#BUT! i won't until im done with it all

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

"i have to go to sleep" i say

"i really have to go to sleep" i say again, four hours later

#WHEN THE WRITING GROOVE HITS I GOTTA STICK WITH IT #WHO KNOWS WHEN SHE'LL RETURN TO ME #listen this decapitation fic might actually get Done! #ive got the first part written out #all it needs is a re-write and a read and then i guess i could start posting #BUT! i won't until im done with it all #im not making that mistake... #absolutely unprompted #also i need to decide on How to post it #bc it has three little 'arcs' #the Event - the conflict - the resolution #and each one has its own separate chunks with different povs #so its like... each section posted as a full chapter #with distinct separated povs / scenes #or each pov is a new chapter? #but then if its that then the chapter lengths would be so uneven. #its be like 'oh ch.1 is 3k. ch.2 is less than 2k. ch. 3 is less than 3k #rrrgh. but then just posting three big chapters #would be like 'ok part one has like. 7k. part two has 10k. part three has whatever k' #so the question is! #three big chunks posted over the course of three weeks? #or up to 10 smaller chapters over the course of a equal amount of weeks? #im inclined towards the former.... #wanna get this out before the next big update releases and smashes it all into tiny shards! #big chunks! three releases! Once Im Done With The Writing / Editing Process! #might ask a certain someone to beta read! who knows! i do have a person in mind that i'd ask! #we'll see we'll see

[venusbby]

*appears from void*

isagi yoichi with ear piercings?

*disappears into void*

#val.talks #blue lock #isagi yoichi #someone please feed me #im so done #he'd look so pretty #pretty boy yoi #🫶☹️ #the way those piercings won't match his gently personality much until he's attending an award ceremony with all of them on and people cry #help i meant gentle personality bye

[risingsouls]

[If I could have one week where I don't have to deal with all kinds of stress and anxiety that would be real fucking cool.]

#.:ooc:. #this week it has been dealing with finally getting to take care of my car #and thinking about moving and finding a place and all that #but that's lesser #i was supposed to be done with the car shit today #even tho im not even getting 300 bucks for my car #but the tow truck driver apparently got into a wreck #and i hope no one was hurt of course #but now they won't be able to come get it until tomorrow #whcih is FINE but i spent part of the day just waiting around #which again not a huge deal since i work from home #but i get antsy when i have to wait on people

[peppermintbutch]

The next semester is going to KILL me. Bachelor thesis which idk what I want to write about AT ALL and if my adhd brain is even able to do it, two seminars that are probably gonna be super boring bcs the seminars this semester all suck for some reason AND immediately after that I have to do a work experience and write a report abt that. Oh and the semester starts NEXT WEEK

#plus still a lot of work until we can reopen the bar #im soo scared i wont be able to do it and everything falls apart bcs i didn't care enough and then i wont have any qualifications at all #also have to get a legal name change SOMEHOW very soon so my degree won't have the wrong name on it. for which i have to go to court #(in my birth city. it's pretty much a tossup if it's gonna work or not) #maybe i should try to get back on adhd meds that might help but i got heart palpitations and gi issues last time which sucked #god. literally every week I'm like what the FUCK is wrong with me why can't i just care and get things done why am i so lazy #but i guess it's adhd. or depression or the absurdity of having to have aspirations for myself when people all over the world are suffering #anyway I'm grumpy and feeling hopeless. but it will be ok i can do it. maybe. either way it's gonna work out some way or another

[tstain-is-an-idiot]

(WIP) ummm lets just say that theoretically

I mucked around with some genders

because it would be interesting if these two were inspired by different things while creating their version of Cap

#and you won't see the version of Cap until im done XD #wow genderbends how original!!!!!! #/sarcasm #anywayss im not tagging this properly because its not finished #also i gotta name all these idiots #(i don't want to go for the cliché of calling George “Georgia” and stuff like that) #though funnily enough i already have a name for this au version of Melvin #does this count as an au?? #kinda i guess #because the Cap of this AU has sort of different powers and stuff from canon #which reminds me that I don't have a name for her yet either :P #yeah #i initially had two names lined up for this universe's Melvin but i thought one of them would fit George better #idk #I'll probably say the names that i thought of when i finish this #though if anyone wants to give me suggestions for Harold and Cap's names that would be cool #I'm trying not to go with the obvious ones or copy anyone else #but still have them be related to the characters if that makes sense? #like for example #i stole Melvin's name from the Canadian French dub of the movie #(which is a pain in the bum to find #as per usual with Canadian French/Swiss German dubs of anything) #(kinda wish there was a swiss german dub of the movie because professor p) #whoops went on a dub tangent #hehehe autism™ #ok I'll stop now

[mainfaggot]

tw eating disorder talk, pt.2 to the last post in the tags (once again, no mention of numbers that could be triggering, just a heartfelt rant bc I've been so afraid of talking about these things on here, but i really just need to get everything out bc . I feel crazy)

#so basically it was bad. this past summer the relapse was so sugarcoated in the sense that #i was telling myself it was fine. it didn't look the same as it did at my very worst #it didn't even feel the same #but it wasn't fulfilling either. it was stressful. it was exhausting. i was using my anorexia as a way to distract from having depression #i needed to feel a sense of achievement and i got it! but at the cost of my physical health #and my mental health was all over the place like less depressed sure. but way more anxious #it was weird. because even now i have to tell myself it wasn't okay. it wasn't fine. it's not worth it it's not WORTH IT #part of me keeps romanticizing it bc i was so in control and i was still working a little and still functioning in a socially acceptable way #but i know how much anxiety it gave me on a daily basis. only i know how my body ached and how low i felt from my immunity going to shit #only I know what it's like to have horrible circulation and constant weakness #no one else will live my life for me #I'm sure there are people who can live the way i was. im sure there are people who thrive like that #but they only thrive for a short time before it all comes crashing fown #and it's not worth the comparison bc when im suffering theyre not going to help me out!!!!! #when im struggling with the weight of it all. the people that promote tiny little portions and academic excellence with no room for #self compassion #they're not going to nurse me back to health #i won't feel a sustained sense of satisfaction from restricting and studying until i pass out from exhaustion. I've done that before #perfectionism is a parasite and this is a disease. it's a fucking mental illness and it's not even about vanity for me like thats just a #fraction of it #anyway #z.post

[dmclemblems]

"we’ll treat you right” is just the funniest thing coming out of gw tho KEK

#Three Hopes #also yes claude is a dancer right there... bc im hellbent on everything maxing all the classes... #it's part of my ''finish all achievements and classes'' disaster i've imposed upon myself #that's why i've sank almost like 400 hours into this game #it's the stupid achievements i won't be truly happy until i am done with them #and then i can rest peacefully knowing i completed hopes and i can be free

[evilvarric666-archive]

One thing about me is that I will just leave.

#i straight up just leave rooms all the time. like i just decide that im done now and walk away #it won't even occur to me that it was socially unacceptable to walk away without excusing myself until im Already Gone #like all the explanations im seeing from my cursory google search about ''elopement'' are talking about #that thing kids do where they just. run off in one direction. #so it doesn't really apply to me but still. hm. hm!

[kafhlme]

to my ex who was being ableist about my typos, fuck you

#you post about hating ableist ppl and yet your always making fun of every typo i make like tf??? #i can't control how shaky i am and i can't control my constant tremors #every time he makes fun of it it makes me feel so disoriented im so uncomfy #no i won't shut up about him and all he's done not until i see him off of this app for good

[six-of-ravens]

goals for today:

finish tasks due today + tomorrow, get as much done on this site as possible (want to finish it tomorrow but idk how realistic that is...no one here understands how long things take and I'm slightly behind bc I couldn't get that design until last Thursday and Friday I was completely braindead and....anyway work will be interesting this week and I'm trying to get as much as possible done by like. Wednesday. bc I'm gone next Tuesday and that means the end of the week will be chaos...)

finish How to be a Tudor (only 90 pages left and I think I'm finally in the mood to finish it!)

make plum preserves and decide what to do with the peaches (jam or preserves or just eat em)

#im gonna get all this work shit done #but even if it's done early I won't mark it as done until the due date so i don't get swamped with more work lol #anyway im going to go mentally yell at my computer and coworkers and the fact that my building has a water shutoff #and i forgot to water the plants yesterday evening

[batemanofficial]

im literally on the verge of tears because i hate my job so much but i feel like i can't quit bc i need my boss as a reference UGHHHHHHHH

#speak friend and enter #my boss is insane. like patently. she doesn't know how to run her business and it's going to blow up in her face and i can't say ill be sad #i suggest things and she looks at me like im speaking a different language!!! she nags at me for not speaking up in meetings that i have no #context for and then when i do speak up she says im embarrassing her in front of her colleagues!!! i can't win!!! i can't even help her!!! #she can run the thing into the ground for all i care. she has a team full of people with good ideas who want to help but she won't listen #im done. im done. im phoning it in until may or until i get a call from another job whichever comes first

[piplupod]

sigh. tooth vaguely hurts again so i think i am Le Fucked

#govmt is introducing a dental plan but I can't apply until... next year #like. glad that this is going to be a thing. rly good stuff. but im. ack. #i dont want to shorten my two year clock even more fhfkdl but im going to have to if i need to get any more dental work done #i thought maybe i could get a job like. last week. but then the fatigue got worse #and I've been hardly able to do Anything. so idk anymore #but i cant get onto disability bc im not disabled enough to qualify probably #so i just.... have to live off of savings until i run out (have enough to last to the end of next gr if i am very very careful) #(and the dentist costs will put a dent in that and shave off a monthish) #im just so frustrated fjfkdl i was starting to think maybe i had half a chance at at least living longer than next yr #but nooooo my body won't cooperate. i hate this. so much. #i would settle for such a shitty but tolerable life rn but I can't even acquire that !!!!! argh !!! #and i feel like im so stupid for complaining abt this like fjfkdl other ppl have it so much worse than me rn #i have a bed and a roof over my head and savings to live off of so i rly shouldn't be complaining #im honestly lucky all things considered. idk. i just want to live idk #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[theood]

"you don't have enough bandwidth to play this right now"

Crying screaming whining whimpering moaning howling throwing myself onto the ground kicking my legs and wailing

LET ME watch Doctor Who!!!! PEASE

#elias howls #im so tired. im so fucking tired man. I can't do work tomorrow. and I'm gonna have to. and then I have to all of next week. and then afterwa #rds I'll have to work every day until I die because I won't ever make enough to retire. Work work work work work till my body gives out and #they just kill me because I'm a lame animal. weaken the pack. What a life! Wasted. I'm going to be 21 next year. I've done jack fucking shit #to make up for it. Everyone else in my life has it made. I barely survive part time. What do I bring to this life but misery and pain and #regret. I don't bring anything. I'm not special. #**** **** *****. Really isn't any time at all. I should really **** **** * **** ** *********. ** **** **** ** **** ** ** *****. ** ***. * #**** ***'* *** ** ***** #'i look like im smiling but the light inside me is dying!' or however it goes. I don't see a future for myself. I don't even see a future t #hat includes me. needs me. wants me. Everything would work out fine. I'm not needed. People would move on. They would. A day or two. A week #at most and everyone would just move on. not worth it. Did everyone a favor.

[spekktors]

lengthy slow burn readers and writers I've gotta know: what even happens in the story after a slow burn goes over a certain length

#babbling #anything from 50-150k is an amount that i think counts as slow burn without going so long I'd begin to wonder what's going on in there #when i say a certain length im talkin like 200k+ #I am curious though. the slow burn* story I'm writing rn is currently about 20k and a little under halfway done #and i feel like I'm being quite indulgent with it too since it's just personal writing** I'll probably never share with anyone #i spent 1000 words describing making soup and elaborating on the history of kitchenware #but when it's past the 200k mark what's happening? #is it B-plots? is it character study interludes? is it lovingly developing the platonic relationships as well as the romantic ones? #or is it romance-foreward and the burn is Genuinely That Slow #if that's the case power to you. but I alas don't have the patience #footnotes: #*i dont know if it legally counts as a slow burn if you have gay sex in the second chapter #the developing relationship and admitting their romantic feelings to themselves and getting together part is slow tho #**it's the elaborate backstory of two characters that exist in my dnd homebrew world #that my players won't meet until over the halfway point in the campaign #if at all depending on their choices #but they exist in the world as characters who are relevant to a significant NPCs backstory #and i couldn't get them out of my head. so here i am

[blindedguilt]

((from @booksofthelibrary ))

The young girl runs up behind the boy and sprays him playfully with a little bit of water. A harmless prank as she giggles before handing him a brand new net that she made for him. A 'R' carved into its handle.

"happy birthday!"

::RIVERSAL

"Waaah...!!" A sharp squeal erupted from the boy at the feeling of cold water on his back, the momentarily cry of shock quickly turning to a string of bright giggles as he flicked back a few drips from his hair towards Daffy. "Oi, you!! I'll get you for that, you know! You better watch your back, miss..."

He could hardly say he was displeased at her betrayal so much as pleased he had someone to play with! His brothers tried, but could never fully get in on his games, whether it be through confusion or other business they had to attend to.

Admittedly, though he would never say it out loud, he secretly felt rather jealous, perhaps even upset at the news of her getting together with Lukhege when he had initially found out. It was frustrating, in a way - he had finally found himself a friend to play with, and for what? ...Yet, even despite those initial worries, he was glad to be further comforted in the thought that he hadn't been forgotten by her presence with him that day.

The once beaming smile faded with the momentary rush of excitement and into curiosity as he was offered the finely crafted net. "Oh...This is..." A soft red creeped up to his cheeks with a sheepish, somewhat awkward look to his smile as he idly turned it over in his hands. It would have seemed forced in a way that he was trying to smile if not for the faint twinging at the corners of his lips threatening to break out into a wide grin. For someone who was usually so excitable, it seemed Riversal in particular had the most trouble accepting gifts - even compared to his younger brother Laum, who, while sheepish, was always capable of clearly showing his gratitude. Riversal, however...

The boy's long coat swayed as he rocked back and forth once on his heels, unable to fully look the other in the eyes as he spoke in a quiet, awkward little peep. "Thank you, Daffy... This is... Nice. Um...! Thank you. Well..."

Promptly, he spun on his heel, took a few awkwardly shuffled steps, and sat with his back turned and his feet spread to either side of the net he held between his legs. Though she couldn't see it, it wasn't hard to guess how red his face must have been as part of the kind gesture.

"...Come back later," He said suddenly, a flatly dismissive, determined tone to his voice, "I have something to think about." One of his tricks, now involving his new present, most like. "Thanks... Again."

His next words, though meant to be spoken in a tease, came off as nothing but a half-hearted suggestion in all his distraction. They were nothing more than a mouthed, near-inaudible whisper as he stared and plucked idly at the strings of the net with his fingers, too deep in thought to even notice the water dripping from his hair, much less to speak. "...Go chat with your boyfriend..."

Whatever could he be plotting? Whoever could he be plotting against? Riversal didn't speak, and sat there deep, deep in thought for a very long time.

"Hah! Got you!!"

...Ah, poor Leonard. It seemed that he had been chosen the unfortunate victim of his prank that evening. From a distance, the small Riversal could be seen standing triumphantly atop his older brother's back like a proud hunter with his prey. Leonard, conversely, would have been near invisible if not for his large form and the striking beige of his coat against the greenery of the forest. The poor hermit laid cruelly fettered on the ground, all that was visible being the blond of the head that laid face-down and the shoulders of both arms spread on either side. The net that had toppled him should have been relatively easy to remove from the foot tangled within it - his brother that stood on his back, however, was not.

"Please, release me at once!" The muffled plea sounded from the ground. With a dramatically boisterous laugh, Riversal's hands found themselves resting smugly atop his hips.

"No! I've got you, now, brother~!"

"Riversal! Please!!" A bit more insistence in his tone, and enough in a voice as deep as his to make the now 11-year-old almost immediately jump out of his skin and straight to the side of his ailing brother.

"Sorry, sorry! I'm sorry!!" Riversal was the one pleading now, his tone as frantic and shaky as his hands as he removed the trap net from Leonard's back. The eldest looked pale as he sat up on his knees, deathly silent in the face of his younger brother's apologies and concerns as to his wellbeing - his eyes were screwed tightly shut. He seemed shaken, with his shortness of breath, Laum noticed with a tiny frown.

...Maybe he was claustrophobic? Poor brother.

#||Reply||:Daffy #{/SO MANY THINGS TO SAY ABOUT THIS...} #{/First and foremost: an apology. that day i told you i had it done and would send it out that night only to not do that?} #{/i wasnt lying i SWEAR; i just had it done but... i didnt look at my computer battery when i closed it for dinner and came back to it GONE #{/i was so pissed off i couldn't even think about it or any of my asks for the longest time until recently} #{/AND SOMETHING HAPPENED TO CAUSE THAT WHICH I'LL HAVE TO POST ABOUT SOON!!! gushy feels lmao} #{/I definitely won't say im grateful for LOSING the thing i spent so much time on but in the same breath} #{/this is honestly a lot better tbh} #{/I actually knew what I was doing with riv's character which is my next point!!} #{/the autism} #{/that is all} #{/finally; i wrote most of this last night when i was thinking about how magnitude negative} #{/*SMALL SMALL SPOILERS IN THE TERMS OF POTENTIAL CHARACTER DIVERGENCIES AHEAD*} #{/made leonard a masochist (like... a literal; full-on masochist im not even kidding) and} #{/daffy if he excuses himself please don't check up on him to make sure he's okay} #{/this also lined up HORRIBLY with my sudden connecting the dots on why riv's features looked so familiar to me} #{/one of those 'i've seen something like that somewhere before' situations; yeah?} #{/i finally figured it out. it has me both cackling and cringing VERY hard at the same time.} #{/i wont divulge anymore here but BOY OH BOY...}

[slvttyplum]

one thing about suguru, he can hold a grudge and can hold it for the longest time. he will literally argue with you while he's fucking you, and he has, multiple time in fact.

putting you in missionary while pushing your thighs up to your chest and giving you a kiss before his mood changes, and he starts spouting bullshit, you couldn't even rebuttal like you wanted to and that's exactly why he did what he did.

if he knew you were getting fucked out of your mind with the way his dick was touching and swirling your insides, there was no way you could shoot him down the way he knew you wanted to, and that brought a smile on his face.

no smart remarks, only stuttering and moaning trying to get your point across. he was never going to let you win whatever argument the both of you had that day, if he feels as though you were even on the track to winning, he was going to fuck you until you gave up.

“mm no baby. if i say i want you home at a certain time, that's what i want.” while pushing himself deeper inside of you so that you couldn't say anything and if you did, it would just be inaudible blabbering while you scavenged your brain trying to find the words to say if you could even get it out.

this is something that could be categorized as a toxic trait or “red flag” if anyone knew that suguru pulled you into the bedroom to just fuck you and argue with you while doing it, people would throw a fucking fit, not you though, you tried to hold your own.

blabbering your nonsense trying to defend your case while he dug you out, and it's not even like he did this on a whim. he fucked you so good that it had your toes curling and your stomach caving in like a caprisun.

don't play with him because he will do this off guard and all, you won't even know when he's going to toss you over and slide your panties off and just fuck you like he had all the time in the world. no one liked being right more than suguru did, it was in his everyday agenda to make sure that any and everything he said was right and that if you disagree then he was going to make sure you agreed.

“huh? oh, i thought you said something about me being wrong.” with a smirk on his face. suguru knew you like the back of his hand, of course he would know his favorite person, so with that being said, he knew that fucking you until you couldn't properly form a sentence would get his point across and not yours.

whispering in your ear while he pushed into your sweet spot over and over again, your heart racing so fast and your legs quivering with the amount of force he was putting on your thighs. expanding his point out even more just to hear that pretty voice of yours whimpering and pleading for him to just stop because you couldn't take it anymore.

all the pleasure was building up to the point you were getting cramps, so you knew you were done for.

“tell me im right, tell me that i fucked you so good that i made you a mess.” his mouth near your ear as he continues to fuck you in, your body jolting up and down, your mouth moving but nothing coming out, that's how he knew you were done.

“thought so. good girl.”

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk x reader #jjk x you #jujustsu kaisen x reader #x reader #jjk suguru #jjk geto #jujutsu kaisen suguru #geto suguru #getou suguru x reader #suguru geto smut #jujutsu geto #geto x reader #geto smut #suguru geto #geto