#I HAVE A BELLE SITUATION

[super-nova5045]

sylvia plath, todd anderson and virginia woolf (aka ACTUAL tortured poets) watching taylor “im breaking up with my boyfriend for his intense depression and blaming it on him, im dating a racist who enjoys watching woc being brutalized and harasses young woc artists, i sent my fans out on a hate train to attack a young woc actress for a line she had to say as part of her job to show how mentally ill her character was, im dating a maga supporter, i refuse to say anything about a current genocide despite being the most influential person in the world right now, i am a billionaire, i fly 13 minute flights and have the highest carbon emission of any celebrity, i am a known white feminist who only speaks about issues when it affects me and has constantly let my fans get away with extreme racism and even encouraged it by associating myself with known racists” swift call herself a tortured poet (her writing sounds like a bunch of thesaurus words slapped over gabba hanna and rupi kaur-esque poetry that was created purely as a trinket for an edgy pinterest board)

#anti taylor swift #like she can be problematic that’s okay #there are SO many problematic artists i like #but she’s not even that good #like read sylvia plath or virginia woolf or listen to LDR or fiona apple or mitski or lorde or boygenius or olivia rodrigo #aka her peers #and realise how much better they are #they truly write art because they have a compassion and rawness for it #whereas taytay only writes to get more money LOL #she’s so extremely privileged that her life is not at all relatable and now she tries to make it so #by romanticizing the most mundane #thats never been your brand babe now it’s going to sound like dogshit #GUTS by olivia rodrigo is better because it has such an intensity to it. liv means what she says and you can feel it! #fiona apple means what she says when she writes about begging her lover to love her back! #mitski means what she says when she writes that she is self destructive and puts herself in bad situations since that’s all she knows! #lana means what she says when she writes about her suicide attempt at 15 because of constant abuse from her mother and crippling depression #all of it such haunting and beautiful works because it truly comes from the soul and isn’t a cash grab #Anyway i’m so sorry virginia and sylvia and todd #todd anderson #AND JOE ALWYN #joe alwyn my favourite man ever #joe alwyn #dead poets society #anderperry #sylvia plath #virginia woolf #the bell jar #lana del rey #fiona apple #mitski

[linovadraws]

August and Peter figuring out the whole ~siblings~ thing. From the October Daye series, specifically the Patreon story, "In Safety Rest".

#seanan mcguire #october daye #august torquill #peter lorden #fanart #sometimes you're like i just want to draw out how this wheelchair would work #and you promise yourself there won't even be a background #and then suddenly it's like why am i drawing all this weird coral #what color is anything #what is perspective?? #anyway enjoy! i'm exhausted #seanan was like what if we could be in the undersea all the time and i was there!! with bells on!! #friendship ended w/ kingdom of the mists #duchy of ships and saltmist are my besties now #also didn't consider that drawing a full mermaid situation means i have to go horizontal which...not the best for tumblr!

[stuckinapril]

Honestly a big reason for why I don’t get over shit as quickly as I can is because I can’t fucking stop talking about it. And by that I mean I’ll quietly resolve w myself that I’m over something or something, and then in my typical indecisive nature I’ll either ruminate on it hours later or vent about it w a friend. I hadn’t realized how powerful just TALKING about something bothering you was until now. Even if you’re close to getting over something, just verbalizing that it bothers you can bring you 3 steps back. Yeah processing emotions is important, but the moment that’s done I need to actually be firm w myself about moving on. Like it’s done. We’re over it. We’re not gonna waver when someone asks us how we’re dealing w it. We will not complain about it unnecessarily. We simply keep it pushing

#it’s just like a bell shaped curve where at some point I just no longer benefit from talking about it #btw if you bottle shit up then you have the opposite problem so pls apply this to ur own situation lol #I’m talking about rumination as opposed to healthy venting #and I am VERY guilty of both so ik the latter is no better #p

[sparring-spirals]

I got to say I really liked the episode (despite only having watched exu calamity of the exu series) and I think maybe Matt needed a breather after so many fast paced, lore filled episodes.

however, I am kinda bummed that the fcg processing has been put on hold for (at least) two weeks now and that means that, despite them being great actors that truly merge with their characters at the table, their reactions will be much less raw and there’s a chance some of them will forget tidbits of information, emotions they felt when it happened because they (as role players) will have had time to process it out of the game and it might create a dissonance in the game. tbf I kind of felt the difference even between the end of ep 91 and the beginning of 92 but it made sense because technically they were still running and couldn’t afford to process. idk. I have hope that we’ll still see that raw emotion, but I fear it won’t be as impactful as it could’ve been, especially if they’ll have to put the “reporting for duty” hat on immediately when they get to the camp

I think being a little bummed about the sort of unexpected hiatus on the Bell's Hells/Post F.C.G processing is super understandable! As someone who also really did enjoy the Crownskeepers return (hello im still yelling about Opal internally), I'm kind of in the same camp of being kind of thrown/disappointed about not getting to really dig into/sit with the Bell's Hells post-F.C.G loss. Like, LOVED the Crownkeepers, fascinating second half, kind of meh on the specific timing.

I'm holding my reservations about whether they're going to have to keep running/moving once we return to their portion of the story, since hey, until it happens (or doesn't!), we don't know, so I don't feel like getting too in my head about it until then.

That said! I do think that in general the cast puts characterization and staying true to the emotions of the character/story as a very high priority within the campaign. I think you're right that it won't be the exact same as if they had done a big emotional blowup/goodbye/processing scene in the same ep where they lost F.C.G, or immediately after. I don't think that means it has to be less impactful, just that- yeah, they'll have had more time to actually think/process it.

But they're also all professional voice actors who have, IMO, thus far shown how much they think about the inner lives of their characters and enjoy really digging deep into the emotional/interpersonal aspects of roleplay.

My assumption (my hope?) is that with additional time to think about + process a devastating/deeply emotional loss for their character(s), they'd choose to lean into that more, and not less. It wont be the same as the immediate raw reactions, thats true! But i dont think that means it has to be less impactful, even if they (as people) have had more time to process, and will be choosing how their characters, fresh off the loss, react. I dont think thats a guarantee it will be less impactful/emotional (maybe the additional thinking would actually enhance the reactions being true/insightful to the characters vs gut reactions from cast), but it will be different.

But if the cast chooses to lean into the heartbreak/emotions, and the circumstances of the BH in the upcoming ep enable it, I'm sure they can still kick my ass (emotionally), timeskip or not.

In general, I'm cautiously optimistic about what could happen next! Even if I don't love the timing thus far. I think there's still plenty of ways for me to get what I'm hoping for wrt F.C.G/BH. :] There are plenty of ways for me to get let down too, probably, but until it happens, or doesn't, I'm opting to not get too doomery about it. We'll see.

I uh. Hope that helps? A bit? Being bummed about specific things you were hoping for being off the table is totally reasonable. just hoping to lend an alternate way of viewing it, if desired.

(i wrote the sentence: "don't be lamenting your chickens before they hatch" and then went "what the fuck" out loud. i spent 4 hours at work today just doing systems diagramming and my brain is fried. clearly. keeping this here for my own entertainment.)

#im kind of tired im sorry if this makes no sense lmao. i appreciate the ask! sorry if my answer comes off as flippant. i do get where you're #coming from and wanted to share how im personally choosing to approsch it haha #critical role #cr spoilers #c3e92 #bell's hells #spar speaks #ask away! #speculation #fcg #imo its like how we probably wont be getting situations like marisha shellshocked live tweeting after jester saved beau with a cupcake #but we get the cast doing sneaky little tweets before the episode airs but after theyve already experienced it #different for sure. doesnt have to be worse. thats more up to personal opinion i think #i fully wrote that chicken thing and went. thats the idiom right. and then stared at it and went. ... no. its not. #should i have waited to answer this ask? maybe. but oh well. #i should probably get some sleep though

[caeslxys]

also on the topic of meaningful consequences re: character death I don't understand the take that death in fantasy requires physical permanency to matter or give a story "stakes". death is permanent regardless. Do you really think that if they get her back, they'll just go back to normal? That these characters are not forever fundamentally changed from this, that Laudna will not be fundamentally changed from this?

That Imogen's world will be less fractured, that she won't be even more of an anxious wreck now that what she stands to lose has been put into vivid clarity? That Orym won't still carry the guilt of being the chosen, that he will be less haunted by the connections he drew to his own grief with Will to Imogen's with Laudna? That Fearne won't look at Laudna and think of that coin flip, of her choice, and what that means for her and how she loves? That FCG and Ashton won't think to this and be reminded of the people they've hurt or been hurt by, and what this effort and what this grief means for how they view the hells?

That Laudna, who has been so blasé about life and if she's alive and what being alive even means for someone like her, won't wake up surrounded by family and by love and be driven to reexamine everything she's taught herself in 28 years of isolation to cope with the trauma of Whitestone? That this, maybe, will be the driving force she needed to realize that there are things she wants to live for?

It might be that I'm just biased, but I'm not sure what stakes Laudna perma-dying adds aside from just presenting the characters with the knowledge they all already have that they can, in fact, die. that what they're up against is incomprehensibly powerful and dangerous. The stakes already feel so impossibly high when you think of what and who they are preparing to face. frankly the aftermath of this combat alone, even if everything had gone perfect and everyone had gotten back up a-okay, would have set that tone.

I don't know, regardless I'll be happy to watch whatever story they choose to tell unfold as it does, but it strikes me that so many people seem to think that death only matters if there is a physical absence.

#critical role #laudna #bells hells #I do want to specify though that this is my own interpretation of the situation from my view as a writer of the narrative #and my own interpretation of the situation as an audience member #I know death does not care for narration in real life and that dnd can be cathartic for those very reasons #that. to me. is a separate argument from what I'm trying to say here #I also have Thoughts about how. narratively. laudna coming back is the better story for Specifically bells hells and how they operate #individually and as a unit #and how I think a lot of people are blinded by the specific way molly effected the mighty nein #and I just do not think this is the same scenario At All #and also. if I may put out a more biased take. I don't necessarily Want the same impetus and the same story Again #this is bells hells! I want theirs! and they want to bring back laudna #also. like. the whole death only matters if it's permanent thing falls apart immediately bc like. it's laudna #y'know. the undead one. is her story lesser for having lived? is vox machina's? #anyway feel free to ignore this I'm just throwing thoughts out into the wind bc if I keep them in my brain I'll implode #and Twitter has a 140 character limit and I am long-winded

[everythingisconfetti]

Orym's insistence on protecting Fearne (and increasingly, all of the Hells) under any circumstance, no matter the risk to himself is so beautifully painful because it isn't just protectiveness. It's also his own guilt at walking away with his life from the fight that killed Will. It's him saying "you will kill me before you touch anyone I love. I will die before you lay a hand on my family." It's more than vigilance, it's a willingness to self-sacrifice that edges on reckless. Those moments are also the ones where his pain is the most visible, where he raises his sword as if to say "here we are again, and this time I won't fail." He's let people in again, let them get close, and now he has to do all he can, give everything necessary to keep them safe.

#my shield is on my back bc i am double wielding which drops my ac' - i will make myself vulnerable to raise my odds of keeping you safe #i have an enormous amount of feelings about orym #he's just so. quietly layered with both pain and life experience and there's a maturity there that is only challenged by his recklessness #and liam plays that 'informed by grief but not controlled by it (except in very certain situations)' so fucking well #orym of the air ashari #orym #fearne calloway #bell's hells #critical role #cr spoilers #cr meta #cr3

[revvethasmythh]

Still turning over the fact that Relvin didn't know anything about Liliana's powers until a couple of years after Imogen was born. Like, he knew she dreamed of somewhere bigger than Gelvaan (and spent time imagining going there with her), but can you imagine thinking you know someone, thinking you're building this life (on trust, on honestly, on partnership) with someone, and then they drop this bomb on you, the things they see in their dreams and what they can do with their mind and how afraid they are that your child will inherit the same gift curse? Relvin has no idea when her powers started. They may have been there from the day they met, for all he knows. And then, after telling him this, after sharing her fears for herself and for Imogen, she leaves. And he doesn't understand anything of what this means, he is confused and in the dark and now alone. All he can do is hope Imogen won't go through the same thing, while trying to swallow all the resentment and anger he holds toward Liliana for her sake. Absolutely impossible situation to be in, tbh

#note: i am not being judgemental toward liliana for this more so than pointing out this was Fucked #like people are people and i never have any interest in demonizing them #i can see how she got here! from her pov this probably made sense as she tried to get on with her life #without giving in to the desire to figure out her powers #imogen being the clinch point to change that for her is interesting tho because like you have put that child in danger #and you have left that child to try and solve the danger. which is a double whammy #juicy situation all around. i love a fucked up family dynamic #critical role #bells hells #relvin temult #nonsense will be removed from notes and you will be blocked <3

[pinkieroy]

Liliana deadbeat mother of all time for real

#did she know?? #well she told you to run #so deadbeat mother of her to want something from the kid she left 25 years ago #you have no right to be angry afsgsvhshs #but you are anyway because you don't want to face the fact that you are the one who fucked up the relationship #(i'm not going to project onto this last observation i'm in public 🫥) #it's so funny and sad because she really thinks she did the right thing by her daughter that that was her only option #that she was carving a better future for them both for everyone like them #she is so far into it she can't see the situation through her daughter's eyes #i don't think she is even ready to try #this whole post is in the tags #sorry i got carried away #i would have typed it on the actual post if i knew lol #cr spoilers #critical role #bells hells

[lokh]

Thought of something after seeing fanart of Dungeon Meshi! Laois keeping some monster habits/power, but mostly his sense of smell. So anytime Shuro feels "heated" *winkwinknudgenudge* Laois knows

OOOO it would be fun if it was tied to the idea of ""desire"" like laios still wanting to consume desire in some way and being able to sense it eyes emoji......

#i think so far the only evidence of laios keeping any sort of weird power #is trees growing from his shit??? <- leaked adventurers bible pages dont quote me on this as there isnt a solid translation afaik #but yea i am realising there are many opportunities for interesting ideas and i just dont know any becos i read the entire thing too fast #see: i forgot about the whole ringing bell situation #i have GOT to reread... #shepardking #ask #laishuro tag

[words-writ-in-starlight]

Every time someone goes off on this philosophical rant about the gods I'm just.

Yeah! Okay! Feel however you feel about the gods! But Predathos is an unknown quantity powerful enough to eat MULTIPLE gods, which was an active threat to Exandria at a previous time. Are you SO dedicated to the desire to "free" mortals from the gods that you're ready to stake the life of everyone on the planet on something called "the God Eater" knowing where to stop?

If yes, I'm going to need you to take two BIG steps back and walk me through your research on a Predathos muzzle in excruciating detail before I'm on board.

#critical role #cr spoilers #bell's hells #i just!!!! #this keeps being presented as 'pro gods vs anti gods' and like! #FUCKING IS IT ACTUALLY????? #WE HAVE N O EVIDENCE THAT LUDINUS CAN ACTUALLY CONTROL THE POWER HE'S AFTER HERE #listen i am as down to tear down the oppression of the organized church as the next person #I'm just saying that This Specific Situation has a SLIGHTLY more nuanced set of consequences than most people seem to think! #[gestures violently at the moon full of moon ghosts and ruins] maybe you hit me with that science fair trifold! #you know???? #push the judicator into a frozen river and call it a day and then DON'T UNLEASH THE GOD EATER MAYBE

[kheyys-worms]

why does twisted wonderland portray Trein like he's old OLD?? He's only 58-- He's the same age as Madds Mikkelsen!!!

😭😭😭

#what decades of handling problematic boys do to a man-- #i was just listening to a few ABBA songs when i thought which character would love them. HE should at least be in the list. #he still looks fine. but DAMN #just what kind of stress crowley has been putting on you my good man. what things have you endured?? #I thought he was in his 70s-80s #even my mum thought he was around 65-70 years old #he could be one of the golden girls #damn he could've been wearing bell-bottoms jeans when he was young and danced to ABBA with his wife at the club for all i know #may not be time accurate but their songs are timeless and SHUSH LET ME DREAM #i'm just gonna listen to the whole album and imagine this old man in situations #mozus trein #twisted wonderland #kheyy's thoughts

[thedroloisms]

also i have to say there's smth consistently eye-rolly about the idea of going "oh you can't blame me for leaving her there !! i thought they were good people !! i didn't think they would do anything bad to her !!! that's why i left her there i thought she was safe !!!" as if "they" even broke that trust. according to literally all accounts the incident in question happened before you left and nothing progressed further after you were gone. accusing "them" of being horrible nasty people when again, the only wrongdoing alleged at all was on the part of one of them ???? like you can just say that while drunk you didn't make the right judgement call and once you woke up sober you checked in with your friend because thinking back you were worried abt her comfort levels without crying wolf about how you simultaneously "thought they were good safe people" and they took advantage of that after you left (by doing nothing after you left, because the whole incident being described here happened with you in the room) and also knew she was uncomfortable which is why you checked on her immediately (which is somehow being used to blame two people who had zero access to the texts asking her if she was comfortable at all and therefore made the assumptions that she was comfortable based on what they themselves saw)

#like no one took advantage of your trust after you left the whole thing did in fact happen while you were in the room #if they /were/ the monsters you feel like painting them as then yeah it would've been really bad for you to leave her in that environment ! #but uh things literally never progressed further than they did while you were in the room #like at first i thought you didn't know the same way dr eam apparently didn't know #but no the narrative now is apparently that you knew ? but didn't do anything? and assumed she was okay? but that she was uncomfortable? #or whatever? #which is like. cool you can just say that your drunk brain didn't really ring the alarm bells as much as they shouldve #when you apparently noticed in the moment that she looked uncomfortable and didn't do anything #that doesn't change anything abt what discomfort other people might have perceived as Not Her Best Friend #and that also doesn't mean that you were somehow betrayed bc you trusted them not to be terrible people when you left her there #bc . nothing. in fact. happened . after you left her there. #and the whole 'incident' being described in this whole situation happened WITH YOU RIGHT THERE . #anyway excuse my frustration

[thebellearchives]

I NEED TO RUIN MY HAIR I WANT TO DYE IT AGAIN AND GET A MULLET AAAAA

#; belle speaks #no i’m not okay #i’m not getting rid of the white silver i just want fox colour on the tips #i do need to fix the roots ): #i don’t have money for basic girlhood situations though #rip

[bellysoupset]

taking inspiration from real life events is all fun and games until you stumble into some nasty piece of trauma

#note to self do not write medical dramas if you got medical trauma #i'm fine i just kept waking up tonight bc i was literally worried about Bell nvm the fact I was the one who put her in this situation #also kept having terrible dreams about being buried in snow but that's non related

[netripper]

just did pyramid song

#i love judy so… so so much #shes so fucking good #i feel Peace within my soul canonizing her and vic for some time #still thinkin ab the ‘hey so. heres just how complicated my relationship is with my construct’ and judy having to think it over #(shes like ‘ok whatever yea ur in a unique situation’) #my girlfriends ghost boyfriend #vanta rambles #judy alvarez #oc: victory bell

[dullahandyke]

was gonna make a post bitching about how being a princess of heart works but then i remembered the whole union cross 'the 13 darknesses are sentient' thing and came up with my own theories but ive looped back around to being mad again. goddd why does shit actually work when you think about it im so mad

#i was hung up on the singular sentence in kh3 abt them releasing the lights into new vessels (EXPLAIN PLS?) #and ive come to the conclusion that the 7 lights are their own sentient beings like the darknesses who can interact with their hosts #and they explained the situation and all went 'hey jasmine/belle/etc id usually only do this if u died but like #the baddies all know where we are now. can we fuck off to new hosts so they dont find us' #and the princesses all went thumbs up emoji and off they fucked to arendelle #n then that leaves a couple options for kairi #first off her light went 'oh she has a keyblade? im staying here then. no need to ask her' #second off it asked her and she decided to keep it. which is INTERESTING and i will have to think abt to decide what it means #bcos like. im keenly fucking aware that we get Three whole sentences abt the situation in kh3 #and neither kairi nor the former princesses r there for it. so like. Assumptions R Being Made! #like i know the princess of hearts logic is literally just 'we made the disney princesses into macguffins'. but like. augh #this also brings me to question like. yeah yeah heart wont make a nobody. but like. what ELSE does lightdom grant #bcos we KNOW excess darkness has an impact (hi terra) #and if the only ppl without darkness are those currently hosting the light (and ven. hi ven) #then moving to another host like elsa requires purging them of their darkness. which i feel should. do something #IDKK im pontificating with shaky knowlege but like. u undestand #anywho leftover stir fry is calling my name xoxo