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demilypyro · 9 months

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Okay since this doesn't seem to want to go away here's me addressing every single "allegation" that I've heard about. I hope to have at least given a good explanation where the horrible things being said about me came from, and why I consider them either just totally not true or badly misconstrued. Some of my friends have recommended I don't say anything at all, but I've always preferred openness and honesty, so I hope that's appreciated.

I understand that some people will still dislike me even though the things being said about me are not true. That's fine. I don't need everyone to like me, but it's when I'm being consistently harassed and lied about that it interferes with my mental health and ability to work. So I'm gonna try and end things with this.

"She's racist"

From what I can tell this is about one time when I said I keep my interest in anime to myself around new people. I do this because showing you're a Huge Fucking Nerd right off the bat can make a bad impression. I could have said the same thing about Star Trek or comic books, I just happened to be talking about anime in that moment. Someone seems to have misconstrued this as me finding Japanese culture something shameful and lesser than other cultures?... Which I would call a total willful misinterpretation. The rest of this seems to stem just from being Dutch, because the Netherlands is a country that has a problem with xenophobia. This is true, but uhhh I'm mixed myself so I'm pretty well aware of that, and I obviously don't support our infamous "blackface holiday." Just because I live here doesn't mean I agree with everything this country does, be that historically or in the modern day.

"She's friends with racists/misogynists/transphobes"

The only thing I can guess this is about is when I was mutuals with a user called porko-rosso at least 5 years ago and didn't really believe it when people told me they were a bigot. I haven't interacted with this user in over 4 years but people still claim we're like best friends, which was never true in the first place, we just knew a lot of the same people. Most of the resentment from the people who repeatedly spread these rumours about me seems to have started here. So for the record: no, I am not friends with any racists, misogynists or transphobes.

"She thinks she's better than other trans women because she passes better"

This is just not true. This idea seems to pop up just whenever I post about enjoying the benefits of HRT or surgery, but most recently this was misconstrued from a post where I said being trans is about being yourself as much as possible. Since this was in response to someone saying that me trying to pass is "erasing my identity", people thought I meant trying to pass is the same as being good at being trans, which was not what I meant, but some people didn't seem to want to believe me when I clarified. My apologies for the misunderstanding I guess, but that's all it was. So no, I do not hate people who don't pass as well as I do, nor do I think all trans people should be transitioning medically, and I resent the implication.

"She has a secret discord server where she makes fun of pictures of other trans women and calls them slurs"

I had absolutely no clue what this was about when I first heard it. I was sent screenshots that supposedly prove this but all they show is me being rude about someone's appearance one time in january of 2022. I actually thought these were faked because I don't remember this happening and the things said confused me, but one of my friends says she found it was in her server, where she had showed a picture of someone and asked everyone present (mostly other trans women) if they were hot. Apparently I did not think they were hot. So yes, I did insult someone's appearance back in january 2022, but it was an isolated incident. Frankly even I find my remarks in these screenshots distasteful, I don't know what I was on when I wrote that stuff. I'm sorry to that person specifically. What I said has weighed heavily on me and I apologize for it. It's not something I approve of, and don't intend to repeat that mistake. Still, to say it means I hate trans women and I love to make fun of them in my secret discord server and call them slurs is just... a super-villain level of exaggeration. I didn't even know about the word that was named as an example. It's not true.

"She's often rude"

I can't deny this one. Autism gonna autism. I've seen many therapists, doctors, experts, what have you, to try and help me with this, but it seems my particular brand of autistic in combination with the cultural differences between mine and other countries just really often ends with my foot in my mouth when I speak English. I apologize! I have never meant to personally offend anyone. It just keeps happening and I can't stop it from happening.

If after reading all this, you still consider me bad enough to hate my guts, I can't stop you, but I wanted to have at least had my say. I swear that everything in this post is the honest truth as I understand it, and that I've never acted with purposeful malicious intent.

#and yes feel free to reblog and share #demilypyro #demily pyro

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buffporcupine · 4 months

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death note headcanons

because i know my death note mutuals aren’t getting what they wanted from me

light

-can crack his elbows the way one would crack their knuckles

-probably had to do a musical elective in his first year of middle school and chose guitar cause he thought it would be easy but it wasn’t.

-the type of song he really enjoys is very specific. going to hell yet i tried so so hard to please god song. i missed my only chance song. why wasn’t i like the other kids song. thrones playlist. i could elaborate but i won’t

-as for sexuality, i see him as not wanting to put a label on whatever he is in theory but in practice being some type of bispec (probably berriromantic) for romantic attraction and then somewhere on the asexual spectrum for sexual attraction.

-as for gender i see him as agender whose not really in labeling himself as anything when it comes to sexuality and gender.

-agender but probably 100% fine with being super male presenting. he just wants to keep out of gender as a convo and that’s great. good for him

-no!!!!! i refuse to say this mf is aromantic (because it’s not accurate and it’d be an insult to aromantic people to say he’s aro)!!!!!

-just because he manipulated misa and kiyomi into doing his bidding and didn’t love them doesn’t immediately make him aro. i’m sure he could have found someone if he wanted to, and he could have loved them if he was with them to love them, but he wasn’t with them to love them he was with them to use them.

misa

-half belgian half japanese. her parents met in belgium while her father was on vacation.

-also im torn bcos i wanna write an au where misa is mexican and that’s it everything else is the same as canon but i’m pretty sure that’s just me wanting her to be even more Like Me (tm)

-speaks a little bit of english, way more french, and obvi japanese. finds linguistics interesting but doesn’t have enough time to research it that thoroughly

-likes being short and “small” small girl aesthetic i guess but sometimes wishes she had longer legs so she could wear skirts w/o looking silly and short

-panromantic does not see gender at all when becoming attracted to someone. i see her as def on the ace spectrum, maybe something like demisexual or aegosexual. could be me projecting dunno.

-she’s probably dated both girls and boys before

-would NOT break up with someone in a rude way or just dump them. she’d put a lot of effort into an apology and explanation into why.

-if she met miu iruma they’d be best friends. sorry i bring danganronpa into everything guys

-can we please just appeciate mexican misa for a second. she’s cooking sopa de fideo for the task and being the bilingual hot girl we all needed

-mexican misa

-as for her music taste she probably listens to upbeat english language music and sappy love songs. “there is a light that never goes out” and “melt with you” sound like go-tos for her sorry. i could also see her being a bimbo pop ayesha + britney manson girlie though

-tbh whatever your race/ethnicity is you could project it onto misa and it’d work. i love it. anyway d d d d d d d did i say m m m mexican misa

-i think she’d love love love getting her hair done!!! sensitive scalp mf but she’d still love getting her hair done

-mexican misa visiting mexico and getting braids and cute clothes and her fave candy

-was not a theatre kid. sorry guys but her middle and high school didn’t offer theatre 😔😔

lawliet

-chronically dehydrated just because he forgets to drink water. he tries to drink water and always gets afraid of developing kidney / liver problems but he just keeps forgetting. what the fuck L

-soup stan i think he’d love some good soup. soup stan x soup cooker (lawmane)

-i think you could have a really deep convo about anything with L. if you’re passionate about anything he’ll just listen and he’ll talk to you about what he’s passionate about to. he loves to think and would def entertain you with a convo about whether a hot dog is a sandwich or something dumb like that you know.

-he’s a thinker he just loves discussions

-has a british accent when speaking english bcos watari and lived in england you know. he thinks british accents in english sound good tho and LOVES making fun of how silly new york accents are (me too bro. me too)

-if he went to middle school or the japanese/british equivalent of it, he’d def be the type to choose some weird ass elective fucking creative writing instead of the “normal” guitar, choir, band, orchestra and shit

#death note #death note headcanons #light yagami #l lawliet #misa amane #yagami light #amane misa #l death note

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ruubric · 1 year

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The Upside of The Unrequited

warnings: swearing, a tinsy bit of suggestive language, unrequited love

summary done badly: Mitsuya is in love with you, but you're dating Pah. Told from Mitsuya's perspective.

irrelevant fact: a shrimp's heart is in its head

"Damn, that's a sexy dress," the girl mumbles out loud, staring at the beautiful bride to be on the TV, wearing a skin tight v-neck wedding dress. "Her mom might actually kill her. Do you see her eyes practically bulging out of her face right now?" She snickers.

I scoff, "it's not that great. I can see fraying seams from here."

She nudges my elbow, "nah, bitch. This is some fine work here. Look at the gems. The glitter. The sparkles."

I give her a look, her brown skin looks almost pale in the ghoulish blue light coming from the TV in the dark room. She looks so invested as she stuffs her face with pretzels. "You do know that there's more to designing clothes than just gems and glitter and..." I mock shudder, "sparkles, right?"

"Maybe to you, mister jaded-designer. But I want to sparkle like a motherfucking firework at my wedding." She hesitates for a moment, "y'know, if I ever do get married."

Right. The younger woman has been dating our mutual friend, Pah, for years now... with no sign of proposal anywhere in sight. She would've done it herself, naturally, but Pah hasn't exactly made it clear the direction in which the relationship is heading in. Also due to us all being in a literal gang, novelties like weddings and starting families are a fucking dream for people like us. We can't risk doing that shit, some people could die or get hurt.

It still doesn't make it any less painful though.

I've always wondered if she regrets helping us found Toman when we were younger... Maybe if she hadn't, she'd have a real job, and family, and would've gone to college to be a music teacher like she really wanted.

I look at her. She's also deep in thought, nervously biting her lip and tapping out a rhythm on the pretzel bowl. Damn it. I hate seeing her like this.

"Well, maybe...*when* you do get married... I'll make the wedding dress for you," I grin at her.

She perks up, like a sunflower in the middle of a sunrise. "Yeah?"

"Mhmm," I nod.

"Can it not be white though?"

I splutter playfully, even though it actually hurts to hear her even insinuate getting physical with Pah... or with anyone else that isn't me. "What? Are you trying to tell me something, young lady?"

"Nooo," the girl cutely wrinkles her studded nose at me. "I just think a white dress is boring as hell. I wanna wear something different."

"But still with gems and glitter?" I raise an eyebrow in amusement.

"And sparkles. Never forget the sparkles," she points at me with a big beam. Before giggling, "what do ya think, mister designer man? Can you do that?"

I lock eyes with her big brown ones, that look to me so damn earnestly. That I remember years ago, in a similar moment: watching shitty reality shows and eating snacks on her couch at her parents' house, how we looked into each other's eyes... And I was going to tell her that I had fallen in love with her.

Only for her to admit her crush on Pah. The tip to the triangle.

I remember how she giggled and covered her face when she told me, practically gurgling like a drain. I remember feeling my heart being ripped from my chest because I knew Pah felt the same... I mean, sure he wasn't giggling and gushing, but he sure as fuck was blushing and stuttering.

I remember how Baji and Kazutora gave me sympathetic looks when I told them about what had learnt that day.

"Who needs girls, right? They're a waste of time anyway," Baji had said in an attempt to cheer me up.

"Baji, she's literally our friend," Kazutora had pointed out. "And... I mean, she is really hot--"

"You're not helping!" Baji snapped.

He had been right that day, Baji. Who needs girls? I certainly didn't, all I needed was her. The foreign girl, who spoke cutely broken Japanese and had hair that curled around her face like a woven halo.

Of course, the two got together soon after. And my heart died a little every time I saw them exchange secret glances during meetings, every time I saw them link pinkies and whenever she rode on the back of his bike.... I couldn't help but wish it was me she was pressed against, and wrapping her arms around.

Their skinship was always very subtle... which convinced me that Pah knew about my feelings, which sucked. I wanted him to be happy without thinking about me.

Because at the end of the day, they were still both my friends, and I wanted them to be happy.

And still do.

In the current day, I flash her a weak smile. "Of course I can, what do you take me for?"

She beams and turns back to the TV. "What about a strawberry printed dress?"

I snort, "you're going to a wedding, not your fifth birthday party."

She stuffs some more pretzels in her mouth, "now, that would be a valid excuse if I wasn't talking to Takashi Mitsuya."

"Huh?" "You can make anything look good."

I look at her. In her bonnet and oversized shirt with mustard stains down the front. And yet... she still looks like an absolute goddess. "Ditto," is all I whisper out.

She turns to me, her eyes shining in the light of the TV, big and earnest, and her lips shape to say something.

But her words are lost to the click that signals the opening of the door.

"Babe, I'm home."

It's Pah.

I quickly get off the couch, she looks a little taken aback as she distractedly calls back: "yeah, I'm in the living room."

Pah peaks in, seeing me, he smiles: "hey, Mitsuya."

"H-hey, Pah."

"Are you staying for dinner--?"

"No. I have... I have to do something, so I should go."

The pair both blink at me in unison. "Oh...uh, okay."

That night, I ride all over town, simply trying to clear my head. I guess that was the something I had to do.

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"So... this is it, huh?" Draken asks from his place on the chair, looking up at the strawberry pink dress that I had spent months working on.

I take a step back and look at the dress in the middle of my studio.

The soft delicate cloud skirt of the dress cascades to the floor is paired with the strength of a strapped corset. There is a lace sleeve to the left that plays with symmetry a bit, and ends in a fingerless glove style. I had made a belt that looked like a golden arrow curved around her waist (her weapon of choice) and of course, the dress had its fair share of glitter, making it shimmer even under the dim lights of the studio.

"Yup."

I feel Draken cast me a cool look, "how long did you work on it?"

"An embarrassingly long time for someone who doesn't love me back," I say nonchalantly though tears prick at my eyes.

"So you knew Pah was going to propose?"

"He would've done it eventually." I shrug, "he's not that much of an idiot."

Draken stands and pats my back comfortingly. "If it's any consolation, she's gonna love it when you show it to her tonight."

I nod.

And that mere action shakes the tears and whispers out of my body.

#ruurites˚ʚɞ˚‧｡#tokyo revengers x black!reader #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers x reader #tokyo revengers fanfiction #mitsuya x y/n #mitsuya imagines #takashi mitsuya #mitsuya x reader #mitsuya x black reader #pah chin #pah chin x reader #black y/n #black reader

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remturtle · 5 months

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list five things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last ten people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your followers, mutuals and all the wonderful people on here!

HI ARU!! ILYSM!!! 💜💜💜

1. Matcha flavours!!

Especially in Milk tea, sweets and desserts! (Mainly because it’s not overly sweet when done well, and as someone who famously does not like sweets, it can be a blessing when I’m pressured* into getting a little treat while out with friends)

2. Villainess Otome Genre!

Look, okay, just hear me out. I know it’s an overused cliche now, but when I’d just broke into it there were very few that had comprehensible English translations, so I feel like I got the golden scoop. And I’m not as much of an avid reader of manga/manwha/manhua as I was a couple years ago, so I’m not bombarded with rip offs and trend jumpers all the time. That being said, my number 1 fave villainness manga is Hamefura! (My Next Life As A Villainness) (also!! New VN Coming for it on the switch?!? I’m so excited!!)

My beloved Bakarina is the golden standard of idiot MC dialed up to 100% and she IS my daughter.

3. Isekai genre!

Yet another overused cliche, but I’m not defending myself this time lmao. As almost every isekai fan knows, the medium is over flowing with shitty-lack-lustre-power-fantasy-harem-building but every once in a while (read: every once in a million years lmao) you’ll come across a read that is generally really interesting, whether it be through a new twist on the concept or just really great characters and world-building. A particular favourite of mine is Campfire Cooking. A more recent entry (though it might be a little old now? I don’t watch often.) but it’s basically just ‘salary man makes food for magical dog who happens to have the personality of a cat’ with a bit of monsters and worldbuilding sprinkled in. 100/10 highly reccomend (AroAce bonus: there is no romance or love interest 🥰)

Edit: campfire cooking was originally a light novel I believe, but I found it through the manga - which has an amazing and really unique artstyle that the anime COMPLETELY BUTCHERED (also I love my silly dragon dork Elrand(yes it’s ripped straight from ‘Elrond’(yes I thought it was very funny and a cute lil nod)))

4. Retro/Vintage Aesthetic!

This mainly applies to furniture and decoration, I’ve grown up with a lot of retro things around myself since my parents are a fair bit older than the norm for my generation, and there’s just something so cosy about it. You’ve probably heard me ramble about it at some point in our servers together but I’m planning on getting a lot of retro furniture for myself in the coming months. I’d love to own vintage clothes but the masc leaning pieces tend to be too restricting for my tastes, I prefer looser, more casual outfits.

5. Food!!!

Self explanatory. But just in case: as someone with very little emotional or sentimental connection to physical objects and an overwhelming lack of object permanence, pretty much the only thing that is guaranteed to consistently make me happy is good food. In particular I’m partial to Japanese and Korean dishes, but Malaysian food is pretty high up there too :3

|| * AKA: Being very strongly reminded to eat and not skip meals or ignore my body’s needs

#//remrem rambles #LMAO IM SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG TO ANSWER #POV: you’re asked what you like and/or enjoy and suddenly you are a monk who as ascended beyond mortal desires

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dragonagelesbian · 2 months

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List 5 things that make you happy and send this to the last 10 people who liked/reblogged something from you. Get to know your followers and mutuals!

Hiii @ner-vod!

5 things that make me happy.... Hmm. It's kind of hard to answer this at the moment because I'm quite depressed lately, but there are definitely some things that make my days much more bearable and enjoyable.

5. Studying Japanese

I've been studying Japanese for the past 4 years, and managed to pass N3 December 2022. I started just because I found it fun and to challenge the mindset that you can't learn difficult languages as an adult, and have kept up with it since! I genuinely enjoy learning it, teasing out the small subtleties of the language, and using it to communicate with others!

Recently, I've been watching JBL without subtitles to get used to it, with some mixed results haha, but I can definitely follow along much better! I watched the Utsukushii Kare movie at Bucheon International Film Festival last year with only korean subtitles (I don't speak any Korean) and managed to understand the plot okay!

4. Discovering new queer media

I think we've been blessed with new and more mainstream forms of queer media the past few years, especially the past 5-10 years. Teenage me who only really had Junjou Romantica and Queer Eye could NOT have imagined something like Young Royals or Skam, European queer dramas, becoming so mainstream. I can't believe we got the Given and Cherry Magic animes! I still can't quite comprehend that we have such incredible openly queer musicians. Some of my favorites at the moment are Rina Sawayama, Orville Peck, Lil Nas X, Samantha Hudson (please check out this Spanish artist!!), among others. And, of course, Southeast Asian Boys Love has taken the world by storm, to my utter joy! I'm so happy that we've seen the genre evolve so much, with many more voices joining behind and in front of the cameras.

3. Eating good food

I'm a huge food lover, and I love both making and eating new dishes. When I went to Korea last summer, I was having the time of my life just discovering delicious, cheap meals that I'd never tried before. Now that I'm at university at [school] with so many international students, we often have lovely pot lucks and all share food together. I'm happy that I'm at a point of my eating disorder recovery journey where I still struggle, but I get to enjoy food more.

2. Helping people

Last year, I finally worked for the first time as a psychologist. It was only an internship, but I got to directly aid others who were struggling, and it was an incredible experience. It's just so world-changing to see and hear people, and give them all you can. I was also part of my student union at undergrad, and loved seeing my impact on students who might have otherwise struggled. I think realizing how much I love making a contribution to others has made me more aware of what I want to work in once I graduate my master's.

My loved ones

Especially my girlfriend, closest friends (hey there @oatmealcoloured) and family. I truly would not be here without them, period. They're the only things that keep me going sometimes. Thank you.

#ask #personal

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shiiikigami · 8 months

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"I’ll save people whether or not it’s fair. ” ✳ private & selective canon divergent fushiguro megumi from jujutsu kaisen ✳ written by ammonia ✳ under 18 DNI ✳ please read the full pinned post before interacting ✳ megumi icons psd by @parieha ✳ current on anime/manga

IMPORTANT LINKS : character wiki/bio / images / threads / inspo / headcanons / meme tag / plotting calls / black clover au / black clover au threads

CURRENT ACTIVITY: answering asks, then drafts.

rules ->

ACTIVITY: writing is a hobby, and i have a chronic illness and a job that takes my time. please respect my slower activity level and do not pressure me for quick replies.

DRAMA: this is the most important rule! i do not tolerate vagueblogging, callout posts, rpc drama, harassment, pressure or abuse. i will block without warning.

DISCORD: i write mainly on discord, and my discord is available for mutuals. i also write other muses on discord from JJK and other anime.

18+ CONTENT: i don’t interact with writers who are minors. period. this blog may contain adult themes. i am currently not writing smut scenes and prefer to fade to black or skip over it.

GODMODDING: you should not write my character’s actions for me, nor should your character know mine’s inner thoughts/feelings or history.

TRIGGERS: i have no triggers that i request that you tag. i do my best to tag what i can in all posts. however, as this blog deals with mature themes on occasion, follow at your own risk.

SPOILERS: i will tag spoilers for new episodes up to 1 week after airing. be aware that i will only tag manga visuals post-anime and not not tag manga spoilers in threads as many of my threads take place post-anime canon. they will be tagged as the following example: #jjk spoilers. i am up to date on manga & episodes.

TRANSLATIONS: as i’m a native english speaker who can’t read japanese, the manga and anime i reference from are the official english translations. while i know they’re likely not as accurate, it’s what i have to work from.

PLOTS: i will not be writing adultery, or sexual assault as i choose not to. i prefer to pre-plot battle scenes in advance. i am open to writing with just about any character/verse. if it’s from media i haven’t read/seen/played i will ask you for a wiki so i can read up a little and become familiar. i like to focus on interpersonal relationships, not just romantic but familial, friends, enemies and anything in between. i am accepting of all oc's as long as i can find your character's info on your blog easily - and i am open to ship with oc's too if there is chemistry between the characters.

SHIPPING: i am open to write relationships, whether it is lovers, friendship, enemies, relatives or found family. if you want to write a dynamic of any kind with me, drop me a DM! i usually ship romance by chemistry.

#pinned post #mun : ammonia they/them 30+#formerly @staggerbackwards #est. 03/23

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nateriverswife · 1 year

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L wouldn’t have worked with Light if he had caught him.

This is from a while back, and it was a reblog from someone saying that L would’ve put Light in prison, but still let him work with him or the task force.

I want to take my opinion and expand it, since I’ve seen it is a common belief among a group of people, who shall not be named lmao.

Anyway, I am doing this also because I posted it when I had no mutuals, so yeah.

The main argument is that L likes to collect prisoners as if they were yu-gi-oh cards, and I don’t know how true that can be, because we only see two criminals who actually work for him, but let’s say he does this to some extent.

He still seems to choose people that didn’t commit extreme crimes. There is a difference between a burglar (Wendy) and con-man (Aiber) and someone who commits a genocide. I think he draws the line to people who killed others when it comes to working with them, otherwise, why would he be a detective?

The only time he uses a murderer in his favour is when makes Light kill Lind L. Tailor.

Besides, L has promised multiple time, even in Light’s presence, that he’s going to catch Kira and bring his head to the task force. He has never thought once that Kira could be on his side (obviously), so why would he want him?

Was he lying and was he always planning to get Light (after catching him) on his team? Not really.

Sorry to say this, but L has no need of Light.

He can easily solve ordinary cases that do not involve the supernatural. The Kira case was one in a million, and, after catching him and knowing more about the Death Note (true trustable information from Ryuk possibly, because he should be impartial, unlike Rem), it would be relatively easy for him to understand what’s going on, if another Kira were to return.

I do believe he stopped needing Light’s intelligence once he found out about the notebook and its power, since itself alone explained most of what Kira did.

Did he value Light’s intelligence? Yes, but that’s it. It is confirmed that L lied about being friends (which I plan to write a post about), and generally he had a negative opinion on him.

Moreover, L and Light with Kira’s conscience could never work together. Don’t tell me Light wouldn’t hold a grudge. He killed a man just because he was called evil. Being caught, sentenced, and afterwards starting to work for L would heavily hurt his ego.

If L had caught Light, he would’ve firstly made sure that Light confessed that he consciously killed people, so that if he forgot his Kira identity again, he couldn’t act as if he was possessed by an unknown power.

He then would've simply let the Japanese authorities deal with him, if Ryuk hadn't killed him already, because let me remind you, they made a deal.

I think Ryuk would've waited after Light confessed to kill him, because he would've found hilarious seeing Light realize that has no way out and could try cooperating as not to get the capital punishment (we are in Japan), by playing down his role and accusing the Shinigami of manipulating him.

I don’t believe L would've cared that much if Light got killed, because that’s what he deserves at the of the day, according to the Japanese laws, and trying to convince them to keep him alive would've only hurt his image, and they were not friends.

How many people L caught ended up on the death row? Probably a bunch and probably some of them for minor crimes than what Light did, and L didn’t save any of them, so why would he do it for Light? Because they spent a little more time together? They played tennis and deceit each other for a year? That was all done to get proof.

L wouldn’t have even gotten near Light if he hadn’t had to. If Kira hadn’t needed a face to kill people, L wouldn’t have showed himself to prove that the task force could trust him.

Also, Light killed innocent people, and L seemed pretty pissed when those 12 FBI agents and Ukita died, so are we going to pretend the world’s greatest detective is going to forgive him that easily?

Returning to Light’s intelligence/knowledge… Near and Mello do exist. Shocking, I know?

After catching him (Ryuk didn’t kill him in this timeline), why would L have wasted time and resources to teach him, a 18 year old convicted criminal, who couldn’t even fully trust, how to be a detective when he already had two promising detectives he had already chosen to be his successors, who were (Mello more than Near) eager to be L and would have done everything to be him?

You could argue that Light is smarter than both, and you would be wrong.

In HTR13, Near and Light’s knowledge stat is the same, and Near, self-aware as always, said that he couldn’t surpass L, so, draw your conclusions.

I talked in another post about my theory as to why is like that.

That’s all.

#death note #l lawliet #light yagami #mello #mihael keehl #near #nate river #dn.l

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vmpiires · 3 months

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𝒊. 𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄 ﾉ 𝐀𝐆𝐄 ﾉ 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐎��𝐍𝐒

my name is dakota. i’m eighteen, my birthday is november 30th and i’m a girl so i use she/her pronouns.

𝒊𝒊. 𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐄 ﾉ 𝐁𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐄

i’m african american [black] and i was born and raised in brooklyn, ny.

𝒊𝒊𝒊. 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄𝐒 ﾉ 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄𝐒

my favorite colors are purple, black, red. i really like lemon and chocolate cake. chicken alfredo mad good too. i actually like reading..depends on what it is. obviously i like writing (wouldn’t be on this page if i didn’t). drawing, sleeping, nighttime, cherry blossoms, music ofc. i listen to all types of music (except for rock or country) art, cats, snakes, bunnies, my friends AND mutuals, and anything horror.

i hate bugs. like severely. especially spiders. pickles are disgusting. the sound of nails scratching a chalkboard…i cringe so bad omg. and the things i hate the most is being rushed and yelled at

𝒊𝒗. 𝐄𝐗𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐒

i’m going to college in september (dreading this so badly) i don’t really wanna go but i was forced to.

i’m more introverted than most. i like being by myself tbh. being out in public just not my style—but at the same time i love going to new places.

i actually used to be on wattpad writing but since that app is so dead, i deleted it. then i found out people actually wrote stories on here so i chose to do the same shit.

i’m learning japanese, i know chinese, and german. i know very little spanish because of my friend and my bf who grew up in a hispanic household.

i love jewelry. i have a bunch of necklaces and bracelets and i wear them all everyday. i also want more piercings. i already have both ears and my nose pierced. but other than that, it’s time for a tat

#𝐼𝑁𝑇𝑅𝑂 𝑃𝐴𝐺𝐸 導入 #pinned info #info post

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freemindedspirit · 9 months

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Lol I was the one who talked about meeting JK in one of the videos about tf of JK. May be I might not meet him at all. But it was not a one time experience or a dream or a sign I had. Still I am not sure.

I feel like I need to clarify my situation. I was in no way attracted to JK in the first place. Just like everyone else I adored him. The golden maknae. Yes sure I loved him but it was never an obsession. I never watched his lives or videos because sadly I don't have that much time. Now I have even more responsibilities.

Someone in ur ask said that people assume they are his tf just after one sign or something like that. Was it that way in my case? Let us see. I will tell you whatever I have experienced.

It started in 2013 with a stranger visiting me in my dreams, it was a young boy coming and hugging me. It felt very real. I was just lying on my bed tired and maybe I had gone to sleep but that hug felt very real. Then they started visiting me sporadically.

I still remember that dream I had in 2018. Where I was with this stranger I think. He was very rich. We were in a very big room. A chandelier was hanging in the bedroom. I was crying.

Fast forward to 2021. I was very much into watching daily vlog of Japanese housewives. I found them very calm and peaceful. I somehow got so into it that I used to watch them regularly.

Sorry for the long post but there is still more. Somehow that same year I happened to see a song of BTS and I liked it. At first I couldn't tell who is who but slowly I started learning their names and repeating it in my mind whenever they appeared in the screen.

But slowly I started having depressive thoughts. I was glad that I found BTS. They are helping so many people around the world. Wonderful humans. But sadly in my case I was put to even more darkness. Those were the dark days. I was even feeling suicidal. Seeing the support JK was getting made me sad. Of course he is the golden maknae. I should be ashamed of myself for feeling like that. That was the time when I restarted writing poetry. People who have read them say I am really talented. Someone even told me that my poems remind them of poems by pablo Neruda.

I somehow found about twin flames during that time. One night I asked the universe to pls show a sign if I had a twin flame and the very next day I was followed by an inter racial couple on Instagram with whom I had zero mutual friends. The guy was from Japan and the girl from Spain. 11:11 was written all over their profile.

And now about my depressing thoughts. I had no idea why I was having these dark thoughts. I should be happy. Sadly that was not the case. Then I started avoiding BTS altogether. Until I happened to watch the opening ceremony of 2022 FIFA World Cup. I was not watching the ceremony but when I heard JK's voice after so long I literally had goosebumps. I felt an electric sensation going through my body and I was like whoa what was that. And upon seeing him I was like oh it is him and thought nothing of it.

And roughly 6 months later this funny I would say weird thought occurred to me. What if he was my tf? I asked universe to show me a peacock if he was indeed my tf. A real peacock actually came to our house 2 days later. We have no peacocks in our area. This one just casually flew over our front yard above my head. I felt something huge flying over my head and it was a peacock. I was bombarded with signs after that. Someone said if we ask the universe for a sign then we will start looking for them or manifest them into reality. I was really tired of the signs I was getting so one night I just prayed and asked the universe to guide me in the right direction.

You would not believe what I dreamed that night. I was walking holding someone's hand on an old building. We were talking about the tiles in the building. Later we were attending the wedding of an old couple with an age difference. I saw the holy fire and then we were on the beach watching the night sky. It was night time. Everything felt so peaceful.. Then I dreamed of everyone talking about JK on Twitter and something starting with bul or blu I could not make out. I was actually clueless and then I opened Twitter to see if something like that actually happened. I don't actually use Twitter that much but since I had seen the dream I wanted to check. There was this news that the CEO of Bulgari had followed a fan account of Jungkook on Instagram since he no longer had an account on insta and everyone was talking about it on twitter. I only asked the universe to guide me in the right direction. I don't know what it is doing.

I forgot to talk about a dream i had way back in 2021. I was almost asleep. Suddenly someone came into my dream. I did not see his face but from the neck below. He was wearing a light sky blue hanboek and wearing a thin string around the waist. I asked him why he was not wearing the thick band around the waist because that was how I have seen in the photos. He did not reply to me but instead hugged me tightly and it looked like we were in several timelines. We were going in circles and circles. Everything was going very fast and then I woke up with a start. That hug felt very real.

I will share another dream I had recently. It was an intense dream. I was lying on my bed very tired and I felt someone over me. It was JK. I could see his hair in the dim light. I touched his hair. I felt blissful. Everything was feeling very real. As usual I woke up with a start. For a moment I could not tell if it was a dream or real. It felt very real. It actually took me 2 days to realize it was just a dream. The very next day I had that dream a friend of mine told me she had a dream of me with JK. Coincidence may be.

I will share one more weird thing I have been experiencing. Whenever he is on a flight I experience a weird ringing feeling in the ears.it is like air getting into my ears or I feel out of balance. I am in no way up to date about his travels etc but sure enough after I experience this I always find out that he was indeed travelling. It has happened four or five times now. Strange.

I am not here to establish that I have a connection with JK but these experiences are far too real to neglect.

Sorry for this really long post but I don't know why people feel attacked when someone is sharing their experience. If at all I see him in real life I will most likely run and hide. I am a simple woman with simple dreams. I never had craze over money or luxurious items. But why is this happening to me. I know how much racism there is in South Korea and I do not wish to be a prey of it.

Whatever I have written above is 100% the truth. It is not in my nature to lie. Anyone who knows me in real life knows how simple I am. How much I don't interfere in others life and that one friend who is always reliable.

I hope that my experiences did not make u angry because none of those were my wishes. It just happened.

Another positive change I have noticed around me is that people have started behaving more positively towards me. People who have hurt me in the past are getting some karma. I feel sorry for them. One even told me how unfair she was to me in the past. But she needed my support this time and so I said it is alright. I cannot hold a grudge sorry. How much ever u have hurt me in the past I will always do whatever I can at the drop of a hat. Maybe I am naive. I don't know.

I hope u have a great day or night wherever u r. I wish love and happiness and prosperity to everyone in this world. Stay happy and be kind. On an ending note, this is in no way to establish the fact that I am his twin flame. I am totally a newbie and maybe these are all just limerence. I don't even know how the twin flame relationship works.

Bye have a great day or night!!

Let's do this point by point.

A "good" sign would be considered as such if it answers certain criteria.

Is it precise, unique and not easily replicable ?

for example, if you ask to see white bird but your area is full of pigeons, you are more likely to see one, so it might not be a good idea to choose this as a sign.

Can it be caused by your own actions consciously or unconsciously ?

If you ask for 11:11 as a sign, you may be looking at the clock more, so you are more likely to see it. If you ask for something in your dreams, it might jut be your own brain bringing what you thought about all day in your night.

Did it feel like a sign ?

When it happened, did you feel anything ?Did it intuitively feel relevant ?Or did you only link it up after something else happened ?There is not necessarily a wrong answer here, but what you felt matters in making sense of something.

If unsure, think about checking with your guides directly, through divination or more signs.

Now, onto your experiences.

The first two dreams could literally apply to anyone, not just jungkook . It could be about a spiritual baby, two different people in your soul family, guides, or even completely unrelated reasons. As such, i'm a little iffy about considering them signs. Within the context of your life they may have made a lot more sense, but they are a little bit far from the target, because they are not precise.

The "meeting BTS in dark days" phenomenon is incredibly common.Most ARMYS experienced this.This only tell me you are what i call a "soul ARMY", which means that BTS helped you on you karmic or spiritual growth.

The interracial couple thing? Super iffy as well. Algorithms are very good at making links, and if you were already a BTS listener, it likely arranged you around Asian interracial dating, as it is a very common topic of interest for them. If the couple was some sort of influencers, they were likely searching for followers who would like their content, or worse they were a spam.

The goosebumps can be just a general reaction to good music.if you already felt goosebumps for other songs, it may not be relevant.It might be if you are not usually sensitive to music (but tbh, if you weren't at all i would say it's even a bigger sign you are not his tf).

The peacock thing so far is the only one i could list off as an actualy sign of anything.It is only one sign though.

The first part of the dream could again be anything. The second part seems genuinely premonitory, in which case good job for developing that skill !

The dream about the hanbok could once again, apply to literally a whole country population that is not JK.

The dream about JK is again a meh sign.It is very common for people to see BTS members in their dreams, and some of the members even havea history of dream hopping to go see ARMYs who are struggling, so it would be kinda hard to use this a tf sign. It just shows again you are a soul army.

The dream about the cycles could be anything from random to just a show that you have shared past lives with jk, which is again not that uncommon.

The ear thing is incredibly interesting though, and it is a kind of thing you could see in a telepathic soul bond, which includes but is not limited to twin flames.

This last part about your personality and behaviors, it only make you seem young. Only you know what is in your best interests, but please make sure you have boundaries in place.

Have a great day and night too! And please don't hesitate to reach again if you need more help.

#twin flame shit

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kickthecan-revolution · 2 years

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I took a 7 am flight to Seattle yesterday to watch my niece’s last home game. So many people were there to support her and I ended up talking to a woman who we had a number of mutual friends with. At one point she said “oh yeah I remember her, she never even got married’” as though it was weird, and I felt a shot of shame go through me. That crowd is so together and so filled with love and support and my sister and I felt like odd balls, further confirmed when my brother didn’t invite us over to the house with everyone afterwards, it really hurt our feelings. I had to fight my sadness at thinking he doesn’t really want us to be with his family in that moment, like we are the part of his family that is the weirder, sad part. It was pretty horrible but I’m still glad we went, and I was able to get on an earlier flight which was good. Writing about it now brings all of that up. There is a lot there I need to examine.

I had a dream that I was in a new home and the President of Retail was there, she was being really nice but horrified, I realized I didn’t have a top on and my big old boobs were waving around and I I didn’t have a shirt to cover up with. Part of me had this feeling like “this is just the way I am” and part of me was deeply ashamed that I had been walking around in front of her like that without realizing it, and I was horrified. I went into the kitchen to find something to wear but it was too late. When she left, I found a beautiful brand new pair of slippers with Ugg like features and I thought they were hers - I imagined her wearing them at home during the pandemic.

The dream changed to my larger team in a room and R my friend wandering around saying hi to everyone but sidling up to me last, like we had to keep our friendship a secret. There was a plate of Japanese cucumber pickle in front of us.

The last part was horrible. I was moving into a small room which was filthy. I was meeting someone there and felt like I couldn’t clean it up on time. Then I was across the table from a white woman with dark brown hair. She was asking me how I dealt with removing evil and I was explaining to her that sometimes it requires an exorcism, but sometimes it can be exorcised through therapy or different, less extreme ways. Like a continuum of options. Her face contorted as though part of her mouth couldn’t move, like a stroke victim, and I got frightened realizing she was evil.

Best part of yesterday was home to the kittens who decided to play wrestle for the first time since I moved here which was lovely.

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justwritedreams · 1 year

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maari maari maari!!!!!! i need an in-depth account of your grandparents' love story!!!!!!! 😍😍😍😍❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ how did they meet? was it love at first sight? 😆❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

This will be a long one, I guarantee it 🤣🤣🤣 I only know my parents' full story, but that's a conversation for another time. I will end up editing or adding other things later because I had to ask my mother and unfortunately she doesn't remember many things, she had a difficult childhood and her defense mechanism made her forget most things (also my grandparents wouldn't even talk to her about some details). So that's a conversation I'll have with my aunt, who lives in Japan, later.

My great-grandparents, on my grandfather's side, came from Japan fleeing the war as well as my grandmother's family, but they came from Italy. I'm pretty sure it was during the First World War, my grandfather was born here in Brazil and he was the youngest of 12 children. Well, at that time this was a good place for foreigners and they adapted very quickly to people who didn't speak the language and didn't even know the place. My mother believes that my grandmother worked as a maid at my grandfather's brother's wife's house (or it was next door) so they met through mutual friends. I believe it was love at first sight, I really need to confirm that part with my aunt or some relative of my grandfather, because as far as I know everything happened very quickly. I think it was customary at the time, you found someone interesting, fell in love and got married 🤣🤣 It was a different time than what we are used to today, so the Japanese family was very strict. At that time, my great-grandparents wanted their children to maintain the lineage, so marrying foreigners was out of the question. Although some of them did not follow this rule, because it was a new world, but what my mother says is that with my grandfather it was a little more difficult because my grandmother was older than him (nothing too exaggerated, I think it was just like 4 or 5 years). I really don't blame them because my grandfather was a great catch and my grandmother was a very elegant woman (I only have one picture of her younger and she was beautiful!). So my grandfather faced his family and married my grandmother. Of course, this angered the family, and my grandparents were forced to live as far away from them as possible. My mother says they lived with the little they had and they were very happy for a while, my grandparents had 4 children (unfortunately one of my mother's sisters did not survive many years) but my aunt and uncle are here to tell me the details I do not know. She and her siblings didn't have much contact with the Japanese family for a while, she always noticed the angry looks from her grandmother to my grandmother, which ended up creating a revolt between the three who were extremely devoted to my grandmother. Unfortunately, a few years later my grandparents ended up becoming alcoholics. I really wish it had been a happy ending story because all my mother says about my grandmother was that she was an extremely good person, and I think she deserved to have a good ending. My grandmother passed away a few years later and that was the turning point. My mother and her siblings had their lives, my mother built her own family, and my grandfather remarried later, but I always got the impression that he still missed my grandmother even after so many years. He never told me anything, of course, I was too young to understand. And after several years later he passed away. So if I could summarize their story it would be like taylor swift's song what a sad beautiful tragic love affair. I wanted to know more details because I've been very curious too, since I was little, but this was a "forbidden" subject until a while ago. I always knew only fragments of this story and because in a way we lived situations that reminded me of my grandparents' past so my mother commented, but she never felt confident enough to talk about it openly when I was younger. I think now, as I show more curiosity, she doesn't want to keep it a secret so she shares what little she knows. I'm sorry I said it would be long 🤣🤣🤣 but the most interesting thing is that I always really wanted to write a book about my grandparents', something similar like the book Kurt Seyit & Shura (a great one by the way), but i still need to know many details!

#I think now you understand why I love a forbidden love drama #when it doesn't happen to me obviously because it's horrible #my Mona Lisa 🖼️#maari's mutuals ♾️

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yousta · 7 months

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Hi, you can call me Yume Yousta, or Jacob.

A little about me

I'm a 23-year-old warehouse worker residing in Indianapolis. I have aspirations in school, music, body improvement, and love.

Themes and things you'll see on this blog may include :

Obsessive/overprotective soft yandere/lovesick one-shots, and monologues. Poems and lyrics. Song recommendations. Personal vents, and rants, and ironic self-deprecating commentary.

Disclaimer: these scenes in no way depict real-life scenarios. Nor is it an endorsement of any extreme or violent behavior. All content here is made for people struggling to find love in this sick twisted world.

You've been through enough. Come in, I promise you're safe here.

Intro

Most of these expressions are just me speaking my love into the world. They aren't necessarily made for any one person in particular, (Mumbles) Well, maybe they are, just for you.

Yume as in if you put you and me together ❤️ (it's not supposed to be Japanese (even though I am a weeb)) Yousta is slang for Youster. A word passed down from my lineage of divine beings. It roughly translates to a very empathic and caring person.

So a little more about me..

I'm kind of all over the place, bouncing off the walls all disorganized. I apologize if it's hard to follow but I'll try my best.

Love

Taken to @your-thorn ❤️

School

I'm going to school for IT to hopefully get into some form of cybersecurity. Once I've made some money for myself, I'd like to go back and become a physical therapist or chiropractor. Mainly due to my interest in biomechanics and anatomy.

Hobbies

Music

I love love love music. I'd probably also consider being an audio engineer or some sort of performing musician as a career. It's my favorite pastime. I like to study and compose, as well as listen. I've been pretty into making digital music as of late, but I still play my keyboard and guitar.

Body improvement

I grew up with a wannabe bodybuilder brother. Lol which when I was younger, inspired me to get into the boxing gym. I'm not going to make it seem like I am or want to become something physically extraordinary like my brother, but I'm pretty fit as a result of growing up with him. I used to box but I got worried about my hands and brain. Now I just hit the gym.

Poetry and writing

I was never formally taught to write anything. If you have any tips, please

The dream

I just want a better life. For me, and my family. What's all this planning for? No short of world domination. Call me greedy because I do want it all. A mansion with my future darling, and our Yandere friends/family. It'd be so uptight. Everyone with laser focus and mutual respect. I've found so much light in being here, I really couldn't imagine living without you guys in my feed every day. So many of you I genuinely love from the bottom of my heart. It's what makes me happy, just seeing true love in the world.

Outro

Please be aware, that I've struggled with loneliness and even isolation throughout my life. This will affect how I interact so please verbalize any discomfort.

My mbti is ENFP-T

DNI list: anyone racist, transphobic, pedophiles, xenophobic, or anything mean cause it's only wholesome, soft, gentle, and nice vibes here 🥺🤚 oh and please don't DM unless 18+

Enjoy your stay, love you so much

#lovesick #actually obsessive #actually yandere #yandere vent #yandere coping #yandere irl #irl yandere #yandere girl #yandere boy #obsessive #soft yandere

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amazing-spiderling · 2 years

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This has been itching at me but how do you think Murderdock would display affection in any capacity?

Oh, anon. Are you ready to join me on a voyage of soul searching and navel gazing? Because that's where you have sent me with this seemingly simple question.

For starters, we are venturing into the territory of personal headcanons and subjective judgements, simply because we don't see this character in a purely romantic or even sentimental exchange. But I assume that's why you asked this question in the first place. I have spent a lot of time (too much, probably) dissecting the few heavily loaded lines of dialogue and context clues, as well as using what we know of Matt's relationships in the garden variety universes.

But I think the main answer to this question lies in examining the significant relationships he does have with other people.

First off, Cindy Moon:

Now you may be saying to yourself, "This looks like a romantic relationship to me, case closed!" but A. I don't think that it is and 2. You asked how Murderdock would show affection, and I don't think that's what we're witnessing here. Though at the time, it's easy enough for the reader to think this is some kind of serious romance, Murdock later tells Gwen that he essentially has an arrangement with Cindy Moon. Since SILK represents the only major rival to the Hand's endeavors in the West, he's found it advantageous to "keep his enemies closer". Even this visit isn't a social call, he's come specifically to ask Cindy for more isotopes to help fuel Gwen's powers.

Everything about this scene, his dramatic entrance, flippant dialogue, overbearing cologne is classic Murderdock. He's showboating, putting on a performance for an audience, in this case, Cindy. His demeanor around her is no different than what the rest of the world sees. I wouldn't go so far as to say he feels nothing for Cindy, but I don't know that I'd call it affection.

So let's move on to someone who gets an inside view...

Otomo:

"Otomo" is literally "companion" in Japanese. Whether this is the man's name or simply his job title, we never learn, but suffice to say he has filled this role for Murdock for long enough that they have a unique rapport. Otomo is allowed to speak candidly around Murdock, even when it's bad or disappointing news. He is someone that Matt trusts on some level, at least enough to let him closer than most other people, and part of that probably has to do with the fact that Otomo very likely already knows a great deal about Matt's past, at least from the point that he joined the Hand. Even if Otomo doesn't understand Matt's motivations, he does understand his motus operandi. Otomo likely doesn't know why Matt has an interest in Spider-Woman, he almost certainly doesn't know about Matt's suicidal thoughts, but he is also content not questioning anything his master does. This puts him somewhere between an employee and a friend, but I wouldn't say Otomo gets to see Matt's true face either, despite their history.

Speaking of history...

DA Nelson:

My personal favorite relationship in this universe (and let's face it, all of them, when it comes to Matt Murdock) is the one between Matt and Foggy, even though it's been twisted into something toxic and yet shockingly recognizable. Just as they were in 616, Matt and Foggy were roommates in law school, and it seems their association has continued in some form since then. Now that Foggy is District Attorney, Matt seems to have no qualms about asking for "mutually beneficial" favors, which clearly seem to come at great expense to Foggy, if only because Foggy actually gives a damn about what other people think.

I chose this panel because of one line that I have spent so much time thinking about: "Just like always... I'm trying to give you what you want, Matt." This tells us that Matt has a long history of putting pressure on Foggy, and Foggy has gone out of his way to deliver whatever it is Matt wants from him. To me, that means that Foggy has proven to be a reliable asset time and time again. That may not speak to a romantic relationship in the present, but I do think it's the sort of thing that could spawn "fond" feelings in the charcoal briquet of Murderdock's heart, although perhaps more akin to what someone feels for a well trained pet.

The interesting thing about this dynamic as we see it in the comic is that, as always, Matt doesn't actually hide his intentions from Foggy. He is very casual in the way he approaches him and speaks plainly about the rules he wants Foggy to bend. Matt shows his fangs to Foggy, but it is Foggy who makes the mistake of thinking he won't bite. Foggy trusts Matt far too much, but because of that Matt knows he's on a short leash, unlikely to wander. Of course, things change once Matt meets...

Gwen Stacy:

Now you might be sitting here and going, what, what WHAt? This is a question about affection and Gwen and Murderock are enemies. Where are you headed with this, you coco crazy pants? But hear me out on this one-

Gwen thinks Murderdock is the villain, her villain, and certainly, we the readers do as well. But Matt? Gwen is his special interest. He's not opposed to what Gwen does or who she is. Unlike Spider-Man and his villains, Gwen didn't wrong Matt in the past or steal his research or destroy his criminal empire. Matt isn't out for revenge, he doesn't want to kill Gwen. All he wants is to prove that they are, on a fundamental level, the same.

In this universe, Matt plays a role not unlike the one Mephisto plays in 616 when it comes to Spider-Man. The "basically the devil" has an obsession with corrupting Spider-Man because we can't have nice things, don't ask me. Similarly, Matt wants to break Gwen, but only by giving her so much power that she has no choice but to be corrupted by it, as he felt he was by his.

How does he plan to accomplish this? By worming his way into her life, devising scenarios that put Gwen in increasingly desperate situations and watching her squirm. He continues to up the stakes, calling in favors, giving his enemies valuable tools to manipulate them into their places on his chess board, all to force Gwen's hand and bring about his downfall. Speaking of hands, what the hell does the Hand even do in New York? I have no idea, and neither do you, because Matt sure as hell isn't minding his business, because he's obsessed with Gwen.

So! What does this mean when it comes to the answer of your question, oh so patient and gracious anon?

First of all, I don't think there's any chance that Murderdock is going to show affection (platonic or romantic) in a "normal" way. No bouquets of roses, no fancy dinners, no calls to hang out, no hugs. Part of this is because openly showing his genuine emotions is just not how Matt works. He is at his core a performer, and he is almost always "on". Those few rare moments that his true self shows through would be considered vulnerabilities to Matt, and it's hard to know how he might get to a point where he is willing to show them to another person. (One he wasn't about to kill, anyway.)

I also think we have to consider that like most Matt Murdocks, Matt-65 has experienced a great deal of loss. His mother, father, even Stick. but as opposed to Matt of 616 or the Netflix series, this loss isn't characterized by abandonment. His mother didn't choose to leave him. Stick didn't consider him an unworthy pupil. They didn't leave, they were taken. That means this is not a Matt who is concerned with the feeling that he wasn't enough to make people stay, he is concerned with the idea that if he does care about someone, outside forces could take them away from him. And if he did come to care for someone, that would need to be prevented.

I think, if Matt did feel affection for someone, it would be a hell of a long time before that person knew it, because whatever he did wouldn't include many of the typical signs. Maybe it involves secretly scrutinizing the people they interact with, or vetting and disposing of professional contacts, all without the person of his attention being any the wiser.

This might evolve into Matt just... being there. As we've seen with all of these examples, Matt is interacting with each of these people because he wants something from them, whether it's service or personal satisfaction. If Matt started hanging around someone with no ulterior motive, then I think that would be very telling. (I am reminded of cats who just show up at random houses and decide their residents are suitable hosts and end up living there.)

I don't think gifts would be material, because he is not shown to be a particularly materialistic person. (His penthouse is basically empty, he wears basic suits until he starts fashioning himself into a caricature of a villain for Gwen.) I think they would be gifts of service that he would absolutely not mention, though he would relish when the other person discovered them (though they likely wouldn't know how they came to be.) Imagine something like someone lamenting that their favorite band was on tour, but the dates in their city weren't going to work out for them, only to find out a week later that the band caught ill and had to reschedule some shows, which now worked out very well for them. How lucky! (How orchestrated, more like.)

I think we might even consider a bit of arrested development in this area, because while Matt is incredibly adept at playing a part and showing exactly the face he wants to to the world, he is woefully inexperienced at expressing genuine emotions. I think it's safe to say he'd make a bit of a mess of things at first before the recipient of his emotions was able to make sense of it all.

#murderdock #matt murdock #earth-65 #earth-65 meta #murderdock meta #spider-gwen #foggy nelson #otomo #cindy moon #thanks for the ask #this got super long but that's how i roll i guess #i hope you guys like long meta posts at 4 am please say yes #long post #hey guys watch how hard i can infodump about this thing i like

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Hello, I saw that pairings were open. If so, is it ok if I can request a pair? I thank you kindly.

I identify as non-binary (AFAB) with they/them pronouns, I stand 5'1 ft /154.9 cm, and I'm mixed. I have black hair and an undercut, a few ear piercings and a nose piercing, but unfortunately no tattoos. My wardrobe is all black but I mainly wear a black tee, black cargo pants, my sneakers, and a barbwire necklace with some rings.

Based on how others describe my personality I'm seen as introverted, stoic, shy, timid, funny, kind, neurodivergent, and emotionless. I have emotions, I don't usually feel them a lot but I don't show it once I do feel it. For the timid and shy part, people often underestimate me and think I won't do anything about it. I usually ignore if it isn't a big deal but I'm not afraid to put my foot down if I need to. I do have anxiety so I feel like that's where my shyness comes from.

As for my hobbies, I tend to learn languages (Japanese, ASL, Spanish, and Italian), play video games, walk/skate around, and sleep. I don't like touches since it does stress me out, but when I become closer to someone, I may surprise them with a hug or seek cuddles. Oh, and I bite a candy bar without breaking the pieces..

Simon "Ghost" Riley

How you met: Civilian You had met Simon through a mutual friend who knew about your plans to get a tattoo. Since it was your first one, you gave Simon many texts asking him about the process. Your friend had warned you of his dry conversations which might come off as insensitive but to your surprise he was helpful with all of your worries and anxieties. You sent him a list of questions frequently ranging from the pain level to how clean the actual parlor was. Despite the constant buzz of his phone, Simon happily answered with either his own experience or with pictures and links that would be helpful to you. He even complimented your choice in design, your favorite phrase as said in the languages you were somewhat fluent in (Japanese, Spanish, Italian, and even ASL). When the day of the tattoo finally came, you woke up in the morning with a few texts from Simon reminding you to eat a good breakfast and stay hydrated. He even asked to see a final picture. When you entered the parlor and met with his recommended tattoo artist, you were still nervous but a little less so thanks to Simon. After a surprisingly short session, you proudly looked at your new piece of work in the shop's mirror. Of course, your first text was to Simon who loved the image and replied asking about your experience.

After a few months, you found yourself at the same mutual friend's party and you finally were able to meet Simon in person. After apologizing for the amount of questions you had, you proudly showed him your new tattoo. You held up your arm proudly to the tall man and he was quiet for a moment before saying, "looks absolutely gorgeous."

A peek into your relationship: "Want to see something cool?" you asked as your boyfriend sat next to you confused. "You're not going to start skating around the flat again, right?" he asked remembering when you tried to do an ollie on his wooden floor. "No but it is a cool party trick," you said as you leaned and grabbed a candy bar off the table. You held it up to him and bit down, proudly showing you had no broken the pieces. He looked at you unimpressed as he let out a small laugh. "That's it?" he sarcastically asked as you rolled your eyes. You scoffed before replying. "You try it!" you said and handed him the same bar, now missing one piece. You watched as he tried to replicate your actions but the candy bar broke into three different pieces the minute he bit into it. "Told you," you joked and he picked up the pieces littering the couch. Ever since you told him of your fun trick, Simon always makes it a point to let you try a handful of different chocolates. To this day (and to his surprise), he has never seen you break it into thousands of pieces and you still give him a shit-eating grin every time.

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van-skmugen · 1 year

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On Ainosuke's birthday last year, bones released an illustration featuring him as ADAM with Reki and Langa that you can see here on Twitter. What I write below is what I thought when I see illustration and I wrote on my twitter but with more text because here I'm allowed. Feel free to read and add your own thoughts. I would love to know more points of view.

Disclaimer: English isn't my first language so if something sounds rouge that's why, I'm still learning to improve it.

It's interesting how Adam show such a carefree attitude leaving his right side "unprotected" towards Reki with his arm raised, while with Langa his body attitude is more of self-protection, if that's the right way to put it?

I mean, he has his arm clutching his heart and the spike of his shoulder protector and arm protector directed towards Langa. Could it be because he doesn't find Reki as a threat? I don't know, it's something that caught my attention as soon as I saw the illustration. I also find it interesting how on top of the shoulder protector is a heart, seeming an allegory to her aunts' teaching about how love is shown "hidden" through violence. (In other words, the protectors end in horns and are shown sharpened according to how they can do damage.)

Besides I find it curious that while Langa shows a calm attitude (asleep) when he has a "spike" directed at him, Reki shows an uneasy attitude when Adam literally has his arm raised, leaving his side unprotected. But it's also interesting how Langa is asleep hugging a heart (love) and ADAM in Japanese is 愛抱夢 (愛=love 抱=to hold in one's arms and 夢=dream) which could be interpreted (or personally I interpret it) in one hand as Langa being in one way or another the personification of ADAM, or as Kojiro once said, Langa could be like ADAM or even worse if he didn't have the support he currently has. Or on the other hand it can also be interpreted as what happened in episode 12, Langa was the one who showed him again how much fun it's to skateboard with his friends, making his heart again open by seeing things from another perspective (regardless of all the healing work he should do for himself to feel loved again by those around him).

I may be overlooking, but I always find it curious how they show body language.

It's something I found curious, apart from always being with people who aren't Tadashi like ADAM and not like Ainosuke (Excluding DK ADAM with Cherry and Joe as we can see when he go to United States, that they should get to know him more deeply during that time (I mean time before when he show his face and said them: お前らは特別だからな [Because you guys... are special.]). In episode 12 Ainosuke is very closed in himself because of everything that happened to him from the past to the present with Tadashi, so it took Langa much more to make him "open his shell" and show his true face during the end of the beef against him, that his a silly boy and skateboard lover who has fun skateboarding with friends, but who refused to do it again because of Tadashi's betrayal. And anyway later during the party for Langa, is shown again as ADAM and not as Ainosuke, so for the moment he has only been shown in front of all the official material as Ainosuke, with Tadashi and in the past with Kaoru and Kojiro (not counting the poster in which Kaoru, Kojiro, Ainosuke and Tadashi meet but in which they don't interact with each other and with Miya, who doesn't interact directly either, but through a written message so it isn't certain that he sent it as Ainosuke but as ADAM, or at least as it has been officially shown.).

I love to do this kind of things, so if you're interested don't hesitate to follow me we can be mutuals, I talk a lot about SK8 and sometimes I upload drawings of them.

#ainosuke shindo #sk8 adam #sk8 the infinity ramblings #ramblings #sk8 the infinity analysis #analysis #or an attempt thereof #van-skmugen

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