chaoslynx

[chaoslynx]

So glad ur back & I hope you’re doing well! I recently have been listening to a lot of Alex G and his song No Bitterness is so ash coded… “my teacher is a child with a big smile, no bitterness”… ash healing his inner child by being a good big brother to Michael :’) could be a good idea for a fic <3 your writing is amazing and I hope life is treating you better!!!!

Ash knows that jaded isn't a bad word to describe him, in more ways than one.

There's the color, of course. Jade. His middle name. But beyond that, Ash knows that he's ... disillusioned, shall he say, with the world around him. Jaded. It makes sense, when you've seen the things he has.

Ash wasn't out of place with this, at least not for a long time. Most of the people around him were also disillusioned. They'd all seen shit in some way or another, though hopefully few as bad as Ash. They saw past the sparkling NYC lights and into the filth coating every inch of the city, no matter how high the tax brackets became in some areas. They saw past the smiles to the teeth, and past the outstretched hands to the claws.

Ash tried to protect Skip's innocence in as many was as he could, but he was always a bit late to that. And Ash got Skipper killed in the end, so maybe he didn't do much good.

Eiji was one of the first people Ash met—past Griff, at least—who didn't share that same jadedness as he did. But there were more, after him. Well, not after, because Eiji stayed by Ash's side. But there were more people since meeting Eiji who also seemed ... hopeful, almost.

Max, stupidly, despite the war he'd been a part of. Jessica, despite the harm Ash just existing caused her. Ibe, who always seemed more than a touch overwhelmed by everything taking place in the States.

And, of course, Michael.

Michael is a little younger than Skip had been, and around the same age that Ash gained his current perspective on life. Ash is determined to not let the same happen to Michael.

When he stays over at Max and Jessica's place, Ash has his own room—the guest room, really, but they always tell him it's his whenever he wants it. This guest room is upstairs in the house, and shares a wall with Michael's room. Ash worries about this sometimes, since he knows his nightmares aren't always quiet. After the time he punched Bones' teeth out when the kid tried to wake him up from a nightmare, Ash made sure the gang stayed away from him when he was asleep, no matter how much pain he seemed to be in.

Max and Jessica told Ash that he was welcome to use the lock on the guest room door. At first, Ash was hesitant. After all, this isn't his house. This isn't his room. How could he lock the people who live here out?

It was Michael, in the end, who changed Ash's mind. Not that Michael actually did anything, but Ash realized that with them sharing a wall, there was a chance Michael would hear one of Ash's nightmares and go to check on him. Ash, of course, couldn't let that happen, so he started locking the door.

It didn't occur to Ash until it happened that he might be able to hear Michael's nightmares through the wall, too.

Stupidly, it didn't really occur to Ash that 'normal' kids like Michael even had nightmares. Not that Michael hasn't had more than his fair share of pain, much of it due to Ash's influence himself. He really should have known better ...

Still, the first time he hears Michael cry out in his sleep, Ash finds his hand reaching for a gun that's no longer there.

"Michael?" Ash calls, cautiously. Is there an intruder?

"M-Mommy," Michael says. His voice is muffled by sleep and the wall between them.

Without another thought, Ash makes his way toward Michael's room.

He might not have his gun anymore, and it might be too late for him. But as long as there's still goodness in this world—as long as there are still kids like Michael, and the potential for them to grow into adults who are better than Ash—

Then maybe Ash can push aside his own bitterness, those past memories that have jaded him, in favor of learning from someone who's never tasted their own blood on someone else's tongue.

#banana fish #ash lynx #michael banana fish #michael glenreed #prompt fill #answers #anon #sorry this took so long! #it's taking me a while to get back into the swing of writing #this could have gotten a lot longer but i wanted to try to keep it drabble-length for now hehe

[chaoslynx]

I just ordered a hardcover of I Don't Like Blue and it should be here by Saturday. I'm so excited to read it!

Sorry, I meant paperback 😭🤣

Omg thank you! I hope you enjoy it!! I have my next manuscript written already but I'm thinking about seeking out a literary agent for this one, which means it'll be a slow process hehe.

#answers #anon #i don't like blue

[chaoslynx]

omg you’re learning Italian? I’m Italian! Ciao!! Sono sicura che sei bravissimə! (ə is like the gender neutral suffix lmao even if it’s not universally recognised)

Ciao! Sì, parlo italiano, ma solo un po'. Imparando italiano per tre mesi ora! Anche xlx mix migliore amicx è italianx. Lxi usa -x invece -ə. Grazie mille per usi -ə per me! Anche -o è va bene per me. Mi dispiace se non dico questo molto bene ancora.

#answers #anon #also to the other anon ask in the inbox: i'm planning to write a drabble for you #it's just taking me some time :( sorry! still getting back into writing #also again yeah i'm terribly sorry if my grammar or general speech sucks in italian right now #it's literally only been three months since i started lol #and i've been monolingual my whole life sadly </3 #i hope this is at least kinda-sorta understandable #feel free to reach out over DMs or in my discord server or whatever if you want to talk more! i only know a couple italian speakers rn

[chaoslynx]

“the ocean will beckon you to return”

#banana fish #ash lynx #eiji okumura #asheiji

[chaoslynx]

Prayer.

#banana fish #ash lynx #banana fish fanart #ash lynx fanart #banana fish ash #ash banana fish #anime art #fanart #anime and manga #my art #id in alt text #religious themes warning

[chaoslynx]

hehe hi

last song: We Don't Have To Dance by Andy Black (I listen to every genre of music I can get my hands on, so my Spotify history is always a bit of a mess!)

favorite color: gray (and I refuse to acknowledge the deniers of gray as a color)

sweet/savory/spicy: sweet (I'll eat any flavor in moderation, but I do have a bit of a sweet tooth! Side note: when I first heard the term "sweet tooth" as a kid, I asked the adult who said it which tooth was sweet. She said, "All of them, I guess," and I got upset and asked why it wasn't called "sweet teeth" then.)

relationship status: single (with no plans for this to change -- I'm happily aroace)

current obsession: Banana Fish (but outside of that, I've been tearing through audiobooks lately, started learning Italian, got back into drawing and writing, and got really invested in computer keyboard switches!)

last thing you googled: speed test (I've been having issues with my laptop connecting to the internet lately and I've been diagnosing it and attempting different fixes for several days. Today I finally gave up and made backups of important stuff and then wiped and reimaged the whole computer by reinstalling the OS to fix any potential software or program issues. I've been working on this all day, so the "speed test" Google was to pull up Google's built-in internet speed test to compare the internet speed now, after reimaging, with beforehand, over ethernet and wifi on various networks and compared to my ISP's speed test before and after as well, to see if the reimage fixed it or if I'd have to replace the network interface controller. It fixed it btw! And I've already restored the important backups, so now I just gotta reinstall all the programs I desire. Sigh.)

tagging: literally all of you! I want to get to know my followers better! If you're seeing this at all and it strikes your fancy, feel free to reblog and tell me a bit about yourself as well! :)

9 people you’d like to get to know better

tagged by @stabbyfoxandrew ! <3

last song: technically ‘first burn’ from hamilton BUT I was listening to ‘too sweet’ when I hit publish :))

favorite color: gray!! but if you’re someone who denies gray being a “color” then blue

sweet/savory/spicy: all!! (agreed with aerie, sour is great too!) I frequently split the skin on my lips so I can’t always eat spicy food unless I want to light my lips on fire :’)

relationship status: taken (dating)

current obsession: reading and back in my atla obsession as well!

last thing you googled: I think I was either looking up stuff about swords or if there is a physical copy of snufkin: melody of moominvalley for the switch haha. I don’t have history saving on my phone </3

tagging: @luvbug724 @bananafishiguro @chaoslynx @fresasconsal @detectivebambam @potential-fate @hologramsaredead @a-little-less @des-spite

and anyone else if y’all want!

#tag game #rekikiri #long post ish kinda sorta #also sorry to use the tag game to vent a bit lol. hi everyone i'm happy to be here

[chaoslynx]

Chapters: 1/1

Word Count: 2474

"Ash?" Ash flinches back from the sound of his name, though he recognizes the voice. It's Shorter—he knows it is, even in his current state of mind. What scares him is that he can't tell what Shorter wants from him. Just because it's never been something that hurts before doesn't mean it never will be. "Ash, buddy, come back to me."

Which one is the facade?

#banana fish #banana fish fanfic #ash lynx #shorter wong #writing #shorash

[chaoslynx]

I don't know how much you know about DID but I'm a system and I have an ash lynx fictive and your fanfics really help us so thank you

Hello! I have some friends with DID, but my personal and professional experience with it are a bit more limited than other trauma and dissociative disorders. Still, I'm so happy to hear that my writing can be helpful to you! I'm very much in support of readers getting whatever is most helpful to them out of a fic, and I don't go at my writing with a specific intention for the readers -- I intentionally leave a lot of things up to reader interpretation because I like for y'all to be able to draw whatever you need from it. So this is nice to hear for me as a writer, since readers finding something helpful to them in my work is really all I could ever ask for!

#answers #anon #testimonials #dissociative identity disorder mention

[chaoslynx]

hey i've been reading through your fics and i just love them! i especially love your max and ash fics bc i am a sucker for parental relationships. i know you primarily write fix its but would you ever think about writing a like canon compliant one from max's pov about his like reaction to ash's death?

omg I hope you're okay, I keep an eye on my kudos summary emails and you read 11 of my fics in one day and then 22 the next day and I've been slightly worried lol

Thank you for the ask! I wouldn't be opposed to one day writing something like that, but honestly I have a lot of trouble writing fics where Ash dies or is dead. I think I've only really written one drabble like that in response to a request for Eiji visiting Ash's grave. (Here's the link!) I've also recently been struggling to write much at all, so I don't want to promise something that's so difficult for me to write quite yet. I'm sorry!

If you haven't yet, I really recommend reading this canon side content, which is a letter that Max wrote to Ash post-canon after Ash's death. Since I'm not able to write what you want for you at the moment, I wanted to offer you an alternative, and I really love this piece. I think it might help fill what you're looking for!

Genuinely hope you're doing well! Let me know if you'd like to talk about anything or join my Discord server or anything -- I always get a bit worried when I see people binge reading that much of my content just because I know I have a fairly intense approach to the subject matter.

#answers #kermit-coded #testimonials #sorry i can't write that right now but i hope this helps! :0

[chaoslynx]

Romeo and Juliet by Sergio Cupido but bananafish

#banana fish #ash lynx #eiji okumura #asheiji

[chaoslynx]

Ash has the opposite of a green thumb.

Credit for dialogue goes to my friend @itsmusicgirlactually !

#banana fish #ash lynx #max lobo #my art #banana fish fanart #banana fish anime #banana fish manga #ash banana fish #banana fish ash #max banana fish #banana fish max #id in alt text

[chaoslynx]

Yeap

#banana fish #eiji okumura #ash lynx #asheiji

[chaoslynx]

do u gays wanna hang out w me on discord

i have ??? server

#hi i miss u all

[chaoslynx]

Happy Valentine's day 💘

#ash lynx #banana fish #eiji okumura #asheiji

[chaoslynx]

At the bar

#SCREAMS ANA I LOVE YOU AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #banana fish #asheiji #ash lynx #eiji okumura

[chaoslynx]

#banana fish #ash lynx #eiji okumura #asheiji

[chaoslynx]

Full offense but your writing style is for you and nobody else. Use the words you want to use; play with language, experiment, use said, use adverbs, use “unrealistic” writing patterns, slap words you don’t even know are words on the page. Language is a sandbox and you, as the author, are at liberty to shape it however you wish. Build castles. Build a hovel. Build a mountain on a mountain or make a tiny cottage on a hill. Whatever it is you want to do. Write.

#writing #!!!!!!!