#; belle speaks

[elliesbelle]

i just dry humped with two hot butches at the same time at the lesbian bar, life is sooooo good

#i love being a lesbian so much ugh #happy lesbian visibility week yall #let me go get these bitches numberssssss #belle speaks

[thebeautifulfantastic]

web weaving, 9.26.23

little women, dir. greta gerwig / frances ha, dir. noah baumbach / “pierre,” ryn weaver / “fear and trembling,” gang of youths

#belle speaks #the mortifying ordeal of being known #and thus is winged cupid painted blind #frances ha #little women #web weaving #belle’s diary #greta gerwig #sylvia plath #gang of youths

[radcats]

i love stede bonnet with my whole heart and mind

AND

if i met stede bonnet irl i would punt him immediately due to my inability to respond to his bullshit, whimsy, and impracticality without screaming

are two sentences that Can coexist

#look #i love his bitchy lil ways #and autisic mind #but MY autistic mind would not be able to handle him #ofmd #our flag means death #stede bonnet #textpost #belle speaks #i think thats why i like izzy sm #like yeah stede ur cute #but your gentleman ways do not mix well with pirates #and in any other genre everyone would be DEAD #my autism lines up far more with izzys #NO UR DOING IT WRONG UR GONNA GET US KILLED #so true bestie #izzy hands

[bellamer]

Milluki would be the easiest Zoldyck to reform.

And I'm not talking about those "Milluki loses weight and is suddenly nice because he's 'handsome' and not fat anymore" fanfics and fanarts. Who's to say Milluki loathes himself because of his weight ? That's just a dumb assumption, sure, he probably does get picked on by his family, mainly his parents and grandpa, because he's the portly one out of all of them, but they also judge and criticize him for everything else, so I think his weight would be one of the last things on his mind.

But think about it, Milluki is actually really smart and skilled with computers, he's basically the family IT guy whenever they have a problem that has something to do with technology.

But what if he decided to leave ? In my opinion, I don't think his family would care, considering that they think he's a failure as an assassin and a son. They wouldn't miss him like they miss Killua. Sure they'd be losing their IT guy, but they could easily just hire someone for that role. And I'm not even sure they realized he actually left the house for the first time in years when he went to Yorknew City.

What if at that moment, when he came back, he realizes that nobody even noticed that he was gone and it inspires him to leave ? He realizes that they truly don't care.

Milluki is young and talented, so he could easily get a job that can use his skills and could even enroll in a university and could get multiple degrees.

His personality is also shitty because he's stuck in the house with people who don't care about him or notice him, so he doesn't really socialize as much as he should, so if he went and found some anime nerds with common interests (assuming they aren't the shitty incel type who'd influence his already shitty personality) he could probably make fast friends that way. He'd be a little awkward at first but he'd eventually get into the rythm.

In eighth grade I once made a fanfic where Milluki simply just had to leave the house because there was an anime figure he wanted that could only be bought in stores and he bumped into a person who wanted the same figure and they just talked and got to know each other and it was the first person who acknowledged him and showed him kindness in years, so he was eager to get away from his family and change himself for them but he was scared that they would just abandon him and ignore him just like everyone else.

Milluki could actually survive and make it in the real world if he just had the motivation and if he did ever get out and touch some grass and met some people, his spoiled man-child personality would probably decrease expeditiously. It wouldn't be completely gone, but he'd probably just be reduced to more of an know-it-all dork who always has a 'I'm smarter than everyone in this room, so when I say Sailor Moon can beat Goku, it's a fact, don't question my judgment !" personality but can turn it off whenever he has to do something important or when he wants to make new friends.

#belle speaks #hunter x hunter #hxh #milluki zoldyck #the zoldyck family #zoldyck family #illumi zoldyck #killua zoldyck #alluka zoldyck #kalluto zoldyck #kikyo zoldyck #silva zoldyck #zeno zoldyck

[belleamante99]

I finished reading Camp Damascus by Chuck Tingle yesterday. Yes, I definitely read it on the day it came out.

As a queer, autistic person who was raised in the Southern Baptist church during the 80s until the early 2000s, this book hits hard in a lot of ways.

I had a good friend pulled from school in 2003 and forbidden to speak to me when his parents found out he was gay and that I knew and hadn’t told. They sent him to Christian counseling.

I had a much loved teacher recommend Exodus International (ex gay conversion nonsense) for him without realizing I was also queer.

So yes, on the serious side, it hit me in the feels.

On the silly side, it was a delightfully fun read with just enough suspense to keep you going. Occasionally pretty gross, but what’s some body horror between friends.

#chuck tingle #camp damascus #belle speaks #book recommendations #tw conversion therapy

[theprodigals]

the more time goes by the less interested i am in ever returning to the evangelical chuch

#to be clear!!! i do think there is truth in Christianity and i don’t plan on leaving the faith at all!!! #i keep meaning to visit this episcopal church near me #and continue all the reading an exploration i’ve done about theology #also i want to look into Catholicism #i’ve gotten to a point where religious deconstruction and reconstruction feels like an adventure — from a learning theology perspective #what’s NOT fun is realizing the impact that purity culture made on how i experience attraction #belle speaks #religious deconstruction #christianity

[feycheron]

some current potential fic ideas.

rwrb but merthur au

rwrb, post book

rwrb, but medieval au

rwrb, arranged marriage au thing

#fic ideas #belle speaks

[rosygaze]

he's so boyfriend shaped

#joseph quinn #belle speaks

[thewondermentofillustration]

Les ancétres - Paraitrait, maman, que je suis la fille d'un grand-duc - Qui t'a dit ca? - C'est papa. - Qu'est-ce qu'il en sait ?

The Ancestors - It seems, Mum, that I am the daughter of a grand duke - Who told you that? - Dad did. - What does he know about it?      -- Ferdinand Bac, (1859 - 1952), Le Rire (The Laugh; French Comic)

#Ferdinand Bac #Bac #Ferdinand Bach #Le Rire #French cartoonist #belle speaks #elegant dress #ancestry #duke #heritage #french language #French translation #comic #vintage comic #illustration #vintage illustration #beauty

[elliesbelle]

emily gwen, the creator of the sunset lesbian flag that we’ve come to commonly use, still continues to live in poverty.

multi-billion dollar companies have used their design and made profit from it, and yet they have not seen a cent for their creation.

i’ve been friends with emily for years, and i have not once seen them be financially stable the entire time. i’ve seen them homeless, unemployed, starving. right now, they need our help more than ever.

please consider donating to emily’s ko-fi, especially if you’ve used their design to create something and profited from it.

#emily’s finally found housing after couch surfing at friends’ places for months #they’ve got a lot of debt rn on top of bills and rent #rn they don’t have food in the house and they’re starving #they don’t deserve this at all they are so kind and i literally hate to see them suffering #please please pleaaase donate and reblog #they don’t ask for much but they deserve the world #mutual aid #crowdfunding #donation post #belle speaks

[thebeautifulfantastic]

"so much (for) stardust" is pure hopepunk nihilism. in this essay i will-

#gonna come back and add to this post later #fall out boy #belle speaks

[radcats]

#rlly hope no one has done this already #titan #titan submarine #titan submersible #general news #news #world news #destial #destial meme #billionaire #titanic #lost submersible #lost submarine #oceangate #eat the rich #belle speaks

[bellamer]

I think Milluki Zoldyck only dislikes Killua because Killua took all of his attention away when he was born, especially Illumi's. I already made a post about how I think Illumi and Milluki were once close but think about this.

Illumi and Milluki are 7 years apart in age, so Illumi was probably getting used to having a little brother and was probably quite curious about Milluki. Milluki probably followed him around out of curiosity and Illumi didn't mind much and whenever he got a break from the harsh training his family put him through, he probably spent some quality time with Milluki. This was before his emotions got repressed.

Milluki was probably used to being the 'baby' and got his fair amount of attention and probably wasn't even that spoiled, just indulged in toys and gifts his parents gave him when they realized that he probably wasn't going to be cut out for the assassin lifestyle. I liked to think he always shared with Illumi though.

This all changed when Killua was born. Milluki would have been 5, Illumi would have been 12. Milluki was probably uneasy about having a little brother since he was the baby for 5 years. His suspicions would have been correct, when his parents immediately started gushing over their little white haired, blue eyed miracle child. Okay fine, so Killua took the attention of his parents, but at least he still had his illu-nii, right ? Yeah no, it probably only lasted a year before Killua was pushed on Illumi to be raised by him, his father and their grandfather. Kikyo, Silva and Zeno were probably the ones who started torturing Killua since birth to work on his pain tolerance, then as soon as he could walk, was like "Alright Illumi, your turn !"

Illumi was so focused on training Killua that he couldn't spend any time with Milluki. Milluki was starting to feel neglected so he tried to seek out attention but his parents were probably like "Here, take this chocolate and go watch TV, Mill." "Here's a toy and some chips, now go away." "Don't bother Illumi when he's training Killua, take this game system and some food and beat it."

So Milluki started to shut himself in, which is why he still acts like a child at 17 years old, his parents just gave up on him in favor of Killua, giving him new toys and food instead of attention and love. Even when he uses technology and little gidgets he creates to assassinate people, his family still looks down on him and calls him a poor assassin.

Which is probably why Milluki eats so much and is obsessed with computers, games and anime figures, he associates that with love and comfort. He particularly eats a lot when he's fustrated too. His parents don't force him to train or to even take up the assassin lifestyle, they just want him out of the way, so they can fawn over Killua and only call him when they need something, which is why he has resentment towards Killua.

In a way I relate to him, since my younger brother is the perfect favorite of the family who just happens to look just like his father and gets away with anything, while the rest of us are just afterthoughts. Which is why I can't bring myself to hate Milluki like everyone else.

In other words ? Milluki is just all alone and his personality and behavior is the result of the Zoldycks ignoring him. I don't think Milluki deserves all of the hate he gets compared to other characters who've done way worse and still get praise just because they're hot (i.e: Hisoka, Illumi, Chrollo, Feitan and others)

#hunter x hunter #hxh #milluki zoldyck #illumi zoldyck #killua zoldyck #zoldyck family #silva zoldyck #kikyo zoldyck #zeno zoldyck #belle rambles #belle speaks

[nanagoswife]

Will we get a part 2 of believe me?

I’m so sorry for taking so long to answer this!

^^this is me^^

Anyways, yes! It’s been a thought on the back burner. I’m not sure when I’ll get to it but I promise it will!

#nanami kento #nanami kento x reader #believe me #Belle sucks at answering asks #belle speaks

[theprodigals]

feeling torn and conflicted because Matt Chandler (lead pastor of The Village Church) is one of the only pastors whose speaking style is able to keep me engaged all the way through a sermon, but as I look into the policies and belief systems of the church, I realize that they are non-affirming towards the LGBTQ+ community and don’t allow women to hold leadership roles. so now I feel almost guilty supporting them.

I think there has to be some middle ground where I can agree to enjoy and appreciate certain sermons but disagree and reject bad theology, but I’m not quite there. my anger and hurt at the church is at the forefront of my mind right now. there’s a small, distrustful part of me that thinks “if they’re wrong about the queer community and about women in leadership, what else are they wrong about theologically?” and while that’s something I can find the answer to myself through research and with time, it bothers me that I feel the need to be mistrustful of almost every church now.

#my silly silly neurodivergent brain not being able to stay focused in church services ugh #sitting and listening to people talk and preach sermons is… usually not engaging #sometimes it’s torture #so when i DO find myself following along with a pastor (which has happened. like. twice) it’s a big deal #belle speaks #religious deconstruction #religious trauma #matt chandler #baptist church #journal entries #exvangelical

[elliesbelle]

texts with college gf ellie

part 2

you and ellie have started living in an off-campus apartment together ♡︎

content warnings: dealer!ellie, cursing, mentions of marijuana, sexual content, mentions of sex, mentions of a strap-on, a bit of sexting, references to a strap-on as a "dick", mentions of penetrative sex, slight mention of a little daddy kink, minors do not interact

texts with domestic gf!ellie: part 1, part 2, part 3

texts with college gf!ellie: part 1, part 2

texts with gf!abby found on my masterlist here

i have a ko-fi if you like my work so much that you feel compelled to tip me ♡︎

we will see a free palestine

keep the lesbian flag creator alive

author's notes:

haven't done one of these in a while, so hope y'all enjoy this <3

first two convos are inspired by recent text convos between me and my live-in ex lmao (she was mad af when i fell asleep instead of unlocking the door cause she pushed into the front door expecting it to be unlocked and she spilled coffee on herself 😭)

also the uno convo is also inspired by the time my best friend and her gf were visiting me and we were playing uno with live-in ex and live-in ex was drunk and got mad as hell bc she apparently grew up with different uno rules slkdfjsdkl

making these reminded me to repair a few of my lingerie pieces cause i've been slacking on sewing them back ugh

also idk why this ended up being really sexy at the end oops well i hope y'all enjoyed anyway lol

#ellie williams #ellie texts #text convos #ellie x reader #ellie x you #ellie x y/n #gf!ellie #ellie smut #the last of us #tlou #the last of us part 2 #tlou2 #belle speaks #belle answers #belle writes #dealer!ellie #college!ellie