#I need to do this on regular basis

[gio-cosmo]

This is my favorite image ever I think

#burger #guys oh my GOD I had a burger the other day after not having one for like ? almost a year I think? nearly fainted #it was so glorious and amazing #bacon cheeseburger save me…save me bacon cheeseburger…bacon cheeseburger…. #I love burgers but only like once a year #like if I eat them on a regular basis I find them disgusting #I have to limit myself #okay I really don’t know why I’m talking about my burger eating habits rn MOVING ON #anyways #JINNNN🫶🫶🫶 #the Jin fixation is soooo crazy rn #obsessed w him tbh #since atlas is so obsessed w spin-offs they NEED to give me a Strega spinoff #like I do NOT need to see the phantom thieves for the umpteenth time GIVE ME STREGA PLEASEEE PLEASE PLEA #no hate to the phantom thieves still love them 🫶 I just need them to MOVE and make room for some other cast members 🫶 #IM JUST SAYINGHGGG #still love them tho #all I’m saying is atlas has soooo many cool side characters that perhaps they should oh I don’t know maybe focus on them a little more #please #for my personal sake #they should make a Strega spinoff and in the title screen say “for tumblr user gio-cosmo’’ #come on atlas I’m waiting 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️ #LMAOOO #persona 3 #p3 #jin shirato #persona 3 reload

[falderaletcetera]

hey, it's alright. there's gonna be a party when the wolf comes home.

#filing under things that sound like nonsense but bring me comfort on a regular basis #the mountain goats #up the wolves #it's on my kitchen breakdown playlist for when I need something to sing along to while having/averting a breakdown in the kitchen #which I do need to get back to now #falderal speaks

[rapidhighway]

nooo im so nuts about them im so unwell thyere best friends yoruor honor

#this is about knux and sonic btw do not derail #I LOVE THEM #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #i feel like it needs to be said that they also bash each other's head in on a regular basis #FRIENDSHIP

[derpinette]

i miss going to school because i always knew everybody's business but nobody knew mine due to being a huge loser. & it ruled

#now i am still a loser ( well actually this cool bubbly normie girl likes to pull me along with her but it makes me feel bad ) #( also i hate going outside & barely do now because i am having an androphobia flare RN which is to say agoraphobia like i vomit... gay AF #but anyway i also went to small private schools with declining enrollment numbers all my life Well only two one for 13 years #& then i switched to a cheaper one on my senior year. i would lurk & people would be like No worries you can say it it's only nyumie here #or they would tell me directly when nobody would want to talk to them due to drama & then leave & forget me as soon as they could #nobody would ever ask about my business it was so effingg awesome. altho there were rumors i was gay ( completely true ) #the fact that both schools were small made it so that it was easier to know what was happening in most grades #but now IDK ANYTHING EVER even if i were to eavesdrop my faculty is just way too big & i barely even attend anyway +i hate that dump ETC ET #this is so detrimental to my QOL & need to Observe &Lurk my life is so EMPTY & boring i want to know somebody's petty drama #& i KNOW it happens you just have to be in a circle & attend everyday which I CBAAAA. when people pull me aside to hang out i know then #but i want NO INVOLVEMENT !!!! i just want to be in the background leave me alone i already have a girl i can relate & be loyal to #& she dropped out i never thought i actually would but here we are. i just want to acquire information from a distance on a regular basis-_ #the reason why i never hated going to school despite bullying up until like my last year is because well i grew up in my original school #so i was familiar with everyone & everyday there would be something new & funny to discuss with my bestie who lives far away now -_- #i meanwe only really saw eachother at school anyway Man i wish i could GO BACK but not really vut yes but no...

[goldkirk]

being the youngest person on my team by like 10 years sometimes is REALLY obvious because everyone is talking about home construction and high school kid sports and stuff and my weekly update is “I got a Razor scooter and some new glitter paint”

#sometimes they totally forget I’m this young bc we’re never on video and I’m not volunteering a lot of personal updates bc of reasons #but when I do it’s really funny bc I’m like #‘I learned how to make stir fry today’ #‘I beat a raid in this video game i play’ #‘I got a razor scooter’ #‘the dog now fetches the cat toys so I don’t have to bend down and pick them up’ #‘I tried mangos for the first time’ #‘yesterday I learned what ferries are like’ #‘this weekend I took photographs of local moss’ #and everyone else is like ‘my daughter is home from college’ ‘I have my first grandchild’ ‘the hurricane blew away the port a potty from our #house construction site’ etc etc #personal #someday I’m going to be fully dressed in an actual outfit and do a little makeup and then be on our weekly long team meeting and everyone’s #going to be like YOU’RE Katherine???? You’re what Katherine looks like? you have pink hair and you’re like 17???? #and I’m going to be like well I mean I’m not THAT young but yes I do wear like. young person clothes #I get ’you’re so optimistic!’ from some of them on a regular basis and I’m like #well you see I learned that if I’m not optimistic I will die #and also the world is REALLY FUCKING COOL when you’re not terrified of the world all the time #so frankly I think I’m right to be #I think you maybe need juice and a rest and a bigger support system and then maybe you’ll feel a lot better #meanwhile I’ll be a cheerleader hard enough for both of us

[faejilly]

Some days are just

So dumb

Especially when you suffer for hours before you manage to consciously recognize that

You are suffering

Ibuprofen exists

in both the general concept

and in the specific that it is right there in your medicine cabinet why haven't you taken it yet?

#jilly spam #uteruses are the worst #how does one stupid organ #that i dont even need anymore #make both my brain and body stupid #on a semi regular basis #and yet still surprise me with how stupid I am #almost every time? #that is such nonsense #shouldynt be allowed #then again neither should #self inflicted sleep deprivation #and I do that all the damn time #(which definitely doesn't help)

[uptownhags]

made it thru my first month at work so i get to be hybrid now! this is great-- i will have 2 days a week to do my PT and walk instead of wheeling. i am getting to use the creative part of my brain and skill set, which is also great! but the part i am laughing at the ceiling the most about is that i get to facilitate disability etiquette training for all three of my previous orgs!! pls laugh with me :))

#i literally only make it thru my life #by being The Bigger Person #in every aspect except that i am tiny #but god it's gonna be so satisfying to do this for: #a job that paid me the least on staff as EA to the CEO #the one where [musician guy] used me for podcast research #and a group of girls who asked me things like #'can u have kids tho??' on a regular basis #genuinely i feel so good abt everything in my life #i just need to find a man to lift things and braid my hair #(this time of year on my timehop is BAD) #tbd tbd tbd

[vickyvicarious]

in the context of that other post, I am now having thoughts about Hardison who has grown up with lots of hugs and cuddles and loves to give and receive both, tailoring his touches to match the comfort levels of his partners...

and them noticing how much he loves contact and finding new ways to do that for him <3

#leverage #alec hardison #thiefsome #he of course notices and adapta to their needs! #but also HE has needs which include skin to skin touch on a regular basis. he is a cuddly man. #finding ways that work for him without bothering them even if it isn't something they would normally do bc they love him.... #i want it #(what if parker clinging/hanging on his head that one time was an example of this gone wrong #hardison: babe i'm trying to ty- #parker: no hardison you need cuddles i'm giving you cuddles. this is for your own good #*drapes herself across him very inconveniently*)

[aewrie]

'once a week or more' well rip

my default state of being when i'm not having a bad day is a little tired & nursing a budding headache. i have a headache right now that i'm ignoring

is this going to be another of those 'there is no such thing as a 'mild' concussion, if you hit your head bad enough to black out it is a concussion' lmao???

i get headaches from fucking everything. weather/air pressure (low and high). low/high blood sugar or too rapid changes there. too bright/dim light (at home i am specific about my lights/curtains at different points of the day/depending on how bright it's outside to avoid these). rapid repetitive/jarring physical motions (just jumping a little can be enough/make it worse). muscle tension. doing stretching/exercise that gets blood really flowing. lack of and/or bad sleep, or too much sleep. getting (strongly) emotional. caffeine (a new exiting one! only started regularly drinking coffee fairly recently. how much caffeine is too much is a fucking mystery though). i should wear glasses (myopia, not too severe) but i avoid it unless i need to see that far that well in part bc the glasses pressing on my temples give me headaches more easily than my eyes being slightly tired does.

i'm probably forgetting a bunch more

but every time i've seen people describe migraines i've thought well mine aren't anywhere near that severe/those specific kinds of headaches so No Way it's that

but. i do have other symptoms on that list? i just never thought it might be related to my headaches bc i'd not seen those mentioned, at least not in a way that i could identify as something i should consider in connection to this, and there's always the huge stress that migraines are always extra super bad to the point that a Real migraine completely disables you for a while. while to me it's. it's annoying, it hurts, if it's particularly bad it can make things more difficult but not impossible/near impossible; just, a general It's Not That Bad, therefore normal and i should just deal with it

#i should probably try to keep a diary of this crap for a while #i am looking at additional symptom lists from should-be-reliable sources and it's not looking great #yourebablingjulle #best part is i actually mentioned this offhand to a doctor once a few years back while discussing other stuff and he basically went #yeah it's normal some people just get headaches more easily #not sure how i phrased it or if he understood how frequent my headaches are #work stress definitely contributes so it's gotten worse since that time period tho #i often avoid painkillers or strategically schedule taking them bc otherwise i'm having them near constantly #most notably i might bear through a few hours of a semi-bad one if i know i need it later to be able to sleep ok #(not too common but it happens) #bc at their worst they do fuck with my already sketchy ability to sleep #melatonin thankfully works for me and it is a lifesaver #one other thing i know works is acupuncture but one session costs almost as much as a year's supply of melatonin and that Not affordable #(i had ~a year while recovering from depression/burnout where i could have ear acupuncture done weekly without having to pay for it #figured that if nothing else i get to chill for a bit on a regular basis. scheduled no-stress time. #when the nurse was unavailable at times and couldn't do it i realized i slept noticeably better when i got my ears poked regularly)

[electoons]

it's such a deeply sad feeling to realize that all your friends who you haven't seen in forever are all very socially active with one another (unbeknownst to you, because they have not invited you to any of their hangouts) and you were for some reason under the impression that everyone was as lonely as you because whenever you say "sorry ive been kind of isolating myself i think" and they all say "omg same here" like shit really cause it doesn't look like it (not that I presume to know other people's mental state or circumstances or whatever and Im not accusing them of like writing off my own issues but saying you have no social life is kind of weird when 1. I can see your social media and it kind of looks like you spend a lot of time with other people and 2. the person you're telling this to literally only goes to work and comes home and doesn't have conversations with anyone at all because, idk, I think that part of my brain is permanently broken. I have nothing in common with any of my coworkers at one job and at the other job I'm a contractor so I don't work in the office so I don't have any kind of social life there either. like it's not a competition but if it were I would win. sorry this is just a highly emotional vent and I know this all makes me sound like a brat)

this is all to say I know it's my own fault I'm lonely but I'm apparently so far removed from everyone that I don't even know where my chance to jump back in even is now because the train is already moving and everyone else is on board already and they've all been on board for a while and even when people do offer to like, reach out and let me on board, I panic cause like I'm not sure the "right" way to jump onto a moving train, it feels so scary. there's apparently SO MUCH social interaction that you're missing out on that it's overwhelming. idk if this metaphor makes sense. I dunno why I posted this LOL

#mia.txt #i kind of lost the plot here but whatever #i need to find a therapist #how do you integrate yourself with an established friend group that you THOUGHT you were a part of but apparently are not #because they hang out on a regular basis and did not invite you

[scribesynnox]

Was… was Big Mama allowed to do ANY of what she did with the New York Battle Nexus?? I was under the impression that the yokai hid away underground FOR A REASON and were trying to STAY in hiding.

I was under the impression that whatever Big Mama did, it was sketchy and looked down on, but ultimately still legal, because she DOES have patrons. She has money and a hotel and customers and everything. And SHE doesn’t have a wanted poster unlike Draxum (that I know of so far). But now she pulling shit like the Battle Nexus New York and thinking about using the people of New York to be her contestants and I’m wondering if there’s even any kind of Statue of Secrecy or whatever or if the yokai just all collectively think humans just aren’t worth interacting with and that’s why so few people know about them.

Actually, you know what? I don’t think the show EVER explicitly stated that the yokai and mutants HAD to stay a secret. I think they just hide because of how much fuss there would be if they were discovered. I mean, Meat Sweats for mutated on live TV and then showed up again on live TV a second time. And uh, nothing happened to him, nor was the video “mysteriously” taken down or anything.

But I mean, that’s one thing but taking away the ENTIRETY of New York is a WHOLE different ball park. Is Big Mama running an illegal underground fighting ring or is it legit?? What do the people outside of New York think? What do the people of New York themselves think when they realize they all collectively lost a day or however long they were in the orb for?

#like the New York battle nexus was HUGE #you’re telling me that not ONE city or country or town noticed New York being suddenly empty? sounds fucking fake #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #you know… the show NEVER explicitly stated that the yokai and mutants had to hide away #i think so many thoughts as I try to figure out the world of rottmnt #what is yokai culture like? what do they think of humans?? #the ONLY yokai we see on a regular basis is Baron Draxum and Big Mama and uh. those two do NOT represent what all yokai’s think #the Hidden City episodes were so good but at the same time I NEED MORE INFO #worldbuilding

[knifefightandchill]

it's ridiculously hard not to just post every gifset i've been hoarding in my drafts from this last week but listen we're slowly staggering them out so i feel more productive for longer.

#i was taking a break and then got one of those manic episodes and churned out a lot #but i want to slowly put them out so i feel like i've accomplished a lot instead of chucking them into the abyss immediately #and then feeling like i need to do /that/ on a regular basis #so maybe it can help coax me to slowly make more and just get on a schedule or something #helps when i don't really have the time to do anything #personal

[nothingbutloveforyou]

one might think the overwhelming feeling to feel loved and love someone with everything i have would would be heard by the universe, but i think they like seeing me yearn until i’m crying on the shower floor

#it happens on a regular basis #what more do you want #im ready to do it #want me to change how i look or act? #i’ll do it! just give me a sign!!!! #i need to know that there’s a chance

[a-god-in-ruins-rises]

#i've never considered it but it's true #holy shit i never realized it before #i think trump may be the single most influential person when it comes to the internet lexicon #i use so many of these on a regular basis #also #many such cases #and #SAD! #and it's called we do a little trolling #very legal and very cool #i just made a post a few weeks ago #how we need a total and complete shutdown of midwesterner migration to california until we can figure out what's going on #oh also #so true! #the man really was prolific and influential as fuck

[tiercel]

Tumblr talking about making its site the same algorithmic slop pile as every other social media bc the users migrating here are too soft brained to curate their own feeds

#You dont understand tumblr is the only site that im able to use bc its not algorithmic slop #I can barely use youtube anymore bc i will get trapped in the vortex of shorts and suggested videos #I like tumblr bc unlike instagram twitter etc it allows you to create your own feed rather than force feeding you random posts #But lately it HAS been doing that & staff just released a statement basically amounting to ''new users are too confused so we're gonna pad #everything out'' corpspeak for ''we need to make the twitter refugees feel more at home by copying their dogshit falling apart site'' #Tbh i actually enjoy tumblr as a much more niche site i think that by making other ppl realize its just a regular ass blogging site theyre #gonna clog it all up more than it already is. Not like it isnt already crammed to the gills with reactionary assholes #Like the reasons i stopped going to twitter was A. stupid bullshit like locking me out 4 no phone number and B. people driving me insane #I do NOT need the people that would trigger my mental illness on a nightly basis coming here to spread their spores #Namely the dramabrained weirdos looking for problems in everything and reactionaries that already exist here but will proliferate #Tumblr ALREADY isnt doing jackshit about t€rves or fash why the fuck would they do anything about a massive influx of them #Sorry i needed to bitch a little. Love this site but also hate the web3.0 philosophy of dumbing everything down #When are we crawling back into the primordial sea we came from (neocities and forums) #emf

[shirtlessradfahrer]

hi sorry I disappeared for like two weeks but I was overwhelmed with the news that there's a significant chance I may be on the autism spectrum (and possibly have a nice side helping of adhd) which if true has a fuckton of implications for how poorly many, many things throughout my life have played out, so needless to say I am not doing very well

(and by that I mean I was mostly crying on and off for days, and then cried some more when I realized it will cost thousands if I want to get a proper assessment done and I'm not confident my insurance would cover all of it, and also depending on how much my hours continue to be cut this month I may not even have said insurance for much longer at all hahahaha)

#i'm so angry #thinking of how many adults complained about me and my behaviour growing up but couldn't help me at all #how long have i suffered for no reason #because i wasn't a completely nonverbal boy who liked trains or some shit #...actually i did really like trains but it didn't matter apparently #but learning about all the signs and symptoms in girls/women has felt like getting punched in the gut over and over #and all the absolute worst of my childhood and teenage years has rushed back to me with new context #and i'm so fucking angry and sad and upset #and now my mom is angry af too because she took me to a psychologist in complete desperation when i was like five #because i couldn't control my emotions for shit once i was home from school #i would just flip tf out and throw stuff around my room and be incapable of saying anything until i had completely calmed down #and this was happening on a regular basis and she didn't know what tf to do #and while at school i couldn't make eye contact or advocate for myself and again i just shut down completely if i was too stressed or upset #and several other things #and the psychologist was basically like lol idk what's wrong with her but you probably just need to be a better mother :) #just slightly more professionally #NO ONE ever mentioned the possibility of autism to her #and i feel like some of these things have...worsened when i'm at work but i couldn't figure out why i was having so much difficulty #and why i felt so drained after even a short shift #but then reading about masking hit me like a fucking freight train #and apparently my brother’s girlfriend-who was officially diagnosed a few years ago-suspected it when she first met me?? #but idk what to do now bc i have an doctor's appointment next week #and i feel like i should bring it up because i hate just self-diagnosing #but even if i somehow managed to pay for an assessment (lmao) i don't feel like my doctor's going to take it seriously #considering he's been our family doctor since my birth #and apparently couldn't be bothered to take my mom's concerns that seriously back then either #jfc I’m rambling again don’t look at me