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Took me until about halfway through college before I realized “study” means “play with the material in a variety of ways until you understand it” and not just “read the assigned chapters and do the homework” and I think that probably should have been discussed at some point prior to that.

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Life can look so vastly different in such a small amount of time.

2023 changed the course of my life forever

I…. Left an abusive relationship. Started pouring into my own cup again.

I graduated xray school, and developed a backbone to fight for what I believe in and make my voice heard.

We received some bad news during the summer about my mother’s health, she is currently recovering from a major surgery.

I am slowly falling for a man who makes me feel safe and happy in every sense of the words

Because of him, I will be taking my first out of country trip this upcoming summer

Which also means I ordered a passport finally!

At the end of 2023, I started a new urgent care position as an xray tech and I also get to do other clinical related

And for so many reasons, my life will never be the same as it was in the past years.

Things that happened in the last year and a half or so have changed me forever, both for the good and the bad.

I think I’m grateful for it all.

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Follow us to stay motivated each day!

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Need to remember to think about things like this!

I knew I grew as a person when I started asking myself like "what's one small thing i can do/start today that will benefit my future?".

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I never thought I would be here.

I'm right back where I started. Technically. At my mother's house, studying under a heated blanket. Except everything has come full circle.

I'm less than 1.5 semesters away from graduating xray school. I cannot believe that it's been almost 2 years of xray school, and I cannot express how excited I am to almost be done.

I'm almost done with my 4th semester of clinicals. I'm taking a class called Advanced Rad Tech I. Life is so crazy. I am so utterly proud of myself for how hard I've pushed myself so far in this program. And I'm so close to being done, that I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now.

I can do this, and I'm going to.

I have to. My family needs me too. I need me too. I'm so excited to see where next year will take me.

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Posted this on my other account but..💜💕 I do got this.

I get so caught up in the future. Where I'm going, what I'm doing, what I have to do, what I should do. What's coming, what I will need to learn, and see, and do obviously. What it will take to support at least both myself and my mother, full time. What I will do to be happy..

And I put this on my computer before I started the Radiography program. And I just.. Got this. It's not too hard, it's just hard enough. This journey I'm on is what I need to be doing to give myself the future I want. This is the first step in the process of my growth and development as an adult and medical field worker. I need to remember that sometimes. I'm not there yet, but I'm on my way. I'm going. I'm doing my best to succeed in this a lot. I still have a really long way to go. But I am getting there. I need to maintain focus and keep my eye on the prize, because in all reality I have less than 2 years left to learn everything and it will completely fly by.

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06/19/21 12:41 // crazy.

I've completed the first half of the first semester of my radiography program, and honestly, I cannot believe it. I'm barely sleeping enough, but that's okay. I'm still working in an emergency department. I try to study at work when I can. My off days consist of lots of studying, homework, and food. I can't wait to start clinicals in August.

When I started this I didn't think I could do it. I thought surely I'd crumble under pressure and have given up by now. I know it will get MUCH more difficult than this. I know I will cry. I also know that it will be okay... As long as I can pass these classes, I will be okay.

Here's to not giving up. Here for planning lots of things, and aiming for the future. I'm not giving up on myself any more. 🥰 Can't wait to see where I will be in 1.5 years... I hope it's good. I hope I can save money. I will make sure I do what I need to do.

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03/24/21 7:03pm

Just got back from my first shift at my new job.. Studying for my exam this Friday..

Always keep pushing. 💜🥰

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03/14/21 2:00pm // My computer background kinda got a point. Math practice for the rest of the day today 😊💕 hereby promising myself if I pass this exam, I'm buying myself an 11" iPad Pro soonish before the summer semester starts. 🥰😍

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Daily 💜

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03/13/21 8:10pm // Still really proud of myself, but gotta keep pushing. 2 interviews, 3 shifts and a conference next week!! Bring it 😍 I'm ready!! Ready to save $$, go to school, and get myself a new car + an IPad! 💜🥰👑

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03/08/21 22:00 // I just picked up another ER shift for the end of March and I'm thankful for that. I'm happy to continue trying to be the person who covers everyone's shifts whenever I can.

I have an interview a week from today at another hospital about a potential second job. I start my EKG classes in about a month. I'm still working towards taking my other entrance exam in less than 3 weeks, I practiced my math a lot today.

My boyfriend and I continue to try and work on our communication and relationship overall.. I can feel him trying, which I love. It's all I've ever wanted. He also starts training for a really good paying job next Monday and I'm really happy for him.

My mother is still trying to talk me out of going after everything I want, and it only pushes me to try harder. I can't let myself stop, and I will not. We both deserve more, and I'm gonna be the person to give it to us. To myself.

And furthermore, I think I might get my nose pierced and/or get a new tattoo pretty soon. Coming for everything I want in an unstoppable, relentless fashion. 💜🌿

I'm done settling for less than everything I want. No compromises. 👌🏻 I'm smiling because I finally can love myself honestly.

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Big me vibes. 😂💓

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Struggling with my mental health today... Not super badly, but it's noticeable and I can't shake it. Yesterday was pretty rough, and things were said to me this week that I probably won't forget for a long time. Things that make me sad to be myself. Things I don't want to talk about, but hurt over nonetheless. I've been on such an upper for like 2 months, doing what's best for me and focusing on my future/accomplishing stuff. I suppose a crash was overdue, I've been pushing myself really hard. Some days I feel like I can do anything, and some days are like today. I just want to curl up into a ball and cry my eyes out all fucking day. But I can't and I won't. I'll get through it. In time.

And I just wanted to remind myself, and others, that it's okay to have bad days. We all do it. We all get nervous, scared, sad, stressed out, frustrated etc. And it's valid. You're valid, and we'll get through this together in our own time. I've basically been laying in bed for a long time on and off since yesterday morning. This is my way of comforting and resting myself. We all cope in different ways, and that's okay too. Go at your own pace and don't let anyone set it for you.

With love. 💞

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2021 is going to be a year of abundance: abundance of success, abundance of wealth, abundance of joy. It is a year of dreams manifesting into reality. I claim it, and so it is.