#GIDEON DOING GUILTY THO

[multifandombullshitbabes]

It rly annoys me when ppl call rossi a racist for (checks notes) being forced by a group of bullies when he was 9 to pee on a black boy who was also being bullied. In fact, in the episode itself, rossi is shown clearly regretting n feeling guilty abt what happened, even tho he was literally 9 yrs old and also a victim in his own way.

Am i saying that rossi has never ever even thought of anything racist ever? Of course not. Ffs, even today many ppl, including me, will catch themselves thinking in ways that actively oppress many many people, but especially people of color, and especially black people. Its systemic. Its in everything, its almost ridiculous.

Let's think logically. Yes, rossi has a reputation; and after he left the bau, he reallyyyyy lived by it. But do y'all really think he could've been that good of a profiler, been respected by his peers and others that came after him, by gideon and hotch themselves, if he was a racist piece of shit? Do you? Do yall really think if he was racist he could be objective when necessary? And if he wasn't, dont u think it would be noticeable? Yes, he might still be respected as a great agent, but not as a good person, certainly not by hotch or gideon who obviously liked him before n after he left the bau.

Then again, he had a reputation to uphold. This suave cocky guy, works alone, thinks hes better than everyone, rich as fuck, etc etc. And thats what we and the team see when he first comes in. He's not there to be part of the team, hes there on his own mission. He doesn't need nobody.

So what does he do? Makes sure that he is useful ofc, but not likeable or attachable. He makes morgan n jj go to that bar knowing that they would lose respect for him afterwards, n he keeps picking on Derek, the next tough guy next to hotch, since hotch knows him n would see right through him. He makes no effort to understand Garcia at first, n he does everything to show that he comes from another time, he did things differently, n he doesn't care if they dont like it because, at first, he also does not care.

But morgan saw through him, cuz hes nothing if not smart n sharp and, importantly, a people's person kind of guy. He understands emotions (even tho sometimes he doesn't want to inspect his own n might lash out when hurt and frustrated, especially if those that hurt n frustrate him are the very very few he trusts), and so he understands rossi, cuz hes not stupid. And after that, the team just naturally grows on rossi, as they ought to do.

I dont think rossi is racist. I think he knows how he comes across n uses it to self isolate at the start, but then he drops it when he realises thats not rly what he wants, especially when he realises that the team can help him find who hes looking for.

#criminal minds #david rossi #hey look i posted a thing #shit talking but seriously (or not) #theres some real real valid criticism of this show especially the later the seasons u go on #but i just think this is a massive misinterpretation of a character. and it kinda annoys me

[louff4tw]

Percy headcannon that when Gideon and Fabian died Molly was a huge mess and Author was barely home. Charlie and Bill were in school. Going by the photo in OOTP. Her brothers were alive in July 1981. So I feel like they died August 10 and the emotional pain led to the early birth of Ginny on the 11th.

He was already helping a bit with the twins before. The moment Ron was born they were sorta pushed towards him. He taught them how to walk and talk. George’s first word was Percy. Second Fred. Fred’s was George. Second was Percy. Ron’s first word was also Percy. But sounded more like purse then pierce till at 4 he finally said Percy. Bill and Charlie helped out as long as they could. But they had to go back to Hogwarts. They say Percy down and told him he had to be strong and Brave like a true Weasley. They he had to be a Perfect kid for Mum and help her out cause she needs help. That he had to step up and help. They both felt guilty but very relieved when they went back to school. Cause at least they could get away.

Molly would have trouble to get out of bed. Percy would do a lot of the childcare despite being 5-6. Molly didn’t even think of who was caring for the kids. Even new born Ginny. Thankfully Percy watched his mom make formula loads of times.

He would get the Babies up first as they were easier to handle then the twins. Get them fed and changed and put in the play pen in the living room. Then he would make breakfast for himself and the twins plus Molly. He would bring hers up. Tho she didn’t eat half the time. Then drag the twins down and the three would eat in the living room so he can keep a eye on the babies. And then he would clean up as the twins played. He would then busy himself with the kids. Feeding and changing when needed. Trying to get the twins potty trained was a mess. Molly put it off cause she was so overwhelmed with twins and two infants.

He also had to build a barrier in the living room cause Ron was walking and the twins were sprinting. He would sometimes yell at them to stop. Cause he’s a little kid and scared they would hurt themselves. At lunch he would put them all down for a nap. Clean up. Cook lunch. Bring some up to Molly. Bring down the barely eaten breakfast. Which would then be his lunch. He would make lunch for the younger ones for when they woke

Meal times were a hassle with all 4 awake. The twins would make a huge mess. Spurned on the more Ron laughed. Ginny had to be hand fed her bottle and Ron his baby food. More food ended up on Percy then in his mouth.

The twins would be super energized in the afternoon and just go batshit crazy. If you’ve met a toddler you know what I mean but times 2.

What made everything worse was for the first few weeks of this the kids would start crying for Molly but she never came. Sometimes she would hold Ron and Ginny but sorta refused to look at the twins. She would also tell Percy what needs to be done. To tired to realize. He’s just a little kids. Way to young to care for a premie infant. A baby and two toddlers.

Molly would come down and make dinner. It made her feel like she actually did something. Arthur would come home and eat some times or just after the kids have eaten. If he came home that day. Half the time he was a no show. It was Percy’s favourite part of the day. Almost like things were normal. But after she would go right back to bed. Arthur would either go to his shed. Back to work. Or join her upstairs. “I’m trusting you to watch them for a hour or so Percy, your so mature it’s like your a adult!” Tho it was never just for a hour.

Percy never complained. Or cried or fussed. He just assumed that this was how it was. And on the rare occasions that he was thanked. It made him grateful. He also wanted to make life easier for his Mom.

After dinner was hard. He had to clean all four kids. Make sure they were bathed. Hair brushed. Teeth brushed. The scariest was Ginny cause she was just so small he was terrified. But he managed. The twins would make a huge mess while bathing. He would get the babies down first cause the twins would take the longest. The babies would sleep in his room in case they needed him in the middle of the night. He would also read to them while showing Ron the book. Helping to teach him to read. Once down. He would wrestle the twins into pjs. Every glass of water they needed. How many stories they asked for. They would finally go down at 10pm. Way later then they should be. He would then spend the next few hours fully cleaning up. Not because everything was messy but he developed ocd and anxiety. A mess left today was doubled tomorrow. He would also meal prep and deal with the animals. And handle the garden gnomes. Finally going to bed at 2am. Crying himself to sleep from stress. Only to wake several times to feed and change the babies.

This would go on for Months. Slightly getting better as time went on. By the time he went to Hogwarts she was taking care of the younger 4 again tho whenever he was home they would go to him. Till he kept trying to be perfect. She continuesly comparing her kids and rifts forming.

Years later once he was back with the family she still doesn’t acknowledge how much he did for her and the others. Even tho there are questions she can’t answer. Like milestone questions.

Even when George jokingly asked when he was potty trained and she didn’t know but Percy did

One day he will realize how cruel what happened was. And part of him will never forgive his parents

#harry potter #percy weasley #Weasley #Molly #Arthur #Fred #George #Charlie #bill #William #Ginny #Ron #Ronald #gideon #fabian prewett #prewett twins #gideon prewett

[tobias-hankel]

Fic Rec Friday! 🎉

These are some of my fic recs from April 30th, 2022 to May 6th, 2022! 

🖤 Past Is Prologue by @gaelic-symphony - WIP, Alex Blake/Erin Strauss, Lovers to enemies to lovers, Workplace Relationship, Office Romance, Angst, Smut, Betrayal, wlw relationship, Grief/Mourning, Past Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Internalized Biphobia, Exes, Lesbian Alex Blake, Bisexual Spencer Reid, Lesbian Emily Prentiss, she's only there at the end though, Strauss and Rossi are not an item in this fic, Blake-centric

Ten years ago, Alex Blake’s career was torpedoed by someone she thought she could trust. Since then, she’s kept her nose to the grindstone, slowly climbing her way up through the ranks of the FBI. Now, she’s made it all the way to the elite Behavioral Analysis Unit, but her past will still come back to haunt her in more ways than she can ever anticipate.

❤️ The Silence Drowns by @masterwords- WIP, Aaron Hotchner/Derek Morgan, Stabbing, Gunshot, Established Relationship, Hospital, Graphic Description, Serious Injuries, Major Character Injury, Hurt Aaron Hotchner, Protective Derek Morgan (Criminal Minds), Worried Derek Morgan, Attempted Sexual Assault, Gun Violence, Stalking, Past Attempted Rape/Non-Con, Tricksters, Serial Killers, ICU

Morgan interrupts Foyet in Hotch's apartment. Bad times are ahead.

🖤 Out by @justiceforralvez - 2.7k, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Hurt/Comfort, Episode: s08e12 Zugzwang, Spencer & Maeve friendship, Implied/Referenced Abuse, not really, Feelings, How Do I Tag, Not Beta Read

It's no surprise to anyone that Hotch is stronger than Spencer. Whilst this fact usually makes him feel safe, protected in the strong arms of the other, there is a moment when he only feels weak.

❤️  Owl Night by @empress-of-yaoi - .4k, Jason Gideon & David Rossi, Domaystic 2022, Friendship, Fluff, Soothing Forest, Jason Gideon/David Rossi if you squint enough, Prompt: First Night

When Rossi has trouble sleeping, he calls his best friend to help him calm down.

Tags and smut/18+ recs below cut. Click this link to send a fic rec or to be added to Fic Rec Friday Taglist.

🖤 Hook, Line, Sinker (High on Misery) by @artdecodyke - WIP, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Derek Morgan/Spencer Reid, Jennifer "JJ" Jareau/Emily Prentiss, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Drug Use, Drug Addiction, Drug Withdrawal, Everyone Has Issues, Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Drama, so much drama, Post-Episode: s02e15 Revelations (Criminal Minds), Rehabilitation, Road Trips, forced road trips as rehab, Dubious everything, Sex Addiction, Gay Sex, Lesbian Sex, you might call this out of character, but they're addicted to drugs so

The FBI has turned a blind eye to the BAU and their misadventures ever since Reid was kidnapped. With no oversight, every member has slipped into their own ways of handling the job. Until there's one case too many and they can't hide it anymore. Needing to get the mess of a team home, Strauss comes up with the perfect plan: put them all on a bus home so they can arrive at Quantico detoxed and ready again. It goes about as well as you think it would.

❤️ It Never Stopped Being True by @wherethewordsare - WIP, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Friends to Lovers, Gratuitous Smut, more smut to come, Multiple chapters, Friends With Benefits, Porn with Feelings, Porn With Plot, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex, Frottage, almost desk sex, guilty Hotch, Possessive Behavior, but Reid is very much into it, Oral Sex, Oral Fixation, Barebacking, bratty spencer reid, honestly, bratty aaron hotchner too, they're both absolute shits in this, mutual pining even tho they're literally fucking, this got absolutely filthy

There were certain things that Hotch had told himself he was allowed. And the one thing, regardless of what happened that he told himself he couldn’t have was Reid.

🖤 Daughter by @sirmatthew1972 - .9k, Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, 18+, mpreg, omega Spencer, alpha Aaron, past pregnant!Spencer, alpha/beta/omega universe, nesting, scenting, knotting mentioned, male lactation implied, fluff, cuteness overload (ao3 link)

In which omega Spencer embraces parenthood in the shape of his so precious firstborn pup as he feeds her.

Taglist: @ssa-sarahsunshine, @justiceforralvez, @brillianthijinx, @wherethewordsare, @lizzielovegood-blog, @merpancake, @sparklinspence, @spencersfunkysocks, @spencer-reids-adventures @castielryan

#Maze's Fic Rec Friday #fic rec #fic rec friday #criminal minds #criminal minds fic rec #hotchreid #Alex Blake/Erin Strauss #hotchgan #Jason Gideon & David Rossi #a lot of these ended up hotchreid this time #ship tags for the fics #Criminal Minds Fanfiction

[bsaka7]

19 and 10 :)

19. most disliked popular books?

coming for the haterisms right off the bat! okay this is recency bias but i finished gideon the ninth by tamsyn muir like three days ago and i absolutely hated it. tbh i have had moderate to good luck reading things based off the taste of my mutuals but this one... easily the book i hated the most this year so far, but i probably should have known that just going in lol. i disliked the goldfinch by Donna tartt (though this one gets two bonuses: 1) introducing me to the drama of Bennington college and 2) i vaguely remember what happened despite how little I enjoyed it). idk if it's that popular but i didn't like this side of paradise by scott fitzgerald. (these r all books I've ranked at or below a 2/5...but tbh most things are like a 2.5-3.5 for me).

10. do you have a guilty fav?

yeah. and unforch i talk about him all the time on here: i like brandon sanderson. i think i was stockholm-syndromed into it because my friend had me read the mistborn trilogy which i didn't particularly like but I'd finish each one and go oh shit now i have to read the next. and then i read the stormlight archives which i genuinely did like and can't wait for the fifth book!!! I think my friend was right that I had to read mistborn first. I hate wax&wayne tho for the record. i don't think he's a great writer but man am i invested now. and guilty about it!!!!

#i do like a lot of books i read off things i see ppl talking about I promise #Like im reading less by Greer now which someone I can't remember posted about #And very much enjoying #also re: brandysandy I lowkey do like the hard magic system and i like the general lack of romance #Romance (esp in fantasy) is so hit or miss for me (and moslty miss.) #I probably have other guilty pleasures but not that guilty.....i read a pretty good mix of pop fiction/classic stuff/memoirs I think. #I try not to be toooo judgy lol #Like I've enjoyed a Sally rooney book or two even if I can't remember a single thing that happened #I like booktok critiques that go around but I'm not on tiktok so I don't ever really know what they r talking about #I just like dunking on tiktok and like. Fastfiction culture AT TIMES #Ask game #Ok sorry for the essay in the tags and thank u for the ask 😁❤️

[strawberryspence]

🌻 - S2 ep15

Sorry (🤭❤)

🌻 - Revelations for my sweetest, sunny. thank you for not forcing me to watch zugzwang. 😚 (i've watched that once and thats it, never again.) Again, this is going to be LONG. I have a lot of things to say about this one.

1. Right off the bat, poor JJ. First of all, she would've been so scared and then finding out that Reid is missing </3 Plus the flashbacks she gets after. Poor JJ :(

2. Poor Spencer is bleeding :( The slapping of the feet looks like it HURT. He looks liked a kicked puppy whose been kicked over :(

3. They're all so young in this I can't believe they started this young.

4. The whole Tobias story is honestly one of the best cases they did. His childhood story about the abuse he got from his father is so well written and its so realistic that it gives me goosebumps. Like this happens in real life. I truly feel bad for Tobias.

5. The flashbacks 😭 Man this just hurts. His father is a fucking bastard. Young Reid just listening to Diana read to him. The last flashback hurts. I have no words for it :( Spencer really went through so much shit in a very young age.

6. Why'd he have to let the whole BAU watch? Like I would have never get passed that. DEREK IS SO MAD LIKE SAME LETS PUT HIS HEAD ON A STICK TOGETHER 🙃

7. Bro the dynamics in this one is so mixed up. JJ and Derek interaction is so awkward. While Hotch is feeling guilty while Gideon just said "He's brilliant. He'll find a way to survive." How...? He's... tied up in a chair...? 🧍🏻‍♀️The Penelope and Gideon moment was kinda sweet tho (minus the fact that they're watching Reid die.)

8. Jesus christ this episode feels like its two hours long.

9. The reunion scene. Ugh always brings tears to my eyes. "I know you'd understand." The way Derek is just looking at him, Spencer reassuring JJ that its not her fault.

10. The drums as the end credits come out was a cool, smooth way to end the episode.

My favorite lines:

1. "Do I look like Raphael?" Bitch you're one person. 🧍🏻‍♀️

2. "She's right. You've never blinked." Hotch says to Emily about seeing dead bodies. Isn't that ironic huh?

3. "You came back to life." Bro... You gave him CPR... 🧍🏻‍♀️

4. "I choose Aaron Hotchner." *awkward silence*

5. JJ: "We think Tobias killed his father." Random Man: "Good for him." SIR?! 🤨

6. "Tobias, I am sorry." Spencer Reid stop this man kidnapped you :((((((((((((

#dae celebrates 300 #sweetandsunny talks #ily bby <333

[hotchley]

Hi, it is i, bumblebee anon🥳✨

If you want to I’ll gladly tell u abt my hotchniss headcanons:) I think abt them way too much anyways. I’ve told one or two people about them but never rly put it on the internet cuz I’m quite nervous about what some people would say, I’ve gotten hate for shipping hotchniss before lmao so that wasn’t so nice, but ye

I kind of actually need to be sleeping rn bc I don’t get enough sleep anyway so I’ll just tell you the basic outline of them! If you wanna hear more just tell me and I’ll write you an essay on them!🥰

I’ve got like two main ones:

The first one is about young hotchniss, but less just about the feelings but about the ✨plot✨bc ems best friend had a camera and filmed literally anything that got in her way so she basically has on cam how em and aaron fell in love 👍👍 and I have all these headcanon abt what happens in some of the videos or what you see in the photos and ye🤗 additions would be their friend also making/filming their wedding video and/or the friend passing the legacy of the camera on to ems and aarona daughter: cue the chaos that ensues when a toddler gets a camera. Naturally, all the videos and pictures taken by their daughter are a lot more random and funnier. the team somehow finding all the videos and pictures and finding out about hotchniss that way

The second one is basically just: em and aaron have two children (don’t rly have names for them yet but I’ve been calling the boy jack even tho it feels wrong idk). It’s 2020, corona just began and their daughter and son come home from their respective colleges. Chaos ensues when they make a tiktok acc (and kind of go viral??) oh and aaron is retired and constantly doing stuff in the garden and Emily is unit chief and dealing well with the working from home thing. Just imagine the possibilities for the tiktoks, “things in our home with FBI agents that make perfectly sense: *thousands of alarms* *bullet proof glass* *weapons stored everywhere* *fbi mugs* *talking abt murder at dinner*”. Oh and I actually have one of the tiktoks written out lol wait let me find it. Here is it.

They do that „1 day in the life of an FBI agent“ thing and jack asks Emily when she usually wakes up so he can wake up at that time too. So they’re both in the kitchen at six and Emily makes herself a coffee but doesn’t want jack to drink one even though he’s fucking tired. And what you see in the tiktok is jack asking „mom why do you not want me to drink coffee at six in the morning again and why do u get to drink one“ Emily just continues her task without looking at him or the camera „well first of all I haven’t slept and second of all ur still so young I don’t want you to have a caffeine addicted“ jack raises an eyebrow „so you weren’t caffeine addicted when you were my age??“ „oh jack when I was your age I was addicted to stuff you don’t even wanna hear of“ „for example?“ she turns to face jack and with a deadpan face says „your dad?“

YE THATS IT TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK IM GOING TO SLEEP NOW GN ILY<33

~ 🐝

I'm putting everything below the keep reading, for easy scrolling x

You can always tell me about them!

Aww don't be nervous :((

Ugh, the ship hate really irritates me, if you don't like a ship, just leave it. Don't worry though. The only ship slander I will ever commit is shipping someone with their abuser, or Reid/Rossi and Reid/Gideon because... why?

(Also if someone wants to send you hate, they can fight me. /hj)

Yes! Sleep!! It's important!!

Oh my god, I love that. She's one of those friends that just KNOWS when two people are meant to be together, so even though Aaron and Emily are like: nooo, she's like: yesss!!

But then everything happens and she's like: oh... but then!! They find their way back to each other, and Emily never lets Aaron feel guilty for still loving Haley- because let's be honest, everyone is a little bit in love with Haley, and they're just perfect once more.

YES!! They have a daughter named Meredith Haley Hotchner-Prentiss because I say so, and the camera gets passed down to her, and although the photos are from the most random angles, and usually not very good, they mean everything to the parents and end up everywhere.

(I like to think Hotch gets one framed before him and Emily move in together/make their relationship public) and the team find out when they come round and Jack is like: look at my favourite photo!!

OH MY GOD I LOVE THAT SECOND ONE!!

I mean, I've already said I would want their daughter to be called Meredith Haley, but for a son... maybe Derek Jason? After his godfather and the man that was a mentor to his father for a few years?

I love the idea of them making TikToks! They would walk into Emily's meetings, and she would look so stressed and done with the job, then they would head out into the garden and Hotch would be like: look at my tulips!!

PFFT!! YOUR DAD!! Jack just lets out a groan, and leaves because they're both so embarrassing

I LOVED ALL OF THIS!!

AND YES! SLEEP!

#🐝anon #people talk to me #hotchniss

[spookyvalentine]

hannibal for the ship thing? 👀👀👀

SCREAM i had this almost complete and then it disappeared on me. Of COURSE I will do this. Major spoilers tho my love

otp

will graham/aspirin or hannibal/kitchen or Alana/pantsuits/cane meow WOW amirite

Favorite canon pairing

Maybe Alana/Margot when they become deranged murder moms in s3. But in all seriousness I was glad they found each other

Worst pairing ever

Well. I mean. Will/hannibal. Just legendarily toxic. Yas queen bring out the worst in each other. Maybe also alana/hannibal bc it reeked of blatant manipulation and petty behavior but I was also super there for it

Guilty pleasure pairing

Probably hannibal/bedelia. Listen. They looked so good together. Maybe will/molly, even though molly deserved better. I understand wills desperate grasp for normalcy and I wish they could’ve found happiness, but hannibal is a dramatic bitch and they never stood a chance

A pairing you want to see more

Tbh? Jack/Bella, and not just bc I’m in love w Gina Torres. They were maybe the only equal power relationship in the whole show alsjdhdhsjsk. Also Um. antony/hannibal/bedelia. Antony deserved another dinner and we deserved to see it

That pairing everyone likes but you’re like “lol no”

Honestly? I don’t think this one applies to me, bc the one everyone likes is hannibal/will and I too am here for it

Favorite non romantic pair

WILL N BEVERLY FOR LIFE OHHH MY BABIES. hannibal and Gideon too bc they have fantastic conversation and could really needle the hell outta each other A+. Hannibal n chiyoh. Also will and bedelia bc they hated each other so much it was hilarious

#I’ve ruined all of this show for you #all of these answers are s3 influenced #but #thanks for the asks!!! #I love you #hannibal

[zoldyck-pilled]

How was your first time watching soring awakening (and how old you were?)

so i discovered spring awakening existed last year when i was 13 and i listened to the soundtrack in like,, early june. all i knew was that the main guy was kind of an asshole, jonathan groff was in it and that there was an lgbtq+ couple in it so i was like "sure why not?"

the only song i'd listened to beforehand was mama who bore me because a girl from school had sang it for a performance of theatre songs our schools musical theatre club was putting on.

i wasn't really following the plot so i can't really remember listening to half the songs.

for mama who bore me i didn't really know what was going on and i had no context- and with the reprise i was confused and thought it was at a campfire for some reason??? i didn't know it was in the 1890s and thought it was more set in the late 1990's/early 2000s.

when all that's known came on i deadass thought they were in some kind of cult because of the latin chanting. also because i had only known jonathan groff from hamilton at the time my brain was like "this kinda sounds like jonathan groff but like ,,, idk".

the bitch of living was a TRIP. it was the first song from the musical i added to my playlist and i was like "WOW these guys are horny". for some reason i thought georg was relevant to the plot????? even tho i didn't know his name???? that was the moment though where i realised "yeah this is a musical i can't play in front of my parents though"

my junk was also a trip. for some reason it gave me vibes of girls in high school movies talking about their crushes is gym class which was close enough minus the gym class. i remember thinking that by junk they meant like ,,, boobs and stuff and i was like "mmm ,,this is kinda dirty lol" and i didn't know that by junk they meant addiction.

i got the meaning to touch me very wrong though- because of the nervous dialogue in-between melchior and moritz over the quiet "oh my god" and "touch me"-s i thought THEY were the gay couple and i was like "kinda not v heterosexual of u luv xx" but i remember just being in awe of the guitar and the vocals and just how much of a beautiful song it was in general.

i can't really remember listening to the word of your body so 😳 no comment on that

the next song was the dark i know well. that song gave me chills. it was the one song i knew exactly what was going on in. it was absolutely terrifying- that guitar sent (and still does send) shivers down my spine and i just felt so cold and empty hearing the song.

i don't remember listening to and then there were none or the mirror blue night and i didn't think much of i believe- i just thought it was a random church song and didn't pay much attention to it.

then was don't do sadness and i remember getting very ominous vibes from the start of the song. i didn't pay much attention to it though. i did however, think blue wind was beautiful and i thought it was v sad and wistful. it was v pretty.

i paid NO attention to the guilty ones (because of the way the soundtrack is set out for some reason the guilty ones is after dds/bw) or left behind.

i can't remember that much of hearing totally fucked the first time other than the "blah blah blah blah blah blah blah"s that the kids do (it was like 4 am at the time so) and thinking "ok this is kind of a jam ngl"

i listened to woyb reprise and i wasn't sure if this was a side couple of a main couple or what and i didn't realise it was the lgbtq+ couple 😳 and for some reason i thought gideon glick was a girl because im a dumb bitch but i added it to my playlist anyway because ,,, song pretty

i don't think i paid attention to whispering or those you've known and i didn't give that much focus to the song of purple summer but i remember when i finished the soundtrack i felt an odd sense of like- nostalgia and emotion even though i had no clue what the actual plot was.

the songs i had added to my playlist then though were mama who bore me, the bitch of living and the word of your body reprise.

time skip to summer in august and i decided i would go watch a bootleg. it didn't go very well because i stopped for some reason right before the start of my junk and i forgot it existed for a few weeks.

near the end of september, i decided to go on the wiki and try to get some sense of the plot and looked into the fandom and the characters. i enjoyed reading about them so i decided that the next day i would watch the obc bootleg. it was wonderful and instantly became one of my favourite musicals after that happened and i added most of the songs to my playlist after that.

uh anyway now im here having watched it around 10 times ,, and ive seen the obc, dwsa, 1NA and west end sa. but yeah that was my journey into becoming an sa fan!! i hope for some reason you enjoyed reading that 👁️👄👁️

#musical theatre #dwsa #musicals #spring awakening #broadway #deaf west spring awakening #sa #spring awakening musical

[cassercole]

you know what? i want a lukicky kid pleeeaaase

You know what? You got it.

Name: Virginia (Ginny) Anne Barnes-Franklin-Peters  

Gender: Female

General Appearance: I mean since one of her moms is Kitty, she’s always dressed SUPER nice like has the best fashion sense -- even being ahead of the trends. But otherwise, she always keeps her hair pinned back or pulled out of her face so that it doesn’t distract her. There’s always a purse or bag involved that has everything in it like snacks, first aid, a pair of socks, etc. etc.  

Personality: She’s definitely the quiet observer, but not a wallflower, you know? Like always trying to make everything Better. And she knows how to lighten the mood if needed. Cause growing up with Lu and Bucky and Kitty meant that there were a lot of quiet days and sometimes, whenever Lu and Bucky were having one of their Spells, Kitty tried to distract her or make it better. So Ginny is definitely always trying not to make too many waves -- just wanting to make her parents proud and do/be her best. 

Special Talents: Unfortunately since she isn’t their biological child, there’s no super soldier genes in her, so she’s incredibly average at everything. It doesn’t stop her parents from teaching her things tho! Like Lu teaches her the proper way to dress various types of wounds and how to cross-stitch, Kitty teaches her how to cook and about fashion, and Bucky teaches her a lot of self-defense moves and gets her into science and technology haha. And she’s 100% multilingual.  

Who they like better: Definitely a toss up between Kitty and Lucille. Lu really wasn’t expecting the kid to like her -- it’s super easy to like and grow attached to Kitty (both Bucky and Lu know from experience), so it surprises Lu whenever she curls up into her during movie night or comes to her for advice or homework help. Bucky is just grinning to himself the whole time cause finally. 

Who they take after more: I think she takes after Bucky more -- which is super surprising to everyone, but also not cause of course. 

Personal Headcanon: 

Since Hydra sterilized both Lu and Bucky, having a kid biologically was never a possibility -- which is something both of them feel guilty about bc Kitty is a Natural Mother, so when they find Ginny, it’s hard not to read into it like it’s some sort of fate that happens in those novels Kitty’s always reading. 

(Yes, they save her from some undecided threat when she’s a bebe)

There’s a lot of readjusting that the three have to do while Ginny is growing up like when she wants to take ballet, Lu and Bucky are against it at first cause Red Room vibes and Kitty has to be reminded that Ginny isn’t one of the kids she had in the Headspace, etc. etc. 

No, it’s definitely not weird to Ginny that she has three parents -- she likes to make jokes about it lmao, but her family tree projects are always the most complicated.

Very much a strong, witchy feminist thanks to her moms (and also Bucky haha).    

Face Claim: Gideon Adlon! 

send me a pair name and I’ll tell you what I think it would be like if they had a child.

#answeredmemes #ot3: lovely lethal #cole tag #wow so much angst that comes with this child?? #whindsor

[notthrilled]

spring awakening: this or that

tagged by @othellokink

cast:

melchior: johnathan groff vs austin mckenzie

wendla: lea michele vs sandra mae frank & katie boeck

moritz: john gallagher jr. vs daniel durant and alex boniello (fuck you i won’t choose)

ilse: lauren pritchard vs krysta rodriguez

hänschen: johnathan b. wright vs andy mientus

martha: lilli cooper vs treshelle edmond

ernst: gideon glick vs joshua castille & daniel david stewart

georg: skylar astin vs alex wyse

otto: brian taylor johnson vs miles barbee & sean grandillo

anna: phoebe strole vs ali stroker

thea: remy zaken vs amelia hensley

songs:

mama who bore me vs all that’s known

the word of your body vs the guilty ones

my junk vs touch me

mama who bore me (reprise) vs the word of your body (reprise)

those you’ve known vs don’t do sadness/blue wind

and then there were none vs the bitch of living

the mirror-blue night vs the song of purple summer

left behind vs whispering (still love u tho, whispering)

spring awakening (original broadway cast) vs spring awakening (2015 deaf west revival) (...could u tell)

tagging: anybody who wants to do it bc i don’t actually know which of you like sa this much lol

#spring awakening #dwsa #tag game #ty for tagging me btw!

[vaguely-concerned]

UNCHARTED 4 REACTIONS

- uuuh can I just… find out who the FUCK looked at tiny beautiful baby boy Nate and decided to leave him with a bunch of nuns who don’t get why other kids telling him his mom’s in hell because she committed suicide would upset him??????? Like I don’t know who his biological father is but I feel a strong need to divest him of his kneecaps. (C’mon Sully with your con man expertise and my vengeful nature we could figure this out between us)

- Sam reminds me a lot of one of my uncles. I’m not sure what to do with that except applaud Naughty Dog on their eye for people ha ha. I guess everyone has that slightly sleazy and self absorbed yet periodically charming and decent man in their lives. (Can I point out how amazing his costume design is, in a way you rarely see? He’s one of those dudes who look rumpled wearing pretty much anything, everything is so unflattering on him it’s a miracle. Contrast his and Sully’s outfits in the Scotland section — what they’re actually wearing isn’t that dissimilar and Sully is like twice Sam’s age but looks a) stylish, b) warm and c) Incredibly American somehow while Sam looks like a bum and it’s  h i l a r i o u s.)

- When bb Nate’s face already does the thing where he goes from genuinely upset to dissembling smile… no… ow…  

- “You only pull something like this when you’re trying to make up for something” lasjfdlsakjfslkdjfalskj my soul has left my body and I am crying hot saltwater tears

- a) Nadine is just so incredibly, vibrantly beautiful and I feel like sending a thank you note to the offices of Naughty Dog for putting her face and overarms on my screen, b) she’s already completely done with everything and we’re not even halfway through the game, c) she’s awfully uppity about Chloe’s methods for someone whose instinctual approach to archaeology is ‘dynamite’

- NATE PLAYING CRASH BANDICOOT

THE MOST PRECIOUS SHIT

I’VE EVER LAID MY EYES ON

“THIS IS TAKING VERY LONG” THIS BLESSED ADHD BOY

- OKAY NAUGHTY DOG YOU’VE GONE AND DONE IT I’M ROOTING FOR THE HETS

- the note from Chloe in the attic :( :( :( I feel bad for her even though she eventually upgraded big time on the spouse material, she does like him a lot even if they didn’t make each other very happy.

Can you imagine if Nate and Chloe had actually stayed together tho. They’d have the smartest, snarkiest, most-unprepared-to-deal-with-emotions children in history lol just as well things worked out like they did, probably

- did u guys know… that I would die for nathan drake… I mean you all probably do by now because I never shut up about it but it bears repeating… I would….  

- oh no… nate no… don’t lie to elena she not only tolerates you she loves you despite the warning signs don’t throw this away

- It’s very impressive that they’ve managed to show that Sam genuinely does love Nate a lot while also making it clear how easily he tips into being a toxic influence — it makes all the psychological sense in the world that he’s trying to emulate the relationship they had when they were at their closest and only had each other, but purposefully trying to drive Nate away from the other people who love him is just… so perfectly the worst possible thing to do to him, jeeeeesus christ. No wonder he and Sully don’t get along — Sully is wonderfully protective without being possessive

- When Sam asks Sully why he’s there and it’s like… because… he’s HIS FUCKN DAD SAM???! YOU NUMBSKULL???!!? YOU ABSOLUTE FOOL??!?!

- All my fanfic wants for these games are so lame and low-key… like ‘the first time a teenaged Nate comes back to the hotel drunk as a total emotional mess, and Sully being like ‘oh wow… oh god… help… he’s like a tiny puppy I need to protect him being a parent is terrifying’... ‘Nadine and Chloe have a nice night in and make sweet character developing love, maybe braid each other’s hair and get in a fist fight with some dude’... ‘the gang go to an amusement park, have a good time, Charlie gets cotton candy and makes fun of Nate’...

(actually what I really, really want is a fic of Sully surreptitiously picking up the pieces of Nate after Sam ‘dies’, but, y’know. The heart wants what it wants and mine wants Nate to be taken care of)

- Sully’s face when he drops them off in Scotland… goddamn it he loves that boy so much ;___;

- The only illustration of Sam’s personality that matters is that he thinks  S u l l y  of all people might screw Nate over while thinking he can work with Rafe without it all going to hell

Just… the worst judge of character ever lol how’s that projection working out for you Sammy boy

- I played some multiplayer and Elena really has just the warmest, most reassuring presence, I absolutely see what Nate sees there ha ha

Also I love what they’ve done with her clothes, all her outfits are plausible and non-sexualized and look so chill and comfortable

- Nate’s high-pitched nervous laugh is everything to me, such a deeply endearing character tic

- Sam… you dumbass… when will you learn that the real treasure… is your little brother and his happiness…

- I have to applaud Troy Baker for his work here — he matches Nolan North’s speech patterns and timbre as Nate so well, you absolutely believe they’re brothers. (Also between them they’re like… 90% of all male characters in video games, it’s a wonder the fabric of reality isn’t fraying with two giants in such close proximity)

- Shoutout to my boy Charlie for getting one (1) whole reference in this entire game! Naughty Dog may have forgotten you but the face you pulled at Nathan in the scene with the torches will stay with me forever, you big British lug <3

- I LOVE that Nate and Sam still use ‘Father Duffy’ like you would ‘Goody Two-shoes’ or the ‘dad’ in a sarcastic ‘thanks, dad’, it’s an authentic-feeling kind of in-joke

- Nate’s journal entries are SO FUNNY in this one oh my god. I’m so happy they’re acknowledging that he’s actually an excellent artist, I hope he ends up with a sideline in making illustrated children’s books. (I have since learned they were drawn by Naughty Dog artist Alexandria Neonakis. From the bottom of my heart: thank you for everything, especially Lemur Sully)

- Gideon Emery is wasted — WASTED — in the role of ‘random goon #43’ yet again,  but whatever, at least I got to hear his voice

- Sam’s supremely shitty tattoos give me life

- I realized during the Madagascar opening that in all likelihood the person who taught Nate to drive was Sully and can I just say… this reinforces my theory that Sully is the real hero of the Uncharted games because can you imagine taking on that responsibility for Nathan ‘Adrenaline Junkie Whoops Everything I Touch Explodes and Collapses’ Drake? No, because you and I don’t have what it takes to live that life but Victor Sullivan does

- It feels like they went a bit more naturalistic with the dialogue and characterization in this one? (As naturalistic as you can go with great big undiscovered cathedrals/pirate recruiting hubs under Scotland, anyway. Scotland ain’t that big, yo, pretty sure someone would have spotted it lol) I actually enjoyed it — U3 is still pretty much an Indiana Jones-esque adventure story with some purposefully discordant notes when you get to know Nate’s real backstory and stuff like that, but this feels all round a bit more grounded in reality and characters and it works

- Sully ineffectually keeping a grip on Nate’s shirt while he’s scrabbling to get back into the driver’s seat after the car goes off the cliff ascended my soul to a higher dimension. Big mood.

Also genuinely laughed for five minutes at Sam, lapsed Catholic and born opportunist, getting in as many Hail Marys as he could just in case he was about to die. I’m an atheist from a half-halfheartedly Protestant country but even I am pretty sure that’s not how it works buddy

- Nate’s continual refusal to think ahead enough to carry his own matches (and being saved by surrounding himself with smokers) is one of the most satisfying running jokes in the series

- “Lemurs, Sully!” “Rabies, Nate” fsdajfkljdaskjhasjkhfasjdk

*cries helplessly like a little baby because I love everyone in this bar*

- I must say the clock tower felt like one of Nate’s most catastrophic onsets of… Nateness. That delicate complicated piece of machinery was still functioning perfectly after four hundred years and yet… Nate’s in there for five minutes and it crumbles like paper. I guess technically sinking the entirety of a city into the sand beats it, but… I keep coming back to the image of the cracked bell and then *high pitched giddy voice* “Hi Sully” JFC Nate ha ha

- *screams as Nate sends Sully and Elena away, literally turning to the adrenaline/treasure hunting madness he used to cope with trauma before he managed to work up to emotional intimacy with people who care about him because Sam is a jackass who knew exactly what buttons to press and is weirdly possessive of his little brother*

- You know… forgiving Sam is so hard when he repeatedly doubles down on his lies, making up further details unprovoked, because he knows it keeps Nate hooked and feeling guilty? Like Nate is far enough along in his character development at this point that just waving some treasure under his nose alone wouldn’t do it, you need that illusion that he’s saving someone he loves — the first person he ever relied on, who he thought he lost once because he failed him — to make him keep going, and Sam knows this and uses it and it’s so horribly, calculatedly cruel? I think there are a few times where he kind of wants to come clean (uh already too late because what the HELL he’s already fucked up all his relationships lol) only to be interrupted by Action but in the end it’s a deliberate, long con of assholery that it’s extremely difficult to look past. Ah well I guess he’s stuck as my ‘I will mercilessly yet affectionately mock you’ character, that’s something.

- Aaagh the scene where Elena’s like ‘who are you’ is so good because it must be such a blow, knowing this man she loves and (bravely, because he is a disaster magnet) made the choice to try to make a life with for the second time still thinks he needs to lie to her, like he’s been lying to the world at large for most of his life — his name is a lie, so much of his outer identity is invented, but hey she wouldn’t have married him if she didn’t think they were past that this time and trusted each other with honesty… and then out of the blue a dead-yet-still-somehow-smoking-a-sketchy-cigarette brother???? Normally the ‘what else have you been lying about’ line makes me roll my eyes but she is ABSOLUTELY right to wonder about that and it breaks my heart

as does Nate going ‘I’m just me’ in that voice aaaaaaauuuuuugh he does try but he’s not completely at the point where he thinks he can be acceptable and loved as he is, no need to hide the broken things, still that kid learning that it’s better to not be seen or tell the truth because it just makes things worse

(I feel it’s a good balance between ‘protagonist making some DUMB SELF-DESTRUCTIVE CHOICES LIKE AN IDIOT’ and ‘makes perfect, tragic sense considering their history’, ending up at sympathetic but still in the wrong and in need of getting it the hell together in a hurry. At least he clearly realizes he’s fucked up pretty much immediately, which is something I GUESS)

TL;DR Nate, listen to Sully and go talk it out with your wife, I’m real upset now I’ll go make myself a cup of tea ;____;

- Sam was straight up going to shoot Nadine in the head, huh. I mean… wow. I wonder why she doesn’t like you very much, bro lol

- I’m a Black Sails fan so whenever Anne Bonny shows up I’m like *golden retriever face* HI FRIEND HI sorry about the... poison

- ...is it weird that I want to write fix it fic for Evelyn and Ken

All his letters are so  c u t e  and loving and I am devastated

Puzzling their story together like that was super effective too — it was so cool that if you know what to look for you could find the Tokugawa armor he mentions in the first letter before any other clues, I was going ‘Oh she totally married that beautiful nerd’ right there and then ha ha. Evelyn’s design was wonderful, you could tell the force of nature she must have been in her prime.

Bonus points for Nate looking up at her like a puppy who’s found someone really cool to aspire to. Also their father looks nominally less of a rampant unrepentant asshole if he sold Cassandra’s things specifically to her mentor. Microscopically. I’d still like to kick his ass tho.

- I guess Sam is three to five years older than Nate, then, if he remembers (vaguely) going to Windsor before Nate was even born? Bit hazy on the timeline here, because Nate’s memories of their parents — especially their mum — must be quite hazy if, like Marlowe states in U3, he was surrendered to the state at the age of five and they moved around with their dad a lot even before that.

- Nate was the most tired-looking twelve year old I have ever seen and it hurts me

The fact that Nate started off looking exhausted and a little snub-nosed and grew into a very handsome and charming young man (ssssh I’m in no way biased here just because he’s my son) while Sam was sweet and bright-eyed as a teenager and now looks like someone who is low-key dealing drugs around the local high school… this game is truly a tour de force of character design

- So apparently Shoreline was already off to a bad start when Nadine took over? That makes it doubly sad that she’s judging herself so harshly for losing it when her father had already left it to her as a mess :(

- THANK YOU ELENA AND SULLY FOR SAVING THIS WONDERFUL FOOLISH BOY YET AGAIN. “I left my life for you”  D: D: D:

Also slightly sad that Sam has… literally nothing except Nate and Avery’s treasure? On the other hand that’s entirely his own fault so. Less sad. (Makes me immensely thankful Sully and then Elena found Nate when they did)

- Nate… using his words… cautiously expressing how he actually felt… Elena mulling it over… realizing part of why she loves him is that weird restless brain of his doing its thing……. coming up with a solution where they can solve it as partners in the ending………... I am clinically ded, go on without me

- Realest GPOY moment: Sully’s flat immediate ‘no’ to Nate going off to save Sam on his own. He’s so scared!!!! And so was I!!!! My soul bond with an American con man three times my age continues to be unbreakable

- Relieved that my sister was in control for the fencing bit, because I don’t know if I could handle being responsible for Nate’s safety like that

That said, how destroyed was I that Nate didn’t really start fighting back before Rafe threatened his family? Completely, though it does force me to take the words ‘ludonarrative dissonance’ in my mouth for the first time in my life — no way does he kill as many people in the reality of the story as you do in gameplay if he’s still this hesitant to respond to someone openly trying to murder him lol. I realize this is a game and they need some kind of pretense to keep it from being a movie with the occasional QTE, but Naughty Dog you can’t just… repeatedly show that Nate has a hard time killing in cold blood and then have him take out an army in the next breath

(Naughty Dog: We did and you’re completely willing to go with it lawl. Me: Oooooh I hate that you’re right)

- Nadine stone cold leaving those bitches behind Worked for me, you do you you beautiful disaster, see you next game with your excellent character development. Another wonderful thread they continue into The Lost Legacy: Sam being forever relegated to the back seat. Yes good.  

- Sully promptly semi-adopting a second Drake brother, arguably the tougher case. A power move if ever I saw one.

- I deeply respect Naughty Dog’s decision to make an epilogue to let me know everyone is safe and happy and it all turned out okay, but I also wish they wouldn’t have ha ha. The last scene with Elena and Nate perfectly set that up for me already, specifically spelling out one happy ending among the many that could have happened actually somewhat cheapened it for me? The ‘flash forward, now they have children, get immediately invested!’ move is already suuuuch a hard one to pull off and I think it did it about as well as they possibly could, but somehow I also begrudge Cassie for her position in the narrative and that’s not how I want to feel about it, y’know? Actually it’s fine, I’ll accept it, because their dog is named Vicky and Nate writes in his journal that he’d call his pet lemur Victor and it made my entire week

- Having played three of the games I can still say that Uncharted 3 is definitely my fave, but then parts of that seem genuinely tailor made specifically for me, so that’s not really a surprise ha ha

- Thank you, Uncharted, for being the emotionally intelligent yet light hearted adventure story with lovable characters I needed in this dark cold winter and making me spill over with so many flaily happy words. 

#uncharted 4 #uncharted #meta #thinky thoughts #I just... I love all these losers so much help me