bitterbettybabbles

[bitterbettybabbles]

Bitter

-Be feminine and dainty so a Christian man will want you

-Save your virginity because you don't want your perfect Christian husband (with his own wh*re past) to think you're a wh*re

-Wear you hair natural and never wear makeup you don't want people to think you're too worldly

-You don't need college, if you go that's find, but if you don't just take care of yourself (no one ever taught how) oh and you're husband will take care of you

-Don't ask for too much because that's a turn off to people

-Don't complain about your problems because God will fix them and be grateful you have anything

-There's no money for you to go to college so you'll have to work (of course I'm only qualified for low, to no pay jobs)

-Gain some weight, guys hate skinny girls, bf always was caught liking the "thick" and curvy women

-Gains weight, ooh that's too much, you're fat, you're big backed getting called sir by men at work

-Wear your hair natural. Eww it's so nappy and short. You're bald.

-Gets locs and they grow long, she think she's all that since she grew out her hair, she's still ugly.

-You talk white, you're weird you still watch cartoons? You're childish.

-You're skin is uneven and ugly. I am so glad I don't look like you

-Your nose is huge, it takes up your whole face

-This guy likes me (to friends) oh lets add him and flirt with him online

-Talking and having a great convo. Oh you're homeschool? The person stops talking to me

-I can't wait until you turn 18 so you can get out of my house

-You contribute nothing.

-Look at people when they talk to you. Speak loud, stop being shy.

-Always being a friend to others, but noone being a friend to me

-Meeting great friends that ultimately lose interest in our long friendship after they go to college and I don't

-Believing due to you conservative upbringing that feminism is bad and that it does not benefit you

-Testing so well in your end of grade test. Being embarrassed by several community college professors because it turns out you were extremely behind in English, Math, Science, and much, much more.

-Saying I am going to start a business, but having no confidence and giving up eventually to work a series of low skilled, low paying jobs, going to college off and on.

-Secretly wanting to go to college just like my friends, but we can't afford it.

-Guys rarely being interested especially black ones who only had use for me in order to get to my lighter friends or white girls I knew

-Having $exual trauma from childhood

-In a long term engagement/relationship with a person who is nice, but can't afford to move out.

-Experiencing so much failure that life is starting to feel like a bad 90s comedy except I don't hear the audience's laughter

-Having $ex because that's the only time you feel connection anymore

-Eating yourself sick to try to fill yourself with the abundance of food because you lack love in the way you need.

-Have monthly thoughts off ending everything due to the despair and helplessness you feel

-Undiagnosed mental disorders that were disregarded as a child

-Using TikTok to try to self diagnose because the alternative costs too much to be figured out.

-Being 31 with no husband, no kids, no house, living at home, no job, and quite frankly not much hope.

-Years of cruel bullying, but WHY DOES SHE HAVE SUCH LOW SELF-ESTEEM?

-Waking up and feeling like your very existence is a burden

To you reading these may just sound like incoherent ramblings of various people. Unfortunately, these babblings, yes all of them, are mine. Despite the name I'm not completely bitter, at least not yet. Getting there though

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