#I have big feelings tonight sorry

[thecowboykatsuki-anon]

Touya hadn’t meant to miss the call, hadn’t meant to make you listen to his voicemail box one, two, three times.

Hadn’t meant to make you cry to a silent line.

But when he finally has time to click that voicemail, your sobs crackling through the speaker, he doesn’t let it finish after that first broken I need you.

It doesn’t matter that you haven’t talked in 6 months, doesn’t matter that he’s celebrating a great ride, doesn’t matter that he’s had a couple beers.

What matters is that you’re not picking up, one, two, three calls later.

Doesn’t matter that he’s tearing down the dark road way faster than he should, phone on speaker on his dash and fist beating the steering wheel so hard he’s sure it’ll bruise.

What matters is the one, two, three, four voicemails he leaves telling you he’ll be there in four, three, two minutes.

What matters is the one, two minutes he spends banging on your door before remembering he never returned your key, leaving it open when he tears it wide and rushes in.

The two, three, four leaps it takes to get up your stairs hardly register to him.

All that matters is the sight of you, just you, lying on the bathroom floor, crying so hard that it shakes your whole body.

Because it doesn’t matter if it takes one, two, three, four hours… he’ll be there until it stops.

#cowboy touya #touya x reader #touya blurb #cowboy touya x reader #cowboy au #selfship? #I have big feelings tonight sorry #touya angst #touya comfort #mha touya #cowboy Dabi #bullrider! Touya #bullrider! dabi #selfship coded #thecowboyanonwrites #goose.writes #t.writes

[oughtnots]

minor spoiler for todays Steeplechase, dont read this until youve listened to it -

Middle-aged/old Montrose truthers win!!!!!!!!

RISE UP BESTIES! HE'S OLD

#the adventure zone steeplechase #montrose pretty #the adventure zone #steeplechase #taz steeplechase #taz #art #my art #asks #FEELING VINDICATED IN THIS GOOD HOUSE TONIGHT. THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO SENT ME AN ASK OR SAID YOU THOUGHT OF ME #still think i headcanon him closer to middle age than 'shockingly old' (sorry griffin) just bc how is he doing all these physical feats but #shockingly as opposed to what they might have guessed maybe #still thought he was gonna turn out to be carmine denton for a while. still could tbh #also thank you for formatting this with the big space so i didnt read the spoiler #ik i switched which hand was the tusk SORRY pretend this is mirrored

[moregraceful]

folks tonight we discovered what hitting my breaking point looks like and it is: impulse three day vacation in palm desert for ahl hockey in february by myself. does anyone have any recommendations for stuff to do in coachella valley?? like restaurants or hikes or museums or anything. i don't drink and i love museums and i will have a car and my only two commitments are evening hockey games. i should probably buy my lesbian parents alcohol, snacks, and/or spices for looking after my dog and i would like to buy local. also love a local ice cream shop or creamery. literally any recs you have would be great!! no recommendation too great or too small!!

(also podcast recs that aren't true crime or horror since i have two 7+ hour drives and if i listen to my sports podcasts the entire time i will become a worse version of myself than we started with, which is already bad lmfao)

#i'm so excited i have not been on vacation since 2021 and i have never been on vacation by myself ever #we will not discuss the circumstances that led to me making this decision in 15 mins and having a room booked and the tickets bought #within an hour and a half tonight but. know that it has been very very very bad for at least a month. lol. lmao #also i am so sorry to firebirds fans where the fresh hell does your team get off charging you $30+ dollars for ahl hockey #obviously i went apeshit and bought $80 tickets close to the bench for observation purposes but like. $30 for ahl hockey?? #not even sitting close to the glass??? that's insane. i hope i get to see someone beat brisson's ass for no reason #OH FIREBIRDS FANS ALSO. WHICH LITTLE GUY SHOULD I ROOT FOR #big fan of going to minor leagues games choosing a guy at random and throwing all my emotional energy in to his game narrative #but i feel like i have. at least two firebirds fans following me maybe one of you can choose a guy for me #fresno oilers.txt #IS THE BOTANICAL GARDEN FUN

[ghastigiggles]

Omg omg omg "Here comes the tickle monster" with ler!Jing Yuan and lee!Yanqing! If that's okay ofc💕

Mischievious Prompts [Still Open]

“My lord, please, you should still be resting…”

“A little rest is good for the soul,” Jing Yuan smiled back, gazing out the window; “But too much, and one risks becoming lethargic.”

Yanqing sighed softly, his brow furrowing with worry as he gazed at the general’s back. While it was true that Jing Yuan was bouncing back well, a part of him – the part that was still attached to his mentor – still stressed over the depth of his wounds. Jing Yuan could be like a cat at the best of times, concealing facets of his health to avoid worrying those he cared for – and giving his enemies an advantage, all the same.

“... I understand,” The young warrior managed after a moment, knowing better than to push his luck too far; “In that case, if there’s anything I can do to help, please, let me be of service.”

“Hm.”

Jing Yuan turned to look down upon Yanqing, a soft smile upon his lips as he took in the boy’s worried state – and with a soft chuckle, he nodded, turning to face him fully as Yanqing perked to attention.

“There is one thing…”

Something about the general’s tone struck a memory for Yanqing, who promptly tensed – suddenly overwhelmingly glad that there were no other members of staff present in Jing Yuan’s office. As the older warrior stepped forward, he stepped back, swallowing as he realized where this was going.

“My lord…! You can’t be serious – your condition is –”

“Not severe enough to stop the tickle monster!”

In a split moment, Jing Yuan grinned and started closer, earning a yelp of alarm from Yanqing as he darted away in turn, quickly moving to stay out of reach – though he couldn’t stop the anticipatory, equally entertained smile from seizing his features, nor the squeal that escaped him when the general finally seized his target. 

“Here it comes!”

“Eeyah! Nohohoo, my - my lohord…!”

Ultimately, a little laughter was a soothing balm for both of their souls – and for those who passed by the office’s doors, pausing to smile at the muffled sounds of play within. All would be well within the Divination Commission.

#hsr tickles #jing yuan #yanqing #mine #sorry this is a lil late #also sorry that its lighter on the Content side but #i finished the final bit of luofu before starting penacony tonight #so that was still fresh in my mind and like. the best point of reference for me to work with #also my first time writing for anyone from hsr so im sorry if it feels clunky #i will find my rhythm eventually god willing #anyway did you know i love them. did you know #their dynamic as like. mentor/student but also kind of big brother/lil brother is just... #its everything to me :( yanqing cares his mentor so much and wants to make him proud #and jing yuan cares his apprentice so much and wants to make him strong #im ngl though... luofu kinda made me Sleep storywise #i felt like it dragged a bit :( which SUCKS bc the characters are great #and ill take any chance to see the stellaron hunters do funky shit. which they did manymuch of during that story #it just got overshadowed by uh. too much filler imo #belobog and (so far) penacony have felt better paced #neway im rambling sorry #enjoy the fic o7

[yohankang]

i officially resigned today :')

#i still have to work there bc i've got a one-month notice period. but i did it!!! #the conversation with my boss went well! she was really nice and supportive #she said she was worried about me bc she could tell i was struggling. and that she understands my decision #and in case i won't find a new job this month they can extend my contract #i cried a lot 😭 #and now i'm terrified and sad bc i really love some of my coworkers and i don't want to leave them #but at the same time i'm SO relieved. i feel like i will be able to sleep well tonight. for the first time in weeks #k.txt #also sorry guys i've been mia. and sorry for not answerings your messages #but between working full time searching for a new job doing final assignments for uni and crying. i honestly don't have any energy left #i only logged in to tell you the big news :') and now i'm back to my assignment :( see ya in a week when my exam hell is over

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

one thing about me w/ creative freedom is that in all of my Personal Lore i will make dragons so People. they are a People. yeah yeah animalistic dragons dragons that are beasts we've all seen it. what about the very intelligent dragons. dragons with their own cultures and societies and languages. dragons who belong to a higher form of existence too. what about them

#i simply Cannot do the 'dragons are tameable animals' thing i cant #its fun to Observe and Enjoy in other medias #but my own headworlds? My lore? nahhhhhh fuck that they are People <3 #like i have an offshoot that is basically 'animal dragons EXCEPT! theyre not actually dragons at all <3 humans just call em dragons- #-cause its the closest word they have for what the big rideable winged critters look like' #ough sorry headworld posting on main. kinda. vaguely #vague headworld posting.... #balancing the various facets of Dragon is so so fun #my headworld docs are full to bursting and i aint done yet babeyyyyyy #absolutely unprompted #as an apology for this i will be posting some misc. laughingstock in a bit #BUT this is still this tags and i have a reputation for rambling #anyway i just. im feeling indulgent affection for my dragons tonight. their lore. their history. how it ties into others' #theyre out there making music and art and Mistakes #dragons: we'll do better than the humans. we will be better. we Are better. #narrator: they are not. in fact. better. #dragons and humans being more similar than either would ever admit. except for a select few <3 #and then My Boy coming in clutch and irreversibly tying the two together #ough. thoughts thoughts Thoughts #i need to come up with more casual lore. games and common phrases and stories and how their learning system works #veran dragons my beloved <3<3<3<3<3 #ah i love posting about things that only make sense to Me

[dollopheadsandclotpoles]

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#it feels so weird sometimes to scroll through tags of fandoms that I was such a big part of #like it feels sometimes like I haven’t made a dent in it #I was so into Thai shows and TRC for YEARS and now it feels like… I wasn’t even a part of these fandoms at all #feels like there’s no evidence of me having hyper fixated on them for years idk #sorry guys I’m in a weird mood tonight I guess #things just feel so… fleeting #I know time moves on and things change and etc etc #idk what I’m saying I’m sick and a bit off #about me

[brattybottomdyke]

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#feeling like a little existential tonight #we’re doing a secret santa gift exchange at work and i set up a little wishlist #and there were so many cute little home decor gifts #i just…i really need my own space again #i don’t feel like i have a space in this house #i probably never have tbh #and my ex was so particular about the way we decorated our apartments #i feel like it’s part of why i feel so lost…i feel like i can’t really express myself fully #i feel like it’s a big part of why i feel so lost actually #anyway sorry for the meh #bottom.spm

[piplupod]

every now and then i come on here and wail and yell into what I think of as the void and then ppl come out of the void to say some kind words to me and i appreciate it so much, and also i get so flustered because I was perceived being anything less than a completely normal joe HFDSJGKL

#the fact that ppl take the time to interact w smth i've said/shared is always wild to me and really means a lot #but also im so so sorry that u had to see me have A Time on here fsdhgkl #big old brainfight between ''this is ur blog - post what u want'' vs ''i cannot subject other ppl to my emotions unless theyre happy ones'' #im also so scared of responding sometimes bc i am afraid i will say smth somehow wrong and everything will come tumbling down #so if i ever do not respond just know that i likely saw it and teared up a little and then got scared that i'd stumble in a reply #and ended up avoiding replying bc i didnt want to ''ruin things'' somehow fdsjkl BUT I DEF APPRECIATED IT and wanted to say thank-you!!! #there is always a thank-you ready in my brain but i get scared of saying it sometimes bc i cannot always find the perfect way to say it !! #okay im gonna cut off my rambles here for tonight bc im starting to feel like i'm saying things wrong somehow so ADIOS FOR NOW fdsjkl #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[sevenyeargap]

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#BIG big old vent post coming up ... I'm sorry but i need to get this out bc im doing Bad bad #but. sighs. don't you love having a Good Day for once - when you're able to go home and not feel utterly exhausted and you're also able to #go buy groceries bc you want to cook for once!!!! but then your mom UTTERLY ruins it. by telling you you're useless and dumb 🙃🙃🙃 #idk man i finally wanted to do something that was not rot in bed tonight and guess what ive been going #i haven't even been able to put my pjs on so im still fully clothed... in bed ....... #im ngl im dreading Moving Back Home in two months #bc i moved out so that i wouldn't have to deal with her all the time and yet!!!!!!! it's like it's HER home now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #she treats me like im fucking five and not an actual adult. jesus #okay anyway that was all im crawling back to the depression hole for an even longer time than expected 🤞

[pohlepen]

frankie & who????

#“ ⍀ face. « i’ll be honest / we’re all liars. #( OOOOOOOH U WANNA TAKE HER FLYING SO BAD ) #( you could tell her your shit is going down and she starts singing like riff raff in that one vine ) #( frankie the second there's a lil bumpy patch on ANY plane: WOW. that was a big one! ) #( she should have been a flight attendant ) #( part of her is that she has an IMMENSE ability to compartmentalize any sort of negative feeling ) #( or ig i should say perceived negative feeling because it could be a useful feeling sometimes like ) #( is there a fight flight freeze fourth option? ) #( dissociate??? Lmao idk ) #( frankie is a good man in a storm and i will preach that until the day i die or she's dies which comes first ig lol ) #( anyway! She likes to fly and she likes turbulence and will hold your hand if you're scared and buy you a drink ) #( her doing x*nax and at*van definitely doesn't help her be reactionary but- ya know lol ) #( sorry this is all I've got tonight folks my brain is poorly but it'll get better! #( sending y'all love and vibes and shit 💓 )

[ryderdire]

I think I need to go out into nature alone and just exist around it. I think that will fix me.

#sorry #the only access I have to nature is asking my parents or my sister to drive me #and my sister isn’t great at respecting my boundaries with talking and soical engery and my parents are busy. so like. I’ll just look at #pretty videos. #and like. doing self care stuff around them makes me so nervous. #I don’t know why. #well. #actually #I do know why but I’m not trauma dumping on double u double u double u dot tumblr dot com tonight #yearning for nature #sad #I haven’t seen a big boy tree in months. #ryders rambles #sorry again this is just how I’m feeling at the current moment. #I know it sounds a bit silly and pretentious but like this is my tumblr blog and I can choose the coping mechanism daydream to post about. #I’ve been seeing a lot of #those like nature aesthetic videos #and it made me think about how nice it would be to just exist in awe inspiring beauty for a bit #like. #it’s hard to #explain but there’s somthing so sobering about being somewhere that’s #like. nature and not man made and not so repetitive it hurts #somthing about the way it all blends together somthing about how it’s living like I am or had been living #idk rambling now #somthing about cycles and chaos and beauty and conformity and capitalism. #I’m going to sleep now. #gn #Ren Go to sleep

[matrose]

THEYRE LIKE my two favorite sibling tropes in one. for extra damage. siblings with 10+ year age gap so its kind of a third parent situation AND siblings who try to kill eachother….my brain is going haywire. is siblings who try to kill eachother established enough to be a trope ? it is to me. i love when things are incredibly fucked up. love is there because it cant not be because theyre a part of you but also you kind of kill eachother ! uh oh !

#i feel kind of exposed sharing this ! now all of tumblr knows my deal ! #well 10% of my deal. #anyways loved in the silm when they tried to kill eachother! #ok i feel the need to clarify b4 someone assumes stuff from reading this and also bc i feel like oversharing a bit tonight #im not fantasizing about comitting violence towards family members. its just interesting and fun to see something in media that is #personally relatable to me blablabla trauma #this already feels like too much! i think i needed to share just a little bit bc i started talking about All That to friends two weeks ago #but we got interrupted and i never got to tell them even thiugh they asked and i was getting ready to relay if and now everythings ON THE #SURFACE!!!!!!!! #and i dont have a way to get it outttt #but also kinda glad we were interrupted bc i was starting to feel dizzy . win for me in that way #ach the overshare. will delete this in a bit just want to vomit it all up #i say >it all< like i revealed anything big instead of just vaguely alluding to things #sorry that already feels like too much to me…..

[graysongraysoff]

I feel like a bad cat mom my baby deserves better 😭

#my apartment will feed/check on your cat for free while you're traveling #i only booked them for the 24th and 25th bc i was getting home today #and last time i booked them for the day i came home they ended up coming by like after i had already gotten home and was eating dinner lol #but then my flight got delayed 😔 so i didn't get home until late tonight #and i emailed them at like 1:00 when i first found out my flight was going to be delayed asking if they could check on him #but i should have called #anyway when i got home he had gotten into a bag of his treats bc he was hungry and i feel so bad 😭 #(he might also smell my step-mom's kitties on me he is giving me big 'welcome home cheater' energy) #i'm so sorry yooj 😭 #yuji tag

[masquenoire]

💭 + harley uwu

𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓬𝓪𝓷𝓸𝓷𝓼 — send 💭 + a topic to receive a headcanon about said topic.

Nobody has ever pissed off Roman quite like Harley has. Their relationship was contentious enough to start with thanks to her connection with the Joker but Harley is capable of irritating him like nobody else, making him feel like an oyster that can’t get rid of an annoying itch. I’ve mentioned before how I’m not exactly... fond of Roman’s ‘Birds of Prey’ adaption but I LIVE for every petty issue this man has with her;

Calling him Romy, saying “expresso” instead of “espresso“, sticking gum under his chair, spoiling countless movies, changing the channel before stealing the television remote, forgetting to use a coaster on his tables, burping the alphabet, touching his paintings, carjacking (and crashing) his Rolls Royce  and  graffitiing his Ferrari are just a few of the many, many, many, many things she’s done that’s wildly pissed him off just as much as the last thing on this list.

Nobody, not even the Joker has gone out of his way to wind him up (because let’s face it, even if he did, what’s Roman going to do about it?) but Harley uniquely has the ability to get under his skin like nobody else, fearlessly prodding every gigantic red button that leads to a meltdown. She’s loud, she’s rude, she’s obnoxious in every imaginable way and is the definition of uncontrolled chaos which, to a control freak like Roman, is unacceptable. Very few people have offended Roman and lived to tell the tale, but she’s both angered and offended him so greatly he’s ended up passing out from sheer outrage.

#quinzelles #memes ;; receive a headcanon #Hi Peach sorry this took a moment to do! #This was very very fun though and asdfghjkl #Harley pissing him off is the GREATEST I SWEAR #He's so fucking petty and I think a big thing about it is that he can be a bit disgusted easily #Tons of blood and gore won't bother him but a snotty nose is ew #That amused me in BoP #No no no but seriously #Not even RED HOOD being able to piss Roman off like Harley has #Something about that is just so wildly funny to me #It's a real 'Bitch eating Crackers' situation with him #She could just be breathing and he'd lose it #<3 #I love her #Might not be very active tonight #Just not feeling it #Might bounce back otherwise I'm just going to have a long sleep then back to work tomorrow

[tutuandscoot]

Is is ethical to block accounts, not based on what they post, but on the posts they like?

Obviously this is based on VM content so like.. if you see someone has liked/rb something stating one opinion, then also something the complete opposite that is in conflict to your own ethics.. not something that is in disagreement to you own opinions, but something that is inherently the opposite of the way you feel and believe and don’t feel comfortable interacting in the same space (fandom) with..

Just curious.. if anyone wants to discuss further/privately my inbox is open

#me when my doctor asks how my depression is going: #‘yeh great just as long as I don’t accidentally wander into any trashy VM blogs #I’m not beat in round he bush here we all know I’m talking bout the trash wing of the fandom #I just do not feel comfortable letting people follow me who also interact with the trash wing #sorry no I don’t want people who think badly of them enjoying my content #sorry if that’s harsh #but also I don’t want to hedge too quickly bc often people discover VM and can’t differentiate the nasty from the appreciative.. #get blasted with the wrong narrative and I don’t want to alienate them when they come to their senses.. #again.. sorry if that’s harsh but I have no time for bullies and shot stirrers #I’m fine with disagreeing with people but on tangleble things like skating/judging/costumes #not on attacking peoples personalities and private lives that’s just a big ethical no go zone for me #sorry people we’re getting polictical on here tonight #venting