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gladiator-gladiolus · 1 year

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My prejudgement of the engage cast: Firene edition

This is as of before I venture into chapter 3, so obviously I don’t actually know ANYTHING about anyone except what I’ve accidentally absorbed through fanart. This is all purely based on their appearance and the vibe. I’ll reblog with what I actually think of them after I’ve finished the game, or have sufficient enough exposure to them (*☻-☻*)

(These are probably really harsh, I have unleashed my full prejudice)

Alfred

Probably going to be my blorbo

Husjshsja pretty little noodle, very scrunckle

A wet lettuce

Dimitri but make him cottagecore

Major pathetic Alear simp

Too kind for his own good

classic Lord

i want to put him in my washing machine

gay coded but all the ladies want him

allergic to mud

Boucheron

I already know I’m not gonna like him

Friendly neighbourhood patriotic buff man

Probably obsessed with healthy eating

popular with the gorls

looking at him makes me a bit angry

no personality other than to serve a trope

looks like a carpenter

donates food to the orphans then tried to “hide” it

Etie

Likes MLP unironically

A bit of a snobbish pretty Princess that’s going to complain

But we like her for that

Will have a crit line something like “yOu ruinEd mY bOw”

im going to end up liking her a lot

Cold hearted and apathetic until you get to know her

Ed sheeran’s sister

very intelligent when you give her the chance

will commit war crimes

Celine

Cliche waifu sweetheart

popular with straight people

She’s going to annoy me

the worse version of Etie

Nice for no reason

Sings all the time and won’t shut up

Is a Dead mother but has no children and is also alive

Has a slow, soothing voice but to the point that it’s dull

Has no personality beyond being upper class and naive

Louis

Is always late

wish version of Linhardt

loving the bed head

just a happy little guy awwww

I will love him and I will squeeze him

trying his best and it’s good enough

doesnt want a lot from life

has a tragic back story that makes him want to help people like his sister was tragically stabbed to death on the ides of march

Not that clever but has all the brawn

Chloe

Looks like Erika

is Erika

the comic relief

surrogate older sister

Very considerate and compassionate

likes Hatsune Miku

The one with all the brain cells

given responsibility over the children

Murder is okay

Jean

Reminds me of Rune Factory

pretends he can see but actually cant for shit

Has some sort of debt to the royal family

Is overworked

curious but doesn’t want to overstep

Has an anxiety disorder

good with handiwork

quiet and reserved

looks up to either Chloe or Alfred

Probably an orphan

#I CANT WAIT TO SEE HOW WRONG I AM #My opinions will do a full 360 #fe engage #firene #celine fire emblem #etie fire emblem #alfred fire emblem #louis fire emblem #jean fire emblem #chloe fire emblem #boucheron fe #fire emblem #fire emblem engage #long Post

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sea-buns · 6 months

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Holy fuck, man. What a trip Fearne has been on, huh?

You tell her how grateful you are to have her in your life, you flatter her, you tell her you need her, that you have to do this together. You have her make a promise that has this woman, born of chaos and fey, agreeing through shaking hands and a trembling voice.

You make her deceive your friends; you make her follow where they cannot know; you make her help you into this contraption; you make her feed this thing into you despite the fact that you both have been warned extensively of the risks. You make her watch you crumble and splinter and shatter and fracture and burst and implode. You make her watch you die, over and over and over and over, for a minute in agonizing bullet time.

You make her do all these things, because when she tries to back out, when she tries to not be the one who let you do this—how could you do this—

you tell her, "YOU PROMISED."

Because if there's one thing you know, it's that the fey do not break a promise.

#cant wait for her to fucking pissed for a very long time. shes really packing the entire human experience in a very short period of time.#critical role #cr spoilers #c3e77 #fearne calloway #ashton greymoore #bells hells #just gonna get ahead of the um actually mfs and state that i am aware that its not confirmed that thats why ash brought up the promise #but boy howdy would it make for some great drama down the line huh?#edit: apparently i did not get ahead enough cuz ive had to turn off replies #since ppl were somehow interpreting this mini introspection piece as me infantilizing fearne??#anyway the first line is now changed to something a bit more neutral. after sleeping on it i do see how it was a bit aggressive at the top #other than that im not sure how else to reword without completely disregarding the core of the post #i might make more posts addressing this but im not sure yet. i wanna try to approach it in the best way possible.#but if it helps any the point of the post was not to say fearne had no agency. she had plenty of moments where she tilted one way or the #other. the POINT was to just shine some light on the emotional pressure she had been put under.#hasnt your friend ever asked you to keep a secret or promise that felt wrong or unsafe or made you anxious?#it has nothing to do with the amount of agency she had. ash wasnt holding a knife to her throat and forcing her to follow against her will #all i was trying to do was take this detail about his reminder of the promise that i thought was interesting and have some fun writing an #overview of the kinda stress she was under BEFORE theyd reached that scene. this entire ep was everyone discussing how grateful they were #for this family theyd made. and while im not saying ash was PURPOSELY emotionally manipulating fearne..#there is a level of unintentional manipulation when you pair the severity of his request with the convo theyd had 2 seconds prior #as well as the desperate need they all have to save each other NO MATTER WHAT.#ash was giving incredibly strong energy of a friend who peer pressures you into helping them do something that you know in your gut WILL #cause problems. hes a fucked up guy. theyre all fucked up guys. even if he didnt mean to “force” her into anything the pressure was THERE.#<- i feel like all of this overall gets my message across. i think maybe ill clean it up later into its own post.#im gonna try not to rush myself to get it done tho.#im under no obligation to explain myself. especially when ppl approach the misunderstanding by being rude af. but i do think it CAN #be clarified so id at least like to try to some degree

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fleshdyke · 2 months

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#csa warning for tags #ughhh ik i was just talking abt this but man. Man. constantly bullied as a child + raped as a child is a brutal combo huh #completely irreversibly fucked up sense of intimacy. i dont want to have sex with anyone i dont care what ppl think of me looks wise but i #also care more than anything and want people to want me so bad #like when ur only experience with anyone at all finding you desirable is being raped at 6ish. fucks u up man #was constantly told by everyone i knew that i was undesirable from day fucking one. i was always the one ppl would dare their friends to #'ask out' bc everyone thought i was that bad. i never had those rumours of 'some boy likes you' without people laughing in the background #all of my friends. even the ones that were also weird kids and bullied etc etc always have stories of other kids having crushes on them or #whatever. and i just never had that. it feels like i missed out on something important #i want to be pursued by a guy i hate i want them to not leave me alone. i want to feel like im in danger. and i know how fucking disgusting #that is but i cant help it. like i feel like thats the only way im going to feel normal and wanted like theres not something inherently #wrong with me. and i know how dangerous that is but its not like it matters anyways bc still no one likes me at all.#and i know how stupid of a thing it is to obsess over like what am i 9 years old? but i just cant get it out of my head #like idk i feel like the only way im going to actually feel desirable at all is if someone tries to rape me again. or if i feel like i have #to worry about someone raping me again. i know i wouldnt feel that way if someone was like. nice about it.#bc if someone genuinely liked me and was a decent human being about it i wouldnt be able to see it as anything other than faking it for pit #i wouldnt be able to believe it. even if i wasnt waiting for them to drop the joke and start laughing at me i would always think it was jus #an act bc they feel bad for me. the only way i could ever think it's genuine and that i'm desirable at all is if someone sexually #harassed me. like idk how to explain it but thats the only way i could feel desirable at all #bc it's the only way i've ever been desirable. when i was a kid.#and it terrifies me so bad bc i know how fucking disgusting that is and how self destructive it is #but i still feel like i dont even have to really worry about being assaulted. bc i still believe im completely undesirable at my core.#i dont believe i could be desired so i dont believe i have to worry about being raped. bc no one would want to anyways #rambles #vent

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silenthillbunni · 2 months

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#i shouldnt have fav mutuals bc i get sooo sad when they soft block me #which *always* happens like im not joking the day will come when they're just like nahhh bye #🥲🥲 nd i cant help but get sad #nd i dont even agree w that anon who said that 'no wonder everyone blocks u' bc im never mean to anyone #i think it's just bc im fundamentally unlikable and unlovable and the time will come when smth abt me #ticks them off nd nothing abt me is ever tolerated i always have to be perfect for everyone so then i just get cut off like dead weight lmao #also it shows that i get attached so easily but in reality ... ppl are not at all as attached to me 💀💀#like i care abt them but they dont care abt me nd it makes me feel so stupid #why do i so easily care for ppl?????? why do i have to care nd like ppl when it's always gonna end the same way #me being me is bad nd wrong and nobody could ever truly know me nd still like me #i have to live my life constantly hiding parts of myself and making sure im not too authentic or too open bc then i will make ppl dislike me #it rlly is that. im never mean. i never fight. ppl just see smth abt me nd go 'oh ewwwwww' nd then leave #nd if it hasnt already happened it will at some point nd im constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop #whenever i realize i say or did smth wrong im tense waiting for the moment where they'll leave me will arrive #ok this might sound silly bc i was like 'triggered' by smth small but like #all my life thats just how it's been. im not even mean or cruel. i just exist and ppl dont like me or who i am or what i think #i can never be truly myself anywhere. that is sure to result in being all alone 4ever. but i dont like hiding parts of myself #but i have to. but its hard when im trying to hide nd be lowkey but i still manage to make ppl dislike me T-T #idek what im supposed to do bc i just exist nd im not likable. i try to be that but im still not. idk what to do #anyway.. who cares.. j'appartiens seul #but yeah it is bc it's like this for me all the time nd ig that triggered me lmao #i mean just w my sisters.. their issue is just who i am. my personality. i havent been cruel to them. or bullied them. or put them down #they just get irritated from my personality nd who i am. thats what makes them mad. nd they kinda want me to just stop being me nd idk how #to do that and therefore we arent even talking. havent talked for a year #i wanna cry like????? what am i supposed to do??????? im so extremely fucking horrible that just by exisiting nd not being mean or cruel mak #es me unworthy of everything. idk idk like. omg i feel so stupid for being triggered by that #maybe if i had irl friends and a job and a life i wouldnt care but im a fucking loser failure worthless good for nothing idiot. ofc im this

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hella1975 · 8 months

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my mum picking me up this morning: you're not as hungover as i thought you'd be

me, just yacked in an alleyway: yeah haha

#it's 3pm now and i still cant believe that happened that was. an experience #basically my mate's 21st coincided with her sister's 30th so they both had this big joint Event last night #where they literally rented out a farm house and the field nearby and set up a whole campsite and barbeque and everything #it was really random but also really good esp bc ive been friends with this girl since we were super young #and our mums were friends so ive just got. lots of connections to her family and it was nice seeing them all again #but there was fully like 60 people at this thing and i DID drink more than i meant to but i wasn't paralytic which is good #and my hangover ISNT that bad in terms of how bad my hangovers can get #it's just that my mate's dad picked us both up at 9am this morning which was already going to be... rough #and then proceeded to do the bumpiest drive down the country lanes ive ever experienced #i was literally grinding my teeth like i am NOT about to throw up in this man's car please if there is a god do not let me throw up #and i didn't! my mum picked me up from this (thankfully very quiet) road that has this rickety old alley coming off it #and i had the very humbling moment of 'im actually going to be sick aren't i' and had to WAIT FOR AN OLD WOMAN #TO FUCKING MEANDER OUT OF THE ALLEY AND WALK FAR AWAY ENOUGH FOR ME TO AT LEAST HAVE A SHRED OF DIGNITY #and proceeded to throw up. in a public alleyway. at 9:30am on a sunday. so of course i needed to tell you guys about it #im now force feeding myself garlic bread. im going to manchester tomorrow. i have a flight at the crack of dawn on tuesday #what is even going on anymore #also fully did just do nos last night with some 30 year olds. i cannot express how fucking odd a thing that is for me to do #actually no i can express it bc youse know that im funny about drugs so for me to not even be that drunk #and get offered a fucking balloon of all things and be like 'yeah why not!' is.... odd #i know i inhaled wrong though bc it didn't do a thing which honestly im happy about <3 #hella goes home

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coldvampire · 6 months

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oh im gonna hsdgfjk

okay so three+ months ago i discovered I had a Fun Condition called perioral dermatitis. basically, just this Extraordinarily persistent face rash that looks like a bunch of small pustules in a circle around my mouth, but it also went around my nose and eyes. reacts to literally fucking Everything, deeply annoying to treat, even with antibiotics it takes weeks but usually months to clear. causes are ?? can be anything from inhaled steroids, face cream, toothpaste, hormones, etc. basically impossible to pinpoint. i have some guesses about what triggered it but ofc no real way to know for sure.

i go on 90 days of antibiotics. cool, whatever, condition dissipates but doesn't go away entirely. i think nothing of this bc I know even With oral antibiotics, it can still take months.

halfway through this treatment i develop arthritic symptoms. i also think nothing of this bc I have Some sort of illness undiagnosed anyway + family members have it so while I am definitely not happy w this development, I'm resigned.

i finish the pills.

less than 24 hours later, dermatitis has Returned. i know that allowing this to happen makes it worse and last longer. i cannot stress enough how bad it will be for my mental health if this happens. yes this probably sounds overly dramatic but I'm pretty sure watching my face flare up in any way is a legitimate trigger atp after dealing with cystic acne.

anyway. i book an appointment with my gp bc the pharmacist cannot refill the antibiotics. great except the appointment is at the End Of The Month, and I know this is going to be bad in a few days time. like, in the last few hours the inflammation has already accelerated, who knows how bad it'll be then, I'm assuming it'll be like I never even took the pills to start with. i am going to have a nervous breakdown.

mysteriously, the arthritis symptoms have Also started to decrease after stopping the antibiotics. that's weird, I think, that wasn't brought up in the list of side effects when I asked, but the timing is literally exactly when my face started flaring up so I know I definitely don't have those in my system anymore. i look this up, to see if there's a link.

'''acute polyarthritis''' also described as 'drug-induced lupus' are you Fucking Kidding Me

so i am now back as Square Fucking one for this shit, my skin is about to be so goddamn inflamed & I apparently can't even take the drug that was working to clear it up. because it causes inflammation in my joints.

and like i cant really express properly how mad this makes me lmfao because of Course. i spend a solid year on Accutane finally after being deterred for nearly a decade, i get maybe 4 months of enjoying my skin after I'm off of it and then This Shit. can i win?? can i Fucking win??????? no one else in my genepool seems to deal with this shit its just me and ohhh my god i am This close to walking straight into the ocean.

#the frustration is actually getting to me.#like. holy fucking christ.#and for what??? for WHAT.#i havent even been really going out or wearing makeup At All bc its the internship semester so !!! there was No Fucking Reason for my skin #to react to ANYTHING in the first place #its so shallow i feel so stupid but like I've actually cried multiple times over this #n o t h i n g i do works. every treatment every attempt it doesnt matter #it TANKS how i feel about myself. i cant help it.#and like idk what to do!!!!#looks like im gonna try to see a derm again but that's always a multi-month waiting process.#the thought of still looking like this when I graduate is so so upsetting. i want Pictures I want to look good. please?? fucking please???#thats several months away now but the timeline for curing this is so slow and that's assuming your treatment works anyway.#90 days of an antibiotic Should have done it idk whats wrong with me #anyway fgfhjh i Am going to cry now lmao I hate this.

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violentviolette · 1 month

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still no sign of meows. my wife, her dad and i just spend about 2 solid hours walking through the entire property, the neighbors, and the woods out back calling and looking for her and nothing

there were a few times i thought i heard a very faint meow, but it never got louder when i went closer and i couldnt find her in any of the spots around the direction i heard it

which is whats so insane to me like there is just NO sign of her anywhere its like she just completely dissapeared. and its not like someone in the neighborhood would have just picked her up and is keeping her in their house because there's 3 or 4 people who have outside cats so its not like someone would immediately assume she was a stray. especially cause she's very well fed and groomed so she's not at all scruffy looking

my wife thinks she's just so terrified that she's curled herself up in some tiny corner somewhere and is just refusing to move or make any noise. there are a lot of deer and racoons (no larger predators tho so theres no way something ate her or dragged her off, esp cause none of the outside cats in the neighborhood have ever been injured fighting another animal and meows does still have her claws intact to defend herself) so its very likely she got spooked last night in the rain and just hasnt gotten up the courage to move, even with hearing me call for her.

all the vets and shelters in the area are closed today, so no one would have dropped her off and i left messages at the closest places just incase someone brings her in on monday. im really hoping that once things quiet down tonight, she'll make a run for the litterbox and doghouse we set up and hide there. i'm gonna keep checking it every few hours throughout the night.

#jack.speaks #i know i just keep saying this but it just makes no sense to me that theres not a single sign of her ANYWHERE #none of this makes sense for her behavior and what i know about her #which is what has me the most concerned #i just cant reliably predict anything so the only thing i can do is wait and that makes me want to melt my flesh off with acid #what if doing nothing is the wrong thing to do!!!#i know im not doing nothing i know im doing everything i can rn but still!!!#what if its not enough and i dont ever find her and shes just gone and theres nothing i can do to change that #what happens if i just never see my cat again #i know thats how tragedy works i know thats just how the universe is but consider #this is one of many reasons i am going to personally hunt down and kill god and the universe in this and ever other life!!!

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intoafandom · 9 months

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#right so I’m hiding this sht in the tags because im going to sound like an absolute crazy person and i hope no one sees this or reads this #because im going to sound stupid and delusional and ik im 99.99% sure this is not gunna happen but i have to say it anyway to get it out of #my head. sooo woong dyed his hair back to black which normally i wouldn’t bat an eyelash at but idk im just getting this feeling because #they just freaking played bring it on on the radio and were dancing and singing to ravns part and ON TOP OF THAT THEY ALSO DID REWIND WHERE #XION LITERALLY SANG ALL OF RAVNS PARTS and like i cant stop thinking about it. rewind. REWIND of all songs. why did they pick THAT one.#out of EVERYTHING they picked rewind. the song that pays homage to their past memories as 6. literally doing the choreo in their seats when #the song is about TURNING BACK TIME. and now woong dyed is hair back to black. like how it was right before yj left...#leedos hair is also the same length now...and if Seoho’s hair is back to black as well...#we all feel like something big is coming and when u pair this with all the japan stuff...i cant help but think...and im still thinking about #ravns insta stories. there will be an answer let it be. ive done all i can do now i have to wait for fate. paraphrasing but yeah.#and lets not forget the fact that ravn JUST posted his full face for the first time in months. everything feels so significant and like #everything is coming together for some big moment. i cant stop thinking about it. fvcking rewind. like they’re going to be turning back the #clock completely. same looks as malus aka their last true comeback as 6 and apparently their next comeback is ALSO IN SEPTEMBER?? like...#im probably reading into this but...i cant help but think......something very huge is coming. something HUGE. something more than just #ravn dropping his mixtape. if that’s all that happens I’ll be happy 100% duh...but idk...i just think there’s gunna be something MORE.#im too scared to post this on twitter cuz ik ravn lurks and if im wrong which I probably am I wouldn’t want him to see it #or anyone else either. but im saying it here bc if i dont say it at all ill go crazy. and most of my followers here are b’s fans so they #wont read this and maybe i can bury it lol

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piplupod · 5 months

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#i think it is because i am so desperate and miserable probably #but i just really wish i knew why i am not likeable fjfkdl #i feel like there is something so obvious that im oblivious to somehow. and everyone else sees it and hates it #and i just. cant figure it out #i feel like im one of those hateful bigots who cry abt how nobody likes them and its so obvious why nobody likes them #i hope I'm not that. but maybe i am idk. i cannot figure it out and im just really tired of trying and failing w ppl #fumbling every attempt to make friends #theres ppl being v nice to me on a sideblog where I've been sharing art and stuff and I'm just constantly waiting for me to fuck it up #and then they will realize whatever it is about me that puts everyone off. and i will lose the chances of friendship.#im so scared and tired. i just want to understand what im doing wrong so i can fix it and be better and be likeable #idk i think there is just smth inherently wrong within me. im off putting somehow. there is smth festering at my core maybe #and everyone else can just /sense/ it. and i am trying so hard to be good at socializing and friendships but i somehow fumble it always #i just wish i knew what it was that im doing wrong #or like... if its smth inherent within me I'd also like to know so i can just accept it finally and move on #argh idk this is so pathetic probably but i am just so frustrated w myself tonight #im just constantly waiting for me to somehow mess things up w the nice ppl in my life rn and be left without that again #and im not doing anything to self sabotage even!! im just treading very carefully!! and trying my best to be good!!#but it seems to always go wrong somehow like ppl just... pull away #idk. i feel so terrified that it's so obvious whats wrong w me and im just not seeing it #i keep trying to look but i cannot see what it is so idk !! i keep looking!! i dont understand !!

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angryborzois · 5 months

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can't stop thinking about how cool the izana vs mikey battle is gonna be when its animated

#angryborzois rambles #its not going to happen for another few weeks #but i can dream #i cant wait to hear izana's npc-like lines #“im going to turn you into ashes” okay that's a weird thing to say but I fully support you #i really cant wait to see the scene where he easily knocks mikey and then asks if thats all hes got #im rooting for the wrong character ik #but shhh #sorry i am brainrotting #the one quote im really excited for is the one he says when the fight is about to begin #something like “you lost emma and you lost shinichiro... how does it feel to be empty?”#and mikey replies with “lets settle this izana”#but overall im excited for all of izanas lines #even the ones where hes just casually saying “woah” or “thats a great kick” and being so chill and confident #im just excited for this battle in general #i know nobunaga shimazaki is going to do an amazing job of these lines #JKFDJ SORRY I NEEDA STOP TALKING

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sereniv · 1 year

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fb suspended my account temporarily for hate speech bc i told someone, who was mad about the phrase "you are on stolen land" asking why does it need to be said and then proceeded to say that people on the rez can just leave "no ones holding them there", that "this is why. bc of ignorant white ppl like you"

like even beyond the bullshit, its relevant to the conversation! his whiteness played a roll in his ignorance!

i appealed and fb allowed my comment back up

but then suspended me?

like yeah suspend me but not the actual racist person 🙄

#like i explained nicely in the beginning but he just kept at it #and this was someone on a friends post.#and then i try and warn ppl of the stupid shirt selling bots in a yaqui group #and thats when im restricted #bc i commented multiple times maybe replying to multiple ppl?? or maybe just the other thing #ao now i have to wait 24 hours #like i can see ppl already about to buy those shirts ughh #these groups need to be closed and have some sort of requirement to join like some sentence to show youre a human #bc all the groups im in have these bots and the older ppl fall for it #thinking they are supporting fellow yoemem #only reason why i go on fb is familial connections and reconnecting #otherwise i would delete my account rn #cant even figure out how to contact fb they make it impossible to figure out and ofc they do lol #also he was being racist like discreetly i guess #'how am i supposed to know what im saying is wrong if no one tells me' we are #'its not my fault land was stolen' 'all americans are native to America' 'all land is stolen'#like BRO ur ugly go away #his name was garrett

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mikkokomori · 1 year

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basically around the time Omori first sees Headspace Basil's first death, real world Basil strangely starts seeing illusions, however at first the illusions cannot be made out very well, however the illusions become much more visible after a 1 when Omori sees Headspace Basil's death in the last blackspace room. The illusions however usually hide within the shadows or only appear when Basil can't make them out well but he eventually tricks one of the illusionary beings into appearing in an area where he can see them, he can't understand his fear upon seeing the illusion being, why does it seem so familiar to him? Still working out the au's idea, seeing what would make sense and what wouldn't

So in a way, Basil can sort of see those scenes playing out but only barely?

#sorry if i got it wrong i am jsut. raugh #but its a good idea for an au though 👁👁 cant wait to see how youll flesh it out!#omori #omori basil #omori omori #omori spoilers #omori au #parallelxester asks #miko talks #miko panta

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thatwasntlikeridingabikeuasshole · 1 year

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the plot has been thickening too much lately. yeah it's too thick now. we should add some water maybe. thinnen that thick ass plot.