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ghostpajamas · 2 years
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just stumbled onto docterat and contentsmp as whole, is there like a designated place I should start?? is it streamed?? i am confused but intrigued
UMMMM i will not lie to you, the ghostpajamas tried-and-true method is that i receive information in the form of visions (my friend shows me random clips and then i get curious and watch the whole video its from, out of upload order)
so like, there is probably (definitely) a MUCH better way to go about this than how i did loll. this is the natural evolution from when i read the death note manga out of order as a kid.
i think the initial pitch from felt to me was like "clownpierce gets crazy scythe, awesome mode :D! doctor4t from the pretty mods you like made it :)" O_O !!! <- pretty client-side mods enjoyer. it doesnt help that im a sleeper agent fundy fan. so like, the chemicals are working on me fr. and then WHOA MORE LORE THAN I EXPECTED.
also i think felt tried to get me with arathain thoughts beam attack a few days before it kicked in fully (july 18-20. the liminality of that time..) beginning of the end for me.
okay actually i lied THIS was the initial pitch (july 18, late at night) orz i never stood a chance
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the file timestamp is for that shipart i posted initally.
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i have this image that i made last month about it too ^
ive been Slowly watching rats content smp vods in ORDER which you can find hereee and newer ones on this channel and these r rats csmp vids that i Know of. i do not know things ^_^ i am just brain-microwaved about guy with cool design andhe explode
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wait sorry i jsut reread your ask i went insane for those first couple segments huh. anyways links, have fun loll
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diorbitchtxt · 2 years
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The State of JordynBrokolliVODS
Hello Jordyn here, some of you may already have noticed I've started uploading again to my live stream archive channel on YouTube, and yeah, some of you may also have noticed that a few of those words wore pre transition and pre name change. I said a few times before that for me, it's kind of uncomfortable to watch those old streams, but I always wanted to upload them to the archive channel but I just didn't have the energy to do so.
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After a long night of reflection, I finally decided to upload them, and also look at them just to see how much I've changed since. And whoa, yeah! I really changed a lot, not just on opinions, appearance and voice (ok, I admit, not really) but also in how i handle my streams, i would even so i got way way WWWAYYY better at it. I mean, I've been doing this stream thing since I was 15 so of course that had to happen at some point, but its funny how quick i matured over the course of 2 years.

Schedule for the VOD channel
yeah i decided im going to comit and have a strict schedule for that channel since we are over 30 streams late, the schedule is set to be 2 - 4 uploads every saturday and sunday.
eventually when we finish the back catalogue i'll start uploading the mid hiatus streams and from there we will see what we do.
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Voicemail #58
To: Tony Stark
From: Peter Parker
Today I tripped and MJ smiled at me and said, “ha, what an idiot”. She smiled at me, Mr. Stark! She! Smiled! At! Me!
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meltwonu · 3 years
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| 🍒 CH-CH-CHERRY BOMB! 🍒 |     [CHAPTER 15]
pairing; dom!seungcheol x camgirl!reader
this chapter’s notes; camshow, softdom!seungcheol, blowjob, cum swallowing, restraints/blindfold, daddy!kink, dirty talk, v little hair pulling, orgasm control, squirting, sex toys 😗💕 hope y’all are having a good weekend! As you can see, with this chapter comes the decided amount of chapters 😭 which means! cherry bomb ends on jan. 1st! 😭😭😭 I’m sad about it but!! excited to start the new year with some new projects too!! and I promise it won't be the last of this au either (I'll upload and talk abt a new schedule when it gets closer to time)💕💕 Thank you, as always, for your support with Cherry Bomb and I’m glad some of us have had pavlovian responses when we hear the term now LOOOL😩💕 Enjoy ch15 and have a great weekend! see u tomorrow for the last intro post! 💕🍒 
chapters; 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10 - 11 - 12 - 13 - 14 - 15 - x - x - x - x - x 
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Seungcheol takes it as a blessing that he doesn’t work on the weekends.
You do your camshow on Friday and upload prerecorded content on Saturday which leaves two whole days of relaxation that the two of you enjoy.
But Monday comes quicker than you anticipate and Seungcheol drops you off to work before he heads back to the roller rink; ignoring the multitudes of texts it seems Jeongguk is sending.
I’ll be at work in 30 minutes, he thinks.
“I’ll be back to pick you up after work, baby!”
You nod back, blowing Seungcheol a kiss through the window before you turn to leave.
Seungcheol’s phone rings 3 more times, brows furrowed.
‘It can wait.’
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“Hyung, we’re in trouble… Maybe?”
Jeongguk’s big puppy eyes stare back at the older male and he can already feel the blood draining from his face at the potential reasons that the younger male would even say that. “Um… is---is this pertaining to why you tried calling like 14 times?” Jeongguk nods, tugging on Seungcheol’s shirt and pulling him in closer.
“Before you say anything… Namjoon-hyung didn’t find out, did he?”
“Find out about what?”
“That I… cam… I don’t want to get fired because I--”
Jeongguk rolls his eyes, “Listen, I’m gonna be real, I don’t think he cares. The problem is… remember that dude that came in? A couple weeks ago. Lookin’ for a job.”
Seungcheol nods slowly; trying to remember the male’s name. “Seok--something, right?” Jeongguk nods.
“Apparently, he came back, and at the right time too. Namjoon hired his ass on the spot and he starts tomorrow. I heard from Seokjin.” Confusion crosses Seungcheol’s features as he stares and waits for Jeongguk to continue. “... And? How is that trouble for us?”
Jeongguk lets out an over dramatic sigh, hands on Seungcheol’s shoulders. “Nevermind, I forgot you’re making bank on those videos. I was gonna say, we might get a pay cut! Or maybe Joon-hyung’s trying to replace us but I guess that’s not a ‘you’ problem.”
Seungcheol laughs under his breath, shaking his head before patting Jeongguk’s hands.
“You’ll be okay. I don’t think anyone is coming for your concession stand job.”
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The next day when Seungcheol makes it to work, he can’t help but have a weird feeling in his gut.
Much like the time when he first met Jun, there’s an indescribable feeling bubbling up in his body that he can’t seem to shake off once he arrives at the roller rink and the sight of Jeongguk with the new employee doesn’t help to settle the feeling at all.
Just before he can make his escape, the younger male waves him over; a cheery smile plastered on his face when Seungcheol starts walking over.
“Hyung! It’s the new employee!”
So much for panicking about being replaced, Jeongguk.
Seungcheol smiles at the other male, introducing himself swiftly before extending a hand to shake. “Ah! I remember you! I’m Seokmin! I’m the same age as Jeongguk!” Seungcheol’s lips part as he nods in understanding; that had been why Jeongguk seemed so okay with it all of a sudden.
Seokmin’s eyes form crescents when he smiles and Seungcheol takes a second to do a once over of the other male; noting the pins tacked to his denim jacket. His eyes hone in on a specific one, narrowing once he realized what it was.
It’d been a while ago now, but when you’d hit 5k subscribers to your camming channel, you had made only three of the same pin, which you had raffled and only gave to three winners.
By nature, Seungcheol was one of them, and the other two were ‘xcaliburDK’ and ‘gentleman_josh95’. Seungcheol could deduce from usernames alone that this wasn’t ‘Josh’ so it only left one option left; albeit Seokmin didn’t add up to the username either.
“Hyung? Hyung, are you okay? You’re spacing out.” Jeongguk waves a hand in the elder’s face as Seungcheol shakes himself from his thoughts.
He’d just have to figure it out later.
Although, he can already feel the groan spilling from his lips.
Why was everyone popping up now?
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When he picks you up from work, later that afternoon, he can already tell something is off about you too.
You slink into the passenger’s seat of his car, quiet and a little jittery. “You okay? You look like you’ve seen a ghost.” He comments, watching as you fumble with the seatbelt.
“Yeah it’s just… Can we talk about it when we get home? I think I’m still recovering from the weird experience I had earlier.”
Nodding, Seungcheol reaches over, placing his palm in yours in a means of comforting you; even just a little.
“Guess we both have had weird days, huh?”
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You can’t thank Seungcheol enough for how patient he is.
He doesn’t say a word in the car and lets you have your quiet, cool down time before you get home.
But when the lock slides into place and you finally plop down onto the bed, you know it’s finally time to have the talk that you knew was brewing.
“I met another one of my regulars at the diner today.” You mumble; beating Seungcheol to the punch of him asking.
“Weird, I think I ran into one of your regulars at the roller rink today too. He works there now, by the way.”
The two of you share an awkward laugh as Seungcheol lays down next to you; neither of you bothering to change out of your outside clothes as you bask in the oddly similar occurrences. “Wouldn’t happen to be ‘universe_WZ’ would it? He came by the diner earlier, ‘just passing through town’ he said. It was so weird though, y’know? Him and Jun kinda got along ‘cause apparently they’re born in the same year.” You smile at the memory, despite how odd it was at first. “He was quiet and Jun is very much not. I think he bailed earlier than he wanted ‘cause his ear was getting talked off. But he asked me for an autograph on the way out and some old lady stared at me. It was just… a little weird.”
Seungcheol laughs; somewhat glad that your experience hadn’t been as bad as he was expecting.
“How ‘bout you, ‘Cheol? What was that about him working with you?”
The male groans, sliding a hand down his features. “It was… somethin’ else.” You turn on your side to face him, raising a brow.
“Couldn’t be that bad, could it?”
Seungcheol laughs, but only in the way he knows that the next words out of his mouth will sound ridiculous, even to you.
“I’m not going to say who it is because I don’t want you to be extra weirded out. He’s an okay guy, very diligent about his work. But let’s just say I caught a glimpse of his wallpaper, which was you by the way. And when I asked him, ‘hey, is that your girlfriend?’, the fucker lied and said yes!”
It takes a second before you’re letting out a boisterous laugh; tears springing to your eyes at the hilarious encounter Seungcheol had experienced.
“You’re not mad!?” He comments, eyes wide as saucers as he watches you curl up in laughter. “I thought you’d be mad!” You wipe a tear from your eye, catching your breath before you turn back to Seungcheol who watches you in confusion.
“No way, that’s fuckin’ hilarious! And let’s be real, probably not the first time someone’s lied about me being their girlfriend, right? But I--he doesn’t know, does he? That you’re… y’know, ‘dom.cheol’?” Seungcheol blushes, cheeks blooming a pale pink when he thinks about it.
Would his voice be enough to give it away?
“I don’t… know? He didn’t say anything but neither did I, honestly. It was just… weird. And now I work with him so that’ll be fun. Can’t wait for him to tell me how cute his girlfriend is.” He grumbles.
“Awww, is widdol Swungcheol jealous?” You blink cutely back at him; a teasing smirk on your lips when you see him narrowing his eyes back at you.
“Watch it, brat. You know I can punish you at any time, right?”
“Try me, then~”
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Seungcheol mentally logs into his brain and waits until your Wednesday show before he makes a move.
He brings his favorite silk ties from his closet and places them on the bed while you get changed; a sly smirk on his face.
“‘Okay, ‘Cheol I’m--whoa.” You bite your lip when you step out and see the array of ties and the vibrator already sitting on the bed. “Um… I take it that these are part of the show tonight?” You end with a shy giggle; body already warm at the way Seungcheol looks at you.
“Mmhmm. For the ‘lil jealous comment you made. What was it that you said? ‘Try me, then’?” He grins in a way that you know you’re screwed and you saunter up to him in hopes of maybe pacifying him a little.
“Too late to say that I take it back?”
“Waaaay too late, baby. Now, let’s get started.”
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chwenon has donated $50
sleepy_wonu has donated $100
artist8hao has donated $75
artist8hao: she’s so pretty with her hands tied behind her back like that
angelhan: shibari next time???
universe_WZ: she’d be so pretty all tied up
universe_WZ: rly nice seeing u btw ;)
therealchan99: where tf are all of u seeing her!?!?? I need to go out more im lackin bro
alphagyu97: its the way u walk into every set up for me
Seungcheol chuckles under his breath, reading the comments with his hand tangled in your hair and your arms tied behind your back as you work your mouth up and down on his cock.
Before the show had even started, he had quickly rearranged the setup so that the camera was angled down towards the space in front of the bed instead of where it usually faced which was on top of the bed. You were a little confused at first when he had nodded and told you to start your camshow from the rug placed underneath you but it soon made sense when he had tied your arms behind your back and made you suck him off with your knees digging into the rug and a silk tie tied into a bow around your eyes to prevent you from seeing.
“Shibari, huh? Ooh, wouldn’t it be a treat for your viewers if you did a show where you were all tied up? I’d have to start it for you, or maybe they’d like to watch the process and see how quickly I can get you to fall apart.” Seungcheol pauses; hips canting up slightly into your mouth as you swallow and gag around him. “We can make it an extra long camshow… Maybe a pay-per-view situation. They can watch you squirm and cum all night long while I keep a vibrator pressed against your clit until your cute body is trembling.”
Your eyes roll to the back of your head even if Seungcheol can’t see it and you moan around his cock when you feel him throbbing in your mouth.
The sound of donations and comments is all you can go off of with your back towards the camera and your vision taken away; noting that the viewers must’ve liked the idea.
j__min has donated $150
j__min: popping in to say if u need help buying ropes, i know a guy ;)
alphagyu97: wait is this rly happening
alphagyu97: i’ll clear my schedule gentleman_josh95: yea same
xcaliburDK: i just started a new job i cant have any sick days plz… at least reupload it for me 😭😭
Seungcheol smirks when he reads that particular comment; fingertips massaging your skull when he hears you whining. “I know, baby. You wanna be fucked, huh? It isn’t nice being teased, right? So now you know how I feel~” In a blink of an eye, ‘xcaliburDK’s comment is buried and Seungcheol is thankful that you didn’t see it. He’d just have to keep it a secret for now while he played along and listened to what else Seokmin had to say about his so-called ‘girlfriend’.
You rub your thighs together; already feeling the slickness on them from how wet you already were and how long you’d been teasing and sucking his cock.
“Fuck, I could cum down your pretty ‘lil throat and then make you work for my cock. Drag your punishment out even longer than your viewers would see.” You moan around his cock in response and Seungcheol can only take it as a whiny ‘no’ before he’s pulling you off of him by the hair; soft sputters and coughs spilling from your wet lips as you catch your breath.
“But I think you’ve earned your orgasm, hmm? What do you say, princess?”
Your throat feels hoarse and your body feel obscenely hot at the way Seungcheol doesn’t seem to want to take off your restraints just yet. “Y-yes, daddy I--I want to c-cum… pl--please.”
tangerine_kwan: ahhh shes so cute
tangerine_kwan: petition for baby pink ties next time i think they suit her
sleepy_wonu: if that shibari show is happening, yes
“We’ll talk about it later, although I don’t think she’ll be opposed to it~” You furrow your brows; wondering what Seungcheok was referring to. 
You’d ask later.
“D-daddy…?”
Seungcheol tugs you slightly by your hair, urging you up as you slowly stand on shaky legs. You let him take the reins as he unties your arms and repositions you until you’re bent over the edge of the bed; left leg folded atop the bedsheets while your right leg keeps you upright. He keeps your blindfold on but lets you keep your arms loose; which you find out fairly quickly, is for good reason.
The buzzing of the vibrator makes you bite your bottom lip and soon enough, Seungcheol places the toy in your clammy hand.
“You’re gonna slide your hand under your body and keep that vibrator pressed against your clit while I fuck you. And you’re not allowed to cum unless I say so. Am I understood, baby?” You feel Seungcheol teasing you as he slides his cock through your soaking folds before circling the tip around your entrance.
“I expect a response when I ask you a question, sweetheart.”
“Y--yes, daddy, I--ah!”
Seungcheol grins as he slides his cock into your tight cunt; watching as you slowly sandwich your arm between your body and the bed sheets to place the vibrator against your clit. You cry out, a mess of sharp whines and jumbled words spilling off your lips with the combination of Seungcheol’s thrusts and the vibrations on your clit.
“Ngh, d--daddy! Fuck me m-more!”
Your other hand digs into the sheets, fingers tight around the fabric as Seungcheol fucks you from behind. He knows your body like the back of his hand and he quickly already has you on the verge of an orgasm despite only having started fucking you, moments prior.
“Don’t cum, princess~” Teasingly, he alternates from quick snaps of his hips that have his cock slamming into your g-spot to slow thrusts that have you remembering every groove and vein of his cock when he pulls out. And when he fucks you like this, it’s easy to forget the camera was even on and that people were watching; if not for the constant pinging of comments and donations that mix in with your moans, Seungcheol’s harsh breaths and the sound of the vibrator against your clit.
hoshi_tiger_xx: hmm but shes obv being punished and we all kno good girls dont get creampies
therealchan99: ur right,,, where should he cum then?
kitty_junjun: my votes on her tits
kitty_junjun has donated $75
sleepy_wonu: maybe all over her back and then post the pics in the private room
xcaliburDK: or raffle them!! I want them
chwenon: ooo cum in her mouth but dont let her swallow
chwenon: then u can raffle those pics or sth
Neither you nor Seungcheol are even paying attention to the comments that fly past on the screen and the only thing Seungcheol even turns slightly for, is to check to make sure he’s still properly out of frame.
He can already feel you tightening up around him and with the vibrator on your clit, he knows for a fact you won’t last much longer before you’re cumming.
“Hmm, princess, I can feel you getting so tight around me. Bet you wanna cum already, huh?”
“D-daddy, I dunno, ah, how--how much longer I can h-hold off…” You mumble; already feeling the tension in your body ready to snap at any second.
“Be a good girl. I said you earned your orgasm but you need to be patient.” You nod to the best of your ability; head feeling heavy and fuzzy as you try to stave off your orgasm for a little longer. “Y--yes, daddy…” He slows down his thrusts in order to help you a little and the soft praises that fall from his lips have the warmth blooming in your chest.
But it doesn’t last long because despite Seungcheol’s valiant efforts, you’re already too close to cumming to stop yourself when you feel the pressure building up too fast.
“Oh, d-daddy, I---I can’t, I---I can’t, I have, ah, to---to c-cum! Fuh--fuck, ‘m s--sorry!”
Seungcheol can’t even manage a word in before he feels his cock being forced out of your pussy and the wetness that squirts all over his cock and lower half. Loud cries and whines are all you can manage in the thrums of pleasure and the grip you have on the vibrator only tightens as you grind against the toy to ride out your high.
Seungcheol takes the time to wrap a hand around his cock as he strokes himself; body turned halfway towards the laptop to see what everyone was saying.
hoshi_tiger_xx: uh ohhh pretty baby came without permission
hoshi_tiger_xx has donated $50
hoshi_tiger_xx: donation for squirting tho
alphagyu97: ugh look at her cute lil hole begging to be filled up
angelhan: bet she’s feeling empty rn huh
Your soft mewls have Seungcheol turning back to face you; eyes trained on your twitching body when the pleasure starts to ebb away and the overstimulation from the vibrator starts to bite. “Daddy… the---the, mmh, toy…”
“You can turn it off, sweetheart.” His tone is clipped and you already know you’re in for it once you manage to find the switch on the silicone toy. You turn it off and slide your hand from underneath you; palms flat against the sheets as you sniffle.
“I--I’m really s-sorry, I--I couldn’t--”
“I want you on your knees again, princess.”
Nodding shakily, you ease your bent leg down as you maneuver yourself onto your knees; hands already searching for Seungcheol before you hear his small ‘ah, ah, ah’s.  “Hands behind your back and tongue out, baby.” You follow his orders as you clasp your hands behind your back and diligently open your mouth and stick your tongue out as far as you can.
He brings his cock towards your face, tapping his cock head against your tongue before he starts to jerk himself off over your mouth and face. “I gotta hand it to you, princess. At least you apologized.” Seungcheol laughs under his breath, “But next time though? I won’t even let you have my cock.”
You whimper in return, brows furrowed under the silk tie.
“Fuck, ‘m gonna cum all over this pretty face.” His grip on his cock tightens and he thrusts into his palm quicker as he chases his high. “Don’t worry. I’ll take pretty pictures of your cum stained face.”
Seungcheol groans as he feels the coil in his body snapping and not a second later do you feel warm rivulets of cum hitting your cheeks and your tongue. Some of it manages to catch on the silk tie as you moan. The donations and comments pour in like water as Seungcheol continues to cover your face in cum and for the umpteeth time, you’re reassured that this was a path that worked out for you.
It was so silly that you’d thought of quitting camming earlier. 
Although, you never brought it up to Seungcheol.
In actuality, there were quite a few things that you’d never brought up to Seungcheol.
“Fuck…” He mutters from above you and it’s enough to bring you out of your thoughts as you hold still. Seungcheol takes the hint, using a sticky cum covered hand to reach for his phone to snap pictures of you; he’d just clean it up later.
“Say cheese~” He laughs, taking a couple photos before tossing his phone onto the bed as you draw your tongue back into your mouth and swallow down the warm salty substance that managed to hit your tongue.
Seungcheol helps you up from the floor, pouting when he sees how red your knees have gotten. “Hmm, think I need to take care of my princess after this.” He helps take your blindfold off and you’re quick to blink the fogginess away as  you try to focus on Seungcheol’s face before peering over to the laptop’s screen.
Your cheeks burn hot at the cum that still stains your cheeks when you see  yourself but the comments that flood in calling you pretty make you giggle.
“Ooookay. I think daddy is gonna get all cleaned up and I’ll wrap up here?” You check in with Seungcheol, who shoots you a nod and a small thumbs up before slinking completely out of the camera’s view.
“Okay guys, now what were you all talking about while I was on my knees?”
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You get out of the shower feeling refreshed; tossing on a loose shirt before skipping out of the bathroom.
Seungcheol is cozied up on the sofa, waiting on the food that the two of you had ordered right after you ended your show. “‘Cheollie~” He turns to you as you plop down next to him and he’s quick to wrap an arm around your shoulders as he tugs you into his side.
“Feeling better?”
“Mmhmm~ A ‘lil sleepy but I can go for that food and then sleep.”
The two of you share a laugh, eyes focused on the movie that plays on the TV. “Say…” You start, “Someone asked a good question in the comments after you stepped out.” You gulp; palms a little clammy.
You just had to know.
“Yeah? Was it about the shibari camshow again?”
“No, actually…” You take a deep breath, telling yourself it’d be okay regardless of what he said.
“Seungcheol, am I your girlfriend?”
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zachsreaderinserts · 5 years
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Taking a Stand
ship: platonic!bbs x male!reader
dialogue prompt: "No! I'm tired of doing what you tell me!"
warnings: abusive relationship, high school au, i poured my heart and soul into this, it felt really nice to write something like this
"Good morning, gamers," I mumbled, walking to our table in the cafeteria. My friends simply said their greetings back or just nodded at me, looking just as tired as I was.
Mondays were always hard on us, especially since we all were trying to keep up with our channels on the weekends. We all probably had a few hours of decent rest.
"Is everyone gonna be ready to upload our Prop Hunt video tonight?" Craig asked, pulling out the Uno cards. It was a tradition for us to play before school started.
"Yeah," Tyler muttered.
"Yup," Evan replied.
"I think so. I haven't had the chance to edit it yet." Brock gave me a look, that was between concerned and confused.
"You're usually the first one to finish editing out of all of us." I yawned, tears pricking my eyes.
"Angel called me last night. She was ranting and told me not to hang up, so I couldn't get to it." I missed the eye rolls and the silent scoffs that were passed around the group.
"You could've told her you had something to do." Marcel pointed out as the game had begun.
"She wouldn't be happy about it. I don't like upsetting her." I placed down the first card, nudging Brian to place his next. "I'll try to get it done before dinner."
"There's no pressure, L/n. Take your time." Jonathan reassured me, giving me a soft smile. His smile quickly melted away and before I could ask why tan arms wrapped around my shoulders.
"Y/n!" Angel, my girlfriend of one month, exclaimed. She pecked my lips, smiling happily. "Good morning, baby."
"Mornin', Ang." Looking back down at the table, I noticed it was my turn again and a plus two was laid before me. "Oh, you motherfuckers!" Everyone laughed as I pulled two cards from the deck.
"Don't curse, Y/n." Angel lightly patted my shoulder, giving me an admonishing frown. "It's just a game."
"Sorry, babe. It's just that my friends," I threw out a mock glare, "are little shits."
"I was wondering if you could walk me to my locker." I glanced over at my friends before looking at her. "Please, Y/n!"
"I really want to finish this game." I tried to reason, looking in the green eyes of my lover. "Can you wait until the second bell?"
"Y/n, I want to get there before Samantha and April do so we can catch up on some stuff." Seeing that I was still hesitating, she frowned again. "I bet Raymond would walk me to my locker." I turned back around, trying to hide my hurt expression.
"Yeah, I'll walk you." She clapped in excitement as I set my cards down. "See y'all at lunch." I tried to put on a smile, but it felt forced more than anything. Angel wrapped her hand around mine, leading me away from my friends.
Lately, I've been becoming less happy with Angel. She would give me little bits of an insult, leaving me to wonder if she meant it or not. And whenever I wouldn't let her have her way, she would just grow cold and serious.
But, I still liked her. She meant a lot to me. So, I took everything with stride.
My friends, on the other hand, didn't. Back at the table, all of them grew frustrated and angry with our relationship.
"I fucking hate her," Tyler growled, slamming down a blue card onto the deck.
"Join the club." Marcel sneered, glaring as Angel and I disappeared around the corner. "What does he see in her?"
"Maybe he's just staying for the sex." David pointed out, cursing quietly as a plus four was placed down.
"Y/n's too insecure for sex." Brian countered, crossing his arms. "Remember what happened when he had his fall out with Kyle? The whole reason it started was because Y/n refused to fuck him."
"Whatever it is, I hope it's good enough to justify her shitty behavior." Lui cut in, leaning against Evan. "Though, I doubt there's anything that really can justify it."
"We just gotta trust Y/n for now, guys." Brock sent everyone a reassuring glance. "I'm sure he knows what's best for him."
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"Happy Valentine's Day!" I cheered, carrying an assortment of flowers and chocolates to my friends.
"Whoa!"
"Chocolate!"
"Holy shit!"
"Oh my God!" Various noises of surprise came from them as I placed the stash on the table, grinning proudly.
"Let me hand them out first, children." They went quiet as I started passing around gift cards with a gift attached.
For Evan, I stayed true to his simplistic nature and got him a bouquet of various red flowers. Jonathan received a chocolate box full of bear shaped candies. I got Lui and Brock assorted flowers, which were in almost every shade of the rainbow. Brian and Craig got Starbucks gift cards while I got David and Marcel Visa gift cards.
The last gift was for Tyler, but it was hidden in a plain, black box.
"Okay, open that one under the table." He did as I said and once he opened it, he started laughing loudly. I started laughing at his reaction, slapping the table.
"Y/n, you didn't!" He pulled out a blue dildo, about the size of his forearm. Brock quickly rushed to hide it, laughing along with the rest of us.
After the short laughing fit, they began to read the cards I gave them, either tearing up or smiling at my genuine messages.
"Happy Valentine's Day, Y/n!" Angel gave me a kiss on the mouth, which made me flustered.
"Ah, Angel! Not in front of the guys!" She pulled back, looking dejected. "Sorry, but you know I don't like kissing in front of other people."
"But it's Valentine's Day!" She pressed, slowly getting visibly angry with me. "Shouldn't we be making out all day?"
"I'm just not comfortable with it." She gave me a glare and I sighed, getting sad. "Sorry, Angel."
"No... Don't be. Just-- Did you get me anything?" I lit up, seeing the opportunity to cheer her up.
"Actually, yeah! It's at my house right now, so if you wanna come over later--"
"You mean to tell me that you don't have a gift to give me during the school day?" I shut my mouth, looking at her in confusion. The table around us went silent.
"Is that 'boyfriend protocol' or something?" She huffed frustratedly, taking a step back and crossing her arms.
"Uh, yes! How am I gonna show everyone how good of a boyfriend you are if you don't have a gift during school hours?"
"I don't think you'd need to flaunt around how good of a boyfriend I am if you already know it." I shrugged, trying to keep the tears at bay. "I'm no genius or anything, but I think I'm a very good boyfriend."
"Nevermind, Y/n. I'm going to class." She hissed, storming off. I clenched my fists, trying not to cry in front of my friends.
"Don't listen to her, Y/n." Lui comforted, leading me back to the table. "She's probably on her period or something."
"I made her a painting of us. I worked hard on it and everything." My voice cracked as I folded my arms and laid my head down on them. "I thought she would appreciate it."
"I don't think you guys should keep dating." Evan rubbed my back while talking to me. "You both clearly aren't happy in this situation."
"No, no. I'll figure it out. I really want to keep dating her." I looked at him with a teary face. "I'm sorry for crying."
"Hey, don't be." David came over, sitting next to me. "Why are you saying sorry?"
"Are you fucking crying right now? That's for babies, Y/n! I'm not gonna date a man who cries like a damn baby after an argument." Angel ranted, pointing at my face.
"I have no clue." I lied, rubbing my eyes harshly.
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y/ntheactualgod has logged onto: what's jon's sexuality??
y/ntheactualgod: DHSJSK WHO CHANGED THE GROUPCHAT NAME
miniladd: IT WAS ME
h20delirious:
FUCK ALL OF YOU
h20delirious changed the chat name to: craig has a micropenis
y/ntheactualgod: and i oop
iamwildcat: y/n if you say "and i oop" one more time i'm going to freak the fuck out
y/ntheactualgod: A N D I OOP
moosnuckel: now you gotta beat them up tyler you said it yourself
iamwildcat: i'm gonna kick your ass as soon as we get to school tomorrow
y/ntheactualgod: do it pussy
vanossgaming: can i record it for my channel?
basicallyidowrk: they're gonna be the next logan paul and ksi
thegamingterroriser: but who's who?
y/ntheactualgod: call dibs on being ksi
iamwildcat: call dibs on being ksi F U CK I DON'T WANNA BE LOGAN PAUL
daithidenogla: sucks to suck
y/ntheactualgod: hold on, angel's messaging me
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angelbabycakes: Y/N Y/N Y/N
y/ntheactualgod: what's up sugar
angelbabycakes: can i come over?
y/ntheactualgod: to hang out at like 2 AM?
angelbabycakes: not to hang out silly i wanna take our relationship to the next level
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I felt my heart stop in my chest as I read over what she sent me.
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y/ntheactualgod: oh. um, hold on
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y/ntheactualgod: ANGEL WANTS TO HAVE SEX WITH ME WHAT DO I DO?????
basicallyidowrk: SEND US A SCREENSHOT
y/ntheactualgod: unknown.png
h20delirious: oh my god
luicalibre: do u wanna have sex with her?
y/ntheactualgod: uhhhhh not really if i'm being honest ITS NOT THAT I DONT LIKE HER I LOVE ANGEL BUT IM NOT READY FOR SEX
miniladd: that's fine y/n! nothing to be worried about. just tell her how you feel
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y/ntheactualgod: im sorry angel, but im not ready for that yet
angelbabycakes: look out ur window :)
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"She didn't," I whispered in horror, rushing to go peek out the window. In my backyard stood my girlfriend of three months, who smiled up at me. I saw her put her phone to her ear and my phone lit up with a call from her. Answering it with shaky hands, I looked down at her through the window.
"Hey, baby! Can you let me in?"
"Angel, I love you a lot, but I can't do this." My voice trembled with anxiety as I saw her face be pulled into a frown. "I'm so sorry, honey, but I just can't have sex with anyone right now."
"Why not! I've been dating your sorry ass for three months! The least you could do is make it worth my while!"
"Angel, I--" She let out an enraged yell, picking up one of my lawn chairs and throwing it across my backyard. I watched in horror as she practically messed up my backyard. "Angel, please stop!"
"I'm tired of dating your wimpy ass! I don't deserve to be with such an ungrateful boyfriend." And she hung up on me, storming out of my yard. My hands were shaking so hard, I dropped my phone. Sinking to the floor, I stuck my head into my knees and started sobbing.
Was I crying of fear or heartbreak? I couldn't even tell.
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"Good morning, Y/n!" I yelped loudly as David clapped his hand on my shoulder. He pulled his hand away, looking at me concerned.
"Oh, hey David." My voice was scratchy from a lack of sleep, but I didn't let it stop me from talking. "Sorry, you just scared me."
"I'm sorry. You look like you just saw a ghost." As we walked over to the lunch table, I kept my eyes open for Angel, becoming more paranoid the further in we walked. "Where were you this morning?"
This morning was really rough for me. I decided to skip out on sitting with my friends to hide in the bathroom, out of fear that Angel would confront me about last night.
"I had a long night. Woke up late." I lied, weakly smiling up at my friend. "Hope you guys were worried about me."
"We kinda were. Especially after what happened earlier this morning." I looked away from David, seeing that we were nearing the lunch table.
"I'm fine," I reassured to him, rushing to go sit down. I missed the unconvinced look on his face as he walked after me. "Hey, guys."
"Y/n! Where've you been?" Evan called out, grinning as I sat between him and Craig.
"Late morning," I responded, pulling out a cup of jello from my lunchbox. "Who won Uno today?"
"Lui did. He was totally cheating, though." Tyler complained, making me smile genuinely. I felt myself relax a little around them as I opened up the cup.
"You're a winner in my heart, Ty--"
"Y/n!" I couldn't help but jump harshly as Angel called out my name. I managed to squeeze all the jello out of the cup and all over my hand. Angel's tan arms wrapped around my shoulders and she moved to peck my cheek. "I didn't see you this morning."
Was she choosing to forget about what had happened?
"Uh... I woke up late." I stuttered, looking at my now ruined jello. "Sorry."
"You should really be more responsible, Y/n." As she picked her hand up to move a piece of my hair, I couldn't help the tiny flinch. Luckily she didn't notice. "You wanna come over later to watch some Netflix?" She gave me a look similar to the one she wore last night when she first stood in my backyard, letting me know what she was implying.
"I'm sorry, Angel, but I got--"
"Let me guess. Homework? A recording session? Friends coming over?" She took her arms away from my shoulders, giving me a harsh glare. "You never have time for me."
"Angel, not here," I whispered, looking at the eyes of my friends watching us talk.
"Don't give me that BS, L/n! You don't care about me anymore!" She stood up to her full height, putting her hands on her hips. "Don't talk to me unless you wanna apologize." And she stomped away again, leaving me behind with an empty cup of jello and a hand covered in it.
"I'll be right back," I muttered, scared that I was going to start crying in front of the whole cafeteria. I speed-walked to the nearest bathroom and locked myself in a stall. I let the tears slip down my cheeks and silently cried my heart out. My jello covered hand stained my shirt, but at the time, I didn't really care.
"Y/n? Are you in here?" I went silent, hoping that Brock would go away. "Y/n, I can see you sitting in there."
"Go away." My voice broke midsentence as Brock's footsteps came closer to my stall.
"Y/n, we just wanna help you." Jonathan came over as well. "Please come out."
"I-- I can't!" I yelled, feeling broken. "I'm trying so hard to make her happy and she just can't accept it! I've been letting her do as she pleases and it feels like she doesn't even listen to me. I don't want to cuddle with her and then she stops talking to me! I don't give her a gift during Valentine's Day at school and she yells at me! I say I don't want to have sex with her and she proceeds to trash my backyard! I'm so tired of not being enough!" I was gasping for air near the end, recognizing that I was starting to have another anxiety attack. I quickly unlocked the door and smashed into the nearest person's chest, sobbing heavily. They wrapped their arms around me, swaying back and forth as I let out month's worth of tears.
"We're here, Y/n. We've got you." Brian whispered. I felt another pair of arms wrap around us and soon, everyone joined in on the hug.
And for the first time in months, I felt safe and secure.
Once my crying had dialed down, we all separated. I wiped my face with my sleeve, trying to remove any remnants of tears.
"I'm sorry."
"Stop saying you're sorry for crying. There's no reason for you to say sorry when you're this mentally torn about something." Craig gave me a stern glare, holding me by the shoulders. "Why do you say sorry every time you cry?"
"I... I've been told that crying is considered being babyish." Evan huffed, rolling his eyes at me.
"So what? Showing emotions isn't being a baby. It's being genuine. If you hide your emotions, then you're just equivalent to a robot. You should be happy that you can express yourself so well. As cool as it would be to be a robot, I think it would get pretty boring." I smiled a little, sniffing.
"You think?"
"He's right, Y/n. Craig's expressive, but he lifts like a damn champion. And Tyler screams like a preteen, but he's just as strong as anyone else."
"Hey!" We all laughed at that.
"The point is is that you shouldn't feel bad for being emotional. It's a part of who you are." I nodded, feeling confident in myself. "Now, if I were to guess correctly, I'm assuming Angel told you that." My smile quickly changed to a frown.
"How'd you know?" I asked Marcel, to which Jonathan snorted at me.
"Your girlfriend's a douchebag, Y/n. I'm sorry, but it's the Gospel Truth." I just sighed, leaning against the wall.
"I know. But I love her." Brock grabbed my face gently, making me look in his eyes.
"Think of every moment you had with her that was happy." I looked up, trying to recall every moment.
When I asked her out. Our first date. The day we went on a road trip. Her aunt's wedding. My birthday.
"Now think of every moment that you weren't happy with her."
Our first fight. Meeting my parents. Valentine's Day. LAST NIGHT. NOT EVEN TWO MINUTES AGO--
"I have to go," I muttered, a sense of urgency and determination running through me. I slinked past everyone, rushing out of the bathroom and to the lunch room. They all followed me as I walked over to Angel's lunch table, where she turned to face me.
"Are you here to apologize?" I didn't even get to open my mouth when she spoke. "Well, too bad. I'm still angry--"
"No! I'm tired of doing what you tell me!" I cut her off, balling up my fists. "Last night, you trashed my backyard because I wouldn't fuck you! And you just yelled at me for saying no to hanging out after school. I've been doing everything for you when you wouldn't even do half of it for me!" The cafeteria went silent as I was speaking, watching us argue. And for once, I didn't care who saw me.
"How dare you, Y/n! I fucking love you!" She started tearing up, fake tears to get sympathy from me. "You're going to break up with me?!"
"Uh, yeah? Was that not clear?!" She closed her mouth, shocked by my rage. "If you fucking loved me then you would've respected the fact that I didn't want sex! You would've accepted my gift during Valentine's Day and you would've respected my wishes throughout the year of me saying no! But you didn't. Instead, you manipulated me continuously with no hesitation and it's because you can't seem to get in your tiny brain that not everyone owes you anything!" Tears leaked from my eyes, but this time, I didn't care who saw. "I'm done, Angel. I want everything I ever gave you back."
"You can't do that!" She grabbed my wrist, looking into my eyes. "Y/n, I love you!"
I looked down at my now ex-girlfriend, ripping my hand away from her.
"No, you don't." And with that, I left her behind, once and for all.
As I exited the cafeteria, I watched Lui come up and clap me on the shoulder, smiling at me.
"You did good, Y/n." I smiled. And it felt really great as a whole new feeling blossomed in my chest.
"Yeah. I did, huh?" Freedom. That's what this was. Freedom from months of torture. I wiped away tears, not feeling ashamed for shedding them. "You guys wanna go ditch for some Hardee's?"
"Hell yeah!"
"Alright!"
"Yes!"
"Sure."
"Cool!"
"I'm down."
"I call shotgun!"
"I'm taking my car!" As the others rushed out, Craig stayed behind, turning to look at me.
"Are you okay?" Linking our arms together, I sighed happily.
"I'm feeling great."
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Hi im new here and i was wondering if you have an upload schedule and/or rules for asks? Your writeing is ReaLLy GOOd!!
Hi! Thanks so much! :)
I try to upload every night, but sometimes my schedule makes that impossible for me. For example, working on a long piece right now that I might not have up till tomorrow (this is a sad one, my friends).
As for rules, yeah, I do have some! They’re right here (or, if that link isn’t working for you, I’ll copy and paste under the cut). 
Some basic stuff:
Usually I’ll include all base-game companions in reaction requests. Due to popular request, I also now include Gage. An exception is if the ask relates to romance; I will then remove Strong, Dogmeat, and Codsworth from the running. If specifically asked in the request, I can put Strong and synth!Codsworth back in there, but definitely not Dogmeat.
I can add DLC companions, along with non-companion characters, to any ask received if requested. However, given that I may not know the characters as well, it might take longer for me to answer that ask.
Some stuff I’d rather not write about includes bestiality, miscarriages, and cheating in a monogamous relationship. Severe gender dysphoria is also difficult for me to write about, as I suffer from it myself. This list may be added to as time goes on.
There is a lot of media I haven’t watched. If your request involves a crossover that would require me to do extensive research into a franchise I have not seen (anything google-able is fine), then I may not be able to answer it.
While I can write about either Sole or the companions experiencing discrimination, I’d appreciate no messages idealizing or promoting the messages of racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, etc. (Basically, don’t call me slurs in my ask box and we’ll be fine.)
Sole will be written using gender neutral (i.e. they/them) pronouns. You can specify another preferred pronoun or gender in your ask, and I’ll work with it, but otherwise I’m assuming gender neutrality.
Trigger warnings for common triggers will be used liberally. If I miss one or you’d like me to add your trigger to my tags, just ask- I will happily comply.
FAQ:
How many characters can I request?
For reactions, as many of the base-game companions as you wish. Please limit it to 4ish additional characters though, if adding beyond that. For one-shots, considering that it’s pretty much equivalent to a standalone short story, I’d appreciate a limit of two or three.
Do you accept NSFW requests?
Eh, yeah, I’ll take ‘em. I mean, I might not be great at writing NSFW (haven’t tried it much before), so keep that in mind when assessing the quality, but go ahead. I will, of course, tag every NSFW post as such.
How many asks can I send in at one time?
Whoa there pardner. Maybe keep it to three or four, then have a cooling-off period for a few hours. After that, if you’d still really like to see me write an idea, go ahead and send in more. I’m flattered, though, at the excitement. :)
Who the hell are you?
I’m Jean. They/them pronouns, gay as all hell, and suuuuuper late to the Fallout 4 hype train (to be fair, though, I did get a sick bargain on the game). I really love reading, writing, and video games, so this is the logical intersection.
No, like, what’s your username?
Send me a message or an ask off-anon to get my main (which is politics and writing) or my personal (which is Todd Howard jokes and general tomfoolery).
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Firstly, apology for th delay of post. i was supposed to upload this post on th very same day as previous. well, priorities first.  lets recap over last week’s breaking fast outside. hehe. 130520 - visited my nieces and nephew. i dropby to collect some things at my sister’s place. chill for a moment, catch up w th kids and my sister(kakna). it was a good catchup w her. we used to have silent argument when i was staying in her hse. but well, i guess th air is cleared now. alhamdullilah. unfortunately, S was working pm shift. so i was alone. reached at 1500hrs and it was almost 1800hrs, in a blink. breakfast time: 1908hrs. kakna didnt knw S was pm shift, so she technically “allowed” me to go home, assuming S will be home to break fast w me. i corrected her assumption and she changed her mind to invite me to break fast at her place. (heheheh i can spend more time w th kids!) also, ibu(S’s mum) bought me food, i kinda felt bad? i mean, i was a lil stuck in between? haha. if i were to make my way home, i wont reach on time for breaking fast, so.... kakna cooked asam pedas ikan pari(favourite dish!). i ate w them and to my suprise, adam ate alot? like he ate more than  me and he topped 2x of rice? hahha, like whoa. kid, i knw youre growing, but okay chill ya. haha. okay here’s th highlight of our convo tht day; adam: ciya, you stay here la until uncle syaz(S) end work. he can fetch you. you sleep here first. me: *inner cries* its okay adam. later uncle syaz tired from work. adam: but you havent sleep w me for very long. you wait for me to sleep la then go home? me: *deeper inner cries* umm, next time okay.  --  kakna: ya, you just stayover la. rest first. syaz can come later. me: he didnt bring helmet. next time okie.  omg, these kind of convo are always pulling me back. i feel like im home, again. like, i miss this warmth from them. how can my 7y/o adam be so matured when he talk? nevertheless, i did company adam till he almost sleep. guess who is so considerate enough to think tht im going home by public and its already 2230hrs.. yes. adam insisted me to go home and reminded me tht he will call me in th morning to check up on him. (next day: he did called me at 0757hrs to ask if i had enough rest. omg i --) 140520 - this was impromptu but i guess my girls and i need a break from daily live and this CB(circuit breaker). decided to meet them at shak’s place and breakfast thr. we kinda potluck? kinda. i bought fruits and ordered CBTL for them, bella bought takoyaki and nad bought herself? hehe. doesnt matter cos wht matters most was we open up and had heart to heart talk till 0100hrs. yup, 0100hrs is obviously passed my curfew? lol kidding, no more curfew eversince marriage. but yes, S did advised to not go home too late cos he wasnt w me and didnt want anything unwanted to happen. i grabbed home while zaki(bella husband) send nad off. we didnt not gossip, i guess? haha. we watched my wedding video, embrace every seconds we had to talk and talk. single life - marriage life. too adult to handle. haha, we’ve been together since sec1, thts 13y/o till now. umm, 14 good years. we had bittersweet memories. good times. header of this post is them girls. i will treasure them all, really. we dont meet often, yet whenever we had th chance to meet, we will just blend w each other? like autolink mode: ON. till then, mira.
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