If you’re here and you read my poems and feel they are for you, they are. Have fun exploring the depths of my soul, heart, mind, and flesh It’s a bonfire.
I live a double life no one and I mean no one not one person in my life has any idea who I am and tbh I love it, I absolutely love it I may regret it later but I live in the now and right now I’m having so much fun!!!
On days like this I just wanna be held by someone who isn’t wearing a mask or playing an act we don’t even have to talk I just want to be in the presence of a genuine person
The day you left me was the part of my life when I was at my lowest point. The car ride was loudest silence id ever heard. I had so much to say but was so weak, so weak my body shivered and stiffened I couldn’t speak a word. i walked out of your car and said “see you later” and walked to my door step in the pouring rain you called me back and for a split second my heart stopped aching. I thought saying goodbye was just as painful for you as it was for me and so I had hoped you were calling me back to talk to try again but no I walked back to your car on that pathetic cold wet day just for you to say “you said see you later but I don’t think you will” it felt like you rubbed salt on my wound, it felt like a laugh in my face to hear you say those words… and the healing was even worse every song every movie every deep conversation everything, everything reminded me of you it was torture…. But then I flourished I got better, I did better, I felt at peace with the situation. And now you want my time and attention again, you want to see me… but guess what love I don’t think you will.