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2017 Father’s Day Speech for my Dad.

He may seem intimidating to some but he's the sweetest to me; He may be frightening to some but he's the funniest to me; He may seem strict and stern but he's got the softest heart for me; He may be grouchy most of the time (haha) but he's the most affectionate to me.

To the man who read me stories each night that inspired me to read books; To the man who gave me lots of baon so that I can eat whatever I want even though Mom says no; To the man who's tough love shaped me to who I am today; To the man who strived to motivate me to be the best version of myself; To the man who always listens and never disappoints; To the man who's weakness is seeing me cry; To the man who's the smartest, wisest, and the most gumptious of all; To the man who always gives me the love I deserve; To the man who treats me like a princess for 18 years and counting; To the man who taught me how to love and be loved; To the man who introduced me to Jesus, and to put Him first in everything I do; To the man who's my first critic, mentor, #1 fan, and my first love; Happy Father's Day, Dad. ❤ Thank you for everything. I love you.

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2017 Mother’s Day Speech for my Mom.

To the person who handles me so well at my worst, and utterly deserves me at my best; To the person who shaped me to who I am today (by feeding me loads kaya ang taba ko nanaman 😂); To the one who has the huge amount of patience to tolerate a 5-year old girl in an 18-year old body; To the one who tolerates my mean jokes and annoying banters every single day; To the person who wakes me up at 5 a.m. everyday even though she said, "Ang tanda mo na, ako pa rin ang gumigising sayo! Bahala ka dyan gumising ka mag-isa" the night before; To the one I can share my deepest, darkest secrets with and laugh at me for labelling that as a 'secret': "Secret ba yan? Ay nako kahit di mo sabihin alam ko na"; To the person that keeps this family sane, happy, and syempre, clean: "Maligo na kayo anong oras na" "Luisa maghugas ka nga ng paa mo ang dumi-dumi tas itatapak mo dito sa kama" "Carla yung kama mo parang binagyo nanaman ayusin mo nga bago ka mag-laptop"; To the one who handles 300+ teenagers a year in school and still manages to handle her 2 annoying children at home (plus her husband na annoying rin hahahaha); To the person na simula ng nanood kami ng Legend of the Blue Sea nilamon na ng K-drama HAHAHAHA; To the one who's ever so adorable when she goes on machine gun-mode: "O anong ginawa niyo buong maghapon nakahilata nanaman kayo ng kapatid mo nagwalis man lang ba kayo o naglampaso sino naghugas ng pinggan o ang gulo nanaman ng kama Luisa ayusin mo nga puro higa lang kayo di niyo naman inaayos o yung pinagkainan niyo iligpit niyo naman ako pa rin ba magliligpit nito ha kauuwi ko lang ano ba kikilos ba kayo o hindi blah blah blah blah..." HAHAHAHA; To the person who is always optimistic, always so strong, and always ever ready to face the challenges in life; To the one we call "MOOOOOOOM!" "MAMA MAMA MAMA" "MAAAAAAA SI ISAY O ANG KULIT" "MA SI PAPA AYAW AKONG PAYAGAN KAUSAPIN MO NGAAAAAA"; To the person who looks, smells, and feels like home; To the one who's the bravest, most humble, down-to-earth hooman being I know;

Happy Mother's Day, Mom. 😊 I love you. <3

#mom #mothersday #mama #happymothersday #filipinomom

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she wished on every

shooting star she saw

just to let her 

see if someone would

catch it and 

make her wishes

come true.

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I wish someone would tell me that they’re afraid to lose me.

I wish someone would tell me that it’s not alright if I got left behind, or that it’s lonely when I’m not with their company.

I wish someone would see right through my “go ahead”s, my “I’m okay”s, and my “It’s alright”s.

I wish someone would upright tell me that I deserve to be happy and to be loved despite my failures.

I wish.

[claradanica]

💥💥💥

I could tell you how awesome my day was, But you’re just too busy.

I could tell you about the sweet, old couple I saw on the coffee shop we used to go to, But you’re just too busy.

I could show you a photo of the breathtaking sunset that I took earlier, But you’re just too busy.

I could share to you how the book that we bought ended, But you’re just too busy.

I could tell you how the stars looked like as I stared under the night sky, But then, you were just too busy.

I could tell you how dinner was so bleak ‘cause I’m alone, But you’re just too busy.

I could tell you why my pillows are soaked with my tears right now, Why the lights are all turned off, Why I can’t seem to find the strength to eat, Why my eyes are puffed and red-rimmed, Why my heart is breaking into thousands of pieces that it kills me everytime I try to put them back together 'cause it cuts right through my hands and my arms and to my cluttered, wasted, devastated state of mind,

But then, you were just too busy.

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No more long text messages. No more sweet efforts. No more sincere hugs and kisses. No more food trips. No more stay-ins and cuddling. No more.

Said the angel to the mundane.

#tmi #tid

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Fresh from Baguio 🍓🍓🍓🍓🍓

#strawberry

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Shark Week Pain.

Iba. Iba talaga yung sakit na naramdaman ko kanina. This wasn't like any other pain. It was excruciatingly painful. My mind was numb, I felt like a robot programmed to go home as fast as I could. But with the exception of pain. It was the kind of pain where it hurts so bad you can't even open your eyes. That you can't even cry your heart out because it blinds you so much. I've never had this kind of pain until now. It was an "oo sige, gagawin ko na ang lahat mawala lang tong sakit na to" kind, that made me realize, I've had enough. I'm so tired. I'm just gonna let it be, hoping that it'll go away eventually. And it did, after it made me close my eyes and surrender to the pain. Sleep does make you forget the pain. For a while, that is. P.S. Dami kong drama. Ganito ko pag shark week. Hahaha. Artsy and poetic. ✌ Give me a break, I need an outlet for this pain. Ugh.

#sharkweek #girlproblems

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...but that's half the trouble with this bloody country, isn't it? No one's willing to face their responsibilities. It's always someone else's fault. Boo hoo hoo.

-Martin, A Long Way Down by Nick Hornby

#a long way down #nick hornby #books

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I'm back.

Tumblr calls me back. Blogging calls me back. And here I am. See you in a while.

#i'm back

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Letters

Letters

Carla Laussane Onilla

  The alphabet contains 26 letters.

26 letters that can be formed into

Words,

And words that can be formed into

Sentences.

  Words that are made up of two letters, three letters,

Four letters, five letters, so on and so forth.

  Words that can be made into

Compliments like

"You're so beautiful."

"I love your shoes."

"You did awesome today."

That will make your day a little better than before.

  Words that can be used to

Describe like

Wonderful, amazing, terrifying, outrageous,

Marvelous, and breathtaking

That will express what you feel deep inside.

  Words that can

Sympathize, and show that

You care for others.

"It'll be alright."

"You're gonna be fine."

"I understand the way you feel about it."

It will make you see things more clearly,

And believe that there's always sunshine after the rain.

  But there are also words to express

Pain.

Pain. Loneliness. Anger. Greed.

Self-pity. Stress. Hatred. Sadness.

"I hate you."

"You are a failure."

"You are worthless."

That will make you feel as if

You shouldn't not exist anymore.

Nevertheless,

There are words made to encourage.

"You can do it!"

"Do your best!"

"We're here for you!"

"Good luck!"

That'll make you feel,

That there is always hope.

  Words to show

Love, affection, and concern.

"I love you."

That'll make you feel as if love is really

All that matters.

  Love. With words we can love.

With words we can be loved.

With words we can appreciate.

With words we can be appreciated.

With words we can make others happy.

With words we can be happy.

That's how powerful words are.

  A single utter, can change the way you see a person.

A group of words, can change the way you see yourself.

A sentence or two, can change your life.

  So the next time you use

Letters

To form words,

And words to form

Sentences,

Use it to the best of your interests.

Use it wisely.

#englishmajorkasi #poem #poemsporn #letters #words

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Sophomore Year

Tomorrow’s gonna be my first day as a a college sophomore. and I don’t know if I should feel excited or not. But since I have loads of motivation to get my courage from, I believe this will be a great year. Hopefully. Wish me luck! :)

#school #firstday #sophomore

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Confessions: Parce que Tout a Changé

I’ve always dread the thought of my heart stopping in a random moment. Possibly hate it if that moment was really special. But I would never have believed that I could experience it, ever in my monotonous life.

Especially now. As in right now.

I kept on finding the right moment to tell you those precarious words, and often I got impatient and just wondered, if I had told you those words sooner, would it be believable? Would it drastically change the way we look at each other right now? Would it make things so, so complicated? And every time my answer was yes.

So I kept on searching, waiting for that one moment.

That special moment where as children, we were made to believe that saying those words would have to happen in perfect timing, where the mood and setting is magical and wonderful and all those flowery adjectives teeming in a supposedly, fairy tale. A fairy tale.

And I’ve always pondered if fairy tales do happen. Do exist, in particular.

I grew sceptic, to the point where I strongly agreed that those things are meant to be heard, known, and believed when we were still children, and only up to that point.

Because growing up does not make you see life as a fairy tale, but a true story. A gruesome, horrible story.

Well, not all the time.

But then, I realized that we will never have those kinds of magical moments as shown by the mass media. However, we’ll have and we will create our own beautiful moments that we can strongly compare to those things. Memories where we can truly feel we’re the princess in the story, or the hero, or simply just the skimpy character in the side-line, who in the end may just have played a vital role in the story.

And this is one of those times.

You just gave me one of the best days ever. We went out on a date, we laughed at your goofy antics, we took silly photos, we ate our favourite food, and in the end that sweet, sweet moment put the vibrant cherry on top that made me decide that this is it. This is it.

We were lying on the grass, looking at the stars as they twinkled far from the usual glimmer they usually show. My fingers were trembling, and I can see you were starting to notice my uneasiness. So you teasingly looked at me. Fiercely, I may add.

This is really, really, is it.

“Hey, I have something to tell you.”

Seconds, minutes, precious moments passed. So you just continued to look at me, and slowly raised your eyebrows, expecting a follow-up riposte. But then I felt my confidence slowly pouring down the drain, so I just looked at you awkwardly. Then I saw the frustration in your eyes. Oh, your eyes.

You even sulked for a while, because you kept on waiting for me to say what I have to say. Then I gathered all the courage I have left for that day, rolled over to your back (as you were lying on your stomach), bent close to your ear, hugged you for a sec, and said those three little words.

“I love you.”

You inwardly smiled, and I saw it even though I knew it wasn’t for my eyes to see. But after a short while, you rolled onto your back, faced me, held my face firmly, looked into my eyes, and came with an unexpected response:

“I love you too.”

And I swore, at that moment, the stars felt like fireworks shooting up in the sky.

#everythinghaschanged #love

[claradanica]

Meat Commercial #3

Clara: Gusto mong makarinig ng joke?

Danica: Sige sige.

Clara: ...

Danica: O ano na?

Clara: JOKE!

👏👏👏

#joke #corny

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THE BEST LIKE LITERALLY THE BEST LIKE MY HEART IS FLUTTERING HEARTS FEELS OVERLOAD

#sam smith #lay me down #john legend

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Meat Commercial #2

Clara: Anong pagkain ang may magic?

Danica: Ano?

Clara: Edi, Tu-ron! *fireworks*

Danica: Eh anong pagkain naman ang nakakatakot?

Clara: Ano?

Danica: Banananaaaaaaa. Banananaaaaaaaaaa. *piano*

#corny #jokes #huhu

[claradanica]

Rant Rant Rant 1

Nakakapagod din palang sumakay ng lrt ng 5 beses sa isang araw. Dahil lang sa naiwan ko yung damit ko, nakalimang pulang ticket ako. 

o diba ansaya?

pero dun ko natutunan ang kahalagahan ng oras. yung tipong maya't maya tingin ako ng tingin sa relos ko, tinatimingan ko talaga ang bawat kilos at pupuntahan ko. tas may pa-foreshadow effect pa ko, na eto ang gagawin ko pagkababa, pagkadating sa bahay, at pagdating ulet sa school.

tas maaga pa kong umuwi dahil sumakit nanaman ang ulo ko.

tuwang tuwa pa naman ako nung nakita kong silver train yung dadating. tas pagdating ng carriedo, bigla kaming pinababa. ansaya saya talaga.

may "technical problem" daw. hayss. then after 10 minutes, dumating na ang pang-limang tren ko sa araw na ito. 

heaven sa lamig. pero nangangawit na ko sa bigat ng bag ko.

pagkauwi ko, higa agad. pahinga,

tas kain. practice ng choir.

and then this. RANT RANT RANT.

pero masaya. masaya pa din talaga.

it will never change..

exhaustion. 

-Clara Danica 

#diary #day #lrt #train #school