#FUCK BC TODAY AND EVERYDAY

[writingonleaves]

PLAY HEY BABY!!!

thank god we didn't lose against BC three times in less than two weeks lol

#that was anxiety inducing thank fuck oh my god #FUCK BC TODAY AND EVERYDAY #(i do like some of them but will absolutely not be supporting them while they're eagles) #onto the beanpot final next week lets gooooo #(im scared northeastern always gives us a hard time) #well aware that this is a very niche liveblog #and no one cares about beanpot unless you live in boston / went to school there #we really do treat this goofy ass trophy like the national championship lmfao #college hockey #college hockey lb #boston university terriers

[qrichas]

thinking abt the happy pills arc again but mostly importantly at how many references of brazilian history was there during forevers lives specially the music... like the clothes ccforever was using the video of rio in the 50s the references to vargas era and bossa nova. i saw an artist making an animatic of him using "construção" by chico buarque which is one of my fav songs from the anti ditactorship era along with "panis et circenses" and my brain got rewired as well. gosh it was soooooo so good and so well done you can even make a video essay about it ccforever rlly poped off with that i never felt so hyped with an arc bc im an history nerd AND seeing brazilian history implemented on a multilingual server was just *chefs kiss*

#qsmp #sorry i was watching a video abt the tropicalia and bossa nova movement and i was like “man... revisited these recently bc of forever....” #and i just started missing this arc #i mean im always missing it everyday but today it got me even more #i rlly want someone whos smarter than me to write an essay abt this so people can fully understand the scope of how fucking cool was that #EVEN HIS HAPPY GO LUCKY PERSONALITY HAS PARALLELS WITH THINGS FROM THE DITACTORISHIP ERA ALL THESE REFERENCES COMES FROM. ITS SO SMART #AAAAAAAAAAA #me.txt

[frecklystars]

god im so excited for the Barbie movie today. I might be a bit tense while seeing my triggers on screen but honestly I’ve been doing so so so well handling my ptsd the last few weeks and I'm very proud of myself!!!!!

there’s a few triggers I’ve been actively working on reclaiming and I KNOW I’m going to be okay watching the movie bc I am not letting anybody take this from me. I know I’m gonna wanna see it more than once. I even bought myself a cute pink skirt for it ;w;

#I’m gonna wear pink glitter in my hair too for opening night #woof #like i know im gonna be rly tense but i have been doing SO much better than i was just a month ago #if anything ill just be incredibly tense at first. but i genuinely think ill relax more as the movie progresses #bc ive been using grounding techniques for months and ive been working so goddamn hard to reclaim pink #WHICH IS SUCH HUGE PROGRESS FOR ME to think back to january when i couldnt look at pink at ALL #and i think seeing pink literally every single second for 2 hours straight in the barbie movie #is gonna also help my brain be like 'oh hey everything is fine' help it to become desensitized #bc ive been doing exposure therapy and im doing so much better than i was even just one month ago!!!!!!! #barbie is my girlfriend. and ken is my boyfriend. and i have two hands they can hold #god!!! you know how many barbies im gonna kiss!!!!! SO MANY #this is MY movie i have been so fucking excited to see!! its my number one favorite thing ive been looking forward to!!!! #i have wanted to see this! so! fucking! badly! and fuck anybody who tried to ruin that for me #i dont want ptsd to control my life #i feel like im riding a bull and gripping it by the horns while its trying to kick me off while im yelling Not Today Bitch #thats what trying to reclaim triggers feels like #but i can fucking feel it working i can feel myself getting better with some of these triggers i cant believe it #and i think just a year from now most of these triggers wont be severe anymore #which is my goal. i dont even need them to be cured completely i just want to function normally #cannot tell u how fucking unreal it is to have so many triggers that are like. normal everyday stuff #colors. clothes. phrases. transformers. im taking ALL of that shit back #STARTING WITH PINK ONE OF MY FAVORITE GODDAMN COLORS 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 #THE EMOJI LOOKS RED ON DESKTOP BUT THAT IS OKAY.

[fluffypotatey]

any tips and tricks for getting into the writing zone?

ok so i have 2 methods and they depend on what i'm writing on: story writing and essay writing (waring: this is a mini-ramble)

with essay writing,

get mad, get super fucking mad, write that shit with spite flowing in your veins. even when i'm writing essays and stories i enjoy, i drag my feet.

i whine and complain like a toddler in my head because despite this topic being one i enjoy, putting my excited tones and rambling into coherent words always tends to feel like i'm butchering that (which is why academic papers should simply let me swear in them and use the 1st pov bc it is sO easy and my thoughts flow a lot better but noooOOOOoooooOOOOOooooo, i have to be formal and proper and-)

also, outlining. fucking godsend with essays. it's why a lot of my longer essays have headings bc i use them to outline and keep my thought on one line of thought bc i have a rambling issue (which is then easily solved with parentheses, my beloved)

with story writing (notice how this is basically a heading? good job! you've found my mini outline for this reply! have a cookie 🍪)

i find that jotting down that scene that is nagging at your brain immediately is super helpful. and do it even if you're now writing out of order. pro-tip: writing out of order is THE best, endorphins be going crazy bc you're actually not fighting with your brain with the story but writing alongside your brain-map.

personally, i find it very difficult outlining a story (how contrary) because sometimes my mind changes ideas or switches the order of scenes, and it is exhausting trying to keep up with all of that in your outline. but i guess, my "outline" with stories is simply me jotting down a very quick summary of the plot that invaded my mind in one document, never touching it again, but staying true to it because i wrote it down. therefore, it exists no longer in the recesses of mind but it a physical statement/promise to complete.

also (this advice goes for both story and essays) it is ok to take a break, step back, and not look at your writing for some hours, days, weeks, months, years--fucking whenever.

my midterm essay? a fucking nightmare. loved the topic, would write something similar about it for fun, but the reason it took me so long to complete (and why i dragged my feet) was because of the "short" timeline i had to complete it. i felt like i was on a time crunch and that led to me procrastinating, stressing over it, and taking my grand old time researching for it. however, when i was able to work on it? i allowed myself to simply do as much as i could. if i was unable to look at that stupid document, i didn't look at it. if my mind had a really good thought or example for the topic rotating in my head? immediate sit down and get that thought onto the paper. it must exist.

i have fics sitting in my folders that have been unfinished in so long, but i still consider them as wips because (and here’s another subpart-advice) i tend to work on them when i am unable to touch my current work. to be frank, working on something else helps keep you in the writing zone even if you cannot stand to look at the blank/unfinished work you wanted to complete originally. when i was incapable of writing for the Monkie Destiny Challenge, i switched to working on writing and editing my teen wolf fic (a fic i had not looked at since July) because while i still had that itch to write, something was blocking me from completing the prompts. and when i switched fics, getting into the zone was a lot easier.

so, to recap:

when jumpstarting the writing zone for writing an essay, you get passionate (can be read as mad/spiteful), and outline your thought process of the essay with headings to keep the writing flow flowing (the headings do not need to stay in the final product but they are good to have in the draft) .

when jumpstarting story writing, write! that! shit! down!!!! chronological order doesn't mean shit when you're in the planning/writing phase. your readers don't have to know that you wrote/planned a character's death before writing/planning out the beginning. they just read it in the order you publish it in!

to keep the writing zone stable and in working condition, TAKE THOSE BREAKS BOO! who cares about your personal deadlines???? if you feel exhausted before opening up a doc, then take that break, babygirl. again, your reader(s) will not need to know (nor do they need to know) how long it took you to get your writing piece done. hell, if you still feel the itch to write but the thing you wanna do is not working, then work on something else you haven't touched in a while because that itch WILL get its scratch somewhere, so help me god.

so yeah, i hope this was helpful, anon (and coherent jfc there better not be a plethora of typos T^T). happy writing, and may your weekend be a healthy dose of eventful!

#you know #this answer was supposed to be short #i was gonna simply say 'get mad. let the spite flow through you' as like a funny #but then i was like 'no. anon deserves an honest answer bc writing is hard and a fucking trial which i struggled/still struggle with.' #so now you have a long (rambly) answer that i do hope is helpful #another miscellanious tip: playing music/white noise can be great in helping just have something to block out your negative selftalk #or go to your public library (or local cafe if library is closed like mine today) #and simply put on your headphones to have that same white noise muffle feel #me? i personally play nature sounds with some kind of background music (rainfall is me fav tho) and have that on the lowest sound setting #whilst in a library; however currently i have been listening to Mexican Cat audio as my white noise and it has been the best #no bad thoughts #only brainworms #also: a friend of mine once told me that i should treat my school essays like the metas i write for fun and i have never been the same #i write metas because when i notice cool stuff in media i have to shout it out to the world #my thoughts on the intricacies behind my blorbos' motivations and turmoil AND the authors' intend MUST be heard goddammit or i will go mad #i thank that friend almost everyday for that. changed my worldview on writing #asks #writing advice #an essay #now to outline my final paper #anonymous

[nomaishuttle]

watched secret world of arrietty potentially my new favorite ghibli movie... not potentially i think it legit is

#i watched fourr movies today 2 ive seen b4 and 2 new ones... arrietty was one of da new ones #the other new one was orlando pretty good i liked how likee. artsy it was... it was very cool basically i liked it and i rly loved the #costuming #i do wish it had subtitles on site i use tho bc i had a hard time understanding.. not da movies fault bc i have a hard time comprehending #dialogue in a Lot of older movies.. but i liked it :]] #but anyways yes. one thing abt me i was obsesseddd with borrowers as a kid it was part of my fairy obsession. i was sososososooso hopelessl #delighted by the concept of tiny people who live secretly and their houses and furniture are all fashioned out of #everyday human objects it made me fucking craaazy #me and my siblings favorite activity used to be building fairy houses... we even had one playground we loved specifically #bc it had a bunch of trees with little hollowed out areas under the roots which made the best fairy houses... #we had umm. for a while this is fun my mom had this likee. sheet she made that was like.. a grading sheet for playgrounds #so everytime we went to a playground wed check the little boxes for each thing on the list it had... like we had Curly slide swingset seesa #etc... and then wed also write in anything that wasnt on the sheet that we loved #and we wrote in Great for fairy houses for a lot of them.... it was rly rly rly fun i honestly think that might be part of where my love of #spreadsheets came from.. one thing abtme i looooove to categorize things by a set metric. so yes #basically :DDD I LOVE FAIRIES I LOVE BORROWERS!!! i rly rly rly wanna get into building those little miniature houses. dollhouses whyd i sa #minihouses LOL. i was thinking of likee studson studios type thang i forget what theyre called #ik they make little kits for it so id start with that but eventually id love 2 start just making my own... #i also used to watch those like. miniature cooking videos. they were my cocomelon i would literally watch them boil a droplet of water and #Lose my fucking mind KJASBDKUBSJ #or when they put the little miniature cake in their little miniature oven... i specifically am remembering the pancakes #I NEED 2 FIND THOSE AGAIN. I MISS THEM!!!!!

[bibleofficial]

trying to be a green juice girly soooo hard but

this shit SUCKS 😭😭😭

#stream #food #ALSKALSKLAKSLAKSLAKSLAKSLA #i know i could use almond milk but i don’t want the added sugar bc it’s the Mistaken Sweetened Almond Milk #i like the UNSWEET ONE 😭😭 #it’s TOOO SWEET #if my almond milk doesn’t taste like cardboard it’s not my almond milk #but also there’s lemon juice in here so it’s curdle ALSKALKSALKSLAKSLAKSLALS #today it’s the theee berry raspberry blueberry strawberry frozen mix & baby spinach & lemon juice & flax seed #yesterday it was carrot #instead of the berries #ALSKALKSLAKSALS BUT IT DOESNT HELP #but also my asshole is in sooooooo much PAIN ALSKALSKALKSLAKSLAKSL #girl i went to bed last night & was like my colon has never felt so empty #ALSKALAKALSKALKSLAKSLAKALASLAKSLA THE FIBRE OH MY GOD #I BE SHITTING !!!!!!!!! #CONSTANTLY !!!!!!!!!!!!! #ok but also if ur wondering i use a nutribullet that i got on a cyber thursday or whatever the fuck it is the SALE in NOVEMBER ONLINE for #half price + free shipping so pog it was like 50$ & i’ve used it literally like everyday ALSKALSKALALALSKALKSLA #that’s my juice #& it’s …. #it #anyway #i’ve been on the verge of tears for like 2 weeks

[sainz]

lets talk about how much it sucks when your best friends move to another city

#i mesn she’s been living in madrid for this past two years but still :((((( i miss her #it was her bday yesterday and she said to me that she hates so much to maintain distant relationships 💔 #and she felt so disconnected from us …that really hurt :( #the other one moved to sweden which is even worsE and she was the one who was always talking about making plans #then the ones who stayed here they are just so busy with life or making plans with workmates etcetc #and im like…okay but i want to see YOU😭 #also lets talk about how shit being an introvert is #idk if im an introvert but im def shy af and i have turned down so many thingssss bc of being afraid of what will happen #or what people would say about this #im so prudent and like im always afraid to face things that dont turn the way i wanted or like new things #and im always saying this to besties #IF I HAD THE GUTS i would have already moved to another country to experience new things #id love to stay in UK for a while #also italy!!! #and meet new people!!! go to parties!!! visit lots of cities!!! summer etc #yet here i am in my bed 🤝 in my city 🤝 and everyday with the same fucking routine #it kinda hurts #this is my anxiety talking cause lots of my kids had a tantrum today and i couldn’t do anything about it #imma take a nap

[bunnyb34r]

And I slept for like 17 hours and I'm still so so soooo exhausted man

#i dont think it's too much sleep causing it honestly i usually sleep this much on my days off #i think it's stress based fatigue bc of the NewLady vs RC spat (didnt intervene! proud of myself for that) and the general work stress of #working under a fucking psychopath (not exaggerating i use that word in the most serious sense) who doesn't tell people #what he wants/expects it done anyway #/it's holiday season at work (kill me) and im losing it trying to recover everyday while clearance is happening #and appt yesterday and supposed to have been today so anticipatory appt stress #anyway im gonna nap again bc fuck it

[toytulini]

bout to have a rough fucking week or two or 3 or month or months

#toy txt post #uh #animal death in tags #kinda. not yet #but its coming. #he has cancer metastasized in both lungs we found out like. a couple months ago maybe? #and hes been. okay. but declining #and. itll probably be. like. next week tbh #and if its NOT next week itll be. an even worse time #bc i dont see a way that he makes it past next week where he also makes it to my parents returning from their trip #which would mean they wouldnt be here with him and that id have to take him alone by myself and deal with that. hone alone. by myself #and im worried about my other dog too bc she gets fuckjng. some separation anxiety from him already. i cant imagine what this is gonna #do to her. fuck #and even if its not me taking him by myself while my parents are away which btw thatll fucking stress him the fuck out if he makes it that #far #then theres the issue of moxie bc he'll be gone and she'll be alone and then parents will leave for their trip and then ill have to leave #for fucking work everyday like. if she eats a hole in the couch about this i will not blame her and fuck i might fucking join her #ive been trying not to cry all day fuck #i told my manager today id likely need to call out on short notice soon and she was understanding at least

[frecklystars]

hard to believe but i really really really miss megatron right now ☠️

#dont tell megatron we had this conversation #maybe i shouldnt have listen to charlies songs now im missing my ships #uhguhghghuhH JUST WANT MY BOYS BACK #is he missing me is he thinking of me. i hate feeling so numb to my ships #u know its a fuckin problem when i miss. megatron. of all ppl #as much as i hate/love him i rly loved thinking abt hating him. yknow. #i miss that so much i miss daydreaming abt fics where i'd get on his nerves #and i miss making comics and animatics w/ him............ #delete later #ofc i miss stsc every day but fuck im rly missing that stupid idiot warlord trashcan rn #i dont think he'd hurt me thank god im at that point at least today in this moment #but i feel like he... still wouldnt love me bc my abuser hurt me so bad #i dont want to think he'd do those things to me just bc she did #but christ its so hard to unlearn what youve been taught for 8 months #i know i cant heal overnight but man i wish i could #how did that cute anon phrase it? speedrun the healing process while also being cautious? lmao #anon if youre out there i think about that everyday. speedrunning my healing #bro i WISH #ive made huge progress since january but cmon CMON its may. nearly june. can i just be Fine Now Please

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I honestly don't know if I could have earned my undergrad degree if not for YouTube teaching videos and text to speech features for reading pdfs

#i just cannot read. too dyslexic. #god. if i could read i would be unkillable. i could code. i could learn abt lots of things #u dont understand how discouraging it is to spend hours trying to read a paper and just retaining none of it #i love to learn. i just wish everything with audio. except i also have issues with audio lol so i need the written and the verbal #i was just watching a video on jaccard similarly for a micobial network analysis thing #i spent hours today trying to understand the code description and then i do to a video description of jaccard #and im like oh. that fucking makes sense its just scoring the fucking overlap across samples dumbass #god bless the people making those videos. they got me thru math and chem and cell bio and stats and r coding #if i lived in any pre internet time idk what id do. not be an academic i guess #bc if i had to read physical books i would cry everyday and get no where #sometimes. dyslexia. makes. me. sad. #my dyslexia assessment says im smart when not constrained by language and time. which is like cool. fucking. that's really annoying #i crumble under time constraints and i cant intake or articulate info. great. rip #ugh. annoying. shout out to my dad for afflicting me with this curse. the dyslexia genes r so fucking strong from his family #me. my sisters and my cousin r all varying degrees of dyslexic #if u ask me to read and unknown word aloud its extremely embarrassing. im like a 4 year old guessing at words lol #i have 2 advanced stem degrees and very low reading comprehension #i love to read. i just wish i could read #unrelated

[woahajimes]

its kinda like

#i still sorta want him but i think i want him to want me more #anyways. i love being a cashier #my life is going downhill but its ok bc nothing really matters #all my classmates think im stupid but im not gonna see them after hs #i wanna go live in da city #my braces new color (hot pink) make it look like my mouth is bleeding since i wear pink lip shades all the time #back to the cashier part! i get discounts at certain restaurants and i meet new people everyday #its helped a lot with stranger anxiety but like in the social interaction way #i love helping others gawddamn #its automatic that i say ''have a great day'' #i feel like thats such a nice thing #whenever customers tell me to take care im just like wow. maybe i will #whenever i feel stumped i remember this lady that spoke spanish and i helped her get groceries in her car and she gave me a bracelet and #told me to take care of it and i dont wear it but god god god #i #nothing makes sense #there's something im MISSING HERE #i can't open my eyes very well today bc i cried all last night (we booked tickets to visit home for the summer) (it's been 5 years!) #my grades are dropping but god it doesn't fucking matter #god

[bat-the-misfit]

ok but i can't help but feel like the 👑 prince 👑 pretty much HATED playing my fave chara

like EVERYONE in the cast talked about their characters at some point or took a pic with other actor (which is also a way of saying "hey look i'm in the cast!!")

but not only he waited until the last day to say smth but also he said some really stupid and vague things about him like he was bothered to talk about it

i bet he only accepted this role as a way to start his carreer as an actor just to be more famous, bc it's obvious how much uninsterested he is in playing him

#can you tell i really dislike the actor who plays my favorite character? #he may be handsome and look a lot like Do Contra but i can't help but despise him #man it's so weird to post about this in english but i'm keeping my promise to not speak portuguese on tumblr today 😤 #i'm very stubborn lmao #like no man everyone was like “AAAAAA THE CHARACTER I'M PLAYING IS AMAZIIINGGG!!!” everyday #some of them changed their profile pics some of them took pics with other actors and were referring to them and themselves as the charas #like you can see how excited they were #ESPECIALLY Carol man no wonder i liked her so much #she's so happy and honored in playing Milena she's OBSESSED with her #i can already tell she really gave her best bc she really loves Milena #even Giovanna who i thought would hate Carminha actually really got interested in her #she even asked on twitter how people perceive her character #as if she wanted to find her own way of “making” her own Carminha and change people's perspectives on her #idk how to explain #but then there's 👑 Yuma Ono 👑 #i'm sorry but you guys can't deny he doesn't give a shit #just watch Do Contra's teaser #he doesn't give a fuck and it's annoying #acting is not a children's play dude he should take it seriously #ESPECIALLY bc this is my favorite character and i always want the best for him #i won't accept anyone playing him they have to be good #look at Vinícius HE WAS SO FUCKING GREAT #he played Do Contra so well #and nowadays he's only thirteen many times thirteen years old don't know how to act well #YOU'RE TWENTY THREE YUMA COME ON #STOP TRYING TO JUST BE FAMOUS AND ACTUALLY DO SMTH TO BE WORTHY OF FAME #well aNYWAY #i'm not complaining of him being his actor i mean come on i even put him as my profile picture #i'm complaining of his intentions in playing him #how much he despises this role

[lewmagoo]

not quite sure how i’m meant to get through these next few weeks 😵‍💫

#everyday i’m so fucking overstimulated #it wasn’t this bad earlier in the year #so the kids are just getting restless #but like #today i had to physically remove myself from the room just so i didn’t have a panic attack #fight or flight kicked in hard and i fled #glad i have a co teacher bc if i had to do this alone…. #yeah #i’d be quitting

[wabblebees]

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#hey yall. feels weird to ask but if u can please send me some good vibes + wish me luck the next few days #tomorrow is opening night for the musical and im SO FUCJING excited but i also woke up in. real bad shape today #my joints feel like shit (collapsed next to my bed trying to get up this morning bc my knees gave out!! haha!!) and im brain-foggy as HELL #and my housemate just let me know theyre sick but the campus health centre couldnt tell what they have. sooooo. im freakin out a lil bit #especially bc one of my castmates told me yesterday -- so casually!! so easy so nonchalant!! -- that THEIR housemate has covid CURRENTLY #but ''dont worry haha! i wasnt exposed and i feel fine and ive been testing negative everyday so i think im okay haha'' #so. yeah. #just a lil freaked out. just a bit!! #otherwise im feelin okay ?? i think ?? nervous as HELL but i've got a 5hr+ rehearsal tonight to get all the jitters/problems outta the way #just worried that im gonna fuck up my voice or my knees or my lines or. you get the idea lmao #anyway. gonna go sit in the sun + recharge a bit before i start stretch & eat & run to the theatre for the night #hope the next few days are kind to yall too<3<3 #bee speaks