#As if today wasn't bad enough

[cerise-on-top]

hi<3 if you can, can you do valeria and laswell with a gothic s/o? like someone who likes darker/morbid things and things like that! love your blog by the way! it’s definitely my favorite blog to come look at after a long ass day <333

Hey there! Sorry, but I couldn't really find too much on what counts as dark and morbid in the goth scene, so I wrote more general HCs, I hope that's alright still ^^;

Valeria and Laswell with a Gothic!S/O

Valeria: She’d most definitely be intrigued, but not too much. In all honesty, she doesn’t know too much about the subculture, she’s never really met a goth who was clearly one. However, if it makes you happy, that’s all that matters to her. While she won’t really know too many bands, or any at all, she’d be more than happy to listen to a few if you want her to. Yes, she won’t always have the time, but when she isn’t too busy she could put on some songs by Joy Division or The Cure, she really doesn’t mind. She can vibe to that sort of music, even if it isn’t her favorite. You’re more than welcome to discuss the literature with her, though. She’s probably never read a single gothic literature book, but she can buy you some. Anything from poetry to a regular novel, it’s quite alright. While she won’t be the best person to go to when it comes to discussing those, she’ll support you either way. However, something she could definitely enjoy would be going clothes shopping with you. The fashion is kind of nice, she has to admit, so she’d be more than happy to buy you whatever garments you desire. Will go out of her way to find something you might like as well. I can’t see her being too much into the history of goth culture, though. It’s nice that you are a goth, if you want to tell her about it, then you can and she’ll listen to you, but she likely doesn’t have the time to research everything by herself. Tell her about its roots and she can definitely appreciate you going against what’s mainstream and how it all came to be. She’s a very defiant and rebellious woman herself, so she definitely gets it.

Laswell: She knows so many people, I wouldn’t be surprised if she has worked with goths before. And even if she hasn’t directly, she’s likely seen quite a few walking around the city. She usually grows worried for them in summer since their attire is black, which makes it quite hot. However, she’d be very intrigued by you and your subculture. It’s something very near and dear to you, so she would put in the effort to learn about your history. Will give some classic bands a listen as well. She just really wants to have something to talk about with you. Besides, she gets to learn more about you. While she may not be the biggest fan of your interest in death, considering she’s surrounded by it more often than not, she’d be more than happy to indulge anything else it has to offer. Laswell spent a good chunk of life left alone with her thoughts, so she definitely knows a thing or two about melancholy, the state of the world and introspection. Maybe not in the same way you do, but she can definitely keep up in a conversation. She’s likely also unintentionally read some of the more popular gothic novels out there and liked them, so she’d make for a good discussion partner as well. While she doesn’t particularly understand the need to make your face completely white, she doesn’t mind. In fact, she thinks it looks quite cool, even if it’s not for her. However, the fashion in and of itself looks really good to her. Again, she wouldn’t want to wear it, but something about Victorian and Edwardian fashion has a certain something to it that she can’t quite place. Like Valeria, she’ll definitely buy you things she thinks you might like. Anything from a suit or a corset to a book about poetry. Beware, though, she will read the books before you can.

#cod #cod x reader #valeria garza #valeria garza x reader #kate laswell #kate laswell x reader #I am so incredibly tired so I'm sorry if this is bad #the day I'm writing this is Monday and I worked for nine hours today which wasn't very fun #I'll be working for nine hours tomorrow again and I'm not looking forward to that but I need that overtime #I've never met a goth before so I don't even know anyone I could ask about it #I know an emo or two but that's not the same #still I gave the music a listen and I gotta say it sounds pretty good #I can see Valeria indulging you in your morbid things though. if you collect animal bones she can definitely acquire some #whether it be through roadkill or ethically killed animals #Laswell wouldn't be too big of a fan of having bones at home but she won't stop you either #she'll just tell you to keep them somewhere she won't necessarily have to see them all the time #she's not squeamish but she prefers to not think about death too much outside of work. she gets enough of it on the daily #Laswell would be more media literate than Valeria though. she's definitely analyzed some poems for fun when she was younger #Valeria doesn't have the time to read too much into something. or read a book at all. a poem maybe but that's it she won't read into it

[xmcu-fietro]

thinking about the Percy Jackson show that’s being made right now, and as someone who was obsessed with those books for years and then got late-diagnosed with ADHD and a learning disability (Dyscalculia), I really hope that the show actually shows how Percy struggles amongst his peers before coming to camp. I expect that the show will portray the positive aspects of neurodivergence since it’s so tied to all the character’s powers in the books (like Dyslexia being because their brains are hardwired for reading ancient Greek)--and I’m excited about that!--but I would also love to see the struggle that comes with being ND and not ever fully assimilating with NT peers. 

give me a Percy Jackson who gets kicked out of school not just because he acts out or has unexplained incidents with his powers, but who struggles in school and has to repeat a grade or two because his Dyslexia is so bad. A Percy whose teachers don’t believe him when he says he’s really trying because his grades are straight D’s and F’s despite his best efforts. A Percy who is a loyal and eager friend but doesn’t always understand NT communication and doesn’t realize when he takes his sarcasm and joking too far and gets shunned for it. A Percy who, at the tender age of twelve, is totally burnt out because no one knows what to do with him, who has awful self-esteem because he’s been told his whole life that he’s failing, who believes he wasted his potential already, but whose mom is kind and understanding and fiercely defensive of him to the rest of the world because she knows her child is worth so much more than his ability to fit in or get good grades. A Percy who comes to camp and is suddenly surrounded by people just like him, who excels in battle and finds friends who just get him, who slowly relearns who he is and what he’s capable of, learning that his struggles can be strengths sometimes, and finding confidence and acceptance through this community in a way that he’s never had before. 

#i'm sorry this post is so long i got a bit carried away #but i think about how awful my self esteem was and how hard it's been to rebuild it after being told for so long that i just wasn't trying #hard enough and it wasn't even my fault. and it would be so meaningful to see percy struggle while also growing to appreciate how his #neurodivergence can actually be a huge strength sometimes #and i think seeing someone ND acknowledge the good and the bad would probably mean a lot to younger ND kids today #seeing this super cool powerful character also really struggle to fit in and do school that everyone else finds easy #or at least it meant a lot to me as a kid seeing a bit of that in the books even though i didn't realize I was ND #percy jackson #percy jackson disney+ #percy jackson show #pjo #adhd characters #neurodivergent characters #adhd #actually adhd #learning disability #dyslexia #dyscalculia #actually dyscalculic #invisible disability

[cathalbravecog]

Mity I doodled (mostly from memory) earlier instead of studying for finals

#Sorry if I've been talking to people less or if I ignored literally anybody I'm trying to focus on stuff #Even if I'm active on Tumblr a bunch reblogging stuff #I'm tryna not to distract myself TOO HARD #I got finals this week dawg.... #I feel really bad for it but also I feel better distancing myself a bit from certain activity online #And like tumblr #Bc I've been checking this app endlessly and I need to get out of that habit #I think I did well enough about that today (that I wasn't actively thinking about it) and now I have the feeling og #POST AND SKITTER AWAY back so that feels a bit better but I feel bad for not responding to people oops #IRTS oakey. Have a mity. I will be mental illness rambles in my tags sorry #I am go eepy after posting this #Toontown #Toontown Corporate Clash #(unsure abt main tagging this for reasons stated earlier and bc too many notes can get to my brain but... I likey this one.) #Rainmaker #Guz art

[essektheylyss]

what people expect when you sign up for an LIS degree: haha quirky book nerds, so fun, I remember toddler storytime at the library are you gonna read to children

what they actually get when you sign up for an LIS degree: smashing Alexa isn't enough anymore I need to learn how to run my own internet and also build a house on a totally closed circuit system.

#this isn't totally fair. you also become even MORE of a curmudgeon about attribution and misinformation than you were before! #anyway everyday I realize i am becoming even more of a nightmare of a person #as if my media degree wasn't bad enough #I did have to think today about how my courses in undergrad went like #digital privacy and surveillance > social networks as used in the arab spring > culture of money > political campaign communications #now here i am doing in depth coursework on metadata and info behavior #DISASTROUS. no one should talk to me. absolutely nightmarish. #megs vs mlis #this is mostly a joke but it is so funny to read about metadata nearly a decade after that digital surveillance/privacy course and. oof. #okay I'm going back to my readings even though the memes are more fun

[binch-i-might-be]

they should invent a me that does things

#i have in fact done some things today but it feels like it wasn't enough so. bad. bad ray #i'm gonna get up and do some more things now in the hopes it will appease the vengeful spirit that controls my brain #rayrambles

[xray-vex]

HOW YOUR EMAIL FINDS ME

#literally. re: email from my ex this morning #every day it takes every ounce of mental and emotional strength i have to get my ass out of bed and face the day #today i begin packing to move the fuck out of here #everything fucking hurts and i hate this so much #i'm not feeling brave about any of this #one of the worst things about a breakup is that it damages you for any potential future relationships #in the sense that “how can i ever trust anyone with my heart and my love ever again?” #as if it's not bad enough losing someone you thought would be in your life forever #but the deeply cutting betrayal of finding out that this person you actually trusted with your literal life had led you on FOR YEARS #ESPECIALLY in the sense that this whole scenario is giving me intense flashbacks to the ending of another relationship #that broke me so bad it almost killed me #and it's easy for them to say “i hope you find someone who makes you happy” when they have someone new in their life #if i believed i had prospects for a new romantic relationship then it would be a little easier for me to collect myself & regroup & move on #but i don't think i have it in me to go thru any of this again #and that gives me even more layers of anger and rage and grief #as if it wasn't enough to betray me and break my fucking heart #but it broke me FOR ANY FUTURE LOVE AND HAPPINESS TOO #i know it's not productive for me to think that way #but right now i am fucking drowning in my fucking pain and fucking grief and fucking rage #i wanted stability and love and trust and someone to come home to every night and someone to come home to me every night #i just wanted to love and be loved #i wanted someone who i could call home #I JUST WANTED TO BE LOVED #rage #grief #trauma #edward teach #our flag means death #ofmd

[daz4i]

in my apples era

#apple shampoo my beloved i'm so glad to have you back #drank an apple cocktail today. it wasn't very good but not bad either. just not enough taste really

[thalion71]

i did greatly enjoy marching band, as a whole, but there are some things i absolutely don't miss, like late october football games or the november parade

#it's a good thing muscle memory exists bc i pretty often just could not properly feel all the little piccolo keys #it wasn't Always that bad #or honestly even often #but we sure did have some times #it is october enough here today my fingers do Not like it and are going 'hey aren't you glad you don't have to march tonight?' lmao

[taegularities]

being here has never felt this suffocating.. it feels impossible sometimes to continue

#i wish you'd talked to me about it instead of making a post with screenshots #because that was nothing i did intentionally... i didn't wake up thinking 'i will be racists today' it was a mistake i'm not proud of #i meant my apology and i said i understand when people are offended and that i'm sorry #i know it was wrong and i'm ready to learn from it to not hurt people anymore and idk why it warrants calling me a full racist #and i don't know how you saw that ask bc it was days (or yesterday? idk anymore) ago and you blocked me weeks (months?) ago #you'd have to actively seek that ask out or look through my posts if im blocked for you #and if it wasn't you but someone else who pointed it out for you idk how you guys got to the point of scanning my blog #if i ever hurt anyone im ALWAYS open to talking about it. i remember once using a word wrong and someone pointed it out on anon #and I've never used that word ever since #i would've immediately apologised and deleted that bit too if you'd texted me just one sentence a la 'hey that's so not okay' #and you did the same thing when i went alway last time... never communicating but going against me while so many others reached out to me #if i didn't see anything wrong about this thing now i wouldn't have made that post. im not scared of disagreeing with ppl #and i don't know what you want me to do? i didn't even know M when their thing happened and still felt bad for them.. me or those who are #defending me didn't go against M... how would you think it's the same people? idk man #idk.. i can apologise a 100 times and it won't be okay. and if i don't say anything im dodging the topic it'll never be enough no matter #what i do #reach out to me jords tell me what i can do bc i did NOT mean to ever hurt anyone and im so freaking sorry that i did #<— this msg especially to those who were directly hurt #idk what to do so you stop posting so many screenshots #if you want ppl to stop supporting me then...yeah idk guys stop supporting me — unfollow me it's absolutely okay bc i know that was #uneducated af of me #to all sweet ppl who reached out thank you i see your messages #i'll see all those that'll come too.. i just wont answer so no one drags y'all #thank you that's it #go ahead and screenshot this too. i can't do anything else anymore #also.. the only parts i edited in my apology were 'i didn't mention japanese' and 'i dont feel superior' which i did after waking up cos #my post was made at 5am after randomly waking up during the night #edit: stop sending my friends asks saying i deserved this. i never told anyone to defend me.. they CHOSE it and they're allowed to #that's it... thank you guys and ily #ill brb. not too long just a bit

[miercolaes]

fancy tags are making me sad so as of rn, everything will be simpler. i just want to write and for some reason i always create smth that just's sucking the enjoyment with a biodegradable straw. until i find smth easier to tag that doesn't make the brain juice sad, i'll only tag the user.

#♱ vero stfu. #brain juice is now happy and thinking thoughts enough for me to respond to some stuff #also TRIGGER WARNING RANT AHEAD #irl i am always first to approach guys to talk about classes and whatnot #and today i was reminded why #the two girls i asked if the seat was taken said that it was (even though the seats ended up not occupied) #and there's this girl who has some health issues whom i offered to sit beside me since i was in front row #it's safe to say she walked away took a chair and stood like in the middle of the room #just so she wouldn't sit beside me #and whenever i try to talk to someone they look at me weird and dont say a word until i go away #at first i thought it was just inside my head the chronic anxiety and whatnot #but boy oh boy am i beginning to think i wasn't imagining things #a guy did sit with me and i could share my bad jokes so it wasn't exactly one of those days i dont say a word to anyone #but idk it just makes me second guess maybe smth is wrong with me #is this normal adult behavior im learning only after two decades???

[that-was-anticlimactic]

there’s something so sacred about sharing what you love with others: whether it be a song or food or clothes, a show or a movie or pictures. it's just... such a deep and personal thing, you know? having someone carve out a little part of their heart and gift it to you with an abundance of joy and excitement and passion... yeah.

#i lowkey had an awful day today lol #and it was my first day taking over as teacher so that's a great way to start it #there are people in seventh period who literally despise me and maybe that's an exaggeration but i looked over their creative writing for #the day and one of those kids literally wrote about how he was having a good day but then it turned into a bad day when i started the #creative writing with them so that was great and other stuff happened idk and one of my tics was really... uh... present today and i was so #aware of it and i feel like everyone was laughing at me because of it even tho ik that was just me being self-conscious but God i wanted to #cry and i shared a piece of my heart with them today for the creative writing exercise and so many of them just. told me how awful it was #like someone straight up started with 'this song is terrible' and then proceeded to write a paragraph about how bad it was #idk. it made me feel like a young kid again - sitting by myself on the playground and reading books. like i was in middle school and #everyone was telling me that the things that i loved were stupid. like i was a kid getting teased just lowkey enough that the teachers #couldn't tell because it wasn't necessarily outright bullying but they were making fun of what i loved which Hurts and then i was in high #school having to defend what i love and then in college hearing 'you ruined this for me because you liked it too much' and it just. idk. #it hurts. i find sharing passions and what i love with others so sacred and important and it Hurts when they just tear it and you down and #ik they're juniors and ik there will always be people like that but it was constant and idk. i'm just sad lol #so anyways even if someone shares something with you that you don't like there is literally No reason to be rude about it. you're allowed #to say you dislike it but it's not okay to just tell them straight up it's stupid or awful or you'd rather get hit by a car than hear the #song again. hm. ig i have some unresolved trauma lol #sorry for the rant y'all i just. needed to rant ig idk

[kenobihater]

love refreshing my activity feed to find someone nitpicking my editing skills in the notes. i'm the first to admit my skills are not great bc i literally flunked out of editing class in hs and so everything i've learned is self taught using free software that occasionally lags with longer projects, but that doesn't mean i really want to see people saying my shit is cute but poorly synced. i frankly am trying my best with what I have!!!

#funnily enough they didn't point out the actual bad part of that vid (stray frames) and instead complained that it wasn't synced well enough #i believe they meant not every cut synced up with a drumbeat but DUDE xenk is in the film for MAYBE 20 mins there's not enough footage of #him for that that isn't boring converstaions!!!!!! #ugh ik i'm being petty but i went from feeling p good abt my editing skills after what i posted today to feeling more meh #one little comment isn't gonna like. shatter my confidence but it IS annoying bc man who asked????? #len speaks

[daz4i]

you guys are never gonna guess what happened to me

#a lot of bad things at once. for no reason #woke up at 6:30 took a long bus drive and now walked up a steep hill in the rain #everything hurts i did not sleep enough for that 😭 #i went to my thingie bc i wasn't sure if there's anything today or not. the answer is no. the last 4 hours of stress (+last night) were - #- for nothing 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 rip #guess i'll go home 😭 idk if i have anything else i can do rn #vent #i gueee