ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

I've killed myself a thousand times only end up here, every night.

#just late night thoughts #songs i'll never write #shitty poetry #im sleepy and depressed #goodnight #idk what this means but didn't want to forget it either #this is cringy

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

France is just one big historical tragedy innit?

#so weird #france #idk #im not sorry

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

I've been on this earth for too long to not know who or what i am

All i know is that I'm sleepy

So goodnight I guess

#i dont even know #free write #just late night thoughts #i don't contribute to the broth #c'est la vie

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

Just ate breakfast for the first time and my tummy hurts

Betrayal

#betrayal #breakfast #tummy ache #i dont even know #does not contribute to the broth #:(

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

Will someone tell me how to block all the random bots following me?

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

What the actual fuck is this ad?

????

#i need to lose so much weight #so weird #of course #let me just #figure out what food i am #so i can fast #and become one with the food #i mean #i just woke up #maybe im the problem

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

Loving the self-awareness here

#hellsite #self awareness #not much

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

Me as a parent an aunt:

"Remember kids, it's all fun an games until someone loses an eye! Then it's ✨ attempted murder✨"

#parenting #i dont even know #just late night thoughts #no more soup?? #im just happy to be here

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Why is my blog soup themed? Like i don't even like soup??

#questioning myself #the only soup i like is tomato soup #and cereal too...the soup with the variety ~ #idk what to tag this as #you either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the villain #you either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the soup #idk whats going on

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

There's just something

Comforting

About screaming, yelling, talking whispering

Out into the void and

Not knowing if it'll whisper back.

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I'm sure that's why we're all here so this isn't anything new.

#tumblr is a functional app #poem #free write #no soup on the menu tonight sorry fresh out #simplicity #the void is not necessarily devoid

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

In a perfect world #002

In a perfect world....

I wouldn't have to drive myself mad over limitations and expectations set by outsiders. I wouldn't have to think or care or do anything about what other thought or normalized because it is wouldn't matter

I could be an eldritch horror—an old god not bound by the rules or whims of the general populace. I could do as I pleased and not have to worry about the percussions of anything. Like being a child again but without having to subject myself to the horrors of childhood. Freedom without terms or conditions.

My soul immortalized in the wind and the sound of my laughter.

Consequences would have to run to catch up to me, and by then

Well by then it'd be far too late.

#diary entry #free write #stupid soup #perfect world #in a perfect world #eldrich horror #old god #freedoom

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

Part one in a series no-one asked for and even less will read

Lists Nobody Asked for: Part 1

What NOT to say to a (college) Roommate

Yes, even if you really want to say these things because you know there's only a week and change left in the semester and you'll never see them again...not that I'll actually stop you from saying these things or anything.

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"Shut up! We get it bro you were an only child!"

"Well, someone's got Main Character Syndrome™"

"If I could, I'd replace you with a leaf sheep in a heartbeat"

"Why do you think you exist? Your reason certainly shouldn't be to talk to me when I clearly have headphones on, I'll tell you that."

"One day you will be all but dust, drifting and forgotten. I am waiting for that day to come sooner rather than later"

*Demonic screaming* (you know the kind; deep and gutteral like if an endless nightmare had a voice)

"No seriously, shut up."

"You ever wonder what it's like to experience having your brain melting? Would you like to?"

"There is a certain solace that comes with knowing I won't have to see or speak to you anymore soon"

"You make me want to blast Antisocialist by Asking Alexandria on a god-damned loop"

Add to this as you think of more stuff I guess

#lists #things no one cares about #roommates suck sometimes #i dont even know #demonic screaming #eldrich horror #do not say these things #absent minded

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

Sometimes, for no reason

I'll remember

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

Woke up in a cold sweat and the only thing i could remember from my dream was this weird looking animal with human teeth telling me,

"If there were shark nuns on a little shark bus in the ocean they would sing Sister Shark Doo Doo do Doo do do Sister Shark Doo Doo do Doo do do Sister Shark Doo Doo do Doo do do Sister Shark Doo Doo do Doo do do Sister Shark!

And it kept singing as it walked backwards on all fours into the darkness

#waiter please... please take back this soup #my last two braincells be like #dream log #shark fin soup #i dont know what this is but

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

When Squidward said "Why do today what you can put off til tomorrow?" And Mr Krabs hit back with "What is today but yesterday's tomorrow?"

I think about that a lot

#thoughts #just late night thoughts #no soup on the menu tonight sorry fresh out #quotes that make you think #quotes that make you question your reality...jk

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Weird Dream

Fever Dream????????

•It's 6am and i don't remember much but here ya go (sorry for any spelling mistakes i guess)

In the dream superheroes were real. No I don't mean that there was some strange mutation that suddenly spread across the world and people decided to choose sides in a morally corrupt world. It was like Spiderman and Booster Gold hung out; Doctor strange still had his medical license; Shazam and Captain Marvel traded tips; etcetera so on and so forth.

It's important to mention that most of the Superheroes weren't ones that are super popular right now or even well known.

Anyways, as you might expect the Superheroes had this system for focusing on different countries and regions which left much of the world neglected from their care. However I guarantee that the parts of the world ignored are not what you'd expect.

In any case the part of the dream that was weird:

-It was nighttime and on a roof in some unnamed city Andrew Garfield and Tom Holland's Spidermen were having a meeting of sorts.

-I could vaguely make out what they were saying but while they were saying it, it was also kinda montaging the ordeal too (Think most heist troupes).

-The plan was for Garfield to wear some sort of fake sumo suit under a modified version of his Spidey-suit and crash one of the biggest live show events of the year and start a fight with......i can't remember who. Then Holland's Spiderman would swoop in and they would fight. Causing Holland to fake his (Spiderman) death while Garfield's Spiderman disappeared.

-Afterwards (cut back to the rooftop) Holland said something along the lines of "Dibs on twinning the Unsolved episode" which basically meant that if and when the case was cover by the Buzzfeed Unsolved Boys Holland would be there. To clarify i don't mean like an audience member or set staffer. Holland was legit like a host of the show in rotation instead of being an actor.

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TL;DR »» Basically select heroes were real and all of them had there little secret identity tricks. Andrew Garfield and Tom Holland's Spidermen decided to cause chaos (because they could) leading to Holland faking about his own death then talking about the next night it in a BuzzFeed Unsolved episode.

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I am going back to bed

#midnight soup.....at 6am #dreams #wildest dreams #stupid soup #Tom Holland faked his death #big bowl of words #dream log #fever dream #sleepy soup boi

[ikilledgodtomakesoupfromhisbones]

In a perfect world.... (free write entry #001)

I could just go places without actually having to rely on people. Like I don't mind going places with people but it's the having to wait for others to take me home when I'm tired of being out or the having to be at other people's beck and call when the only plan i want to make is to be secluded in my own space, mind, time.

That or just really rad shape shifting powers. (But that's an entry for another time)

#teleporting feels like too much maths #in a perfect world #i have a small social battery that needs to be RESPECTED #humanity is exhausting #nothing for the soup today i guess #free write #to many disorders to blame just one but maybe im just built different #this is really just a venting post sorry