bloody-impurity

[bloody-impurity]

i have really bad artistic burnout i think

[bloody-impurity]

my mind keeps telling me “you don’t deserve to eat”

i know it’s not true, but i feel like im giving in to these thoughts

#vent #tw ana #tw ana thoughts #tw ana rant #tw ed #tw ed vent #tw ed relapse

[bloody-impurity]

was it worth it? when you say there, telling me the calories of my safe foods? telling me how unhealthy it is? was it worth it to tell me i would die before my 18th birthday due to my eating, despite the fact i barely ate and was underweight?

was my suffering entertaining too you?

#okay to rb #traumacore #actuallytraumatized #trauma vent #usedcore #vent edit #tw ed vent #tw ana #tw ana thoughts #tw ana vent #tw ana rant #tw eating issues #tw ed rant #cw eating problems

[bloody-impurity]

stop looking at me.

you’re scary.

#okay to rb #traumacore #usedcore #ventcore #actuallytraumatized #tw paranoia #tw disturbing #tw creepy #cw disturbing #cw creepy #cw paranoia #tw hallucinations #cw hallucinations

[bloody-impurity]

please stop yelling so much.

#okay to rb #traumacore #usedcore #ventcore #vent edit #tw sensory overload #tw anxiety #actuallytraumatized

[bloody-impurity]

when you only apologize in front of them is your apology really genuine?

#okay to rb #traumacore #usedcore #vent edit #trauma vent #actuallytraumatized #tw neglect #tw implied abuse #cw neglect #cw implied abuse #tw child abuse #tw childhood trauma #cw child abuse #cw childhood trauma #cw child neglect #tw child neglect

[bloody-impurity]

stop looking at me.

#okay to rb #traumacore #usedcore #vent edit #trauma vent #actuallytraumatized #tw sui implied #tw sui ideation #cw sui ideation #cw sui thoughts #tw sui attempt #tw paranoia #cw paranoia #tw hallucinations #cw hallucinations

[bloody-impurity]

you know what you did.

and you knew you’d get away with it.

you’re disgusting.

#traumacore #tw csa #tw csa vent #tw csa implied #actuallytraumatized #tw sa #abuse cw #tw child abuse #cw csa #usedcore #ventcore #vent edit #trauma vent #actuallyabused #okay to rb

[bloody-impurity]

And I was so young When I behaved Twenty five Yet now I find I've grown into A tall child

First Love / Late Spring, Mitski (2014)

#lyrics j relates to

[bloody-impurity]

I don't need the world to see That I've been the best I can be, but I don't think I could stand to be Where you don't see me

Francis Forever, Mitski (2014)

#lyrics j relates to

[bloody-impurity]

cant you see that i need you, mom?

#traumacore #tw neglect

[bloody-impurity]

hello! i am j!

ask me: https://bloody-impurity.tumblr.com/ask

mental health carrd: https://mentallhealth.carrd.co

as my blog is primarily for the purpose of venting, i`d like to add these tws and cws for all future and current content of my blog, always subject to change:

s*xual abuse/grooming, neglect, self-h*rm, s*icide, eating issues/disordered eating, self loathing/deprecation, depressive thoughts, paranoia and hallucinations

all my posts will be about stuff personal to me, but i do not mind if you want to reblog because you can relate to my feelings and/or experiences

my intention is NOT to romanticize or glamorize my own trauma, it’s simply to vent and get my thoughts and feelings out anonymously

if my blog makes you uncomfortable or triggers you in any way, feel free to block me. always put yourself first <3

i will NEVER crosstag, all my posts will be tagged with “traumacore” and the appropriate tws and cws!

(tags so that anyone with these tags blocked never see my blog)

#tw sex abuse #tw neglect #tw self harm #tw suicide #tw eating issues #tw self loathing #abuse cw #cw self deprecation #cw depressive thoughts #tw ed vent #tw sui ideation #tw sui implied #tw disordered thoughts #tw disordered eating #tw grooming #tw childhood trauma #tw cvtting