#so frankly I think I’m right to be

[goldkirk]

being the youngest person on my team by like 10 years sometimes is REALLY obvious because everyone is talking about home construction and high school kid sports and stuff and my weekly update is “I got a Razor scooter and some new glitter paint”

#sometimes they totally forget I’m this young bc we’re never on video and I’m not volunteering a lot of personal updates bc of reasons #but when I do it’s really funny bc I’m like #‘I learned how to make stir fry today’ #‘I beat a raid in this video game i play’ #‘I got a razor scooter’ #‘the dog now fetches the cat toys so I don’t have to bend down and pick them up’ #‘I tried mangos for the first time’ #‘yesterday I learned what ferries are like’ #‘this weekend I took photographs of local moss’ #and everyone else is like ‘my daughter is home from college’ ‘I have my first grandchild’ ‘the hurricane blew away the port a potty from our #house construction site’ etc etc #personal #someday I’m going to be fully dressed in an actual outfit and do a little makeup and then be on our weekly long team meeting and everyone’s #going to be like YOU’RE Katherine???? You’re what Katherine looks like? you have pink hair and you’re like 17???? #and I’m going to be like well I mean I’m not THAT young but yes I do wear like. young person clothes #I get ’you’re so optimistic!’ from some of them on a regular basis and I’m like #well you see I learned that if I’m not optimistic I will die #and also the world is REALLY FUCKING COOL when you’re not terrified of the world all the time #so frankly I think I’m right to be #I think you maybe need juice and a rest and a bigger support system and then maybe you’ll feel a lot better #meanwhile I’ll be a cheerleader hard enough for both of us

[alangdorf]

Listened to Eternal Dance Engine ~ Shall We Dance!! one too many times (and then like a hundred more times afterwards for good measure) and dropped everything to go draw this. Also tried out a new shading process which kinda did what I wanted it to but I’ll keep experimenting

#art #len’en #tsubakura enraku #tsurubami senri #suzumi kuzu #that’s right!! I deliberately left the front of Tsubakura’s hat out of frame and mixed their outfit details so it could be either of them #quite excited about that I think it’s fun #to note: I don’t seriously ship Tsubakura and Tsurubami (hedging my bets on the possibility they could turn out to be related) #(and also like I’m me I don’t generally care about shipping much) #but I think it’s funny to joke about and frankly I think it’s hot when characters are manipulative #anyway title of this piece ‘shall we dance’ subtitle no. 1 ‘fellas is it gay to when the imposter is sus’ subtitle no. 2 ‘all job interview #/firings should be set to threatening latin dance music’ #also not exaggerating between Tsurubami’s and Suzumi’s version of Eternal Dance Engine I really might have listened to them for eight hours #I think I like Suzumi’s a little less overall but the last minute slapppps #digital

[stergeon]

say it

Byleth makes Edelgard say swear words.

(~350 words; too stupid to post on ao3)

“‘Shit.’”

“Grotesque.”

“Give it a try.”

“… Shit.”

“Very good. ‘Ass.’”

“That one is easier. I’ve said it before.”

“Then why don’t you say it now?”

“I… er…”

“If it’s so easy, then do it.”

“… Ass.”

“Excellent.”

“Don’t mock me.”

“How about this one? ‘Cunt.’”

“Wh—I actually, um, don’t know what that means.”

“You don’t know ‘cunt’?”

“I don’t know what to tell you, Byleth, it’s simply not in my lexicon.”

“It means va—”

“All right, I understand. The gesture was absolutely unnecessary. I’m astounded at how many words there seem to be for the same thing.”

“If you think that’s bad, you won’t believe how many there are for pe—”

“Well, this has been a fun exercise and hopefully a source of great amusement to you, but I think I’m finished.”

“Wait, wait.”

“No.”

“One more, one more.”

“Mm, no. I don’t think so.”

“Please?”

“… You know it’s not fair of you to give me those eyes.”

“Is that a yes?”

“All right. All right. One more.”

“Yesssss. ‘Fuck.’”

“Byleth!”

“What?! You said one more, and that’s the one to say.”

“I’m—I am not—”

“Please?”

“You can’t pull the same maneuver twice in a minute and expect to succeed. That’s poor strategy.”

“Is it working?”

“… Regrettably, it is.”

“Then it seems like a good strategy to me. Just say it. ‘Fuck.’ It’s easy.”

“It most certainly is not!”

“Try it. Say ‘fuck.’”

“… Fuck.”

“Oh, that’s rich. That’s very good.”

“Are you quite satisfied?”

“Nearly. Now use it in a sentence.”

“Byleth.”

“I’ll give you one. It’ll be easy.”

“I did not—and do not—agree to this!”

“Just repeat after me.”

“No!”

“Say, ‘Byleth, I want you to fuck me.’”

“… Oh.”

“Go on, El. You can do it.”

“… Byleth, I…”

“Keep going.”

“Byleth, I-I want you to… f-fuck me.”

“Good girl. Wasn’t so hard, was it?”

“Less than I—ah—thought it would be.”

“Mm. Well, you’ve certainly earned a reward, haven’t you?”

“Yes, my teacher. Fuck…”

“Aren’t you a fast learner? I’m impressed.”

“If you don’t shut up and kiss me right now, I’m going to start swearing in earnest.”

“Don’t threaten me with a good time, Your Majesty.”

#fe3h #fire emblem #edeleth #edelgard von hresvelg #byleth eisner #ficlet #sterge.rtf #sick of having this knock around in my drafts so now it is loose in the wild #but it’s so dumb that i really don’t want to bother posting it on ao3 #if i got an email alert for this i’d be disappointed #besides i’m trying to pretend i’m hard at work on the vickyvesties right now #it’s not crack it’s just goofy #theoretically this takes place during the honeymoon phase of chapter 5 of shared space #since edelgard knows her swears by the time of muscle memory/shared space chapter 9 #edelgard’s combination teacher/praise thing is truly unfortunate but what can you do. sometimes a girl is a gotdam mess #it’s not weird unless you make it weird. but she makes it weird. #i think sometimes (like here) she drops a ‘my teacher’ accidentally and byleth politely pretends not to notice #because if she Did call attention to it edelgard would be mortified and that would be the end of whatever fun things they’re doing #frankly no one deserves to say fuck more than edelgard #but with that giant stick up her ass she’d have a hard time getting around to it without some goading #i also hc that dropping honorifics is generally a Huge Turnoff for edelgard due to power dynamic shenanigans #their relationship is Complicated Enough in canon before i fucked it up more in shared space lol #so byleth is really asking for trouble here #but i also reckon ‘my teacher’ is a vibekiller for byleth so if anything they’re just riling each other up now #godspeed girls. hope you shut up long enough to get some

[shizandgiggles]

Me having an AU? It’s more likely then you think.

Just doodles of Wally (Wallace), Home, Frank, Julie and Sally!

Close ups vvv

MILF

Man I Love Frank

#raah I’m scared of talking about this AU #Me? Making an actual ref for everyone? Less likely then you think #Omg see what I did there- #Oh but these doodles are so silly #Such a silly au right? #NO #Very serious #oh so serious #welcome home au #wally darling #julie joyful #sally starlet #frank frankly #welcome home home #SCP/Frankenstein AU #<woah AU tag #S/F AU #<shortened tag

[compacflt]

wip wednesday: going thru my corny arc

#OKAY im back #sorry! working overtime pre paris airshow #i think I’m going to focus on this 80k of wips right now—just get them posted by the end of the summer #but u can keep sending in prompts if u want #and maybe someday I’ll actually be brave/creative enough to finish an AU #1. the frankly inevitable sickfic #2. this shit is so fucking corny but i literally can’t resist it anymore i just want them to say it all the time #3. have been slowly realizing lately that I’ve been slacking on how much the uranium mission probably fucked mav up #4. he is afraid of getting old & dying all over again #top gun #top gun maverick #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #icemav #top gun fanfiction #there’s so much thematic meat to be unpacked with ice’s cancer & eventual death #and I am sacrificing that thematic meat for my own mental health. #so you’re getting my analysis of mav’s death instead because i simply refuse to engage with an unhealthy ice #i know it’s wasted thematic potential & im sorry but i like 😭😭😭😭😭😭 cannot do it #we all have our little neuroses and ice’s death is mine #sorry I’m still in my ‘italicize dialogue to suggest surreality’ phase #i can literally track the very concrete ways my writing style has changed over the course of writing this series it RULES #progress!!!!!

[goldensunset]

kieran’s champion battle theme is a banger i’m literally feeling residual fear and stress listening to it even afterwards

#this will go down as my cynthia #if even the music makes me shake in fear even once i’m done #i mean it’s not exactly the same as losing over and over again as a poor scared child #but like i did lose twice before winning and like that first time man. paralyzed to death man. #it’s such a violent and intense theme and moment in the story #i had my expectations of what i wanted kieran’s revenge moment to look like and it did not disappoint #so like by the second two tries when that music came in i had to try my best to steel my nerves at the start of battle #only other time i’ve felt that is in my no-items volo run #i didn’t have stress and fear against him necessarily but i for sure started trembling at giratina each time #the real kicker with both those fights is how there’s no warning and free switch in between your opponents’ pokémon #which like frankly i think is wayyy more fair to the npc and makes the fight more interesting #sv dlc spoilers #teal mask/indigo disk #also i am forever gonna be peeved about the tera fighting hydrapple instantly killing my empoleon with tera blast #but like that just makes sense right? that’s smart #he was anticipating ice type moves against it probably #and even just in general fighting is a good type #ughhhhhh but like #for all other trainers with tera orbs without a specialized type team #they’re always just gonna tera into one of that pokémon’s types #for gym leaders they’re gonna send out random pokémon that don’t fit the theme but will tera into it #to be clever and mess with you #given that kieran didn’t have a themed team here i thought his ace was just gonna go grass or dragon #but of course he’s smarter than that huh. #dude i commend this man he had me shaking #pokémon

[entitydark]

I FINALLY FINISHED PoP AND ITS SO GOOOOD!!!

I WAS CRYYYYYIIIINNNNGGGGG!!! 😭😭😭😭😭🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩😆😆😆😆🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

BEST BOOK EVER!!! 💕💕💕❤️❤️❤️❤️💜💜💜💜❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥💖💖💖💘💘💘💗💗💗💞💞💞💜🤍🩶🖤🩷🩷🩷❤️❤️❤️🧡🧡🧡🧡💛💛💛💚💚💚🩵🩵🩵💙💙💙💜💜💜🤎🤎🖤🖤🖤🩶🩶🩶🤍🤍🤍🤍💖💖💝💝💝💝💓💓💗💗💗💗💞💞💞💞💕💕💕💕♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

@jelloapocalypse thank you for making this. The end had me sobbing along with Molly. I can’t wait for whatever else you have planned for this series but I will do so happily for even the speck of a chance to see more.

#back at it with my bullshit #epithet erased #prison of plastic #favorite series #favorite book #also love how there’s absolutely no mention of Martin after he meets gio. #the second Giovanni made his decision the dude just no longer mattered. #he didn’t even have his protection ring on #so no one knows if he made it out of the battle field okay #and frankly no one cares either #as he deserves. 😌 #and of course gio is best boy #but I wasn’t expecting Rick to be close second. #that was a pleasant surprise. #also Navin is absolutely gonna be the bbeg and main super villain. #i’m calling it now #either the final boss or right hand man. #most good villain thinks their the hero of their own story after all. #and in this case he would be half right. #which will make it all the more gut wrenching later. #beartrap is absolutely gonna be running the finances of their new villain team. #she’ll have the niche on lock. #and I saw what you did with that card Molly gave feenie. #soon all her sheep dreams will come true. #I have other theories. but no evidence. #so I’m gonna end this here. #lol

[hobisexually]

x

#hm its time for a rant again <3 #but my roommate has a date again and that makes me feel…….. extra mentally ill snsnsnsn #I’m a little bit upset because I spent this entire year trying to rebuild right. rebuild my social life rebuild the me I used to be #and every time I think I’m almost there shit derails me? #like okay first my dad and I. collide in unprecedented ways #then my back problems got worse than ever before #then I try to recover from not speaking to said dad and work throws a blow in my face that I quite frankly still haven’t really gotten over #then new body problems arise! #then we find out I definitely have pcos and can’t ignore it any longer #then everyone in my life is. moving on to a life phase I can’t follow to #but I had it all under control I was taking it in stride I was Coping #and then ……… I catch covid again #and it really triggered 1) my anxiety again in ways that. Sigh #and 2) im still not okay? it’s been three weeks and I’m still dizzy every day I have a headache all the time I am So tired I can’t focus #and my eyes are being weird #and idk that happened in the last week and also my neck is FUCKED and my shoulders feel like concrete #and last time my eyes were weird and I couldn’t focus and had a headache all the time it was also my neck #but I just…….. am 1) terrified it’s long covid I am so so so scared #2) how can I live life normally if this. keeps happening. #but mostly 3) I am so tired of it being blow after blow after blow #I am too generally busy with work or therapy or physio therapy or FUCKING pelvic floor therapy #which is a whole different kind of hell I can’t even begin to discuss on this website it makes me so uncomfortable #that I. can’t even date. #like where do I have the energy to. #I am about to turn 32 and what the fuck do I have to show for it #and what if this is it #what if? this is it?????!!???! #I don’t know if I can live with that #ugh this doesn’t even touch the root of it but I am Deeply Upset and I don’t like complaining or acting like a victim (im not!) but Jesus #I for once would just like to. be carefree. instead of feeling like I need to fix 29292993 things about myself before I can Live. fuck.

[ghostwoohoo]

when did the deaderpool mod updates start almost exclusively linking to cf btw

#every modder moved to cf right as we started begging ppl to stop using it and now every mod update is hosted there #obviously not EVERY mod but for every mts patreon or personal site link there’s 15 mods linking to cf #it wasn’t previously this bad and it’s really disheartening that as soon as we (read: non zionists) asked the community to stop using cf- #all the big creators started using cf 😐 if u want early access so bad use patreon this is so slimy #disclaimer i’m not accusing every creator who uses cf of being zionist. before y’all get up my ass. it’s just an awful look #i don’t follow any of them closely enough to know their politics and quite frankly idgaf #i’m just saying the optics of this is terrible. ofc u think boycotts don’t work ur actively sabotaging our efforts to boycott #spirit box #negative

[el-im]

personally it's hard to feel excited for snw when it just feels so hollow? im not sure if it's the pacing or what but it feels ungenuine? and beyond that people's characters feel rushed? like i know hemmer had to be replaced but like we could've spent way more time on his character! he was interesting! (i might be biased bc i love the andorians) and not even touching whatevers going on with spock. or chapel. this is the least of my grievances but when they put that black undershirt on pikes green wraparound...hate crime.

yeah, I mean. whatever. I watched it in a single sitting when I was sick and it beat laying in bed looking up at the whitewashed ceiling.

I agree the exposition of characters seem very rushed. It kind of violated the “show, don’t tell” rule, particularly w la’an, who was kind of put in a position that needed her to air her dirty laundry in front of the whole crew. I wish they’d had time to create narratives around past experiences, kind of like they did with Kirk/Tarsus in TOS, in which his participation in a historical event was made relevant by whatever was going on in the ep. (This was kind of(?) done in the Jurassic Park Knockoff Ep they did but not super successfully). I do believe it’s a pacing issue.

That said, I will say that I appreciate it being (more, at least, than the other new treks I’ve seen… which is… only Picard) episodic. I love that they’ve got some new task to handle, some new planet to explore in each ep. In that sense, it’s much more similar to TOS than I could have hoped for, general relationship arcs aside. (But wrt pacing, sometimes I think this works against them bc of how the show is written. They could do a self contained so w a lot of backstory in TOS, but bc of how this show is written, it’s more difficult to accomplish all that in a single ep. Like M’Benga’s daughter? In that specific instance I wish they’d shown him talking about her in previous episodes, and people asking if she was back on earth w his partner or… and him going quiet. Or Hemmer trying to fix the medical transporter in an earlier ep and him freaking out, but not having that immediately resolved… the same goes for discovering Una is… whatever species she is. Would have LOVED to see some xenophobia first—the crew making jokes when they come across some anomaly that it must have been caused by them, or something, and her looking uncomfortable/chastising them/whatever. Or the demonstrated persecution of them broadcast from some federation planet… if we had more context for these stories, if their roots were better established, they’d land harder. But they don’t). So sometimes that episodic formula kind of works against them, but ! like I said. whatever.

frankly, I was ambivalent abt the whole enterprise (la de da) to begin with, so wasn’t expecting much and was pleasantly surprised by it, on the whole. A friend of mine has seen Disco and didn’t think I’d enjoy it, so I haven’t seen that, and I’m not inclined toward watching animation if I can help it so haven’t seen LWD or prodigy, the second of which is literally made for babies but. Yanno. I liked SNW. I didn’t love it, I don’t agree with a lot of decisions they made, but I can see their intentions/where they’re coming from. I LOVE this spock, though think you have to see him as separate from the Spock we see in TOS (like in AOS, you kind of have to appreciate their differences as characters, and learn to love them not as the same person, but as branching extensions from a stem). I also LOVE Pike. I had a lot of hopes about him going into it because I thought the original storyline for him in TOS was done so well in that two part ep that included the original footage from “The Cage”, and I think they did an excellent job tailoring Mount’s Pike to the character laid out there, all the while fleshing him out into a fully fledged captain.

further, I’ve gotta say, I love the antics/shenanigans, and how much everyone seems to like each other. I don’t get the point of rough and tumble, cynical sci fi 24/7. (I do—it has its place, but it shouldn’t be in Star Trek). Even DS9, which as we all know tackled huge narratives abt power dynamics and prejudice and genocide… had episodes where they played baseball. And fishing mini games. Picard, which I’m comparing it to bc, again, it’s the only other trek I’ve seen that’s been produced since AOS (I think), seems similarly jam-packed with shit. Ohh the Borg and here and so are the romulans and Deanna’s son died somehow and the Android suppression as a weird metaphor for ?? Revolution? Workers rights? Idfk? And there’s time travel and fascism and section 31 and corruption at the highest levels of Starfleet which only peepaw and his dog, tintin, can root out. And there’s his mother, for some fucking reason, and-

And it’s all horrible. Everyone’s cynical and mean and/or gratingly stupid/infantile (AGNES!!!!!!). It was refreshing to see something that… wasn’t… that.

#I didn’t care abt hemmer at all though so I can’t really speak on that point #I think conceptually it would have been neat to have an aenar onboard but frankly I think ent did more w the aenar in their last terrible #season by establishing them culturally than snw did by having an individual #who had maybe like 4 lines ?? before dying? I just didn’t care #I liked his relationship w Spock and their little carrot scene but that’s the only memorable interaction he had to me #asks #trek #am surprised by the Spock/chapel thing cause I think how it was presented in TOS was excellent. #her loving him and never saying anything. he feeling respect and affinity for her but not having/being willing to express anything beyond #perfectly done. and they both have to take that in stride because they’re professionals and have bigger fish to fry yanno #so I dislike that this is coming up as something so soon in their lives #when I think it’s something chapel should have been aware of then but let it steep and simmer #because the way we see it in TOS. It’s like resignation. #knowing she’s kind of. condemned to feeling that way. #but. #I’ll say again #I think comparing it to TOS isn’t the way to go and it’s got to be something in its own right #I’m excited for the second season! again. not touched by every character but didn’t really hate anyone #looking forward to cherry picking what is canon to ME #and throwing the rest away

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

riverdale must be so good this season if you’re like. a barchie fan. happy for them unfortunately i hate this season so much i wish we could all do ritual suicide about it.

#also i guess archie fans are having a good time getting to baby him or whatever #why can’t veronica girls ever win tho. even betty girls are losing these days #it’s fucking bleak i hate even thinking about it #beth.txt #like ok last week’s was pretty okay but this week we’re gonna go right back to the same boring shit #and last week’s wasn’t that good either. it was like. good within the most horrifically boring restraints the whole season carries #and frankly. i’m sick of roberto and i’m sick of gay riverdale fans acting like he’s god. he’s a showrunner hes going to hell no matter what #the preview for this week’s is so fucking awful like can we all kill ourselves im so annoyed

[cattatoir]

Like it’s due partially to the genre change needing some funky characterization but going absolutely wild for Crowley “being a demon and cast out from the hordes and heaven is something I chose” vs Aziraphale “something that happened to us” 🤡🤡🤡

#cmo's log #my brother in Christ #‘sauntered vaguely downward’ my add #made a series of intentional and frankly very brave moral choices #and assumed az was doing the same bc he’s upright and good and he loves him so much #🤪🤪 🤪 the running joke that Crowley was tempting him I think he took it too srs #totally missed what his actual temptation and weakness was bc he was too damn heart eyed #I’m gonna need time to recover #good omens #good omens spoilers #idk what I said here before but I don’t think it’s out of character #just like ah boo…you didn’t get the right message did you

[designernishiki]

oh baby I knew it from the fuckin moment the addc was introduced that there’s just no damn way they DIDNT have some legally sketchy shit going on with the alzheimers/dementia patients and unethical clinical trials. I feel so vindicated right now

#im on chapter 9 of judgement #I know my SHIT when it comes to human experimentation and medical ethics #and criminal investigation in general frankly that’s a big reason I was so excited to play this game (I’ve taken college classes in this) #but yeah the moment the addc is introduced and we see the layout of the place and details like the gigantic dementia patient ward right next #to the research facility and such I was like mm….. that can’t be good #I was rambling to my friend during that like. yeah they could probably get away with doing basically whatever they want with these patients #because of all the conditions to research alzheimer’s and dementia make for some of the easiest to strip subjects of their autonomy #making informed consent and whatnot most likely not an issue and complaints about malpractice or what have you extremely easy to stifle #ie; if you are a patient there you are probably just straight up trapped. no one’s gonna listen to you you have no autonomy and- #the sad but true fact about the situation is that people don’t have the time/resources/capacity to be caretakers for their alzheimers/ #dementia-ridden loved ones so a place like this- a leading research/medical facility said to be on its way to finding a cure and changing #the world- would seem like the perfect place to send a loved one in need of full time care and trust that they will do nothing but good #so it’s a great setup to get patients who are likely to die as it is- who have no autonomy- who have no credibility- and have nowhere to go. #I couldn’t help but think about that like. immediately after seeing the ward #so. here we are. let’s see where this goes #judgement #judgment spoilers #rambling #I have a weird special interest sorta thing in medical ethics / human experimentation and I have a character who literally teaches a #class on the topic (and is a surgeon) so. that’s why I’m like. especially intrigued right now

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

Things to do when you cannot see directly into the future but still want to be able to accurately predict: tarot cards

#me and my 400 readings #my love life has hope but I gotta get over a lotta things real fast #so I guess I’ll call the schools therapy place on my lunch break tomorrow #oh and it sounds like my next partner will be a stem girl who loves to go out and do things #and the woman I marry will also be really smart and love to go out and do things but there’s a lot more possibilities than I can see for her #if the next girl I date I marry I personally think that would be great #i don’t need to be married at 20 (tho I’m in the right state for that) #I don’t know we’ll see #oh and it seems like I’ll meet my next partner in either school or work #one of them I’ll get to know while one of us is Going Thru It #so hopefully that was the next partner bc I am indeed going thru it #i am content to be single I’m comfortable in myself and with myself alone. however #there is nothing I crave more than love from a loving partner. and quite frankly there is nothing similar #i can love myself day in and day out and I do. but it ain’t the same #i loved having a girlfriend. I’d love to have another #soup talks

[daydreamerdrew]

The Incredible Hulk (1968) Annual #10

#while I don’t deny that Bruce and the Hulk’s relationship is more complicated than two completely seperate people who happen to share a body #and I’m not strictly opposed to stories having moments where a certain action of the Hulk’s is attributed to Bruce influencing him #I disliked it back when it was the norm to frame it as the Hulk is a straightforward monster #and anything good he did was because of the man buried deep inside briefly coming out #in part because that’s frankly boring as it makes the Hulk a non-character with very limited interiority #I prefer it when Bruce's influence on the Hulk is limited to knowledge #like that the Hulk did something because he subconsciously remembered something relevant about how radiation works #and I like it better that Bruce and the Hulk have their own different ethos and understanding of right and wrong #I'm thinking of this one scene in The Rampaging Hulk where Bruce sees a child being abused and tries to ignore it #because he doesn't want to get upset and turn into the Hulk #but when he does and the Hulk sees that he immediately intervenes in the situation #but also there's that the Hulk has certain opinions about how fighting is supposed to work #like he judges people for primarily using weapons that fire from a distance rather than physically fighting up close #and I'm sure that Bruce doesn't care about things like that #this story is taking that the approach that the Hulk’s ability to reason is solely limited to Bruce’s influence #so that when they’re seperated the Hulk isn’t capable of reasoning at all #which is not how the Hulk was portrayed when the two of them were separated previously #and which I’m attributing to Bruce’s biased perspective on the Hulk rather than the reality of the situation #I’m not sure how to word this right but I think my understanding of the Hulk’s problems #is more focused on how his intelligence is understood than some other readers’ #like I’m not that convinced of the importance of the Hulk’s appearance and that he’s the strongest there is #while they’re not not contributing factors I do think that the Hulk is devalued because he’s not intelligent #that trying to kill him or ‘cure’ Bruce of them are seen as viable solutions to the problem of the Hulk #because he’s essentially not worth saving #and in turn that it’s particularly tragic that this happened to Bruce because he matters so much as an intelligent person #marvel #bruce banner #my posts #comic panels

[allthecolorsofourlove]

i want to be a contained anomaly:

i don’t think there’s much more to say outside of that.

with each passing day i find my half-life cut shorter: there is something

toxic in the waste expelled from my mouth. it’s radiating out from me; vector at my

ribcage—something harsh and melancholy and

a fraction too heavy for my skin. i exist in cycles. i exist

in gelatinous half-form. when i cry now i feel the surface tension

threaten to, but never truly break—do you think my mother knew? when she

found me in the guest room? crying into marinara sauce? do you think she

knew i would come to this?

i don’t think that i am built for the kind of vulnerability needed to

be something that exists in another sphere of reason. i don’t know if

it’s possible to be typical in the ways that i

need to be to exist. i’ll always be

eight feet off the ground. i’ll always be

hiding in a room that isn’t mine. i’ll always be existing in that warm dark morning: the irradiated glow of

the night.

threatening to—

never breaking.

#girl. i hate being autistic #why can’t i just know what i feel and why and when and how. huh. did you ever think of that #literally going to blow my stupid neurodiverse ass up!!!! #it’s frankly exhausting to define relationships by neurotypical standards #also what is real and what is a fixation . like I just haven’t learned how to do that #i used to imagine getting married one day but I just don’t know if I’ll ever be for lack of a better phrase normal enough to do it #to even be with someone longer than a year #it feels like I’m always in the same cycles and I’m always just fucking fighting my own damn self #i just CANT make one right choice #cus it’s always skewed by something #whatever. I’m exhausted right now and seasonal depression is kicking in so im trying to take it all with a grain of salt #poetry #poem