#2- sounds really weird and bad

[aerkris]

arrgh I hate accidentally misgendering myself!!!! *stars setting stuff on fire*

#i havent gotten used to they/them as the one (1) person who uses my preferred pronouns left the fguckin country and I wont see him in a year #and apart from that EVERYONE calls me she/her and I hate it!!!! #it makes me question if i like using they/them and hhrhrhhrhr constant overthinking #well no there are other people who know im enby but i live in a spanish speaking country and the spanish they/them is elle which: #1- is written the same as the french female pronouns (and i know french soooo *cries*) #2- sounds really weird and bad #sorry for vent i just wish i would stop misgendering myself :( #im not comfortable in my body either #I really want top surgery eventually but im #terrified of any surgery #talks

[mcybree]

did you know that scott hit jimmy more times in 3l than anybody else, including the person that literally killed him? scott hit jimmy 13 times (2 accidental), skizz killed jimmy with one shot. anyways i think i'm gonna bite drywall

REALLY FUNNY ASK.

#this is how I sound to people sometimes I think #I’ve never thought to count the exact number of times (I typically cite the instances instead eg. 4 purposeful times total) #and i guess you are right bc jimmy didn’t do a lot of direct fighting in 3l as much as he hung back and shot a few arrows #but insanity aside I do think it’s important to note that it’s not even like. the hitting him thing that’s weird moreso the context of it #As it’s the whole… hitting him to Make Him Do Something that’s like. Hmmm! Hm. (+ Jimmy’s reactions to it) #Otherwise punching other players in minecraft is relatively normal #But also 13 is still a lot even if you are just punching to play/high five/handshake whatever #This disclaimer isnt even towards you anon btw i’ve just been been self conscious about being perceived as— #guy who interprets things uncharitably to present Scott as evil and Bad as of late #asks #anyways. (2 accidental) is really funny to me for some reason. he apologized for one of the accidental hits too which is funny #me when i hit my partner on accident and apologize (but its fine when i do it on purpose) #deranged.fh.posting

[airenyah]

calling it now:

this

is pat making fun of pa and

there's just something about the way pat says น้องภัทรอยากกินกุ้งอะ [nóng pat yàak gin gûng à]...

tell me this isn't peak sibling behaviour

#i've seen people parallel pat calling himself nong pat with the hia pat from ep 10 but #considering that they're sitting with inkpa #and we know ink is feeding pa a shrimp #i think pa might have said something about wanting to eat shrimp #prompting ink to feed her #which then has pat following up on his big brother duty of making fun of his little sister #also we know that pa calls ink p' which makes her ink's nong #which is where i think pat's nong comes from #yeah there's just something about the way he said it that really threw me off when i first heard it #bc it sounded so weird out of his mouth #but if he really is teasing pa then it makes perfect sense why he'd say that and in that way #anyway that's all the speculation i'll be doing about the preview kjskjsdf #our skyy 2 #bad buddy #os2: bbs #os2: bbs spec #os2: bbs preview #airenyah plappert #adrm

[syncrovoid-presents]

I will continue being gone for a few days, sadly my original al plan of releasing the newest chapter of The Consequence Of Imagination's Fear has also been delayed. My apologies

Can't go into detail because its hush hush not-legally-mentionable stuff but today is my fifth 12 hour no-break work day. I'm also packing to move too in a fortnight (which is a Big Yahoo!! Yippee!! I'll finally have access to a kitchen!! And no more mold others keep growing!!! So exciting!!!)

#syncrovoid.txt #delete later #OKAY SO! this makes it sound like i have a super important job but really we are understaffed and ive barely worked there a year now #graduated college a few years early 'cause i finished high school early (kinda? it's complicated) #now i am in a position where i am in the role of a whole Quality Assurance team (testing and write ups) #a Task Manager/Planner #Software Developer and maybe engineer? not sure the differences. lots of planning and programming and debugging ect ect #plus managing the coworker that messed up and doing his stuff because it just isnt good enough. which i WILL put in my end day notes #our team is like 4 people lol. we severely need more because rhe art department has like 10 people?? #crunch time is.. so rough.. #its weirdddddd thinking about this job since its like i did a speedrun into a high expectations job BUT in my defense i was hired before #i graduated. and like SURE my graduating class had literally 3 people so like there was a 86%-ish drop out rate?? #did a four year course in 2 BY ACCIDENT!! i picked it on a whim. but haha i was picked to give advice and a breakdown on the course so it #could be reworked into a 3 year course (with teachers that dont tell you to learn everything yourself) so that was neat #im rambling again but i have silly little guy privileges and a whole lot of thoughts haha #anywho i am SO hyped to move!! I'll finally get away from the creepy guy upstairs (i could rant for days about him but he is 0/10 the worst) #it will be so cool having access to a kitchen!! and literally anything more than 1 singular room #(it isnt as bad as it sounds i just have a weird life. many strange happenings and phenomenons) #<- fun fact about me! because why not? no one knows where i came from and i dont 100% know if my birthday is my birthday #i just kinda. exist. @:P #i mean technically i was found somewhere and donated to some folks (they called some different people and whoever got there first got me) #but still i think it is very silly! i have no ties to a past not my lived one! i exist as a singularity! #anywho dont think about it too hard like i guess technically ive been orphaned like twice but shhhhhhhh #wow. i am so sleep deprived. i am so so sorry to anyone who may read this #i promise im normal #@:|

[sad--tree]

kinda assumed ppl were overstating the drums or w/e being Like That on st anger but. oh my god no they. they really are very very much Like That

#idk Music WordsTM but this does not sound. right. help. its so intrusive. #i dont even think the songs are bad! is this what ppl mean when they talk about bad production on an album??? #watching some kind of monster did not prepare me for how these songs actually sound..... #i thought the snippets u hear in the doc sounded fine..... #whats up yall month number two (2) of my mental metallica lockdown :( finally branching in2 some other albums.... #incidentally i enjoyed 72 seasons actually #like. theres nothing really uhh groundbreaking? in it but it was enjoyable! i like it! esp you must burn! and inamorata #my friend said he thought it sounded 'overproduced' and tbh i have ZERO idea what that means when ppl use that as a descriptor for any music #like ive heard plenty of stuff id maybe call UNDERproduced but over?? some1 explain #same friend said he thought james hetfield 'hasnt aged well' and good god if he saw the old men i wanna fuck..... #this friend is Older tho so i dont like. make those kinda comments with him lol it would maybe. be Weird. #anyways i should look up live versions of the st anger songs i wonder if they sound different/better ?

[omaano]

👀

I found a pretty Wip in the heap wohoo! (I’ve already posted the monochrome version of this here) but in a moment of inspiration I added a colour layer to it to help me visualize things a little better but then I had a bit of an identity crisis with my colouring regarding painterly vs cell shading and so it’s stuck in this weird limbo state, poor thing...

Send me a 👀 and I’ll post a snippet of Wip I never got around to finish this year

#thank you for the eyes!! #wow that sounded weird my bad…. ^^; #my art #Wip #din keeps losing and regaining that scar on his thumb… even though I’m trying really hard to keep them all consistent on him #that means that I should add a few small ones to his face as we #ll huh? #dincobb #I'm down to a couple dincobb scribbles and 2 Din sketches I didn't expect you guys being so interested aww #I'll stop filling up that tag as well but this one IS pretty

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

Today I learned that essays and written work isn’t that hard. I just have adhd

#not in the funny haha quirky way #as in. I’m finally getting a diagnosis and got to try adderall and what would usually take me a week to write I wrote in 7 hours #it’s not that bad when you don’t write a sentence and go god I hate this! and take a 40 minute doom scroll break #like. thank god there’s something that works!! definitely made me nauseous and kinda gave me a headache. head might’ve been from no sleep #i finished out the semester #and still helped my ex study til one after 2 huge assignments #that’s crazy. usually I can’t form a sentence after 1 #i was able to just. do stuff #thought. i should quit doom scrolling. and just closed the app?? #and this is a normal thing people can just do #which sounds so fake but also. man. screw that. ur telling me that if someone when I was younger actually referred me to get tested I could #have had this sooner?? that I didn’t have to suffer for 20 years first??? #it’s a really weird feeling. my head was just quiet. no loud obnoxious thoughts. when something did cross my mind I easily pushed it away #i was even more creative. i had ideas and I remembered them long enough to write down. it didn’t just slide right off #i didn’t go oh god my room is a mess I cannot work if the vibes are off #i didn’t even need music #i just up and worked #my ex kept popping in my room and laying down with me and I didn’t immediately jump into bed with her and take a 5 hour nap #i was able to talk to her and do work #and get up and sit with her for a little and go back to work #this is like. genuinely life changing #now I just need to find a good dose #probably not til January. i don’t need meds if #no. no. i definitely don’t function in general. i was gonna say I’m fine until there’s homework #and then I remembered laundry #however I still can’t do anything til I get back from Christmas break cause I gotta go thru my college #but there’s hope! next up is anti depressants #soup talks

[toytulini]

gatekeeping weirdness now? yall have the energy for this? silly goose behavior(derogatory and dismissive) for sure

#toy txt post #ive seen 2 posts today im not interacting with #one was less bad but still #the other one was hilariously bad #im vagueing it #it was like wah! fucking POSERS are PRETENDING to be weird by ACTIVELY pursuing interests and hobbies that make someone considered weird! #and having dyed hair! bluh! always with the dyed hair hate like really. its not For you but die mad i guess. #anyway if youre that concerned about other ppl actively pursuing hobbies that get them labelled weird (for i guess. the purpose. of being #percieved as weird? whether or not they enjoy the hobby? fascinating behavior if so. pretty weird even id s-*gunshot* #anyway if youre that concerned about that vs like idk....whatever 'organically' weird ppl are. in contrast to that. i gotta say #im no expert but that does sound like maybe you are in fact the poser bro. also this is so fucking funny and stupid god #first of all. pretending to be weird by displaying interests in weird hobbies and fashion even tho deep down im a normal fucking square and #i just hate these weird hobbies and aesthetics so much but like listen i Gotta. for the Weirdness Clout(tm). definitely a thing that #meaningfully exists and makes a ton of sense to measure someone against #dont you know youre only a true weirdo if you dont have any interest in looking like a freak and putting effort into your weird freak #aesthetic. what insane fucking discourse. #like first of all dumbass this shit is made up. normal isnt real it doesnt exist. normal people are fucking weird. weirdness is normal #weirdness is also a construct that is defined in opposition to the unachievable normalcy. many ppl are for the most part 'normal' #with little regular quirks and then there are every so often weird freaks who are very much outside of normal #and thats generally fine although society generally does punish those who do not strive for normalcy. you are supposed to try to appear #normal at all costs or you are punished. etc. its late i just got home from work im not getting into this more #tldw(too long didnt write): yall gotta chill you got your head way too far up your own ass if you are legitimately concerned about #'normal' people 'pretending' to be weird. thats not a problem its fine calm down holy fuck. #also. also. to the less bad one: #'you cant all have been weird little girls' are you accounting for the selection bias of this website targeting the deomgraphic of ppl #who were weird little girls? chill. its the weird little kids grown up to be weird little adults website and youre shocked? really?

[wa-kaizen]

Hi how are you?

Hii! I appreciate that you asked this, since I can use this as an update post! - which I hope you don't mind ♥︎

Please don't mind me if I sound loopy or miss-word somethings, I haven't slept in a while. I also apologise for this being a short post!

Lately I have been insanely busy with little to no access to internet which held me back from coming online and interacting, which I feel very guilty for! I apologise for everyone who worried or felt anything displeasing due to that! ♥︎

Of course more things have happened in my life, which I don't like, but I won't go into depth to avoid pity or accidentally triggering someone as I am aware a whole lot of you must already have so much to deal with! Although I'd like to say since I lost my job I am unsure how much longer I will have wifi, so I apologise if I will be less active in a month or so. - I actually lost it due to my disabilities, which didn't even prevent me from doing it properly! So I am kinda upset about that! -

Anyway, I hope none of you are overwhelmed!! I'd love to know how you are doing!! And everyone else reading this of course.

#this must sound so bad #i hope i am not confusing or come off as whiny #i have a very small and limited time to use my phone today ㅠㅠ #i will try to be online tomorrow though #this ask is so cute #i really hope i dont sound weird #its been 2 days since i slept #anyway you guys are aaaaalll such angels ilysm #ask

[soryualeksi]

Two weeks and I'm still constantly crying. I just can't believe I'll never see him again.

I feel so weird to be knocked out like this.

It's like THIS time I reached and crossed my limit.

My brain is still in "I don't want to believe this" mode. It's too painful.

#mourning #i dunno since I'm not family or close friend i feel like i should be expected to get better after 2 weeks #I KNOW THIS IS A WEIRD THING TO THINK #i don't know what the social expectations about mourning colleagues is #all i know is that it's like a hole has been ripped into my heart #also the longer i think about it the more i realize that apart from my team partner he's probably the only one to knock me out like that #like what are the odds #this sounds so evil but I'm bad at communicating #all of my colleagues would have made me sad but this guy i was. stupidly protective of inside my own heart i realize. #it's probably the mutual autism lol #but seriously i just. i can't really cope. this is such a nightmare. #death cw

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#the agony of writing personal statements. or statements of purpose #why is it so hard? bc i dont kno how to balance listing things i can do vs waxing on abt bullshit i like #idk i just feel v pretentious when i write things bc i also kinda talk that way when i can get a sentence out straight. when i can figure #out what im trying to say. so i just sorta talk kinda weird. or i say weird stuff #its not a bad thing really. but idk how much i should let it out on these statements #or what i should focus on #what to say: i studied extremophilic soil communities. learned stats coding. loved cyanos. #but also: i enjoy science communication? sort of. i like talking abt things and hearing other perspectives but u gotta kno what im saying #1st so i gotta teach u. and i want to help ppl understand things in a way that makes sense to them bc everyone learns differently #but also im too tired and depressed to do thst lmao #sigh... its just hard bc my interests seem frivolous. like theres an academic justification but im not actually interested in being useful #thats just a side effect. so i dont wanna talk abt that stuff #ugh. annoying i wanted to finish writing thrm today but then i got invited to go hiking #and going on a 3hr hike sounded like a better idea than sitting in ny apartment having a breakdown #and then i ran around in the rain a while. so not a bad day as it turned out #but a very unproductive weekend :-/ #ok but the annoying part abt the personal statement writing is that i know im agonizing over it more than i should #bc i kno some jackass out there is applying to the same school and just slapped one together and im wasting hours and hours #on 1 to 2 pages. annoying. and i might mot even get in idk #uuuuuuugh. and it looks like i might have to share a room with my boss for thurs thru Sunday night on our sampling trip #itll b fine i just might wilt being around ppl too much #also have like a streight up 11hr car ride with my lab mate. which will b ok hopefully bc we r friends #but like idk i feel like i kinda gotta pull the conversation with him so blah well see what happens #blah. i fluctuate between: im so burnt out im not having fun anymore #and then remembering: oh wait i am passionate abt things. i wish i had the energy. and then slumping over again #idk @ thr Universities im applying to: u should accept me bc i said so. there. end of statement #unrelated #university: what do i wanna b when u grow up? #me: fuck it i guess a professor? i just wanna do cool research. i dont actually want to work for a uni bc fuck that #i also dont wanna talk to ppl. just habe my own office and do cool science stuff rip

[horrorwebs]

I MADE MORE FRIENDS . !!

#yesterday and today aaaaaa :) i thought i was gonna be miserable but no #yesterday i arrived at drawing class and i thought the girls from last time [3 weeks ago] barely remembered me/were annoyed by me. but no #i arrived at class [packed w like 70 ppl who all dont know each other] and they scream MY NAME :D [greetinf] #like right as i stepped into the class they were in the middle of it #so i say hi to them and also these two guys who i rly like that i had met before starting class while on a trip w friends who i was hoping #i could talk to. well we all sit outside clas to work together so we talk a lot and its really cool and i love them already! #and today i was scared bc i knew only 1 girl from design class [ok actually 3 more hut 1 is more like a classmate thing and the other 2 we #talked once and i dont remember their names] b i arrived and didnt see her so i sat alone scared then i saw her and went over to her table #n i made friends with her friends theyr really cool! especially this one guy i sat next to we talked a lot it seems like we are similar #and in the other 2 theoric clases i know this 2 girls that i also shar drawing with and theyre both really sweet so its cool! #bad thing is that all of them are in diff careers than me [graphic design architecture and textile design] i havent mer anyone from mine #[<- image and sound design] #so im scared next year ill know no one again! but atill im so happy en #yesterday was so fun with these guys #and like one of the guys i knew when i met him i was like waow hes so cool i wish we could be friends but ill prob never see himagain #AND THEN I SAHRE A CLASS W HIM . i though maybe hed be annoyed but no he made conversation asked me questions + asked be to b in his group #anyway the teacher separated ghe groups and made them themselves but eitherway! hes so cool and weird. and the girls are great too like #super kind and sweet and it wa svery fun #spikeposting

[diseasedcube]

they did not have to go this hard omg

#tye spoilers #they really said: let's have sad animation for the entire season but Kahaku can have amazing facial expressions for a second 😎 #AND IS THAT NEW MUSIC I'M HEARING #IT GOES VERY HARD TOO #...i wonder if the 'i want it to end' is a poor translation on the subber's part? #i'm pretty sure i've got official subs here #but in both the weekly and volume release of the manga #he says something more along the lines of just wanting to rest/have some relief #now he just sounds suicidal (esp with his more extreme facial expression here. manga fushi just looked exhausted) #not that I don't absolutely adore a more suicidal aspect being given to a character #especially since his earlier tone of suicidality wasn't very well emphasized in the anime imo #also good fucking god the color grading on these gifs is atrocious #my internet is being weird so i had to use clipchamp and it shows :( #ALSO I NEED TO GO WATCH HAIRO'S BACKSTORY SCENE AGAIN #BECAUSE EVEN IN THE MANGA. I NEVER REALLY UNDERSTOOD IF THAT WAS INDEED TASSETTE??? #his entire backstory doesn't make a lick of sense but sjdhgfdjsjhdegydhdiye was that actually tassette??????? #hmnbnmnbn there's three episodes left but i really think there's only 2 episodes worth of manga content #but i'm bad at estimating #like surely the next ep won't be ENDING with Bon's death right? and maybe they'd dedicate an ep to the aftermath of that #but then what..... #also i still can't tell if kahaku was lying. more just...panicked and making excuses up on the spot? #just a frantic 'it's not what it looks like i didn't mean it!!!' type vibe

[sysig]

*dramatically swipes all the papers and books off the surface of my mind-desk*

#Actually I'll have to pick those up in approximately 24 hours but untIL THEN #This week has been absolute chaos on my focus IS2G #It hasn't even been a full week since my stream but I have been feeling so Weird since then lol #Not in like a bad way or anything just like - heavy flighty lol #The kind of restlessness that lends itself to nothing outside of 2-5AM on the odd days of the week #The universe decided to pull another Happy Coincidence prank on me #Anyone here remember the job that popped up for exactly long enough to replace my laptop? The one I'm currently using? #Yeah that happened again - different necessity of money spending (please let that continue to be the case) - but same coincidence #Practically the same distance and pay too like what #I hate to use the word NPC 'cause it's taken on such a gross implication as of late but like #Who are these Quest Givers and why do they have the exact amount of EXP I need for the next level when I Really Need to boss fight #I've also been getting back into Stardew Valley which has been great fun - I actually made it to Lv 25 in the Desert Mines! #I got a lot of things very quickly actually - I'm on Year 3 but over the course of like a season and a half I upgraded and acquired a bunch #Got the gold scythe and Iridium pick and the beets and my first fish pond and the Slime Ring!! Gods the Slime Ring #Makes my Slime Hutch about 1000000% easier #Oh yeah and two more Prismatic Shards and a Dino Egg (one hatched and one in the incubator) and the basement #Popping off is basically what I'm saying and doing and being and having #It's weird to return to the real world afterwards tho lol my schedule is so shot #Also not me setting a new alarm the other day and it going off and I'm just like ''Oh this is a pretty track I haven't heard this one yet'' #Running around trying to keep from accidentally shutting it off 'cause it's pretty and sounds nice against the late autumn day #Luckily I set it early enough that I recognized what was happening before the Actual actual time hit lol #SDV #WPSDV #WPVG

[noxtivagus]

oh man first time actually being alone at home

#🌙.rambles #the rest of my family's going out #i don't feel well so i wna stay at home T_T my stomache aches n i'm Tired #i feel sleepy still. i'm yawning #this feels kinda lonely #not being with apollo is weird #i like being alone n all but it's never properly /completely/ alone bcs #yeah at night apollo n i are often like. in the same room or wtvr doing our own different things #comfortable silence n just enjoying each other's company #i'm really not used to actually being completely alone #it feels so quiet #since i decided not to go out i'm gna be productive! #so weird tho... thinking abt it i typically do things in pairs #bcs i have a twin sister yeah n i typically feel most comfortable in groups that are even numbers #grps of 2 i'm pretty shy / 3 i get overshadowed / 4 i mostly listen but it's comfier #this all sounds rather miserable but in general it's not too bad. i believe and trust in myself but i just really get anxious at times #in social situations particularly the first step is the hardest but after that i can adapt/adjust decently enough to the flow #aaaa i'm too tired to go outside but i don't know what to do at home

[gideonisms]

my fear of roaches is so severe now....yes I CAN grab them with a paper towel and throw them outside without breaking a sweat and yes I AM the bug catcher in most of my living situations but I'm dying inside and if a hot girl WANTED to fall in love with me and catch them for me from now on I would Not say no

#:/ #my heart rate is still coming down. i'm at my aunt's so i don't have my tent so i'm just 🤢🤢😱💀 #everyone else thinks i should squish them but the sound ...no. urhghgghhhh #well and also i have a thing about unsavory awful disgusting forms of life and how you know. we are all that to someone or something and #who am i really to kill things unnecessarily for walking in the wrong place #sometimes you have to like at my apartment it had to be a battle ground bc it was them or me but u know. #off the point off the point #i have to leave this state this country this universe this galaxy. goodbye #i simply cannot be here under these conditions (saw scary bug)!!! and i'm not happy!!! #also having weird feelings abt time with my family that i chose like it wasn't mandatory for me to be here and i did want to hang out #but i'm just feeling distant & off bc i'm so different than them ig? and my beliefs clash so much and it feels bad not to say anything #but i just can't think of anything to say that would be constructive sometimes #so it's like they'll make comments i don't love but that are kind of on the edge where it's like. how do i adress this it's just a joke or #like sometimes it's not but it's something so deeply tied to their whole belief system that like idek where to start bc #i don't really want them to change their religion etc. that's something they want for me and it sucks so i'd never expect that from others #because it sucks! #but yeah when i spend time away from them it's kinda like wow y'all are the people i love and i'm not sure how i feel about that #anyway. hm. getting weird after 2 am perhaps it's time to admit defeat petition whatever deity controls roaches for some peace & go to sleep