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So this account isnt active anymore?

I don’t really think so sorry 😔 i don’t know if that’s forever but asides from what I just posted the last post was from spring of 2017 so it’s been pretty inactive, perhaps a hiatus, for a while

~ k

* I can’t speak for everyone but we haven’t kept in contact so I have no idea hence my random expression of appreciation to them and this community. I just don’t know

#mod k #anonymous #answered

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life has happened and it’s been a few years now but Ii was just reminded of this blog and I really hope y’all and my other mods have had some good times and progress with their mental health! I wish the best for y’all and sending love 💖💖💖 this blog helped me through some difficult times and gave me some better understanding of aspects of my mental health I was never able to have previously so I really appreciate everything

#mod k #i dont really think ill keep up or start back up again but its been a rollercoaster of a few years huh #things got Real Bad then offical ‘recovery’ and then pretending things were totally better and cool #narator voice: they were not. but bad shit happened and shit hurt but so have good things and good friends and life still sucks often #but im still trying! well sometimes #also i will not lie but affer some stuff i literally completely Forgot about this whole experience and remembered and was like ... #Where TF Was This When I Needed IT !!! #me going thru a ‘friend breakup’ with my fp who i talked about here and forgetting that oh yes these are very on brand feelings like it just #makes so much sense

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bpd moodboard

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me: *makes a post on my personal about how it's difficult to mix people from different groups in a social setting bc of my completely different personalities with each group* person: haha yeah I feel u pretty sure it's astrological antics me: ....... yeah but actually.... it's my personality disorder.

#like this is why I don't post that shut on my main #but actually I wanted a certain person to see it so they knew why I was really shitty at the last social activity #mod k #actuallybpd #actuallyborderline

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Omg my ex fp was a scorpio. So many regrets :'^)

this girl has been my fp a few times and i split with her for like 2 weeks when she broke our 180 day snapstreak and pretended nothing was wrong its so emotionally draining being with them

~ k 

#its just so much like all i do is give emotional labor and like they just shut down and say mean shit #mod k #Anonymous #answered

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bpd protip: when ur bpd ass needs validation and support and affection don't be friends with scorpios all u get is disappointment and sadness and emotionally drained bc they don't return any emotional labor at all

#:))) I'm so tired I love my friend but like I just get so low every time we interact #like she doesn't return any emotional labor #I'm just so tired and sad like I need validation and affection and support and she does not do that #mod k #actuallybpd #actuallyborderline

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i am scared to be happy because i have never known it

#mod t #txt #im feeling a lot of confusing things right now

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current bpd track: “this week the trend” by relient k 

#p #mod k #kerri talks #this song is v bpd to me

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if they didn't answer your text, they don't hate you if they opened your snapchat, but didn't reply, they aren't angry with you if they snap at you, it's not your fault if you see them interacting on social media while they haven't interacted with you, they're not doing it to hurt you if they're upset over something, it probably wasn't your fault if they fall asleep and don't answer, don't worry

#mod t #everything on this blog has been negative lately and i've been needing to hear this #and i suppose some people might need it too #actually borderline #actually bpd #ok to reblog

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bpd tip #387: don't be friends with scorpios it's a bad idea bc you'll love them and you'll just keep getting ur needy bpd heart hurt again and again

#mod k #this girl has been my fp on and off for years even before I knew I was bpd #lmao I've been in a very depression slump since this semester started a month ago #and my Scorpio friend is visiting our other friend and I'm not there and also I haven't seen either of them since the summer #and other friend is moving to Arizona in a month so idk when I'll see her again #and scorpios tease too much for my bpd heart #I'm in a bad place and worse bc they're together and I'm not and in missing out and she's teasing me and I can't handle it #my bpd need for constant validation is in shock #kerri talks

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HMMMMM IM FUCKIN IT UP AGAIN

#mod t #bpd #pic #actually borderline #actuallybpd

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Me: They hate me

Someone: They don’t hate you!!!

Me: So they’re wildly in love with me

Someone: Probably not

Me: What other options are there

Someone: There are emotions between intense love and full on hatred- emotions aren’t black and white

Me:

#lmao #mod t #reblogs

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my brain trying to ruin my new relationship with fantastical theories about why they Hate Me

#mod t #pics #this is Actually Happening To Me Rn #bpd #actually borderline #actuallybpd

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when people say my name im like.   cant believe i exist

#amazing #mod t

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the ask box is cleaned out!! feel free to send things in!

#mod t #txt

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hey okay so I have had 3 experiences that seem like they could be dissociation but I'm not sure. basically the environment around me doesn't feel real, like I'm in some weird simulation or something… idk man idk

yes, that is disassociation.

#mod t #asks