#I needed to get it off my chest

[flo-n-flon]

"While it's fresh. I need everyone to tell me what they saw and heard, so that I can write it down. There will never be a better time."

Of all the accounts Loial gathered in Thakan'dar that day, the Aes Sedai's proved the most difficult to acquire. Those who remained were elusive, bustling around the Healing tents and churned fields. Nynaeve Sedai and her helpers, paying no heed to the fragility of Humans, were bringing back from the brink of death so many that a constant flow of barely healed soldiers and channelers shuffled toward the Travelling grounds, freeing much-needed beds inside the tents.

Moiraine Sedai would not answer his inquiries about the events at Shayol Ghul either, intent as she was on the care of a drawn, but gently chiding Tairen woman.

#the wheel of time #wot fanart #wot book spoilers #siuaraine #siuan sanche #A Memory of Light #moiraine damodred #book: wheel of time #I needed to get it off my chest #both major spoiler and major fix-it #call it the exorcism of Siuan and Moiraine's ending #I love the concept of Loial going through the camp and trying to gather as much info for his book as possible #and then hitting a wall with those two because Moiraine is not leaving Siuan's side #and when he does get her to talk she's extremely secretive about their role and Siuan keeps teasing her in a whisper #which both angers Moiraine because Siaun should be resting and makes her overly emotional because Siuan is well enough to joke #of course overly emotional for Moiraine is still fairly in-control #Loial is unsure he witnessed something he should although they merely hold hands and stare at each other in silence and disbelief

[backjustforberena]

So, sort of knowing where this scene is set is making me want to reevaluate it and try and come up with what's happening and why. This is not Rhaenys being a pacifist or saying "don't go to war" - I mean, if nothing else, she's the one who dragged her husband out of bed to make him go and pledge for Rhaenyra. We left Rhaenys at the end of Season 1 during a moment of agency and a moment of action for the character: going to patrol the Gullet. She's in it. She's not flinching.

But being an active participant and being willing to fight does not automatically turn you into either a warmonger or bloodthirsty person. Being fierce in war does not mean inviting it, to the cost of everything.

We know that Rhaenys is going to be a large presence in the war: we see her on the wide shot sitting at the Painted Table, opposing Daemon. The idea that a "pacifist" or someone hesitant to be in the war would be sitting right by her Queen's side is a bit daft, when others could easily hold that place (not least Corlys).

The good chance is, looking at the outfits, this is on or around the funeral for Lucerys. I don't think it's specifically at the event, given that Rhaenys's silhouette on the wide shot seems a lot bulkier and floor length, so she's at least got some sort of outer layer on, if not a whole different outfit/possibly a dress (in other news: please give my lady more than one outfit for this season, I beg).

But either way, this is occurring around a time that Rhaenyra is in flux. Where her emotions are strongest. It's not at the start of the war - so it's not Rhaenys giving a preachy speech or telling her to turn back or whatever. Things have happened. Time has passed. Alliances have been made and quite possibly other things have occurred. A very important thing to note is: Daemon isn't there. He has left for Harrenhal and Jace has returned.

For the first time, probably, Rhaenys will have the chance to counsel Rhaenyra without Daemon's influence or presence. Daemon, who has been gung-ho about vengeance since Viserys popped his clogs and is likely no better now. Someone who feeds Rhaenyra's worst instincts.

Rhaenyra is inexperienced at war. She's never participated in one, never been close to one, never waged one. She's never been in this position of responsibility. There's a decent change she can romanticise it, even, given her father's tales of Valyria, the glorification of Daemon, her childhood wish to be a knight and ride to battle and glory and the righteousness of her cause and her claim as she sees it.

It makes sense for Rhaenys to have both an opinion on that and to offer council, given Rhaenys's own experiences. What Rhaenys is saying is that: there will be a cost. It will not be easy and Luke's death is not the worst thing that will occur, potentially. It will get messier and messier, she could lose more and more. Including Jace, who has just returned to them. And all of that, as Queen, will be on Rhaenyra's shoulders. She has to remain level-headed as opposed to being ruled by emotion and ruled by "the desire to burn and kill" because that way madness lies.

I think the order of the lines will go like this, with them being split up by either more dialogue from one or both of the women:

"When the desire to kill and burn takes hold and reason is forgotten.. we will not even remember what began the war in the first place." [...] "There is no war so hateful to the Gods as a war between kin. And no war so bloody as a war between dragons."

Rhaenys starts by looking into the middle-distance, not looking at Rhaenyra. She is empathising with what Rhaenyra is feeling and remembers experiences that she has been through that conjure up the same desire. The war has started, you see that in the language.

And it makes sense if Rhaenyra is feeling like she is starting this for Luke or starting it for her father or starting it for some noble reason for Rhaenys to keep that in check if she sees Rhaenyra veering towards revenge or vengeance without limit - something that is likely to come out at such an event as Luke's funeral and the aftermath of finding those remains (because a woman screaming over the remains of their burnt son, how could she possibly relate...).

But then she will turn to Rhaenyra. Then she'll look and say the next part which is, essentially: be certain. This war will not be easy, be just or be glorious. It will not be a crusade, it will not be idealistic, it will not go how Rhaenyra expects and at the end of the day, even if victory is assured, people may not like you for it. It will change you. It will have a cost.

That's not something to necessarily run away from or hide from. But it is something to keep in mind and be aware. Don't be consumed. Don't prolong it. Don't deny it. They are in it now. They are all in it. For Rhaenyra and she has to understand that. Whatever Rhaenyra decides, it affects everything. Whatever Rhaenyra is ruled by, it changes all.

#i needed to get it off my chest #rhaenys targaryen #rhaenyra targaryen

[hawkeshep]

I showed you the fade pls respond

#I’m sorry #I spent 20 min making this #I needed to get it off my chest #solas #dragon age #dragon age memes #dragon age meme #shitpost

[lex-idk]

boo boo buddies

#the owl house #for the future #luz toh #king toh #i have a 39% in history #that's completely unrelated #i needed to get it off my chest #toh for the future #toh #spoilers #RAHHHHH #toh spoilers #ftf spoilers

[miammey]

Vent/rant

There is so much bad shit going on in the world, every day things get worse and no matter what people do nothing gets better

Humans are dumb and selfish and refuse to learn half the time, and a part of me is just sick of living in a world where I can’t scroll social media for five seconds without seeing some drama, or being reminded of the terrible stuff happening all around the world in which the only thing I can do to even try to help is spread the word, or I just get reminded of terrible people who exist and have hurt others

I hate this, people are stupid, the internet was a mistake. Being kind to each other is so much easier than being cruel and always gets better results, but even those in their adult years need to keep bitching and whining about things because they want something and them having that something hurts so many other people

I’m not above other humans, in fact I’d say I’m the bottom of the barrel when it comes to importance of people, but I am so disappointed that the human race never fucking learns because they never want to learn, they don’t want to try and be reasonable or charitable or even kind, and the younger generations are learning from that. They think that being an asshole is the best thing to do in certain situations because no one’s ever cared to try and teach them right from wrong, or how to properly communicate with people, mainly online. And even the generation too young to have their own social media is affected.

Everyone knows about iPad kids, and those children will grow up to be spoiled rotten because they’re used to getting what they want and I know they’ll refuse to do anything in terms of work. And then there’s the fact that younger and younger kids are getting those accounts, which exposes them to adults who want go hurt them, and also to conversations and drama that happens in adult conversations where they spout bullshit because they read half a post and jumped to conclusions because they never learned how to analyze texts because everyone older than them constantly talks about how much school sucks, so they don’t pay attention in class and just never learn how to properly handle arguments, and those kids will grow into lonely adults because they refuse to listen to anyone.

This is a cycle that will only get worse and worse because that is what we keep teaching our youth, that they can be as entitled as they want, that they don’t need to do anything and can sit online all day arguing with others and giving other kids their age death threats, developing every mental disorder in existence because being exposed to so much in such little time and at such a young age is traumatizing, and all of that being so normalized

Meanwhile, they look at the struggling adults of the world and all the shit happening that they cannot stop, and the best thing they can do is keep talking about it and hoping that the government figureheads old enough to have late-stage dementia but are still somehow in positions of power eventually die just so a slightly younger out of touch politician can take their place and continue this downward spiral

I want to stay positive, I try so hard to stay positive because I’ve had to talk multiple people out of thinking these exact same thoughts, but it’s as if everything keeps conspiring against the universe in order to make things worse for humanity, not just as a whole but also on an individual level

Humans are selfish, they’re stupid, rarely do seeds of good sprout from groups, and those sprouts of good are probably the only reason I’m alive right now

I enjoy seeing positive things come from people. I want to see stray animals getting rescued, I want to see people donate money to help someone afford a life-saving surgery, and to get personal I want to come home and hug my parents and kiss them on the cheek every day, I want to annoy my sibling while they play video games and pat them on the head, I want to hear my grandma call me her darling child, but at the same time I don’t want to live in a world where these happy little things are either rare or simply overlooked. I don’t want to live in a world where we as a species can’t go one day without something bad happening in every community. I don’t want to live in a world where people are selfish to the point where they do not care for the pain of others, and feel no guilt for telling their peers that they don’t deserve to live

I don’t think I’m the only one that thinks this way, and that just makes this a bigger problem

Living in this world is exhausting, and if it weren’t for those little things I would have given up on it a long, long time ago

#vent #tw vent #sorry this is so long #I needed to get it off my chest

[theghostwrites]

Kit and Airk in the Willow finale were giving Jaina and Jacen Solo 😭😭 god now I love Willow even more and grieve for the barren self-devouring hell franchise that Star Wars has turned into

#SEE media that is unironically hopeful is better actually #Willow 2022 #and the fact that this is Lucasfilms too makes it worse #anti tros #Willow tv #this is niche but I could not help thinking it #I needed to get it off my chest #ohh what could have been if not for JJ and the toxic fanboys

[nieves-de-sugui]

In the end it took me forever to finish, but I finally binged the last few episodes of Watashi to Otto to Otto no Kareshi. Despite the questionable gaga subs I really liked it.

But I can't help but have the need to take something off my chest. Even though I have never been in a poly relationship I think it really is a shame that the show ends were it ends. I feel like it's just the beginning and that there is so much more to explore in the relationships of Misaki, Yuuki and Shuhei. I like how they start to explore the "even tho they might be different types of like I don't want to have to choose" but I need moooooore. Shuhei and Misaki barely have alone time to get to know each other in a space outside of their relationship with Yuuki. And it ends right went it feels like they're all choosing what they actually want instead of what they think the other need. And I'm left with a need for more, because we barely got into it and explored it T^T I'm kinda curious about your thoughts of the show overall @bengiyo

I'm basically whinning like a kid because I had a slight hope they might play it less safe, and if anyone would have dare to go there properly it would be Japan. But oh, it's ok. Hopefully, there will be more poly relationships in media in the future.

#watashi to otto to otto no kareshi #just thoughts #I needed to get it off my chest #anyone has poly recommendations? #I'm hoping we'll get a second season fot tbsatdh so that they can fully go into the poly potential they have and seemd to be going for #because the trio of unsatiable already disappointed #and idk what art adore en will bring but I'm not super sure they'll be able to deliver #my expectations are low #is there an epic poly relationship out there in media that i'm missing?

[dark1k]

this pic of jesse specifically.. it does something to me..

#i'm sorry everyone #i needed to get it off my chest

[obeythedemons]

tw: depression, low self-esteem, past abusive relationship, rape threat

So I was really depressed a couple of weeks ago? Still am a bit. I was craving romantic intimacy with someone - not even aimed at anyone just in general. But I’ve convinced myself that I’m unlovable and that I should never try to be in a relationship again. The first and only time I tried being in a relationship, the guy was controlling, emotionally and verbally abusive, and threatened to rape me. Whenever he had an outburst of anger he’d blame it on me, saying it’s my fault that he’s that angry, that I’m an awful person, I’m an awful girlfriend (before I came out), and that I made him feel unloved. This would usually happen if I didn’t text him back immediately, even if it was four in the morning after he got off work and I was asleep. This was less than a month of dating, too.

After I broke up with him, he spent so long trying to convince me to get back together with him. That he loved me even though we still hardly knew each other. He tried to manipulate me, telling me it wasn’t fair and I didn’t give him a proper chance.

He would try too humiliate me in class in front of everyone - tell everyone I didn’t know what I was doing, that I was stupid, worthless. My physics professor ended up yelling at him and telling him I was the only one in the class that actually knew what was going on.

His brother ended up cornering me after I broke up with him, too and tried to intimidate me. He was a lot bigger than me, so I was terrified that something was going to happen, even if it was in the middle of campus.

But a lot of that stuck with me. I already knew that dating while being ace would be super difficult, but this just sort of ruined it for me. I was very repulsed by anything to do with romance for years. I just recently got back into being able to consume content with romance in it again - mainly because of Obey Me. But I still hate myself so much in that regard. It’s just easier if I don’t date, even if I want to. I don’t want to risk the same thing happening again, because it was so scary when you’re alone in a car, you don’t have a ride home, and he threatens to rape you. When he plays on your insecurities and tries to belittle you and make you feel awful about yourself. But like dammit, I was really wanting to be with someone, hold them, support them, be a team together, but I feel like it’s impossible.

#I don't know where I'm going with this #I needed to get it off my chest #delete later #maybe I'm in the sad part of my feverish rambles #rape #tw rape #abuse #tw abuse #depression #tw depression

[tamcitrus]

I got a check up ultrasound today for my IUD and shit, and the report said i have a little dot on my boob, like a cyst or smth. And I'm sure it's nothing bc I'm about to have my period and also have an hormone IUD BUT UGH

I was telling my boyfriend about my day and the studio and i went like "oh they found this and I'm trying not to worry about it bc the closest appointment i found with a gynecologist is in a month"

AND THIS GUY SAID FUCKING NOTHING he just kept scrolling through ig reels and that was it. Silly me for waiting for him to fucking worry right? Or try to calm me down? Or just say "oh I'm sure it's nothing serious"

#i'm so done #i needed to get it off my chest #like ???? #I'm so mad #tam talks #tam upset #tam rambles

[girlfictions]

something i’ve been thinking about lately is like. growing up muslim right after 9/11 is something i’d never really reflected on much because it was all i’d ever known — at 5, my friend’s mum didn’t let her invite me to her birthday party because i was the only brown girl in our class, at 12, my classmates would joke about my family being part of isis, at 16, my dad was interrogated by american airport security for hours — and it always stung and it always hurt but it was just the way things were because the western world hated muslims. but i don’t think i’ve ever fully comprehended the extent to which we were hated until now.

palestine is being turned into a mass graveyard. every single day there are new photos of the atrocities being carried out against them and videos of them pleading for help and still those who can actually intervene turn a blind eye. israel is claiming to only be targeting hamas “terrorists” while bombing a refugee camp. israeli police raided and assaulted a non-zionist jewish neighbourhood. israeli soldiers are posting tiktoks of them torturing captured palestinians. this is not a complicated issue and it never has been. ethnic cleansing is being committed right in front of us. and yet the western world leaders refuse to call for a ceasefire.

and while zionist organisations accuse pro-palestine demonstrations of anti-semitism, while zionist celebrities insist that they’re afraid to leave their mansions in los angeles, a six year old muslim boy was stabbed to death and his mother wounded in the same attack in chicago. a muslim doctor was murdered while sitting outside her apartment complex in texas. hundreds of peaceful protesters have been arrested (many of whom have been jewish). despite what zionists want you to believe, this is not a jewish/muslim conflict. i have so much love and gratitude to my brave jewish brothers and sisters all over the world who are condemning israel for their actions.

ultimately, israel have been granted impunity by the west. they have slaughtered thousands upon thousands of innocent palestinians. they have bombed hospitals and schools indiscriminately. they have used white phosphorus, violating the geneva convention. they have completely eradicated nearly 900 bloodlines. how many more need to be wiped out? how many more children need to be buried underneath the rubble? how many more doctors need to be confronted with the bodies of their own family members? how many more journalists need to detail the horrific acts of violence they are witnessing? what more can be done to the palestinian people that has not been done already?

i truly believe that palestine will be free one day. i believe the palestinian people will receive the justice they finally deserve. but what breaks my heart is how much they have suffered and will continue to suffer before they are deemed worthy of help. and it would be to all of our detriment if we ignored how much of a factor palestine being a predominantly muslim state has played into the way the world has reacted to their genocide.

#edit: this is completely okay (and encouraged frankly) to reblog <3 #i just needed to get this off my chest because i don’t know how much more i can take #palestine #free palestine

[conversivelrosa]

I know nobody will agree with me but diego luna and bella ramsey look alike

#I needed to get it off my chest

[dappermouth]

When I was like 12 years old my violin teacher owned this peculiar music shop, and I would go there weekly for lessons. It was a narrow old pioneer house whose ground floor had been converted into a storefront and lesson rooms. After a while, a luthier had also moved in upstairs and set up a studio for making violins.

So, one day I'm going into the shop for my lesson. I head in the front door, and before I turn into the living room area where the main shop is, I look down the dark hallway at the rickety wooden stairs that lead up to the luthier's studio. The air smells like sawdust and lacquer. Just a little bit of light filtering in from the window behind me.

Something's on the stairway. A huge black animal is making its way down these steep, narrow stairs. I've never seen anything like this, I genuinely did not know an animal like this exists, and it comes right up to me, click-click-clicking slowly over the floor, long and tall and dark. There are wood shavings peppering its coat. It lifts its head up and its massive beast-face is virtually level with my child-face and I realize this is a gotdamb bizarro dog of some kind. It looks impossible but it's real and it's there, staring at me in total silence with a face the length of my arm. Then it does a 3-point-turn in the tiny dusty hallway and goes right back upstairs.

Turns out this was just the luthier's dog Seamus, a black borzoi of incredible height and length. anyway i'm just trying to say it was a disturbing set of circumstances under which i discovered what a borzoi is and everything in my life has felt very complicated since then

#jentalk #sorry i needed to get this off my chest

[tomfrogisblue]

bro I'm gonna explode

q!philza is always shocked when people build their houses next to him, move into his basement, trust his judgement and advice, trust him with their lives

MY BROTHER IN CHRIST

the new member's first memories of this server are gonna be how you gave them waypoints, then money so they could use them, then explained the bounty system, then swooped in like a guardian angel when one of the players was downed all by herself

AND EVERY NEW MEMBER IS TREATED SIMILAR BY YOU

ANYTIME ANYONE ON THE SERVER NEEDS HELP, YOU SWOOP IN, AVOCADO TOAST IN HAND

I just wanna shake q!philza by the shoulders and yell in his self-depreciating face "YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON AND YOU ARE LOVED!"

#my apologies i needed to get this off my chest #dadza again shocked that his good father energy is appreciated #also he confirmed to yd that he indeed has a family. yes q!phil and that family includes detectives demons inventors ducks warriors etc etc #and a very determined cucumber #qsmp #qsmp lore #qsmp philza #phils basement gonna be full

[the-bibrarian]

I see a lot of incomprehension online about our pension reform and the anger it generates in France, and what it often boils down to is "why are they so angry, 64 is plenty young to retire?"

I don't agree, but even if I did I would still oppose the reform. Here are some of the reasons why:

We already need 43 full years of work and tax contributions to be able to retire. Which means college-educated people were never going to retire at 64 anyway, let alone 62. This reform is aimed at people who start working early, mostly in low-paying jobs.

There's very little provision made in this law for hard/dangerous/manual labour.

There's no provision made for women who stop working to raise their children (51% of women already retire without a "complete career," which means they only retire on a partial pension, vs. 25% of men).

At 64, 1/3 of the poorest workers will already be dead. In France, between the richest and the poorest men, there's a 13 years gap in life expectancy.

Beyond life expectancy, at that age a lot of people (especially poorer, non-college educated) have too many health-related issues to be able to work. Not only is it cruel to ask them to work longer, if they can't work at all that's two more years to hold on with no pension

Unemployment in France is still fairly high (7%). Young people already have a hard time finding work, and this is going to make things even harder for them

Macron cut taxes on the rich and lost the country around 16 Billions € in tax revenue. Our estimated pension deficit should peak at 12 Billions worst case scenario.

While I'm on wealth redistribution (no, not soviet style, but I think there should be a cap on wealth concentration. Nobody needs to be a billionaire.): some of the massive profits of last year should go to workers and to the state to be redistributed, including to fund pensions. The state subsidized companies and corporations during the pandemic, Macron even said "no matter the cost" and spent 206 Billions € on businesses. Now he's going after the poorest workers in the country for an hypothetical 12 Billions??

Implicit in all of this is the question of systemic racism. French workers from immigrant families are already more likely to have started their careers early, to have low-paying jobs, are less likely to be college-educated, more at risk for disabilities and chronic illnesses, etc., so this is going to disproportionately affect them

This is not even touching on the fact that he didn't let lawmakers vote on it, meaning he knew he wouldn't get a majority of votes in parliament, or that 70% of the population is against this law. Pushing it through anyway is blatant authoritarianism.

TL;DR: This is only tangentially about retirement age. The reform will make life harder for people with low incomes, or with no higher education, for manual workers, for women—mothers especially, for POC, for people with disabilities or chronic conditions, etc. This is about solidarity.

Hope (sincerely) this helps.

#long post #france #french politics #réforme des retraites #49.3 #pension reform #macron explosion #I know this post is mostly me talking to myself and preaching to the choir #but I needed to get it off my chest #up the baguette #upthebaguette #social justice

[useramor]

the thing that gets to me about buddie posts on here is that people will be like "look at them! friends don't do that! there is no platonic explanation for that" and well. friends do do that. their relationship is deep and beautiful and intense but their actions alone aren't exclusive to romantic partners. what — to me — makes buddie romantic over platonic boils down to their intentions. someone making their best friend their child's legal guardian isn't unheard of. but eddie did it and kept it a secret. eddie thought "this is the only man i trust with my son. this is the only person in this world that will hold my heart gently." and then eddie didn't tell him. that makes me crazier than the actual legal document. a normal friendship would discuss this. it'd be an open conversation. the fact that eddie can't bring himself to say it because he knows that what it means to him is too much to look in the eye? because he knows that telling buck about his decision would be the equivalent of bleeding all over the both of them again? that's what makes it romantic. eddie frantically chasing after buck's limp body after the lightning strike isn't necessarily because he's in love with him. plenty of really close friends would do that for each other. it's when eddie desperately tries to pull buck up to him instead of lowering him that makes it more. because eddie didn't climb the ladder to get buck down to safety, eddie climbed up the ladder to get buck to him. the desperation, the intent behind their actions, the way they can't look at each other when they're hurt because it's impossible to deal with even the idea of living in a world without each other says so much more than any of buck's acts of service alone. a best friend would help you take care of yourself and your kid after you have a mental breakdown, if you're physically injured, if you need help. it's the fact that nobody asked buck, it's the fact that he's the first person chris called, it's the fact that bobby didn't bat an eye, because of course buck's there to help eddie. it's a given. who else in the whole world would it be? because they're everything to each other. in a way that's just a little too much, a little too codependent, toes the line of friendship and lovelovelove a little too carelessly. they're not buck and eddie, best friends, they're buckandeddie, one word. and not because of any of action. because they're in massive stupid head over heels gay love with each other.

#i needed to get this off my chest please tell me y'all get this #because i see SO MANY people be like 'friends wouldn't do what they do!' and like.......yes they would #friends would do what they do they just wouldn't do it like THAT #thanks for coming to my ted talk #buddie