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[hskeleven]

Art Crafted Like Poetry in Motion

People want to be known for “something” People want to be associated for “something”

For me, I never fully knew what that “something” was in regards to music

Depending on how people saw me, immersing myself with music, and how I do it, that was the key

However, I know I ain’t an artist because all I do is covers and I never truly made anything original or produced something that I called “mine” but one day it will happen.....or not lmao

But I’ve come to terms what I’m more suited for, where I can be more fitting I am definitely not a “real” musician who can do anything/everything but I can become someone who can help others reach their goals, give their art come to life

There are many roles, many hats to wear, different identities to display in the world of music (Excluding music industry for that is a completely different realm of discussion) and I noticed that I am more in the audio engineering (This can come down to 3 or 4 roles such as setting up mics, gain staging, tracking, then mixing/editing the multi-tracks to make one song lol) and bit of producer (This is the person who wants to hear certain parts pop out to give the song contrast, or do hear song arrangements be made like tempo, key, style to give the song character)

Yes I am a musician, yes I can play instruments and yes I can sing and honestly, I can be labeled an artist to a certain degree but it has nothing to do with my lack of confidence to be better or to be the best I can be It’s a matter of what I enjoy doing more and I like to track, edit, and produce songs because I find that to be more fun, I find that more enjoyable because I want to make whatever my ideas are to make the song be come to life

I’ve been recording for 5 days of myself playing, myself singing, and myself mixing/editing worship songs I’m not completely shocked with the way the tracks are coming out but what I am surprised is how limited I’ve become with the way I play my instruments

I am more geared to expanding and practicing because I think it is really necessary to hone and refine your skills in anything you do because that is how you stay on top of your game and you stay sharp (hone, refine...pun haha)

I will be doing more music since I ain’t going to work for awhile and rather than wasting my time and not grow in something, I decided to refocus on music and really get back into what I am passionate about, what I love, what I enjoy, and what I always did

#art #music #production #audio engineering #artist #musician #musician's soul #audio production #home studio #craft #poetry in motion

[hskeleven]

Perception is Key

I’ll keep this short because I know I can blab for days til next year haha

I know people are losing their minds, getting bored, and they’re probably feeling like they’re trapped because of COVID-19

Yes being quarantined sucks Yes being away from people sucks Yes living a normal life that we all should never take for granted sucks

However, let me just clarify something and I’ve seen some posts I am a believer and I am 100% certain and confident that God is providing us what many of us has asked despite the circumstances not being in our favor

I, like many others probably asked God for the following 3 things Rest Peace and quiet Time for ourselves, for our loved ones

Guess what, God has given us that He is giving us rest....rest from our “busy” schedules, our jobs, school, and other commitments that we are to fulfill in our lives here on earth He has given us peace and quiet....although this isn’t really anyone’s ideal way of having peace and quiet but because of being lockdown, there are far less people outside He provided us time for ourselves, for “me” time, and if family is altogether, we have been granted time for our families, loved ones granted following social distancing since nobody is willing to take the risk

Not everyone is going to take my words in a positive manner Everyone is probably concerned about when they can go back to work to make a living again, or when can I be able to go back and hang out with my group of friends, or when can anyone be able to go out and have a normal routine where we can be out and do whatever we want

Here’s a reality check....we had that be given to us but we’ve all taken that for granted When things are good and it gets cut short, we always feel like we didn’t make the most of what was provided When things are bad and it seems like we are having mental breakdowns or being stressed by negative like the media striking fear into everyone, then we always feel like we can’t make the most of this bad situation for it seems grim and hopeless

How we view things matters because it is our choice on how we are going to handle the situation, how we are going to “make the most of anything” whether it is good or bad

The storm is here and it’s here for a long time However, people are doing their best to stay strong, hopeful, and praying that things can be back to normal....where stability and sustainability is going to return real soon

For now, let us all try and make the most out of this bad situation I know I’m trying to and I hope I can continue to because I might not have another opportunity like this where I really can have all this time, whether I use it wisely or not, I know for a fact, I will never ever have this amount of time for myself in a long time so I will do my best to make the most of it

I hope you can do the same and keep yourself occupied, be productive, and maybe do something that you always wanted to do

Maybe it’s to read those books that’s collecting dust For artists of all kind, maybe it’s time to finish that song, or release your craft to the public, or it’s time for you to really hone down your skills that you’ve been wanting to do so

There are “plenty” to do but it is all on you Perception is key and I hope you be able to do the same as I did

#perception #making the most of it #different perspective

[hskeleven]

The Storm Will Pass

In the midst of this horrible scary situation of the COVID-19 I will not lie to anyone and say I am not concerned one bit However, that does not mean I have gone into panic mode and allowed myself to go on a frenzy to stock up and keep myself “ready” for whatever may come

Instead, I am rather calm and decided to take basic necessary precautions Stay away from public places unless I have to be out Wash my hands as often as possible to prevent anything to spread If I or anyone is coughing, cover it

I know right now, we are in the pandemic due to this virus being so difficult to trace and to catch the symptoms before it surfaces so it can be determined how to quarantine, treat, and keep people from spreading it further

Despite all of this chaos, this fear the media instilled into so many people, I choose to have my faith, put my faith in God because He will protect me That does not mean I can go around and do whatever It means I too have to play my part, to do my role to keep myself and others safe

The storm is here and it looks big However, God is bigger and the storm will pass because no matter how loud the storm is proclaiming to be mighty, God will always be more mighty over anything in this earth

#chaos #disorder #dysfunction #panic

[hskeleven]

In Christ, Through Christ, For Christ

Lyrics of the song will be posted below

Been playing this song and I remember the first time I heard this song, like many great amazing praise and worship songs...this song has never been more compelling to me for reasons I will list below For a long time, I had issues with stress for I never learned to properly cope with it until recently and I was really proud of myself that I finally overcame my stress

However, just because one issue has been resolved doesn’t mean you solved everything that can be an issue| As of late, I have been dealing with anxiety but it isn’t developing into something where I need professional help No my anxiety isn’t causing my stress to spiral out of control No my job is not the cause of it But I know that my anxiety is not gonna get the best of me

So why does this song compel me?  What is in the lyrics that strikes such emotions within my heart? Songs like this, simple words that can be so deep, going beyond the meaning is the very reason why this song is resonating with me as of late

The qualities of Christ are the reason why I am who I am I may not be perfect and I never will be but one thing I have is Christ

This world leaves me hurt, I feel empty, and it’s dark and cold but I am content, satisfied, and filled with hope and joy with Christ Christ has provided me my current job, He’s given me people that i know who are going to be in my life for a very long time, He has always pulled me up when I’m down, He’s carried me when I couldn’t move

He is greater, but through His grace I was able to be do more, when I was less, when I was nothing

One of the ways I can move on, one of the ways I can express myself the best is through my words in written format I don’t really like to talk much, I don’t like to do any sort of talking unless I am with people I’m comfortable with

However, there are things that I have gone through, circumstances and situations that I was led into for my own best interest because I know that I need it, not that I wanted it because God knows best

This is all I wanted to share Thank you for reading God bless!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JwyuPvNjhUM

In Christ alone will I glory Though I could pride myself in battles won For I’ve been blessed beyond measure And by His strength alone I’ll overcome Oh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand

In Christ alone I place my trust And find my glory in the power of the cross In every victory let it be said of me My source of strength, My source of hope Is Christ alone

In Christ alone do I glory For only by His grace I am redeemed For only His tender mercy Could reach beyond my weakness to my need And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord

#In Christ Alone #Moment of Peace #Serenity #Peace #Hope

[hskeleven]

Dear Life

Let’s get along

We had something great going on and it was really smooth I was enjoying so much in life until something literally dragged me back and reminded me of something I thought I didn’t want to think about or re-experience ever again

So....I’ll try a bit harder and I hope we can be back to how things were

Thanks

[hskeleven]

Towards the End of 2019

Been some time since I wrote anything

I feel like 2019 has been an interesting year, full of good and bad like every year Started off in an odd manner, faced some difficulties, and it was a rough start

Even now, some things hasn’t changed about me such as ...................... no need to mention that lol However, one thing that I can say that changed about me is I’m on my way to adulthood, took a different route that I never expected to even enter, and I guess I’m getting more and more comfortable to show people who I am

The ones that really know me, know what kind of person I am The ones that get to know me, they get to see bits and bits of my personality The ones who judged me prior to getting the chance to see more of me, I guess they just view me to be awkward still, too quiet, and out of place

And yet, I will be honest to myself at one point because I’m not the type to lie to myself

Although I have met some great people, some that I can go out and meet, to call them my friends, I know I should be happier because this is something I have always longed for

Not necessarily belong or fit in with a group but just the opportunities to be able to socialize and do things I missed out during my younger days

I still feel out of place I still feel like I don’t belong Although I have no need to prove myself or say something to show my worth, it seemed that the one thing I hoped to never confront again resurfaces

Maybe it’s just me and the way I think things Maybe it’s not me and I am overthinking Maybe it’s both

One other thing I don’t look forward to and maybe some people will call me crazy, beyond stupid, and probably will think that I have lost it

I don’t care about my birthday I don’t think it’s anything to announce, celebrate I mean yeah it’s the day to signify when I came to life and yes it is a big deal

But overtime, my birthday just feels like another day It’s not something to get excited about It’s not anything I feel so special about

I hope 2020 can be something more for me I always pray and hope that every year is a new year to grow, to learn, and to be better

2019 wasn’t bad and I hope to end in a positive note

Getting things off my chest, to finally let things out of my mind and to express those feelings into words

It helps but for now, I’m hurting and not sure how much more healing I will need

For now, all I can do is recollect, face another day, and reflect what I did do, what I didn’t do, and try again

#2019 #2020 #Last Quarter #New Year #Birthday

[hskeleven]

Q1 Update 2019

Hello, it’s been some time since I have written anything but let’s have a mind dump and let me fill you in what has been happening

It’ll be long like most of the time lol but if you like what I write...be my guest and read

I appreciate it

The first three months of 2019 has been interesting. There had been some ups and downs, and to be fair.....it was possibly a moment of my life where I felt not only the most lethargic and lazy but I also felt like I lost control of where my life is heading

I am not the type to speak ill, poorly, or badly about anyone or any companies that I’ve worked with or worked for but I’ll admit this

My last job was something I was hoping things could work out and I could actually do something and make something happen in AV or Audiovisual field industry....

However, I am not saying that I with my former employer was not meant to be in a strong, healthy working relationship to move forward for the company’s growth in a foreseeable future which is up for debate

Again, I will not make any sort of negative remarks but here is the conclusion that I reached once it began to be more clear of how I am treated and what I believe they see me as.

I guess I was someone to them of little value or no true potential....to them, I was just cheap labor to stretch out and pretty much do all the “dirty” work

Initially, I am someone that is willing and want to show my worth that I can be a good asset for them and prove my capabilities of essentially learning the ins and out of a field if taught properly

However, one thing that I personally prefer when it comes to learning is.....it is not about teaching me the basics and practically showing me from the ground up but rather I believe it is more practical for me to shadow someone and then ask questions

So if it’s audio...basic questions I can ask are;

Why are the main speakers arranged this way

What signals are essentially needed to be sent for stage monitors

How are you determining which frequencies are to be cut out based of the spectrum analyzer

What mixes needed to be sent in the foyer

If it is lighting;

How bright is too bright

Where are you aiming

How do focus and properly set up the LEDkos with the gobos

How are you able to use a light controller

How are you able to program the DMX lights to essentially communicate and function accordingly to the stage configuration

If it is video;

What are the contents provided

What are the contents that was prepared by us

What video signals are been sent

What is the order of the event to cue the correct media

If it is stage setup or strike (Strike meaning cleaning up);

How to run cables

How to tape cables down to be more clean

How to wrap and clean up cables

Where to run power

Etc etc

Although I never knew AV as it is, it is something that I’ve always had interest in but only had a basic grasp of it due to my experiences in church but I was always fascinated with it

Pretty much, I was doing some form of AV before I knew what AV was

I’ve done simple but productive sound setups which was sufficient enough 

Anyways, to sum up this long explanation pretty much

They only wanted me to run errands and do the pre-production setup but never have me go and do the actual productions with them

I finished up my internship at a recording studio and I told them that I’m more available so please plug me in whenever you can

I finally got a chance to speak with the owner but my supervisor was like

“Don’t ask for a pay raise” or “more hours”

Immediately, I had a gut feeling that this is just a waste of my time and I won’t be able to pretty much move up and get more experience that can help me with this industry

Instead...I get asked;

“How is it working here”

“What more do you think we can do to help with the storage of our equipment”

“Is there anything you want to suggest”

To be honest, I have nothing more to suggest or add because the amount of work that I am given is honestly piss poor and it was stuff that nobody was wanting to do so they just threw it at me because I am the “bottom feeder”

My dad already realized that a year in and I’m not getting more hours with events that they can do and he suggested that I go find other options with employment 

So I played the waiting game but I applied and applied and applied

March was really when things took a good turn and I just finally got some response

Some of the jobs that were selected were my choices but I wanted to see the options because it was not just about having good pay but it was also about having hours

I cared more about having hours than the pay because anything was better than my current job situation at the time

But I started a new job with Metro as sales but I also had other interviews happening, especially regarding jobs at the airport

I honestly had uncertainty whether I was going to get the job or not mainly because airport jobs are only stable if you are able to keep up and maintain performance

I’ll admit...all of my jobs weren’t too strict so I was able to be really flexible and kind of do whatever I pleased but I was fully aware that airport jobs are strict and there is no “freedom” aka there is no “do as you please”

I heard back from two airlines, Alaska Airlines and Korean Air and I already completed one interview via phone for both

Then I heard back from the two airlines and proceeded to do the only interview in person which were located at remote sites; one at the airport and one at their many buildings

Unfortunately I did not continue get the okay with Alaska Airlines but I still had hope with Korean Air

I believe that when you do not get the approval for the next step of being hired, it is all on the matter of fit and I was not a fit for Alaska Airlines at that given time

With Korean Air, I was able to complete three separate interviews (Skype video call interview but it ended up becoming a phone interview with Sea-Tac Station Manager, then in-person interview the Station Manager, Passenger Service Manager, and Cargo Manager, then lastly one more Skype video call interview with Korean Air’s HR department in LA)

I honestly did not think I would get the job...I just felt it was not even possible mainly because I have no experience in this industry

As I just started my week with Metro and giving my other job a two week’s notice regarding that I will be leaving, it was a change for me and I was excited to do something that I can learn but also have some confidence in

However, I get the call from Korean Air that completely changed my situation and caught me by surprise....I was hired

I resigned after two days of employment with Metro (it really count as anything for they were going to train me part-time and send me around other stores nearby but it wasn’t gonna happen) and I just straight up dropped the bomb on my other job saying I’m out...bye-bye

Personally, I felt relieved and excited because it is something new and something that I can actually build a career and do something long-term, have more stability

At the same time, I now feel more happy because not only do I actually have a sufficient income to do other endeavors such as building my portfolio as an audio engineer (I am still trying to balance out my life to maximize my daily schedule) but also live a more productive life where I can improve my health, my social life, and be an actual “adult”

I know this is getting really long and it seems like I dragged it on longer than it should be but here is the conclusive final thoughts

I no longer have to deal with people that just uses people

I no longer have to work with people that stretches me out thin but rather want me to succeed alongside them

I no longer have to struggle and “settle” for less because I feel trapped

Thanks for reading

God bless and til next time

Deuces

#q1 19 #2019 #update #changes #life

[hskeleven]

Not Random But All Possibilities Play Out

Life is funny Life is great Life is fun But life is also cruel

Sometimes when things seem to be going well, I mean life seems to be pretty amazing

However, there will be moments...something will catch you off guard and it sets you back

It’s been awhile since I’ve felt this way and it’s been even longer since these thoughts and feelings would resurface In fact, I had hoped that I have locked this away but I believed I am stronger if I were to re-experience the same feelings once more

But I’ve been here before and because of that, I know what I have to do but damn it’s still not easy to move on

It’s even worse cuz this was just before the end of 2018 so I was really excited heading into 2019

Again, there is no such thing as random...It was meant to be because everything happens for a reason

With that said, I got a whole year again to invest in myself and it’ll be for my future self

But to anyone who is reading this, I’m okay I’ll be fine But not sure what state I’ll be if I were to experience this once more but I’ll worry about that when it comes

#surprises #life #curve ball

[hskeleven]

A Year to Reflect, Years to Look Ahead For

It’s been a wild year for me but I still got more to look forward to Got more to chase, be ambitious, and chase after

I know what is at stake and I guess I have to do certain things that’s a bit uncomfortable for me but it is necessary because that’s how competitive the world is

I know I have a lot I can offer but also I know that I am willing to learn, to adapt, and really be better

I ain’t gonna say what day it is but no matter what, it is that kind of day everyday

I am thankful, blessed, and truly truly grateful for the people I have met this past year

I look forward to entering the future because I know that I am gonna make things happen....one way or another

#thanksgiving #thankful #blessed #reflect #looking ahead

[hskeleven]

New Chapter for A Greater Future

Finally... Finally... Finally

Can't believe it until it is happening but almost 20 years in and living here in this country that I've been calling for home because my parents gave up their lives for a life that will greatly benefit for their children

Thank you God for giving us an opportunity to stay here in America and be able to thrive for the opportunities to better ourselves

Thank you mom and dad for leaving Korea and giving us a better life here in the U.S.

Thank you to my friends and my loved ones who has been an integral part of my life, showing me any support and love because there is something about me that you admire, respect, and cherish

I can say today that I am now a United States citizen officially and I now can look forward to living a life for the better

Now I look forward to entering my profession of choice, be able to travel, and meet people that I hope to meet in person.......in the distant future

#New Chapter #Journey #Finally

[hskeleven]

Summer 2018

Hello there, It’s been a minute since I’ve posted anything.

So by the title you can assume it’s about my summer... Let’s get quick to the main point and jump right in!!

Had an internship...paid internship with an A/V (Audio Visual or Audio Video) production company started in December of 2017 after having an interview before Thanksgiving.  It wasn’t a “guarantee” but I was persistent to ask by following up.  After that, it was something that worked out.  I am sticking it out but I am sure I’ll be receiving more work, jobs, events where I can handle doing alone but I will also gain some more experience, skills, and possibly increase my value at least in terms of assets for A/V.  Got hired officially in July 2018 which is roughly 6 months after the internship ended.  I was proud that I was able to get hired so I’m gonna run with this until I see no reason to continue.

Towards the middle of May, I finished school and I am now certified in audio production and I have to say that the one year was an invaluable investment not only where I was able to get hands on experience with industry professionals but also be able to work in an actual studio for the past 5 months.  I can say that I know these industry professionals as my mentors and they have passed down their knowledge and wisdom to the next batch of aspiring engineers to come.  It was definitely something I do not regret and I am proud that I am done.  Met some cool guys that I can say we will be friends for life and we’re gonna continuously do our best to stay in touch and grow together for the very thing we are passionate about.

Fast forward a couple of weeks from there, I did some research on how to send a professional proposing email which includes an updated resume, cover letter, and my list of professional/personal references.  I’ve gotten a couple of responses right away but they were fortunately not the places I want to intern for.  After a couple of weeks of not hearing back, I have gotten some “real” advice...I mean “real” which is also a bit old-school way to do things by going to studios and just giving a face.  Of course, it’s a risk because some studios could be extremely “busy” or not have the patience nor time to consider taking an intern but I had one studio on top of my list.  I show up, met with the owner who I happen to meet at a workshop he hosted, and he gave me an interview.  Long story short, I’m in.  I’m learning a little bit of what is going on, how the studio is properly operated, and most importantly, how to present yourself professionally with humility and confidence.  I am getting to know the staff slowly and I hope to really learn more from these guys.

So kind of put things into perspective, what do I want to do?  What have I decided on what I want to do for the rest of my life until I can’t no more?

I want to be able to do four things; One - I want to make musicians their music come to life in the way they envision it and I want to diversify, be as versatile I can be with tracking, music mixing, producing, and hopefully I love to add this to my arsenal in the future of my career, mastering. What I mean by this is that, I do not have any sort of creativity or originality on my own....yet.  But I feel like I am the type of person who can take someone else’s work, hear what they want and I want to be their outlet who helps get what they want.  Pretty much, I want to be the second set of ears who works with my potential future clients/producers/musicians and make their art also mine.

Two - I want to produce 360 videos, VR/AR related materials and also do the audio.  The audio would be surround/immersive sound, 5.1 or 7.1 or more surround sound system but ultimately, I want to do this as my career where this is what I believe to be the future, the current upcoming trend with audio and video.  Where I intern, they do this and I want to learn as much as I can from these professionals.  I find this fascinating, it’s a good challenge, and honestly it takes the two things I’ve always been interested in; audio and video.

Three - I want to do more stereo recording and stereo mixing.  I believe that this will add onto how I understand surround sound and how I understand stereo imagery of audio.  I have to admit an instructor who I really enjoy his work, his music...he’s a strong advocate, possibly the only person that I can say I personally met and got to learn from in a short period of time who demonstrated stereo recording.  He says he is one of the most unique engineers and artists who does this kind of work and he’s right.  I like to take a stab at it and really do my own version of stereo recording.  I guess I like to do something that fits me and be me.

Four - Lastly, I don’t ever want to feel that this is a job which ends up feeling like a chore.  I want to enjoy my career, have some fun, and really be happy with what I am going to do for a living.  Many people will argue that you don’t always get to do what you love for a living.  Here is my counter...that’s because you don’t have the confidence in yourself to really put yourself out there to do what you enjoy, what you love, and what you’re passionate about.  Yes I agree that you should never put a price tag on something you love doing but at the same time, there are ways to do what you love and still be able to have an income to support yourself and your family (if you are planning to get married and have kids).

It’s gotten a bit long but this is really a good update that I wanted to write and share with you all, to those who read my blogs.  I want to thank God for guiding me, allowing me to find these opportunities.  I thank God for my friends, new friends, and the mentors that I was able to have in the past two years.  I have to say, I have really taken this more seriously and I hope to continue to grow, improve, better myself, and most importantly...up my value as a person, as a worker, and as an asset in production, engineering, and as a musician.

Thank you for reading. Til next time...God bless!!

#summer 2018 #update #hsk production #post-production #audio engineering #audio production #music #360 video #stereo recording #stereo imagery #film #audio

[hskeleven]

Here’s to Adulthood, Time To Do Things Where It Counts

So, I’ll make this quick.

I’m done.  I am officially done with school, classes, and any format of formal learning (being taught by instructors, teachers, mentors).

However, I am not finished with learning.  I will always be a student of whatever I want to pursue, gain, and grow in.

It’s not a good-bye to the classroom but it is just see you later.  Maybe in the future, I’ll take language courses or something that I’m really interested in but it is not a true farewell to the classroom.

What is it in for me?  I have three things on my mind. 1 - Find a studio who will take an internship and provide me a period where I can learn. 2 - Get hired in a recording studio after the internship. 3 - Get better in A/V and run with that.

Future things on my mind are; Get my own place so I can build my own studio and offer recording, mixing, and production services Be happy Have my own family to take care of

Overall, I truly thank God for guiding me and putting me in this position where things are coming together and I am doing my best in my own abilities to make things happen.

For now, gotta take things one day at a time Take care of what is in front of me and be able to make it count All of it is for my future self

Thanks for reading God bless

#next phase #adulthood #life #2018

[hskeleven]

Digging Deep - To Remove A Dying Root

This will be brief.  Not a formal update on where my life is but that’ll come.

The hardest thing people will go through is confronting themselves.  To come to terms, face to face of your own reflection and see what is wrong with you.

Guess I had that moment happen to me where I realized enough is enough.  It’s like making a mistake over and over without learning a lesson on how to prevent it.

I now came to my senses and have to find a balance, a good amount of being who I am without being too open, too predictable.

Gonna be doing what I have to do to learn the hard way to be better because this is something I have to work on.

#dig #roots #dead #improvements #be better

[hskeleven]

Shifting

So before I get started, it has now been a quarter of 2018.  We are now entering the the third and deep into the second quarter of 2018.  My progress with health...it’s time to get back into the groove.  The last three weeks were honestly okay and I’ll admit...I got off track but that didn’t mean I didn’t put effort into a different part of it but I will be getting back into it so that I can continue and pursue my goal for this year.  It’s not over until I see the date 12/31/18 but I would like to work harder now to make my goal a success.

Now, that does not mean I wanna rush and then maintain or anything like that.  Although a goal is nice to chase, I began to look at it at a larger scale and I know now that this is just as important to me because I’m changing...I’m beginning to see where my values are.

Now, why did I title this “Shifting.”  I could have use transition, new phase, reaching the next milestone...you get the picture.  My reasoning for the title is more fitting rather than calling it a transition or new phase because I haven’t transition into something completely new just yet or it will become a new phase.  There isn’t a new milestone to reach at this very moment.  Instead, I am looking at what I need to do, what I should do, and what I can do to make my future better, brighter, and something that shows my future self that years of investing, prepping, and planning in some ways was all worth it.

Although my parents might think I have this “I don’t care” or “I don’t need such and such” or even “I got this” kind of attitude, I don’t want my parents to stress out about me.  The moment they stress out about me, it’s gonna annoy me to the point where their stress is gonna rub off me.  However, I know it is just their way of caring by showing concern.  However, I do plan on getting some stuff done and trying to get things to happen.  Gotta get on the process to see progress because nothing gets done if you ain’t doing anything.

I won’t drag this but I’ll probably post something in a month, updating you all on my progress.  Thank you for reading.  I appreciate the platform that Tumblr gives me which allows me to write, express my thoughts, and let people read what is going on in my life.  I genuinely enjoy writing what is happening, what is on my mind, and overall, it’s a good way to get things off my chest.

God bless.

#shifting #conversion #next point in life #milestone

[hskeleven]

Ash Wednesday

I’ll keep this short and I’ll make this for me because in the end, I am keeping myself accountable and God knows my heart.

The last couple of days, I’ve made the decision to try and clean up my act internally.  I believe in cleansing, not no detox (this is not even a physical cleansing) but more so spiritually.  For the next 46 days I believe, i want to “sober” up and make some changes.  If you know you have bad habit but you don’t do anything to correct them, then you’re only going to hurt yourself more down the road.

So I’m making changes, I’m trying to better myself, and most importantly, make my future self the best he can be because of the efforts that are accumulating.

#Ash Wednesday #46 days to Easter #Lent

[hskeleven]

2018 - So Far... (Part 1)

Hello, hi, whatsup How you doin

Let’s talk, let’s catch up, and I’ll share what has happened in the first 6 weeks of 2018 plus everything that led to this from October 2017.

School...new quarter, new session, different but more intimate sized class have been fun, great, very very hands on, and it encourages me that I have much more growing to do.  I have three weeks left and then another eight weeks starting at the end of March.  A bit frightening to be honest to think that I will be at the end of my school journey but the learning doesn’t end.  In fact, I’ll probably never stop because I’ll constantly learn, relearn for the rest of my life.

Internship...not sure if I mentioned this but I have been an intern for an A/V (Audio/Video or Audiovisual) Production company.  I’ve done one event but for most part I have been doing more warehouse inventory management stuff and to be honest, it’s pretty sweet because I can see what the company has.  I am fortunate for the opportunity and I am hoping that they would keep me for I would like to work with them in the future.  They are pretty flexible with me and vise versa but nothing is “guaranteed” or it is “secured” but for most part, things are great and I am determined to do my very best for them.

Church...this is something I kept hidden but I guess there is no point to hide it.  Stuff happened and it led to the point where I’m not there and it’s not because I left but it no longer exist.  After that, I took some time to regather myself and I am now at a church (some know, some don’t but I don’t wanna say it here) where my skills that I’ve accumulated over the years are actually in need.  This is the first time where I am at a place where I really don’t know many people that well.  I know and recognize familiar faces but for most, I’m trying to learn names, be myself, and contribute to the church’s growth.  If anyone that knows me personally (only a very small handful of people knows me), then you know what I am bringing to the table at this church and believe me, I’m not trying to be cocky but there is a lot of things I hope to accomplish, I hope to be able to help, and most importantly, be able to provide in any capacity the church needs.

Life...I hit the gym.  I try and work out 3, 4 times a week.  I am disciplining myself but I’m not being too uptight.  I try but I just move on.  I don’t let things get to me but I try to make the right call, listen to my body, and do whatever to get me to lose weight and feel more healthy.

I have a lot that I want to do for this year.  I’ll admit that maybe I won’t get through all of them but for me, I want to get as many as I can accomplished.

To put this all into summary, I want to better myself like I never have before.  I want to make positive, long-lasting changes that will help my future self.  Lastly, I didn’t really mention anything about music but I’ll get back to it.......eventually lol

Thanks for reading God bless!!!

#2018 #changes #new year #part 1 #goals

[hskeleven]

2018 - Changes, Looking Up & Going Forth

Hello, it has been a couple of weeks so I guess it’s a good time to write a post. So about the contest I entered, I did not make the top 3 places but it is okay.  In fact, it is all good.  I came into the mentality that it is more of a chance to learn and get better at mixing.  The top 3 mixes were released so I will do what they did, take a listen, and then compare it to what I did with their mixes.  I will also go back listen to the original so that I can try and observe auditorily.  The best thing I can do for my own growth is just learn, learn, learn.  Then do, do, do.  Nothing can get me better, nothing can help me hone my skills without learning from my mistakes, learning from what I read and watch, and then go do it.

I’m not gonna be sharing my New Year Resolutions because it’s not beneficial for me.  Instead, I’m gonna keep it to myself but keep in mind that I want to accomplish as many as I can.  I look forward to continue to better myself, to build my confidence, and overall, prepare for my future self.

I’ll end it here because I don’t have a lot to talk yet but probably in a couple of months there will be more to share, reflect, and talk about.

I hope everyone else is having a good start to their 2018.  If not, I hope changes come and it’ll get better.

God bless!!

#2018 #changes #looking up #going forth #moving on