#🤔 anon

[merakiui]

SO glad I'm not the only one who immediately thought roro/lolo (twisted frollo) would make an amazing yandere character. frollo already was the original yandere if you think about his ravings in hellfire (choose me or your pyre, be mine or you will burn!! goes so hard) -🤔 anon

Yes!!! Frollo walked so twst Rollo could run (right into my arms).

Looking at him now, it feels like he would be stiffly religious and would be absolutely revolted by nudity or any type of lewd insinuation. Rollo would scoff if he learned his darling engaged in something as sinful as *dramatic gasp* fornication. This man would say something like: "There is a special spot down there for you, you loose trollop." all with the most icy glare, too. (yes, I like to think yandere!Rollo is old-fashioned with his beliefs and uses archaic language.) Rollo is a hater. </3 Devoted to the church and purity, and you come from that dirty Night Raven College reeking of sex and sin. How dare you step foot on the clean, pure grounds of Noble Bell Academy?!

#twisted chit chat #yandere rollo flamme #yandere rollo flamm #🤔 anon #you show bare skin in the church and rollo is fuming #you bend over to pick something up and he happens to look down your shirt #call his darling the devil because they're tempting him and his patience every day

[plural-culture-is]

Okay, I'm seriously questioning being a plural or somehow counting as a plural because there are a LOT of common experiences of plurals that don't feel right but also a LOT of common experiences of plurals which is something I've had for as long as I can remember

When I was younger, I had at least 4 imaginary friends that I honestly don't remember much about, but I probably didn't control or didn't feel like I controlled any of them, as they did things on their own that were a bit difficult for a child at my age to think, like sit somewhere on their own because they were tired (according to my mother) and still had quite a different personality from me, but they weren't inspired by me at all (as a girl from rainbow hair who wore jeans? I DON'T EVEN LIKE JEANS!!!), but I honestly don't know if I really imagined them on my own or not, I just know that they disappeared some time later and I never saw them again

Sometimes, when I'm really stressed, I write texts talking about how I would protect myself or how I would treat myself well if I "were there" and hmmm maybe it's just some form of self embracement? idk

Since I was very young, I've had A LOT of problems with identities, including various dissociations (with unusual frequency) where I couldn't look at or think about my face or myself in general without literally feeling unreal, or somehow "in the wrong body", I thought for a while that it could be dysphoria or something but I realized that no, it's just feeling like I shouldn't be there but also feeling like you shouldn't be anywhere or even exist in fact. Also, my gender is inconsistent, I don't have ANY name or title that I'm comfortable with or that "sounds like me" (and even when one sounds good, once I start using it it always starts to sound wrong), my pronouns are endless because there's no right pronoun for me so I just accept them all, my sexuality and feelings in general also always seem SO weird, like I don't have any fixed identity, like I'm a shapeshifter who changes all the time and doesn't have a single true or close to true form, and that's annoying. It almost doesn't even feel like I'm a person. I don't even identify as human or feel like I'm any species or concept, everything feels right and wrong at the same time.

I don't inherently feel like there are people in my brain that are separate from me, but I feel like my identity is a weird mix of various people's identities, like there's nothing right because technically all of this is right and all of that is wrong at the same time.

I, since I heard about the experiences of being a system, felt something very strange, like a feeling that I should be that. Something like an ache because "hm, I should be that, but for some bad luck I'm not", it was almost sad, like "bro i want to be a separate person instead of THAT WEIRD MIX"

I also don't feel like there are people "controlling" me, nor do I "hear voices" (no more than those normal voices of thought), much less do I have an "inner world", I just... I feel like I am "one thing that shouldn't be just ONE thing", if that makes sense, like "I'm just one person, but something tells me there should be more people here" and at the same time it scares me because my whole I've been that "together", I also know that it seems wrong to say that I'm "just one person" because I technically AM one person, but not in the way that one person is just one person, but in the way that a fusion of Steven Universe could be considered one person while assuming that it is a mixture of different people that have come together so well that there is now only one person.

I think that's it? I'll probably say more if I remember, so I'll just call myself "🤔 anon" for now

(Btw, if it's important information: I'm autistic, I have ADHD, I have OCD, I'm probably BPD and I'm almost certainly AvPD, and maybe-but-not-sure DPD and do have trauma so... hm, i hope it helps 🐞)

(🤔 anon) ANOTHER VERY COMMON EXPERIENCE FOR ME is how many times I find myself saying "we" did something when I mean "I" did something. But "I" always feels wrong because I feel like there were more "parts" of me in that situation. Maybe it's something along the lines of "I had too many thoughts at the time to say it was just one person thinking", but I'm not entirely sure.

Another experience that I also think is important to mention: There is a kind of fictional "default" scenario in my brain that I usually imagine myself. It's almost like a world of its own and I can almost feel myself there. It's my grandmother's house (where, funnily enough, most of my dreams, that aren't in totally non-existent places, happen) and there's a kind of party going on, so all the people at the party (my family) are gathered in one place and sometimes I automatically start imagining myself in this scenario showing them things. Other times, that scenario is a little less visual, but I'm still showing them all these things and listening to their docile responses. They practically NEVER react like my family would (or even close to it) and in fact, even though in my head their image is VERY LIKE my family, I never refer to them by my family names, let alone feel any connection to them and my real family.

Of course I have a few other imaginary scenarios, like when I imagine myself hosting a show or something, but it's different, because those are more conscious scenarios, whereas it almost feels wrong not to talk to "my fictional family" if I like to something. Maybe this is just a way of dealing with the fact that I don't feel like there are enough people in my life that I can talk about my tastes, but it's still weird that I can spend literally 4 hours straight in a quiet room without a single device or distraction, just talking to my fictional family about anything.

Also, another thing that might be useful: I've tried MANY times to separate myself into several "persons" to try to understand my identity, but I always have to fill in endless blanks and it's literally impossible for me to say which traits of mine match each of these "persons".

Think of it as seeing a ball of yarn and trying to unravel it in order to make several clothes because it was big enough to make dozens of coats! But then you started to unravel it and you realized how all these threads are too small to make one garment by themselves, but they are all too different to come together to make one garment. So all those threads are stuck in the state of "being a mess" because there isn't anything they could be harmoniously, whether it's several whole garments or a single garment made up of all the threads.

honestly some of that is relatable for us, those were some of our feelings when we were first questioning if we're a system. maybe you're a median system, which could be why you can't separate yourself into distinct individuals, or maybe you have did/osdd which means you don't necessarily have to identify as plural, you could see it in the more medicalised view of you're not multiple people, but you do have different identities that you dissociate between (and if you don't have distinct identities it's more likely to be osdd-1a). also, as a monoconscious system, we don't usually "hear" headmates speaking because in order for them to speak they'd have to be conscious, and it's difficult for more than one headmate to be conscious at once. we also don't feel anyone "controlling" us because we have non-possessive switches, so we just feel as though we become each other. so that's possibly what's going on for you. or maybe you're another type of plural that doesn't have a name yet or we haven't heard of. also that family thing is interesting but unfortunately i have no input to give on it. i'm asking people reading this to let anon know if you relate to any of this and maybe give your own input, if you'd like. but as always, only you can know if you're a system. also having an unstable identity and taking on traits of other people can be a part of bpd. so just make sure you do your research before you decide what label/s (if any) to go with!

#not plural culture #am i plural #plural system #plurality #actuallyplural #long post #🤔 anon

[cupcraft]

waffles or pancakes? and why

-🤨

Waffles because texturelly the best crispy and can hold syrup the best without getting soggy. I like pancakes tho too

#tea.cups #ask #🤔 anon

[spideyhexx]

Ok. This is my identity. It feels like I'm applying for my license

I'll be 🤔

HAHA okay :)

#🤔 anon #asks

[wmarximoff]

Sorority!Wanda and DirtbagReader sounds so good... like can you imagine the sexual tension between them? I can see that they don't get along, and DirtbagReader just loves to tease Sorority!Wanda.

Also SpiderReader sounds so cute. I could definitely see Wanda being and SpiderReader doing the iconic Spider-Man kiss.

🤔

sorority!Wanda x dirtbag!Reader is basically the definition of hate sex (but in a soft way deep down) lol R is sure to be a little shit on this one, always pissing off Wanda because they thinks she's cute when she's angry.

And there will definitely be a Spiderman kiss in spider!Reader!

#🤔 anon #t asks #wanda maximoff #fanfic writing

[stargirlfics]

AMALIA OMG I WAS READING ONE OF YOUR POSTS AB JON AND LAST NIGHT I HAD A DREAM AB HIM AB TO RAIL THE EVER LIVING SHIT IHT OF ME

so sad I woke up 🥲

-🤔

Dream you was livinggg omg! Bet it was amazing!

#🤔 anon #asks

[koshercosplay]

Neil gaiman is a Zionist :(

this is so funny because if you google "neil gaiman zionist" nearly all of the links are to unsourced tumblr posts or responses to a single tweet from 2015 that just acknowledges Israel's existence

I see gaiman has once again committed the heinous crime of Being Jewish When Israel Is In The News

#*gasp* somebody actually checking for sources before succumbing to hearsay and speculation??? #must be a foreign concept to you anon #sorry but like im not just gonna take someone's word for it #ESPECIALLY when 'zionist' gets bandied about to mean 'jew i don't want you to like' #asks #anons #neil gaiman #antisemitism #ALSO like so what??? the post i reblogged is about him dealing with antisemitism #unless you think jews you don't like deserve antisemitism? 🤔 #fascinating #also ive never even given my OWN opinion on this blog #for all you know I'm a zionist lmaooo #i purposefully keep all my own thoughts on the subject far away from this blog #ooooooh scaryyyy a jew who won't tell you if they're a Good One or a Bad One

[sweetestofchaos]

🤔aww thank you so much for thinking of me as your anon🥰I’m honored, you’re so kind! I will do my best to be as helpful as I can if you ever need help! Just let me know!

Your new anon🤔

Oh, yayyyy!!! Welcome to the family, my dear🤔bestie! I'm really excited to talk to you, so stop by anytime, okay?

I feel like I'm always on here...my phone is always on me even at work, so yeah. It'll be nice to make a new friend.

Thank you for accpeting the title of 🤔anon!

Love ya,

𝒞𝒽𝒶ℴ𝓈

#soc asks #soc answers #🤔 anon #now i have 2 anons by name #super happy right now

[forecast0ctopus]

ive never seen back to the future but i like your bttf drawings because the way you draw marty makes him look kinda like me (and i am transmasc so that is gender)

hes gender in film too trust me…. marty mcfly transmasc real

#thanks :] #its a great movie.. very much recommend…… #hes so real.. a gazillion layers…. short king…… theres more but yea #ask #anon #bttf #back to the future #marty mcfly #bttf fanart #bttf art #marty mcfly fanart #back to the future fanart #back to the future art #maybe i should do a watch party for it sometime 🤔 ive got it recorded on hulu lmao

[heynhay]

Keith with galra ears? 🤔

k: lance are you even listening to me

l: whatever u say bbg

#🤔 indeed anon #klance #voltron #vld #art #my art #i even put the little fangs in. for you freaks out there. #my demons: how can i make this about klance? #ask

[merakiui]

came across a tiktok screenshot that I felt had immense azul energy so I made a very shitty edit, please enjoy - 🤔anon

(I couldn't submit the pic anonymously so uhhh anon reveal?? hi hello)

THE AZUL ENERGY IT RADIATES… you’re absolutely right. He would definitely do something like this and excuse it as “gathering research based on a life simulation of the future.” The twins log onto his account, create sims of themselves, and try to make as much babies with your sim as possible so that when Azul logs on next he’s greeted to a house much fuller than it initially was.

Also, your edit is very beautiful. <3 also also hello 🤔 anon!!! It’s nice to meet you off anonymous! :D

#twisted chit chat #🤔 anon #dubioussupernova

[curiouslittleprincess]

Um can u pls hold this for me ? 🥺🥺💖🥺

#curiouslittleprincess #reblog don’t just like #for anon 😌😌💖 #did I do this right 👀🤔

[cupcraft]

hi i haven't sent you an ask in a few days i think

-🤨

Hello anony I am gonna guess who you are but I may be wrong. You are either rose genlossicle or Anika bronzetomatoes. If you are neither of these ppl I am sorry bc I am bad at guessing games of this nature truly

#tea.cups #ask #🤔 anon #hope yo7ve been well

[fatuismooches]

Okay but… Learning that Arle’s curse regressed when she was with Clervie and wasn’t as bad just makes me wonder if that would happen with her s/o.

It’s not obvious at first, but the more time she spends with you, her curse lessens a bit in your presence. It might not completely regress, but maybe it becomes a lighter shade of grey, or maybe it recedes down her arms a bit. I just think it would be incredibly wholesome to be able to make her feel so calm and loved and happy again that her curse could improve in your company, if only even a little bit.

When she’s around the others nobody can tell, but when she comes home to you after a long day, wraps you up in her arms and lets out a sigh of release, her curse wanes as she becomes overwhelmed with peace.

AWW... so cute!! Arlecchino's curse had long covered far up her arm, a stark difference from when she was a child. She already accepted she wouldn't be able to see her lower arms and fingers return to their original color, but she had grown accustomed to it. Not to mention, you were never put off or scared by it, which was the most important part for her.

Arlecchino was a woman who always had her guard up, playing the role of a strict and unfeeling Father, carrying out her Harbinger duties, being the perfect diplomat. With her poised manner, it seemed like this was nothing to her. She even acted this way around you. But only you could see the very tiny holes in her act, when it was just the two of you. In the beginning, she wasn't very receptive to it, not because she was annoyed or anything, but because she simply never felt the things that you made her feel when you held her before. it was a foreign feeling. It was a feeling that was always said to be a hindrance. But when you kept putting your arms around her and nuzzling into her soft hair, she couldn't help but be swayed.

Obviously, she doesn't wear her heart on her sleeve, but, you can tell she appreciates your soothing company. You were probably cuddling with her one day when you noticed her arms seemed different, but you didn't comment on it because you just thought maybe it happens sometimes. But later on Arlie, ever the observant person, notices the ever so slightly receding of the curse. Naturally, she finds it odd, her curse hasn't regressed in so long, and she wants to find the cause. It doesn't take long for her to realize it fluctuates when she comes home to your arms after taking care of "business."

Of course, you feel very happy that you manage to have an effect on such a poker-faced woman. You have solid proof of how much she loves you! And it may not seem like much, but it's more than enough.

Another unrelated thought: When she says not to look into her eyes, because you may not like what you see. But reader isn't scared in the slightest and continues to stare right into them anyway. Arlecchino finds your boldness amusing but tells you not to be so reckless...

I think it's very cute, being able to be her solace after everything she's been through.

#smooches talks #arlecchino love notes <3 #i didnt know it regresses with clervie... i noticed it fluctuates though #for what reason im unsure bc ive seen ppl say many different things 🤔 (tramua emotions certain situations etc) #wow i hate not being able to use commas #well we will find out in the story quest! #i have HIGH expectations #butI LOVE THIS SM #ITS SO WHOLESOME #attacking u lovingly for this anon #its also funny how arlie is actually like... pretty young

[wmarximoff]

Other than DFTR series, are there any other fics you have in mind? I'm looking forward to the rest of the Spooktober fics, I have read DFTR so many times... I'm really looking forward to the rest of the fics.

🤔

oh yeah, i'm now writing a spooktober fic about dark!scarlet witch x reader (after this one there will only be zombie!wanda to finish the collection, and i already warn you that this is going to be angst as fuck), and i have several works in progress about requests and original stories that i plan to post at some point!

i'm also thinking about writing something about sorority!wanda x dirtbag!reader and something fluff about spider!reader... not everything is just dark around here lol

deep down i have a sensitive heart 😳

#wanda maximoff #fanfic writing #t asks #🤔 anon

[tosahobi-if]

How would the ROs react to an MC who leaves them cutesy little love notes hidden in their stuff? I just want to spoil all the babies (they are all some kind of baby)

jinwol would be confused at first and not really know how to react. think he’d first react as if it was a prank and find the mc with the note like “what is this supposed to be about?” and then get REALLY embarrassed once he realized. he’d probably start digging through all his papers and things as part of a routine and inevitably get pouty if he doesn’t find anything else. <- guy who gets conditioned easily

yul would be so delighted they’d start doing it back. little treats, drawings, gifts, all of them would start popping up in the mc’s pack or on their bed. they’d sincerely start trying to outdo the mc HAHA forget cute little notes you’re waking up to find several pages of a love letter tucked into your robes.

iseul would be incredibly starry-eyed over it. very much of a “mc that’s so sweet of you!” and she’d very carefully collect and preserve all the notes. probably chases down the mc to kiss them on the cheek every time she finds one of those (she’d literally run several kilometers just to do that and leave again.) definitely pulls the notes out and looks at them to cheer herself up once in a while.

??? is ABSOLUTELY the type of person to start doing that before the mc, not that they’d ever admit that. they’re probably the most scholarly out of the four, and adore composing verses of poetry when the mood strikes them. they probably have an entire booklet of poetry inspired by the mc but they’d rather die than hand it over. i think they’d be a liiiittle gruff about getting love notes (you’re wasting paper, mc) but you’ll still catch them carefully tucking it into their sleeves.

#anon #ro: jinwol #ro: yul #ro: iseul #ro: ??? #jinwol can be a little dense at times #he’ll get a note from the mc that says #i love you and think you’re handsome and talented #and he’d still be like 🤔 what could this mean #it must be a PRANK