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cavillsbitch · 1 year

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May I please request Hotch x Fem!Reader where the reader has low self-esteem and self-worth, hiding herself away from society and thinking she is unworthy of sex or love?

Worth It

You watched Aaron in the mirror as he set two different ties against his suit to see which he would rather wear, asking you again what you thought.

“You always look good, Aaron, but I think the red.”

He nodded, setting the other tie down and getting to work with the fabric around his neck. He was getting ready for a fancy work function, a gala or dinner of come kind. You didn’t remember exactly what, you just remember the horrifying feeling your chest became overwhelmed with when he asked if you’d go with him.

You felt guilty for declining his offer, thinking about it too much, wondering if he would prefer having a more secure partner to do all of these things with. The thought of buying (or god forbid, Aaron buying you) a fancy dress that you would only wear this one time, knowing you would feel completely ridiculous, feeling everyone’s eyes on you as you sauntered in on Aaron’s arm, sticking out like a sore and sad thumb was an absolutely nightmare. You knew you’d be following him around like a lost puppy, or sitting alone as he mingled with his very important colleagues. You were so proud of him and still so awestruck that a man like him wanted to be with you, but you felt completely undeserving of being seen with him at such an event.

He turned around to you as he finished tying his tie, gesturing to you to adjust it if needed. You smiled at him, god he was so handsome. You shook away the thought of his eye wandering to the other beautiful women he would see tonight, wishing that he had someone beautiful to bring. You stood and softly flattened out his lapels and collar, straightening his tie.

“Sometimes I feel like you leave it crooked so I can fix it,” you say, smoothing the shoulders of his jacket, trying to avoid looking him in the eye, “I’m sorry you’ll be going alone tonight.”

He stopped you for a moment, grabbing your hand at his shoulder and giving it a light squeeze as he brought it to his chest. “Of course I wish you were coming with me, but I’m not upset with you, you know that, right?”

You tried to make your nod convincing, but most of your gestures like this were hopeless in the eye of your experienced profiler boyfriend. He spoke up again, “Honey, I mean it.”

You sighed, looking down at your socked feet and his very expensive dress shoes, “I know, Aaron. I just… I know you deserve to have someone to go with.”

Aaron stopped for a second, thinking about your choice of words. He is well aware of your past few relationships being on the toxic side, and he was aware that your insecurities ran deep. He felt sadness every time you denied him spending money on you or taking you out for dinner because it was unnecessary because he knew you didn’t feel that you deserved it.

The two of you haven’t been together long, only just over three months, and The L Word hadn’t been exchanged yet. You actually hadn’t even slept together yet, which was something Aaron was willing to wait for until you were ready. You felt guilty, knowing he was stressed from work and that he deserved someone who could ease that stress for him in the bedroom, he deserved to have someone to come home to who could love him the way he deserved. There were a lot of things that you wanted for Aaron that you didn’t think you could fulfill due to your insecurities. You tried, most of the time, to look past it and to put on a brave face but it didn’t always work.

He took your other hand in his, “I wanted to go with you, not just anyone. I want my friends and colleagues to see me happy with the woman I… the woman I love.”

This made you look at him with wide eyes, “What?”

He smiled, “I’m sorry, I know that was a less than romantic way of saying it, but I couldn’t help it. I love you, and I want you to know. I need you to know.”

Your eyes welled up with tears, feeling a mix of happiness and guilt. Of course you loved Aaron, he was so easy to fall for, but you would never dare admit that to him before he did to you. You felt guilty because you didn’t feel that you deserved the place in his life where he now put you. You weren’t saying anything, too many thoughts bouncing back and forth in your head, so he spoke again, “Honey, why are you crying?” His thumbs came up to gently wipe the tears coming down your face.

You sighed, shaking your head, “I don’t know. I love you too, Aaron, I really do. It’s impossible not to, it’s just… it’s hard for me. I don’t feel like I deserve those words from you.”

Aaron brought his hands gently to the sides of your head, tilting it up to meet your eyes with his. The look on his face was so genuine it made your chest tingle, “Y/N, you deserve every word. You are one of the most beautiful and supportive women I have ever met. You welcomed my son into your life, you stick around despite my insane work schedule, you are funny and so smart. You are worthy of love, and worthy of my love. I will spend every day proving that to you.”

The tears continued, and you felt yourself wanting to believe him. Before you could respond, he kissed you. This kiss was different, it was firm and passionate. You couldn’t help but melt into him as his arms came around your waist. Your hands caressed the sides of his neck as you kissed him back. For a moment, Aaron pulled away to speak in a hushed tone, “Let me show you how much I love you.”

You shook your head, “You have to go. That can wait for later or another time, it’s okay.”

You felt his hands wander lightly under the hem of your shirt. He tilted his head down to kiss your neck right beneath your ear before talking lowly “I can be late.”

“Aaron…” You were nervous about your first time with Aaron, worried that you were going to disappoint him. You also trusted him, and loved him, and knew that if you felt nervous that he would be there to guide you through it. You took a deep breath, “…I don’t know if I’m ready.”

Your eyes were closed, not able to look him in the eye as his forehead rested against yours. He rubbed a hand up and down your side, “If that’s the case, Y/N, then we don’t have to. I just need you to understand how much love you deserve, even if you don’t believe me.”

You opened your eyes, and met his. He was so ready to give himself to you fully, and you were standing in his way, literally. Another deep breath and a collection of your thoughts was what you needed, plus, he spoke again.

“You have no idea how badly I want to make you feel good, how good I can make you feel…”

For some reason, this made your skin hot and your breath hitch. Men you’d dated before hadn’t been like Aaron. You’d slept with other men before, men who’d wanted to use you to get off, men who didn’t care about your pleasure, forcing you to believe you didn’t deserve it. However, you couldn’t help but be so painfully attracted to him. You fantasized about your own boyfriend more than you dared to admit, and this was the moment for you to take what you wanted if you ever had it.

“I… I want you, Aaron, I do… I’m just n-nervous.”

Aaron shook his head and kissed your forehead, “You have nothing to be nervous about. If you want to stop, just tell me and I will stop,” he kissed you, lifting your shirt over your head and kissing you again. As he was shrugging off his suit jacket, you broke the kiss.

“What about your thing? You’re going to be so late…” You could barely make the end of the sentence as his hands trailed up your bare back to unhook your bra, which he did very adeptly.

“You’re worth it.”

#aaron hotchner #aaron hotchner x reader #criminal minds #hotch #aaron hotchner fanfic #aaron hotchner x fem!reader #criminal minds fanfic #request #aaron hotchner request

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letstalkwhump · 11 months

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Welcome to Let’s Talk Whump, a series of interviews that spotlight the amazing people in our whump community! I’m Malice and I’ll be your host today.

Here today to talk all things whumpy is the brilliant @whumpcereal!

It’s great to have you here! Let’s start with a fact or two about yourself like your favorite color or favorite animal?

My name is Kay, and I’m a high school teacher in my 30’s. Besides whumping unsuspecting gentlemen, my hobbies include reading a lot, belting out showtunes, cooking for people I love, hitting up new bars and restaurants with friends, and traveling. And since you asked–and as a teacher, I hate unanswered questions–I’ve recently realized that orange might be my favorite color, and I love gorillas.

What does whump mean to you?

It’s the sort of pressing-on-a-bruise feeling that is wrapped up in watching someone suffer and then be comforted. It’s the need for vulnerability and human connection. It’s watching Prince Philip get chained to a wall and not understanding why you find it so magnetic, but you do, haha!

How did you find the whump community? What made you want to join?

I was writing for the Newsies fandom (I know) during the pandemic, and one of my favorite authors tagged her epic work with “whump.” I clicked the tag on tumblr, and I found @lonesome--hunter’s Ezra almost immediately; I fell down the rabbit hole and never came out. After Ezra, I spent a good long time with @ashintheairlikesnow’s Danny and then @galaxywhump’s Wren. I realized that a lot of what I was putting in my own writing could be classified as “whump,” but I wasn’t sure how to join in the fun. I lurked for a while and then beta-ed for @darkthingshappen before I got brave enough to post my own stuff. But part of what motivated me to start posting was just how supportive and welcoming the whole community is. On AO3, you can get tons of hits but almost no real engagement; with whump, that’s totally different. It makes my little dopamine receptors ping.

The whump community is amazingly supportive! Do you think your view on or the way you consume whump changed since you joined?

I am definitely a hurt/comfort gal. I can’t do the hurt without the comfort, and I need my whump to be strongly oriented in the characters’ feelings, whether we’re talking whumpers or whumpees. I struggle when a character is just getting the shit kicked out of them endlessly; I want them to have some relief, even if the relief is bittersweet or painful in its own way. I also find it easier to whump an OC than I do a fandom character, just because if they’re mine, I can build the kind of backstory that makes the whump reasonable.

And your favourite whump trope?

I do like noncon. Whump is a genre where I’ve really been able to explore scary things that have happened to me, and when a whumpee has an honest (and not needlessly gratuitous) nonconsensual experience, I gravitate toward it, especially if they’re allowed to explore the aftermath and how it makes them feel. I also love a mute whumpee–probably because I watched The Little Mermaid too many times growing up. Something about the helplessness of being trapped in your own body and at the mercy of others–hey, whumperflies! Captivity whump too, especially anything in the BBU. The BBU was one of my favorite discoveries when I found the community. It provides such rich opportunities!

Captivity whump is so good! Would you mind sharing a favourite piece you've written? (the following pieces may contain non-explicit nsfw references)

Ooooh. Well, I guess I’ll choose one from each of my series. For Jack, my first and forever whumpee in Behavior Modification, and his caretaker, my wish-fulfillment fake husband, Joe, it’s this piece with their little girl. It’s something that I wrote in basically a single stretch one afternoon last summer, and I’m proud of it because it shows both how far Jack has come in his recovery and how much everything he’s gone through is still affecting him. It also shows how fierce of a protector Joe is, even though Jack’s got strength of his own. Plus, Hallie, their little girl, was super fun to create. She’s a feisty little thing, and I liked the idea of looking at such a dark, violent system through a child’s eyes.

For The Kennel, it’s this piece which immediately follows my boy Will after his best friend Tommy is forced to assault him. It’s got the aftermath of noncon, plus it includes a lot of world building for my scary whumper, Doc, and his particular set-up. It really sets up the horror of the situation in which Will and Tommy have found themselves and also emphasizes the stories of other whumpees whose stories I’d love to explore (Justin and Tony, I’m looking at you). Plus, it gives Annie–who’s technically the caretaker in this story, even though she’s been abused herself–a chance to think about how she’s been raised and the way her father treats people. My favorite moment is when Will just breaks down completely, because we haven’t seen him do that yet. It’s a human moment, and he’s feeling so much less than human that it’s almost cathartic.

And then, honorable mention to this piece where I crossover my two stories and let Jack help Will as his post-rescue counselor. I had so much fun with that reveal!

Oh wow, I love the Kennel piece! You’ve broken my heart with Justin and Will! Would you like to share your writing routine with us?

I’ve actually been riding a bit of a block lately, but typically, I am an evening writer. No drinks or snacks, but usually movie scores that match the mood of what I’m writing. On good nights, it’s big blocks; on others, it’s just a sentence here and there (that’s been where I’m at lately). I try to write a little every day, but again, it’s been rough lately. Being a teacher at the end of the year is just as hard as being a student, haha.

I can only imagine! Are some things easier for you to write? Anything you struggle with writing?

I have an easier time writing recovery than I do straight whump, which is sometimes a bummer, because the whump community doesn’t seem to like recovery quite as much. So, I’ll pour myself into a recovery piece I have big feelings about, and then it won’t get quite as much traffic and engagement as when I’m roughing up the boys. I am very careful about how I write noncon. I think I do a decent job, but I try to approach it from a place of sensitivity to the person who is suffering versus engaging through violence alone. That can take a lot of time and thought and big feelings.

And is there anything you're working on at the moment?

I do have a fantasy crossover miniseries with Jack, Joe, and Ivan and @oddsconverts’ Josh and Felix that I’ve had a really fun time working on. I need to write a little intro before I post it. I need to go back to Jack and his intimacy consultations at WRU, and AU AU Joe and his reaction to the Drip. Poor Will and Tommy are in desperate need of attention; I need to get Will sold away so all the drama can increase. Maybe during summer vacation?

Do you have a joke or pun you would like to share to spread some smiles today? I am only funny on accident. Just ask my students. ;-)

Do you have any writing advice you’d like to share?

I’m great at giving advice to others, but absolute shit at following that advice myself. For instance, write for you. Don’t write for hits, likes, reblogs, etc. Just write what you want to read. Write as often as you can. During the pandemic, what got me back into writing after years of thinking about it was trying to write a little every day. Find you some writing friends who will get excited with you when there’s something you can’t wait to write about.

Finally, would you like to give a mention to some of the amazing people in the whump community?

I already mentioned some of my favorites, but shout outs to @hold-him-down (whom I was lucky enough to eat very expensive risotto with this spring and whose Leo is one of my very favorite whumpees), @peachy-panic (58 Days is one of my VERY favorites), @whump-for-all-and-all-for-whump (whose Wyatt has my whole heart), and @squishablesunbeam (I mean, Jesse? Come on!). My first friends in the whump community were @darkthingshappen (creator of my Benny baby), @oddsconvert (whose series are all so beautifully written that I can’t choose a favorite–she even made me like vampire whump–and who is my wonder twin forever), and @sparrowsage (go check out his new stuff!).

Thank you so much for joining us, @whumpcereal ! It was a pleasure to have you here!

And to all you lovely folks at home, have a whump-derful day!

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inqilabi · 12 days

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I’m kind of surprised you started dating a lot more and are open to Islam recently, you’re one of the reasons I stopped entirely, which neither is a wrong thing to do. It’s kind of hard to do it alone but I just prioritized friendships in the time I’ve been following you. Which actually is closer to 10 years now I think, definitely since way before the pandemic. Anyway it’s just been on my mind to send this ask for a while now, you seem so successful that when I get to be where you are I know I’ll be even less interested in marriage and dating, but I guess that’s also a plus for you since you said you want kids. Good luck with it all, It’s great you were able to reconcile yourself and Islam, I’ve never felt like religion could be fulfilling, especially when you have views on gender and politics that go again the core tenants of a patriarchal religion. But I can see how the immediate community has its appeal and people are judged overly harshly when they don’t conform to societal and gender expectations of be a woman/man then have a partner/kids, and it’s not like there aren’t other good things too. Anyway I’m glad I followed you when I did because I got a new perspective and it made me more of a brave, accountable person, I’m not really afraid of being lonely and I can take accountability for my wrongs too, knowing that socialization is so deep I need to think about why and what I’m doing. You a few other people impacted me so deeply when I was 16 and trying to leave my parents home

wow this is a very sweet message. But almost makes feel scared that i had an impact on impressionable young teens I dont think my views on Islam have changed, certainly not as much as my view on dating. I still have the same criticisms of sunni jurisprudence. I think i just have less of exposure to that community now as i did back in the day, and it just use to rile me up. I was just angry, justifiably so, and wanting to dismiss everything - and it showed up in the tone of my writing.

I mean i still can't go around muslim events saying the things i actually believe. Sunni jurisprudence is undeniably patriarchal. But so long as they aren't like getting very preachy, doing halaqas and sermons on how to oppress women, im okay. In my uni days, MSAs were actually doing exactly that. That's why i was so critical. But i see now this type of thing seems to be dying down, atleast in my area. i dont find religion fulfilling but i do find likeminded people fulfilling. I still associate more with like academic type folks who either research religion, anthropology, write critiques. I went to a party full of marxists the other day. I didnt agree with everyone there. But i suppose, its discussion that's fulfilling. And sometimes muslim community and gathering can be very dismissive and not receptive to discussion. Which is a shame because in the islamic golden age, that's all they were doing.

i was honestly planning to be alone, and my plan was to solo adopt a kid if i wanted a child. I felt this way all the way up until like summer of 2022. then something did change. and i didn't want to be alone. if you had asked the 2013-2022 version of me, i would have balked at the thought of me wanting a partner. I was almost proud of it. Proud of being a single unattached woman with no men in her life. I suppose the only thing I can say now is that it's very hard to predict how and what you will feel and want at some point in the future. I was certain that I wouldn't want companionship and kids. Half my blog was dedicated to it. And that is kind of scary. I actually wrote about this on my blog back in the fall of 2022. It scared me how much something had shifted so suddenly, something that was a such long held state. If that could change, what else could change?

At your age, i would say prioritize career first ofc/financial freedom etc. If you dont have that, you wont feel ready for anything else. And ofc keep expanding your friend circle and forming connections through local activities or travel.

#asks #love mail

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ratkingssillyboy · 6 months

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So I’ve been wanting to read the rest of the royal ranger series and figured I’d reread the main series first as it’s been around six years since I first found them, after reading the first book I’m just so glad that it holds up to how fantastic it was the first time and I have ALOT to say.

-The way that Will and Horace grow so much in just the first book, I mean we have Will whose main defence is running and finding a hiding spot but is still witty and a fast thinker to a brave resourceful determined young man. The training my boy is put through is ROUGH but he doesn’t even think of trying to get out of it or wishing he wasn’t a rangers apprentice, we get to see as he matures and simply grows into himself just…the steadiness he has in him by the end of the book, he has a long way to go but we get a glimpse at the man he’ll become.

Horace has an even greater arc, we see him as a simple minded bully (which he absolutely is in those early chapters) but then we see that he’s a natural swordsman who has his own insecurities. We then watch as he’s confronted with the trio of bullies and still unsure of the traditions and usual ways of battle school we see as he soldiers through taking their shit and STILL managing to keep up to a degree, the way that it still affects his school work and social life was perfectly depicted like on harvest day where he lashed out at those he cares about was brilliant but also him not keeping up with school work which when the issue is taken care of becomes much easier for him. But through it all we get to see as he matures, now he isn’t that bully we saw at the start he is a talented loyal friend who is willing to try and take down a boar to keep someone he’s been awful to safe and then witnessing Will do the same for him, making a promise that he soon fulfils regardless of his own injuries

Just watching Will and Horace, these two boys going from school yard enemies to the mature young men who would absolutely die for the other by the end of the book was fantastic, there was no force behind it like it felt so natural and easy once they were able to actually see the other and how far they both had come since the choosing, and it isn’t perfect there’s still tension but they’re friends

- speaking of the boar attack, when Will shoved his face into halts chest and cried? I sobbed as well, absolute puddle of a mess because of course Will would cling to halt after such a terrifying ordeal, and halt just?? Comforting him??? Like the heart attack this man must of had watching his son apprentice facing down a massive boar with a bow and two knives, that hug absolutely healed something in halt John told me so himself.

- I remember originally reading the books at age 12-14 and not comprehending why Will asking so many questions annoyed halt but now at the age of 20? I get it, I finally understand this poor tired middle aged man. Though the absolute dead pan wit this Halt gives Will with each interaction made me wheeze.

- Can I just say, Will meeting Tug? Like he has no idea that he's just met one of his most loyal dedicated companions, just them meeting and growing such a strong bond so quickly I mean the way Will was TERRIFIED when Tug came to his defence during the boat attack and Will could only think of the injuries Tug could get, Tug would not have been Wills horse for long at that point maybe a few months at most and already Will is so attached.

- Gilan, it's wild to think about the fact I'm now around his age? Like he's actually so young????? I just love his dynamic with halt, the respect he shows him while also being the little shit he is is perfect, and the big brotherly way he is around will I just know he's so proud and impressed by this little 15 year old, he absolutely has asked himself if he was ever that silly as halts apprentice (the answer is yes)

-Old bob is a national treasure, I know that man has hit halt on the upside of his head at least once, feel it in my bones

- JUST WILL CHOOSING HALT OVER HIS LIFELONG DREAM I know Halt was holdin tears l just know it, like everyone knew just how much Will wanted to be a knight and yet when offered HE DECLINED because he loves his dad

Thank you for coming to my ted talk

#rangers apprentice #the rangers apprentice #halt o'carrick #will treaty #horace altman

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taylorswiftstylequestions · 2 months

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I’m here to hype up the anon in college going to their first TS club event. First of all, as someone who’s so familiar with loneliness, I totally hear you on this. I know how hard it can be to take the first step in building a more fulfilling social life, and I’m so proud of you for taking this first step and for sharing it with us. I mean to say: this brave decision is worth celebrating! 🥳💚

Secondly, I just wanna say… you will always be welcome in places you’re meant to be. For me personally, I don’t fit into the Swiftie archetype either (is there one?) but TSSQ is just one example of a space where I feel loved, whole, just… all the warmie feelings. When you know, you know.

Thirdly, friend, I’m so happy you’re holding yourself accountable. And no pressure but I hope you’re able to keep us posted—will be cheering you on in the meantime!! 💗💗💗

taylor swift club anon reporting back!!

it was interesting?! a surprising percentage of attendees didn’t actually know much about taylor swift and had just been brought along by friends who do. but it was a good place to practice meeting new people because there was (usually) a built-in common interest!

I don’t know if they’ve announced their next event but even if I don’t go back I’m really glad I went! I’m trying to do at least one thing per month that gets me out of my comfort zone 🥰

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A classic "I thought the two of you should meet"!!!! I love when you guys support one another and I'm obsessed w this update. I'm so proud of you both.

#tsser

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rizaposting · 4 months

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10 5 good things/things I'm proud of this year

Thank you to @aicasey for tagging me! ;w; I shortened it to 5 because hhhuuuuuuu it's been a year lmao

I successfully moved out of my apartment on my own. With the exception of one of my friends coming to help me move boxes down the stairs to a uhaul box for a few hours, I was completely on my own to plan, decide what I was going to do with my stuff, pack everything up, clean, get a permit, and all the other shlock that accompanies moving. It was extremely annoying and stressful but I did it! And I somehow got my full security deposit back so hell yeah.

Hot! Girl! Summer!!! Which is what me and my dear friends call it when I drive down to see them (regardless of gender or the time of year). We got together three times this past year! Which is great because we lived at minimum 4 hours apart but after I moved I DID drive 8 hours to see them so we could have Hot Girl Halloween and watch the FNAF movie together. I love them both so much :] I love them so much I would brave the Jersey Turnpike for them, even.

Over the summer I got into Berserk. I started by watching the 97 anime and was so enthralled that I read all 373 chapters that were available at the time in two weeks. I'd never had two hyperfixations at the same time before (FMA and Berserk) and I think it accelerated the speed at which my cells die. Berserk is currently on a kind of hiatus due to the circumstances of its production, so the hyperfixation has died down a lot, but I still cry and wail about Casca whenever I think of her on a regular basis, I love her so much. I've never binged through something so long in such a short period of time before hahaha.

Earlier this year, my beloved dnd group finished our first campaign! We started in ~February 2019 and ended ~Feb/March 2023 so it was almost exactly four years. It's the first long campaign I've ever finished, and it was so emotional and fulfilling and I LOVE those characters and the world so much!!! My character was Osirah Dirncath, a dragonborn paladin shunned from her templar order and exiled to what she was told was a war-torn wasteland, only to find out she'd been fed propaganda her whole life and the world outside her home was indeed thriving and beautiful and worth saving. She was a slippery lesbian lizard with crippling Catholic guilt who stayed kind and hopeful no matter what. She had to sacrifice her own patron god to kill The Devil, From Bible. She fell in love with our group's monk, Compassion, and in the epilogue they get married and have a baby together named "Mercy".

Maybe it's a bit of a cop out BUT my last one is going to be: producing more insane Rizaposting content (and art and writing!) and reaching out to other people who have similar brainworms. I had been putting off getting back onto tumblr, but it has been so neat getting to talk to more people. I'm always so self-conscious about things so it's nice to just... embrace being weird and silly and unwell, and just have fun with my creative endeavors. I'm looking forward to talking to more people and drawing more and writing more and posting more riza-ramblings in the new year. Gotta feed them leeches, babygirl!

This year was rather uneventful but still hard for me, mentally. It's nice to try to pull some positives from it haha. I'm not even going to say anything that could possibly jinx 2024, so all I'll say is that I hope everyone has a safe and happy new year's. We never do anything special, so I'll just be vibing with a cheap bottle of fruit wine.

I'm a bit late getting around to this, so I don't want to tag anyone and have them feel obligated to do anything last minute. If you've read this far and want to do it, I'm officially tagging you!!!

#crystal convos #tag meme #happy new year everyone thank you all for being so kind to me :]

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hadakzu · 6 months

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Everytime I see small Keigo I can't help but think of how lonely and heart it must have been to go through everything he did alone. With no siblings to lean on to, no one to hug this hurt little kid when things were tough. When his parents treated him badly, no one there to comfort him and tell him how good he actually was, how he didn't deserve to be yelled at.. hit at... Someone who got his back, someone who would have stood up for him and telling how amazing and caring kid he was. Imagine him having a older sibling he could trust and open up to. Someone who would have told him how brave he was going outside, saving all those people he didn't even know! Despite knowing he could get into trouble he still did what he believed to be right.

Imagine if instead of only his Endeavor plushie he actually had someone there to hug and protect him, reminding him not to listen to his parents bullshit, he wasn't stupid, he wasn't just waste of space or time and he definitely was worth more than what his wings could offer.

Just gfhghfh

As a parentified older daughter with many younger siblings I literally end up crying thinking how hurt and lonely he must have been, only child in a shitty home that could barely offer a roof on top if his head if even that.

Aaaa I want to adopt him lmaoo. Let him just be a kid and listen to everything he had on his mind. I would let him ramble about heroes and how much he loved Endeavor and heroes. Seeing the moment he realized he and other heroes in fact were real!

Imagine if he got adopted by loving people instead of the HSBC where he could freely express himself. He would definitely still want to so good, save people like he had been saved. The kid got a pure beautiful heart and I would listen to him talking about wanting to become someone like that too, someone like Endeavor. How he would grow up to be a hero 100% by his own choice, not forced to listen just another orders to fulfill. Not someone just used for others own gain, knowing his worth and being free.

Having someone there to remind him he was worth much more than what he could offer for others. Supporting him through the path he would choose and telling him how proud they were of him.

He was just a little kiiiid. Having to go through all that hard training.. I just want him to be able to be a normal kid doing normal kid stuff and meeting people his age and just having fun. If he grew up in a more loving stable home he would definitely have much more than his little Endeavor plushie. He would probably have a room filled with Endeavor stuff lmao and I love that for him <3

He's a kid with lots of wonder and curiosity, and I want him to be able to learn about world and explore it in a safe supporting environment. Playing video games while eating home made cookies and stuff.

Going to amusement parks and seeing kids and people smile on their face. Feeling warm how he could experience these things too, watching other families having fun and realizing just how different he had been treated. Despite feeling little sad things couldn't be like this with his real parents at least now he didn't have to worry about that anymore. Having stable loving home and people who supported him and made him feel warm safe and welcomed.

I want him to have a place he could invite his friends and play with, do different things and be carefree.

I just want the little Keigo to have much more than what life has given him okay 😭

Kids make me cry okay? I want to hug them and tell them everything's going to be okay. When I see little Keigo I can't help but think what if that was my younger brother. All alone without no one 😭😭 Makes me cry everytime it breaks my heart. I want to protect that pure heart and let him be free to express himself. I would fight to keep it safe 😤

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Keigo needs a warm safe hug❤️🥺😭

#I always end up crying in 2 different situation when I edit him #Fisrt is when watching small Keigo #Second when editing Hawks and Twice moments #hawks #keigo tamaki #mha hawks #mha keigo takami #bnha hawks #bnha keigo

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haru-natsuka · 2 years

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Rejection (Deuce Spade x Female Reader)

Genre: Angst

What burden you must beared due to be from another world...

(As per usual, the photo is not mine. It belongs to its rightful owner. If anyone knows who is the person, feel free to let me know)

Both of your relationships had went too far already since you both first meeting during your high school. You fell for his kindness and he fell foryour braveness. From being a friend to a couple and the two if you about to take another step in the journey which was being engaged with one another. Hopefully could be each other soulmate for the entire life.

Everyone knew how Deuce would like to make his mother proud of him. Therefore, every single big decision he would make, must got through his mother consent first and his engagement plan included in it too.

He had successfully fulfilled his dream to be an honour student before so he aimed for being the son his mother had. He prefered to listen to his mother's words whether he liked it or not as his mother knew the best for his son right?

"You cannot be together with her anymore. She is not for you, my son. I'm sorry dear Y/N, please find someone else."

"B-but mom! I only love-"

"You should tell me the truth beforehand when you tried to take it further with Y/N" Deuce's mom immediately leaved the room to not hear further excuses from her son while the cold tension still remained.

You could just hang your head low as you stared at the food prepared by Deuce's mom that was just getting cold by seconds past. The blame really was on you for not telling her the truth of your origin which was from another world than Twisted Wonderland. The fright evidence in her voice still echoed in your head repeatedly as you could relate with her. You were scared too.

The same fright you had long fruit inside the heart from the first day you were sucked into this world. You were afraid of suddenly disappearing from the world you had come to love and left Deuce too. If you could swap from one world to another, there was a chance the same thing could occur in the future.

It was not a guarantee you could grow old with Deuce and worst he would be affected by your disappearance the most. Deuce's mother did not want he precious son to go through heavy heartache so it was far better to stop everything now.

"Y/N, we, I will convince mom more so don't be sad alright?" The one who was far woe was Deuce as his eyes were busied spilling tears and he looked extra miserable as he was torn between to listen to his mother or not.

You wiped his tears away with your thumb with determination. Only you could lessen the burden Deuce carrying right now and only one thing needs to be done. Let's just listen to someone wiser.

"Let's stop here, Deuce" Deuce's eyes stared wide into yours and it mixed with betrayal due to your sudden confession. He, in reflex, held both of your shoulders to convince you more to not lose hope due to his mother's lack of blessing. He would never give up to persuade his mom so you should not leave him, please...

"Wh-what b-but Y/N I'm gonna proposed to you"

"Then, I will reject it as you-" are just too dear for me. You did not dare to end your words. It was painful enough for both of you but everything was for Deuce's future happiness to be assured as what his mother desired.

#twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #deuce spade x reader #deuce spade #twst deuce #twst x reader #twst #deuce twst #deuce x reader #deuce x you #heartslaybul x reader #heartslabyul #deuce x oc #angst #romance #twisted wonderland angst #twst angst

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pompadourpink · 6 months

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Hi mom!

Im a college student, so far im feeling really happy and content. However, there is this one thing that i can’t get out of my mind. I’m feeling this genuine attraction towards an assistant. I KNOW HOW THAT SOUNDS LIKE. but i swear to god im not immature i am actually the sensible one in the group. so something like that happened for the first time. I am very brave when it comes to trying new things, participating in class etc but not in my romantic life. I want to make a move but idk how. and if it was just a crush i could easily let it go but i am actually really interested in him. idk how i can make it work without seeming like a fangirl that hasnt matured since middle school . Any advice ?

Hello hello,

It is hard to answer this without knowing your ages but I have to imagine that there is quite an age difference since you mentioned your maturity four times in this small paragraph - but also could not find a single thing to mention about him. It's not that he's a dream, it's that you're interested. I don't know how close you are to him but if he works at your school, probably not that much. This feels like infatuation with a confident man who happens to have a personality in a sea of smelly college boys. And that leads me to my next point: older people are interesting. They had time to exist, experience things, learn, evolve, and slowly turn into good wine. That's why your attraction to him makes sense.

But as someone who has recently turned 31, was a traditional teacher and has worked with students of all ages, my feeling is that this shouldn't turn into a relationship. He knows things you don't and is very aware of what girls your age grew up seeing in movies, have never had, and have been craving. If he is the good man you think he is, he shouldn't want to date you. It would be scarily easy to get what he wants and more and manipulate you into doing things that you actually have no interest in doing and potentially will have to recover from later. Dating in your early twenties sucks as those relationships will rarely be very fulfilling, but dating older when you're that young and inexperienced is dangerous. The men who want younger girlfriends don't want you to be able to compare, to set boundaries, to do things your way, to act your own age, to be independent. You really don't want to be stuck with them.

That being said, it is great that you know what you want, that you are thirsty for new experiences, that you have standards, that you go for charisma and personality over green eyes and a specific height - since loving someone's mind above everything else is essential to a good relationship, so I'm proud of you for that. If he feels like a breath of fresh air, you can try befriending him, have him talk about books or shows he likes, ask for advice, and admire him from afar, like you would do with the older brother of your friend in middle school. Find out what it is that you enjoy in him, and aim to feel this way about yourself. Start a hobby that will allow you to meet more people like him. Maybe you'll meet again when you are - at least - in your mid-twenties and something will happen then. But in the meantime, I wouldn't recommend you date anyone who is over two or three years older than you.

Much love,

Mum

#ask #malks

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my-castles-crumbling · 20 days

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Hi Cas!!! I’m so appreciative for the safe space you’ve created and I wish only the best for you. If you have any wisdom for me I could really use it, this might be a lot and all over the place so please only answer if you have the spoons <3

In 1 week I’m quitting my job (along with the entire career path that goes with it) and I feel so broken over it. This career has been my dream since I was 11yo, it’s non-standard, creative, pays plenty, and gives me the freedom to choose what I work on, when I work, and who I want work with. I dropped out of my university with just 1 year left of my bachelors to pursue it because I hated school so much. I have genuinely put every ounce of myself into it. And... I hate it so much. I haven’t told anyone yet because I can barely admit it to myself.

I’m so scared because I don’t think I know who I am without this job. I feel like I have nothing else going for me in my life, I don’t have a group of people I can lean on and I can’t go finish my degree and have no other qualifications. It’s not that I feel I can’t make something of myself now because I know I can but it’s more so like starting next week everything I’ve done in my life will amount to a pile of nothing. And honestly? I feel pretty pathetic realizing that I only really have my job, I’m not good with people and don’t make friends easily and when I do I can’t bring myself to make them last, I’m not incredibly smart or clever, and tbh I don’t think luck has ever been on my side.

I’m also scared that I’m giving up on something that I shouldn’t. I can’t help but feel like I ruined it for myself in a very Vienna way. I was 19 when I left school and I don’t think I ever coped with the overwhelming feeling of oh my god I have to work everyday for the rest of my life and have real responsibilities now and what if that was too much and if I started my job when I was 22 I’d be fine and I’d still love it. I’m absolutely certain in my decision to leave but I don’t know how I’m going to confront losing everything I know about my identity. And what if when I do figure something else out, my tragic disconnectedness makes me hate that too because I feel like it’s inevitable that I grow to hate everything around me.

Hi!

Oh god, this is SO relatable for me. And really, I think you're definitely doing the right thing.

A few things...

First of all, even though you're quitting your job now, that doesn't make the work you did in the past suddenly amount to nothing. It's still something you can be proud of. Hell, from a purely neutral standpoint, holding a job for a decent amount of time looks great on a resume!

I also think it's absolutely brave an commendable that you're taking a step to better your life by searching for what makes you happy. There's NOTHING wrong with doing that at all, and I genuinely wish I could do the same.

As far as realizing your job is your identity- I've been there. During covid, when I couldn't teach, I realized that teaching had become my entire personality. I took all my self-worth from being a good teacher. And I went through a literal depression. But it forced me to find hobbies and spend time with my wife (then-fiancee) and rethink things that are important to me.

Take this time to figure out what makes you you. What hobbies do you enjoy? What makes you happy? Go out by yourself to a bar or to a movie or an art class. Find what makes you feel fulfilled and do it a lot.

You've got this, and I'm SO proud of you for taking this step!

(Also I am naming all the anons who write to me in case they want to write in the future, and I am using a random positive affirmation generator to do so. So I dub thee: brave anon. Enjoy your free tag!)

#ask #asks #ask cas #brave anon

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danpuff-ao3 · 1 year

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the obvious one: snarry!

Hiya Ashes!!!! Thank you not only for sending an ask, but for giving me an opportunity to chat more about my beloved. 😍 Very kind of you!

1.) What made you ship it?

I answered this a bit yesterday in a different ask from Liv, but basically some combination of Harry and Snape being my favorite characters, and the idea sort of clicking after I read a Drarry fic where Snape had the hots for Draco ("okay...Draco/Harry...Draco/Snape...but what about Harry/Snape????") After that I dived into the deep end of the Snarry pool and never came up for air. 🤣 They just clicked for me.

It's like...I don't know. I guess I love them both so much (and always did love them) for a reason, and the more I read the more it made sense. At first it was the taboo nature that appealed to me, not gonna lie. The age difference, the student/teacher, the love/hate, the angst. There were so many darkness and grittiness and angstiness in those earlier fics that simply sang to my soul. I was so young (11) when I discovered it, so I don't think I was rationalizing it back then, but over time it just...I saw more of their similarities and how they fit together and how they worked together. I saw all the ways they could clash and and fight and break, and mold and mend and heal. All they ways they could be each other's strength, and weakness. The ways they could make each other better, and make each other worse. The ways they could hurt each other, the ways they could fulfill each other.

Typing that all out reminded me of a song that always gave me Snarry feels:

And then I crashed into you And I went up in flames, could've been the death of me But then you breathed your breath in me And I crashed into you Like a runaway train, you will consume me But I can't walk away

"Crashed" by Daughtry

2.) What are your favorite things about the ship?

OHO WHERE DO I BEGIN????

First of all, they're soulmates. No, I am not accepting criticism at this time.

The stag and doe patronuses???? Helloooo. Meant to be.

Also: their synastry: here and here.

The "wrongness" of it between the age gap, the power imbalance, and Harry being the savior while Severus is a spy (and ex-Death Eater.) Not to mention all the complicated ties and baggage with Snape's ex best friend being Lily and his school bullies were James (the father) and Sirius (the godfather.) Imagine an AU where everyone lives...even if Severus never was a Death Eater, or Harry's professor, how much drama would ensue just from those ties alone???? SO MUCH AND I LOVE IT.

Harry's fame and Severus' infamy. How everyone will always hero-worship Harry and see him through rose-colored glasses while Severus is feared and/or hated by so many people (particularly his pupils.) The popularity/unpopularity alone would raise so many eyebrows and raise so many questions.

I love their flaws. Severus being such a snarky bastard, and Harry being a sassmaster. Severus being so temperamental and rude and strict and proud. Harry being reckless and a bit self-righteous and pretty hot-headed himself. They're both rather intense and obsessive. Even their physical flaws do things to me. Harry's wild hair and his knobby knees. Severus' hooked nose and greasy hair.

I love their virtues, too. I often wax poetic about flaws, but the good stuff is just as nice! They're both curious, and passionate, and bold. They're both intelligent in their own ways, Severus more academic and Harry with more intuitive, gut-knowledge. Severus being so skilled in the mental realm, Harry in the physical. The ways those different intelligences complement each other and balance each other. They're both magically skilled and powerful. They love both love magic. They're both a bit adventurous, Severus with his experimentation and invention, Harry with his quests and sneaking. They're both very strong, and brave. They both overcame so much hardship in life, from their younger years and onward, neither of them really catching much of a break. They both played such vital roles in the war. They were both used as tools and weapons in the war effort, seen more for their use than personal, individual value. They were both determined to help and win and do what was right. Both were willing to die for the cause (and did.) They're both loyal, devoted, determined men.

They can see themselves in each other, for better and worse. And once they break down the walls between them, those parts of them can meet and blend and work together.

Best of all...for two men who were once seen as worthless, as targets, and later valued for their usefulness, all the joy they can find in being seen for themselves, and accepted and understood and even loved for those things. And how two men who suffered so much finding love and joy and fulfillment in one another. And I love to imagine their future together, totally obsessed with each other, challenging each other, and growing together. Traveling, maybe, with Severus foraging for material and studying new things while Harry explores new places and hobbies and meets new people. Their individual goals aligning, giving them space, but also a place to meet, and all the things they can respect in one another.

3.) Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

Hmmm!! Nothing I have a problem with regarding Snarry, but maybe my preferences can cause issues! See, I really like the more questionable parts of their dynamic. I like the underage stuff, I like the student/teacher. I love dub-con and angst. I dig the toxic relationship vibes. I dig the love/hate. I love the fighting and the tension. I love them when they're mean. I love it dark and gritty and awful. I love the weird stuff. I have an undying devotion to "ugly" Snape. (Better explained: here.) (Sorry for all the extra suggested reading LOL.) I like other characters having negative reactions to the relationship.

For all the "issues" I need there to be love deep down, and passion. I need them to be absolutely bonkers for each other, even if they handle it badly.

I've had some of my favorite stories and depictions come under fire before but a gal likes what she likes, what can I say 🤷‍♀️

(....sorry for talking your eyeballs off 🤣 But idk what anyone can expect when getting me going about Snarry!)

ship asks

answered: Dramione, Snarry

#asked & answered #ship asks #snarry

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moonjxsung · 3 months

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I totally understand what you said about love. In my case I just accepted the kind of love I want doesn’t exist, so I will only be setting myself up to be disappointed by getting into relationships. All my friends tell me that’s not a good way to view things but honestly since realizing that I learned how to find happiness in so many different things I used to overlook. I also learned how to feel complete and happy by myself, which was something I never thought I could do. I never left the house alone because I thought I would look like a lonely sad girl and I thought it would be boring and pointless without other people but now I love going out alone 🧚‍♀️

I think society puts a lot of emphasis and importance on romantic relationships which is sad. I see my 15 year old cousin jumping from sad relationship to toxic relationship simply because she can’t stand to be alone AND SHE IS FIFTEEN.

I second what you said, let’s embrace being single and being complete with our own self love 🩷

~🌷~

!!!! Like I initially thought it was such a negative way to view the world, but what about it is negative compared to the realistic side of it? There is no implication that any of us will end up in happy, fulfilling relationships. Nothing is guaranteed in this lifetime except for our death. We may very well die alone, and there’s nothing wrong with that. People have done it for centuries, and I can say with a whole lot of confidence that I doubt their souls were weighed and judged in the afterlife based on the presence of a significant other. It’s okay to be alone- in fact you should be alone for most of your life.

Also I candidly despise when people say “you’re so brave” or “I wish I could be like you” regarding my lifestyle. I’m not brave for placing the importance of my relationship to myself above a significant other. That is basic human nature. And if you want to “be more like me”, then practice the same thing. But don’t act like I’m some courageous sob story with a unique lifestyle no other woman partakes in. I’m just single and I’m happy being single.

Also YES to the part about your cousin- I actually think it’s more courageous to allow yourself to be in repetitive unfulfilling relationships than to learn to be by yourself. I’m surrounded by friends in unhappy relationships and I always just think “I could never do that”, and I am fully aware that it’s everything to do with their fear of being single (which in my opinion, is tragic.) Could never be me!!! If it’s not a member of skz or a plane ticket to the next world tour, then I don’t want it.

“How are you okay with being single at 24?” “Are you getting married any time soon?” = “you’re in your child-bearing years and time is ticking! Go satisfy a man and extend your bloodline!”

At 24, I: hold a senior title at my company, I have the most insane collection of things I love, my twin sister is my best friend and other half, I produce work I’m proud of, I moved out earlier than all my friends, I have a bachelor’s degree and I’m pursuing my master’s within the year, I travel a lot for work and for pleasure, I’ve been to so many concerts, I have a group of friends I love very dearly, the list goes on. The only thing that would complete that list would be winning the fucking lottery, not a significant other.

(I love you!!! Single-but-in-love-with-skz agenda is alive and well on here. 🩷🫶)

#🌷 anon #ask

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sonderkore · 2 years

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✉ extraordinary attorney woo | ep 16 final thoughts feelings, friends, and fulfillment

proud of you, attorney woo!

feelings

my heart is so full 😭🐳

their breakup literally took a toll on me. i wasn't kidding when i said i get way too emotionally attached to kdramas, and i actually couldn't eat properly just thinking about them not being together. (this is also the same reason why i'm never watching 2521)

the reconciliation scene was so sweet and so full of sincerity and RAW HONESTY AND PATIENCE!

"an unrequited love for a cat"

this man can't express what he truly feels for the life of him. he's eloquent when it comes to other things, conversation just flows when you talk to him, and he's ready to jump and explain discussions to youngwoo. but when it comes to his feelings, he gets all jumbled up. thanks to everyone who pointed that out, i just fell in love with him more.

he's cheesy. he's a puppy who is very much in love. he practices what he wants to say so he it comes out right, even though all he can come up with is "i like you."

this confession shows us that.

there was communication on his part, keeping his honesty that although there will be times that he'll feel lonely, she makes him a million times happier just by being with her and caring for her. she's not a burden.

commitment was made obvious, the love subtle but very present. and that, to me, is more than enough of a promise.

and she loves him so very much. the look in her eyes as he says all that, the relief? (oh my god, park eunbin)

"cats love their owners/humans too"

I SCREAMED SO LOUD

cats make people lonely sometimes but they're loyal and cuddly and love their humans that care for them and love them, too.

she used that to correct him and also to confess to him, and it's perfect! she runs but looks back at him and smiles, and we all fell head over heels in love for her (AGAIN) 🥺

this finale proved to us even more that they work as a couple. they're right for each other and they both give each other strength. junho took inspiration from youngwoo to be brave and tell her how he feels. junho will step up to help her when needed (needed that energy in ep15 but i digress). youngwoo knows that junho is her partner, someone who she can ask to stay and listen in on whatever news this mysterious man wants to tell her. youngwoo is now reassured that junho is happy with her and wants to be with her no matter what, and youngwoo reassures him back that she is with him, too.

that she loves him!!!

ending it with the two of them by the revolving doors, although this time junho waits for her instead of the other way around, was an ending worth the pain they and we all endured in the past eps. 🥺 my beautiful parents are happy and that's more than enough!!

although i don't know if the writer wrote this series with a 2nd season in mind, there are still many things to explore in this relationship. like junho's life, meeting the parents (both of them), and a few more hiccups, maybe?

and marriage. moving in together?

an ocean-themed wedding.

marriage?

giv me it.

ps.

i'm glad he's back

he never left?

they made him leave her to deal with the reporters in ep 15 for angst. i'm still mad. it makes me want to think lee junho in ep 15 is a figment of our nightmares. he does not exist in this canon, nope.

(there's a fix it fic on ao3 about it tho, so!! it's fine)

and he made up for it anyway :D

in the end, he got the girl and he's happy. <3 he's living his best life right now, frankly.

friends

i miss you already, hanbadaz!!!

they all had satisfying endings that, again, isn't fully complete so there's more room to further delve into them in a possible season 2, but they were all happy at the end and that's all i could ask for.

but i want to take this time to talk about minwoo for a sec.

he's... changed. sort of. and i want to say it's all for love because if it weren't for suyeon telling him to be a fool for his colleague, i fully believe he wouldn't have gone to tae sumi to tell her he's giving up on getting youngwoo fired.

he still helped and encouraged tae sumi to make it happen, given that he told tae sumi that youngwoo's vulnerable at the time and would willingly go if she told her to. (very VERY untrue) but i'm sort of glad he did that, looking at it in a character standpoint. it makes sense for him, tactician kwon minwoo, to do that.

it also makes sense that he tries to befriend youngwoo after, in that scene where he tried to cheer her on.

no. nice try, tho.

when he told tae sumi that youngwoo broke up with someone, and when tae sumi looked taken aback that she was in a relationship (your daughter's an attractive woman, maam), minwoo was like yes? and? i was shocked??? idk i read it as him getting confused why she wouldn't think that was possible, and that earned him points. then again, her reaction was exactly like his upon finding out about junwoo the first time...

*sighs*

but, again, it makes sense.

that's his redemption arc in a nutshell - barely there but it makes absolute sense for his character not to completely change his ways. should it have been made a wee bit earlier? yeah. pushing him into the "good guy for love" agenda in the last 5 eps is meh.

suyeon's arc was completed when she finally fell for a guy that wouldn't hurt her (assuming) and would change for her (he's trying) and one that actually likes her back. i'm glad they left it open-ended between them. kissing scenes are reserved for junwoo only!

geurami is and will be forever by youngwoo's side, and the look of pride on her face in her last scene made me cry. she's always been happy and carefree and youngwoo's #1 fan (maybe #2 because junho) and she will remain the same always.

and minsik. he finally has a few new regulars in his pub!! THAT'S MORE THAN WHAT HE NEEDS! i'm glad they didn't make minsik and geurami a couple, because it was never implied. they have a funny platonic boss/employee relationship from the beginning and it stayed that way. (but if they open up season 2 with yearning between them, i'm on board!!)

and atty jung, who is recovering and got his wife back! will he stay in hanbada? i honestly didn't catch it 😭 he winked but?? youngwoo's reaction was how i felt like sir?? wdym??? as long as he's happy and taken care of, and that he keeps his promise to his wife that he'll go easier this time around for his health, then i'm glad.

*sobs*

i'm going to miss them very much. 😔

fulfillment

i had to pause for a sec, like junho pacing in front of youngwoo's house, to try and find the right words to express how i feel and how much i love woo young woo.

if i had to find one word to describe how i feel about her, it will also be a sense of fulfillment.

(am i crying? you'll never know, won't you?)

youngwoo just makes you love her without any real effort coming from her. she's beautiful, kind, hardworking, playful, adorable, and thoughtful.

she compared herself to a narwhal lost in the midst of beluga whales that hinder her from being who she is, but she believes her life is still valuable and beautiful - because it is! it's so fulfilling (!!!) to hear her say that after everything that we saw her go through.

going from the shy rookie attorney who had first day jitters and hesitated giving her opening statement on her first real trial to becoming more and more confident, in her zone, and ultimately renewing her contract at hanbada as a full-time attorney is an amazing arc. she's living her best life! she works at a job she loves in a line of work that she's passionate about, she has an amazing support system, and she has a boyfriend who loves her.

hearing her say that she loves working at hanbada made me feel warm inside. she didn't quit and found some place else where she could defend the good like atty ryu jaesook, and that's alright. that reassurance that she wants to stay put and is enjoying her work is more than enough.

i'd say her journey from ep 1 to ep 16 isn't smooth sailing, but then we got an ending that eases all our worries and reassures us that from then on, youngwoo will be more than okay. 💙

the line that really sent me a breath of fresh air was, non-verbatim, "my mom wasn't around growing up, so why should i go to the states for her?"

and that was that, the boston plot done in a single sentence. the mother plot extended to the brother plot, and i would watch 10 hours of sangyeon and youngwoo interacting tbh.

it's fine that nobody else found out about her mom, because like she said, it doesn't matter. she wasn't around when she grew up, so why bring that up now?

i can't fault tae sumi too much, given that she was forced to have the baby. but then she had to be selfish and treat both her daughter and son the same way (as in, putting herself and her position first before her child's needs and wants). so. i'm conflicted. but it's fine. she got what she deserved in the end.

youngwoo has grown so much over the course of this series, and i'm so glad to have met her and spend this time with her as i watched the show. (i'll be rewatching over and over again)

this post isn't about what i learned as a neurotypical, but i'm glad that this show exists and that i delved into the fandom and read through a lot of takes, thoughts, translations, and things in general about autism spectrum disorder. i'll strive to be a junho, geurami, and atty jung in a world full of minwoos and atty jangs.

whale hug!!!

attorney woo youngwoo, i whale love you always <3

ps. season 2 is possible, but not set in stone. i read some news that no official offers have been made to eunbin about it and her management only found out that a season 2 might be happening is through the news as well, so. let's all wait for now <3

#extraordinary attorney woo #woo young woo #lee jun ho #park eunbin #kang taeoh #lia.txt #this took DAYS because every time i tried to write the youngwoo section i start crying #i'm going to miss her so much #i really am so glad that i got to go on her journey #again this is why i cant watch kdramas #i get way too attached #and then it's stuck with me for months #i'm barely over our beloved summer #and i'm falling FAST for kang tae oh IM DOWN BAD OKAY #i will live on the eaw ao3 tag for now

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akocomyk · 2 years

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I don’t care what the exact numbers are, but I sure am one of them.

The feeling lingers. It’s already been a week since the Araw Na10 ‘To Rally in Pasay, and I can still feel the euphoria that I experienced while I was there.

I was hesitant at first. Using the words my best friend said, I was already fulfilled since I’ve already been to a Leni-Kiko rally before. My best friend wasn’t, so she made sure to attend the rally after her duty at the hospital. She was sleepless and tired, but she was still there with her husband and some other friends.

Why didn’t I want to go? I’m very familiar with the venue—there wouldn’t be any shade there. I knew it’s gonna be hot—it’s the middle of summer. There’s still COVID-19, I had to work at our office the following week and we had to undergo antigen testing before we’re allowed to get into our office building. I haven’t been sleeping well the week before. And my sister said we’ll be sharing an Airbnb unit between up to six people if everyone pushes through. You can only imagine the amount of discomfort these things could bring.

But my friends were very encouraging. And one of my closest friends at work was envious that I could attend the rally, and she just kept on pushing me—she was unavailable that time, but both of us were able to attend the Pasiglaban rally. We didn’t get to meet there even though we planned to. There were just too many people and the network signals were so weak, you could hardly send any message.

My best friend and I also planned on meeting at the rally this time around, but we had the same problem and she and her husband opted on staying on a different stage.

I braved the heat. I stood for about twelve hours from noon until almost midnight. And it wasn’t just me. We were hundreds of thousands. I sang with them, cheered with them, jumped with them... we were tired, and we were happy.

And we’re all fighting for the same cause. For the truth. For the good governance our nation deserves.

One of the many reasons why I’m voting for Leni is because she brings out the best of the Filipinos. People write songs, make art, cook food and share it. There are volunteers in all aspects that you can think of that would help with her campaign. In here, you’ll witness the spirit of bayanihan that’s innate with us Filipinos.

I’m proud of what I’m fighting for. Even when surveys say that we still have a long way to go or that we may end up not winning at all, I’d still be proud.

#kakampink #kulayrosasangbukas #arawna10to #pasayispink #lenikikoalltheway #letlenilead #leniforpresident2022

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nityarawal · 3 months

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Sent to @elonmuskparody gang last night... Truth Or Dare feels safer here, doesn't it? Xo

Your bots are still asking for money & my bank says crypto is dangerous. I don't know who to believe. I miss you. Are you coming w/ baes soon? I'm sorry I was annoying you. I'm excited to work with you. I was just really anticipating a settlement. Maybe you know what's best. I don't want to disrespect you. You are beautiful and we could be perfect. I hope it works out soon.

All Love,

Nitya

I told Elon bot-

What money are you talking about? I'm supposed to be getting refunds from you. I'm starving! Whats your eta? Xo

I CC'd you at your [email protected]

I got new bank but won't have money for over a month with transition. I have rent owes on 1st. Can you please hurry. I just vomited from stress. Thankyou! I really appreciate you and maybe I don't say it enough. I will.

Whats your love language.

I can tell you are strong and could handle me if we could be monagamous.

Hopefully, you havent chosen @taylorswift @natalieportmanlove already. I really need you on every level healthy and strong. You know what numbers are appropriate. I know I exaggerate. Your genius gets banking, and it boggles us- Feds are abusive. I'm so sorry if I hurt you or broke trust. I thought you wanted me to befriend Keanu & help support peace; tell truth. Apparently, everything is Anti- Semitic, and it's cost my accounts? I can't get into X at all now. Can we resolve all this now? I wasn't targeting you - I just want it settled. Why is it not possible? Please make this a priority. I know you give a lot, but please appreciate I do too even if it's not as ambitious as you. Are you planning a real band? I'm interested in joining that too. The robot AI stuff terrifies me. Lmk if you're going to help for real honey and tell me truth because I need to go home. @bradleycooperlovesfrench would be my 2nd choice if that's what you suggest but I'm really into you. Can't you tell? I really hadn't considered that. I miss everyone though. He's a medetator and younger so I can tell he's a special soul too. But is he straight? Or are you just setting me up for work? A bit confused but I want to play with you. I do have alot of friends on X but I thought you were really my BFF. I'm sorry I spammed you. I love Keanu but not romantically. It's too much for me to digest extra doula work until I know state of my kids, but I want to support him however we can practically. Lmk. I do want to work; I'm just delicate. I want to manage all our beloved artists to freedom. I have to pace myself. You blow me away. I'd likely be more brave with you. You're so outside of the box. Such a Big dad. You're the best. I'd be so proud of you to be my man and coparent. I'd feel like you were greatest dad in world I'd you could pull through in my direction for Moms'. We need this Elon. Please. It'll be better for you. I can help smoothe over feeling level and be your agent a bit. You need a lady to balance your load and protect you too. I know you and my son/daughter and all your kids do too. I understand Vivian better now because I understand the attraction to you and the pressures your kids and siblings/mom face. I love all your kids already but want to stop fertility wars. I feel bad pushing you beyond your responsibilities, but if you could simplify me into your world a bit- we could be happy.

Sending all love.

I support you and want what's best for you.

Not always most ambitious choice but I want you here as long as possible in natural form because you're precious to me and many.

I love the cybertruck and the teaser but just thought I'd be at top of list. Wont your staff let you fulfill your promises? Did Ben Shaphiro discriminate against me and make you go to Warsaw? Did you touch the wall? Special place. I'm so glad you saw it. Thankyou. Xo

@elonmuskfans @teslamotorsblog @teslamodel3

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