chaoticcollectorbird

[chaoticcollectorbird]

do you ever get in those moods where you don’t feel like reading and you don’t feel like being on the internet and you don’t feel like watching a show and you don’t feel like sleeping and you don’t feel like existing in general

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do you think the moon loves us back the way we love her?

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well i guess it's just me and my unconditional love for the moon against the world

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23|11|2020

Had college at 10. Planned to wake up at 4 am but haha didn't walk up until 9:30

Of course my outfit wasn't planned so yeah. Need to rush choosing my outfit. Had 2 lectures and 2 toturials . So tired. But yeah. Now it's 4:38 .

Wanna sleep but trying to make it till 10 so I can wake up early tomorrow. Have a lot of assignments and stuff to study.

Wanna be productive but yeah I am actually on my bed so yeah. I hope i won't sleep. Gonna plan my day I wish. And then do whatever I have to do.

Anyways gonna update that so yeah.

UPDATE.

Feeling lil better now bought my logic kit and actually started taking things in a positive way.

Went for a tiny lil walk which really helped .

I smell so f***ing bad so gonna take shower and do some work.

Went to buy Harry potter 2 and it wasn't there So yeah doesn't matter it will come on Wednesday.

I am feeling like a bad b**** after my dad told me that I am easy to learn and my English is good. English is my second language so yeah.

also feeling so much good after drinking tea with milk . Wasn't a productive day but actually Productive so yeah.

gonna clean my space and shower and do some work and then go to sleep cause I am gonna wake up early tomorrow. PERIOD.

I thought it will be lil update but yeah.

It is not the most aesthetic picture but not everything needs to be perfect

#productivity #tired #school #learn #education #college #chaotic #perfect #end perfection

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*Enters a bookstore*

me to myself: be calm

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1|40 days of productivity

I really wasn't that productive today gonna try my best tomorrow

Did not go to college. Didn't go out for a wake

Take notes of my is course. Did a 15 minutes coding thingie

Doing some assignments for tomorrow. gonna sleep so I hopefully wake up early and be productive.

Yeah that's it.

😭

Really need to do more cause my mid starts 5th dec.

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I wish I was a Jane Austen character so that instead of going insane, i could've gone to London with my aunt and uncle when things got rough.

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Online lectures are something else. It's just me sitting not listening and then being tired for the rest of the day.

Also motivational quote via Tommy Shellby ☆

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Hey although i have no followers but here I go so actually doing this for myself

I wanna make 40 day productivity challenge cause I am running out of everything (aka energy, motivation, happiness) and I am freaking lonely this days so yeah.

So here a list of things that i consider productive or i wanna focus on.

So since my mid is 5th the next month I need to study more.

Studying:

Need to study 6 hours a day effectively

Those 6 hours include revision and studying new stuff

Working on the sheets

Code more ( problem solving)

Mental health and physical health:

Journal

Meditation

Yoga/stretching

Reading

Cleaning my room

Hydration

Eating my meals

actually that is all what i want to focus on besides waking up and getting out of the bed as early as I can ( cause it can be really hard for me sometimes )

#motivation #happiness #loneliness #stublr #studying #mental health #meditation #yoga

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no one:

me: feels guilty for not reading, yet still doesn’t read

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“I’m learning to love the sound of my feet walking away from things not meant for me.”

— Unknown

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i don't WANT to live in a society i want to live in a bookstore cafe

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I think it’s beautiful how every action we take is an act of hope. Taking a shower: hope that I’ll feel clean and refreshed as I start the day. Washing berries for lunch: hope that they will taste good and that they will give my body the nutrients it needs. Studying for my classes: hope that I’ll learn something valuable, do well on my tests, and achieve my goals. Going to sleep: hope that things will be better in the morning. The simple act of doing anything is proof that we have some hope for the future.

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how am i supposed to “major” in something and continue building my life around it when my interests completely change every 2 years and i am struck at unforseeable intervals by an inescapable need to make a fresh start

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the reason you were able to read more and do more activities in a day when you were a kid than you do as an adult isn’t because you got stupider, it’s because as a child you generally had your base needs taken care of and your schedule provided to you, so you didn’t have to use as much of your mental and physical energy on planning, life maintenance (ie food and administrative tasks), and general executive function. of course you could focus on reading a novel in two days, somebody else made your lunches and you never thought about phone bills and you didn’t even have to decide for yourself when to take a bath. c’mon

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“She says nothing at all, but simply stares upward into the dark sky and watches, with sad eyes, the slow dance of the infinite stars.”

— Neil Gaiman, Stardust (via meineluft)