#I kind of obsess about it like a freak

[chloe12801]

I love Steven Ogg but no one ever talks about the weird situation/distance he has with his son and it is ALWAYS on my mind and bothering me when I think of him

#idk the situation no one but them do #but the possible implications of abandonment freak me out so much #I kind of obsess about it like a freak #DEADASS dm me or reblog or something if you want to discuss this bc I have information just held inside me #misfortunes of being a parasocial freak #Steven ogg #Trevor philips #cafa #cafa oc #this isn’t hate to him #I just want to talk to someone about it #idk this man and neither do you #many possibilities for why the distance seems to exist #gta #grand theft auto v

[parasitoidism]

Truly great moment was Ryo fresh out the hospital jumping out of his car and sucker punching this poor guy to steal his motorcycle. Imagine having to file that police report about how you got knocked the fuck out and your shit stolen by some shirtless blond severely injured 17 year old freak. I would just let it go. Thankfully that guy didn’t have to live with the shame for much longer though considering how the story goes

#ryos satan spidey senses telling him his ride or die is in trouble is one thing but him managing to grab a gun on the way out is always #funny also . i especially liked in the ova where he’s also wearing a black cloak that you have never seen him wear before . like did he stop #by his house on the way there #like I mean I guess it could have still been in his jacket. maybe hospitals in the 70s just didn’t care about that kind of thing #but in the ova he has a full on sniper rifle so. i think they had the idea for that one shot and were just like guys this has to happen #ugh guys I promise I liked devilman because of the themes and stuff okay I promise I’m a smart media comprehending boy but it’s just #of course I’m a little obsessed withthis gay freak . he’s entertaining until . uh until it isn’t fun anymore. yknow . #actually why was I embarrassed about liking a character in a story that’s actually normal

[distraughtlesbian]

literally the best part of this whole stupid book iwlove weird obsessed horndogs thee villain archetype of all time. he’s so silly. “we could’ve had a life together”, he says to his lesbian ex-neighbour who he’s just shot with a crossbow bolt meanwhile her girlfriend who he’s also just shot is half dead across the room. god i love it here he said me and the bad bitch im going to fumble

#WHAT A FUCKING FREAK IJBOL!!!!!! #MORE PSYCHOSEXUALLY OBSESSED WEIRDO VILLAINS PIXELBERRY I KNOW YOU HAVE IT IN U. #their villains are usually so cringe and one note at least this one is memorable #mind you this could have used more buildup. up until like chapter 19 he still had the benefit of the doubt #his ass was NOT beating the twist villain allegations but the fucking freak allegations were a whole separate beast #and he could be presumed innocent in those. like sure i guess these are just average fanatic werewolf hunter antics. #like EYE had my suspicions. him sending that frat bro to sexually harass mc was a fucking freak move #but like in general he was coming off as someone who was just a normal amount of concerned about a friend of theirs falling in w a cult #like girl why am i following my cringe fwb into the pool house to be all ‘babe this isnt u :(’ #i dont CARE i wanna go engage with the twist antagonist who at this point my mc still thinks is kind of normal/their friend!!! #but alas that’s just pb for you. we WILL NOT stick a landing ever. they make all the new writers swear to never write a villain that makes #sense or is well foreshadowed. ONLY side characters who you would never suspect bc they have like 5 lines in the whole book. #like you’ll never be duffy veilofsecrets you’ll never recapture that magic. #anyway. markus choicesalpha the fucking weirdo cringefail stalker incel loser you could have been…kermit looking out rainy window dot png #maeve speaks #playchoices #choices #pixelberry #choices alpha #channing lowe #markus barnes #side note this whole thing probably has a Much different vibe with a male mc #but as it is it’s like ijbol. channing is cringe and emotionally unavailable but how could you POSSIBLY compare to a buff werewolf bitch #he is so completely not a contender that its comedic to me. you think WE could have had a LIFE TOGETHER? #even if my mc had never ever met channing SHE IS A LESBIAN!!!! SHES GAY DUDE STOP IT LOL #and with a female mc and male channing its like yeah whatever average incel number 10 billion. wow youre going to kill me bc some other guy #is hotter than you? eyeroll. at least channing canonically gives great head.

[lecliss]

I'll never be able to take the theory that Vincent is Sephiroth's real father seriously cuz I cannot stress enough how important I think it is to the plot that Vincent wanted to fuck Lucrecia and did not get to.

#once again i jest but now i have to actually talk about it #like. okay we have no proof of any actual timeline for the dirge flashbacks other than. it was at least 30 years ago #so who knows how long they were at the manor. could have been weeks before The Incident. or months. or maybe a full year! who knows #but to me a timeline of like. they fucked and like a week later vincent found The Evidence and lucercia had her little breakdown #AND THEN EXTREMELY QUICKLY SHE AGREED TO THE EXPERIMENT AND IT COULD GO ONE OF TWO WAYS #1. she knew she was pregnant and thats why she agreed to the experiment cuz there was already a usable subject #and therefore she must have fucked hojo like a week after she fucked vincent AND THATS STUPID FAST FOR THESE EVENTS #or 2. she didnt know. agreed to the experiment. fucked hojo. and therefore thought seph was hojo's and NOT vincent's #AND BY THE WAY. i dont even actually believe hojo fucked either!!! cuz theyre both scientists so why wouldnt they think IVF was the best way #okay. well.... hojo is canonically a fucked up little freak. so. he might have taken the opportunity to... get in there. #also when did ivf even start being a thing? cuz that may play a factor into this if nomura even considered that #well either way lets just unfortunately assume hojo got in there #ITS STILL AN ODDLY FAST TIMELINE #also. fuck man doesnt lucrecia have a later line in dirge where she actually says shes in love with hojo? or something along those lines #IMPLYING ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE SHE HAD THE FALLING OUT WITH VINCENT. YOU WOULDNT FUCK THE GUY AFTER ALL THAT SHIT #AND WHILE CLAIMING TO LOVE/CURRENTLY FALLING IN LOVE WITH HOJO!!!! LIKE CMON MAN!!!! SHE SUCKS BUT SHES NOT THAT KIND OF A MESS #i dont think vincent would fuck her until they sorted out their issues anyway and that CLEARLY didnt happen. #its VITAL that that did not happen!!!! #its just. if vincent and lucrecia fucked. everything would have had to happen EXTREMELY fast within like a 2 week timespan #and im just talking about up to when vincent learns shes partaking in the experiment. it was probably another week or two until vincent died #SO. logically it must have been like #fall in love->learn about the gimoire incident->refuse to speak to vincent->get obsessed with hojo->fall in love(?) #and then thats where i think its ambiguous on did the experiment become an idea before or after seph started to exist? #like chicken or the egg ya know. experiment idea or sephiroth zygote? #that feels fucked up to say. im so fucking sorry to seph to talk about this. yeah sorry i have to debate who fucked your mom bro #god imagine telling him that. like not even as a reveal thing cuz he knows who his father is. just like as a sick joke. your mom joke. #NO OH M Y GOD I HAVE A QUESTION NOW #in accordance to him having a photo of lucrecia in ever crisis. after he reads that jenova is an ancient (incorrect btw) #does he think that picture is still her? what about when he takes jenova's body from the lab???? #oh my god 30 tag limit. FUCK. i need like a rant blog for all this vincent talk now. my brain is going a mile a minute

[dykekakashi]

shipping sns but having to weed out all the blogs that think it's chill to hate on sakura because of like. mild ass reasons "oh she wasn't a good friend to naruto" GIRL SASUKE TRIED TO KILL NARUTO. LIKE TEN TIMES FJDJKFVNDJKVK sasuke is the definition of toxic boyfriend i'm sorry the hell are y'all on about

#do i care about s*kura/s*suke like not one bit honestly #but stop talking shit about her for things the male characters do except like. 10 times worse omg #none of them are typical good friends to each other. i hate to say but like they're all just different kinds of obsessive freaks. #and that's why i need to study them under a microscope

[lagtrain]

THEY ARE STUNNING THEY ARE EVERYTHING THEY ARE THE FUCKING MOMENT

#HOLY FUCK!!! HOLY FUCKKKKKK!!!!!!! #oh my god they look so good!!!! they did not disappoint im freaking tf out #tbh akito’s new fit my be my fave… HE DOESNT HAVE THE UGLY LAYERS ANYMORE 🎉🎉🎉 the layering actually looks good I LOVE THE SWEATER AND JACKET #and an. ANNNNN SHES STUNNING SHE IS SO PRETTYYYYY IM OBSESSED!!!!! OBSESSEDDDD! the top and pants combo is such a slay omfg #kohane’s oufit is soooooo fawking cute like im gonna cry 😭😭😭 the sweater over the collared shirt is such a nice look for her #and touya… okay maybe his is the one i like the least but i will not deny he is looking very stylish… #the turtleneck (??) is rlly nice and the jacket keeping the dermond branding is so cool to see (touya moon parallels 🥹) #not a fan of the ripped shirt or whatever thats hanging down tho… like it looks fine but id prefer the design without #AND MIKU… holy fuck??? kind of an insane looking design but i genuinely love it!! she looks so cool and i absolutely adore the coat #also her tie?? is so weird looking?? but i think it works? somehow???? #<- i am feeling very normal about these designs. i like vbs a normal amount. #project sekai #proseka

[ancientmyths]

ppl really think that just bc barbie dolls have had like every job imaginable that means she’s an ultra feminist icon, and everyone who says otherwise is a pink-hating misogynist and a turf and ‘omg just let women be feminine!!!’ like it’s crazy bro i thought we kinda went over all this years ago… and let me be clear this isn’t me saying that barbie is an inherently patriarchal force of evil like i don’t hate barbie but like let’s be a little realistic here. the surgeon or judge barbie with heels and a full face of makeup is not as radical as mattel wants us to think it is.

#this kind of reversal of attitudes just bc a big blockbuster movie is coming out sure is interesting #im trying to stay excited about the movie but it’s so hard when ppl are bashing others for even making a mere suggestion that- #-barbie isn’t feminism personified. saying they’re misogynistic bc she wears pink and is girly like that’s not really the point… #it’s about the beauty standards it’s about the commercialism!!! #idk this is just my 2 cents it’s early im not very eloquent lmao #spelled turf that way so those freaks don’t accidentally find this post bc i know they’re obsessed with searching themselves. losers #words

[von-karmas-a-bitch]

something you have to know about me is that i am obsessed with the unexplored dynamic between franziska and sebastian after the events of investigations 2. another thing you have to know about me is that sometimes i write ace attorney scripts in my notes app for funsies. and yet another thing you must know about me is that i am a trans sebastian truther first and a human being second

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#obsessed with the idea of franziska learning the hard way what patience and kindness is required to be an older sibling #and thus becoming more (silently) apprecative of what miles has done for her #and also learning things about herself via sebastian asking her when no one else will bc they're scared of her #bc sebastian is kinda clueless and very curious and he looks up to her a lot and he just has so!! many!!! questions!!!! #btdubs if someone wants to draw this and @ me i would love that. bc i do not have the energy to draw this whole exchange #ace attorney #my scripts #aai2 #sebastian debeste #franziska von karma #oh btw fun fact that drawing i did with sebastian saying ''the prostitution is ready your honour'' was originally gonna also have franziska #i didn't have the energy to draw anymore but she was gonna be behind the prosecutor's bench with him with her head buried in her hands #and it was gonna be a short comic where when informed of their mistake sebastian was gonna start freaking out #internally being like ''oh jeez i messed up already...... maybe i can't do this...........'' and franziska was gonna Notice That #and be like ''you only made one little mistake sebastian debeste it's not the end of the world now present your argument'' #and then she catches herself saying that and starts having her own existential crisis #bc she just admitted to herself that it's ok to not be perfect #and sebastian's like ''ohhhh you're right i can DO this!!'' #and franziska realises that she's become the kind of mentor she needed as a kid and she has broken the cycle of abuse #and she watches sebastian absolutely SLAY in the courtroom (malapropisms notwithstanding) #so yea that drawing is actually also part of this concept where franziska becomes a mentor to sebastian #edit: oh god tumblr really fucked up the quality on this one sorry #maybe use the alt text if you're struggling to read

[intergalacticaquarium]

Every time somebody writes Eddie doing something super cool and sexy I have have headcanon two goblin-esque habits for him to keep it even

#eddie munson x reader #hes despicable and im in love with him and hes not sexy unless he has the energy of a weird loser who does weird off putting stuff #and is sometimes shoved into water idk i need my fictional men as sad and pitiful as possible or else im not attracted to them anymore #u say hes like a super kinky dom that gets ass all the time? #i say he hasnt washed his hair in 2 weeks and wears all those layers bc he gets cold very easily and shivers a lot #idk if anybody else is listening to taz ethersea but theres this lil guy called urchin #and he speaks in a high pitched voice and one of the first things he says is im a nasty lil freak just a wild little guy #the other day i was trying to find a thru line of like when the wretched little man becomes truly my beloved wretched little man #and i think its when they get soaked in water against their will #like a baptism of sorts #to really become the kind of character i will think about for several years #just sopping wet in their clothes on the rest of the adventure while they are touching wet denim #which is always bad #anyway #i feel like i always need to end these by saying that this is 100% genuine and said with love but i feel like if u read this far u know #i just have very specific and very bad taste in dudes #ive been rewatching some formative media lately and hoo boy every fuckin one theres like a soaking wet miserable boy #that i was fucking obsessed with #and every time im like oh yeah thats gotta be the origin #and then i see an earlier one and its that one #who was the original horrrible boy that made me this way? #wait #fuck #fuck wait i do know who it is and now i need to go lay down #fucking annakin skywalker #he and padme were my first ship my first queer crush simultaneously #and aparently absolutely instilled the deep love of sad boy cool girl within me #thats the name my friend gave it and she said it so succinctly that i needed a minute bc thats it #cool girl is also a slug woman in her own ways but shes always confident about it at least #anyway thanks ive had this blog for a week and now u know the entire history of my taste in men thanks for coming to my seminar

[amsterdamhotelroom]

guys if i’m being real i should have started a succession sideblog like a year ago.. i just think my life would be different if that had happened

#now it feels too late …….. #but i’m starting to freak out bc i have no one to talk about succession with and i am kind of still obsessed with it like so much #um #yk when you’re so obsessed with something that your brain starts going don’tpostaboitittoomuchorthey’llallknow #that’s what happened to me #whoops

[paradoxiii]

Growing up in the Midwest, hearing a tornado siren itself isn't really scary

But it does just have a tinge of spookiness to me for some reason?

And at the end of Charming Disaster's song "Power of the Sun" there's this vocalization that kinda reminds me of a tornado siren but as a spooky "oooOOOOOooo" and it never fails to haunt me when I listen to it.

#tmi #even though i'm a super anxious person there are few things that genuinely creep me out/haunt me when it comes to media #and i guess something that sounds like the wind but reminiscent of a tornado siren is one of them #one thing that does unsettle me is when a guy with zero consideration for other living beings fixates on a woman #ESPECIALLY if he's powerful (magically or socially). if he can ruin everything you know & love & make you feel like there's no way out it- #-just feels horrific. or even if he isn't powerful but terribly intelligent and/or determined. #idk why this in particular unsettles me it just does #it's why I have it so when Brim finds out about what Dr. Addy did she kinda freak out #she had no idea about his obsession with her. she had no idea he collected her dna & made a clone. #the implications of what else he COULD have done. i'd be scared shitless. probably never go out again #or stories where a woman is nice to a guy so he obssesses over her & even kidnaps her. though that comes more from the fact that i do try- #-to be very kind & courteous & have had people mistake that for flirting. so the idea that that kindess could lead to something like that #it's very unsettling #but nonetheless. only real life genuinely terrifies me. which is probably why i'm not into true crime lol #i love reading about horrific & terrifying things in fiction but if it's a real story it just makes me depressed

[keeps-ache]

interests are weird! :)

#just me hi #just remembered that phase i had where i was obsessed with watching wipeout videos on yt #like the show?? Wipeout?? i loved it so fricken much i don't even know why #i didn't like when people got slammed into things or lost cuz then i'd feel Really Bad but something in there definitely had a grip on me #oh my gosh the phrases they would say before they'd jump onto the slide- ;u; Lol #like they'd be let's say a zookeeper specializing in lions or whatever #and before they would jump they'd say something like 'you know i ain't LION when i say i'm in it to win it!!!' #and it hurt every single time but i also loved it sooooooo much #plus. water #man. also speaking of shows i'd always had these really vivid and fond memories of watching looney tunes and tom and jerry #that all happened when i was like 2-3 apparently lol #i could've sworn we were watching that till a little later but whatever #also i thought we'd only watched telletubbies a handful of times- not so! #i remember something about that kind of unsettled me when i was tiny but i seriously can't remember what #the goop they ate though. i really wanted (still do) to eat that #when they'd talk they weren't talking right?? i can't recall clearly but i was kinda freaked out with how they were making word-noises but- #-not Words #baby brains are weird :) #also Nemo screwed with me too! the big empty ocean scenes felt really weird #like the fish were lost. but they were so sure of where they were going but they looked completely lost #actually i had a fear of getting lost so that might've been it lollllllllll #yeah. oh that reminds me of the meijer incident lol #whoops #well i meant to NOT go off but here i am now #okay gonna say tooodles now :) tooooooodles!

[daxite]

i can never trust anyone who uses the word “icky” unironically when discussing a serious topic

#like i can tell the exact kind of person you are from that usage and it means you are absolutely a fucking freak yourself LOL #you sound like a literal toddler #honest to god i hate how both tumblr and twitter have this weird obsession with trying to 'babyfy' speech #especially when it comes to talking about serious subjects it's just fucking weird #i'm not a hard-ass on grammar or anything far from it but there's certain typing styles and shit which just #set up so many red flags for me lmao #like even shorthand shit like 'ppl' gives me weird fucking vibes now just because of the association #i know it sounds dumb as fuck but it's true lol #dax rambles

[aeimygdala]

I could say a lot about the good intentions of mental illness blogs and tags being misused by toxic people and abusers or people without the maturity and self-awareness to use the resources properly but I'd sound really rich considering how hard I did the opposite and kept everything to myself and tried to handle everything myself until it became clear my OCD was making it impossible to neutrally or stress-free interact with anything

#the moral of the story is to talk to trusted people and professionals and interact with online spaces #in a way that helps you and supports you processing in real life #sitting there and stewing and making a ya/ndere vent blog or whatever or just trying to pretend everything is fine #when its on fire #doesnt work! #also if youre just a creep who wants to justify to yourself why you obsess over people and then abandon and turn to hating them #when they act like individuals and not your romanticized idealized partner #then you shouldnt make friends at all until youve learned how to be a good human being and not a two faced liar full of spite #angry that people receieve support when you dont receive the same support bc you have the privilege of an upbringing thst didnt damage you #and didnt need it #and i know how you felt about fae and what kind of sick freak you are and this is just me venting now #what if i went to Twitter and didnt have to see tumblr mental illness culture. would that be worth it. #no it wouldnt but anyways #im fine <3

[strwbrymlkshake]

literalyl insane if my dumb feelings don't go away I'll have to start a normal normal rant tag for him I think –_–

#mine #i feel so bad i havent talked to anyone except my group thats involved in my hyperfixation recently uwagh #i will try to take a break tomorrow. hyperfixation doubled with guy im kind of obsessed with creates literally no time for anything else #im still taking care of myself while being so fixated i cant move for several hours. good on me for that #anyways anyways i tried not to be deranged today. not even fathoming romance atm im just happy i get to be around him teehee #made me rly think about how hes been very chill with everything ive ever said to him even tho i am a little freak . which is uncommon #i am not daydreaming about it because itll break my fucking heart but im content for now i think :) i like hanging out with him #'im normal about him' proceeds to talk abt him on my yandere blog. #im not feeling yanderish i just dont have another place to talk abt this stuff so here it is! bon appetite #im not rly freaking out as much and im good at distancing myself from him. even tho idk if anything will happen im trying to #practice controlling my insane person feelings when around him ;-; im doing good i THINK i havent been as weird #my thoughts around him are all weird and distorted and not quite romantic (yet?) but i know that i just feel comfortable w him #im:) im happy im enjoying. watch him get a partner immediately after this and i go batshit bc that is my freakin luck #well it doesnt matter i had a good time while i could and thats what counts ig . had only a smidgen of hope anyways! but its ok #i am so jaded to romance i am going to accept whatever happens and hope its atleast funny . and he finds humor in it #n i would get to hear his horrid laugh. itd be nice. i like it its very contagious. his voice maxes my brain out in serotonin #he was messing around w me in [hyperfixation] and i really enjoyed the attention hwuwhidhekfn made me flustered #i was saying like Romantic CodedTM things to him and he was just giving indecisive responses but not elaborating . so who knows #im not fretting or anything like its fun its chill i feel relaxed !! very casual stuff am having a good time. he has beautiful eyes also. #hes so talented and knows what hes doing. and hes so freaking smart he knows so much stuff oh my god. #i keep having repeated dreams abt him its weird fjdjfjdk. normal things to say abt ur friend btw. normal #i think his fascination w [redacted] is so beautiful his memory is rly good too. im NORMAL i swear #i like to cause spectacles that are memorable and funny so he pays attention to me more. i like attention from everyone but his is esp. fun #i love my friends so much i tell them that i appreciate them everyday. i hope they know they are loved so much #i probably just love the side of himself he chooses to show n not his authentic true self bc online stuff oh well #tho i do feel if you spend an ungodly amnt of hrs straight with someone then you are bound to know them more intimately #i love doing absolutely nothing with my friends and make our own fun in boredom. reminds me of my childhood #maybe i am allowed to think abt him awkwardly patting me on the head. as a treat #this guy reminds me of a previous love interest too except he doesnt emotionally abuse me or himself and has a freaking soul #💿

[burningcomputerpersona]

also how is it that spanish love songs has such good merch??? i don't think I've ever been to a show before where I had to struggle so hard to pick just one thing, like in a lot of cases there's only really one thing that appeals to me or I just get something bc i love the band and need to have them on me regardless of what the design looks like. but i was spending ages just staring at the merch stand trying to pick one out of alllll the things i wanted

#i got one shirt with 'stay alive out of spite' on the back and i love it #i thougt super long and hard about the brave faces everyone shirt because it is literally one of my favorite songs #but i decided not to go for it bc i have their baseball hat with the exact same words on it anyway #also they had this really awesome zip up hoodie that I was staring at for ages #but alas it was 60 bucks and i do not have that kind of money lol #at first i was looking through their merch like omg theres so much good stuff i need to get this shirt and that shirt and that hoodie and #then i saw the prices and remembered I'd probably have to narrow it down to just one shirt lol #I'm not actually really about it though i freaking love this shirt im actually wearing it right now lol #it's definitely gonna be one of my favorite shirts to wear #also i need to do a revamp of my wardrobe #all my tops are black band tees which is fine but most of them are from hot topic and of mostly big bands that i don't listen to super often #and like that was fine when i first got them #but it is not enough now i I need several shirts for the same bands that i am Obsessed with bc one shirt per band is not enough #i am a very normal person with very normal ideas about clothes and music and a very regular amount of interest in bands #anyway all this to say i might end up getting a bunch of sls merch anyway in the future #just so i can wear them while also listening to them which would be all the time #anyway i think this shirt is gonna be super good for my mental health bc every time i wear it im gonna be thinking of the lyrics on the back #also im definitely washing this (and my whole outfit) tomorrow morning so i can wear it again right away and show it off to everyone #if ur wondering about the washing part its bc i have a general routine when it comes to getting merch at shows #where i go to the merch stand right away so i can get a good size before its sold out #and i put it on over my t shirt so i don't have to worry about carrying it #and its also the outermost layer so the band gets to see me wearing it like hiii i love ur stuff so much i got it and wore it to see you #now this does have the unfortunate side effect of getting absolutely drenched in sweat after the show #one time i was wearing three shirts at once along with a hoodie tied to my waist bc i got a bunch of merch and it was sooo warm #i have no intentions of changing this routine though i like how efficient it is #oh also the shirt is green!! another thing that made me choose it over the others #i literally do not own any green shirts #so i am very happy that i have a very nice shirt that i like in a new color #mine #my shows