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aurorastellarum · 4 years

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Tongue Tied (Momoshiro/OC)

(This is me, making fanfictions again due to the current lockdown. I have to get my creative juices working. This is inspired from Candy Hearts’ song ‘Tongue Tied’. You might want to check it out.)

“It's not like I ignore you on purpose. I'm afraid that I'll miss some of the words.”

This is my sacred place. This lone large tree near the tennis courts of Seigaku. Why’d you asked? It is because I always see him smile and play with his teammates. I always take a good break from all the people from the school here, and then there he was, playfully interacting with his teammates.

My classmates are always asking me why I do like Momoshiro Takeshi. He is not as good as Tezuka-senpai and not as good-looking as Fuji-senpai but there was something about him. There is something about him that my mind can’t seem to capture and make my heart skip a beat. All my thoughts collide whenever he is near me or even when I see a sight of his shadow.

Seigaku’s School Fair is about to begin and sophomores are assigned to manage designated booths. The committee announced that the partners will be decided via lottery and the results will be posted this morning. I decided to check it out after the class. I was busy skimming my homework for Math when my seatmate tugged my pigtails.

“What was that for, Misaki-chan?” I asked. “Hehehe. I know who is your partner in the school fair.” She grinned in delight. “I actually don’t like that tone of your voice.” I stood up slowly from my seat and went outside the classroom to check what she was saying.

I saw that huge crowd hovering over the board where the announcement was posted. I tried my best to squeeze myself inside the crowd to move closer to the board. Being petite and lean has its own advantage after all.

After being squished and pushed away and to the announcement board, I was able to pass through the crowd. I carefully scanned the rows and columns of the table that was pasted on the board. After a couple of seconds, I saw my name under the column that will manage the takoyaki booth and then…

….. I saw Momoshiro Takeshi’s name beside my name.

What on seven hells is going on??

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It was the first meeting for the school fair and the thought that Momoshiro will be sitting beside is giving me a massive heart attack.

I can hear my own heartbeat getting louder and louder as the time comes closer. Then, I heard this voice that was music to my ears. “Hello there, Eri-chan!” He was waving at me as he entered the room. I gulped. Did he know me? I smiled shyly and gave him a small wave. His eyes were sparkling and it’s blinding me. His smile was so beautiful that it keeps my head above the clouds. His voice was so angelic that my mind is at peace.

Oh shit. What am I thinking? I was looking at him for a long time when I heard a loud snap in front of my face. “Eh, Eri-chan? Are you okay?” Momoshiro-asked.

“Ah, y-yes Momoshiro-san. Sorry.” He flashed that big smile again.

“Our food booth will be number one, right?” I nodded. I can feel my cheeks burning red.

Oh boy, how am I going to survive this year’s school fair without looking like an idiot?

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After the long week of the school fair, I found myself sitting alone again at that lone large tree near the tennis court. As I reminisced the week, being with Momoshiro wasn’t bad at all. He helped me through the tasks and was all up for doing so many things that we should accomplish. He even volunteered to do the egress despite his busy schedule. Kanto Regionals are coming up and I know how important that was for him. Thus, I volunteer to do all the paperworks for him instead. But I noticed that Momoshiro was frustrated all the time during school fair. I don’t know why but it was very obvious that something was bothering him. I wanted to ask, but I don’t know how to approach him.

I looked at the tennis court with the hopes that I could get a glimpse of him. It might light up some motivation to me since doing all these paperworks requires a lot of my brain cells and doing it after class was a very bad idea. I was about to place my earphones when I felt a weight beside me. I looked up and saw Momoshiro sitting next to me. My eyes widened in awe as he flashed a grin.

“Why are you here, Eri-chan? You can go to the tennis court bleachers so you can sit properly. I always see you here.” He said.

“I’m f-fine. Uh, really. Uhm...” Gosh, why am I stuttering again?

Momoshiro titled his head and looked at me closely. He looked so frustrated. I was trying my best to avoid his gaze because I know it’ll get me in trouble (like how I clumsily tripped over his feet during school fair.). Then he sighed. A very long sigh.

“Eri-chan, are you ignoring me?”

I gaped as my ears caught his words. Ignoring? Oh no, you got it all wrong. “Of c-course not.” I replied shyly. “Then why do you always become so quiet when I am around? I’ve noticed that you are always quiet whenever we are together in the booth last week. But you are so talkative with your classmates. It makes me feel…”

I saw that glint of sadness in his eyes. I bit my lip as I felt guilt slowly shredding my heart in pieces.

“Ah, Momoshiro-san,” I slowly adjusted my sitting position to where we can see each other eye to eye. I was trying my best to gather up all of my confidence and strength to look at him. “...it's just that, I always…” I looked up to him slowly as I saw his face. His eyes were all on me and I felt like I was going to melt any time. He was anticipating a good explanation for my very very weird behavior. He looked like a puppy eager to eat his food.

So, he did notice. How could he be so dense but cute at the same time?

He noticed the difference in my behavior whenever he was around and when he was not. Yes, I’m talkative. I like being around with people. I may not be the smartest student in our class, but I’m good at approaching people. It was only when he was around. I lost my sense of social cleverness and his presence was restricting me in a very good way. “...I always get tongue tied whenever you are around.” I replied shyly.

Momoshiro smiled and scratched the nape of his neck. He sighed. But that was a sigh of relief.

“I guess I was not the only one.” Then he laughed lightly.

My eyes widened. I looked at him and he was starting at the tennis courts with a slight glint of red in his cheeks.

“You also make me tongue tied, Eri-chan. It seems like it’s not but I always don’t know what to say whenever you're around. It was frustrating, really. It’s like... “

Like? Come on, don’t hang up on me like that. “...It’s like my heart always beats faster whenever you are near me.”

I saw Momoshiro’s ears go red in an instant. His cheeks were blushing and he was trying to hide it from me. Then he looked at me with that earnest gleam on his face.

“I was so excited when I learned that we will be partners during the school fair. I was ready to get to know you better but I just don’t know how to ask the right questions.”

Oh my. My heart beat faster like 100 beats per minute. My brain can’t even digest what he was saying. All this time he was trying to build up a good talk but we always ended up going for small talks.

“You are such a good conversationalist that I’m afraid I’ll end up as a very bad talker. I like the way you talk and I wish we can talk the way you usually do. I’m sorry if I make you feel that way.”

I waved my hand as a sign of no. I cupped my cheeks to make sure that I’m not heating up and then gave out a huge exhale of relief.

“You are a good talker actually. And, I’m thankful that my stuttering didn’t annoy you. Maybe we can start all over again?” I asked. Momoshiro smiled sweetly. He reached out his hand for a handshake.

“Momoshiro Takeshi, 2nd year and I love to play tennis and I would love to talk with you more. Maybe I can take you out after our tennis practice?”

I reached out to his large hand and smiled. I gave him a firm handshake.

“I’m Ishida Eri, 2nd year. I love speech and literature and would love to go out with you.”

#tenipuri #fanfiction #momoshiro takeshi

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gffa · 5 years

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spectral-musette replied to your post: Scattered Star Wars Thoughts: - One of the things...

Hm, I did really enjoy Alliances, but at this point I feel like Treason might just be sticking with me more (I apparently really love Ar'alani???). I can definitely see your points about Alliances: my big complaint was that it didn’t have enough Anakin/Padme romance. I took it for Anakin being task-oriented, but now that you mention it, he probably SHOULD’ve been thinking about Obi-Wan more (I guess I was doing that enough for everyone?). (continue re: Alliances) - But I didn’t take the Padme POV stuff about Duja to mean that she was particularly closer to her than any of the other handmaidens, just that their friendship was prominent in her mind due to the circumstances.

shadowsong26x replied to your post: Scattered Star Wars Thoughts: - One of the things...

i was talking about this a while back–i overall liked alliances, but it did kind of fall flat for me, too; in part for the characterization issues you mention (though i have more issues with vader than anakin/padme, but i can def. see where you’re coming from); but also bc someone pointed out to me that thrawn is kind of a sherlock holmes expy? and in alliances there’s no real watson analogue, so that dynamic is missing. and holmes sans watson can be insufferable. (cont) whereas in treason, while it’s not quite the same as in other books, he has *way* more compatible people to bounce off of, so…idk, that’s part of it for me at least?

Oh, no, I apologize for this in advance. XD I just really have a lot of feelings about these books! I loved that first Thrawn book so much, even knowing that Zahn had a tendency to write his OC as the most special ever, I was feeling pretty charitable towards the character because he was obviously going to lose on Rebels and I loved Eli in the book, and it was a nicely balanced book re: everything that frustrated me about Alliances. The thing that got me about Alliances is that I don’t think it achieved a very good balance about how to use characters like Anakin and Padme. When Zahn writes more minor characters (like his OCs or like Arihnda Pryce) it works out because we’re not coming in with those characters having a huge established story already in place. But Anakin and Padme have these connections that should have been coming up--this was set not that long before ROTS, right? Why isn’t he thinking more about Ahsoka? Why does he literally only even think about Obi-Wan like twice in the entire story? I can buy that Padme’s thoughts were focused on Duja because she just died, but the way none of the other handmaidens ever seemed to be part of that tapestry just didn’t fit with how Padme handmaidens have always been a group. Even Sabe’s relationship with Padme is littered with the other handmaidens being in and around them! And the final insult came when the book tried to kind of imply that it was Thrawn who got Padme to start thinking about how the Republic was maybe actually kind of terrible, which was mean to be a lead-up into her line in ROTS, “What if the democracy we thought we were serving no longer exists and the Republic has become the very evil we've been fighting to destroy?” Thrawn’s supposed to be absolute shit at politics, that was well established in Thrawn (which takes place many years after this one!) but suddenly he’s canny enough during the Clone Wars to: "Maybe what really troubled here was his suggestion that the Republic and Separatists all played by those same rules." In theory, it’s a neat connection to the events of the movie, something I wanted more of! Connection to the rest of the established GFFA and the events in it! But it gave me this really sour taste of how Padme’s story, her entire arc, as a politician who has an arc across the entirety of the TV show that’s at least somewhat hers, is actually inspired by Thrawn instead. Thrawn, who’s supposed to be shit at politics. Add that together with how Zahn built up that Padme was a character who was about diplomacy, about talking to resolve issues, and in the end her big climactic scene was still shooting a droid with her blaster. Add all that together with how lackluster Anakin felt to me and I just was disappointed with Alliances. I think @shadowsong26x really put it into clarity for me with those comments (THANK YOU FOR HITTING THAT NAIL ON THE HEAD), that Thrawn works for me when he’s the Sherlock in a Holmes & Watson dynamic, but then that follows that you just cannot put ANAKIN SKYWALKER into the Watson role because that downplays the competency of his character. Like, yes, look, I make fun of Anakin and point out all the ways in which he is a dumbass (largely because this helps me forgive him for all the monstrous shit he’s done, but also because it endears him to me and makes him so relatable to me) but when you write a serious novel and have Thrawn explaining electronic stuff to Anakin Skywalker? No, get out of here with that. Not unless Anakin is either geeking out on exactly the same level (NO, MAKE HIM GEEKIER BECAUSE HE IS!!!) or is like, “Yes, we all spent a semester in comm tech class, I get how it works just from looking at it.” or Zahn went even harder on the authority kink. Because I do not believe, for one single second, that Thrawn knows more about machines than ANAKIN SKYWALKER. Thrawn works for me with Eli, because there’s a genuine sense of exasperation there, a genuine and justified sense of “what did you just fucking do?” when Thrawn gets him assigned to the Blood Crow, there’s an organic sense of growing affection between them, and Eli works as someone who is good with his own thing, but isn’t THE CENTRAL FIGURE OF THE SKYWALKER SAGA AND ONE OF THE MOST POWERFUL JEDI EVER. I can see Eli being the Watson in that dynamic! I liked the hints of something really delightful going on there--that Anakin and Thrawn clashed with each other, that Anakin’s flying by the seat of his pants kind of style clashes with Thrawn’s need to control an entire situation to get the outcome he desires, that there were moments of hilarity when they snarked at each other (”Do you make a habit of getting captured?” “NO!!!” was hilarious) or when Anakin’s authority kink was on display, but there wasn’t enough of that to balance out the other problems I had with the novel. (As a side note this is why I’m hoping that Zahn isn’t the one to write “what happened after Rebels with Ezra and Thrawn?” story, because I’m not sure I trust him to not try to put Ezra in the Watson role, when I don’t think that would suit his character.) Whereas, in Treason, Thrawn is being put in situations where the people he’s pinging off him can take more of a second fiddle role, where I can take enjoyment out of Thrawn outplaying them (which, yes, Anakin is not a great political player, but he has enough sheer raw power and enough tactical brilliance and mechanical brilliance that I need that to be respected). That’s where Zahn’s Thrawn works best for me and why, when I went back to reread the first book, it still really worked for me even after I was crabby about Alliances.

#spectral-musette #shadowsong26x #anakin skywalker #thrawn #meta #novels #as always it's cool if others loved that book more than i did!#i hope there are people who did!#enjoy that book and flail happily about it and it'll make me feel better about it too!#nothing wins me over faster than someone just genuinely ENJOYING something they like #or seeing things in a kinder way than i did will pull me over far faster than anything #♥

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askcupsandcasinos · 6 years

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Ive been receiving loads of submission with peoples lovely OCs in this AU, and theres so many of them Ive decided to put em all together in one post.

Its gonna be under a cut because its pretty long, lemme tell ya heh

Submitted by @blackzhatz-43

@blackzhatz-43 : My own character, her name is Gabby.

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Very cute!!

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submitted by @clearlyaveryniceperson

@clearlyaveryniceperson : Hello! I’m kinda new to your tumblr but lemme just say I LOVE your art to bits! Anyhoo, here’s Mittie, (And yes I did name her after the Mitty from Made in Abyss so don’t get your socks in a tangle) Mittie is your friendly neighborhood flowery comedian, honestly. She always does comedy shows when she gets the chance and she makes a ton of terrible puns. Hope you enjoy! (Sorry for that splotch next to her though, I was eating while drawing this and a bit of food fell into the paper..)

P.s: king dice is a narcissistic a-hole, just saying 😂 (Don’t take this the wrong way, I absolutely adore his design)

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Thank you for your compliments!! ^o^ I love her design!! =D it looks rather surreal, I really like it =) Nothin’ like a comedian flower ^^

I’m glad people are seeing Dice for what he really is, haha >;)

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submitted by @afterfell-sans

@afterfell-sans : Hi, I am a HUGE fan of your blog, so I figured you guys may like a new employee in the casino. His name is Glass and he is (kind of) Cuphead’s and Mugman’s cousin. He has a broken handle and a crack on his left arm(even though it looks like it is on the right arm…) and he also has three chips down his eyes, along with a gold tooth. his symbol is a king of spades and he is just as mischievous as Cuphead, so I guess Cuphead will have twice the fun hanging out with Glass during his breaks. I hope you like the picture of my OC, Glass! :)

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Glass got class ;) I like this dude, he looks cool =) Cuphead would like him, heheh-

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Submitted by @craftyjellyfishcat

@craftyjellyfishcat : this Lit Wick! My Oc who reacently lost a bet to King Dice and is now working at the Casino! I hope you like it!

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Oooh, wonder what kind of bet it was, heehee~

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Submitted by @drawcups

@drawcups : Here you go for your cuphead AU, her name’s Alison and she thinks the cups are alright but loves King Dice.

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She looks adorable but awesome ;) Also I can’t help but love the little glasses she holds X) Might be hard admitting the brothers are fine, haha

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Submitted by @hetasymphony

@hetasymphony : You inspired me to draw with your art, so I drew her. This is Miss. Blair; after moving to The Inkwell Isles she became a regular on Sundays to the casino. Most of the time she is seen socializing or dancing. It’s pretty rare when she gambles. She’s an extreme lightweight drinker, and the one time she got drunk at the casino the staff found out she was a witch. One thing she’ll never admit is that she’s 31 and not 20.

Also a reading of your blog. 😄😄😄

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What a beautiful witch! ;) Don’t worry though, there are a lot of witches hanging around there, it’s in Hell after all. I’m happy I inspired you ;u; makes me happy hearing that people get inspired by my stuff =‘D

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Submitted by @thewolfsquad200

@thewolfsquad200 : One drawing is of king dice as a cat because I thought it would be cute and honestly it was really fun to do it :3 ________ The other one is my character named mega she is a wolf, but she Isn’t exactly that tough and is clumsy at time but she is always determined and helps people.Anyway hope you like them both and I love you comics they are so cool and really your art style

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Sweet! ^^ Your character’s really nice! Thank you by the way ;u;

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Submitted by @cutiefacebendy

@cutiefacebendy : Um hi. I really wanted to post this and tell you I love your comics and art. I actually sas you comics and thought that cuphead and mugman were actually your characters. I learn shortly after they were. Anyways I love your account and everything on it. Keep going. >ω<

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What cute characters! Thank you very much!! =) I particularly like the one on the far right heheh, they look cool. Thanks once again!!

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Submitted by @the1artist13

@the1artist13 : Idk i saw these so i decided to have fun with just drawing a inspector for the Devils casino( Or a person that checks if the casino is secure) So here’s Sarah Sharpener ( School/Office Grade Pencil Sharpener)

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Ooooh! This is really good!! We haven’t had an inspector character before, how cool though!! I really like her, haha, lookin’ sharp, haha.,,, ha,,, yeah I’m funny aHEM, anyway-- n-nice colouring, too ^^

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Submitted by @serif-skeleton

@serif-skeleton : Meet AJ, she’s a fallen angel. She ended up making a deal with the devil to get back in to heaven in exchange for her immortal soul. However that didn’t work out after the bros and she ended up working at the casino after getting kicked out again.

I made good ending and bad ending form. Hope you enjoy!

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Oh wow she’s awesome!! I like your style =) I find it very nice~ Really like her bad ending form too ;)

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Submitted by @lunethedemon

@lunethedemon : Drawing Winter in a skirt is quite weird but I like it.

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Don’t worry, she looks lovely in a skirt =) even lovelier with a bottle o’ booze, heheh~

There’s some coffee in Mug’s head but I don’t recommend drinking it.

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Submitted by @squeetart32

@squeetart32 : I liked the thought of having an OC in the casino that is the blank card that comes in decks. Illusia is just as heartless as the devil himself. She is King Dice’s best friend and they always tell inside jokes.

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What a sweet looking heartless waiter of Hell’s Casino ;)

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Submitted by @eriannyslacattie

@eriannyslacattie : heya i’m new and … my stupid english bad :‘v so….. here my Oc Saraon working in the casino :v is a torch and the reaction of cuphead (al verla ) so hope you like it :3… and your art is so nice :3

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Welcome to the blog! ;) I love her! ^^ she looks really cool, though a torch wouldn’t really be cool it would be quite fiery actually, fitting for Hell’s Casino ey? Thank you btw =‘)

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This is it for now, FOR NOW!! There are still quite a few in my askbox ;) I’ll wait a bit later, and post them then, don’t wanna give away all the goods at once ya know?

Either way, thank you all so much for your submissions!! ^o^

#submission #OC

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jaimistoryteller · 6 years

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OC/Author PrideFest Question Mess Part 3

Thanks for the tag @raevenlywrites ! Ended up sleeping longer than expected, here’s the last part of the set of questions.

Rules I am going with: answer the questions you know or are comfortable sharing, tag others, add a question if you feel like something is missing.

Note: I will be answering in three different posts, one per section, rather than all together because of how many questions there are.

Questions for you:

Introduce yourself! Tell us a little bit about you and what you write

Why do you write LGBT+ characters?

Have you always written LGBT+ characters? If no, what inspired you to start? Is it a deliberate representational choice?

Do you use modern labels in your work? Why or why not?

World builders: do you have any neat societal twists? (unique names for IDs, different marriage practices, etc.)

Do you write outside your own experiences? (cis writing trans, wlw writing mlm, etc.) If yes, how confident do you feel about it?

Tell us about a favorite book/character someone else wrote that inspired you (or just plain gave you a warm and fuzzy)

Any advice for someone else writing LGBT+ characters?

Would you like people to ask you more questions when this is over?

Free space! Wax poetic about something near and dear to your heart.

Questions for your Ocs (in character or out, dealer’s choice):

Say hi! Let us get to know you, you big beautiful person, you!

How do you feel about the world your author has created for you?

Are you out? To whom, why or why not, etc?

Tell us a little about your journey. Have you always IDed the way you do now? Are there parts of you you’re still figuring out?

Do you feel settled in your ID, or do you think it might change as you and your author go on?

Did your author always know you were [blank], or did you have to tell them? If yes, oh please, please tell us how! :3

Is being [blank] particularly hard in your world? How does your society treat you differently than ours might?

Tell us a little about your unique experiences with your ID. Do you experience dysphoria? Is it impossible to find a date? Just want to find that special someone for snuggles but everyone expects sex? Unload for a minute, it’s okay to struggle sometimes.

What’s the best part about being [blank] in your world?

Do you like getting fan-mail? Would you like people to ask you more questions when this is over?

Grab that mic! Drop some truth on us, something you’ve just been dying to share! Shout out to your besties!

Questions for either you or your OCs:

Going to answer these like I would a Q&A post, with the first three characters that comes to mind for each question.

What’s your orientation and gender? Wave that flag!!!

Tichina - female and pan. I’m proud of both. While I have not yet met my soulmates, I have had a variety of partners over the year that covers the spectrum of genders and sexualities.

Quin - agender and queer. I am much more comfortable with my gender then I am my orientation.

Stepan - male, demisexual, pan or poly romantic, never quite sure which is a better fit. I’m good with my alignments and try to always be respectful of other peoples. If my patient has one I am unfamiliar with, then I make sure to do research so I can help my patient to the best of my abilities.

When did you realize you were LGBT+?

Jon - as a preteen. The others on the gymnastics team were talking about how cute people were and I didn’t see it.

Isa - in my mid-twenties. I’m older than I look.

Nazreen - after meeting my soulmates in my mid-twenties, prior to that I just thought there was something wrong with me.

What makes your heart melt?

Nazreen - not technically related to my orientation, but seeing Akaal with the children, particularly the smaller ones. He’s so big and yet I know he’s never going to harm them.

Sitara *chuckles* Nazreen beat me to that one, *thoughtful look* I’m going with the way acceptance is the norm and not the unusual within the Balakhnov Building.

Tichina - any time I am able to get one of my high risk kids off the street, bonus points for the ones who find themselves and do so proudly.

Do you have a favorite LGBT+ song? Movie? Book? Artist? (comic?)

Marie - too many books to list them all, the beauty of being an editor. I’ve always enjoyed All the Things She Said by t.A.T.u

Ioanna - Father would have been horrified if still alive to know I play games like Saints Row 2. I think that Gat, Aisha, and the main character are a triad. Since the main character can be anything the player ones, I take them to be genderfluid, so no matter how the relationship unfolds it’s bi

Sparks - Wonder Woman, Superman, and Batman. You know she keeps them in line and makes Bruce stop brooding so damned much.

Do you have a secret crush outside of your own work? Some wild crossover OTP?

Aither - I spent my teenage years shipping myself with Buffy and Willow from Buffy the Vampire Slayer and there was that one time I wondered what it would be like to be an Aither sandwich with Squall and Seifer from FFVIII. . Of course, as an adult I have also shipped myself with Sam and Gabriel from Supernatural.

Aaron *tries not to fidget* Q from the Craig!Bond movies is quiet adorable and I wouldn’t mind a good snuggle with him.

Diego - I don’t know if I’d like anything more than friendship, but I’d love to get to know Stiles and Lydia from Teen Wolf. Maybe Even Scott if he could get his head out of his rump long enough to actually act like the friend he’s supposed to be.

Tell us about your LGTB+ headcannons (I’d really love to see someone’s character answer this)

Karl - I always thought that William and Geoffrey from A Knight’s Tale were boyfriends. When Jocelyn joins them, they form a proper triad.

Isaak - no one can convince me that Bones, Spock and Jim weren’t a space-husband triad!

Vara - I’d like to think that Nathan, Audrey, and Duke in Haven are a triad. Most of Nathan and Duke’s conflict coming from the fact neither of them wants to admit it for whatever silly reason.

What’s your favorite thing about being LGBT+?

Vasilia - I’m myself and able to accept that I am myself, rather than trying to be someone I am not because I hadn’t accepted being transgender.

Isa - there is a community of people like me.

Keywon - pride in my friends and community.

Is there a cool place you like to hang out with your squad? Maybe an LGBT+ meet up?

Keywon - well, our team hangs out at the basketball court a lot, we also spend time in the community center where we are able to get help with any school work we need. We’re encouraged to bring others our age or orientation to hang out and what not.

Quin - before meeting Aither, I spent a lot of my time at the queer book store, I didn’t really have a squad, but at least it was somewhere safe for me in public. Not that I like being in public too often.

Molon - while I do spend a lot of time at the community center and at the basketball court, I also spend a lot of time at the nomyn san (Mongolian Library) where a lot of people of a similar descent hang out to share culture.

What are some things you do to keep positive?

Tichina - I help those in my community and the communities around mine. Every time I do so, I know I am helping someone else avoid the hardships that I and others before me went through. They’ll have a chance at a better life.

Tzvia - prayer and regular worship, I am active in the both my faith and sports.

Isaak - studying helps me keep positive because it means I can reach for the stars (literally)

Do you have any advice for young LGBT+ people?

Jon - you’re not broken, wrong, or otherwise odd. No matter what some people might claim, they’re idiots.

Aither - own whatever space you are in, most won’t know how to take it.

Jamie - be yourself, it might require leaving what you know, but in the long run it’ll be far better for you.

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

Isaak - hopefully on the moon, it’s going to take a lot of hard work and study, but my Uncle and Aunt are making it possible so I’m not letting them or myself down.

Falco - retiring, I hope. I sometimes feel far too old for position within the Network that I hold.

Ioanna - I happier and healthier me, preferably.

Welp, that took way longer than planned because of a host of reasons. Still, have some more information on my massive world.

Tagging some peeps I am getting to know off the writer peeps spreadsheet so they can see my answers or do them as they feel fit.

@authordai @forlornraven @lagamerita @writing-at-dusk and @wordsbysarah

Part 1 and Part 2

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lokilickedme · 6 years

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Master Fic List

*UPDATED AS OF 2/16/2018*

(Just realized I haven’t updated this thing since December…ugh, my apologies)

Na Binne an Leann chapters 16-23 added Jack Montague chapters 53-56 added Aingeal àrd chapters 6-9 added Parts 1 & 2 of the Mister And Missus Brown Series added (NEW, limited series)

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***Entire fic catalog with summaries, links, update dates, and associated warnings under the cut***

(67 fics total)

Chemical

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3970054 - 58 chapters, ongoing

UPDATED 9/27

Tom & Anja have known each other for years, existing in the same group of friends but never being able to get near each other without insults flying. He’s a bartender with a mysterious, dark past and she’s an executive assistant with a bright future. When an incident outside the pub shoves them solidly into each other’s lives, a night of kinky unbridled sex and animalistic behavior bonds them for life as he teaches her just how close to feral creatures we really are. A dark romance with Dom/sub undertones, very adult themes, and tons of smut including rampant sex of pretty much every variation you can think of. Male character is a Loki/Tom hybrid, not based on any existing TH characters.

Penumbraluna

http://archiveofourown.org/works/6065182 - 10 chapters, COMPLETE

Before Tom bought the pub and met Anja, he was a skinny, determined 15-year old kid who had to make it to San Diego on his own to find his sister. The pre-history to CHEMICAL, detailing how his teenage relationship with his buddy Chris shaped his future as an adult. Dark, sometimes disturbing, with numerous references to underage prostitution, male/male sex of various types (both consensual and non), implied/inferred rape, abuse, adult situations involving minors, illegal activity, romance, unprotected sex between males and males/females, and lots of angst/tragedy/heartbreak. Not for the weak of heart or persons prone to squick. Male characters are Chem!Tom and Chris.

The Individual Chemical Prehistories:

Girly

http://archiveofourown.org/works/6135197 - one chapter, complete

A short prequel to Chemical, told from Chem!Tom’s point of view and detailing the eight years that he waited patiently for Anja to notice him. Takes place after Penumbraluna ends and beforeChemicalbegins. A little bit of angst, a lot of romance. Male character is Chem!Tom.

Taos

http://archiveofourown.org/works/6153451 - one chapter, complete

One short night in New Mexico, told by Alicia. A brief account of how Tom met the mother of his oldest child and the impact they made on each other’s lives in just a few sweet hours. Very mild references to underage/adult sex and underage prostitution, with some melancholy angst. Male character is Chem!Tom.

The Scottish Barman

http://archiveofourown.org/works/6151607 - one chapter, complete

Everyone’s favorite pothead bartender gives us his impression of growing up under the wings and very tall shadows of Tom and Chris. Rough language, references to illegal activity and minor illicit drug use. Male characters are Chem!Tom, Chris, and Ewan.

Eidolon

http://archiveofourown.org/works/6300241 - one chapter, complete

The many lives and deaths of Tom Heyworth, related by his sister. Portrayal of dissociative mental illness, disturbing imaginary imagery and delusional psychosis. Male character is Chem!Tom.

The Mechanic

http://archiveofourown.org/works/6340117 - one chapter, complete

Chem!Tom’s early days in San Diego through current day, told through his best friend Chris’s eyes. Rough language, mentions of abuse and underage prostitution, male/male sex, references to illegal activity, minor character death, general angst and lots and lots of unconditional love. Male characters are Chem!Tom and Chris.

Two Princes

http://archiveofourown.org/works/6370480 - one chapter, complete

The road to true love isn’t always paved with longing glances and stolen kisses. Sometimes it’s more inappropriate insults and antagonistic smirks - but the end destination is the same, if it’s meant to be. Anja’s retelling of the early stages of her relationship with Tom, told mostly through the events of one night at the pub. Strong language, sexual references, character death. Male characters are Chem!Tom and Sam.

Medialuna

http://archiveofourown.org/works/6779617 - one chapter, complete

The original ending to Chemical, written a year ago when the story first began and updated for release to commemorate the one-year anniversary this month. What would have happened if Tom and Anja’s story had taken an entirely different, decidedly less human direction? Supernatural elements, strong language. Male characters are Chem!Tom, Chris, Ewan, and brief mentions of Eric and Laing.

Quiet Gods

http://archiveofourown.org/works/7252036 - one chapter, complete

Eva and Chris met when they were teenagers, fell in love, lost their virginity to each other, and then were separated when her family moved away. When she comes back to town a decade later, the handsome boy she remembers as her first love is still there - but a lot has happened in the years they were apart. Most notably, a boy named Tommy. Can true love be shared? Explicit sex, some language, slash, het, and a threesome. Male characters are Chem!Tom and Chris.

Sir

http://archiveofourown.org/works/7365319 - one chapter, complete

Love can be a twisted and demanding thing, but in the end it’s still love…and our deepest desires live on in those who come after we’ve gone. Explicit sex, heavy Dom/sub, mention of character death. Provides a lot of missing background information for a major Chemical character. Male character is Sir (can’t spoil the mystery of who he is before you read it)

Das Vorspiel

http://archiveofourown.org/works/8393785 - one chapter, complete

Sometimes you just need a stranger to tell you it’s okay. Traveling abroad for business, a woman with emotional baggage to unpack finally finds a face just familiar enough to convince herself - for a few short hours - that the love she walked away from can finally forgive her. But can she forgive herself? And more importantly…SHOULD she?

Inspired by the October 2016 Interview Magazine photoshoot of Tom Hiddleston (you know the one)

This story links into the Chemical universe and is technically one of the prehistories - set between the events of TAOS and GIRLY, after PENUMBRALUNA and before the beginning chapter of CHEMICAL. Explicit sex, Dom/sub implied. Male character is an OC variation of TH.

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Body Double

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3935923 - 40 chapters, complete

UPDATED AND COMPLETED 8/25/2016

Anna’s working as a body double on the Crimson Peak movie set, standing in for an actress with a no-nudity clause in her contract. Tom is the handsome star of the film with no qualms about doing his own dirty work. Can an on-set fling survive the real world outside the dark fairytale of the script? Just how real can love be with a man who shifts from one character to another so easily? Romance, mild Dom/sub undertones, lots and lots of smut, very VERY heavy on the sex, quite a bit of fluff. Male character is TH.

The King’s Heart

http://archiveofourown.org/works/5017990 - 20 chapters, complete

A grieving, emotionally unhinged Loki is handed the throne of Asgard and ordered by royal decree to take a wife. Unwilling to be bothered with romance or courtship, Loki withdraws into a bitter shell and it falls to his brother Thor to appoint a bride for the king. Lyra is chosen by default - she has royal blood, she’s unmarried, of childbearing age, and already belongs to Asgard as a spoil of war. Can she help the king regrow his cold, dead heart? Very adult themes, heavy on the smut and sex, Dom/sub, romance. Male character is Loki.

The Wolf King

http://archiveofourown.org/works/5462807 - 17 chapters, complete

Sequel to The King’s Heart. Loki and Lyra’s son is now King of Asgard and once again royal decree has initiated the search for a worthy queen. But the young king has other things on his mind, including mastering his own special brand of magic and fulfilling a centuries-old prophecy. Adventure, fluff, frequent appearances by Loki & Lyra, heavy smut in future chapters. Male character is Loki’s identical son, who shares all his father’s quirks and abilities - minus the bad attitude.

Weekly Meetings of the Most Useless Muses in the History of FanFiction

http://archiveofourown.org/works/5685502 - 22 chapters, ongoing

UPDATED 9/3

This is what happens when you try to get your inspiration to cooperate. Weekly one-shots (usually uploaded every Sunday) featuring the muses from my current fics arguing, beating each other up, calling each other names, and generally just not doing their jobs. Lots of Chem!Tom/Loki fights and over the top animosity. Currently attending muses are Loki and Lyra from The King’s Heart, Tom and Anja from Chemical, Tom and Anna from Body Double, and Adam and Selina from Sanguine, with occasional appearances from Aleks of The Wolf King and Cara from Chemical. Other random minor characters drop by from time to time. *New participants are Jack and Loki from Jack Montague, Eve from Sanguine, Tom and Chris from Penumbraluna, Thor from King’s Heart/Wolf King/Jack Montague.

Sunflower

http://archiveofourown.org/works/6413650 - 10 chapters, ongoing

UPDATED 11/20

Tommy didn’t know that parking in a handicapped zone at 3 a.m. would get him on the shitlist of a cute disabled girl’s social justice warrior sister. Will it end up being the best thing that ever happened to him, or will his interest in baby sis end up with him in jail? Explicit sex, language, adult themes, and SJW’ism taken too far. Male characters are Tommy Stark (a young black-haired TH variant) and Martin Twain (based on Idris Elba).

The McClary Chronicles

A new series currently consisting of Sgàile Leannan, Sàmhach Mhiannan, and Na Binne an Leann.

Sgàile Leannan

http://archiveofourown.org/works/8174816 - 20 chapters, complete

Stuck in Scotland doing soil-testing research, Molly finds herself completely out of her element and in the crosshairs of a rough local who doesn’t turn a welcoming eye to strangers. Caught in a dangerous storm in an unfamiliar place, her only option beside freezing to death or getting lost on the mountain is to follow him home… Explicit sex, language, adult themes, dubious consent, unprotected sex, starcrossed lovers, and antagonistic mountain men. Male character is King McClary, a Loki-in-a-kilt hybrid original character.

Sàmhach Mhiannan

http://archiveofourown.org/works/9221345 - 25 chapters, complete

The sequel to Sgaile Leannan - Molly has returned home from Scotland, leaving King McClary behind in his own life while moving on with hers. But separating herself permanently from the surly Scotsman is proving more difficult than she expected when he suddenly shows up in Philadelphia. Are their stars really too crossed to ever hope they could be together? This story picks up immediately where Sgaile Leannan left off, with Molly and King reunited in the city. Explicit sex, language, adult themes, starcrossed lovers, angst, and lots of omg-are-they-ever-going-to-get-their-shit-together??

Na Binne an Leann

http://archiveofourown.org/works/11498058 - 23 chapters, ongoing

*updated 2/4

Part 3 of The McClary Chronicles - picks up three months after the end of Samhach Mhiannan, with Molly making a life changing decision for herself and newborn Pod…and by extension, King McClary, the cranky Scotsman who has returned to his home in the Highlands without her. Nobody ever said true love was an easy path to walk, but Molly’s got a good sturdy pair of hiking boots this time around. Which one will beg for mercy first: the determined mother of the next King of Claighe, or the current king himself?

The McClary Chronicles Prehistories and Side Stories

A Meeting With The King - oneshot, complete

A McClary Chronicles side story, told from King’s point of view. What happened the day the CEO of Monarch Industries got into a kerfuffle with his opposite number in the men’s room at Clendon Williams? A retelling of the events leading up to chapter 9 of Samhach Mhiannan, as seen through King’s eyes.

Aingeal àrd - ongoing, 20 chapters projected, 9 currently (updated 2/14)

Sgaile Leannan from the other side of the storm - a retelling of Molly and King’s love story from King’s POV.

See You After The Apocalypse

http://archiveofourown.org/works/6567085 - 1 chapter, complete

A Chemical AU in which Chris gets Anja and the girls out of San Diego during a zombie apocalypse, leaving Tom and Cara behind to cover their escape. Not knowing if Tom is still alive or if he’ll be able to locate her after the disaster is over, Anja waits for her mate to find his way back to her. True love, angst, adversity vs. fate, and all kinds of feels. Male characters are Chem!Tom, Chris, and Pop Heyworth.

Meet Me In Phoenix

http://archiveofourown.org/works/7635625 - 5 chapters (10 projected), ongoing

(Updated 8/23/2016)

The sequel to See You After The Apocalypse, told from Tom’s POV.

Wolfsbane

http://archiveofourown.org/works/7446793 - 1 chapter, complete

Inspired by a “wouldn’t it be great if your OTP…” post on tumblr.

Wouldn’t it be great if your OTP…murdered each other?

A twisted little Chemical AU in which Chem!Tom and Anja never met - until just now, staring down the barrels of each other’s guns. Plot twists, mention of rough sex, lots of Mr and Mrs Smith’ing. Male character is an AU Chem!Tom.

Mine

http://archiveofourown.org/works/5989584 - one-shot, single chapter, complete

The woman Loki has chosen for his bride has been given, instead, to his brother. Driven nearly mad with heartbreak and jealousy, he hides himself under a charm of invisibility and attends the wedding night - without an invitation. Sex, smut, angst, language, voyeurism, and general Loki whump. Male characters are Loki and Thor.

Sanguine

http://archiveofourown.org/works/4739396 - 15 chapters, complete

Adam is an 800-year old vampire living a hermit’s life, until he takes a young mortal as a blood donor in a business agreement that turns eventually into a sexual relationship. In an accidental bloodlust frenzy, Adam goes against her wishes and turns her, ending their relationship and driving her out of his life. Now, years later, he’s having visions of her that seem so real they’re driving him insane. Is she real or is he imagining her? Dark romance, very adult themes, a lot of smut and heavy vampire sex. Male character is Adam of Only Lovers Left Alive.

The Joker and The Thief Series

A new series currently consisting of Jack Montague and two Loki/Jack oneshots

Jack Montague (an Epilogue to Sanguine)

http://archiveofourown.org/works/6319945 - 56 chapters, ongoing

(UPDATED 2/8)

Adam and Selina’s baby girl is all grown up and finding her own way through a world she doesn’t quite fit into - but that won’t stop her from claiming it as her own. A crossing of paths with another otherworldly being - a castaway god in search of a partner in crime for dubious activities - opens up a whole new realm of possibilities for the bohemian vampire. Dark romance, heavy smut, lots of kink, deviant behavior, and bloody squick. Male character is an AU Loki.

Sugar Skull - added 4/18 (synopsis to be added soon)

The Gucci Incident - added 4/11 (synopsis to be added soon)

The Dragon Queen

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3597330 - 28 chapters, complete

After his capture and return to Asgard, Loki is sentenced to life in prison. After a year of incarceration his personality, mental health, and disposition begin to decline, prompting Frigga to convince Odin to allow him some female company. Odin is reticent to fulfill this request until he figures out a way to punish both Loki and another prisoner who is languishing in his prison - but who is getting the worse end of the bargain, Loki or his new part-time cellmate? VERY adult themes, violent sex, dark romance. Not for the faint of heart. Male character is Loki.

The Trickster’s Wife

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3651918 - 31 chapters, complete

(COMPLETED 6/8/2017)

Asgard - and specifically, Odin - needs Loki’s help. But his assistance comes at a steep price: one eight-year old child, Odin’s favorite pet, to be raised by Loki to be his wife when she’s of age. Can the Prince of Mischief handle bringing up a little girl on his own? Romance, fluff, and intense sexual themes in later chapters. Male character is Loki.

Lost Creatures

http://archiveofourown.org/works/8054515 - 1 chapter, complete (NEW)

How desperate Thor must be, to call on Loki for help…with this problem, in particular. But Loki has no desire to be of assistance…yet. Male/male sex, smut, nasty talk, angst, longing, and general Loki attitude issues. Male characters are Loki and Thor.

The Tempest Series

http://archiveofourown.org/series/247606 - 11 segments, complete

Eleven short stories revolving around Loki’s siege of New York, beginning on the night before the attack and ending a year later. An unbelievable amount of smut, very adult themes, Dom/sub undertones, violent sex, pretty much Loki being Loki. Oh and romance, believe it or not. Male character is Loki.

Smooth Criminal

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3596505 - 1 chapter, complete

The day before his capture, in Stuttgart, in which Loki acquires his famous suit. When the God of Chaos strolls into a shop in search of the perfect outfit for a night of mayhem, an accommodating shop girl suits him up in style. Dom/sub sex, bondage, oral, heavy smut. Male character is Loki.

Blue Collar Criminal

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3605628 - 1 chapter, incomplete

Sequel to Smooth Criminal. Loki is king of Asgard now, but boredom sends him back to Midgard in search of the shop girl that gave him the excellent blowjob. Fluff, dark romance, heavy on the sex in upcoming chapters. Male character is Loki.

Beautiful Disaster

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3651276 - 1 chapter, complete

During a night off from filming in an unfamiliar town, Tom steps into a laundromat to get warm and ends up stealing a girl’s underwear. The pilfered panties spark an obsession that lasts almost a year, with unexpected results. Fluff, panty kink, masturbation, romance, obsessive longing, basically just a sweet little Tom tale told from his POV. Male character is TH.

The Good Stuff

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3674250 - 1 chapter, complete

Loki knows where Frigga keeps her booze. He and Thor raid her stash and a long day of debauched drunken dares gets slightly out of hand. Fluff, sexual assault, voyeurism, and all manner of perversion ensue. Male characters are Loki and Thor.

Whisper

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3605040 - 6 chapters, complete

Trapped as the only survivor in post-war Asgard, Loki devises a means of escape with just one drawback - it requires a willing human mind to accept him. Very dark adult themes, talk of violent nonconsensual sex, eventual consensual sex. Male character is Loki.

No Regrets

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3756517 - 1 chapter, complete

Loki takes the throne of Asgard - but it’s only for an afternoon, and he’s not sitting on it alone. Plotless smut with graphic sex and lewdness. Male character is Loki.

Would You Like To Play A Game? Series

http://archiveofourown.org/series/249025 - 4 stories, all complete

Four short stories following a Dom/sub theme:

Would You Like To Play A Game? -

An executive assistant is called upon to work overtime with her darkly sensual boss and ends up playing bondage games in the conference room. Male character is a TH variant.

Burn -

Dom/sub play with a hot pepper. Don’t try this at home. Male character is a TH variant.

The Way of The Cat -

Being a crime boss’s moll can be a dangerous job, especially when his other love is a big black cat. Male character is Jaguar!Tom from the It’s Good To Be Bad commercial series.

Sleep -

College somnambulance studies require subjects that are willing to be studied while they snooze. Extra credit if the subject can’t sleep without masturbating first. Male character is Oakley.

Civil Disobedience

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3847939 - 1 chapter, complete

What happens when you disobey the God of Asswhuppings? Dom/sub, nonconsensual spanking, adult themes. Male character is Loki.

Dandelion Series

http://archiveofourown.org/series/247612 - 6 segments, scattered

Six single-chapter segments in no particular chronological order, outlining a long-term loving relationship between friends who become lovers and finally marriage partners. Heavy sex of all kinds, lots of smut, romance, Dom/sub undertones, spanking, adult themes, fluff. Male character is a TH variant.

Yes Please, Magnus

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3605409 - 1 chapter, complete

Before joining the police force, a very young Magnus Martinsson worked an apprenticeship at a remote forensics facility to gain experience. The only other resident at the compound is his slightly older boss - and weeks alone together have started to have an effect on both of them. Sex, smut, shy romance. Male character is Magnus Martinsson from Wallander.

Golden Boy

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3763015 - 5 chapters, incomplete

Even the most handsome, charming, charismatic matinee idols were once awkward teenagers in high school. What if you were the reason that gawky boy turned into a sex god? Sweet smut, lots of fluff, teen angst, first times. Male character is an AU TH.

Awakening

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3685368 - 1 chapter, complete

Abusive love can destroy a spirit, but loving care can rebuild a soul. Heavy sex, smut, Dom/sub undertones, spanking. Male character is TH.

Broken Petals

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3608574 - 2 chapters, incomplete

When a female co-worker is brutally assaulted on the job, Magnus takes her into his care and starts to imagine a relationship with her. Smut, fantasizing, masturbation, and eventual sex. Male character is Magnus Martinsson.

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Embers Still Glow

A/N: So if this story is a continuation of this story ( @paradoxicalintheory ) which is a continuation of this story (yours truly :3) that was inspired by THIS imagine ( @tyranttortoise ) ... THEN WHO’S FLYING THE PLANE???!!!

But on a more serious note, I'm just a little overwhelmed at how much people liked my story and my writing. So many thanks to you guys and I hope I can still deliver with this third part!

Characters: Swap Grillby, Swap Muffet, Reader, OC (kinda, again)

Some things can be quite noticeable. For instance, when one of your cheerful customers seems to have a storm brewing over his skull with bioluminescent tear drops raining down on his cheekbones. Or when a certain spider monster asks for your liquor instead of her usual preferred tea which you certainly should not refuse when seeing how there is obviously that same storm brewing over her with the slight risk of verbal lightning striking you.

It becomes clear that something is wrong.

The flames that formed Grillby’s hands worriedly emitted some smoke when he switched the ceramic cup with a shot glass. And the tea with some of his specialty whiskey.

A dainty hand had plucked the bottle while another two work on uncorking it. The usual tidiness to Muffet’s appearance was more ruffled with how her bow tie was loosened along with the cuffs of her shirt.

“And as you can see, the only good thing about this situation is how he now has a soulmate to help keep him afloat in case he feels tempted to empty my supply of alcohol again.”

“Because Sans is feeling distraught as well, correct?”

A noise of affirmation was made before sipping the contents of the glass and setting it down. The fact that she hasn’t poured herself another one (nor allowed herself more than one shot glass) seemed to be a good sign of her restraint.

“Poor dearie still thinks that it’s his fault. When really the problem was from how his brother and previous partner decided to handle things on their own.”

Humming in agreement, Grillby raised a hand to pet at one of his fireballs that chirped anxiously from their perch on his shoulder as a few others distracted themselves in the background of the kitchen by tidying up the place.

“Not that we can really blame them. The circumstances surrounding them just weren’t... ideal.”

Muffet’s eyes narrowed at the shot glass she was now fiddling before pouring herself another drink.

“... None of it was your fault either.”

Freezing mid-pour, the whiskey nearly overflowed out of the glass before it was hastily set down. A rare show of conflicting emotions was expressed as a few of her hands tightened into fists while her eyes closed shut.

“Perhaps. But I can’t help but feel like I could of done... more.”

A sad smile emerged from his glowing face as he moved to pull away the bottle. “What’s done is done. All we can do is do better for tomorrow.”

A long pause filled the room, the only sounds being chirping fireballs wondering if they should brave washing the dishes before moving instead to grab at the broom and dustpan to sweep the floor.

“... I think I’ll have that tea now.”

“Certainly.”

Your name was called.

“But wouldn’t you rather be with your soulmate?”

“nope. i love you. there’s no hypothetical situation where i’m gonna leave you just because my soul 'resonates’ with some stranger.”

Tap. Tap. Tap.

"so don’t worry about it, ok?“

“Are you listening to me?”

Blinking, your sole hand against the laminated surface came back into focus as the memory faded away. Once again your name was repeated with concern. With a heavy heart you glanced at your roommate from across the counter.

His brow furrowed before he sighed. “I forgot to buy the bread.”

Ah. You had a feeling the grocery purchases lacked something. “... I can go get it?”

His eyes narrowed as he tilted his head. “You sure?”

Shrugging, you moved to pluck your car keys from the hook it hung on the wall before taking your hat off the couch. “It won’t be a hassle for me. Besides, I can use this as an excuse to actually go out today.”

He didn’t say anything as you then took your coat from the hanger until you moved to grasp the doorknob. “You know you can talk to me if something’s bothering you.”

You paused before drawing in a breath and turned back to give a quick smile. “Yeah, I know.”

Not wanting to linger any longer, you exited your apartment and dropped the act as you pulled up your hood to go over your cap covered head.

You had known him in college but didn’t really get that close with him until you moved in as his roommate to take up his offer that he posted on his social media account when he was looking for someone to help pay the rent for the small flat. But he grew to be a good friend with how he was willing to pat your back and give you tissues to blow your nose when you felt another urge to let your sorrows flow.

He still doesn’t know the whole story despite what little you ended up blubbering out as he awkwardly comforted you, and you preferred things to stay that way.

The less you talked about what happened, the sooner you can move one.

... Right?

You figured that if you were going to have a day off of work that you might as well check out the cinema and see a movie to pass the time. Only there weren’t really any ones that you would think you’d be interested in or be good. But hey, maybe this obscure foreign film playing for just this weekend will make your day!

...

... News flash. It looks like it won’t.

Sighing, you ended up struggling to stay awake as you got comfortable on the seat that might as well be an armchair. At least the few other people on the theater were silent as they engrossed themselves in the apparent fascinating plot while you struggled to even remember if they even said the name of the protagonist. Or any of the other characters...

You can already imagine how this hour and a forty five minutes would not have ended up as a waste if they were there with you... How he would of made you nearly laugh and cover your mouth with his quips at the movie while his brother would scold him despite doing the same thing, whether intentionally or not... And they’d sneak some more snacks and drinks to pass around from the inventories of their phones... Continuing to made you glad that you were able to be close to them... and him...

... You... really missed him... so much...

He was repairing the radio that ended up as the casualty of a thrown chair from the last cook out. An incident that he seemed to still be exasperated by judging from his mutters as his phalanges used the screwdriver with expertise. Even though his back was to you, you knew that his sockets had a darker edge to them from a lack of sleep.

You wrapped your arms around her him from behind, resting your cheek against his shoulder blades as you continued pestering him.

“Pap. Pap. Pap. Pap.”

“stars, hun, what is it?”

“I love you.”

His hand stilled as you felt his posture jerk a bit in surprise. The tool was slowly put down as you felt him shake a bit which worried you until you heard the nyeh-heh-hehs that made your heart feel warmed over. His free hand closed over yours, bare bones over skin making a contrast that you have come to love even before the start of your relationship.

“love ya too honey.”

Giggling with happiness making your cheeks warm, you opened your eyes to reply...

Only to see he wasn’t there.

Seeing the broken radio in front of you instead of him froze you in place as the sound of static and music that faded in and out replaced the previous happy moments with confusion. And somehow the dial moved on it’s own before settling on a song you remembered would play once every morning at the parlor before you left for work.

The sound of footsteps approaching you echoed from the radio before coming to a stop. A cheerful giggle that somehow made shivers run down your back was heard.

“I’m always glad to hear that!”

A strangled gasp followed as you recognized that voice that stole those exact words from your mouth.

“Like you wouldn’t believe!”

You only heard her list off specials before asking for your order. Never something like this. You didn’t stick around to hear what other things her bell-like voice would say.

“Do you know why?”

That’s why you left. So you would never have to hear this.

“Because we’re soulmates! ... Aren’t we?”

You backed away from the table before feeling yourself halt by a pair of hands resting on your shoulders. That perfume she seemed to always have to complement her smile made your eyes sting as she leaned in to whisper in your ear.

“Well? Aren’t we?”

The answer could not make its way from your clenching teeth.

“You already know, don’t you?”

Tears were once again threatening to overwhelm you again as her voice stayed so kind, so sympathetic. She wasn’t asking for much. And you didn’t have the right to say otherwise.

“But somehow... a part of you still can’t accept it. You tell yourself you’ll move on and start anew. Only to keep remembering times that no longer matter. And while we appreciate what you’ve done, one fact still hasn’t changed. Can you guess what it is?”

Feeling you vision blur, you closed your eyes as if to block out the incoming truth before feeling a hand cup your chin and raise it in a hold so familiar, yet somehow so cold. Opening your eyes, you couldn’t hold back a sob as empty sockets pierced you with a glare of hatred.

“that you’re a terrible person.”

A scream caused you to jolt as the image of facing your sins was replaced by the protagonist of this forgetful story being shoved against the wall as his lover held a knife to his throat.

The hand you raised to feel the tears covering your cheeks was shaking.

As the furious blonde continued yelling bloody murder in French at her supposed beloved, you got up from your seat and made your way to the exit.

Absently checking if you didn’t forget your wallet, you could only focus on reaching your car to make the trip back home.

You’ve done enough for today. More than you deserved.

He wasn’t sure if it was really you by how you carrier yourself. As if you... weren’t really there. But the chirping of one of his fireballs was all the confirmation he needed when they tugged at his bow tie to urge him to reach out to you.

Petting them to calm down, he shook ‘No’ before giving a gentle push in the direction of the car that honked when you clicked your car keys at it. If you were willing to go as far as cutting yourself from a community that you radiated in the presence of, then chances are that you’ll continue running if you catch sight of him.

So instead of diving into a confrontation, he’ll have to send out one or two scouts to see where you’ve hidden yourself.

It’s best to approach this with care if they’re going to make things right.

“S-Sir, which movie did you s-s-say again?”

“Apologies, I’m afraid I’ll have to come back another day.”

Ignoring the sigh of relief from the cashier, the fiery tea maker then made his way for the nearest secluded spot where he can take out his phone.

He has a call to make.

When you got back to your apartment you just dropped the bread on the counter before warming some fast food that your roommate left in the fridge before heading off to work. You answer his text asking if you got back with a simple ‘Yeah’ before taking a shower that probably used up almost all of the hot water before sitting down on your bed with a towel draped over your eyes.

Absentmindedly drying your damp hair, you let out a airy laugh as your eyes stayed closed, repeating those words said to you in your subconscious in your head over and over again.

‘Yeah. I was terrible back then. Maybe still am.’

Falling back on your bed, you felt a slight chill from the open window and remembered how you got sick from not drying off properly. Sans always reminded you to prevent such things as he would dry your hair for you in case you forgot while you jokingly called him mom. Causing Papyrus to teasingly do the same thing which didn’t amuse Sans (at least outwardly).

Well. They aren’t here anymore. You made sure of that.

But then again, they are still ever so present in your memories and daydreams when you would still feel a void in your heart. So in a way you haven’t fully cut them out. Now that you think about it, you haven’t deleted those pictures of them from your phone. yet.

... Maybe tomorrow. You’re too tired to do much else tonight.

As you fell into an uneasy sleep, faint lights approached your opened window before peering in. Pausing for a moment, the two floating flame monsters glanced at each other before gliding into the room and hovering near the slumbering human.

One chirped as if lightly scolding them before picking up the edge of a blanket you had thrown over your desk chair and prompting the other to help gently cover you with it as you only stirred a bit before curling in on your side. Giving a light pat to wish you pleasant dreams, they then took their leave to return to their clan leader.

The only evidence of their presence is the blanket shielding you from the chill of the night and the calmer expression that melted away from your guilt and worries as you somehow felt as if someone out there still really cares about you.

#my writing #Underswap #Undertale #Underswap Papyrus x Reader #Whoop whoop!#Managed to finish this sooner than expected!

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How to read you like an open book

Title: How to read you like an open book

Pairing: Kazuki (ex.SCREW) x OC

Warnings: wrong spelling and grammar certainly happened

Rating: R? (maybe I should use AO3's ratings, in that case: T)

Synopsis: You never showed your weakness but the truth is I'm your weakness and my weakness is ... me too

Author's note: Some excerpts are better than others, not in a complete chronicle order. I felt like I had to write this to remind myself that Kazuki isn't perfect in a perfect sense. He's beautiful, yes, on the out- and inside but he tells himself he isn't perfect. Of course I want to shout into his face that he's wrong but I can't and won't. Instead I hope he's doing better now even though there are rarely any life signs from him on twitter and his Instagram seems abandoned and forgotten. However, he is a busy man with his bar so I don't complain. Still, I had to remind myself that I shouldn't make him a person he isn't.

Dear Kazuki,

I hope you still remember me. It's me, Reina. You know, I miss you, so maybe we could meet? Do you know a nice cafe? I'd be glad to see you again after so many years.

Love

Reina

Reina's mail caught Kazuki off guard. Of course he hadn't forget her. It was simply impossible to forget a personality like Reina. All these years ago she stepped into his life just to vanish again because it wasn't right.

Sure, she had looked like a teenager but her words and actions seemed so mature he believed she was gifted with a youthful face. Sadly, she had been indeed a 16-year-old girl and he already 21. Even when the age of consent was officially 13 years, there were extra laws. Some prefectures were okay with a 16 and an 18-year-old, other wanted both parties to be at least 20. But one thing applied for sure: an over 20 year old person wasn't allowed to date someone under 18—at least.

So they bid goodbye—maybe just for then—because everything else would hurt more.

How much did Reina change? Kazuki changed a lot. The hyper young adult was mostly gone. His band was going to disband after a little bit more than 10 years. He lost two band members so that their anniversaries didn't feel quite right. He blamed himself for everything that had happened. Kazuki was the leader and nowadays a worrier too. Yeah, he changed a lot.

At first he didn't know how to reply to Reina. Back then, there was one thing about her that fascinated and frightened him simultaneous. Reina could read him like an open book. When she was still able to do that she would realize what a pathetic man Kazuki became. But Reina was a precious memory and he didn't want her happy smiley face exchanged with a disgusted look.

III

"It's been a long time," a soft voice called out. Without looking up Kazuki immediately knew it was her. He raised his head to flash her a smile but everything stopped around him. Did he travel back in time? He glanced to his finger. No, Aoi's ring was still there—and Kazuki realized he was the only one who changed.

Reina looked no day older. Her face was still one of a 16-year-old despite being 25 by now. She still dressed herself in her white clothes, her now light brown hair in a low messy bun, covering her ears completely. Even her tender smile was the same.

It was like they never parted.

Her smile got even wider. "I'm so happy to see you again," she declared and occupied the free chair opposite of him. "How are you, Kazuki?"

Before he could answer a steaming cup of chocolate cappuccino was put in front of her from the waitress. He didn't know how to answer. Reina didn't change so her ability to read him was probably still there. He couldn't lie to her and didn't want to when he was honest with himself. But what to say? That he was good? He wasn't good. That he was doing fine? Nothing was fine. The band he worked for and with stood at its end. "I'm still with SCREW," he heard himself say. That wasn't particularly a lie.

Reina still smiled. Good. "I'm glad to hear that. That's a nice ring. You seem to treasure it."

"It's from Aoi-niisan," Kazuki answered proudly. He got a ring from his idol. For what else could he wish for?

Reina took a sip from her drink. "Oh, you got really close to your idol. Impressing."

"Yeah, I did. But what about you Reina? What are you doing now?" They shouldn't talk about him only. Like this she would find out how pathetic he became.

"Ah, I work at a bridal shop," she told him with a bright, enthusiastic smile. Kazuki wouldn't have guessed that but to be honest he wasn't sure what to expect from her at all. Probably he wouldn't even be surprised when she said she was a muse for an artist. She was an inspiring person. "And sometimes I try on the dresses for the next season. My boss has to know which dresses she can buy so that they won't be laying around in the shop without being sold."

A little laugh came from Kazuki. Reina with her white clothing in a shop where mostly white dresses were sold. "I imagine you sometimes just vanish between the aisles."

"Yeah and sometimes women ask me if I wear an actual short summer wedding dress and I'm just like 'No, I always wear white'," she giggled and took another sip from her drink. Then her hand reached over the table to grasp his own. Her smile faded a little bit so that she looked more serious. "I'm happy to hear you laugh. You seemed so down all the time. That makes me sad as well."

Of course she knew it.

The city lights of Tokyo painted Reina's face while she sat next to Kazuki in the passenger seat of his car. Now she seemed down. None of them said anything and Kazuki waited for her to say something. He wasn't sure what he did wrong. He only mentioned her 26th birthday was near—on the 31st of October, one day before his last live. There was nothing wrong with it.

Suddenly she let out a shaky sigh. "I can't stand it when you're sad," she murmured in the quietness of the car. The noise from outside was far away in this moment. "Then I'm sad as well. And I want you to be happy."

"What are you talking about, Reina?" Kazuki couldn't grasp the context. What had her birthday to do with that?

Another shaky sigh. Longer this time. "Do you really think I haven't followed your career? I know what will happen on the 1st of November. I own every single and album and live DVD you ever published. Watched all shows of you, read all blog entries of you. You were always an honest person and I love you for that. But it broke my heart every single time you wrote about struggling and being a useless leader. And I hated the fans who left you because of the Yuuto/Rui thing. They were against Rui and with that they basically cut off their trust in you. 'You' in you, Kazuki. Rui-san was your friend long before SCREW was founded. You were so fond of him and your so called fans stomped on your opinion like dirt."

"Reina." Kazuki wanted to calm her. How could he believe she knew nothing? She always liked his way of playing. Could listen to him without saying anything while he thought about new music to write. Sometimes he even thought he actually saw Reina between the fans. Of course not in white. Reina only wore white during the day. When she went out she preferred black and open hair. At night you could see her always hidden ears with her stretched lobs she had back then.

"No!" she cried out. Kazuki wanted to hug her, to embrace her but he couldn't. He was driving a car. "Can't you understand it always hurt me? You changed so much and the you I know slipped away so much and still you are you Kazuki. You always put the failures on your side and then you were so down. You lost two members and had four line-up changes. I understand that's hard but you never lost your specific presence. You survived ten years. Ten. That's a lot. And in a few weeks everything will be gone. But I won't. I will still listen to your music and watch your lives. Laugh when you stumble during your solo in Nanairo at your 5th anniversary or scream with the fans when you really threw your shirt away at your 7th anniversary and cry in the middle of your solo of Nanairo at your 8th anniversary. How you communicate with the fans; that you really love what you do, warms my heart. Then I'm happy too. Don't you want the person you love to be happy?"

For the first time Kazuki saw Reina's weak side. He was her weak side. She cried and he couldn't hold her. Her tears danced in the city lights on her cheeks. Reina let them be. His left hand left the stirring wheel to lay down on her thigh. Rubbing it slightly, reassuringly. And then her last sentence sank into his mind. "You love me?"

"It's so you to only hear that," Reina sniffed and Kazuki wanted to say 'No, I heard everything; it's just so surprising' but she wasn't finished yet. "Of course I do. How can I not? You're such a great person. I already did back then and still do. I've never stopped loving you. It's impossible Kazuki. You always were more than a precious memory."

You too, Reina.

"Excuse me?"

Kazuki looked up. When did the cafe get so crowded? A young girl in a white jacket stood at his table and had a curious look on her face. Water droplets from her wet messy hair dripped slowly onto the hard wood of said table. "Yes?"

"Is this seat free? It's already so crowded because of the rain and my foot hurts a little," the girl explained and nodded to the big cafe windows where you could see running people with umbrellas or something else to save themselves from the cold water. Kazuki nodded. He couldn't let the girl standing around while having pain in her foot. With a sigh she sat down immediately. "Thank you very much. The rain came without any warning and while trying to enter the cafe I stumbled."

A waitress came to his, now their table. "Do you want something to drink, miss? And a new coffee for you maybe?"

The girl who was just trying to get out of her jacket—revealing even more white clothes—made an approving sound. Finally she was out of her jacket and took the menu from the table. "A hot chocolate please, without cream," she answered calmly.

"Another coffee sounds great," Kazuki added. With that the waitress left them alone.

The girl laughed suddenly, quietly. "Why do I even look at the menu? I always take the same," she mumbled to herself. Meanwhile she pulled her rubber band out of her hair while trying to fix her eyebrow-long bangs with the other hand. With a rather content expression she made a new still rather messy bun, pulling at strands to cover her ears completely. "I hope you don't mind me doing my hair," she said apologetic after she finished.

Kazuki shook his head and tried to concentrate on his music sheets again. He was good at blending out his surroundings so composing music in a cafe was no problem for him. But somehow the presence of the girl distracted him. Maybe because of her calm way of talking or simply because she was a really beautiful girl. Even though it was strange that she clothed herself completely in white. Together with her blond hair she looked like the pure, innocent girl some men fantasized about.

"No, it's alright." Their orders were brought.

"Ah, I'm glad. My roommate hated it. Especially when people do each other's hair. She flipped out like there's no tomorrow." She took a big sip out of her mug. Kazuki noticed the long black finger nails which didn't fit her appearance. After setting down the cup again she looked in front of him. "Oh. Are these music sheets? Sorry, I didn't want to interrupt you."

"You didn't, don't worry. I missed out ideas before you asked for the seat, anyway," he replied quickly to ease down her upcoming worries.

"That's stupid. So you are a musician? Cool. I can't even play an instrument." She opened her eyes a little bit more and seemed like a little doe with her dark brown orbs. Her body leaned in a little bit more. She was clearly interested. "No muse? Not even something to inspire you?"

"Sadly not. Interested?" With a laugh he wiggled his pierced eyebrow and she too answered with a soft giggle. "I play the guitar."

"Oh my god, even the flute was too complicated for me," she admitted her obviously nonexistent musical talent. "Your strange haircut in blond tells me VK maybe? So you probably play rock music?"

Was his haircut really that strange when his hair wasn't styled? Probably every haircut that wasn't perfect in an even messy way seemed strange to her. "You know VK?" She didn't look like it at all. Of course Kazuki knew not all girls who came to their lives dressed in black and wore heavy make up but one like her wasn't in the crowd as well.

"Yeah but I haven't found a favorite band yet. What's your band name? I'm interested." She smiled widely and clapped her hands one time.

Surprise took over Kazuki's expression. "Um, SCREW. We are SCREW," he answered and added, "and I'm Kazuki by the way."

"Okay, I'll look out for SCREW. Perhaps you see me at a live. My name's Reina."

Kazuki loved the stage. Up there he could play the guitar as much as he wanted to. Their fans seemed happy and rocked out together with them. Of course most of them came because of Byou and Yuuto but someday they would know his (and Jin's) name as well. And then they would come for SCREW and SCREW alone. They only played a few songs before another band took their place on the stage. Even though it was tiring playing in the hot lights it was way too short. He wanted to play forever and show SCREW to all of the world.

At the end before they had to leave the stage he threw his pick into the crowd and for a short amount of time he thought he saw the girl from the cafe, Reina. But there was no girl in white with a blond messy bun. Maybe SCREW wasn't the band she was looking for either. Kazuki had hoped otherwise. She was such a nice person and which musician didn't want a nice, not crazy fan?

While the next band played they went to the lobby of the live house to sell their CD's and trying to get new fans. More girls than imagined even wanted his autograph. That made Kazuki happy. They knew who he was except for 'the blond guitarist'.

"I'd like to buy every CD once please," a calm girl's voice said and Kazuki stopped looking after the last girl who wanted his autograph. Wasn't that Reina's voice? Was she really here? His gaze flickered to the person in front of him. The white clothes were gone for black ones and the bun made of all hair was exchanged for a smaller one at the upper back of her head. A little bit silver shimmered on her ears under the thin layer of hair which wasn't part of the bun. Most of the Reina he met was gone, only the long bangs, doe eyes and soft voice were left.

"Reina?" he asked rather dumbly.

"I promised to come, didn't I?" She smiled and put her hair behind her ear. That's why she hid her ears. Obviously she loved piercing her ears like Kazuki himself and they didn't really fit with her other appearance. Three lobes, one stretched with a dangling earring as accessory and an industrial. Not much but too much in the Japanese culture. "Surprised?"

"Yeah, thank you for coming. Did you like it?"

"If not, would I buy all your CD's at once?" she asked back. "I really like your way of playing the guitar and your stage presence is awesome. You loved being up there." No question, a clear statement. "You live for the music and your band."

"I do," was all he could answer. Was it really that obvious or did she read him like an open book. Who was this girl? In this moment he wished she just had a youthful face and wasn't a teen anymore. He wanted to know her more.

VII

Reina's hand laid in his all the way to his home. She was still as small as back then. Once his front door was locked from the inside his lips found their way to hers. He had only kissed her once. All the years ago. Her lips didn't taste the same anymore, they tasted way better. He let go of her hand to pull her close to him on her hips. Hers found their way into his hair. They made their way to his bedroom and nearly tripped over Shishimaru who immediately sniffed at Reina's leg. Checking if the unknown woman did no harm to his owner.

Reina stooped their kiss to reach down and pet Shishimaru's head. Showing him she was nothing dangerous. "What a cute little boy," she purred and her attention went back to Kazuki. "Sorry. You know I love cats. So, where were we?" Her smile turned into a mischievous one. Kazuki wasted no second to pull her back. He wanted her since their live back then and now no law stood between them.

His legs hit the end of his bed. With a little push he sat down and Reina made herself comfortable on his lap. Their lips found each other again, parting in the process. Their first and back then only kiss was an important memory but this kiss was full of desire. His hands embraced her body again, fingertips feeling the zipper on the back of her dress. Certainly it was hard for her to open it herself. Smirking into the kiss he helped her without asking. Her response was her hands sliding under his shirt, brushing his nipples. He gasped and now she smirked.

Again she stopped their kiss and smiled softly. Her hands slid back, taking his shirt into her hands and pulled it over his head. And then, she left his lap, standing right in front of him; with a little frown on her lips.

"What's wrong?" Kazuki asked confused. He was an open book, she was one with seven seals.

"Ah, I know you hadn't it around 2008 anymore but I miss your navel piercing. I bet you were really sensitive around your navel." Her fingertip grazed from his collarbone down to said navel.

"I didn't like it anymore."

"But I did," Reina pouted. "Oh well, I can't change it. So I stop now, okay?" She turned around. Wait, she wanted to stop everything? Kazuki wanted to hold her back but she only took the two rubber bands out of her hair, freeing it. It fell down immediately because long thick hair like hers was heavy. It looked silky and wavy. Some locks more curled than others hence being wrapped around each other all day. Her hair seemed to be healthy. Perfectly cut at the middle of her thighs, losing no bit of their volume. Her back was completely covered, leaving everything to Kazuki's imagination.

Reina slipped the fabric of her dress off her shoulders, leaving white cloth and lace on the ground. She was so pale, even more pale than Manabu who always claimed being too pale. Her head turned into his direction allowing a perfect view of her profile. Her pout was exchanged with a smile again. And she turned back to him. When Kazuki would have been still as young as back then his mouth would have flipped open but he was over thirty and had seen several women in their underwear. One thing was different though.

"I feel like we have just married and left our own party for the wedding night," he remarked. It was because of the white dress laying on the ground and her of course also white underwear.

Reina laughed out loud and sat back on his lap, her skin milky white against his own. "For that the marriage plus party has to be perfectly planned otherwise you're way too tired."

"How- Ah, right, bridal shop," he remembered. Of course she chattered with the future wives about their partner and marriage—and underwear.

"Yeah but believe me. My bralette is way healthier than any wedding bra our shop sells. I wouldn't dare to wear a bra on my marriage or anytime else. Do you know how uncomfortable they actually are?" she asked without expecting an answer. Of course Kazuki didn't know that but Reina was the first woman he heard complaining about bras. Her hand found his shoulder, pressing him down. "I think we should stop stopping all the time. How does that sound?"

"Perfect idea."

VIII

Her lips had tasted like cherries. He wanted to kiss her again, seeing her cheeks blush. Blush because of him. But a question popped up in his head he always forgot to ask. "How old are you again?" Please say eighteen or older, please.

With her red-kissed lips she looked at him. "Sixteen. Why do you ask?"

No. That couldn't be true. Why was she really that young? He couldn't date her. Not even kiss her. She was a minor, he was an adult.

"Fuck."

"What's wrong?" For the first time he confused her, not the other way around. "Kazuki? Please tell me your problem. Why are you so closed off so suddenly? Did I do something wrong?"

Kazuki hid his face between his hands. "You don't act like a teen. I hoped you are older."

Reina raised her left eyebrow, taking his hand. "You moved out with fifteen as well. Was this a teenage behavior as well? What's so bad about being sixteen?"

"I know, I know but me moving out is another matter. Reina, I'm 21. I can't date a minor. At least no minor under eighteen."

A blank expression covered her face, hand slipping away. She lowered her head, playing with her fingers. "You sound like an adult all off the sudden," she mumbled, not looking at him. "I don't like it at all."

Now, both of them were disappointed. "It's the law," Kazuki tried to save everything from going down even more.

"Forget the law. I like you and you like me, right? Nobody has to know. I'm an orphan anyway-" She stopped suddenly, looking back at him. For a long time Reina didn't say anything. "I sound like a bratty teen I never wanted to be, sorry. Maybe, it's the right decision. We can't help it." She stood up, a sad smile on her face.

"Reina ..."

Her finger stopped him from talking further. "I'll go now, Kazuki. We will date other people and someday we meet again. Farewell." She sounded like she wanted to cry but no tears fell.

Kazuki knew since back then that right decisions can hurt the most.

Though Reina worked in a bridal shop and always looked like a summer bride she never wanted to get married. "I feel like I'll be stripped down of my freedom if I say yes to anyone," she confided to Kazuki later at night, being embraced by him. "I mean hen and stag parties are about that, right? About losing basically freedom and hence you have to party, get drunk and go to strip clubs. I hate that. Traditions are simply peer pressure from the dead."

Kazuki hugged her tighter, feeling her smooth skin next his own, lips pressing down tender kisses on her neck. As a man who wanted a big, big family—especially after his grandfather died this year and never had a good relationship with his oldest brother—that wasn't something nice to hear. Children were rare nowadays and no unmarried woman wanted kids when she was happy with being unmarried. Women wanted to make careers as well. In Japan, a woman with children was unable to do so. "What about me?" He was curious.

"Hmm, you?" She yawned a little bit, drawing circles into the bed sheets. "You would've two stag parties and both would be a blast you won't remember probably. One with your friends of course and another with your beloved Aoi-san because he's that special. Maybe you wouldn't forget about the latter." Again, her soft giggle escaped her lips.

It was an interesting opinion, really. "No, I meant if you would marry me."

Silence. He could hear his wrist watch ticking. Or a pin needle dropping to the ground. "Did you just propose to me?" she asked, eyes closed. "Or do mean if I would feel like in a cage when married to you instead?"

His first thought was 'the latter' but he wasn't so sure about that anymore. He could imagine Reina being the mom of his future kids, maybe even waiting for him every evening to come back home. But that was it. Reina wouldn't be the housewife many men wanted, she wanted to work and her freedom. Her husband wouldn't be allowed to slack off or just be the great weekend-dad. To be honest, Kazuki would do nearly everything Reina demanded in a marriage if it made her happy. "Both ... I guess."

"That's honest, Kazuki. I wouldn't mind but we have just met after ten years. Isn't it too much?"

Kazuki didn't answer, just pressed his face between her shoulder blades, shaking his head. They were both hopeless.

Kazuki wanted that his parents saw him at his last live and tell them also about Reina and their plans. His father wasn't able to anymore. A month before SCREW's end Kazuki had called his home only to learn that his father had disappeared. The day after that his brother told him they found him—dead. He didn't know what to do anymore. He loved his father dearly and came after him. They never talked much but that wasn't the matter. They understood each other without words.

Reina came to visit later in the evening. After seeing Kazuki's face as he opened his door she already knew something happened. In an instant he fell into her arms, hugging her desperately and began to cry before his door was even closed. There were two ways of crying. One where you actually looked good and the other one being ugly. This was the latter and made even more clear that Kazuki wasn't okay. But Reina felt a little bit at peace because Kazuki was willing to show her his dark, ugly hours and letting her be a part of it.

With her foot she kicked the door shut and let them sink together to the ground. Instead of asking she just hugged him back, fondling slightly Kazukis neck and hair. Nothing mattered while they were sitting there, hugging each other. Reina wanted to know what exactly had happened. She knew that most of the hyper Kazuki was gone and left a weak man behind but he cried rarely. Back then when SCREW was going major his eyes had been a little wet at the concert. But that was it.

"My father died," he finally sobbed and was hit directly with the knowledge that his was father was indeed dead. That he hadn't dreamt about the call from his brother and hearing his mothers cries in the background. "He'll never come back. He won't see our last live. Mom's all alone now. Why are all people dear to me dying so fast? My grandma, granddad and now my father. Hell, I'm even missing Milk again. Please don't leave me too, Reina."

"I won't. I promise."She felt his tears dripping down her neck. "I'm sorry."

"For what?" she mumbled softly, drawing eights into his back to ease his pain. "For crying? For being sad about the loss of your father? For showing your emotions? For being weak? Kazuki, you don't have to be strong all the time. You'll suffer even more than already do. Be honest with yourself and be honest with me; that's all that matters at the moment." Her voice was like magic, soothing and caressing. Her words hit him deeper than this tragedy. "I never lost anyone. I don't even know why I grew up in the orphanage in the first place. I never had a family so I don't know how it's like to lose a part of it. But Kazuki, I consider you as my family. You proposed to me, right? I don't want to lose you."

And now, both of them cried. Nobody wanted to let go of each other. They needed each other. Needed them to reassure they were there and wouldn't vanish into the depths of nothingness. Their actions clearly said 'I'm there. Don't worry. We will go through it together. You are not alone.’

Though Reina said at their parting that they would date other people before they'll meet again, she never did. She didn't lie about loving Kazuki ever since they met each other. One may think now she wasn't able to tell apart love and sex. That's not it. As simple as it was, she never met a man who caught her interest like Kazuki did. No one was worthy enough to even kiss her. And, she didn't care about being a virgin. First of all, for a japanese woman (or man to be exact) that was nothing new anymore. Second, when she didn't care, it was her decision and the man shouldn't care as well.

Only problem—she was an honest person so she had to tell Kazuki at least afterwards. Of course, he reacted not in the way Reina herself would've reacted. "But why didn't you tell me? I would've-"

"It was good, Kazuki. I felt no pain or what so ever. Do you really think I would keep my mouth shut? I don't fuss over virginity like others do. I wanted it, okay? Do you remember you once openly admitted in an interview that you like sex? Laugh at me but you radiate an aura of experience and most experienced people don't want a virgin because they are scared and harder to handle." With this she rolled them around so she could stare into his eyes from above.

A tint of a rosy blush crept up to his cheeks. Reina let out a soft laugh at this sight. "I wouldn't have guessed it at all. In all your actions you felt experienced."

And now she laughed even more. "That's who I am—an experienced virgin. Isn't it like that normally when you don't fuss over things? That you are more at ease with it? Everything's okay, really. I felt good and loved. Isn't that enough? And it will get even better with time and practice, right?"

"How about now?"

"How about yes?"

XII

Kazuki was the only of his brothers who cried, standing next to his mother and lent her his shoulder. Everybody was clad in black. A lot of the locals came as well to wish his father farewell. His family lived in a small, rural area near the mountains of Tottori so the news about the accidental death spread immediately. Of course, most of the local actually in searching the missing man. Besides that, Kazuki's father was well known master chef in their town.

Reina stood a little bit away hence she didn't knew Kazuki's father personally. Also, she wanted to give the family time for them alone. To grief and say farewell. It was the first time in more than ten years that she didn't wore white during the daytime. Meeting Kazuki's family under these circumstances was cruel. Reina wanted to pay respect as well.

After a long time only Kazuki and his mother stood together, everyone else went home, giving them time as well. Kazuki's gaze stopped on Reina, standing there all by herself, looking to them as well. He gestured to her to come closer. "Mom, I originally wanted to tell you two that after our live as a surprise but since nothing went the way I wanted to—that's Reina."

Reina bowed deeply. "I'm so sorry. Nobody deserved this end." In an instant she knew that Kazuki's looks came from his mother who looked good despite the teary face.

"Thank you, Reina-san. You seem like a good woman for my little boy. Kazuki, is she good to you?" The woman smiled faintly, happy to hear there was at least something good in all this tragic, ugly mess.

"She was the one who told me it's okay to cry. Was there for me ever since all this shit happened. Mom, I want to marry her. Maybe not now or next year but I will," Kazuki answered firm. "Do you think dad would've liked her too?"

"Of course, Kazuki. He is now looking down on us, giving his blessing to both you. I'm sure of it." And just in this moment the sun found its way through the cloudy sky. His mother smiled knowingly. "And I'll get a second daughter. You know, I love you three dearly but I always missed a little girl running around in our house. If you are okay with it, Reina-san."

"Of course I am. And you will be the mother I never had." They were even.

XIII

Many tears were during and after the live on 1st November. That was it; RIP SCREW. Despite the changed circumstances his mother still visited Tokyo. She stood next to Reina, both with backstage passes from Kazuki, when the band noticed them. Part of Byou's family was there as well but everybody knew Kazuki had no younger sister and his sister-in-law was a classic japanese beauty, so of course they stared with still teary eyes at her.

For the first time Reina didn't know what to say. Good job? Farewell? Thank you? All of it? None of them? Instead "Ah! This hat!" left her mouth while pointing at Kazuki's hat. It looked weird and one second later she grasped that thing between her long black finger nails.

"Did you just stole my hat?"

"No. I freed you from it," she retorted, completely forgetting the more or less gloomy atmosphere.

Byou and Jin still stared at her, thinking really hard. "You are," they began at the same time, looking weirdly at each other. "You were the girl Kazuki was so excited about after a concert," Byou finished, proud about himself and his memory. Jin nodded eagerly.

"Um?" Manabu mumbled confused, "Which concert?"

Before answering Reina bowed at him. "Back then in 2006, you weren't a part of the band yet, Manabu-san. That's the first time since then that I haven't left the venue right after the concert." So Kazuki was right about seeing her in the audience throughout the years.

His mother patted her shoulder. "Kazuki, you know her for ten years already and I only met her last month?"

"We met again a few months ago and didn't stay in contact before that," Reina explained. "We broke up because I was only 16 and Kazuki didn't want to break the law because of dating a minor."

"And all this time you had no contact at all and now you want to marry?" Kazuki's mother was stunned and everyone else around too. His mother just dropped the bomb. "I'm impressed. You really love her. I'm so proud of having a son like you, Kazuki."

"Mom, stop it. That's embarrassing."

XIV

While their last live ended better thanks to Reina and his mother, Reina's birthday one day prior had been a mess. He woke up first—Reina was at his place nearly every day now—and thought when she didn't change, her favorite breakfast was still pancakes with chocolate drops. When he woke her up, the tray with pancakes, chocolate cappuccino and coffee on his night table, she began to cry after congratulating her.

Her birthday reminded her now that tomorrow everything would end. Her favorite band would disband after ten years eating too much shit and not getting enough attention. Sighing, he put Reina into a sitting position between his legs, her back to his chest, putting the tray on her legs. Pressing soft kisses onto her messy hair he cut the pancakes, almost blind because he could just stare at Reina's trembling figure.

After he was able to put a few parts into her mouth, she put the tray away again, turning around and hugging—no clinging to him. "You won't leave me, right? You won't disappear after tomorrow, right? You'll be still there, right? I feel like I will lose you when I'm not looking," she sobbed, hard.

Had he been like this last month as well? Had Reina been scared because she didn't knew what to do? Probably not. She wasn't like him. Times like this were her only weak times. But he was scared and utterly useless. But he wasn't, right? Just like she did for him, Kazuki had to reassure her as well. That he was right here and wouldn't vanish—not even in the depths of his worries.

Instead of saying something he let her drench his shirt with tears first, waiting for the moment she could hear him again. Outside of his window, the sun disappeared and rain clashed against the glass. Was mother nature feeling pity for Reina or was it a mere coincidence?

"Reina? Can you hear me?" he asked, quiet and a little bit wavering. Was he doing good? "I'm here, okay? A part of me will leave with SCREW, yes, but I'm here. And I will be tomorrow. And the day after. I promised to marry you, how can I leave you then? Things will change from now on but we have each other."

He felt her nodding on his shoulder, their piercings making weird metal sounds as their ears rubbed against each other in the process. "I feel like I can understand you better now. I'm always acting like I know everything about you. It's hard to face your own weaknesses. You feel lost and vulnerable and like the world is against you. It's frightening. I'm sorry for always acting so mighty."

Rubbing the small of her back, Kazuki just thought Don't be. You did nothing wrong. The only problem had been her being too young but he couldn't blame her for that.

"Why ten years?" Kazuki asked in the middle of a movie. Since this movie actually interested Reina, she was completely confused when he suddenly said something. Caught off-guard like him as he received her letter.

"I ... when I finally turned 18 you seemed okay. Yeah, you had trouble with Yuuto leaving but you got better when Rui became one of you. Though you had already changed it got worse when Rui left. I could see it in your blog posts and I read reports from others, being concerned about you. And then you announced SCREW's disbandment and I couldn't wait anymore. I thought you needed someone. I thought you needed-" me was what she wanted to say. "Am I being selfish?"

"No—no, you aren't. You know, I was afraid of meeting you again. You always read me so well. I was sure you could tell immediately that I've become some pathetic man. When you're selfish then I'm selfish too because I need you to forget that I'm pathetic."

Reina's fingernails scratched his thigh above his pants, brows a little bit furrowed. "You aren't. Do you know what that's called? Being human. It's normal. You're truly strong when you can admit your weaknesses."

Kazuki always believed Reina had no weaknesses but the truth is, he was always her weakness and his own.

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I JUST..... I JUST REALLY MISS MY OLD DIGIMON OC......

I don’t even know if anyone here would recognize her at all (other than maybe a certain Kari!) bUT..... well, this was actually my old Digimon OC, Hikaru! Many years back, I had one of those Digimon “FDD” (Fictional Digidestined & Digimon!) websites, and it was young me’s pride and joy, my first website that I made all on my own ;3;/ ;3;/ Complete with low quality graphics, comic sans ms, script based roleplays, and Digimon and anime midis galore! (A-ahaha.)

Although, back then I had pretty much zero ability when it came to actual art (I was always more of a writer, orz) and so her look ended up being basically “inspired” (read as: ripoff) of adult!Hikari but with a teenager look, and the story took a huuuge amount of “inspiration” (read as: tropes) from Sailor Moon too (also The Legend of Zelda), a-ahaha. OTL. Her Digimon (twin Digimon ala Wallace’s) were also obviously Chibimon/DemiVeemon recolors (DemiSilveemon and DemiGoldveemon, respectively. I didn’t even have to create an evolution for DemiGoldveemon because he’d basically become Goldveedramon, an actual Digimon!, while “Silveemon” became “Silveedramon”, a-ahaha. So original, I know.)

Regardless, they still have a very special place in my heart and I wish I had the energy to do a complete overhaul of her story nowadays (and actually finish it - I only ever managed to write through the second story arc out of like... eight-nine which was also to have a huge sprawling amount of story arcs after, which I had detailed in extremely lengthy “spoiler” summaries back then pffft - also, it was all to eventually tie into a story arc covering the epilogue and extending the story of that.) Unfortunately, my drive to do so has kind of dried up o-orz...

B-But now that I’m much older, I’m kinda sorta thinking about redesigning her at the least?? I’m super into Japanese fashion now (!!) and would really love to give her a redesign with like.... a very pretty classic styled one-piece, long A-line dress with a petticoat, maybe in a dusty pink color, with cute ruffles and embroidery, white sleeve cuffs?? and probably either neckties and/or (detachable, for look variety!) long sleeves. MAYBE SHE’D EVEN HAVE HER OWN HUGE WARDROBE OF VARIOUS ADORABLE DRESSES ALA CARDCAPTOR SAKURA/CLAMP it’s a nice thought anyway to at least redesign her main outfit in mind, even if I can’t create art for it, aha...!! ;3;/ (ALSO would change her hair color so it’d be less like Hikari’s [which was intended at the time for story purposes/tropes/etc.], though it was still a slightly darker brown - it’d probably be a bit more wavier/curlier too, and something like an even darker brown [deep brown?? nOT JUST BC OF MY OWN HAIR A-AHA....] (possibly also with bits of red through it!!)... at the time she was also created with no set eye color aside from (a darker) blue in mind; maaaybe she could have something like hazel eyes now? which could probably make up for that with the “color changing” hA ALSO SHE WAS MIXED/MULTIRACIAL/MULTIETHNIC ASIAN/JAPANESE-AMERICAN [+OTHERS] SO THERE WAS THAT YEAH!!)

Her Crest was actually the Crest of Faith, since I figured Jou’s Japanese crest’s name could also translate to “Honesty” (maybe even remain “Reliability” still, idek, which I thought was still perfect for Jou) and ‘Faith’ as a trait just held a very personal meaning to young me at the time ;3;/ (Basically never giving up, believing in yourself, etc.!! SHOUNEN/SHOUJO MOTIVATION) Though the image here didn’t quite portray the crest as I would have liked, I did want the imagery to involve a stylized crescent moon symbol and a star (probably now with it hanging outside of the moon somewhere though, not inside....), and the color to be dark pink (which would have also been the color of her D3) [it also had gold and silver buttons because of the two Digimon]. It’d be nice to try and re-design that too somehow ;3;/

All of the art here (sans #4, edited by young me a-aha) was made by request, and I’m to this day, forever grateful to the artists: Skye G. (#1 and the adorable emote!), Kari Avalon (#2), Tiara/Chiara (#3), Alana D. (#5-6), and Jennifer M. (#7)!! If any of you somehow happen to read this, thank you so much again (and for putting up with young me, o-orz)!! (I hope you’re all doing well today too....!!) ;A;/

Anyhow, a lot more rambling under the cut!

So yes, her story did lift a HUGE amount of “inspiration”/tropes from Sailor Moon, complete with the typical “Digimon Princess” theme and everything o-OTL. HOWEVER the more lengthier, sprawling story also had story arcs and tropes I still would have loved to explore in more detail - the 02 kids each had their own story arc where they’d receive their own personalized Crest traits (Iori’s was Wisdom, I can’t quite remember Miyako’s atm orz but she had one too [EDIT: MIYAKO was Loyalty, Iori’s was Wisdom!! Loyalty would fit Iori too maybe though aha?]; and of course, Daisuke got Miracles!) and their Digimon would all get to evolve into their own evolutionary lines.

The Adventure Chosen would eventually have their own arcs too; involving “Negative Crests”, evil clones, and actually the main villain of the entire fic was Alphamon - who wasn’t even featured in the main canon materials much at the time! (SO YOU CAN IMAGINE HOW MUCH I FLIPPED OUT WHEN HE WAS REVEALED AS THE MAIN VILLAIN FOR TRI, A-AHAHAH) Aaaanyway that arc would have dealt with each kid encountering their evil clone, being attacked by them/fighting them against the real kids’ wills, learning about them and their backstories, and the real kids’ Digimon would all finally evolve to Mega/Ultimate forms; the clones would have then been defeated after their corrupted virus type Digimon were destroyed, and after the clone children and their crests no longer being corrupted; them all dying peacefully to rejoin their Digimon in the Digital World afterlife. ;A; (.....I STILL GET LOTS OF FEELINGS THINKING ABOUT THE STORIES I HAD PLANNED FOR THEM ALL, SOMETIMES, I ADMIT, ESPECIALLY MY FAV KOUSHIRO’S BECAUSE LIKE. /NO MY HEART/ ALSO, THE DIGIMON WERE ALL TO BE ESPECIALLY AMAZING, ESPECIALLY TENTOMON + HIS CLONE BECAUSE LIKE. YES. NO??? HUMONGOUS CORRUPTED VIRUS TYPE ARMORED GIANT BUG PROTECTING CORRUPTED TINY CHILD AND ALL. Also, if you saw my previous post on Koushiro AUs (AKA: MOSTLY SUFFERING), the AU idea there about “Koushiro fully losing his curiosity” would have been detailed in that storyline, too [just in the place of the clone Koushiro, with the real Koushiro trying to help/save him.... but alas.......] ;3;/) (also the clone Koushiro may have not understood his own feelings and that he was hopelessly in love with the clone Taichi who didn’t know this at all until he found out at the very end; and who also died; yeah there was lots of drama/angst to be had)

As for the “Negative Crests”, basically, each Chosen would have had to fight against the darkness attempting to corrupt them and the Crests they had “lost” (which they’d then “regain”), with each cloned Chosen having the Negative Crests, like so: Taichi -> Fear Yamato -> Loneliness Sora -> Hate Koushiro -> Ignorance Mimi -> Lies (Impurity??) Jou -> Betrayal Takeru -> Despair Hikari -> Darkness [/that feeling when I actually finished Hikari’s arc along w/a Ken + Daisuke miniarc cries] (THE CLONE/DARK!JOU WAS ALSO V. EPIC AND BASICALLY BETRAYED ALPHAMON BY FINDING OUT ALPHAMON’S PLANS AND DESTROYING HIMSELF BEFORE ALPHAMON COULD FULLY CORRUPT HIM AND WIN, DARK!JOU AND ALSO JOU HIMSELF WERE SO EPIC, YOU GO JOUs !!!)

Also, being a kid at the time, of course I paired my OC with my other favorite character, of course (.....DAISUKE AHAHAHA) though young me was also very into slashfic and also not-so-subtlely hinted at underlying Tai//shiro storylines as well as not-to-be (orz) Ken//suke (mainly from Ken’s side; it’d then lead to the Ken//yako kids). All of it would have tied into the post-02 epilogue that basically explained “how the heck did all this happen and what do they and the epilogue kids do next??” AAAAND YEAH. (EVEN YOUNG ME LOVED TAI//SHIRO AND KEN//SUKE / DAI//KEN TO DEATH, OK, OK, YOUNG ME KNEW WHAT WAS UP)

Soooo I’m sure you can imagine how I feel now watching AND (MOSTLY) ENJOYING Tri and seeing other new interesting character(s) (Meiko!!) instead, ahahaha. ...Though now I’m also missing my old OC(s) and reflecting on all these old storylines I had (AMONG OTHERS), WHY THIS...... ;A;/ Ah well, it’s still nice to reminisce....!

(BY THE WAY, YOUNG ME ALSO NEVER SAID SO AT THE TIME, BUT THIS OC [AND COINCIDENTALLY ALSO DAISUKE] WAS DEFINITELY HEADCANONED TO BE SOMETHING LIKE BI/PAN/DEMI??...!! Hikaru as a character would have felt to her personally, purely looks or physical attraction was secondary - she would have probably believed in soulmates; developing a very strong emotional bond only with a person who loved and accepted her for who she was, and who she was the same for them. For my character, at the time, that was Daisuke...! H-Hahaha, though - she was also to have a backstory involving another (boy) OC she loved dearly, one who had disappeared (or: died/taken by the digital world) and she had to move on from (nOT.... HELPED BY ONE OF HER OWN DIGIMON DYING PERMANENTLY [the gold one], I’M STILL SUPER SAD I HAD TO KILL HIM OFF BUT IT WAS NECESSARY FOR THE STORY it was also a huge part of her character development and flaws including how she reacted to death/grief and would basically withdraw heavily into herself ALA KOUSHIRO AT HIS WORST.....); she would have then learnt to move on and found her personal true happiness & also her true love. So, at the time, that was Daisuke (despite the major Ken//suke undertones because it was [very] sadly not to be in that fic, o-orz - also Daisuke was a huge underdog/underappreciated within the fandom at the time (and also within OC fic which was near exclusively dub based), who was constantly bashing him for the dumbest of reasons jUST. WHY WAS FANDOM LIKE THAT-)

-- but back to Hikaru now, NOW....?? idek, maybe she’d find someone different and Daisuke would end up together with Ken?! WHOOOO KNOOOOOWS (MAYBE EVEN POLYSHIPS, THAT’D DEFINITELY WORK TOO, YES)

(ADDING A BIT MORE ABOUT HER PERSONALITY!!:) -quite mature as well as modest -secretly a huge computer geek that would also be very experienced at coding. This, of course, made Koushiro something like a senpai to her, and they’d often excitedly discuss computers/coding (along with Ken chiming in at times) while the rest of the Chosen would blank stare (hhhhhA) -despite this however she’d definitely not be on Koushiro nor Ken’s levels but she’d be on course to fast improvement with their guidance!! (also keep in mind this fic was originally written when I was a very young kid when girls who coded were acknowledged even less o-orz) -(ALSO SECRETLY A VERY ENTHUSIASTIC GAMER) (eventually, she’d come to hang out with Daisuke [+Taichi, Koushiro and Ken when they visited] to play games!) (the outcomes would often be: defeat Daisuke [repeatedly], defeat or draw with Taichi [to his dismay as well], be beaten by Koushiro and Ken [to which she’d vow to challenge herself to become better!]) -typically very optimistic/positive, kind/friendly, warm, welcoming, helpful, respectful etc., unlikely to have a mean bone in her body and basically extremely loving and supportive towards everyone -this would often put her at odds, however, with more competitive people or ruder people who weren’t as warm or welcoming; though she’d accept that being the case, she’d often be troubled that she did “something wrong” -speaking of being respectful, though she also wasn’t near Koushiro (or Iori) levels of “-san” respectfulness, she did use proper honorifics for everyone and often hesitated to change honorifics, even when prompted. (The older Chosen were a mix of “-san” [Yamato, Sora, Mimi until Mimi demands the use of “-chan” as per typical] and “-senpai” [Koushiro, Jou, and even Taichi, to his bemusement] mainly due to her having been intimidated to be new at the start, which is.... qUITE A LOT LIKE MEIKO’S NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT...) -despite her typical personality though she would stand up for herself and her friends as needed, especially in the face of evil/darkness -though very friendly, much more of an introvert than an actual extrovert; she’d rather stay inside unless invited out by the others (who would often have to insist she join them) -had some initial regrets about moving from America, even though things were harder for her there (where it was even harder for her to fit in) and it was necessary for her parents’ jobs, it was still her original home, so she holds her childhood close. -becomes chosen to be a Chosen Child due to her initial involvement with Digimon involving the OC who was “taken” by the Digital World (though she wouldn’t learn this was the reason or understand how/why it happened until later) -her story arc would essentially revolve around her learning to pick herself back up after grief and helping to save everything

(ALSO A BIT MORE ABOUT THE DIGIMON): -DemiSilveemon/Silveemon was more like Hikaru herself; though with a more eternally optimistic/supportive personality; though also somewhat more naive and silly, also with a short temper when something (DemiGoldveemon) irritated her. But when things would get tough, she’d always know the right thing to do \o/ -DemiGoldveemon/Goldveemon was much more extroverted / hyper / exciteable and super energetic/even more supportive!! ...though he was also the troublemaker, often getting into mischief and causing headaches for Hikaru and DemiSilveemon. However, when he’d have to put playing aside and defend his friends, he’d become extremely cool and awesome...!! ;A;/ (Later on, he’d also reappear briefly in spirit form to remind Hikaru and Silveemon to not give up \o/)

ALSO:

(TAI//SHIRO WOULD ALSO DEF. HAPPEN SECOND TIME AROUND NOT SORRY) (SHE’D BE ONE OF THEIR #1 SUPPORTERS TOO ALONG WITH EVERY OTHER CHOSEN AND THE PARENTS OK? OK!!!) \o/

SO THERE YOU HAVE IT MY VERY SHAMEFUL DIGIMON FANDOM HISTORY AND OC HISTORY, NOW I WILL EXCUSE MYSELF TO HIDE UNDER A ROCK !!!!!

#digimon oc #digimon fdd #(WHY DID I POST THIS)#(PLEASE EXCUSE MY RAMBLING CARRY ON NOW)#(I JUST.....!!! REALLY MISS THE FDD DAYS I'M SORRY AHHHH)#(ALSO I'M STILL THINKING ABOUT THOSE ANGSTY KOUSHIRO AUS WHY THIS)#(QUITE A FEW OF THEM WOULD PROBABLY BE INCORPORATED INTO THIS TOO SOMEHOW)#(.....I ADDED SOME MORE DETAILS)#mod posts

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