biggest emotional aspect (scully's violation in relation to diana's participation #to like.....focus on a totally different angle and blow it up #when i say that the scene IS very serious but never in the way discussed #i mean that it's very much about scully begging to be heard and kind of quietly betraying how much her own exploitation impacts her #how much it IS personal #and it's also kind of a last ditch effort to try to get the person she loves out of this abusive/manipulative situation using evidence #and he IS listening to her (he goes from there to check diana's apartment and tells diana he has doubts about her. which he didnt before) #but she doesn't know that bc she just hears 'scully you're reaching' 'scully you're making this personal' #my interpretation of the line is that he's talking about her criticism of diana. which we know she's been vocal about from her #'you KNOW what i think THAT woman is' in the previous episode #i think he's taking it as input on HIS personal life and what he does with HIS relationships and HIS ex (wife) (lol) #but what makes the scene serious and kind of haunting is that that actually is not what she's talking about at all #she's talking about the chip in her neck. she's talking about her dead daughter. her dead sister. HIS dead sister. the dead MUFON women. #all things that she KNOWS diana is involved with. but she can't MAKE him see that or believe her #(even though he does take in her input moving forward) #they're just not on the same page for once and they're not talking about the same thing #like it's a very deep and very very difficult conversation because it's so convoluted in abuse and power structures and trauma #but my main thought on it is that like...i never see anyone think about the implications or even the aspect of scully's personal history #all anyone ever says all the time is like omg of course it's personal to her i hate him for this men are so stupid #NO ONE EVER EVEN REMEMBERS WHAT THE SCENE WAS ABOUT #and ofc people are allowed their jokes and not every post on every scene is gonna go into how people think about it or how they interpret i #it's just always a very shallow conversation surrounding a very important scene which bothers me! that's all

[emi98338]

Gonna join on the bandwagon and say that Reddit falling down the rabbit hole really sucks.

I started taking screenshots of all my saved posts and comments from people before the blackout because I don’t know how/when it’ll be accessible again.. Book suggestions, crochet patterns, restaurants, recipes recipes recipes! All the things I’ve saved for a rainy day, for next time; with so many subs extending their blackout indefinitely, we’re losing precious bits of information.

It may be “just a website” but it’s the website that fuels our love for our passions, that inspire us to try new ones, that teaches us new things on a daily basis and has the ability to make life truly amazing. It’s a shame it all has to go down in flames like this..

#reddit blackout #fuck reddit #reddit migration #reddit boycott #reddit #gonna miss it #like an abusive ex #but there were good times too right?! #oh well #fuck you spez

[evilynapple]

sad about his memory

broken trust

wounds deep

within mind's core

loving bonds

twist to knives

gutting

cuts that sting

sharp and linger each day

hearts once joined

now severed too

#story of my life #so fuckable #fuckboys #curly hair #curvy chicks #used and abused #degraded #degrade and humiliate me #missing them #ex boyfriend #ex something

[drunken--raccoon]

I just saw someone say they miss 2018/2019 and I ????? Why LMFAO

#to be fair those were the years i was dating my shitty abusive ex but like #I've never seen anyone say they miss those years #benji's thoughts

[quillkiller]

omg im gonna be alone forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#stupidest post in the world im sorry i just had to get it out of my system agshdhsjsjfjdj #sick and tired of being in my divorced era fr #i used to date sooooooo much before my ex like i was a bit of a slut. and now i have NO energy #cannot find it within myself to ? try to date? are you KIDDING me #but i miss intimacy and sex and being held and kissing #STUPID POST! #i also have TRAUMA!!!!!!! because of my abusive ex #MOST UNCOMORTABLE THING IN THE WORLD KNOWING THAT RELATIONSHIP GENUINELY CHANGED ME AND LIKE. not for the better #it changed me for the WORSE #which is just SO FUCKING UNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????? #anyway thats all #im divorced and single and i used to be fun and a little slutty and exciting and now in just. not anymore #now im just. traumatized and older and scared of relationships #scared of like. someone hurting me again HAHA #oh well #scared that im inherently bad and people want to hurt me on purpose #will delete later probably sorry this is stupid and embarrassing

[nicollekidman]

i can’t believe i have to kill jason sudekis with a hammer named rebecca 

#MISS WELTON IM SO SORRY #moving on and being healthy about her abusive ex husband SMASHCUT to two weeks later where she’s with a guy with no name who she met once. #ted lasso spoilers

[oflgtfol]

a few montjs ago my mom got me hooked on 911 that tv show and im like lowkey obsessed with it ever since despite how much i fight it. its like a way to microdose watching disaster videos on youtube but now in a purely fictional and mostly lighthearted way, AND interspersed between some batshit fictional character relationship drama. its like greys anatomy but with firefighters. to me.

#the fucking chimney backstory episode was when i admitted to myself im hooked #the first time i saw it i was on the edge of my SEAT like man what the FUCK #MADDIE GOT KIDNAPPED !!! AND BEAT HER ABUSIVE EX HUSBAND TO DEATH !!! LIKE MAN WHAT !!!! #im still not like. to the point where im actively watching it on my own #i only ever watch this show when its on tv #so ive mostly been watching it severely out of order and ive rewatched the same episodes so many times while also #easily missing out on like at least half of the other episodes entirely #brot posts #sorry i got home from work early today and today is the one day this show is on literally all day #so ive been watching it nonstop since like noon. so erm. yeah

[swagferret]

*me the other day, casually scrolling through my dash* huh, what a seriously written post about abuse apologism from a mcyt blog i follow, with no names attached. i haven't heard about a new situation since the shit with forever. do i want to go digging? if it's a big enough situation, i'll probably hear about it from more than a vague textpost.

*me earlier today, reading a comment thread under the youtube upload of msr* oh. well fuck. definitely going to look into this now.

*me watching the VOD* what the FUCK i am so unbelievably sorry shelby, you deserved none of that omfg

#in case you missed it like i did: shubble went live last week talking about an abusive ex of hers. people are speculating that it's wilbur. #i'm definitely gonna have to keep doing my own research and wait before i make any final conclusions/judgements #because we all know how quick people in this fandom space can be to jump on bandwagons and i don't fuck with that mindset #but. if the speculation is right (and in my honest opinion it very well could be right)? holy SHIT i'm horrified and disgusted. #and even if the speculation isn't right shelby DID NOT deserve ANY of what happened & we need to support her #just in case though? i'm not fucking with lovejoy until i learn more. #blah #cw abuse discussion

[doctorweebmd]

coming out of my baldurs gate 3 delirium (aka i am working a night shift and can't physically play it. at work.) to say that horikoshi. horikoshi when i GET YOU. you are NOT leaving izuku with no quirk and no arms. i am in your walls

#bnha spoilers #also. more evidence that horikoshi read zero-sum game #like come on the twins thing the izuku losing his quirk thing the losing his arm thing the shiggy getting decay from afo thing #TELL ME THE TRUTH HORIKOSHI. DID YOU READ MY FANFIC. #i'm joking of course. he's just done a really good job of foreshadowing through the series. its a marker of an amazing author #and i know that izuku probably won't lose both his arms and his quirk. i fully expect it to be a happy ending in some way shape or form #this is a sixteen year old boy who sacrificed EVERYTHING. more than he ever had to give #and he had less than a year. LESS THAN A YEAR. #sorry i'm already crying thinking about the scene of him holding shigaraki's hand even though it will decay him........ #izuku who knows better than ANYONE what shigaraki's power can do.... reaching out to him. caring more about others than about himself. #he's just. he's so good. he's SO GOOD. he deserves the world #tbh i feel like eri HAS to be involved at this point. she's the deus ex machina in all this #that or overhaul #both of their abilities can at least physically restructure izuku's body #it would actually be a very interesting redemption point for overhaul....... #i mean WHY ELSE RESCUE HIM. and why give him THE SAME FUCKING INJURY #what a powerful thing it would be to have eri give overhaul his arms back #and overhaul learning about goodness and forgiveness from this girl he's done nothing but abuse and torture #and saves izuku........ #its about ATONEMENT. its about GROWTH. its about IT NEVER BEING TOO LATE. #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I LOVE YOU MY HERO ACADEMIA #... ok. i'm normal. its fine. #on another note #i loved the ending to my first bg3 run which i think i finished Tuesday/Wednesday. i cried. #IMMEDIATELY started a durge run where i'm playing a male human bard instead of the female half-wood elf ranger #i was like 'haha. i'll make a character based on hisoka from hxh! i'm gonna be SOOOO evil! >:)) #and guess who still isn't good at being big evil. ME. at worst i'm probably chaotic neutral. #its wild i'm already finding SO MANY new scenes i missed on the first playthrough even though i'm making a lot of the same choices #so it still feels super fun and fresh. more so now because i kind of know the characters and the mechanics better #my current playthrough i'm with lae'zel shadowheart and asterion with no intention of switching out

[mari-monsta]

Adrienadrienqdrien

#ml spoilers #do you ever just start reminding yourself about canon facts about the characters #adrien agreste felt bad bc his gurlfriend had a crush on him and it made ehr nervous #the superhero protagonist has ptsd but its not from being a super hero its from a mean prank that went wrong actually #said superhero protagonist decided to tell her boyfriend she loved him because a female friend of hers confessed to being in love with her #she has now been trying to kiss said boyfriend for weeks but hes like. being mind controlled by his asshole dad actually #did i mention that all of his current paternal guardians are currently dying? #did i mention that he doesnt know about that actually? #did i mention tjat it all comes back to the fact he was born to begin with #not to mention his cousin that wanted to end the human race and almost succeeded but then felt kinda bad about it so he stopped #it turned out hes actually not that bad of a guy really #also how could i forget the boyfriends ex girlfriend who is also being parental mind controlled #who is having a tough time right now because she admitted while breaking down crying that shes still in love with not just him but also #his current girlfriend the protagonist #how about the fact that theres a corpse under the boyfriends house #oh also the boyfriend is also siri . #also the girl from their class that was harrassing the both of them used to be siri2 #but she got fired and they replaced her with sad ex girlfriend qs a plot by the abusive parental guardians to get her back witb boyfriend #did i miss anything #oh also the abusive dad is speeding up the creeping death moving through his body on purpose and not doing anything about it #and thats what you missed on thw ladybug show #ml spoiler #ml season 5 spoilers #ml season 5 #ml adoration spoilers #ml revelation spoilers #ml pretension spoilers

[sleepymarmot]

Just realized that Ex Machina starts the same way as Dracula does. You’re a young professional invited to your employer’s remote castle. At first you’re excited by the journey, and the host seems fascinating and likeable. An attentive viewer/reader can see immediately how abusive the host truly is. You slowly realize that you are trapped and have no privacy — and then, that your host is basically Bluebeard.

#dracula #dracula daily #ex machina #blah blah blah #spoilers #i guess #inspired by someone's comment that completely missed the point of the film but reminded me of its existence and also filled me with spite #the next second i realized #that all the posts pointing out the small ways dracula is abusive to jonathan in the beginning of the book #were very similar to the way i noticed similar things about nathan's behavior in the beginning of the film