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[dazatsu-exchange]

Dazatsu Valentines Day Exchange

Posting my exchange art on here finally.

To be honest i was to anxious to ask for your Tumblr and i also didn't want to ruin the surprise but that doesn't matter cuz i have it now *insert finger guns hear* >:)

Host:@dazatsu-exchange

Giftee:@oceansunsets

#for oceansunsets #art #UE UE UEE UEE #THEY'RE SOULMATES YOUR HONORS #they look so peaceful..... so happy together............. #I'm at my limit I'm gonna sob into my hands

[dazatsu-exchange]

title: a gift, just for you (4,1k)

pairing: atsushi nakajima/dazai osamu (bsd)

tags: valentine’s day, gift giving, dazai asks for advice (shocker), dazai shows that he’s actually rich

rating: general audiences

summary:

dazai makes a plan to give atsushi the best gift he possibly could, after the weretiger left him speechless with a bouquet of flowers

this is my @dazatsu-exchange gift to @endlessparadox07 !! decided to post it here as well <3

ao3 link here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/37116982

Dazai Osamu was stumped.

It was odd to consider, as usually he knew what to do for practically everything. He wasn’t as smart as Ranpo - he could never compare to Ranpo’s smarts - but he was still pretty intelligent and well respected in the Armed Detective Agency. Well…maybe respected wasn’t the right word. Some workers did look up to him, but others were aware of how mischievous he often acted.

Putting that aside and focusing back to the point: he was stumped. Why was he stumped? Well, because Atsushi had given him a thank you gift and he was determined to return the favor.

But what could he possibly give Atsushi in return?

He didn’t want to overwhelm him, but he also didn’t want to get something cheap. He wanted to get something that would last for a while and that Atsushi would be able to hold onto for a long time.

Not to mention that Valentine’s Day was right around the corner!

Dazai was determined to make Atsushi’s day, no matter what it took. But first, he just needed to get some advice…

~

“You want…advice on what to get Atsushi-kun?” Yosano sounded confused, staring at Dazai with a raised eyebrow. He didn’t usually come to her for advice on this sort of stuff. Whenever he planned things, it was always in secret and no one ever knew what was going on until it was already happening.

“I know it may be really odd to hear me of all people asking for advice, but it’s really important and I have to know before at least the fourteenth.”

Yosano still seemed suspicious. “How am I supposed to trust that you aren’t going to do something really mean to Atsushi-kun, or to the rest of us?”

Dazai whined, pouting at Yosano. He felt betrayed, but at the same time it made sense that Yosano was hesitant. If he ever asked for help, it was mostly to prank someone. However, this time was different and he needed Yosano to understand he was being serious.

“I know it’s hard to trust me on this,” he started, sighing and leaning against the counter, “but I’m serious about needing help. I don’t plan on pulling any pranks, I just want to make Atsushi-kun happy.”

Yosano studied him, only looking away to restock her items. She considered his words, closing the cabinet and turning to face him.

“Well, you said you need a plan before the fourteenth, right? Why not offer to take him out to dinner at a place he’s always wanted to go to?” She shrugged. “Or maybe you could get him a stuffed animal and some sweets? He always seems happy to get those.”

Dazai considered those ideas. He could surprise Atsushi by taking him out to dinner, but that wasn’t something he could hold, and he wanted to actually hand a gift to Atsushi. The stuffed animal and sweets could work, although he would have to do more digging to figure out what would be best…

After a moment of thinking, he decided he would have to ask more people. At least he was one step closer to figuring things out.

“Thanks, Yosano-sensei, I’ll keep your ideas in mind!” He waved to the doctor, moving away from the counter and walking over to the door to her office. He opened it, then turned to look at Yosano again. “I’ll be sure to inform you on if things go bad or not! Buh-bye~”

The door closed behind Dazai as he left, narrowly avoiding his coat getting caught in the doorway. Yosano shook her head fondly as she watched him leave, sighing.

She hoped Atsushi appreciated whatever Dazai gave him.

~

Over the next few days, Dazai made various different plans, each one depending on how Atsushi reacted to being asked out to dinner on Valentine’s Day. If he accepted, then Dazai would bring him to a nearby restaurant that sold chazuke and proceed from there. If he declined but didn’t have any other plans, then Dazai would ask if he just wanted to hang out at home. If he declined and had other plans, then the subject would be dropped and Dazai would continue on with his day.

It was currently the thirteenth, just a few minutes away from lunch.

Dazai was leaning back in his chair, avoiding the paperwork on his desk as always, instead deciding to look around the office, his gaze soon landing on a certain weretiger.

Atsushi had his gaze focused on the computer in front of him, typing up reports to missions he had done over the week, occasionally pressing the backspace to fix any errors. He stuck his tongue out a small bit, as he usually did when he was really focused. Dazai found it cute.

Once lunch break started, Dazai got up, his hands in his pockets as he made his way over to Atsushi’s desk. “Oh, Atsushi-kun~”

He watched as sunset-colored eyes lifted from the computer screen to focus on him, blinking in confusion. “Yes, Dazai-san? Do you need something?”

Ah, Atsushi was so cute…

“Lunch break started,” Dazai pointed out, taking his hand out of his pocket to jab his thumb towards the clock, showing how a new hour had started, “and I was wondering if you’d like to go down to Uzumaki with me. I’ll pay.”

A frown formed on Atsushi’s lips as he studied Dazai. “But, you never have any money on you…please don’t tell me you’re going to steal Kunikida-san’s wallet again.”

“I’m so wounded, Atsushi-kun!” Dazai whined, pouting at his subordinate. “You have such little faith in me! I was going to use my own money this time, I swear!”

Atsushi still didn’t seem very convinced, but gave in either way, moving to stand up after saving his progress. “I’ll believe you when I see it happen,” he shook his head, closing his laptop for now. “Will it be just us, or is someone else coming along?”

Dazai tilted his head, as if thinking about his answer, although he was already very well aware of what that answer was. He didn’t want anyone else tagging along, especially when he had a very important question for Atsushi.

“Just us!” He finally answered, grinning at the weretiger. “What, do you not want to spend some time with your oh so wonderful mentor?”

The look he got in return was great, and he half wished he could take a picture of how unamused Atsushi was. It was very cute, although he was sure Atsushi would’ve immediately disagreed if he said that out loud.

“No, that’s not it…” Atsushi shook his head. “Nevermind. Lead the way.”

Dazai grinned, leaving the office with Atsushi, heading downstairs to the cafe. Once there, he opened the door for Atsushi, gesturing for him to go in first. “Kitties go first~”

Atsushi playfully rolled his eyes, walking into the cafe and waving at the owner. Dazai made sure to close the door behind him as he followed Atsushi inside, happily strolling over to one of the empty booths.

There weren’t very many people in the cafe, which was pretty normal for this time on a weekday. Either way, it was a very peaceful environment, perfect for calm talks and lunch breaks.

“So,” Dazai spoke as Atsushi was in the middle of looking through the menu, causing the weretiger to look up at him with a confused look, “do you have anything planned for tomorrow? It’s a pretty special day, after all.”

“Special day?” Atsushi repeated, only looking even more confused as he shifted to pull his phone out to check the date, blinking. “Oh, right. Valentine’s Day… I was just going to stay at home tomorrow. Don’t really see any point in doing anything…”

Dazai brightened up at that. Perfect. Atsushi didn’t have any plans.

“How would you like to go out to dinner with me, in that case?”

“...Eh?”

The look on Atsushi’s face was priceless. His cheeks and ears gained a red tint to them, and his eyes became wide while staring at Dazai. “I- you…you mean as…as co-workers, right?”

Dazai waved his hand around, tilting his head. “Maybe I do, maybe I don’t. It’d be fun, wouldn’t it? Just the two of us, going out for some yummy dinner on Valentine’s Day…”

“But…” Atsushi bit his lip, shifting in his seat, the red tint to his skin never leaving, “wouldn’t people mistake us for being a couple…? I mean, especially if it’s just the two of us… aren’t you worried about that? And besides, wouldn’t you rather spend that day with…with some girl?”

Ah. Right.

Dazai has never told Atsushi that he’s bisexual. Of course he would assume that he’d rather be with a woman.

“I’m not worried about it if you aren’t,” he shrugged, finding no reason to worry about the possibility of strangers perceiving them as a couple. If they did, there was nothing Dazai or Atsushi could do to stop them.

Atsushi bit down on his lip, still worrying about something. Was Dazai aware of how he felt for him? Is that why he was asking him out to dinner for Valentine’s? Did Ranpo tell him?

After a moment of thinking it over, Atsushi finally sighed, not looking at Dazai. “I…I don’t mind going to dinner with you. It should be fine, right? Even if it’s just the two of us…”

Dazai grinned, reaching across the table and resting a hand over Atsushi’s, giving it a reassuring squeeze before letting go. “Of course it’ll be fine! You have me around! What could possibly go wrong, Atsushi-kun?”

He ignored the slight eye roll from Atsushi when he said that. If things worked out as Dazai planned them, which they usually did, then everything would be perfectly fine.

~

February 14th

Dazai kept checking the time on his watch, spinning around in his office chair and occasionally whining to Kunikida about how bored he was. He didn’t want to be in the office when he had such big plans for tonight with Atsushi!

Speaking of…

He looked over at Atsushi, noticing how he was intensely focused on his computer, typing out reports and responding to emails. Dazai smiled to himself, finding Atsushi to be really cute when he was so focused on something. He made a small noise when feeling something bonk his head, turning to look at Kunikida, who was holding a rolled up newspaper.

“Get back to work and stop staring at your coworkers, Dazai.”

Dazai stuck his tongue out at Kunikida. “I’ve already finished my work, Kunikida-kun~ I’m just waiting to be freed! I have big plans tonight, y’know.”

“Sure you do. Knowing you, you’re going to laze around at home and get drunk.” Kunikida rolled his eyes, setting the newspaper down and turning his gaze back to his computer, ignoring Dazai’s whine at his words.

“You have no faith in me!” Dazai huffed, pouting. “I actually have a date, I’ll have you know. And the longer I’m stuck here means the less time I have to prepare!”

Kunikida raised an eyebrow, glancing at Dazai. “You have a date? Don’t tell me it’s some random woman who you’ll just break the heart of at the end of the night and leave her stranded.”

The loud whine that escaped Dazai in response to such words was enough to make Atsushi look up from his computer, blinking at Dazai and trying to figure out if something was wrong. If Dazai wasn’t focused on being a menace to Kunikida, he would’ve teased Atsushi for worrying about him.

Instead, he smiled at his subordinate, feeling his heart flutter when Atsushi smiled back.

Oh how he wished to see that smile more often, directed at him…

The rest of the day felt like it went by so slowly. Dazai so badly wanted to get out so that he could go on his date with Atsushi. Ah, right, did Atsushi even consider it a date? Or did he just consider it a friendly outing with his mentor?

Dazai really hoped he wasn’t the only one to see this as a date.

When work was finally over, Dazai practically bounced out of his chair and went over to Atsushi, tapping his shoulder to get his attention. He waited until Atsushi was looking up at him before he spoke.

“Dress in something nice.”

That’s all he said before turning and walking out of the office, coat swaying behind him. Leaving Atsushi to stare at his back, not even sure on how he was supposed to react.

Dazai headed home, digging his keys out of his coat pocket and unlocking the front door. He stepped inside, sliding his shoes off and closing the door behind him, letting out a sigh. He shrugged his coat off, hanging it up before walking further into the apartment, his gaze landing on a certain gift resting on his couch.

It was a simple gift, nothing too fancy, just a bag of candies with a tiger plush sitting on top, along with a card and some pictures that Dazai had printed out himself, covered by tissue paper. He had done his best to get something that Atsushi would like.

He had even asked Kyouka what she thought Atsushi would like, as long as she promised to keep the plan a secret. And so far, that has succeeded. All Atsushi knew was that they were going out for dinner and that was it. He didn’t know where Dazai would be taking him.

Dazai hopped into the shower to get nice and clean, making sure to wash his body really nicely. He wanted to look good for Atsushi, and besides this was the first time in a while that he actually had the energy to take care of himself.

Once out of the shower, he dried off, making sure there wasn’t any more water on his body before grabbing new bandages and wrapping his arms and neck. He hummed to himself while getting dressed in a simple black suit with a blue tie, looking at himself in the mirror while fixing the tie to make sure it laid correctly.

He tucked one side of his hair behind his ear, using a silver hair clip to keep it in place. After a bit of considering, he opened the cabinet that was beside the mirror and grabbed some silver earrings that he kept in there.

Not many people knew that he had his ears pierced, as he didn’t wear earrings very often. Yosano knows, if only because he had gone to her once to get new backings for his favorite pair since they had gone missing.

Chuuya is also aware, as they got their ears pierced at the same time. However, Dazai didn’t want to think about him anymore. He had to get ready for Atsushi, after all!

After making sure the earrings were in correctly, Dazai took a deep breath. He could do this. All he had to do was go and get Atsushi, go to the restaurant, and then give Atsushi the gift.

He’s got this. He’s Dazai Osamu, after all!

He left the bathroom, turning the light off, and heading into the living room. He picked up the gift, making sure the items inside remained hidden. He didn’t want Atsushi to see the items before he was ready to give the gift to him.

Dazai checked the time as he walked to the front door to get his shoes on. It was twenty minutes until it was time to meet up with Atsushi. He considered how long it would take to get to the restaurant before leaving his apartment, humming while making the trip to Atsushi’s.

He knocked on the door once there, waiting for an answer.

About two minutes passed before Kyouka opened the door, blinking at Dazai before turning to call out to Atsushi. “It’s for you,” is all she said, watching as Atsushi peeked out from the bathroom. He ducked back in, long enough to fix his hair and shirt, then stepped out and offered a small wave to Dazai.

“Hi, Dazai-san. I thought you wouldn’t be coming by for another twenty minutes…”

Dazai shrugged, admiring Atsushi. He was wearing a simple outfit that consisted of a gray button up with folded sleeves and a black vest, along with black pants that were cuffed. The longer strand of his hair was braided, and there were bunny hair clips in the shorter part, probably from Kyouka.

Either way, he looked really cute and Dazai really wanted to kiss him.

“Wanted to stop by early,” Dazai finally responded, “figured if we leave early, we could catch the sunset by the time we leave the restaurant. That is, if you’re ready.”

Atsushi blinked, before nodding, fixing his vest. “Uhm…I should be. I just need to get my shoes on and then I’ll be done.” He turned his attention to Kyouka. “Kyouka-chan, will you be alright on your own?”

Kyouka nodded, even gently pushing Atsushi over to the door so that he could get his shoes on. “I’ll be fine. I’ll call if I need anything. I know where everything is.”

Atsushi seemed glad to hear that, patting her head. “Alright. I’ll be back once we’re done with dinner!” He smiled at Kyouka, tugging his shoes on and turning to Dazai. “Alright, we can go now!”

Dazai hummed, leaving the apartment with Atsushi. Kyouka closed the door behind them, waving goodbye to them both. Atsushi lingered for a moment, at least until he heard the click of the door locking, before heading down the stairs with Dazai.

It was mostly quiet as they walked to the restaurant, both of them just taking in the other’s presence. Dazai opened the door to the restaurant once getting there, letting Atsushi go in first, then followed him inside and walked up to the front desk.

“I have a reservation under Dazai, table for two.”

The receptionist nodded, finding the reservation before grabbing two menus and guiding Atsushi and Dazai to their table. Atsushi looked amazed at how fancy the place was as he sat down, looking around the building.

“Woah… it’s really fancy here, huh?” He turned his gaze to the menu, opening it and staring at the prices. “Dazai-san…the food is really expensive. Are you sure it’ll be okay to eat here?”

Dazai waved a hand in dismissal, setting the gift bag down beside his feet while getting situated in his chair. “It’s completely fine, I’ll cover the bill. Don’t worry about it, Atsushi-kun. Get whatever you want, my treat.”

Atsushi still seemed hesitant on the idea, but eventually nodded, deciding to not fight Dazai on the matter.

Throughout the night, they talked about various things, laughing about things that have happened at work, and having a very nice time with each other. It was peaceful and nice, not to mention the fact that Dazai got to hear Atsushi’s beautiful laugh.

At one point, Atsushi decided to mention something that’s been on his mind the whole night.

“By the way, Dazai-san… what’s with that bag?” He pointed at the gift bag with his fork, blinking at his mentor.

“Oh, this?” Dazai picked the bag up, looking at Atsushi and smiling at him as he handed the bag over to him. “It’s for you, Atsushi-kun. Think of it as my own thank you gift to you.”

He found it amusing how Atsushi looked very surprised from being handed the bag. He set his fork down, carefully taking the bag and setting it on his lap. He glanced at Dazai, just to make sure this wasn’t some kind of mistake, before opening the bag and carefully taking the items out.

He pulled the plush out first, staring at it in awe. It was very soft and easy to hold. Not to mention that it was of a white tiger. He was sure that Dazai did that on purpose.

After setting the plush aside, he pulled out the pictures. There were six total.

The first one was taken after the Agency had defeated the guild, with everyone gathered together and celebrating. There were smiles on everyone’s faces, some having a flush to their cheeks due to being drunk, like Yosano.

The next one was during Halloween, when Ranpo had gotten everyone to dress up in different costumes for fun. All of them were with the Agency in one way or another, except for the very last one. The last one was a picture of the fireworks that they had seen just a few weeks ago, and Atsushi had said he wished he had gotten a good picture of them because of how pretty they were.

Atsushi looked up at Dazai in surprise after looking through the pictures. Dazai was watching him with a fond look, smiling at him. The weretiger could’ve sworn his heart flipped in his chest after seeing that smile.

“You…printed these out for me?” Atsushi managed to ask, looking back at the pictures. They were even laminated!

Dazai nodded, looking quite proud of himself. “Yep. I had some help, Yosano-sensei was the one who had the pictures so I had to ask her for them, but it was fully my idea.” He tilted his head, asking an obvious question: “Do you like them?”

Atsushi nodded, smiling at Dazai when looking at him again. “Yes. Thank you so much…”

Dazai cleared his throat, not used to being thanked for something like this. He simply nodded, shoving down the feelings that were bubbling up. “There’s more,” he mentioned, gesturing to the bag.

Atsushi looked into the bag, reaching into it and grabbing the candies, giving a small ‘woah’. They were candies he’s seen Ranpo eat before and had made a passing comment about how he kinda wanted to try them. He didn’t think anyone had been paying attention.

He blinked when seeing the note, picking it up after setting everything else aside. He glanced at Dazai, before turning his attention to the card, opening it to read what was inside.

Happy Valentine’s Day, Atsushi-kun

I hope you enjoy your gift

There’s a special place I’d like to take you after dinner

It’s important

Dazai ♡

Atsushi looked up from the card once he was done reading it, focusing on Dazai. “You…want to take me somewhere?” He asked, closing the card and watching as Dazai nodded.

“Yep,” he grinned at Atsushi, “do you want to go now, since we’ve finished eating?”

Atsushi thought about it, carefully putting the items back into the bag to make it easier to carry everything. “Uhm…yeah, sure. I don’t mind.”

Dazai made sure to pay for the bill, not letting Atsushi see the price, before getting up and leading him out of the restaurant. The sun was beginning to set as they left, casting Yokohama in a pretty orange glow.

Dazai soon stopped once getting to a bridge, leaning against it and looking out to the water, admiring how pretty it looked with the sunset. Atsushi hurried over to him, probably worrying about the possibility of Dazai jumping off.

He wouldn’t, not around Atsushi. Besides, he had important news for him.

“Isn’t it gorgeous?”

Atsushi blinked, looking at Dazai, then looked at the water and nodded. “Mhm…the sunset is always pretty. But, is…is there a reason you wanted to bring me here, Dazai-san?”

Dazai hummed, turning to face Atsushi, admiring the way the sunset casted an almost angelic glow onto the weretiger. How fitting, considering Dazai often thought of him as an angel who had been sent down to save him.

“I wanted to say thank you, Atsushi-kun.”

“Huh?” Atsushi turned his gaze to Dazai, looking confused as to why he said that. “For…what?”

Dazai reached out and fixed a part of Atsushi’s hair for him, admiring him. “For sticking around me, even after finding out that I used to work for the Mafia. For seeing me as a good person, even after everything you’ve witnessed.”

Atsushi tilted his head, before smiling at Dazai. “Of course! Dazai-san is a good person! You saved me, countless times. If you weren’t good, you wouldn’t have done that.”

Ah.

Dazai wasn’t expecting this to be turned around on him like this. Really, Atsushi was too sweet for his own good sometimes…

He rested his hand on Atsushi’s cheek, watching as he leaned into the touch. He considered something, wondering if it would be a good idea, before deciding to throw caution to the wind as he leaned down and pecked Atsushi’s lips.

“Happy Valentine’s Day, Atsushi-kun.”

After murmuring those words against his lips, Dazai pulled back and turned around, stuffing his hands into his pockets as he walked back home, his heart flipping in his chest from such a bold action.

Leaving behind a very confused and flustered Atsushi, watching him leave with wide eyes.

#for endlessparadox07 #fic #how can dazai be so smart but so stupid #this fic makes you question that like ten times the usual #he's such a dummy #boo boo the fool #clown man #at least he's trying ig #I'll give him a pass just bc its hilarious

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Title: zinnia (2,9k)

Pairing: Dazai/Atsushi

Tags: Pre-Relationship, Grief/Mourning, Introspection, Hurt/Comfort, Canonical Character Death

Rating: G

Summary:

Kunikida asks Atsushi to keep an eye on Dazai after he disappears for awhile.

Warnings: Extensive talk about dealing with the loss of a loved one

My gift for @/AngelSpiritFox and written for the @dazatsu-exchange. This is a bit of a somber one, so it’s a little strange to say this but happy Valentine’s Day. (And honestly did you expect anything other than angst from me?)

Also, link to the fic on AO3 is in the source!

*

Atsushi knew something was wrong from the moment Kunikida approached him and asked, “Do you know where Dazai is?”

Though the cause for concern wasn’t the words itself—Kunikida asked about Dazai’s whereabouts often enough, considering how addicted the man was to disappearing without a word. What alarmed him was Kunikida’s tone: exhausted, yes, but somber. The cadence of his voice lowering into a bottomless pit, something empty and resigned. Atsushi looked around in hopes of finding a clue as to what was going on, but his coworkers seemed as lost as he felt.

Slowly, Atsushi shook his head. “No, I haven’t.” He chewed on his bottom lip. “Did something happen?”

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V-DAY DAZATSUUU!!!

HELLOOO ALL! Tis that time of year again, Valentine’s Day! <3 And in honor of that, @dazatsu-exchange has run a Valentine’s event for Dazatsu! You all know how much I love this pairing, and for it to be celebrated not only on V-day, but my birthday is extremely sweet!

Like a box of chocolates :3

So! I present my gift to @arqueritehg !!! I hope you like it!!! <3 

They requested some Dazatsu cooking, and lord almighty the SMILE I had when I got this prompt, and I possibly imitated this GIF:

And while I was worried of the outcome, and Atsushi’s arms made me want to throw my precious tablet out the window, I am happy of the final product <3

Again, I hope you like it @arqueritehg and thank you @dazatsu-exchange​ for running this amazing, cute event!!! 

Now, tis time to drown myself in all of the Dazatsu V-Day content. If I never return, then you all should know I died a happy death :3

#for arqueritehg #art #LIGHT #LIGHT MY BELOVED #your mind!! #you cook up (pun unintended) the sweetest art #you do amazing with these simple but cute prompts #you're amazing #i love you for it #and also happy birthday <3 #(i did not reblog this to the wrong blog what are you talking about)

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Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

My dear @mossymint ,

I've made this for you!! 💜💜

I had a really fun time making this, from the research to brainstorming to colouring and I hope you like it! I tried to mix up all the prompts in some way or form. And yes, Dazai's painting is a reference to No Longer Human but also a reference to Dazai-sensei's real life self portrait!

Thank you to @dazatsu-exchange for hosting another wonderful event to look forward to!

#for mossymint #art #man this is soft..... #you know when people say life is about the little things? #this is it #this is them and their little things #and everything is right with the world #I'm not gonna cry I'm not gonna cry I'm n

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Hello hello @aceissour ! It seems that you’re my giftee~

I picked your first prompt to draw! I did some research for this message, hope I didn’t get it wrong haha

I’ve already posted this on Twitter as well, hope you like it!

@dazatsu-exchange

#for aceissour #art #I feel so strongly about this piece #listen #wanting someone to be well #hoping for their safety #hoping they'll love themselves just as much as you do #there's so much raw emotion in that #it gets to me so badly #silver you're a genius #thank you for putting your art straight in my brain #it lives there now

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“A gift...?” Atsushi asked, confused and flustered. “You don’t have to give me anything, really. Not that I don’t appreciate it!”

Across from him, Dazai smiled, in that way that made him look particularly cat-like. His hand found Atsushi’s, and though there was a table between them, Atsushi suddenly felt they were sitting far too close. 

“But what if I want to?” Dazai replied, head tilted. It made his brown eyes catch the sunlight. Atsushi frantically told his own heart to stop pounding.

5 days left to apply!

#dazai osamu #nakajima atsushi #dazatsu #dazushi #bsd #countdown

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the current valentine’s day app is still winter themed but i wanted to make sure that was a mistake and the prompts don’t have to still be winter oriented??

I apologize, that was an oversight on my part! I used the Secret Santa form as template and didn't realize it sill said that in the prompt section.

To make it every clear: there's no theme for Valentine's exchange. You can request anything you want.

Thank you for the question anon 💕

#asks #anon

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Welcome to Dazatsu Valentine’s Exchange! A new year begins and with it, we’re now here to celebrate the day of love. Take out your best romance tactics. How about some roses, hm? Apps are open!

What’s an exchange?

An event where you’ll create a gift for someone and get one yourself. Works and creators stay a secret until the day of the reveal, on Valentine’s!

Schedule:

Jan. 7 ~ Jan 14 |  Apps are open

Jan. 15 | Apps close @ 00:00 EST

Jan. 16 | Match-ups sent

Jan. 16 ~ Fev. 10 | Creation period

Feb. 10 | Works are submitted to the mods 

Feb. 14 |  Works posted and revealed

Discord server:

Since the exchange is also being held on Twitter, our “main hub” we’ll be Discord. We’ll have a server to communicate with each other, plus assignments, check-ins and the preliminary submission (Dec. 16) will all be done through DMs on Discord. You can’t use Discord for any reason? Don’t worry, you’ll still be able to participate, you only need to inform how I can reach you for the course of the event!

All participants will receive an invite to the server after signing up.

General rules:

All works must be Dazatsu-centered.

This is a SFW event, so graphic content is not allowed.

Promoting bigotry will get you banned from the event.

All works must be original and created specifically for this event. They also should be finished pieces.

You must post your work to either Tumblr or Twitter on Valentine’s Day (Feb. 14).

Writers must write at least 1k words, in comprehensive English. Artists must have a finished, fully colored piece (sketches and rough drawings are out of question).

Detailed guidelines and application form are both linked in the blog’s description. If you have any questions, feel free to contact me.

#dazai osamu #nakajima atsushi #dazatsu #dazushi #bsd #announcement

[dazatsu-exchange]

Hello my loves. It's been a very, very long time. I apologize for the absence. Let me cut to the chase and announce that there will be no Secret Santa this year, as you probably could tell (life got in the way, all that jazz).

I'm sorry I won't be with you guys for the holiday season this year but (this is the important part)! I'm considering doing an exchange for Valentine's. Procedure would be the same as always, but this time we'd have a Valentine's/Spring theme! I'd like to know if there's interest so I can begin making the schedule and all that stuff!

If the dazatsu peeps are still out there, make some noise.

(Also!! I have not been around the fandom in a long time. If someone else already has a claim for a dzat Valentine's event, please let me know asap!!)

#dazai osamu #nakajima atsushi #dazatsu #dazushi #bsd #announcement

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This is my gift for @galliechan for Dazatsu Secret santa 2020. I am your secret santa! I hope you enjoy the read and i hope it passes your expectations.

And thank you also for the mods who organized this event, I am glad to have the opportunity to join this event.

Love to all and happy holidays!

@dazatsu-exchange

#to galliechan #fanfic #WERE THEY LISTENING TO MARIAH CAREY #PLS THIS IS TOO MUCH DJDJDNDDNDNN #why is fic so gotdamn funny i cant deal with it omg

[dazatsu-exchange]

Title: fabricated distance

Pairing: Dazai/Atsushi

Rating: T

Word count: 10,2k

Tags: High School AU, Childhood Friends, Pre-Relationship, Miscommunication, Fluff and Angst

Summary: “Oh, what are you doing for Christmas this year, Dazai-san?”

“Same as always,” he mumbled.

There was no reason to break tradition with your childhood friend, was there?

Notes: Secret santa written for @endlessparadox07 in the @dazatsu-exchange.

*

“A. Tsu. Shi. Kun!”

Atsushi yelped awake when something hard hit the back of his head. He looked around dazedly to find Dazai’s smiling face hovering close to his own. Atsushi blew a breath that played with his friend’s bangs and threw it to the side.

“…You’re too close,” Atsushi complained and pushed Dazai’s face away.

He held both hands up and stretched. Dazai watched with amusement.

“How rare for you to sleep in class like this! That’s more my thing than yours.” He peered curiously into Atsushi’s sleep-hazed eyes. “Not sleeping well lately?”

Atsushi shook his head.

“Not that I’ve noticed. I guess I dozed off waiting for you all this time.” He returned Dazai’s look, but not before giving his friend an once-over. He looked no different than usual, no new injury added to his scar ridden skin. “Club ran late today?” Atsushi mused.

“Hmm, something like that.”

Keep reading

#to endlessparadox07 #fanfic #me again! this time more unhinged!

[dazatsu-exchange]

Title: picture frame

Pairing: Dazai/Atsushi

Rating: G

Word count: 1,7k

Tags: Fluff, Domestic, Established Relationship, Writer Dazai, Photographer Atsushi

Summary: "Your tired smiles, your warm eyes. I collect all the important parts of you, protected by picture frames."

Notes: This is my gift for @katsuriya! (Katsu ily). Written for @dazatsu-exchange.

*

"Can't you guys just do whatever you want? It's not like I would know anything about organizing events like this. Yeah, I know I signed up for it but— Kunikida-kun, this is torture! You're bullying your author! I'm gonna die of a heart attack… Yes, yes, I'll do it, geez."

Dazai had been on the phone with his editor for the better part of the last two hours. Atsushi watched him pace around the low table of the living room. If it were possible, he would've digged holes with the force of his footsteps alone. After that last sentence, Dazai cycled through a series of empty "uh huh", "yes", "alright", until he finally put the phone down with a sigh.

"Atsushi-kun…" Dazai whined. He slumped, then crouched, then finally lied down with his face to the floor. "This is unbearable."

"Is Kunikida-san being strict as usual?"

"As usual? It's much worse than that!" Dazai slapped the floor weakly. "Just because it's almost New Year, it shouldn't affect my schedule. But I have the deal with the manga department now, and I'm technically the co-author, plus they can't get anything through without my approval. I've been pulled into their holiday season events, it's awful."

Atsushi, feeling sympathy for the clearly overworked author, padded his way and joined Dazai on the floor. He sat down on his knees and patted Dazai's head gently.

"Thank you for your hard work."

Dazai gurgled some sound that Atsushi couldn't decipher the meaning of, and made no further attempt to communicate. Atsushi continued to play with Dazai's hair until he had wallowed long enough to feel ready to roll over and look up at Atsushi. There were clear dark circles under his eyes.

"This is what happens when you actually do your work," Dazai whispered mutinously.

Atsushi laughed and threatened to let his editor know he said that. Dazai, betrayed, pinched Atsushi's thigh. Because Atsushi was a good person and he loved his partner very much, he ignored the sting and leaned down to kiss Dazai's cheek.

"Would you let me do a photoshoot with you?" Atsushi asked.

Dazai lolled his head to nuzzle against Atsushi's knee. He looked up at Atsushi questioningly. "Right now?"

"Only if you want to," Atsushi reassured. "Nothing fancy, you don't even need to change clothes. I think it'd be a nice distraction."

Dazai hummed; Atsushi felt the vibrations up his leg. He squirmed a little.

"If it is your desire, than it is also mine, there's no request I would refuse except for those that cause you harm," Dazai said in a low voice. It sounded like a quote, maybe from something he was working with. Though, it could just as easily be something he came up with on the spot. It was hard to tell, with Dazai.

"You're really too much," Atsushi admonished.

Dazai laughed, tired but carefree. "If you insist, then, in normal terms that's a yes."

"Let me get my camera."

Atsushi got up to do that and changed the lens to one of his best ones. Besides that, Atsushi didn't bother with any other equipment, though the lights and reflectors that seemed to be in Dazai's place more than his own were readily available. These pictures were just for himself, so he would work with whatever lighting there was.

(There was a special allure to Dazai that couldn't be captured quite right in artificial light.)

Dazai was still in the same spot when Atsushi came back, drawing invisible patterns with his index finger and whispering to himself.

Atsushi waited until he stopped to ask, "New idea?"

"A flash of inspiration that might save me from my writer's block in the future."

"That's some powerful inspiration."

Dazai raised his hand to Atsushi, who helped him up by the arm. Dazai rose in a smooth arc, directly into Atsushi's embrace. Atsushi poked him the ribs and pushed him away.

"I can't take your picture with you clinging to me like that."

"Ah, love is such a fickle and cruel thing," Dazai said. Despite his words, he stole a kiss as soon as Atsushi's attention flickered to his camera. "What do you have in mind this time?"

"Something for the New Years sounds fitting."

Atsushi explained what he had imagined, and Dazai, knowing the layout of his own house much better than Atsushi, suggested the locations that would be most fitting for the setting. It was a good thing that Dazai already wore a kimono as his default outfit, with the addition of his most comfortable haori and a fortune charm that he held in his calloused right hand, it made for enough of a nice image to go with the theme. Atsushi held back from saying anything when Dazai held the charm to his lips in an almost kiss, his eyelashes lowered delicately.

Not for the first time, Atsushi was impressed by the sheer size of Dazai's house. Every time they did one of these photoshoots, Atsushi felt the house became warmer; all the corners that were too empty, too sparse were filled with movement. The ghosts lingered less like this.

For the final picture, Atsushi directed Dazai back to the low table. Thankfully, the sliding door facing the garden let in enough light to capture Dazai in the gray hues of winter with his face half illuminated by it. It made for a pretty picture, even if Dazai ruined the atmosphere by biting into a mandarin like he would an apple. Atsushi's eyebrow twitched.

"Atsushi-kun, this isn't even an actual kotatsu," Dazai complained as he flopped down while Atsushi checked the last series of pictures. "This entire photoshoot is a sham."

Atsushi paused to raise his eyebrows at Dazai. He looked pointedly at the low table. "So now you admit it's not a kotatsu?"

"Well, it has the table and the warm blanket over it. It's close enough, right?" Dazai patted the tabletop. "This does the job nicely. Why would I buy a new one just for the heater?"

"You could just buy a heater by itself."

"Irrelevant."

"You're just a cheapskate."

Dazai snorted inelegantly. In this position, lying as he was, his hair fell over his eyes, half obscuring them. Both his arms were held above his head, and the sleeves of his kimono slid down to reveal rolls of bandages; the dip went low enough that Atsushi wondered if he would see a grimplss of naked skin, if he tilted his head just right. As if catching on to his thoughts, Dazai watched him like a hawk, his eyes half-lidded. There was a smile tugging at the corner of his lips.

Atsushi made a gesture for Dazai not to move, and raised his camera to capture that expression. As he stared at the resulting picture, Atsushi thought that, out of all the other pictures, this was the one he specially wouldn't show to anyone.

"Atsushi-kun, you're getting some sort of impure thought, aren't you?" Dazai teased.

Atsushi coughed lightly. "I'm not."

"You always get this guilty look when you do it, just so you know," he helpfully informed.

Atsushi quickly turned his head. "It's just your impression."

Dazai wormed his way to Atsushi, shuffling about on his elbows. Atsushi finally relaxed from the awkward pose he had forced his legs into to get the frame he'd wished for. As soon as Atsushi let go of the camera, Dazai reached for his hand.

"Hm." Dazai poked each of Atsushi's fingers with his own. "Did that make you feel better?"

Arsushi blinked in confusion. "I'm the one who should be asking you that."

"You really shouldn't!"

"I thought you were doing this to help you forget all the publishing stress?"

Dazai gave him an indulgent smile. He let go of Atsushi's hand to reach for his camera, hanging from Atsushi's neck. Atsushi, even though still confused, lowered his head so Dazai could remove the camera. He set it aside a safe distance away from them, and pulled Atsushi down so they were in pile on the floor. Dazai wrapped an arm around Atsushi's waist.

"You get so focused on others you don't even notice your own stress, do you? It's not the worst coping mechanism, but it does make you quite oblivious your own feelings." Dazai let his words sink in before adding, "It's okay if you're not doing your best."

Atsushi inhaled carefully. Dazai's orange-like scene clung to his lungs. He relaxed onto Dazai's body.

"I dislike winter," Atsushi confessed. "It makes me think of being cold and hungry. I… I feel a lot better when I don't have to think about it."

Dazai tightened his grip. "Alright. Then I'm glad to be a distraction." He paused. "Ohhh, maybe I should start writing poems. My specialty is prose first and foremost, but I'm sure I could pull it off. I'd give you a bunch of lovesick poems, and then you'd be too preoccupied being completely, utterly in love with me."

"I'm already completely, utterly in love with you, Dazai-san."

"Then completely, utterly, ultra in love with me."

"I'm pretty sure you just want an excuse to procrastinate your new manuscript."

Arsushi couldn't see it, but he just knew Dazai was grinning. "Just a little bit. Ah, but I'm serious. You always look at peace when you take pictures of me—does wonder for my ego, by the way—, so I'm glad to be your model when you need it."

"That's because…" Atsushi took a moment to compose his words in a way that would make sense. "Usually you take pictures to feel nostalgic about the past, knowing that moment will never come back. When I take your picture, it's more like proof."

"Proof of what?"

"That I still love you, just like I loved you then. Just like I'll love you tomorrow. I think the stability of it gives me comfort when everything else is hectic."

Silence.

"Dazai-san?"

Atsushi pushed himself to his elbows. Dazai was quietly glaring at him, his face pink. Atsushi was stunned. He tried to reach for his camera, but Dazai gripped both his wrists.

"I can't handle you sometimes," Dazai managed to croak out. "I'm going to make a character who is pretty much you, and pair him with a self-insert, then have a tragic, dramatic love story for them. Don't test me."

Atsushi giggled. "Don't threaten me just because you're shy!"

"Atsushi-kun, I don't have a single shy bone in my body, take that back!"

Atsushi just watched with fondness as Dazai went on a tirade on all the ridiculous antics he would put his characters through. Atsushi chose not to let him know his heartbeat was frantic in his chest.

I love you, it wanted to say. I love you and you're wonderful.

#to katsuriya #fanfic #oh hey das me #hello everyone I hope you're all doing well and know I appreciate you from the bottom of my heart #gently hugs you

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@dazatsu-exchange Secret Santa Alarm

@ladytective ! *waves* you are my giftee <3 I hope you will like this dazatsu oneshot even though it probably got a lot more angst than you originally settled for^^’ Merry Christmas and everything well to you <3

Also huge thanks to the mods that made this little event possible in the first place! It was a lovely experience.

#to ladytective #fanfic #still amazed over your pacing #its the thing that stood out to me the most #the smooth way one scene goes to the other..... #the delicate handling of how the scenes are presented and how the theme is portrayed.... #big chef's kiss #amazing #wonderful #lovely

[dazatsu-exchange]

Surprise @glitchycolors​! I am your Secret Santa this year!

I absolutely loved the prompts and had so much fun drawing it! I love with Kitsune Dazai so any opportunity to draw him is always a treat! Merry Christmas Glitchy, and thank you @dazatsu-exchange​ for running this event!

#to glitchycolors #fanart #DAZAI KITSUNE???? #BRO????? #pets him pets him pets him pets h #this is so sweet they look so happy and caught in each other #i want this for them #i also love love atsu'w cherry blossom kimono #adorable #I love u tiger man