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ten...

brain is preparing for a ,,war"

nine...

heart is beating way too fast

eight...

time to dissociate but first - existential panic

seven...

everything around is feeling unreal

six...

family members? they are fake, they are not real

five...

,,stop it, stop it, what the fuck is wrong with u"

four...

copying system, watching memes about dpdr

three...

dizziness, anxiety, more anxiety, buzzing thoughts, feeling like stuck in a dream

two...

waiting for it to pass by

one

now i'm gonna explain. there is nothing wrong with u, the feeling of unreality is just in your brain, you are perfectly real. you are not alone.

today i had a derealization attack too. we all here with dpdr need to help each other understand, what we feel is normal for that mental illness. we need to understand what dpdr is.

#dpdr #depersonalization #derealization #dpdr community #dpdrdisorder #depersonalisation and derealisation #mental illness #mental health

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The people I'm living for, are the people that give me the feeling of wanting to die

#addiction #bpd #depressing quotes #therapy #borderline #broke #hate myself #suicide

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#addiction #bpd #drugs #depressing quotes #drogen #drugs addict #sadgirl #therapy #drdp #amphe #suicide

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being high while having drdp feels nothing different than being really depersonalized

I came out here to have a good time but now I have a headache and feel even more spaced out.

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siblings can traumatize you just as deeply as your parents and we don't talk about that enough tbh

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what bpd feels like

being alone in the dark

you don’t fit it anywhere. anywhere.

you don’t know anymore what your true identity is

every time you feel bad, it’s the worst you’ve ever been. there’s no hope.

every time you feel good, you don’t get why you ever felt bad. you can do anything.

you either speak too little or too much.

you’re either too impulsive and wild or too calm and boring.

whenever you say something, it always turns out wrong. you never know what’s the right thing to say.

if you love someone, you love like crazy. you’d literally die for them, and i’m not kidding.

if someone you care about and love says something that feels slightly off or doesn’t respond to your messages for a while, that’s it. they hate you. they never needed you. you’re trash and a waste of space.

when you hate someone, you hate hard. you split like crazy and afterwards hate yourself even more for it.

you feel like you’re always selfish and manipulative and talk about yourself too much.

you barely have control over your emotions. they hit you like a tsunami every time, leaving you drained.

you have impulses to self harm or do things that you know are blatantly stupid.

every day you want to die.

you’re pretty sure your friends are tired of you and your problems.

if you don’t let your anger out, it builds up in you and messes up your mind even more.

you have hard time making decisions.

you feel like you’re not worth shit because of the way you are.

you feel like everyone’s just lying to you because they don’t wanna be rude to you, but they all actually secretly hate you.

you don’t know yourself anymore. every day you have a different personality. 

you’re actually scared of yourself and what you might do.

you just want to love others and be loved, but it seems impossible.

you hate having bpd.

YOU HATE HAVING BPD.

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My therapist just told me that she thinks my drugs consumption is just a delayed suicide attempt

That shit hit differently because it’s so fuckin true

#addiction #bpd #drugs #drogen #drugs addict #sadgirl #therapy #drdp #amphe #suicide #sad #dead

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Viel zu früh hab ich meine Probleme ausgeblendet.

Glücksmomente verschafften mir da nur noch die Rauschzustände

Herzog

#rauschgift #rauschzustand #drogenliebe #drug #quotes #amphe #amphetamin #drogen #drugs addict #drug addiction #addiction #xtc

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i’m an extremely positive person

#addiction #bpd #drugs #sadgirl #therapy #drdp #drogen #drugs addict #dead #amphe #suicide #borderline thoughts #borderline #sad #cry #empty

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I'm sorry, dear :( I hope you do something wonderful for yourself today ❤️ :( *sending lots of hugs if you want? ❤️

I want if it makes u feel better too

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I never felt so much hate, disgust and disappointment at the same time just by thinking about me, who i am, how i look and what i do

I’m better of dead, but nobody wants to admit that their life’s would be better without me

They should just let me go, to fuckin end this torture. We secretly know it would be better for all of us.

#addiction #bpd #drugs #sadgirl #therapy #drdp #drogen #drugs addict #dead #depression #depressing quotes #borderline #borderline thoughts #selfhate #suicide #sad #empty

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Hello, dear ❤️ I'm sorry if this is a bother but I hope you're safe and feeling okie :( ❤️

Thanks, i appreciate ur worry♥️ And no i’m not, but that’s ok

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#addiction #drugs #bpd #drogen #drugs addict #sadgirl #therapy #drdp #amphe #dead #suicide prevention #suicide #cry #depression #depressing quotes #selfhate #empty