#I DO KNOW THAT I AM APPALLED

[icology]

sometimes I fear I might not be that good of a writer and then I remember the old botched SOTC screenplay that surfaced on the interwebs years ago and instantly feel like shakespeare

#not to brag but I am convinced I could do a far better job and I am most likely right #ANY OF US could #you know what I might try to do that someday just for fun #the amount of mistakes and overall silly things in it is just appaling #shadow of the colossus

[saetoru]

🚶🏽‍♀️ DONT ask me how much i spent this banner

#i #i am appalled #idk who i became #but what i do know ?? #he is my SOULMATW #period #end of discussion #yes i just did his story quest #:’)

[hauntingblue]

So what is the temperature like in dressrosa. You can never tell with these bitches

#luffy again with the MUSHI MUSHI I AM MONKEY D LUFFY #MINGO???? #luffy i love you i would love to speak to you on the phone you revolutionize the medium of communication #oh the i dont like bread..... he was so appaled by the crew he let his guard down and everything #sabaody again???? ENOUGH #what do you mean the man which i spoke about earlier??? WHOOOOOO #he has the mero mero fruit i knew it... i know its in there..... #mera mera* my bad... #god why this now..... ace #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 629 #oleeee castañuelas en la música de la isla oleeeee viva españa 🇪🇦🇪🇦🇪🇦🐃🐃 #sanji fucking dumbass #and the opening shots of the city have Gaudí like architecture... slay #omg now realising they might film here the live action..... (they wont they will use sets) #zoro wearing a suit.... amazing #i wonder how theyre going to do the cities in live action... bc weve only seen villages until now... but loguetown and arabasta are coming #why is this man wearing a wolverine mask #and who could this blind man be... maybe someone they are looking for?? naaah #didnt see it coming that donquijote doflamingo king of dressrosa would mean thay dressrosa is basically spain... good surprises #episode 630

[ingravinoveritas]

New picture of Michael and David from Staged 3. So many caption possibilities, so little time...

#michael sheen #welsh seduction machine #david tennant #soft scottish hipster gigolo #staged #or 'Brokeback Mount Him' which is what I am referring to Staged as from here on out #staged 3 #head canon that they're reading the infamous GO cream cheese fanfic #and David is oddly fascinated while Michael is just straight up appalled #i know how it sounds #but you can't tell me it didn't happen #no way they didn't know what they were doing referencing that in S3 #i'm just saying #ineffable lovers #discourse

[riverwithoutbanks]

Well, I’m annoyed. The show deserves better. It had a solid plot, excellent cast, fantastic representation, beautiful cinematography, and a lovely team beings it. They all deserved better. And Misha deserves better. He’s a good actor, he’s got range, and according to everyone is a joy to work with.

I don’t understand why the CW makes the choices it makes. I have no idea how it works, granted, but I haven’t seen any clear explanation either. Wrong timing, I suppose. Still, quite shitty. I wish it were different.

I hope that the GK team has a wonderful future. They deserve it.

#I goof and clown like everyone bc it’s objectively funny but I am quite fond of Misha Collins #in a reasonable way let’s be clear #I do not know that man at all #but I find what I see of him endearing and sincerely wish him the best #I feel like he deserves more #I was frankly appalled by how he was treated on the spn set #and I’m frankly amazed by his devotion to using his plateforme for what are undeniably good causes #and for all his clumsiness I always felt like he was sincerely supportive of LGBTQ+ causes and had a good grasp of the struggle faced #especially by trans people #I’m ranting #but what I’m trying to say is that there is a difference between teasing and making jokes #and treating someone like crap like this network did #the cw #Misha Collins #gotham knights

[faineant-girl]

i wish all addicts, in recovery or not, a life free of sorrow forever

#.vent #kinda. im not gonna delete this one though #i just. i sure am thinking about this a lot. #i listen to like. trip report videos or whatever and like. the comments section on every single one. just nasty #theres no sympathy for an addict to be seen. unless they're also an addict or are recovering #my dad is a recovered addict. hes been clean for 6 years. i love my dad and hes a wonderful person. #i obviously still have trauma from when he was actively in his mess. to deny that addicts have caused others trauma is to be reductive. #addicts can cause trauma because theyre people. and people can cause trauma all the same #but the lack of understand or care or basic respect to anyone dealing with addiction is just. appalling. #im sick and tired of hearing the same old fucking phrase that its the addicts fault cuz they decided to take the first hit. like #man how fucking cruel can you be. how heartless ya know. #like its obvious hardly anyone commenting abiut this knows anything about what being an addict is like. like. #i know i dont. ive been sober my whole life right. i do not have the same experience. #but. i have a compulsive disorder that makes me perform a task that is 1 harmful 2 almost entirely out of my control #and i cannot describe to you how difficult it is to ignore that urge. for your mind to know what youre doing is harmful. but #your body physically is not listening to you. #like. its a different thing when its addiction. but being compelled to do something you know is hurting you isnt unfamiliar to me #plus with addiction the added factor that your body becomes physically dependent on a drug and it hurts you for a long ass time to try and #stop and withdrawl can sometimes literally be lethal. its so fucking sad to see people hold not even. like an ounce of sympathy ya know #if an addict has abused you im not saying you need to forgive them. you dont. but not every addict is youre abuser #and while you do not need to be involved. every addict deserves a good life. everyone deserves a chance. #just. god. makes me mad. makes me upset. #if you are an addict especially if youre not in recovery. i hope your days go well. i hope the world gets kinder to you.

[theinfinitedivides]

Sid. Sid ily ty for Pathaan and War and sh*t but we were doing so well until the 'POK will turn into IOP if you f*ck around and find out' line in the Fighter trailer like what are we doing. what are we trying to achieve pls help me out here

#film: fighter (2024) #fighter #fighter 2024 #hrithik roshan #deepika padukone #anil kapoor #bollywood #local gay watches Bollywood.txt #hot people and possible queer ships aside why am i seeing the 'dangerous Pakistani' tropes on the horizon. i hope i'm wrong #and this guy is a rogue f*cking agent who has access to the military like Emraan was in Tiger 3 but. Kashmir. we're talking #about Kashmir here we know how touchy that is already. we know how the Indian government has dealt with the Kashmir issue #and it's frankly appalling so if this ends up being a propaganda film i am going to have to personally rewrite the sh*t out of it #God pls i just want to see Deepika and Hrithik go from rivals to lovers that's all i ask don't do this to me.

[area51-escapee]

YOU hate booktok books because you can’t conceptualize what a fantasy is and think these readers need therapy and professional help for enjoying dark topics in explicit material even though it takes exactly .2 seconds to understand the difference between something that is interesting and exciting in fiction and something that would be deeply unpleasant in real life. I hate booktok books because they all feel like overhyped copy and pastes of one another, the amount of bigotry that goes unchecked in these stories is astounding, and I also get tired of this attitude that if something isn’t 🔥spicy🔥 it’s boring and not worth reading. We are not the same.

#I am a hater through and through and mostly through the booktube community #I LOVE hearing slander on booktok books and authors #but people are forever like. appalled and horrified and disgusted that. adult women have fantasies #like bro I think this book is shit too. I don’t think the 34 year old office worker reading this wants an ACTUAL man to act like that #but fictional fantasies are fine because it’s not actually going to harm her #I specify women because I see this kind of thing most used against women reading these books #like people act like they’re stupid and brainless and saying they WANT to be abused #do you. do you know what a fantasy is #or a common one I hear is #‘what if a CHILD read this??? this would seriously damage a young girl!!!!!’ #and the book in question is full of hardcore smut between grown adults by a grown adult for grown adults #like I was a teenager once I know we read shit we shouldn’t have #but as an adult author it is not my job to monitor other people’s children #and to be clear on that last point I don’t think there is anything wrong with reading purely for entertainment and enjoyment #and if you need smut in your fiction to enjoy it that’s fine #but I hate that it has to be a selling point in everything #I don’t care about these characters enough I’m not reading any smut of them #I read one (1) extreme horror book that had been hyped up by booktok people #it was okay. #there were some things in it I liked #some things I didn’t #but people were making it out to be the most disturbing and gruesome thing ever #and while I would by no means suggest it to anybody who isn’t comfortable with the subject matter #as someone who expected horrible and gruesome it was just. okay #it felt like a case of people being extra shocked and appalled #because they forget that main character does not equal Good Guy #so I didn’t find his actions particularly shocking. I just thought he sucked akdjahdkdk

[the-marron]

Just deleted my fic from Ao3 because it made me sad. It was not a story I enjoyed, I wrote it thinking I will have fun with it but I mostly felt ashamed while looking at it - everyone makes mistakes and I kept it there for a while thinking that well, I don't have to read it or look at it ever again, so what's the harm and all that 'everything is part of your writing journey'. But that only works for things that might be bad quality-wise but still bring you some joy.

I think what stopped me were all those posts about not deleting your fics, even the most unpopular ones, because someone out there loves them for sure and it might be their favourite fic ever, they are just too shy to say. It is probable, of course.

But I realized now that I've been keeping a thing that was actively making me sad just for an off chance that some unnamed person might like this fic, I will just never know it. It's my time of looking at it and feeling dispirited, traded for a 'maybe'.

I felt good deleting that fic. I won't miss it and I don't think anyone else will. But it is weird how long I kept on holding off this decision because of 'someone maybe' and this idea that I am obliged to take others feelings about my writing over mine.

#i am appalled at how easily I am manipulated by posts like these #it drove me mad for so long #and to be fair: i know that commenting culture in the fandom is dying but on some level it seems unfair #'please remember to account for people's feelings when dealing with your stuff 🥺' #well okay but if I don't care about it and I don't know anyone else cares about it why keep on being sad #am I raging in the tags now because on some level I am still affected by those posts? yes #do I feel better about deleting? yes #it's a complicated matter #marron gets personal #marron on rant

[faggotry-enjoyer]

there is SO MUCH bullshit going on at this university and i want to talk about it on here so bad but it's too specific to do so without coming dangerously close to full on doxxing myself

#like yeah of course hillel isn't a huge fan of jvp it's fucking jvp #'the american zionist institution' should already be setting off MAJOR alarm bells and then one of the orgs you're going after is HILLEL #i've been scared of losing friends cause i've lost a couple already #but for some of them seeing this post spread around so uncritically might just be my fucking breaking point of caring #i'm not looking to cut anyone off or anything and a lot i don't know well enough with to effectively talk to abt this #but i can't help but wonder how much i really want to be friends with people broadcasting this level of antisemitism #i'm not going to reply directly quite yet bc i don't yet feel like i have the tools to do so effectively #and i don't want to dig myself into holes again #but i am NOT going to be convinced to shut up about antisemitism again bc this is fucking absurd #if jews talking about antisemitism are evil zionists and non jews talking about antisemitism have a savior complex #then maybe you just don't give a shit about antisemitism #maybe you only care about jews to the extent that you can tokenize them #maybe that's why the only 'jewish' org you share from is fucking jvp #'i've connected the dots' 'you haven't connected shit' #is really just what it's like to be able to recognize the most basic dogwhistles out there nowadays #it's appalling and i know i'm far far from getting the brunt of it #personal #faggotry enjoyer original

[bravevolunteer]

i’m just like movie mike fr (eepy when i’m supposed to be working)

#barely did anything after getting back from class for a few hours bc. Exhaustion #so i’m Not caught up with what i wanted to do today at all but oh my god. oh my god i am so tired #and i need to be up early to go talk to the professor whose class i skipped- #mike was so real #can’t believe wanting to be done with things requires me to actually do them. shocked and appalled #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[ilostyou]

there is no greater feeling of assurance than seeing a tiktok with what you thought was a completely preposterous hateful biased quite frankly bigoted awful take with hundreds and thousands of comments agreeing with it being just as awful hateful bigoted then feeling more unsettled and very very bothered for genuinely days after leaving the video be and still stewing in the icky feeling it left you only to then come across a bunch of videos echoing your original thoughts on how hateful and harmful of a take it was with plenty of people in the comments agreeing it didn’t sit well with them and they also felt very put off by how awful hateful etc etc etc it was

#like i am genuinely relieved #there’s something something about the distribution of likes and views on tiktok that will feel like you’re being gaslighted on a Large scal #the second video said that’s the kind of thought that stays in like a journal not broadcasted to a larger audience #and i wholeheartedly agree #stop feeding harmful bigoted stereotypes to your audience. about Any group of people. be so serious #it’s just like. seeing a video like that can be so disheartening bc you’re like. i know i’m not insane. how do x amt of people agree. what #don’t get me wrong i can be wrong about a lot of things bht this was literally objective and i’d never been so appalled #the video has since been privated apparently and i don’t even wanna go look back at their account and see if there was a followup #i should unfollow them tbh #sorry. rant over #delete

[natequarter]

i am so fucking glad i never have to study maths again because like, i legitimately cannot read numbers, lmao

#i hated maths! #and i don't mean i was bad at maths #i mean i still get confused by negative addition/subttaction #my mental maths is appalling #i would follow the steps perfectly for equations and still get it wrong #i am BAD at maths. but because of how it manifests #nobody fucking noticed #bc i can understand maths theory #i just can't. you know. manipulate numbers themselves #it is so fucking frustrating to be able to do geometry and #get tripped up by not being able to do 8+3 without counting it out

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Okay. I’m going away again; bye!

#the second I start typing modified versions of blocked tags into the search bar is when I know it’s time to go #The slothful inaction on this site is appalling #if maybe one tenth of the userbase’s creativity dedicated to discourse were directed toward mass-reporting ACTUAL problems like… #oh… idk… #(each number is a letter of the alphabet) 13.14.19.6.23 #(not to say that the other things people argue about are inherently stupid in terms of content… #it’s just that 13.14.19.6.23 is a grievous problem specific to social media with such an immediate non-philosophical solution) #Not to say that people who aren’t involved in discourse should trigger themselves to fix problems #but if you’re engaged in discourse to such a degree that you have an entire blog dedicated to it and it is impacting your ability to live #you are ALREADY triggering yourself; so if you’re hellbent on triggering yourself like that at least do something useful with it #I talk like this because I #1.) have purposefully gone into the 13.14.19.6.23 tag so I could find and report blogs #(…yeah… not a great experience) #2.) work in a profession where all I do is help people *all day long* #And I’ve done other things which I will not list #but you can probably guess #anyway I’m not a hypocrite #but literally anything you do to benefit society helps; I am on my hands and KNEES begging you bastards to start doing things #caring is not enough #I hate to quote the Bible but “Faith without works is dead” rings very true here #actively do things #And the addictive drivel that is Tumblr is preventing me from doing everything I can. I’m fucking done. with. it #I will come back when and *if* I learn how to use this app recreationally instead of compulsively #I loathe this website (not the people on it; just the website) #(okay… some of the people on it… but none of my moots or followers ily <3) #PEACE!

[hairtusk]

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#i am in the most appalling excruciating amount of pain #my period was two weeks early and this is the worst it's ever felt. the pain is radiating down my thighs to my knees #and up my torso to my ribs #and my lower back is in agony too #i don't think I've ever experienced pain like this #i don't know what to do. I've taken codeine and it hasn't helped bc normal paracetamol/ibuprofen couldn't even touch it #jesus christ. i feel like i'm going to die of blood loss.

[pig-wings]

Truly no worse question at work than "what are you doing this weekend" because as soon as you say "not much!" people try and make plans for you

#im a homebody leave me alone!! #people are appalled im not traveling for the long weekend 😭 like you all know ive been working 55+ hr weeks!!! #im gonna get high and stare a wall! #my coworker just started listing off things to do in boston and i was like yes i live here i am aware that the cape exists #im sorry im Crabigail today