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failing-to-write-again · 1 year

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Does anyone else have vastly different appearances in their head for you in the different routes? Like I day dream a lot, like a lot a lot it's why I post sometimes it's when the fear overrides the need to word vomit.

TW: mentions of abuse, depression and just general fucked up. It's the diaboys there's only so much you can avoid mentioning

Ok so I'm gonna write out a brief description of what always stays the same in these day dreams. I play around with them being human or something else, normal or like assassin's or stuff like that. But there's a few things that generally stay the same. They're all Afab, with she/her pronouns just because I create women a lot in my head but you could easily gender swap them as I'm focusing on personality and general vibe the appearance I describe I think is easily able to fit on different genders or have a same vibe equivalent.

Shu

I've always felt Shu would match well with someone who deals with depression or anxiety, more so less severe cases as two sleep all the time to avoid having to face life people do not make healthy relationships. But someone who has some degree of understanding while also having a better hold of themselves as humans are getting better at learning how to help manage depression. Shu is old and I'm pretty sure he's not bothered to learn much about the modern world aside from sleep/comfort, music (that's a stretch mp3s are not used as much as phones also that bitch would absolutely be a waterproof wireless earphone hoe), and probably porn.

I think a natural leader type person would also suit. I know in theory it sounds antithetical to the s/o with depression but hear me out. I deal with depression but also due to my own personality step into organized positions as I want things done to avoid stress. I really see an oldest sister would match him as it's someone modeling behaviors that to the best of my knowledge Shu was never against having. It was Reiji rejecting him and the triplets being kept away from him that prevented that dynamic setting itself up. I really think if an s/o could get Shu to work on himself he would be trying to be more brotherly. I think out of all the brothers Shu and Subaru are very likely to have a happier relationship with everyone. But they don't have the tools and are too stepped in their ways to navigate without help.

I think they would have to meet in school or something outside of being a sacrificial bride, maybe an actual exchange student with strict instructions of no harm coming to them. Diaboys set up a pretty unhealthy dynamic and since they go cruelty first, then fuck up so bad then realize they're in love that the types that would benefit them "best" would be gone or killed already.

Someone with a good sense or sarcasm would be great for Shu too. Couples who laugh together stay together. Plus a match for teasing would probably be something that leaves a grin on his face all day long.

Shu: "You should really wear a longer skirt in school, or do you want me to look up your skirt as you walk past. Heh, lewd woman"

S/o: [as they walk past] "Why risk breaking uniform code when I can just wear nice underwear under it instead, then I get two benefits"

S/o: [stopping just before turning down a corridor] "There's no rant from Reiji for breaking code and you end up showing off how desperate you are. Lewd man~"

Shu: [in love]

I don't think any super genius level of intelligence is needed but someone with a rounded view on things and a someone who is at least vaguely informed about what they talk about would be good. It avoids the annoyance of someone dense but also isn't so book focused it reminds him of Reiji.

Reiji

Speaking of the spectacled suitor. S/o has gotta be smart in some capacity not necessarily an encyclopedia but maybe good at Chemistry/Biology, or a good strategist. Bitch aims to be a control freak and a future king or, route depending, advisor to the King, so battle tactics would be attractive.

He'd be into the type of woman who doesn't overtly dress sexually. Pencil skirt or pants and blouse with some heels are a great look and can be sexual when you want to be sexual but also just well put together when you aren't looking to get railed on a desk. Except, of course, for when he decides to get handsy he realizes you decided to forgo any underwear.

Nipple piercings. He's definitely into them you can't fool me it's all that hidden succubus energy he finds attractive in a partner.

Past that he wants someone who isn't going to stress him out, someone to be a voice of reason, and someone to relax with.

I think someone chatty could be either great or awful for him. On the one hand he seems so adjusted to over stimulation true silence may unsettle him but at the same time it may annoy him if he isn't interested in conversation. Same for the other side of the coin, someone too quiet would unsettle him cause he won't know what your thinking, but at the same time it might be nice to sit in silence and read.

I've always thought Reiji would want someone tall like 5'10-6'00 as they can't be taller then him because inferiority complex, but I firmly believe he's got a back that is prone to aches already so not having to bend far for kisses or hugs would be nice. Or better yet someone shorter than him but still tall for a woman, so wearing heels gets here to be like 5'11" to 6ft.

Reiji does like humor and spontaneity sometimes. I think a stiff lover would drain him, nobody wants to actually date themselves. Again the older sister type (stereotype I know) would suit, as generally older sisters are pushed to mature fast like he was, except generally it's not as severe as him and older sisters are statistically the most likely to have read about or been to therapy to undo some of the behaviors that aren't as healthy.

[Loud music or something playing]

Reiji: [going to stand up] I swear can nobody keep order in this house...

S/o: [Gently touches his hand] They've yet to make a crash and it's coming from Ayato's room. I say we turn on the record player to drown it out for now. It's not your job to be their dad Sweetness, and all your doing is giving yourself grey hairs

Reiji: [sitting back down] I suppose I could finish this chapter-

[CRASH]

S/o: [quickly stands up and starts to walk to the door, lots of heel clicking] I swear that boy has to ruin every quiet moment I can grasp for us. Wait there.

Reiji: [feels very loved for and is confused as to why that gave him a boner]

I don't think he'd enjoy a dom much but a switch who prefers to sub but isn't against them taking a more gentle lead (not the kinky shit he's into I don't think you'd actually get a whip near him in a healthy relationship).

Ayato

This bitch is tricky. Like I think with the except of Subaru the Sakamakis get worse the younger they are. I feel that's why the triplets never appealed to me they seemed harder to redeem. I could see Shu, Reiji, or Subaru potentially getting better with Reiji least likely but the triplets are... messy.

That being said I think Ayato is definitely going to have to be a least a little bit on the road to being more balanced by the time he meets this s/o.

An s/o who is modern would definitely appeal in my opinion. Video games, outfits, music all that good culture stuff that Ayato is a spectator not a player in right now. He is still old as shit and he hasn't got non...any friends so he doesn't have a lens to learn the culture, all he can do is watch.

Ayato is one of the highest sex driven characters in the games (he sleeps with Yui the most because it uses the underwear sprite almost every time they sleep together indicating it ain't just dreaming happening) I think that may be part possessive part teenage boy. So someone with an interest in partaking is probably important for drive balance. To be clear I don't necessarily mean sexy here, more so that giddy first time giggles type person. Someone who's excited to experience things with him.

That extends past the bedroom too Ayato was starved for activity as a child and is still as a teen so someone who knows what's fun and is happy to take him there is like perfect.

I do think Ayato's s/o will need to be a patient person as I feel Ayato going through therapy would mean a lot of breakdowns or tension in him that could lead to more arguments than potentially needed if they ain't a little patient for the smaller things. There is a difference between 'he demanded I make him Takoyaki then sulked when I reminded him we're equals in this partnership so I'll avoid escalating ' vs 'he has bitten me for talking to a guy, but to him that's just a display of love.' The second thing deserved a conversation then and there you don't avoid rocking the boat when it comes to dangerous behaviors folks.

[See Ayato with a hairbrush sitting cross legged with S/O in his lap] Ayato: So we don't like Jacob...

S/O: Well, Edward isn't exactly a catch himself but like c'mon he imprinted on a baby. Ayato: Beatrix and him were engaged from birth. S/O: Exactly.

Laito

Oh boy. Again needs to be starting therapy or unraveling what his mum did to him and what his culture has shaped him to be first.

Once done however I think Laito would want someone "normal." No baggage, or crazy lifestyle, or wacky habits. I think he craves something calm when everything has been so disordered growing up. I think it's why he likes crosswords, they're a weirdly normal thing in his weird world.

I think he needs someone with a lower sex drive then he displays in the games. A not uncommon trauma response from childhood sexual assault is hyper sexuality which seems to be why Laito is hyper sexual. I don't think that's him as a person, Shu would be high sex drive in how he talks but Laito seems very much to be shielding himself with sex not having sex for sex.

So yeah someone who isn't always in the mood, maybe they sleep naked but just because they want skin on skin contact. Maybe it's to feel his breathing better. But that sort of environment. Where the thing he's over sexualized: himself and women, become less sexual more intimate. He'll be thrown a bit at first 100%. But I think after cuddling while having his hair gentle played with or a shoulder rub he'll be welcoming this new part bodily expression.

Laito is smart, smarter than he gets credit for he's a manipulator with charisma to boot and I've tried a crossword they use a certain part of your brain that I do not use. I think he'd like someone who's not too dense but also I feel like he won't mind too much so long as they could hold conversation and read sarcasm.

He also would probably love a more modern s/o like Ayato. Imagine the shopping sprees!

S/O: [coming out of changing room] I'm really not sure about this dress on me Laito: It's the shade it clashes with your undertones, try it in a different colour. S/O: They don't have it in my size, that sucks. Laito: Why? fufu~ It's Chanel, she was a vampire just take a picture and I'll get the designer over to make you one tailored made. S/O: Are you sure? I don't know how close I want you being stuck to your dad, and all the weirdness you've mentioned. Laito: Oh please, as if he's bothered enough about the fourth in line.

Kanato

This one's hard man. Kanato, Ruki, Kou, and Azusa are some of the hardest to envision in a healthy spot tbh. So this Kanato is very ooc. Think: isn't talking to teddy even if he still carries it, has a better hold on his temper, isn't trying to kill you constantly... basically just not Kanato.

A baker or a cook would absolutely appeal, dates where they show him how to cook new treats could be fun. Also top tier tea parties man.

Potentially a singer, musician, or dancer could appeal as well with the shared interest of singing being there. If the jealousy Kanato has gets weakened a bit I think that could help him get past his "I sing cuze mum liked it" thing.

I also truly think Kanato is like Laito in wanting something normal after all the abnormal he's lived through.

sorry he's so short I seriously don't know what to write. I also do not want to curse you all with mega ooc Kanato discussion

Subaru

Subaru is by far the closest to being the same amount of traumatized some people I've met irl are. Issues still there with the whole punching walls in anger but the fact he seems to punch walls to avoid hurting people implies he is trying to work on himself but doesn't know how.

Subaru could meet his s/o as a sacrificial bride and I think he's the only one who could. If I remember his route correctly, he isn't nearly as sadistic in the reasoning for his biting, hes also like what 15, 16 looking? He is modelling the only behavior he's seen, and while that doesn't make it right it is less heinous than the others.

I feel the most profound importance for this relationship is someone who will not shout, someone with a healthy enough up bringing to view arguments as Subaru approaches them as entirely useless. He will probably still have tantrums at first but having someone entirely unwilling to let communication break down on their end will push Subaru to do the same.

Subaru also does not seem to actually want much at all. He just wants a break, poor thing. If the S/O were to be a sacrificial bride, I think he'd be the one to pull a run away. I don't see Karl caring much here, Subaru is just a consequence of his vile habits as far as Karl is concerned.

From there I do think it's just a normal therapist and probably turning the S/O to a vampire.

[S/O and Subaru in some nice meadow resting on a blanket by a stream. Think flowers everywhere under a gently warm sun.] S/O: I've successfully lasted a week without accidentally breaking anything! Subaru: HAHA! Well done but don't go expecting any prizes I could do that shit. S/O: Fair, your 3 year pin is coming up to. We should probably do something for it. Subaru: Well... there is one thing... [getting up to one knee]

Ruki

oh look what we have here. An endgelord.

Seriously Ruki infuriates me from a character point at times. They are meant to be somewhat foils to the Sakamakis, and for Ruki in particular his behavior is a mirror to Reiji and his ego is closer to Ayato but with Reiji type mannerisms.

So he likes reading, came from nobility but saw the absolute worse of humanity to then re-find a reason to care for others with his brothers. Ok cool, then he dies in an attempt to escape to then have Karl take pity on him and revive him as his subordinate. SO WHY DOES HE HATE POOR PEOPLE!?

Like whenever I sit down to think about it Ruki's sheer cruelty lines up with nothing other than abused children turn into abusers which is a dog-shit and wrong opinion. Like he doesn't have to be pally, he can be a kuudere, he can be jaded. But having him be so sadistic just makes him what he hated, a spoiled rich man taking joy in using his power over others.

But this is about suited partners. So for this fucker I prescribe what he wishes he was. Now this is the material worth much more work and maybe it will get that, I am currently uncertain.

So, let's be real that orphanage still existed after the Mukamis. So my little world I've made with all that maladaptive day dreaming I do. In that world just to show Ruki as not as above everyone as he thinks, his soulmate type S/O as well as some if not all the other S/Os were there either at the same time or sequentially. Ruki got his escape plan from the work of a girl he viewed as too stupid to pull it off, aka S/O. When the boys escape obviously torture happens to see if anyone knows anything, and the boys failed the escape. This is used by the S/O to advise her sisters to change course slightly.

They do escape and Karl realizes very quickly he got the less advantageous group in terms of strategy. He would more than likely approach these girls, maybe they stay human for quite a while but eventually do need to be turned for the pure sake of time.

So Ruki gets introduce when he comes to visit Karl to update on the whole Eve thing only to see S/O. Standing there talking with Karl as if you're equals as he's laughing at some comment. Karl introducing them as his right hand man so to speak. Seeing that you get to live with Karl and you glaring.

After some prodding due to jealousy causing him to take out his insecurities on you in the form of unwanted commentary, you snap. You openly call him out on his failings, how you are what he wishes he was and how you don't masquerade as the same tormentors that made both your childhoods hell.

Eventually (I'm not giving a whole slow burn fic away for free people), he gets whipped something bad. Having to face the fact that he is exactly what he judges in humans so much. I don't imagine many would forgive him, hence why S/O to me cannot be anyone other than such a strong person to have survived and still be so openly kind.

No dialogue here so I can pretend these all got fair treatment.

Yuma

So big boy farmer. His sadism doesn't fully track with me same as Ruki but Yuma has more redeeming character traits that offset the cruelty. He also seems to truly only carry out the Eden project due to loyalty to Karl, he is a fiercely loyal person.

As said for Ruki I love the idea of the Mukami S/Os being sisters from the orphanage. Yumas S/O would probably also have a strong sense of loyalty to Ruki's S/O. The main exception being her loyalty to Karl does not cause her to be in any way sadistic. While Karl is fully ready to drop kick a child the S/O does not see that behavior appropriate at all regardless of her vampire-ism.

Having to deal with pining for a girl who will not date him as he currently treats women may cause him to change for the sake of placating her sure. But once identities are revealed and Yuma learns that the reason the S/O is so anti-cruelty is due to the orphanage I think Yuma would be one of the ones more open to change. Like Ruki, the reflection isn't so nice once the glass was polished.

He just wants a farm and probably kids or dogs lets be real here.

Kou

Once again an edgelord. Who doesn't at all understand give and take as much as he harps on about it. I may have low enough standards to crush on these boys but a hypocrite is TOO LOW.

I'm sounding like a broken record here but a fellow orphan escapee S/O as the vector for Kou getting called out on his bs is great.

Also full on enemies to lovers vibes. One little head canon is what if the S/O at the request of Karl gave up an eye, the eye then enchanted for Kou. Having to stand across from someone who will not buy the excuse of his trauma being an acceptable reason to harm others. Because you lived through it all, if not worse and still gave up an eye free of charge because Karl had this protegee who was so sad about not having two eyes.

I think Kou's love would not start until near a century after. Having to see you again and again after the introduction, seeing how you and your sister's are Karl's jewels as you are so effective because of your humanity. He's prone to envy let's be frank.

But once he opens up to the fact he could change and be like you, maybe after having to work with you, he begins to warm up to it all.

Azusa

Azusa is one like Kanato that I am unsure if I know how to treat.

The love of pain of his would put so much emotional labor on an S/O that just isn't fair. The only relationship I would feel comfortable writing on would be a post therapy and self work Azusa who doesn't make masochism his main personality trait.

He is gentle in disposition so a gentle S/O would match well. Or maybe an extroverted S/O to bring him out his shell a bit, post masochism recovery.

Yeah if any Azusa fans read this and have ideas please write you own and sent it to me I am really curious of seeing this from the perspective on someone who has a connection to him.

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woodenfawn · 9 months

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Rewatching Re:Zero again, for various reasons, and I really want to take a closer look at it because it's been stuck in my head for such a long time. (It's actually the first scene I ever watched!)

Going back to the Rem Infodump, well- this is part of the reason I think Rem's definitely not stopping her character development. From the beginning, we get the message from this story that self sacrifice without any reward is not something someone should be satisfied with.

And this is extremely interesting because of what we learn later on- that despite all the physical pain, Ram was relieved that her horn broke. She didn't regret it, and only Rem was hurt by it emotionally.

I wonder if she ever properly talked to Rem about it? I wonder if she knew how to do that. I wonder if Rem ever knew how it felt to hold the pressure the clan was putting on her sister...

Ram's only guilt here comes from how it hurt Rem.

And then Ram asks Subaru who he'd prefer to be friends with, and I realized something pretty interesting.

These describe each of the twins, but they also describe Subaru himself. Both, together. Those two things add up to a large part of his internal conflict, and are made difficult by the fact that they contrast each other so much.

Because Subaru cannot just save everyone easily, because he's just a normal kid who was thrown into situations far beyond his abilities, he has to learn to love himself while dealing with both of these issues simultaneously. Letting go of one of these flaws (as he sees it) means completely and shamelessly embracing the other. If he refuses help, the only way he can be strong is to sacrifice himself. If he prioritizes himself, then he'll only ever be able to take from those he cares about.

I love how the story doesn't give him the option to become stronger, either. Like- he has Guiltywhip, he has Beatrice, he has Witch Authorities, but he's not the Isekai Protagonist he'd hoped he could be. He can't be Reinhardt (though... I don't know if he would want to be. That comes with its own rabbit hole, doesn't it?).

Rem and Ram each are like two mirrors of different parts of him, and they each have dynamics with each other that play on these connections.

Rem and Ram each embody different parts of the message of Re:Zero and I think that is so cool. All of them do, but the way this is presented just. I love it.

I don't mean to always talk about Subaru, I swear... I'm just in love with his character... Subaru's got such good dynamics with the whole cast,,,

I wish this conversation was in the final timeline, or that Subaru recreated it somehow... got the message across... man

Dear Diary, today I thought about Re:Zero again

also can we talk about how there's little trinkets and items that represent the main cast's personalities? Like, the spoon and the quill represent Rem and Ram in this story, the flower pin that Emilia gets from the little girl is like... the proof of her kindness, and the 10 yen coin represents subaru's brand of kindness- from the very beginning of the story. as well as the key from the elior forest being another one of emilia's, which has a similar diamond shaped gem to the quill and spoon. The only one of the main cast I can't pin down is beatrice... her book? her crown? I'm not sure. I hope we see Subaru's Beatrice diary in the next season!!

#re zero #re:zero #natsuki subaru #subaru natsuki #rem rezero #ram rezero

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dixbolik-lovers · 1 year

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Ooh, could I ask for some Pet AU (mixed with ABO “everybody is an Omega” AU) headcanons with the Sakamaki brothers getting purchased as a bed-warmer type for a powerful & rich Alpha?

The boys expect to be treated badly, “used” immediately, and then thrown away, but the Alpha gives them their own private room and various items the Alpha somehow knows they favor and tells them that “Even if the boys are who Readers going to take to bed whenever he’s in rut, Reader isn’t going to be cruel to them, and will treat them like he would if they were Readers actual mate.” and “That they are free to ask for anything they want/need, with their only obligations being attending dinner with Reader once a week and spending time with Reader during his rut to satisfy Readers instincts” (And reader means that in a perfectly pure way, as they later learn when Reader calmly reads a book with them while he has their head resting innocently on his lap, perfectly satisfied)

Shuu

He's absolutely expecting the worst, whatever that may mean. Shuu does not have high hopes for how he'll be treated in this home, but it's not like there's anything he can do about it. Thus, it's better to just keep his mouth shut and try not to make trouble for himself. It definitely comes as a surprise when you treat him so gently, though— he has no idea how to respond, especially when you have no intentions of using him in that way. There's nothing to do but accept it, though, so he doesn't resist the kindness.

Reiji

Despite the unfortunate nature of this placement, Reiji is determined to do his best to be exceptional, as always. He's internally terrified of what might be done to him, but that's nothing that he has a right to complain about. It's a terrible shock when you don't go along with what he was expecting, though, and it ruins all of his carefully laid plans for how to gain your favor. And yet, at the same time that he's beyond confused, he can't help but be relieved that you won't be treating him as he'd anticipated.

Ayato

He's beyond excited to finally have a home... but what he thinks is going to happen with you is more than a little intimidating. While he remains eager to please, Ayato is also highly nervous around you. Or at least, right up until he realizes that you're being nice. At that point, he doesn't know what to think at all. Everything he's been told says that you should be using him however you see fit, but instead, he's just getting... spoiled? It's way too strange, but he's still desperately grateful for the much-needed attention.

Kanato

With his looks and dynamic, Kanato expects to have exactly one purpose with you. And he's terrified of that. As much as he wants to have a home, he also doesn't want to be hurt— and he's expecting the worst. When all you do is coddle him, though, he doesn't know how to respond. This isn't what should be happening, but he's so starved for the kindness that it's hard to remember that he needs to stay on his guard. In the end, he gets attached to you much too quickly and trusts much too easily.

Laito

He has a very clear idea of what he's good for, by now, and expects things to be no different with you. Laito doesn't hesitate to come onto you. In his mind, it's better to get used to what you'll be doing to him quickly... except, you don't do anything he's expecting. In a lot of ways, the kindness makes him uncomfortable. It's not right at all, and there's no way he can trust that the bizarre behavior will last. And yet, a part of him is still so very desperate for this rare, foreign kindness you're offering.

Subaru

He's expecting the worst when someone like you purchases him and has resigned himself to trying his very best not to cause any problems because of it. When you first get him, Subaru is horribly tense around you. He's afraid of lashing out or doing something wrong, or worse, what you could do to him— but instead of any of that, you're just nice. At the same time that he's uncomfortable with it all, there's relief in not being used like he expected, and he soon finds himself a lot more attached than he wants to be.

Kino

Knowing his history of getting on people's nerves, Kino is fully anticipating doing something wrong enough to have serious problems. He knows exactly why you bought him, too... except, you're not doing anything that would go along with that purpose. In the end, he's just terribly confused. It's not bad to be treated like this, but there has to be something else coming, right? There's no way you can really just be this nice to him, not when the context says that you should only be using him as yours.

#Diabolik Lovers #Dialovers #Sakamaki Shuu #Sakamaki Reiji #Sakamaki Ayato #Sakamaki Kanato #Sakamaki Laito #Sakamaki Subaru #Kino #Headcanon #Reader #ABO Au #Pet Au #Lemon

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collectorcookie · 8 months

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I AM HOME AGAIN. Ok so part two of trickstar dynamics: anzu edition. I already kinda made one but it was more about anzu's past sooo it doesn't count.

Anzu and subaru: THE BESTIEEESSS I LOVE THEM SO MUCH THEY ARE SO CUTE. When trickstar was still a very new unit subaru was like "man i wish we had our own uniforms. Wouldn't that be cool" (because at yumenosaki academy having your own uniforms instead of the standard ones provided by the academy meant that 1. you're hot shit aka important and popular enough to have a specific image and 2. you're hot shit enough aka rich enough to be able to afford your own costume). And then anzu is just like "My boy? Wants something?? My bestie? Wishes for uniforms??" And then she SINGLEHANDEDLY learns sewing from kuro in like a week and makes the trickstar uniforms. And subaru could cry from joy.

And much later subaru got some job where he has to wear a suit but he's never worn suits so he asks super model sena for help, and sena is like "well what kind of suit do you wanna wear" and after a long time of thinking, the only thing he came up with was a suit made specifically by anzu for him. That's all he wanted agshetekwhdghr. But anzu was pretty busy so he settled for a suit that was approved by her.

And when they ended up in the industry anzu made him the super sparkly outfit and i KNOW everyone hates that card because of the missions BUT that card has a special place in my heart because even after their early high school days, even after subaru won the ss and trickstar became super popular and anzu became a very important producer in ES (going as far as being a part of P. Association), subaru still adores and appreciates outfits made by her specifically asdffkslagdkfjw.

Also Pretty sure that anzu was one of the few characters where subaru dropped his happy-ultra-cheerful persona to open up to her, being all like "You know anzu, sometimes i feel like half of my emotions are straight up missing". Ouch. He doesn't do that often! If at all!! He trusts her enough to do that!!!!

There's more to say but there's already another post that goes into more details about this (i will reblog it after this but how on earth can you link someone else's post on here)

Anzu and mao: you may have seen or noticed how mao is always like "omg no don't touch anzu that's sexual harrassment" to completely normal affection between friends and thought to yourself "The hell is wrong with this dude". And like, i can only speculate why he's like this but it's probably due to anzu's first experiences at yumenosaki. Poor girl got transferred into a school of boys committing crimes against each other, got kicked in the face (with koga's full body weight), fainted, got a concussion, went to the infirmary, got sexually harrassed by one of the teachers (seriuosly what the hell jin), then got followed around and pressured by a playboy (past kaoru was uhhh...something). Rei ended up finding her and just...hiding her in a cupboard. And later on rei finds mao and is like "hey you. I hid your girl in the cupboards" and mao's bewildered at this statement. And rei continues with "yeah you should probs go pick her up or something". Mao then goes and to his surprise, he actually finds her in the cupboards, terrified and exhausted.This is the context to this very lovely mao illustration:

(Mao's first 5* is literally "let's take ibuprofen together, producer" heeelllpp)

Mao ends up always walking her home after this by the way, to the point where he sometimes eats lunch with her family. (Sometimes the other trickstar memebrs walk her too but most often it's Mao) So yeah, that could be the reason why he's so sensitive anytime someone gets close to anzu. He's just really overprotective of her.

(I will entirely ignore all the more fanservicey stuff that occasionally happens between anzu and mao in the early stories because...it just...feels so ooc for mao. And completely unnecessary in general) however anzu is also very fond of mao, as we see in !-era ss, where anzu notices that mao is beating himself up for not being enough for trickstar and so she goes to his room to specifically cheer him up and reassure him when he wakes up

Anzu and hokuto: ooohhh my gooood, the scene where he goes to visit anzu in the infirmary after she got hurt and fainted and he. He just. He just feels so bad for her getting hurt and then starts this whole ass monologue about why he dragged her into this. This huge monologue where he just lets out all his anger at yumenosaki's state and hopes and dreams for the future and how she gave him hope but he burdened and expected too much of her right at the beginning. AND SHE WAS AWAKE THE WHOLE TIME WITHOUT HIM KNOWING. And his speech just motivates her to actually ally herself with trickstar because she wants things to change for the better too.

And then waaay later she faints again from exhausting herself too much and hokuto notices how much she has been doing, not just for trickstar but as a producer in general. And so to lighten her burdens and to prove to her that they have grown as a unit and do not need to rely on her the whole time, he revokes his rights to participate in the SS. Listen to me. I want you to understand that as a unit, trickstar established itself to prove that change is possible. The entire main storyline in ! is about them beating eichi's ass in DDD. And DDD is such a huge deal because it determines which unit is allowed to participate in SS as a representative. And SS is a huuuuge national tournament for idols sorta thing. So when hokuto goes to eichi being all like "hey mr. president, i revoke my rights to participate in the SS", eichi (who has been supporting trickstar ever since they beat him in DDD because SS is far more important than DDD) straight up grabs hokuto and screams at him something along the lines of "HOKUTO ARE YOU /SRS OR /J???? YOUR GIRL FAINTS ONCE AND THIS IS HOW YOU BEHAVE???!!! SHE'S NOT WITH YOU FOR ONE TIME AND YOU STEP DOWN, YOU FREAKING COWARD?? DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW IMPORTANT OF AN EVENT SS IS". And hokuto, still very straight faced and expressionless, simply states "oh i'm not stepping down. I want trickstar to fight more live battles to rewin our rights to represent yumenosaki in SS. Both to prove to everyone that trickstar really is suited for this, and to prove for anzu that she doesn't need to always worry about us anymore." Do you have any idea how much i wanted to howl at the moon after reading that.

By the way this is also the context for this one wataru illustration who was also in the council room at the time:

(When you watch your boyfriend grab your bestie by the neck and your bestie says the most jawdropping shit you've ever heard)

Anzu and Makoto: this is actually a lot more of a relaxed and chill dynamic than i expected. Most of their early interactions are just makoto being "oh my god i'm so afraid of girls i have never talked to a girl in my entire life what even are girls" and then anzu would be like "but i am one?" and makoto's just "HOLY SHIT YOU'RE RIGHT". Anyways after makoto builds a little self esteem it looks like him and anzu just start sharing a braincell sometimes. Like that one moment in finder girl event story where mao is super worried that no one will help him, and the makoto anzu duo don't even talk to each other, they just exchange looks and think to themselves "this guy has no idea that everyone in yumenosaki would help him huh". Fun times.

#Sorry i was searching for a specific subaru post and ended up getting distracted and liking 50 subaru posts #enstars #ensemble stars #mao isara #makoto yuuki #subaru akehoshi #hokuto hidaka #Tumblr ended up giving me a warning that a text block cannot be more than 4000 characters i am crying how did this happen #trickstar #The anzu post ended up being longer than the original trickstar post. Absolute queen. Love her.#anzu enstars #lore rants

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bubblespalace · 14 days

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Haha it’s totally not me who asked for a Juggalo mc! When you are able to get to it can I see how the diaboys would be like with a Juggalo mc being asked to mediate gang fights and fights in general since Juggalo’s are listed as a gang by the FBI and is genuinely liked to the point of being asked out, and by being extremely extroverted unfiltered and brutally honest and a little nice-mean(totally not a oc)💋

Bubble: Hiii! I did headcannons for this post, hope this is okay! I also only did the Sakamakis because I didn't want the post to be too long. You can always put in another ask!

Shu:

🩸I can literally see him caring less.

🩸Loves the fact that she is nice but mean. Would one hundred percent try to tease her often to get a reaction.

🩸 Doesn't like it when she is too loud though. Would hate that and try to shut her up.

🩸He likes everything but that though.

🩸 Probably wouldn't even mind the makeup so much. I have a feeling he would see past it.

🩸Shu would want to introduce her to "real" music though.

🩸 Overall, probably a good match.

Reiji:

🩸WHOO BOY.

🩸 Wouldn't like the makeup, and the dressing, and the fighting, and literally everything else.

🩸However, he probably would admire the fact that she isn't shy. Reiji likes confident women.

🩸Scolds her for not being ladylike, and if she doesn't have manners, she's in for a ride.

🩸However, if he's in love with her, he might start to let things like her style go.

🩸But she has to learn manners, and be intelligent. Otherwise, this won't work.

Ayato:

🩸 Absolutely loves the extrovert energy. Ayato seems to match well with someone who can stand up for herself and talk to people.

🩸He would make fun of the style and the outfits and all that.

🩸Will show up to so many of the fights. Loves the fact that she meditates them.

🩸Gonna tease her a lot, and if he meets her Juggalo friends, he's gonna mess with them too.

🩸If she attacks him about his ego though, he'll fight with her for ages.

Kanato:

🩸WOOOOO BOYYYYY

🩸Nope nope nope nope nope.

🩸He doesn't believe girls should be in such styles, he needs the Soft girl aesthetic or something close to it.

🩸Likes the honesty though. He would wish she put it a little nicer though. Baby needs things sugarcoated.

🩸Don't expect him to support any of this. He would need her to act differently around him.

Laito:

🩸 Would tease just like Ayato. But it would be in a more flirty way.

🩸Likes the extrovert energy too.

🩸Would be SUPER nasty around her. Like think Lai times one thousand.

🩸Likes the honesty too. All the diaboys hate liars so...

🩸Overall, could totally work.

Subaru:

🩸Honestly, she would work best with Toyota here.

🩸She fits his personality the best it seems.

🩸Subaru would be so tsundere around her while teasing. Blushing mess 24/7.

🩸Comes to the fights all the time.

🩸Won't even make fun of the fashion, and will kill anyone who pokes fun at her for it.

🩸 Seriously a match made in heaven.

#diabolik lovers #kanato sakamaki #laito sakamaki #shu sakamaki #ayato sakamaki #reiji sakamaki #subaru sakamaki #sakamaki ayato #sakamaki subaru #sakamaki reiji #sakamaki brothers #diabolik lovers headcanon #headcannons #diabolik lovers fandom #diahell

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yuikomorii · 1 year

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Saw a post about inconsistencies in Diabolik Lovers and I have prolly the biggest ones:

In Shu’s HDB ending Shu calls Yui an Asian woman and Yui also refers to herself as an“ average Japanese high school student” but later on in Laito’s and Reiji’s routes it is mentioned how she’s actually a foreigner and her step father only left his old country because he didn’t want Yui to be caught by the vampires there and settled in Japan for a peaceful life.She even only called herself “ an average high school girl” without using “Japanese”as in Shu’s route.Now all games follows the lore presented in Laito’s and Reiji’s routes, so what was written in Shu’s one was a mistake because it doesn’t really make sense anymore.I don’t really mind it because let’s be fr, she’s the definition of white girl but I feel like the writers should pay more attention to those details. |:

There was this test battle CD drama where Yui got the highest scores out of the Sakamaki’s but in the routes she’s a pretty bad student as far as I have seen.There’s no day she doesn’t ask anyone for help when doing her homework although it’s based on what was taught in class and heck she was even on the verge of failing her math class in HDB if Reiji didn’t study all day with her.I even remember that one time when even she got wrong even the first answer, and there are several times she doesn’t pay attention during class because she doodles or thinks about different stuff.Beside that, she has the cultural knowledge of a toddler wym she couldn’t even name one fricking painter like what the f?

// Referring to the first one:

Perhaps Shu's route was the first to be written, because Cordelia, who is a major character in the HDB plot, edit: only appears in the after story for a short time, and the writer most likely went with the flow and didn't add too much lore because it had nothing to do with Cordelia. After his route, they probably wanted to give Yui a proper backstory and added: dead orphan child with an implanted demon heart given to a vampire hunter who fled to Japan not to be caught, in order to fit the whole plot. It's also possible that the writer didn't read the other routes before. I mean, I can't blame them entirely, given that those details were largely irrelevant in Shu’s route and weren't presented as lore as they were in Laito's and Reiji's routes. However, yes, it was a mistake. Shu's HDB route had a slew of errors in general, such as in Ecstasy 3, where Yui mentions Shu's heartbeat, despite the fact that vampires don't have one, haha.

Referring to the second one:

It's fine to like the silly Tokutens, but you shouldn't take them too seriously. They present funny and plot-twisty scenarios to generate laughter, such as when both Kou and Subaru entered an ikemen contest, but Shu won despite the fact that he wasn't even registered. xD They can be very OOC, as I doubt Subaru would ever participate in such a superficial activity, but as I said, they're just for fun. In terms of Yui being a bad student, I wouldn't necessarily label her as such. Sure, she gets some low scores, and I also recall the scenes you mentioned, as well as one in which it is revealed that her physics exam was a disaster, and another one where Ruki threw shade at her for getting a bad grade on the foreign language exam. Nonetheless, I believe she is simply not good at that kind of subjects, maybe she’s good at something else. I guess it’s already obvious that Yui catches things pretty slowly, since her learning ability isn't exactly the best, so it's no surprise that she asks for help and has to study harder and longer in order to show good results. I still consider her a good student though; I don't mind that her grades aren't good all the time; she still tries to study and to complete her assignments even if they're wrong, doesn't like skipping, and takes her school duties seriously; she's exactly what I'd call a conscientious student, to be honest. I can't defend her on the painter thingy though, that was the bare minimum, but again, Yui doesn't have much knowledge in general other than what’s common so… it can’t be helped. :P

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shinkaishoujo103 · 1 year

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@averyspoopedcorgi wanted to hear about the es dorms changes caused by aira writing enemies to lovers reichi smut brainrot i had with @laly-481 a while ago and i was like. Why not share this to the world

First of all new dorms list:

Dorm 1: Niki, Rinne

Dorm 2: Eichi, Wataru, Tori, Yuzuru

Dorm 3: Leo, Nazuna, Madara, Izumi

Dorm 4: Subaru, Sora, Natsume

Dorm 5: Hiyori, Jun

Dorm 6: Hokuto

Dorm 7: Tatsumi, Mayoi, Tomoya, Shinobu

Dorm 8: Koga, Rei

Dorm 9: Nagisa, Ibara, Tsumugi, Mitsuru

Dorm 10: Midori, Kaoru, Yuta, Hinata

Dorm 11: Ritsu, Mao

Dorm 12: Makoto, Chiaki, Adonis, Kanata

Dorm 13: Mika, Shu

Dorm 14: Keito, Kuro, Souma, Hajime

Dorm 15: HiMERU, Tetora, Arashi

Dorm 16: Aira, Hiiro, Kohaku, Tsukasa

Now I'll try to explain what even the hell happened,,,

(putting under cut because its gonna be LONG)

It all started with laly wondering if enstars fandom would exist in enstars world. I was like "yeah kinda like with k-pop" and we started thinking about who in es would write/read fics of what. Doesn't affect the dorms change just yet but i need to share these hcs:

- Kohaku knows everything about ships (because Aira dragged him in the enstars fandom hellhole) and once accidentally sent HiMERU a HiMERU x Tatsumi fanart instead of a document for work

- Mika reads ALL the Shumika fics

- Aira anonymously writes Hiiro/Kohaku x Reader fics except the reader is actually him because he doesn't have the guts to write actual KoHiiAi. Kohaku once recognize Aira writing style in a fic and ask him about it and Aira is immediately like "noooOOOO I DON'T SEE WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT AT ALL"

- Leo hears about Izuleo at one point so he decides to check it out and read fics. And he creates himself an account to write Izuleo fics (that are more like poems-musical writing or something). And now he's trying his best to keep Izumi away from fics because he WILL recognize Leo's style. But the rest of knights ends up learning about Leo's fics and now they use it to blackmail him

- Aira also write Tatsumayo btw

- And now the hc that provokes the dorm changes...Aira also wrote like 3 Rei x Eichi enemies to lovers fics. Rei found it and he knows it has to be Aira because the situations described are way too accurate so it has to be their roommate

Aira: I don't feel safe in my dorm anymore...

Anzu: Why?

Rei, who read entirely the Rei x Eichi smut Aira wrote: ......

Rei spent a week just staring menacingly at him

Koga finds the fic and suddenly everyone in ES has read it (they dont know its Aira who wrote it though)

So Aira, fearing for his life, decides to switch dorms. He first ends up in Hiiro's, with Hinata and Niki

Meanwhile Rei and Eichi are left alone

They stare awkwardly at each other for two days then try to murder each other in their sleep

Eichi ends up paying ES to be in Wataru's dorm (and Rei to not be in Ritsu's)

Mama get kicked out of Wataru's dorm because 5 people is too much, so Leo ends up taking him in his dorm

Suddenly Tori (and Yuzuru) kicked out Subaru and Sora from Wataei's dorm. Now all of fine shares a dorm

Since everyone are changing dorms and its hell and ES doesnt know what to do anymore Hiyori takes action and switches to Jun's (and Kohaku's) dorm. Kohaku, refusing to third-wheel them, joins Hiiai in their dorm, but before he can Tsukasa kidnaps him a second time so he goes to autistic dorm instead

Hiyori starts trying to pay ES so Eichi isn't in Wataru's dorm. But Eichi pay ES too. ES will never have financial problems again

Anyway so yeah at this point ES gives up on keeping order in the dorms and now everyone can go sleep wherever the fuck they want

So HiMERU break in Tatsumi's dorm to kill him scare him

Now Tatsumi decided he was safer in Mayoi's dorm

Koga: Great I have a dorm all for myself and Leon now!

Rei: *enters chat*

Koga: DARN IT

(Rei and Koga shares a dorm now)

One day, Midori look at Kaoru and Yuta, visibly fucking exhausted from this situation

(Midori got kicked out of Ibara's dorm by Nagisa)

Izumi regularly tries to get in Makoto's dorm

Ritsu use this occasion to take his place in Mao's dorm

(Mao: Wait but this is Izumi's bed-

Ritsu: Nope. Not anymore. It's mine now. I live here now.

Pov: Ritsu actually doesn't even use Izumi's bed he sleeps with Mao)

But Makoto won't let Izumi in (and he got Chiaki and Adonis to protect him) so now he's homeless

Izumi: *homeless*

Leo: Hi

Izumi: Nope

Leo: *stay there*

Izumi, who just tried to get in any dorm without success because of his kidnapper reputation: Hey Leo can i stay at your dorm a little

Natsume takes his chance and goes to Sora's and Subaru's dorm

Shu stare at Mao and Ritsu sleeping together, stare at Kuro, and goes: Let's get in Mika's dorm already

Mika is happiest man alive

Kuro: Damn now I'm left alone to third wheel these two *looks at Keito*

Kuro joins Keito's dorm

Souma propose they switch room so Akatsuki is complete and Hokuto just doesn't give a shit about it so he accept (Hokuto just doesn't care anymore at this point)

Mayoi took Shinobu in his room

Tatsumi isn't sure how much Shinobu agreed to come but now he's here he seem okay with it

Hajime is now chilling with Akatsuki, while Tomoya decides to ignore the chaos as there's suddenly two more people in the dorm he shares with Mayoi

Kanata goes in Chiaki's dorm and Rinne's like "now i'm alone :/"

Suddenly Hinata get kicked out and forcefully thrown in his brother's dorm (Rinne be like: Brother + Bf + Gf of brother? Yeah that's my dorm)

Aira convinces Hiiro to take one of the new empty dorms because he SWEARS to god if he's called "Hiiro's little gf" ONE MORE FUCKING TIME-

So now Rinniki are left alone

Rinne is happy

Niki is not (begged Aira to not leave him alone with that man)

Now Niki begs HiMERU to move in their dorm but each time he's straight up "No."

Also Kohaku cutely moves to Hiiai dorm so the poly babies are complete. Except Tsukasa follows him. Oh well

Niki runs aways from Rinne and joins Hokuto

But Rinne joins them anyway afterwards

Niki: At least I'm not alone anymore

Hokuto: *dead inside at this point*

Hokuto decide to go in a room ALL ALONE and to pay ES so he has peace. Now only Trickstar is allowed to come in his dorm but they don't stay Hokuto force them to get out

And. That's it. This is very messy and probably complicated to understand so all you need to know is congrats to gender dorm for being the only og dorm surviving! You're too perfect to be changed

#saku rambles #long post #how even do i tag this #enstars #ensemble stars

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b-else-writes · 1 month

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The Great CLAMP Re-Read Part 3: Tokyo Babylon

Part 1 (RG Veda) | Part 2 (Man of Many Faces)

And now we reach the CLAMP 90s series, and we are firmly back in serious territory. Tokyo Babylon ran from 1990 to 1993, which means it was concurrent with RG Veda, the CLAMP school series, Shirahime, Chun-hyang, AND X, which is just so much work to think about - and to wonder how X and Tokyo Babylon shaped each other (but more on that when I get to X). Tokyo Babylon (and X) is also set in the same universe as the CLAMP School with Subaru sharing a class with the Duklyon cast, which is very strange to consider given the tonal whiplash and thematic inconsistency, but it does reflect CLAMP’s early interest in crossovers. It consists of 18 chapters in 7 volumes, with each chapter being about 60 pages long.

While I'd never read it before this, it's famous enough (two OVAs, a drama CD, and a live action movie), that I went into this knowing some of the big spoilers, but not the details. So while my reading was coloured by the knowledge of its tragic end, it still felt revelatory to me. I'm very pleased that I found copies of the two omnibuses. The back of my Darkhorse Omnibus versions describe this as "CLAMP's first great work", which I don't entirely agree with - I'll die on the hill that RG Veda is GOOD - but it is the first CLAMP work where I think they were very consciously thinking of how to write a story that ties together on a thematic level, in every stage, and it's phenomenal. Heavy spoilers.

Synopsis: Onmyoji and thirteenth head of the Sumeragi clan, Subaru Sumeragi is called upon to solve occult mysteries in post-bubble Tokyo. It's a time of glittering lights, a rotten economy, and city populated by lonely people desperate for an answer to their problems as the millennium draws near. Joined by his fashionable twin sister Hokuto and the kindly but strangely sinister vetenarian Seishiro Sakurazuka who is in love with him, the overly sacrificing and empathetic Subaru must solve these problems and learn how to live - but Tokyo is not a kind place, especially to those with gentle natures.

The Story: On its surface, Tokyo Babylon begins as a "case-of-the-week" style story, where Subaru has to solve an occult case and learns something. Its a deceptively simple premise that allowed for CLAMP to explore pressing social issues of their time (which still feel resonant due to the sensitive way they explored them), while also building upon Subaru's character development through this, and the suspense of Seishiro's true nature. The comedy is well-timed and CLAMP know when to pull back from it to allow the emotional aspect to come through. Every case is incredibly gripping and I even cried reading "Old". I have seen some suggest it would have been more effective to have a massive twist rather than seed Seishiro's psychopathy throughout, but I actually think this works on a thematic level, and finding out Seishiro is a murderer, the bet, and Hokuto's death, still hit like a gut punch. It's a brilliant usage of seeding information without the full context until the end. I have no complaints here. It's a poignant story of Tokyo in the early 1990s and its destructiveness, while never losing its humanity.

The Themes: Do you know why the cherry blossoms are red. Tokyo Babylon is a story about well, Tokyo. It's about how modern city living that pursues only personal gain and conformity leads to human loneliness, and loneliness is a trap that destroys us all. We can never know someone else's pain, which leads to loneliness - but to recognize that is also freeing because it means we cannot judge and be judged for it. Having empathy is good, but too much and for the wrong people and not for yourself, can only lead to death. Its a fascinating interplay between community and individuality, the reality of modern life of trying to be someone while also needing to generalize, without ever really settling on either side, but where it does come down hard is that humans are not the villains but Tokyo is, in what it represents - greed, selfishness, cruelty, and apathy. It is intensely tragic and yet, strangely, incredibly life-affirming. Despite everything Subaru suffers, people are not born and made evil and everyone should be taken for who they are, not a faceless mass.

The Characters: Like the plot, everything in the characters is tied into the story of Tokyo. Seishiro is Tokyo: the slick, cool-cut well to do man in a suit with no empathy and a taste for violence. Nobody is special in Seishiro's eyes, nobody deserves to be treated as anything but an object. And then we have Subaru, poor sweet Subaru who is so empathetic and yet so detached from the world and himself because he's so focused on only his job, on not being an individual. He is what Tokyo wants him to be, filled with self-loathing and frankly suicidal impulses that he shouldn’t be alive. It's so tragic to watch Subaru finally grow into a person, but to do so to the one person who will hurt him. Subaru wants to to love Tokyo so badly, that it kills his sister, the one person he SHOULD have been pouring his love into, the person who could love him back and expect nothing in return. And Hokuto is just a showstopper, funny, kind, witty and cool. She's Subaru's northstar, the empathy and humanity where he cannot, almost co-dependent. I love characters that reflect one another and the themes.

The Art: The visual storytelling and panelling are fantastic. While less imaginative and fanciful than RG Veda, there's still some incredibly done spreads and pages, particularly anything to do with the bet. Subaru surrounded by cherry blossoms? Haunting. The fashion is impeccable, I love the bold design choices in the covers and spreads. The character designs in and of themselves are quite simple (and I don't love the seme-uke look of Seishiro and Subaru), but the personality-costuming is so well done and tell stories themselves. And the use of Hokuto and Subaru being identical to conceal the twist? Masterful character design. My only complaint is some of the scanned photo backgrounds are jarring against the lovely drawn art.

Questionable Elements: Subaru is 16 and Seishiro is 25. That being said, I do think from their interviews and the actual text, we aren't meant to ship them, and it's not unrealistic to be a teen and fall for an older person only for it to majorly fuck you up because they abuse their greater knowledge to harm you (which hey, might be a theme!). Some of the way issues are handled is dated, but not too badly. Again, I’m not going to comment on whether this is queer representation or not, since I don’t think that has ever been CLAMP’s intention. All the same, despite the stereotypical seme and uke stuff, the relationship feels real and tangible (which is why the payoff works).

Overall: A beautiful tragedy and an ode to human alienation and empathy. I went into this expecting to like it, and ended it never the same. It is genuinely a fantastic, fully complete thematic work from them that speaks as a reflection of the time it was written, and yet remains resonant. I know some people find it edgy, but I actually don't think edge is its intention, it's dark and it's tragic but never misanthropic. Yes, Subaru enters the adult world broken, but his refusal to become like Seishiro and to continue to count himself amongst humanity despite everything, reaffirms that life and people have value. You can see so much of their ideas crystallize here that they’ll repeat across X, Xxxholic, etc. We're all just lonely people and we hurt each other in it, and it's important to recognize that in ourselves and take of ourselves for it. Read it!

#clamp #tokyo babylon

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i-write-hurt-not-comfort · 1 year

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What is Subaru and Kou's love language?

that's an excellent question and something i've thought about for kou before. and, well, that was... a challenge. i'm still not sure, so i'll start with subaru because he is nice and easy.

subaru's love language is undoubtedly physical touch.

if you google "subaru sakamaki cg" almost all of them which come up are him holding yui, hugging her or some kind of physical affection. i know all the diaboys hold and hug her etc but subaru is the clingiest motherfucker i know. he's not an acts of service, gift giver and he's not good at words of affirmative at all.

subaru ENGULFS yui at any given opportunity. and a lot of time he's not even saying a whole lot, just holding her. clingy bastard.

even in the non-story games, here he is hugging her again. he's not biting her, not hurting her. not trying to do anything sexual... just, feeling her touch.

then some cute kissing <3

there's also the times he both gives comfort and recieves comfort from physical touch. i especially love the second cg here, he looks so... happy like that ;;

okay, onto kou... ah,

now with kou i did struggle. i think the first thing that comes to mind is gift giving because of how adament he is on "give-and-take" but giving gifts and expecting something in return vs giving gifts out of love are... very different.

and the thing is, once kou is in love with yui and has kind of changed his toxic worldview, i don't recall him showering her with gifts anyway. while kou is quite materialistic himself (splashing out on expensive clothes, watches etc) i don't think it's out of love. plus if we remember in dark fate, when there's the flashback of yuma giving him a sugar cute out of love and kou... genuinely does not understand how that could correlate. so i don't think it's gift giving despite what it may seem on the surface.

furthermore, i don't think kou really cares much about acts of service besides being cooked for. he doesn't go out of his way to do things like that for yui. quality time? i don't think so, especially since characters like shu and kanato really DO rely on her being around to show and recieve their love. kou does get on with his own thing and while there's some cute bonuses scenarios where they shower together or kou crawls into her bed, i don't think that's his love language.

(i love these ones so much)

so with gift giving, quality time, acts of service and physical touch out of the way (because he's just not as clingy as subaru, i don't think kou's love language is physical touch either), that leaves words of affirmation.

and i thought about it, and i think kou's language actually is words of affirmation.

the main things i thought about were the blue sky metaphor - the most important thing he ever said to yui, in my opinion, is "you're my blue sky"

... in this beautiful scenes where he's crying! i think having the magic eye probably distanced kou from this for a while but he only learns how to trust and love again by believing yui's words of affirmation to him (yui's love language is words of affirmation too, definitely). if words of affirmation weren’t his love language, i don’t think the magic eye would’ve been as important as it was. but he wanted to hear the feelings he was reading in her mind.

i don't know, but after their relationship grew healthier, kou was definitely faster to tell yui exactly what he loves about her. he likes compliments, we know that, and he's working in an industry where he's showering with compliments on a daily basis.

kou took time to show his love language i think, simply because he didn't know how to love or be loved.

but he gets better at telling yui exactly how much he loves her.

and the one other thing which leads me nicely onto subakou...

in lost eden when yui asks kou to cheer subaru up, what does he do? he decides to talk to him, give him so verbal reassurance that everything is okay. and the fact he managed to make subaru smile, idk, kou looks so happy with himself.

so, subakou...

i think there would be some challenges actually, because subaru is really bad at words of affirmation. it takes like 4 games to actually tell yui how he feels and then in lost eden he waits through a lot of suffering to actually tell yui what good she’s done for him. yui tries to talk to him with words of affirmation and generally subaru isn’t good at receiving that.

because kou is pretty bad at trusting people anyway, i think he’d struggle with subaru not telling him how he feels. especially if kou tells him something he loves about him and subaru doesn’t say anything back. i think they’d have to have a serious conversation where subaru explains he’s just not good at receiving or giving compliments.

on the other side, i think kou would be pretty good at receiving subaru’s clingy self and he’d definitely be up for cuddles. eventually i think he’d come to learn that subaru does love him and he is showing that in his own way, but i also think kou would try really, really hard to get subaru to deliver words of affirmation.

i think the first time kou tells subaru that he is his blue sky, subaru would be so confused and i think kou would be a little offended by that.

it’d take a while, but i think they’d get there eventually. imagine them just lying in bed together, telling each other the things they like about each other, subaru is blushing madly and kou is snickering the whole way through. then they kiss, aww... i wrote something similar for elliot and leo in pandora hearts and i should definitely write a subakou rendition.

if anyone has any different ideas about kou’s love language please tell me because this was a STRUGGLE.

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I also have more thoughts on ES!! from a few nights ago if you'll permit me being annoying about the things i'm passionate a bit more tonight. I know I made a similar post a few weeks ago but I'm still turning the subject around in my head.

I keep rewriting my thoughts on the direction of enstars!! since we're about to enter a new era soon... to me enstars! and !! have become completely different stories. ES!! has expanded way too much and it's doing everything, but in the process forgot what was good about the story before. Leaving aside that i think they should slow down, most of the stories of !! are filler and they have added too many writers imo. But it's working well for them, they're constantly at the top of charts in revenue, so i don't think they're gonna change this...

But i can't help but think of the conversation in wonder game about alice in wonderland vs through the looking glass about the clumsy but loved story vs the sequel made for demand, and how in the climax events akira is deviating from what made enstars! special before (which is to me the focus on humanity in all its forms and what it can do, working for a better future to make up for past sins, learning to love and be loved, as well as on a meta level the relationship between author, audience, and protagonists). The more science fiction plotlines are in line with akira's other non enstars stories, and the climax events do end with a message that's reminiscent of enstars' themes, but they feel very sudden and disjointed from the previous fillery unit stories? Like how did we even get here (sentient AI born from a comatose girl, for example).

I don't even think the addition of npcs is inherently bad, there are npcs i'd loveee to see more of, like maguro, the oukawa sisters, amano, etc. But it doesn't read as these climax events wrapping up 4 years worth of stories as much as setting up a side quest and then wrapping that up, but leaving it still open enough for future explorations. And sure ! era had foreshadowing and setting up for !! in the form of Tsumugi going to work at a new agency after graduation, Izumi going to Florence & Shu to Paris, the creation of ensquare, but at the same time those final stories wrapped up their units' journeys over the course of that in universe year satisfyingly, relying on interpersonal drama rather than external influences to push them around. Maybe it also helped that they were following a formula: having to perform a repayment festival. Whereas now that we've expanded So Much, the world is their oyster and they're getting too ambitious.

I guess... there are just way more memorable character moments and hard hitting scenes in ! era for me personally, a nicely contained story. Forever waiting for !! era to finally have Subaru learn of the Tojou family's past, hopefully with no gimmicks, just heart to heart conversations about the event that changed all their lives forever, and how to deal with finding out Kaname's mom is the reason Subaru's dad is dead. That is I would say my biggest wish rn. But as much as I can criticize enstars, I am saying all of this *because* I love this story and characters, and especially what it was but lost along the way.

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subarus-gentle-butterfly · 10 months

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what r miu’s relationships with all the sakamakis :0 ?

I actually have a post about her relationships with canon characters here! But it's a bit outdated, so I'll add some more about it in this ask.

SHU SAKAMAKI AND MIU

I had actually planned on Miu and shu being together instead of subaru and Miu at one point. But that was such a lie. Anyways.

In canon:

Miu wants to see him as an older brother. She kind of likes that he's low maintenance, fairly lazy and keeps to himself.

When instructed to or really just whenever she goes around his areas of the house, she'll tidy up after him.

She likes to talk music with him every now and then, and she finds it a little entertaining to see and hear his reactions to certain more modern songs that aren't classical.

Shu is one of the only other Sakamaki boys who she can find comfort in. Shu is just pretty chill. She's just glad he isn't always chasing after her like the triplets or moving her things around. She has some respect for him because of it.

REIJI SAKAMAKI AND MIU

Miu and Reiji are actually in my plans as a side ship.

In canon:

Reiji was the one who made the ultimate decision that she could stay at the mansion when she first arrived. Because of that, she has a not-very-correct view of him being a very kind and hospitable person. Of course, the Reiji that we know from the games is not so kind as Miu thinks.

Because he allowed her to stay, she's kind of put him on a pedestal. She feels like she deeply owes him and is quick to answer to his requests and commands. Of course, she's not doing everything. Subaru is quite possessive.

She often does a lot of the chores around the house because of Reiji asking her to do them.

He thinks she has lousy manners, but there was always improvement to come.

He will chastise her for forgetting to knock before entering his lab or room or leaving something out that should be put away or the way that she eats sometimes.

Miu takes fascination in his library and his knowledge. She often asks him about books and if she can borrow any. If he allows her to borrow one, she takes upmost care not to damage said book in the slightest. She treasures it.

Sometimes he reminds her about her dad, but not in a triggering way.... for the most part. His scoldings sometimes leave her with a bad feeling that happens to be too familiar for her liking... at least this man doesn't hurt her in the same ways.

I headcanon that Reiji pities her for having so many scars, and thinks her "addiction" is kind of stupid.

I also think after a while of her staying with the 6 brothers, that he would grow to think of her more positively and maybe he would be open to the idea of seeing her as a little sibling. Of course, that's a giant maybe.

AYATO SAKAMAKI AND MIU

Ayato and Miu don't entirely get along. But in certain verses/aus, they are able to.

In canon:

Miu is lowkey(read: highkey) afraid of him. He's like those mean popular guys in novels that are total jerks to her.

He teases her all the time, like taking her things and hiding them around the mansion, ripping up papers she's worked on just for the fun of it, and of course calling her names. He' a total bully.

She doesn't think she would ever be able to be friends with this guy or even see him as a brother at this point.

Some of the things Ayato has said have been a bit cruel and sometimes they hit too close to home. She doesn't like it one bit. Especially with how cocky he is.

She does secretly take pride in how much smarter she is than him academically. Bro's grades are atrocious compared to Miu's, and she had the most absences of her age group. She missed a lot of school because of her home life, yet she's always been quick to learn. She doesn't think she's better than him in general, but she does think she's a bit smarter at the very least.

She honestly thinks Ayato might be the worst of the triplets. But deep down, she does want to have a better relationship with him. At his core, he doesn't seem like a bad person. He just annoys her so often that it's hard for her to remember that he's really not too different from her and that he's not entirely bad.

LAITO SAKAMAKI AND MIU

Not a lot to say here tbh.

In canon:

Miu doesn't entirely feel safe or comfortable around him. Nothing against him, he just has some sort of vibe to him that she doesn't like.

He's made comments about her in passing and has called her inappropriate names before that she very much disliked and she thinks he's just a bit too much.

She hates how easily he can make her feel small and like a piece of meat with just one look or "joke". A lot of his lewd comments are either completely lost on her or they get her so uncomfortably flustered that most of the time, she just tries to ignore him.

She really wishes she didn't judge him so much, because again, this is her found family and she wants to see the boys as older brothers, but in the beginning she's not very well liked.

But she thinks Laito plays too much, and she hates being alone with him. It's just a vibe she gets from him that can sometimes end up making her nauseous.

Later on, she grows to love him as a brother and think some of his jokes would be funny, but that's about it.

KANATO SAKAMAKI AND MIU

Kanato is kind of a hit or miss just in general. One wrong move and then you're probably dead before you know it.

Miu enjoys sweets and likes stuffed toys. She's glad one of these boys has similar tastes. However, she is lowkey terrified of him because of his hot and cold nature. And how easily his mood can change for the worse.

She feels like she has to be careful around him all the time. She does her best to stay on his good side. She can't predict anything about him, so she's almost always a little on edge around him.

She does her best to cook sweets for him, but she's not the best cook. Normally, she can do very well just by following a recipe, but when she messes up, she almost has a breakdown just thinking of what Kanato might do to her.

Because of this, she takes her time when cooking and triple-checks everything before proceeding.

She knows how to sew and often comes up with little clothes for Teddy that are not always appreciated, but she tries to be as friendly as possible. Mostly because she wants Kanato to like her.

She has heard some cruel things from him before about her scars, though. So whenever she's around him, she makes extra effort not to show any of them to him by accident.

She wants him to like her at least. That's for sure. She thinks he's cute, and she can tolerate him very well. She does her best to show him support when she can and tries to at least act as some kind of friend, even when it's not very easy.

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woodenfawn · 10 months

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The Rem Infodump.

The one where i rant about rem and subaru's dynamic and why it's special but i dont think a lot of people really understand it!

This was written a while ago and i may have some things wrong, and it's also good to note I don't think subaru and rem are unnhealthy for each other in the sense that they shouldn't be together (whether romantic or platonic), i just mean the situations they were in forced them to act in certain ways!

I think a lot of people who are bigger re zero fans (who also understand what the story is about) shy away from rem as a character because she's the one "only fake fans who watch the anime for the waifus" like, but while she's not my favorite character i want to bring her a little more appreciation from this side of the fandom!!

new-to-tumblr post spam 3/4 complete, i'll slow down after this XD

I tried tagging with spoilers but just in case it didn't work: spoilers ahead!

So. The rem thing. Ive talked about it vaguely before but never went into detail cause there were people that could be spoiled. The whole point of rems attraction to subaru is not because of harem wish fulfillment. The author clearly stated he hates harems. Subaru does love both rem and emilia, but he has solidly chosen emilia and that's the end of that. It doesn't matter what romantic feelings he could have towards rem because it's already doomed. They both know it. The relationship they form episode 12 and beyond is not meant to be healthy for either of them!! Rem has been saved from her mindset of needing to atone for what she thought of her sister, but her self esteem is still AWFUL which is why she attaches herself to a "hero" instead of learning to recognize her own self worth. Subaru saved her from some things but he's not a hero and he's not exactly the person rem says he is. Partially, but not all of it. It's kind of a mutual decision of theirs to lie to each other and themselves because they need it to cope with themselves. Subaru needs to be a hero for rem or he could never step out of his depressive state. Rem needs a hero in subaru or she cannot feel loved and understood. It's not good for either of them but they don't have an alternative. NOTICE: When subaru rants about how awful he is and rem responds with her famous speech, she doesn't actually contradict much of what he says. They love each other and need each other but it's bad for the both of them. Rem lost her memories because the witches (later correction: it's the bishops) targeted her for her sin, and subaru killing himself over rem is not the action of a person in a healthy mindset. Rem's development was cut short and kind of fridging, its frustrating, but it's not basic waifu stuff and it is meant to be tragic!!!! This is also all a mirror to how subaru and emilia are!

Because while subaru constantly talks about needing to save emilia, he also calls her the main heroine. I used to think about rem as a yesman, but she does many a thing behind subaru's back for his sake the exact way he did to emilia. He learns more about the consequences of his actions that way. oh, it hurts. and oh boy the speech is so misunderstood. That is rem's promise to love him "unconditionally", without acknowledging his flaws, and it helped. It's absolutely what he needed to hear. But it wasn't good. but also, for other reasons, it mirrors another little speech.... subaru's season 2 confession to emilia. Where she can't believe he'd love her, and where he starts to list off things he's done for her and the ways she's made it hard for him. And then tells her, he still loves her, because that's who she is and he wouldn't want it any other way. Which could be taken as another niceguy rant (like a repeat of the season 1 fight) but it's NOT!! Because this is what Emilia needed to hear, because she is not the kind of person who can accept praise without a drawback or asterisk. If she heard all that, all she'd see is another pedestal to fill. this is the healthier version of the rem speech, where she can accept she's flawed and realize she's still loved. Both despite, but also for it. And... it's still not perfect. Because the characters are still growing and learning!!! They are young adults with so many problems and a whole life ahead of them and they still need to learn!!! The upsides and downsides of unconditional love,,,, and is it more unconditional if you love them "despite flaws" or "with flaws" or without seeing any? And is any of that healthy? How can it be good? How can it be bad? Maybe it can be both at once, maybe love isnt perfect!!! a lot of this is hidden in subtext, and the framing of rem's speech may even trick you cause it's triumphant but no there's so much complexity to why they say every single thing they say!!!

Subaru is a character who struggles with love for himself and with love for others, he doesn't know how to make others happy and gets caught in a loop of thinking the only way he can possibly be loved is if he's constantly putting his life on the line for others, without asking anything of them in return. which ends up with him breaking and needing support, and not knowing how to ask, which is why he yells at emilia in season 1 (doesn't help that his deepest trauma is something he is magically obligated not to share for fear of death). His relationship with emilia in season 1 is both very sweet and very unhealthy. he's just a guy with a crush on a girl who's far too good for him and he's trying to work for it but the basis for it is not good- he's attached himself to the first kind person in this new world that he knows and due to "return by death" he's far more invested in her than she is in him- she will never know everything they went through together. and then.... he finds rem. someone who didn't trust him. someone who killed him multiple times throughout the mansion arc, but someone who could understand his loneliness because she was also lonely, and wow- he managed to save her, too! and she doesn't know everything about what he's gone through, but she knows how to read his emotions like no one else can. so they... fall into a codependency. like said before, they can't live without each other, but not everything they do is good for each other. subaru, while gladly taking the role that emilia has in this new relationship, learns more about how she feels. with rem, he learns more about what it means to love, and they both know that it won't last. they didn't expect it to end so soon, though. but oh well, subaru does not have the option to stop. the nature of his powers means dying is pointless, and he has to press on anyways. and he does!!! He meets more people he thinks he can trust. some betray him, but some stick with him. Otto (my sweet boy!!!) is notable!

and now he knows more about love, about trust, about how to treat people, and how he should expect to be treated. so many things. keeping in mind it's been a while since i've watched re zero so i probably don't even have everything there is to say. but like.... then in the end, he can approach emilia with his true emotions. and he can tell her about it in a way she'll understand. and he knows he can do it without being a burden this time. he's become a better person. he's not sure if he'll be rejected, but that's not the point anymore! The point is he loves her and wants the best for her and wants her to know and hopes, no matter the outcome, that she'll be happy to know she's not alone! and the honesty, that's what his speech has over rem's. he's not putting her on a pedestal, he's not using her for the sake of his own self esteem anymore, he just wants to love!

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Extra note on the end (talk about suicidal thinking, be warned!!!)

something I've talked about but don't have saved writing for, a bit more about rem!

I do also think Rem is suicidal. i think she and Subaru recognized each other in that mindset without ever really talking about it. To me, this relationship is two suicidal people trying to prop each other up so the other will keep living, and knowing that if they really give up the other will too. That's why the season 2 development was so punishing for Subaru. I think that Rem's terrible self esteem and feeling of needing to atone for """"ruining her sister's life"""" contributed to it, though i don't know if that's all of it. She also makes multiple comments that are extremely concerning, like how Subaru is her "reason to die", how when she was ready to die fighting the white whale she said she felt like this was the moment she was made for, and biggest of all!! When she was telling her hypothetical story of how she and Subaru would run away together, she planned it all up to the death "I'd like to die first and I'd like my family to be with me", and to me it felt like she was *trying to think of a death that would make her life worth living*. Her motivation to live is following people she can die for, and that's, that's concerning. i hope her character arc properly follows through on what's happening in her head (i don't know how arc 7 goes yet)

...and i also think that Beatrice is the first time Subaru's had to confront his mindset head-on, because Beatrice would refuse to dance around the subject. The lesson he takes from Rem carries over to both Emilia and Beatrice in healthier ways, and I think that's incredibly important!!!!

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thank you for reading!

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summercreolefanfictioner · 2 years

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random facts about Maya Sakamaki

And yes I am writing this because I missed writing DL content plus I miss my best vampire girl

She's actually skilled in self-defense and archery. Like she was taught to kill both humans and vampires to protect Gilbert Feinze and the Sakamaki brothers. In fact, all her shoes have hidden knives (kinda similar to Shinobu's from Demon Slayer)

The boys think she can't fight, so they always belittle her and call her "the human maid that Karlheinz has sent". It wasn't until Maya made a full spin kick in front of Reiji and threatened to cut off his head with the knife in her shoe that they took her seriously.

That was how they realized she was not sent to the manor just to be their "maid." Heck they even thought she was a vampire hunter and tried to kill her if it weren't for Karlheinz's strict order not to or else they will face his wrath (North Pole is waving)

I have never elaborated on this but there was a time that Ayato was badly wounded and a vampire hunter was almost gonna kill him if it weren't for Maya shooting the damn human with her arrow.

If you add up her monthly salary from Karlheinz plus her allowance and all the riches she inherited from Gilbert Feinze, you can say she's richer than the Sakamaki brothers. Yes they're friggin' rich but if you subtract their royal inheritances from their personal money, Maya would def be richer

Besides our vampire doll knows how to handle finances very well. It came to a point where Reiji noticed they had more savings than expenses in a month thanks to her calculations

She also ends up getting dozens of vouchers when she's out grocery shopping for the boys. This even shocked Subaru, who mostly accompanies her during this time.

She also gets another stash of money when she plays arcade games. Like there was a point she got almost banned from an arcade center for taking loads of tickets and money from them and thought our girl is cheating

This actually proves another skill of Maya, which is learning how to play a game once she knows the rules on playing them. But no, she ain't skilled with chess 'cause Kanato is a sore loser and he made sure she would never learn how to play it.

She also has good grades, and even got exempted in exams (see this fic for more details)

Her signature scent is Killian's Love Don't Be Shy because this one smells like marshmallows (fun fact: I also wear this scent, and I heard this was Rihanna's alleged signature scent??).

Maya doesn't actually wear perfumes that much but the other Sakamaki bros have a hard time looking for her in the manor so they ordered Kanato to make her wear one

Maya doesn't like the smell and taste of alcohol and other liquor because it reminds her of the brothel. And yes, the vampire juice is not an exception to this abomination. But she still uses alcohol whenever she's making food that requires them

For some reason, Maya attracts the attention of animals, especially when she and Kanato choose to walk home instead of riding in the limo. Like there's this one time she petted a cat and the next thing she became their goddess.

This annoyed Kanato cause they walked back to the manor with a trail of cats behind them.

Maya actually doesn't have a staple fashion sense except for her Victorian maid uniform. The reason is that her attire would always depend on her master.

With Gilbert Feinze, most of her clothes are kimonos, basically traditional Japanese attire. She gets to wear dresses when she accompanies him in the demon world.

When she became the Sakamaki vampire doll, her fashion was a mix of Kanato's and Subaru's so it's like pastel meets goth and soft grunge. Most of her clothes are provided by Kanato and based on how he styles her, she maintains a bit of edge even while wearing a cute outfit. Think Harajuku style meets pastel and princess core.

Aside from cherries, Maya loves marshmallows. She even made cherry marshmallows with a chocolate center just to satisfy her cravings.

Unlike Kanato, she can handle spicy foods really well. Sometimes, she would eat spicy ramen or kimchi fried rice when she's alone.

She doesn't know how to walk in heels. Because she was a vampire doll, Gilbert Feinze made sure to maintain her small stature. Kanato had to force her to practice walking in them when they were in the fake human AU (see this fic for more details)

There was a time she ruined her bangs because she cut too much of them, ending up with her crying and not leaving the bathroom until all the boys and Yui have gone to school. Kanato had to kick the door open to see what the fuss was all about

"Are you an idiot to cut your bangs without looking at them properly?" he asked, staring at her through the mirror while holding pieces of her chopped hair.

In the end, he gave her a set of cherry hairclips that she could wear to hide her hideous micro-chopped bangs

Maya doesn't often show a hint of emotions on her face. Her voice even lacks some sort of feeling in it, hence why she doesn't like partaking in school plays. The only time she shows emotions is when she's around Kanato or when she's plotting something that involves Kanato (e.g. she gave Kino a pure smile in this fic to make Kanato jealous w/c I forgot to explain in detail)

She has met the Mukami brothers and Kou even attempted to adopt her just for a week. Up to this day, Kou never learns and still tries to win her over

Maya doesn't talk that much with the Tsukinami bros. They don't even bother to communicate with her so it's a tie

Her small height (145 cm) is because of partly genetics and upbringing. Since she grew up being starved and abused in the brothel, her growth was kind of "halted." Think Levi Ackerman from AOT.

Maya is not a chichinashi. And yes, Ayato loathes the fact that his younger brother bagged a wife with "assets" (at least we know where Maya's height went)

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