So hey! How was your day? Hope you're having a good week!
I'm not the most experienced person with requests but here we go: I just read your "lovelorn and lovable" and I really like it, it's just so cute! Could you please write a "previous hurt/comfort" type of thing were the reader feels insecure of their relationship with bakugo in the beginning of it because they still can't see this little things he do to show he loves them? I would be really grateful if you could make it gender neutral too but if you don't want to write it at all, is also completely fine.
Thank you either way, have a good day!
hi hi!!! i’m doing much better now that i’m leaving my stupid ass job bahhahah. i hope life is also treating u well, and i really appreciate the request!!! it’s my first one; i was so excited!!!! it’s also long as fuck and i’m not sure it constitutes as a drabble anymore (considering it now also has a title) but whatever LOL. anyways thanks for enjoying my L&L fic, and i hope u enjoy this one, too!!! 🥰🥰🥰
title: multilingual.
summary: requested. you weren’t always so confident in your understanding of bakugou’s love language. a companion piece to lovelorn & laughable.
cw: gn!reader, gender neutral pronouns used. hurt. fluff. swearing.
wc: 1765.
A fifteen second video of you and Bakugou trends for three days. It’s something innocuous, something that Bakugou always does for you; you’re genuinely surprised that it catches so much attention.
The clip starts with a sleek, black car pulling up to you in front of a mall entrance. Bakugou steps out, dressed in ripped jeans and a pale sweater, donning round, gold glasses. He steps to the other side of the car, opens the door for you, and takes your many shopping bags. Before closing the passenger door, he dips his head inside the vehicle, presumably to kiss you in greeting; then, he closes the door, pops open the trunk, and places your bags gently in the back. The video ends with you and Bakugou driving off.
—The internet goes wild.
There are people who adore seeing the private habits of a Dynamight in love, but there are many others (the louder ones) who can’t believe it—who won’t believe it. They accuse the both of you of faking the relationship, claiming that moment—and many others—is staged for a PR stunt. They’re can’t see that Dynamight is capable of touching without burning—that Bakugou is capable of loving without scarring.
It’s funny. Hilarious, really. You send screenshots to Ashido and Kaminari to cackle about the comments throughout the day. Bakugou, on the other hand, is unfazed.
Once, you ask out of curiosity if it hurts his feelings to have these rumors circling. In return, he asks, You agree with ‘em? Of course, you say no. He rolls his eyes so aggressively that you’re dizzy yourself, and he says, Then why would I give a flying fuckity fuck? After his hostile response, Bakugou collapses on top of you on the couch, his weight making you complain and your complaints making him smirk. He wraps his arms around you like a promise, and he falls asleep while you send skull emojis to your friends and curl your fingers into his hair.
Your relationship with him wasn’t always this easy to understand; you didn’t always understand Bakugou. A while back, you might’ve considered his answer to mean that he was annoyed with you.
At the very start of your relationship, you are too preoccupied with his words and grunts. It’s not that they aren’t important, but you hadn’t yet learned that what he says in his actions are just as—if not more—important. You had to learn his language—not how he says I love you with his lips, but how he says it with his hands, the tilt of his head, his proximity, his silence.
Of course, without understanding that his language its a nonverbal one, it’s difficult at the beginning. Several weeks into dating him, you’re so focused on what he says that it chips away at you. His muttering, his growling, his sighing, they all hit you harder than they should’ve. With every it’s fine’s or it’s whatever’s, you’re left more and more confused and insecure.
He tells you, Wait here, as he enters the gas station, and you wonder if it’s because he doesn’t want you slowing him down in between the small aisles.
He says, Just shut up and sit down, in the kitchen, and you think he finds you a useless helper and unwanted presence.
He says, Yeah, yeah, when he brings you flowers and chocolate-covered fruits on Valentine’s Day. That night, you lay awake in your bed, afraid that he did it out of obligation and not because he truly wanted to.
These are the little things that start to break you.
You think you can ignore or get over them. You think he’ll soften sweetly with time. Logically, you know you should bring it up. You’re a big supporter of open communication in relationships, but there’s a part of you that’s scared that, if you do bring it up, he’ll break off the relationship instantaneously—and you know how ridiculous it sounds. If he doesn’t want to be with you, then it’s his loss; that’s how you should view it, but… You can’t help but want it to work so badly with him.
You don’t bring it up with your friends because you know what it is they’ll say (the same things you’d say to them if the situation were reversed), so you do the easier thing and let it sit, and simmer, and sadden, until, finally, you break down in the shower, sobbing beneath hot droplets.
Your heart clenches and unclenches painfully as you let out your distress, sorrow, and guilt. You know this isn’t a longterm solution, crying in the bathroom in secret, but at least you’ll get some of it off your chest. You’ll feel clean and smell great, and you’ll make room in your heart for more things to carry and bury inside.
When you finish, you dry off, throw on pajamas, and step out of the heated and humid room—and you come face to face with Bakugou leaning against the wall opposite of you.
He knows something’s wrong.
You pretend that nothing’s out of the ordinary, but, of course, he sees right through your half-hearted act. Instead of coming clean, though, you double down, insisting that it’s something work-related and that you’ll tell him another time.
He doesn’t believe you—his eyes narrow and his jaw tenses—but he doesn’t press. Instead, Bakugou says he’s here if you need something, and then he returns to the kitchen.
You stand there, trying to reconcile the reality your fears had created with the present in front of you. You thought that he’d try and drag it forcefully out of you; you were afraid he’d follow you around the apartment with fiery words and fierier glares, but he doesn’t, and you feel immensely guilty that you’re surprised.
You stare at the corner of your glass coffee table in thought, wondering where you are supposed to go from here—and then you realize that it’s clean.
When you had hopped into the shower, you had a several books on the table that needed to be read, three cups of water you hadn’t finished, and a wad of napkins that you had been too lazy to throw away. Now, the table is clean and wiped down. The books have been organized by size, biggest on the bottom, and neatly stacked in the corner of the coffee table. The cups and trash are gone.
Actually, a lot of your trash is gone, you think, looking around your apartment.
The blanket on the couch has been folded, the small trashcan underneath your desk across the room is emptied, and the various items and junk you’ve scattered around your little place have either been reorganized or thrown away. Food has been laid out on your dining table, and when you look to the kitchen, Bakugou is washing dishes; one of the cups that had been sitting on your coffee table is in his hands, covered in soapy suds.
You watch Bakugou put the last mug into the dishwasher to dry. Your back is still wet and warm from the bathroom, and in front of you, the room is peppery and spiced. You will yourself not to become suddenly overwhelmed with this quiet and cry.
You hungry? Bakugou asks.
Yeah, smells good, you manage to say.
You make your way toward the table.
Something tickles at your mind. Something tugs on your heart.
Something tells you to pay attention, to watch carefully.
So you do.
Bakugou fills your bowl for you. You mention that you like the searing on the vegetables, and then you notice that he puts more of them on your plate (some nights later, you see seared vegetables show back up on the dinner table). When you’re both finished, he puts the food away and clicks his tongue and scowls furiously when you try to help. You feel a sharp turn in your stomach, but you push it down to wait, to watch. You grab another plate and Bakugou takes it from your hands instantly.
You’ve had an ass day at work, yeah? So just fucking sit down.
You take a seat on your couch and turn on the TV. You scroll through channels, but you’re thinking about Bakugou’s harsh swearing and intentional movements, how sharply they contrast, how you’re only ever focusing on one half of it.
How did you forget?
That’s part of why you fall for him in the first place: the things he does for his friends without needing to be asked and without needing to be thanked. You’ve seen him excuse himself to the bathroom to sneak off and pay for the group’s meal; you’ve seen him walk all of them home after drunken nights out; you’ve seen him answer the phone at 4 AM and, despite his reluctant, sleepy swearing, lay awake until the other falls asleep through their nightmares. He’s attended Kaminari’s second cousin’s birthday party because Kaminari had asked—begged, really—and attended dancing classes with Ashido because she needed a last-minute partner.
Bakugou takes a seat right beside you, and leaves all that space to the left.
Perhaps you’ve been going about this the wrong way.
Perhaps you don’t know his language as well as you thought.
So you learn.
Over the next few days, you watch closely and think back carefully. Slowly, you learn to read his actions and decipher his words. You learn that he tells you to wait in the car because he wants to get the items for you; you learn he tells you to sit down because he wants to cook you dinner after your long day; you learn he mutters as though disregarding your thanks to hide his pink cheeks and sweaty palms and beating heart.
(Later, you teach him a thing or two about your language, too, how yours is a verbal one, how if you can learn to understand him, then he, too, can understand you.)
Now, months later, it’s still not easy—but it’s easier. You hear what he says, but more importantly, you see what he does, and Bakugou, in turn, sees what you need and says what he means. Sometimes, anyways. (Swearing comes much too easy to him.)
Later on, you tell him how you felt in those beginning weeks. You think it’d be a quick conversation, a fast laugh, but Bakugou doesn’t take it well. You’d never seen him so red-faced and speechless before in your life, like he couldn’t believe you could look at him and think he’d love you in any other way.
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I am asking way too many questions, but after reading the new chapter, something completely unrelated to that popped into me head.
Like, I kinda ship Kijo and Jin as a joke. So I was wondering if you could maybe show us a little about what their relationship was like? Like, before and after the fic. It doesn't have to be much, but I would love to get some interacting between the two since I doubt we'll be ever getting that :D
It’s complicated. Like the short answer is that any form of their relationship- professional, platonic, or anything else- would be so dang complicated because both of them are high functioning disasters
Before the fic it was definitely strictly professional, it was a “you’re funding a lot of this project and you have connections to everyone I work under and the government sector overseeing this so I am obligated to update you” sorta thing from Kirigiri’s perspective, and I imagine Togami’s opinion of him didn’t go much further than thinking he’s at least semi-competent and efficient.
They interacted more towards the project’s end, because it wasn’t exactly an abrupt ending and there were a million things that would need to be covered up and loose ends that needed to be fixed if Jin’s plans to just send the kids away instead of… completely getting rid of them was supposed to work. That’s where Kijo got more involved in the project itself, and coincidentally worked with Jin more directly.
They’d start talking personally more when Togami took in Byakuya (and the mobile security system for HP, he has a lot of enemies and it would be a shame for something that advanced to go to waste), getting a kid that can make things float with his mind is something that’s going to take some professional assistance. Jin supplied him with the suppressants for Byakuya’s enhancement, and probably stopped by and called frequently just to make sure everything was going okay. Lots of meetings in the office, introducing Jin as a vague ‘business partner’, etc.
But Jin had fifteen kids he was keeping tabs on throughout the years, so overtime their communication would grow infrequent and scattered… until Junko’s plans kicked off that is.
Kijo trusted Jin’s plans, like legitimately trusted him, so learning (from Junko) that there was a backup plan to kill the kids if things went south really set him over the edge into desperation territory. If Jin was really gonna kill kids, he wasn’t killing his kid.
After the events of the first fic, and all the trauma that would accompany that, they probably parted ways again and tried to return to some semblance of normalcy for them. They’re still in frequent contact , though, the world is still in the middle of falling apart and they’re some of the only people still living that truly know why. Jin also hasn’t told Kijo about Byakuya doing some vigilantism with the others on the side, and if (when, because these kids are not subtle) Kijo ever finds out I wouldn’t put it past him to show up in person wherever Jin is currently living to yell at him.
If they did actually get together it would be secret forever and half of it would be arguing (affectionately) hope this answered the question heh heh. (Takaaki probably assumes they are a thing because they always make plans to ruin his life together and do nothing but bicker and apologize and bicker again any time he tries to help them)
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Um, so, I have an experience I went through in my time as my kintype that I don’t remember whatsoever, but I do know how that *felt* for me, and absolutely just *know* I went through that experience some way or another. I haven’t even watched the episode it’s from in my source, and I still feel like I know how it felt. Is that, abnormal? Out of the ordinary? Because it feels like I definitely went through it, I just don’t remember much more than the feelings.
Short answer: You have described exactly how the vast majority of my current memory works. There's different types of memory and some brains are just better at saving certain types over others; this isn't terribly unusual.
Full answer: So, the thing is, there's different types of memory. There's episodic memory, which is being able to remember events as they happened. There's semantic memory, which is being able to recall facts without necessarily being able to recall the events associated with learning those facts. And there's procedural memory, which is implicit knowledge of how to do something that doesn't typically require conscious recall. There's also the aspect of emotional associations, which, I'm honestly not sure if those fall into semantic memory or if they're their own category.
What you're describing, as I understand it, is basically that you have access to the semantic memory and emotional association associated with that event, but not the episodic memory. I don't know how common or uncommon that is exactly (I think it's more common with certain neurodivergencies like ADHD, but I wouldn't stake my life on that), but it's definitely not unheard of. As I said, this is a thing I experience Constantly; my semantic memory is pretty good, but my episodic memory is spotty as hell. Episodic memories get deleted literally minutes after they happen sometimes for me, even when I still have access to the semantic knowledge of what happened.
(This is unfortunate, because it's not uncommon for me to, say, remember that I strongly dislike a person and consider them a bad person, but have zero memory of what they actually did to deserve that judgement and, if I can't find a record of it written down somewhere, have to ask someone I trust who knows to remind me of what happened with them - even if it was a pretty extreme thing they did. Which is extremely embarrassing for me to have forgotten.)
In addition to that, noemata and past life memories both tend to be a bit more, uh, hit-or-miss than current-life memories, just generally speaking. That's not true for everyone, but typically they're harder to recall, probably for the obvious reasons - so it pretty much makes sense that you're going to have holes in them.
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