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nikibogwater · 2 years

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A Needlessly Intense Analysis of Claire Nuñez

As I find myself with nothing to do on a dreary Monday afternoon, my mind has returned, not for the first time, to something that has irked, bewildered, and befuddled me ever since I first watched season 1 of Trollhunters back in early 2017. And that thing is the character of Claire Nuñez.

Now this probably goes without saying, but the following rant/essay is going to include criticisms of how Claire was written throughout the entirety of Trollhunters: Tales of Arcadia. If you’re someone who absolutely loves Claire as a character and are easily upset by people disliking or criticizing the way she was written, then please by all means just scroll on past--I’m writing this simply to air out some of my own long-dormant thoughts, pass some time, and perhaps spark a friendly discussion with those who are interested in such a thing. I’m not doing this with the intent of attacking or shaming anybody who likes Claire, or causing any unnecessary stress. Kapish?

Good.

With that out of the way, I’ll put the short version of everything right here for those of you who don’t want to read the mile-long essay under the post: In terms of writing, Claire Nuñez is a bizarre mish-mash of contradicting elements. On the one hand, certain aspects of her character and her arc in Trollhunters are very solid examples of Good Character Writing, and she has the potential to be a great secondary protagonist. And yet half the time, she also comes across as the most very poorly-conceived character in the entire franchise. In all my time in the fandom, I’ve observed these two most common reactions to Claire as a character: fans either adore her (mostly because of her relationship with Jim), or they are thoroughly disinterested in her--even greatly annoyed by her in some cases. In my own experience, I’ve swung from absolutely loathing her, to thinking she’s great, to landing somewhere in the middle. But anyways, that’s the jist of my analysis. The more detailed, slightly ranty version is under the cut.

I think the most telling thing about Claire as a character is that I honestly struggle to list more than one or two personality traits that she displays with any sort of consistency. When she’s introduced to us in Trollhunters, she’s Cute and Sweet, and not much else. A few episodes in, she suddenly swings around into Petty and Self-Centered with no warning. Then suddenly her defining character traits become Angry and Badass. Now there’s absolutely nothing wrong with a character changing/evolving over time--actually, that’s what we call a character arc, and it’s pretty much always something you want to have in a story. And all those traits and the way they change into something else over time are the ingredients of a really good character arc. The problem with Claire’s arc is that it’s less of an arc and more of just several loosely connected dots. And in order for a character to feel grounded in reality, they do need to have at least a few core personality traits that they never fully lose, no matter where they are on their emotional journey. For example, although Jim’s arc involves overcoming his timidity and becoming confident in his new role as a hero, he never loses that sense of compassion and self-sacrifice that he exhibits within the first few minutes of his character introduction. Jim changes and grows, but he remains kind, because kindness is one of his core character traits. Claire only has one core character trait that remains consistent throughout the entire show, and it is the one core character trait that you should absolutely NEVER give to a character if it is to be their only core character trait:

Extreme Competence.

I’ve heard the phrase Mary-Sue used to describe Claire a lot, and while I don’t think it’s an entirely accurate summation of her character, I understand why it comes to many people’s minds. The one thing about Claire that remains consistent is the fact that she is prodigiously good at pretty much everything she tries. Even things that she logically should not have any prior knowledge or experience with. The audience is constantly being bashed over the head with just how Cool and Capable Claire is, how much Better she is than everyone else. And without any clearly-defined flaws to counteract this, Claire comes across as the one type of character absolutely no one can relate to.

Now, when I say “clearly-defined flaws,” what I mean are moral/logistical failings in her personality/behavior that have very real negative consequences that the audience can clearly see. There was a seemingly half-hearted attempt at giving her a character flaw when she snuck out to the Papa Skull concert, but this ultimately failed for me because she is never called out for her behavior and doesn’t suffer any visible negative consequences. Worse still, Jim and Toby act like what she did was totally fine, and that she’s completely justified in her anger at Jim after the house gets trashed. Even though the normal human response to this would be “Hey wait a second, you’re at least partially to blame for that too!”

Now, there are two moments in the entire Tales of Arcadia series where it’s briefly insinuated that Claire feels bad about abandoning Enrique like she did, and one of them isn’t even in Trollhunters. There is never any substantial attention drawn to this, and never a moment where we can clearly see her acknowledging her fault and making an effort to be better. Now I’m all for hiding little details and bits of subtext here and there in a story, but when it comes to something as big as one of your major characters going through a character arc, I believe that you need to communicate that stuff clearly. You’re not being clever by glossing over it and hoping astute audiences will be able to sniff it out. You’re being lazy. It is not your audience’s job to make the character for you. Like, imagine if the writers of Avatar: The Last Airbender had skipped all of Zuko’s internal struggles, and then one episode he just shows up going “I’m going to teach the Avatar Firebending because I’m good now!” I don’t think that character would’ve been as beloved as he is had they only insinuated his growth happening off-screen. Just so in Claire’s case, skipping over her process of growth and maturing makes any future changes to her character feel spontaneous and unearned. Add in that problem of her only core character trait being the absolute WORST one they could have picked, and you have a perfect caricature of a nine-year-old’s fanfiction OC--which you probably don’t want to have in your multi-million-dollar tv series helmed by one of the most prolific storytellers in cinema.

And the most frustrating part about all of this is that Claire’s character could be fixed so easily. As I stated above, the raw elements of her character and her arc are the perfect ingredients for creating a truly good character in a remarkably short amount of time. Claire is brilliant in theory, just not in practice. So then how should these elements have been put into practice? Well, there’s a host of different methods, but here’s the first one I’ve thought of that would require the least amount of change to the show:

Step One: If one of Claire’s core traits is being Good at Everything, then you need to explain why that is. Have Jim mention early on that she’s always busy, always involved in even the most niche of extracurricular activities at school. This will also have the added bonus of making your audience curious about her--why exactly does she feel the need to do all these different things? Because I’ll be honest here, Claire’s canon introduction did absolutely nothing to make me want to learn more about her.

Step Two: Focus more on her love of acting. Acting is the only interest/hobby that canon Claire has apart from maybe rock music(?), and it’s barely given any time or explanation. We don’t know why she enjoys it, and once the Romeo and Juliet play is finished, this interest of hers is basically never brought up again. So during that Iconic Audition Scene, let her and Jim have a little conversation. Doesn’t need to be long, just enough so we can hear Claire say something to the effect of “Acting is my only real escape.” There. Now we know why she enjoys acting, and now we have even more questions about her: what exactly does she need to escape from? And if acting is the only thing she enjoys, why is she doing all these other activities after school?

Step Three: EMBRACE. CLAIRE’S. FLAWS. Don’t ignore them, don’t gloss over them because “Well she’s the female love-interest and if she’s anything less than Perfect that’ll be sexist or smth.” Flaws are extremely important in Claire’s case because you’ve already established that she knows a heck ton about a heck ton of different things and has amassed a huge array of crazy skills. So lean into her pettiness, her self-centeredness, her pride--and don’t excuse it. Have the other characters actually be bothered by the way she treats Jim after the babysitting incident. Have her be called out for her behavior. And most importantly, show us how she overcomes these flaws. Again, don’t jump from one point in a character’s arc to another and expect the audience to fill in the blanks. That moment when Claire realizes her brother’s been replaced by a Changeling? That would be the perfect time to show her having that painful realization: that she was so intent on being Perfect all the time, so intent on getting her way, that she lost sight of what was truly important. As it is, her grief over losing Enrique feels very unearned in canon, since there’s no attention drawn to the guilt that she should also be feeling over it.

Step Four: Reveal how she got here in the first place. Let her have a serious talk with Jim. Again, doesn’t even need to be that long. She could start by apologizing to him for how she treated him, and then explain herself. The reason she feels the need to do everything, and to do it perfectly, is because she is the daughter of a councilwoman. She needs to be exceptional because her behavior directly reflects Councilwoman Nuñez’s parenting. And if she’s anything less, not only will Councilwoman Nuñez look like a failure as a parent, Claire will be a failure as a daughter. That’s why acting was always Claire’s great escape--because she could become someone who didn’t need to live up to that standard, even if it was just for a little while. But sometimes she gets sick of it--she breaks. She wants to do something for herself, and nobody else. That’s why she snuck out to the Papa Skull concert that night. But in the end, none of that mattered. All her studying, all her practice, all her achievements at school, this obsession with being perfect--it cost her the one thing that did truly matter. And with that, she has acquired some new character traits: loyalty and protectiveness. She will do anything to get Enrique back, and is determined to never take her loved ones for granted again. Also get rid of her pestering and guilt-tripping Jim into going into the Darklands because my goodness, was that unnecessary and completely destroyed what little investment I had in their relationship beforehand. If you absolutely HAVE to have it in there, then again, have someone call her out for this. Please don’t teach kids that there are no consequences to treating people like this, the world already has enough self-entitled jerks as it is.

Step Five: I don’t think there even needs to be a step five. My only other suggestion would be to maybe keep bringing up Claire’s interest in acting from time to time, much like how the writers frequently bring up Jim’s interest in cooking. Maybe there could be a plot thread where the Trollhunters actually use her acting skills for infiltration or the like? Or perhaps any time there’s a lull in the action, she can be seen reading a script or a Shakespeare play in the background.

Now probably the biggest question anybody has after all of this is “Niki, why the heck does any of this even matter? This is a show for children.” To which I will reply with “Children deserve to have good stories too.” And in the case of Trollhunters, I’m of the opinion that it is a good story, in pretty much every aspect, except for Claire. I think that’s why I’m so fascinated with her, and also why I’m so frustrated. It’s actually very similar to my feelings regarding Rise of the Titans. I’m morbidly fascinated with how a series as consistently good as Tales of Arcadia could have suddenly and inexplicably produced such a steaming pile of dumpster fire right at the very end. And likewise, I can’t stop wondering why, in a show with otherwise fantastic and well-written characters, it’s only Claire Nuñez who is so polarizing.

As for the essay you’ve just suffered through, well, yeah, that didn’t matter very much, it just felt good to write. But I hope at least one or two of you enjoyed hearing me rant. Again if you have any additional thoughts or want to politely counter one of my points, feel free to share. I’d love it if this turned into a bit of a discussion.

#tales of arcadia #toa #claire nunez #character analysis #niki rambles

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thevoilinauttheory · 3 years

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[ i’m not one to really give my opinions on games in my tumblr

but i was replaying through 5.3 (and some thoughts visiting 5.0 again) on maximiloix to get him caught up and g o d do i just have... a little bit to say (funny, really) but there’s spoilers, and i know a couple people who follow me who haven’t done it yet - so i’mma put it under the cut for anyone interested in my rambles ]

[ so. like.

first. still sobbing about 5.3 and its build up, and don’t think i’ll ever get over it, especially after doing it a second time. knowing what’s going to happen, i think made it almost worse - it made all those conversations make sense and its just. hhhhh i love it so much.

next. the solo instance where elidibus takes you through amaurot fighting the people from your past adventures, the people you’ve grown to care about and love. g o d when i did that the first time, i think i literally cried. my heart hurt so much and i just wanted to refuse to fight.

but there’s a reason why maximiloix is in a group in the wol!au i have... because. if it were just him going through, just him as the wol. that part wouldn’t have hurt him. he probably would’ve responded with something like “i’m flattered you think i care” or like “i don’t think you know me as well as you think you do” and then just slaughter them all anyways with zero hesitation (honestly, if it came down to it, he probably would only hesitate with alphinaud, alisaie, or ryne - they’re kids! they didn’t ask for this! but, uh. that’s just hesitation. maybe like thirty seconds later he’d go “aw fuck it”). maximiloix would make the worst wol if he were traveling on his own with no one to keep him in check. i just found that so funny to me.

if it were just him, he honestly prolly wouldn’t be a wol. he would’ve sided with the ascians hands down without hesitation. if it wasn’t before, then it definitely would’ve been with amaurot - he probably would’ve dropped his weapon and go “yeah, that makes sense”... and then leave it be. and if he didn’t, whatever semblance of a heart he has left would have gone out to them as he learned more... even more so when he would realize that elidibus was just a child at the heart of it all. (that part really fucked me up for a bit)

--- HOKAY. THIS CUT IS TO TELL YOU THERES SOME THOUGHTS I HAVE ON THE 5.0 DRAMA TRAIN, AND I JUST WANT TO WARN YOU SO YOU CAN SKIP IT AND SCROLL PAST REAL FAST ---

obvs really late to the party here, mostly because severe anxiety and i don’t like getting caught up in shit like this

so. i saw a lot of posts going around at the time of 5.0 talking about “i hate emet-selch so much why would i want to fucking remember you” or “nope just gonna forget it cause fuck you” - i can understand peoples’ dislikes of emet-selch, as like, a person (as a character, damn. that’s some good writing and you can’t deny that) - yeah, he’s a fascist. he’s an absolute dick. there’s no atoning for shit like that irl but.

its like. my first thought reading all of that was.

“do people have reading comprehension? like. at all?”

he wasn’t saying “remember me”, he was saying “remember us” , y’know. remember that there were people before you. remember that our people suffered greatly because you are our legacy. remember not to repeat the mistakes of the past. remember all of these people that gave their lives to give you yours.

“history is learned, not lived”

literally from the game itself. this whole game is littered with gems like that. absolutely full of relatable lines, whether they be comedic or serious. this game is filled with so much that can be applied to our own lives.

“to take action is to hope. to believe-- to choose to believe, is to take the first step towards a brighter future.” “but if i may give voice to a personal desire... i rather you lived.” “the time left to you is precious” “if it is folly to hope, i am content to die a fool” “but come, turn your gaze to the window, my friend. the rains have ceased and we have been graced with another beautiful day”

“remember us. remember that we once lived.”

and so many more!! even the lyrics of some of the songs are so beautifully written and full of raw emotion that at some point, we can resonate with them.

there’s a post going around... talking about how, as people, we are desperate to be remembered. we write in diaries, we keep receipts of complaints from customers when they diss you about your poor-quality copper, we make etchings on walls of the days passed and our heights as we grow, we leave behind memoirs of times lost to us. so many of us strive for greatness... because we want to be remembered. we want to be learned. we want to be heard. we want our names to be remembered, our stories and our voices... and none of us will see that in the end. sure. family will be there - your pictures will be hung for the next few decades... but after it all? no one’s going to remember who you were in fifty, eighty, a hundred, a thousand, a million years from now. so the best we can do is to preserve what we have. to immortalize the tiny pieces of ourselves. the shitty artwork you drew when you were five, the remains of torn books and libraries, dirty figurines, hell - even the stains left in the walls and carpets of your old home. we make time capsules for a reason. all of us, collectively, are screaming out: “i lived! remember me, please! i was here, i lived, i learned, i loved! i cried, i got embarrassed, i got angry - but i was here! please remember me - remember us!”

is that not the same of what he’s saying? he doesn’t care if you remember him specifically. (would it matter to him? maybe? he’s a fictional character y’all, i can’t speak for his writers) but the message isn’t to remember him and all the things he did in his life. it was to remember that they were people. they tried their best. they failed, but they tried. and they existed. they loved. they cried. they grew. they mourned. they made mistakes.

it really peeves- maybe not in a “makes me angry sense”, but kinda annoys- me, even now, that people would throw away such an amazing message... simply because a fictional character did bad things in a fictional world, or just didn’t like them, said it. it really is a beautiful and terrifyingly sad message that people didn’t seem to get because they were focused on who said it. this is a sentiment everyone has shared, even if they didn’t know it.

for me, it really spoke. shadowbringers is, and was, one of the best expansions, i’ll say it. not just for the story but for the overall message of it. it’s fantastic. and i really hope that the people who made those comments - they won’t read this, i don’t think - but... i hope the rest of the expansion after that moment gave them that realization.

sorry for that huge vent/rant y’all. i just, that had been burning in my head for so long now and i finally got the words to say it. if you read through it all, thank you! and please don’t spread negativity on this subject. if you want to say something negative, just move on, please. it’s not worth my nor your time. you can make your own post about it, just don’t leave it on mine.

but seriously, thank you for going through all this. and trust me, it may not matter now - but i’ll remember you. i will. i’ll remember the wonderful people here in the small ways i do. ]

#ooc #ffxiv #5.3 spoilers #5.3 #shadowbringers spoilers #shadowbringers #5.0 spoilers #5.0 #little bit of uh #okay #maybe a lot of a rant at the end #but i feel things so much #and i needed to let those feels out #put my thoughts down and everything #because like everyone #i want to be remembered too

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calliecat93 · 5 years

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RWBY V6 CH8 Review: Dead End

Last week, Kerry revealed that the finale would take place on January 26th, which since this week was a holiday, totals to a 13 episode season. It's one episode short from last year, but hey 13 is a standard number for an anime season, so fair enough. Also sorry that this took so long, I had... stuff happen with the blog the past few days. But it's fixed now, I posted Chapter 7 yesterday, and now it's time to cover Chapter 8! Lets get to it!

Overview

Team RWBY, Qrow, and Maria at at Argus' military base, but are denied access by the... bizarre twin guards. I think that they may be based on The Cards form Alice in Wonderland, and it'll be more clear why in a bit. The heroes are forced to play the Weiss Schnee card, and it gets the guards to agree to fetch their commanding officer. But to the ire of all the Winter fans out there... it's not her. Maria thinks that she knows who it is though, and they happen to be enemies because said CO put Maria on the advanced screening list for life for taking cashews on a flight. Sheesh. But hey, maybe Maria's right and she's dead! Funniest moment of the episode BTW.

The CO of the Argus base is an egotistical elderly woman known as Caroline Cordovan. She displays much of the attitude that we expect from Atlas characters. Egotistical, boastful, authoritarian, and sees Atlas as the greatest kingdom of all. She had already refused to help JNR, who are also there, and it's pretty clear that she's not going to help the group still. They try to reason with her by explaining that they know that Atlas isn't at fault for Beacon, but it only makes it worst. Cordovan DOES offer to take Weiss home if she's come to her senses... but isn't going to do the same for her friends of 'questionable nature' while looking at Blake. Wow, she's a racist. Lovely. When Weiss questions this, Cordovan slams the gates int heir faces. I agree with Maria's previous sentiment, she's a she-devil. I'm pretty sure that she's supposed to be the Queen of Hearts considering her personality, which would explain the guards being the Cards.

With the plan reaching... well, a dead end, Qrow calls it quits and goes to drink. So he obviously learned nothing form Brunswick! JNR just suggests coming up with a plan without him, pointing out that they still have Ozpin. Que an awkward beat and we cut to later... where Jaune punches a hole in his sister's wall. I hope she has home insurance. So yeah... JNR doesn't take the truth well. Even Nora is pissed off. I'm... mixed about this. It's very understandable for them to be angry and upset, especially considering they lost Pyrrha due to this. But it does bring up a minor critique I have. The response to Salem being un-killable and Ozpin not having a true plan have all ha done reaction: anger and giving up. Some took ti worst than others, but it's still the same. The only one who hasn't is Ruby, which helps but it makes the fact that no one is wondering 'well maybe we can win without killing Salem' or 'maybe we can ask Jinn if there's a way to defeat Salem and not destroy her' hasn't been brought up once. It gets annoying when, even though you understand why everyone is reacting the way that they are, no one has had any logical thought since and continue to spew in their negativity, like Qrow is. All I'm saying is let the reactions be a bit more diverse, if only to keep this from getting either predictable or just irritating.

Oscar tries to calm everyone down, pointing out that they aren't the bad guys in this. Jaune questions this however before storming over to Oscar, wanting to know if he had known about this the whole time. Even when Weiss tries to say he didn't, Jaune grabs the farmboy and slams him into the wall, questioning where his loyalties stand and even if it's even Oscar that they're talking to. Throughout, Oscar is clearly terrified and it only ends when Ruby calls out Jaune. To the paladin's credit, this get shim to realize what he's doing and is clearly horrified. He backs away before going upstairs, Nora and Ren soon following and wanting to be left alone. The RWBY girls also scatter, leaving a clearly distraught Oscar. Great for none of you to check if he's okay or not. Doing a bang up job ladies.

As the others go to get food, Ruby goes outside to an absolutely beautiful butterfly garden. She's trying to call Qrow to find out where he is, but she gets nothing and throws her Scroll in frustration. It's clear that all of this is beginning to get to Ruby, something that Maria, who had gone back there to avoid the yelling, sees as well. Ruby explains how with everything happening, she's at a loss of what to do. Maria can't help with that, or at least she can't without it defeating the purpose, but she does offer to help Ruby feel better if she's sick of not knowing about things. Yes my friends, we are FINALLY going to talk about the Silver Eyes! I have waited for this for so long!!!

When Ruby explains what she does know, aka more or less nothing Maria explains that there isn't much known about the bloodline. She was lucky as she was trained by her father, who we can assume was also a Silver Eyed Warrior. He taught Maria all that she knew and it led her to scoring higher on the Huntress Exam than any other applicant without having to even attend one of the academies. But if the Silver Eyes are so powerful, why are they so rare? Simple, they were hunted down and killed by Salem. This is why Maria took on a masked persona and hid things such as her name, to hide her powers and not be a target. Of course, we all know how that ended, and Maria credits her survival to both her training and her Semblance. The latter is revealed to be what she dubs Preflexes, which is more or less Spider Man's Spidey Sense. She can sense things before they happen and can be one move ahead of her opponent due to it. Awesome!

Ruby is all set to learn to vaporize monsters with her eyeballs... which earns her a bonk on the head. I guess Maria attended the Rafiki School of Mentorship. The Silver Eyes aren't fueled by the desire to destroy Grimm, it is powered by the desire to protect people. On every case where Ruby used the powers thus far (Pyrrha's death, Jaune facing Cinder, The Apathy), she did so because she was trying to save someone and it allowed her to freeze the Wythern and vaporize the Apathy. Maria goes on to explain that where the Grimm were created by the God of Darkness, the light of the Silver Eyes comes form his brother, the God of Creation. How does Maria know this? Well remember in Jinn's vision when the God turned into the dragon for the first time? We saw a burst of light that vaporized the Grimm. I thought that was just the effects of the transformation.. wow I feel stupid! That is an awesome detail!

Now since the light only effects Grimm, any training that Ruby can get is going to be a trial by fire. But Maria does suggest that the young huntress can work to create a mindset that she can turn to in order to unleash the power when she needs to. But Ruby is confused by something. The light on works on Grimm, right? Well if you recall, Ruby was able to use it on Cinder back in Haven... IDK how she remembers this since Emerald knocked her out immediately, but still. Now we all know why that is, but Ruby doesn't. Which has Maria suggest that maybe there's something that the huntress isn't seeing. But anymore talk comes to an end as Ruby and JNR are informed that Oscar has gone missing. Well... shit.

Review

Of the episodes so far, it's safe to say that this may be the weakest. But only in terms of it being an exposition/build-up episode instead of an action episode or something along those lines. I can't call it bad though as a lot of good came out of this episode. The first half was pretty dang funny. Caroline is terrible, but her boastful personality makes her entertaining to watch at the very least. Maria was comedy gold here with her rant about the cashews and the 'Maybe she's dead!” line. Again, funniest moment in the episode. It's nice that we got to have a couple of laughs before the heavy stuff came back in because... haha, IDT we're going to be having many more light-heated moments in these last five episodes. Call it a hunch.

As I said, while I would like for the group to have some cold hard logic hit them already, Team JNR's reactions are completely understandable. Jaune especially. Really, he's got the most reason out of everyone aside form maybe Qrow to be angry. Remember, Pyrrha got killed because of this and even she wasn't aware of all the details when the whole Fall Maiden thing happened. We can argue about the circumstances all that we want, Pyrrha still died trying to do what was right, and ever since everything that Jaune has done has been to not let her death be in vain. So finding out that all of that was for nothing? I can't blame him for being angry or how he reacted. Am I defending him? Hell no. Oscar did NOTHING wrong. The way that Jaune manhandled him was horrifying and seeing this young kid clearly terrified was just wrong. But it still makes sense hwy Jaune reacted that way all things considered, and to his credit he DID realize what he was doing and stopped. And we find out that Oscar is gone, it is very clear that Jaune feels remorseful for taking his anger out on Oscar and of what could happen to him now. Out of everyone so far aside from Oscar, I sympathize with Jaune the most.

Who I have lost my sympathy for however is Qrow. He is just...a mess. Brunswick was bad enough, but now? Look, I know how hard it is to let go of addiction, especially considering how bad of a mental state that Qrow is in. But after how his drinking caused him to be so out of it that he failed to realize that the kids that he's responsible for to get killed, it's becoming more and more difficult to feel bad for him. He SAW what his carelessness could have led to, and even now he hasn't learned. Because of it, Ruby has to be the adult trying to keep everyone going despite all the circumstances, and she has to try and find him on top of everything else. It's at the point where this can't go unaddressed anymore. Ruby or someone needs to give Qrow an intervention and outright tell him to stop. I imagine that it'll get ugly, but if something isn't done soon, then most likely Qrow is going to get either himself or someone else killed. It's time for him to stop the self-loathing.

Okay, lets try to talk about something more positive, like the Silver Eyes! First, I need to say this again. Maria has been a delight as a character and has just fit right in with the cast. Funny, sassy, practical, she's been a great addition and is the kind of character that Ruby needs to mentor her. I loved hearing some details about her past, like her relationship with her father and how she became a Huntress. It's exposition, sure, but it's used to show Maria's experience and wisdom. We learn more about a character that so far the fandom really loves, and it serves a purpose. We also see her intelligence as she pieced together about the source of the Silver Eyes powers just form Jinn's vision. She is very much what Ruby needs. She's an optimistic character, but also firm and wise. She can push Ruby in the right direction without being too harsh or too nice. Hopefully she sticks around after this season because she's such a welcome addition.

As for Ruby, she continues to be a bright spot in the season. She's trying so hard, but the weight is really beginning to get to her. She had to stop Jaune from physically hurting someone, is being ignored by Qrow and his unreliableness is clearly upsetting her, and she feels like she's letting everyone down due to how hopeless everything seems. She is meant to be an inspiring, hopeful figure and she is trying her damnest to be this way. After the initial plan went up in smoke, her first response is to comfort Weiss and again assure her that they won't leave her side. She's stepped up as a leader, but she's till a 16, maybe 17 if Lindsay can be believed, year old girl in a very difficult situation and with Qrow intoxicated and Oz gone, she has to be the adult. She has to look after everyone and keep them on track. She has to try and encourage them and not give up, and so far that doesn't seem to be working. This girl has so much pressure on her because everyone else has given up, and it's starting to weigh on her. Will this be the season where she breaks down? It's hard to say, but I do think that before the volume is over, we're going to see some kind of reaction out of her.

On the upside however, after so long, Ruby is finally learning about the Silver Eyes. She's asking questions. She's excited to learn to use this power. She actively WANTS to learn about it. This is what I have been hoping for ever since the end of V3. This is the moment where we are seeing Ruby beginning to go from a rookie fresh out of Beacon long before she was ready, to taking the steps to becoming the Huntress that she has always wanted to be. In light of everything and even with her doubts, Ruby has stepped up as a leader, has yet to give up despite how hopeless it looks, and is still determined to do what's right. Now she has a mentor to teach her to use her gift, something unique to her, and hopefully that can help ignite the will to continue on. Ruby's goal has always been to be a Huntress to help people, and overtime that has gone form naive ambition to seeing how dark the world can be, and wanting to do whatever is possible to do good because it's the right thing to do. Ozpin was right about what he said in V5, she truly is an inspiring figure, and this is why. Even in face of the hopelessness and everyone around her giving up, she hasn't. Will she? It's hard to say, but there is no doubt that no matter what tries to keep Ruby down, she'll face it and she will somehow pull everyone up with her. This volume, more than any other, has made that clear and I love it.

What helps that entire scene, of course, is both the setting and the music. The garden is absolutely beautiful, having a very calming atmosphere, which after the blowup was very much needed. The butterflies also added to the beauty and calmness. Apparently blue butterflies can symbolize change, and butterflies in general can symbolize life. You see it in anime all the time. It's perfect symbolism here as Ruby seeks to change herself and become a Silver Eyed Warrior, so it's a very welcome touch. And the music... gosh the music is so beautiful and serene. Jeff and Alex once more killed it, especially with the new renditions of Red Like Roses and This Will be the Day. Very nostalgic and it added to this being about Ruby taking that next step forward. Very well done!

Then of course we have the ending. Oscar is missing. For the moment, we will assume that he has left of his own volition due to the manhandling and the questioning of his identity, which was already a problem for him. And... is anyone surprised? I mean Jaune shoving him alone would be enough reason to leave. But the way everyone keeps seeing him as Ozpin, directing the anger at him even if unintentionally, and how no one seemed to care about how he's felt about all of this. Only Ruby ever did, and Qrow made sure to kill that. Of course he would leave. No one trusts him and now even he's questioning who he is and what to do now that it looks like they will inevitably lose. Hopefully he will be found safe and sound and will come back. And hopefully everyone will apologize, or Jaune will at the very least. For now, all that we can do is worry about his safety until Saturday roles around.

Final Thoughts

This may not have been the heaviest chapter, but it was still enjoyable. The first half was entertaining and did a good job of setting up the next obstacle for our heroes. The second half was very much emotional and Jaune's reaction was pretty much what we were expected. The exposition was welcomed and added to the scene instead of dragging it down. And of course we're left on a cliffhanger that is mean, but not 'Weiss just got stabbed' levels of mean. Overall, while it may be the weakest episode of the volume so far, I still give it two thumbs up! Great work!

#rwby #rwby6 #rwby reviews #callie reviews

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jhope-seok · 6 years

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I have a lot of things to say about Tinder.

This is a personal rant about idiot boys on tinder. So if you’d like to read my CRAZY FUCKING ESCAPADES IN THE DATING WORLD. PLEASE. GO AHEAD. CLICK READ MORE. IT’LL BE INTERESTING. And fun. To watch me implode then explode.

Warnings: mentions of sex/sexting, lots of cursing, men being disgusting--potentially triggering, and one angry ass woman.

Warning part 2: this is A LOOOONG ASS POST, probably with a lot of grammatical errors. It’s 2am. (just so we’re all aware, it’s about 2.3k worth of ranting plus pictorial evidence)

So here’s the thing about me and tinder. I’ve been on the thing since I was in college, probably around junior year when I really came into the realization of my sexuality/being a pansexual person. Keep in mind this was like.....5 or 6 years ago now. I was interested in exploring my options, exhausted from going to countless frat parties and having random makeout sessions with boys who never asked for my number, and/or went on to makeout with the next girl they found at the party. Over the years I have collected an INFLUX of over 1,000 matches. I am not saying this number to brag, I am saying this number to give you an idea of how much of a credible fucking source I am when I present my case. And my case is as such.

ALL MEN ON TINDER ARE THE FUCKING. ABSOLUTE. WORST.

For perspective I have also dabbled in the following dating apps:

OKCupid (absolutely horrid. don’t do it. the shit i went through on this app....just. don’t get me started. I could make a whole other post about the atrocities of this site)

HER (really sad option for lesbian/bi/pan/women looking for other women)

Bumble (pretty successful but forcing the woman to speak first is annoying as hell and then giving a STRAIGHT MALE ONLY 24 HOURS TO RESPOND. Utter hell.)

Hinge (just...downright annoying)

CrossPaths (for christians. Honestly a good idea. Poorly executed. Poorly advertised).

Badoo (honestly...what the fuck)

Coffee Meets Bagel (good idea; too complicated)

Skout (nope)

The Game by Hot or Not (i don’t remember using this but my phone says it’s in my cloud)

And probably some others I can’t remember

What you should take away from this list is that

I’m a needy bitch

I was VERY DESPERATE at times

And i’ve tried a LOT OF OPTIONS.

therefore: don’t comment on this saying: well this worked, well that worked, try this, try that. No. Tinder is still one of the only options that actually works consistently and will continue to work because it is one of the least complicated among the dating apps.

Now. To my point that all men on tinder are the absolute fucking worst.

Time for some examples.

I will not be using these people’s real names, because that’s just mean. So I will present them to you in cases.

Case #1:

Me and this man matched about a year and a half ago, end of 2016. We were unable to meet up because I had a bunch of plans going on--at the time I worked in a law firm and my commute was hell so i only had time to go on dates on the weekends. And being that it was december I was busy every...single...weekend. Which he was fine with! (Awww what a kind gentlemen). No.

He had made it pretty clear from the beginning that he was really only in it for the sex. which for me at the time was fine. I let him know that I didn’t just fuck around on the first date. I lived--and still do live--with my mother and so he couldn’t just come over whenever and i couldn’t just leave whenever i wanted to spend the night at his place in D.C. He said that was fine. However, apparently he was not fine with that.

We talked for a month, lots of sexting, lots of naked snaps, whatever, whatever, we were basically waiting to jump each others bones. But I had also told him that I did not fuck on the first date. I had a rule. I would not break that rule. Again, he said he was fine with that.

On our first date--in a CROWDED RESTAURANT--for brunch, he kept whispering to me about how he wanted to push all of our plates off the table and fuck me in front of all those people. I politely told him to shut up because there were people sitting less than two feet away from us and that was inappropriate for sunday brunch to be talking like that (how proper of me....). Anyways, I let him walk me to my car in a garage, and as we approached it he came up behind me and forcefully turned me around to kiss him. I was like “ooh how hot. I like this.” Anyways, I drove him to his car, we made out a little, then we went on our separate ways. We had a second date not much longer after that, where we had agreed to go out to dinner BUT that first we were gonna fuck in his car. So we met up in a garage and we waited for the cars around us to leave and then we made out, and i sucked his dick. I did N O T let him have sex with me because I was annoyed that he was trying to push me to it--he had a daddy kink--and kept saying “ooh how hard do you want daddy to fuck you”. I said “You can only fuck me when I say you can, and I say no.” thank god he respected my boundaries. So I sucked him dry, then he “MAGICALLY” got a call from his work calling him in. I barely heard from him after that. Because he told me I should come over and spend the night so we could fuck. I said no. He ghosted me.

Case #2--Who knows:

Soooo many fucking men. Have ghosted me. For no reason. Like we’ll have a good few opening lines. And then....nothing. Forever. Where in the FUCK DID YOU GO?! Did you find someone better? Did you grow uninterested with our conversation?! Did you forget how to speak the English language? Did you decide you regretted swiping on me? The worst is when they don’t unmatch you and then it’s just left there....hanging.

Case #whatever:

The fucking men who ask if it’s okay to text. And then don’t text.

I don’t even remember this dude’s NAME in the first place to omit it, but we got into an argument because he supports the store brand cheese puff that is America’s president, and I matched him only so I could yell at him (yeah I know...whatever...I like to prove my dominance and tell boys why they’re wrong. Also because half of the time I use dating apps just to have conversations with people because I’m bored). Anyways. we got in this heated debate and he was like “I like your fire, you should text me here’s my number ____” blah. So I texted him cause i was interested enough in our debate to continue it. THE BITCH NEVER ANSWERED ME. LITERALLY....FOR MONTHS. PROBABLY OVER A YEAR. And then out of fucking nOWHERE he responds like “hey who is this again?” Dude...... NO.

Case #The Never Ending Message Senders:

These men are the worst. So I should explain myself first. I don’t really ever unmatch someone unless it’s for a good reason. Like they’re being disgusting, racist, homophobic, gross, call me fat, ugly, whatever. For the most part I don’t unmatch with someone because in the old days of tinder, unmatching would just PUT THE PERSON BACK IN YOUR CIRCUIT (good job tinder). I’m assuming they did this in case you deleted your tinder, or your app crashed and you had to restart, or you accidentally unmatched someone, whatever. So I don’t unmatch for the sole reason that I don’t want these jerks, who never took the time to respond to my hello or witty opening statement, back in my playing field. I don’t revisit my old matches, I don’t try to restart conversations with them.

If only men could learn the same fucking thing. I have so many men who CONSTANTLY message me. I’m talking like once in every blue moon. It’s like they let the conversation lie for a while, and then BAM another message. The ones I do actually unmatch are the ones that don’t wait a while. They just constantly message, hour after hour after hour until I either respond or unmatch. I don’t know a woman who WOULD respond after having gotten 10 messages of the same “Hello? You there?” “Member me?” (yes one dude has actually said “member me” to me. Not “remember me”...”member me”) etc. etc. in the course of a few hours. Take the hint dude. Please. I don’t enjoy being ghosted, but I know when to take a hint.

A perfect example of such case is the following!

(Context: I just updated the pictures in my tinder account today! So through tinder’s cool new facebook timeline! you can see when your matches update their profiles. to scroll through and judge them even further to see if they’ve gotten cuter or uglier through time).

Please take note of the dates attached to the message. For clarification, “today” is August 27th, 2018!

I have since unmatched him. Buddy. Please. Take the hint. (Also, how fucking creepy of him to say that I’ve gotten closer since a while back....like are you tracking my distance every time you message me? Please dear lord, no).

Case #THE IDIOTS WHO WAIT YEARS TO RESPOND.

This. THIS. THIIIIIS RIGHT HERE. IS WHAT HAS GOT MY BLOOD BOILED SO MUCH I NEEDED TO MAKE THIS POST. THE FUCKING IDIOTS WHO MATCH WITH ME. AND THEN CLAIM THAT THEY DELETED THEIR TINDER. OR THAT THEY LOST THEIR PHONE. JUST REDOWNLOADED. DIDN’T SEE MY MESSAGE. FOR FUCKING. YEARS.

OOOOOOOH BOY. You’ve gotta have some damn nerve to pull that shit. If you lost the app, deleted it, got a new phone, WHATEVER. Your profile would not continue to show up on the matching feed. People would not be able to swipe on your face to find that they matched with you. You would not exist in the eyes of tinder. You would be GONE from the system.

So don’t pull that shit with me. So many dudes have had the audacity to pull this shit with me, and when I call them out on it, most of the time I get either one of three responses: they say “oof yeah I’m sorry, I’m a dick can we move on?”, “Hahaha sorry” and then they continue to ghost me, or people who pull the shit I listed above.

These next photos are from THE SAME DAY AS THE PREVIOUS PHOTOS. Please take note of the date of the first message. (“today” in this sense is technically August 28, 2018 because it’s past midnight.)

Although I deleted his name, I gotta say. My insult was pretty on point. Anyways.

Like how the fuck can you live with yourself with that fucking lie?! Own up to that shit. Be like “yep oops sorry, didn’t think you were cute the first time but this snapchat filter making u look damn good” like don’t be a DOUCHE DUDE. Men are just honestly so fucking frustrating. And yes you better fucking believe I sent that reason for unmatching to tinder. You best fucking BELIEVEEEEEEE I did that. I’m so fucking mad at men. Like how in the hell.

I’ve HONESTLY had better luck matching with MARRIED COUPLES on tinder than I have had with straight men. Married couples at least know how to respect people. God damn.

YOUR MOTHERS DID NOT RAISE YOU TO BE LIKE THIS, MEN. LEARN HOW TO BE DECENT HUMAN BEINGS. JESUS CHRIST.

All in all, if you’ve ever toyed with the idea of downloading tinder: Don’t. Stay out of the fucking awful shit that is Tinder and dating apps for as long as you can. I have my settings set up to men in their 30s, and honestly older men do not mean more mature men. Just absolutely frustrating.

Also, as an addendum:

Case #Don’t put my height in my bio/or do and say “Cause I guess it’s important/matters”

To all males on the planet earth: PUT. YOUR. FUCKING. HEIGHT. IN. YOUR. BIO. It fucking matters. As a tall as woman, it is so fucking annoying to match with a cute dude and then have them say “Hey I’m 5′2″ is that okay?” um....no. I’m sorry buddy. That is not okay. I have strict height limits for this ride and 5′2″ does not pass the riding restrictions.

We’re gonna call in a CELEBRITY SHOT for this story, I matched with this dude on bumble who didn’t have his height in his profile. (Context: my bumble profile says “5′10″ cause it doesn’t matter” <--a nice jab at all the straight dudes out there) and we go about having this great conversation, we’re clicking, he knows one of my friends from college, we bond, we go on a date. THE FIRST THING OUT OF THIS ASSHOLE’S MOUTH ON OUR DATE WAS “WOW. You’re taller than I expected.” BITCH HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CAN U READ. IT’S THE FIRST THING IN MY BIO.

Sub case: I once had a guy match with me, tell me he was shorter than me, then asked me if I would be okay owning him as my slave. I understand and respect everyone’s fetishes, considering I have a slight dominance fetish as well, but a hello would have been nice first.

Thanks for coming to my ted talk.

#rachel rambles #tinder #tinder stories #just absolutely god awful annoying humans

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dunne-ias · 7 years

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Replies to Don and Katrina’s potentially bad choices

Behind a cut, so you can just scroll passed if you don’t want to see it

katatty-main replied to your post “I think Nina may have taken what you said the wrong way,” Don...”

ugh, don!! you can like a kid without wanting to babysit it (without volunteering) while you try and work

holleyberry replied to your post “Katrina sighed. “I don’t mind helping you by occasionally...”

There you go.

In Don’s defense, he doesn’t see his girlfriend as selfish, and assumes she’d do what he would think is the right thing to do, i.e. help out. In Katrina’s defense, she works from home, and when someone works from home it is often assumed that they have time for everything when that is not true.

dramallamadingdang replied to your post “Katrina sighed. “I don’t mind helping you by occasionally...”

Hate to break it to you, oh-namesake-of-mine, but saving people's lives IS more important than making dresses. Sure, someone else volunteering your time is really crappy and I can understand being peeved about it, but let's be real here about that, at least. A person will survive if they don't have a new dress for a party and your reputation won't be destroyed by having to back out for a family emergency. A person needing surgery might not survive, though.

Absolutely fair. She still gets to be pissed about Don treating her time as worthless though :P

katatty-main replied to your post “Katrina had a temper, just like Nina, but unlike Nina her anger was...”

i don't like either of these two as people but i do like them together.

simsofsimcity replied to your post “The thought had occurred to Don in the middle of their love-making and...”

this is so sweet in a kind of messed up way, lol, i love it

Well, it’s nice that someone likes them together...

cindysimblr replied to your post “Dr and… Mrs?” she repeated, amazed, and he rose from the bed....”

I don't ship them.

pleasant-lives replied to your post “Dr and… Mrs?” she repeated, amazed, and he rose from the bed....”

Is it bad that I don't like them together? :/

...since clearly others don’t. But stories would be boring, wouldn’t they, if they only ever contained couples that were right for each other?

dramallamadingdangvreplied to your post “Dr and… Mrs?” she repeated, amazed, and he rose from the bed....”

It's impulsive, but they both seem the sort. Doesn't mean it's a good idea, but it also doesn't instantly mean it's a BAD idea...

holleyberry replied to your post “Dr and… Mrs?” she repeated, amazed, and he rose from the bed....”

What could possibly go wrong?

EVERYTHING

cindysimblr replied to your post “Hours later, Don woke up to find her side of the bed empty. He...”

Typical Katrina reaction :D

pleasant-lives replied to your post “Hours later, Don woke up to find her side of the bed empty. He...”

Hah. Modest. I don't think any of his past relationships were the kind you would cheat on, tbh :p

Oh I was hoping someone would comment something like this, because this kind of thinking always bugged me. We all know that occasionally people will cheat. Not everyone does, and people who cheat are rarely excused no matter how hard they try. And what always really annoyed me was this attitude in the person they cheated with, that somehow, they wouldn’t cheat on them. As if they were special.

And let’s say it with me, ladies: We do not have magical vaginas.

There are no magical vaginas capable of keeping a guy where others failed. Cheating is the choice of the cheater, not the cause of a fault in the person they cheated on. Don never cheated with Katrina, but she knows full well he hasn’t managed to be in an exclusive relationship ever, and for her to sort of assume that he would now that he’s with her is really insulting to all the other women he has been with. Sorry, rant over. I made her say what she said so that I could say this :P

holleyberry replied to your post “Go on.” “I want to give you a choice. And I will be fine with...”

You can totally tell me I'm wrong, but if she's having doubts about being faithful it seems a bit manipulative for her to put it on him to decide. And to limit the talk about it to only now. Because like she said, things could change,for both of them.

pleasant-lives replied to your post “Go on.” “I want to give you a choice. And I will be fine with...”

To what Holley said... in my experience, sometimes people who are insecure and doubtful about others... it's because they doubt themselves too in the same aspect

Indeed. She is doing herself a disservice by letting him make the choice instead of talking about it, but like I said above, she doesn’t really think he’d need anyone other than her. By making the choice his, she would’ve been free to seek alternatives herself, and he would have no cause to be angry, since he decided. And Don is, similarly, doing himself a disservice by only asking himself if he can be faithful, and not wondering about her...

dramallamadingdang replied to your post “Go on.” “I want to give you a choice. And I will be fine with...”

Soooo....He gets an ultimatum of sorts, but she doesn't? That hardly seems fair... But then, she is rather self-centered, isn't she? But then, he seems to be, too. Like attracts like, but like doesn't always STAY attracted to like...

...which yes, makes them very much alike. Whether this will be the cause of disaster or if they’ll live a happy married life - well, you’ll just have to find out, won’t you?

A BIG Thank you to everyone who commented, liked, and reblogged, it means a lot to me!

#katatty-main #dramallamadingdang #holleyberry #pleasant-lives #simsofsimcity #cindysimblr

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otomeduck · 6 years

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Today will be better :) im still feeling kinda messed up and all, but more refreshed compared to yesterday where i was a complete wreck. Bless. i don’t know how to use tumblr lmao and use the “see more” function so ok. if uall are not fond of shitposts about life uall can speedily scroll through this. it’s a compiled list of rants LOL

Although i still feel scared and shitty that my math is so bad, i will try not to let that worry inhibit me from enjoying myself haha. I was such a mess yesterday lolol I couldn’t even express myself. I have 8 drafts on tumblr I couldn’t bring myself to post bc I just couldn’t understand the nonsense I myself was writing lolol. My mood was so shit. But yeah hahah pasted below will be everything I wanted to post yesterday but didn’t have the balls.

I’M SO SORRY I’M ALWAYS RANTING ABT LIFE AND STUFF. Idk why I’m such an angsty fella as well LOL i feel sad that you guys have to follow someone like me hahah idk if it’s even normal to feel so much angst lololol but I’m so thankful that I really have this avenue to be completely myself.

“Aah lolol it’s so hard not to be pissed when u clearly are hahah what the efffff :((((

Im still so angry but ill try to control my temper now 😭😭 everything’s gonna be all right (hopefully)

As if trying to anger me further, my wifi is a wreck and it goes on and off while i play my otoges or am replying to someone on my whatsapp messenger. Thanks lol

😭😭😭 im so mad rn

Ugh omg lol nvm i’ll try to persevere and distract myself rn omg what the wifi has to stop freezing on me omg im so …..

Ok i need to talk and get things off my chest rn ugh i dont get whats wrong with me and thats the worst part lol usually if i know whats affecting me i can try to feel better but ya rn im a mess in the sense nothing i do seems to help and everything annoys me. Im so irritated

Im really angry like wtf i really ugh dont want to stay pissed either so idk ugh help

I blame this on math for being so annoying and impossible to do like i feel super demoralised and fed up i really hate it omg help. Everything is making me triggered and i really really want all of this vexing emotions to stop. Ugh

I dont even know where to start bc everything is pissing me off and i think the largest factor is math so maybe i should stop doing it but i will feel so disappointed in myself

I dont know what to do omg ok i really think i gonna stop doing math since it is causing me so much misery. My family is being annoying as well they need to stop making a fuss so late at night omg i cant handle this omg omg okay i need to get out of this house???

My family is so annoying they r quarrelling i hate it i dont know what to do omg okay idk anymore haha fuck lol everything is irritating idk what to do i want to move out and i think i shall?

Im so angry omg im so angry bc i dont understand why im angry and i cant comprehend my current situation at all. Im so upset bc idk how to feel better. I am pissed. Idk how to get out of this situation but whine. Im so saddened ???

I dont even know whats causing this omg and everything is noisy i need peace omg but omg omg omg im so angry i want to punch someones face. Idk what to do omg help

Help

Ugh i cant i want to hide somewhere until i feel better but idk where

Is there even anywhere

Okay

I want to chill so badly but the anger in my heart is… … ugh… omg stop omg so noisy wow omg stop stop stop ugh why cant it be peaceful????? Im in a bad mood but otoges

Lol i love my wifi it is working just fine can yall sense the sarcasm. My wifi is shit

I decided to try something new so my wifi wont be shit anymore. Blesssssss :/ May i feel less annoyed soon haha ripppppp. Lol wtf my home wifi keep having issues lmao wtf im so angry i cant? Bless my house wifi lol……. I cant with wifi anymore everything is failing me”

LOL as you guys can see, I was feeling like crap yesterday night and yeah, that didn’t feel too good. I’m pretty confident that the root cause was because of several bad news being thrown at me at once. First of all, it didn’t feel good that I was taken as a joke during my interview. Or maybe I can look at it from the perspective that they enjoyed what I said and found me funny but still. And second of all, I don’t appreciate two-faced “friends” in my life. I was so unhappy to find out that I got rejected from joining a school event (there weren’t even any interviews held)

Well there’s that, then third of all my house wifi was the worst and I couldn’t even use tumblr, my messaging app, or play my otoges basically I was really fed up. Fourth of all my parents were in chaos lol they kept bickering over the most useless things and I was really done. Fifth of all and the most major factor would be me not knowing how to do math. I felt so shitty. I had to have multiple friends teach me and I felt so bad.

Looking back, everyone’s gotta start somewhere, right? They don’t become automatically smart. In that case, it’s okay for me to start being dumb at math. i’ll just keep on improving until someday, I’ll be the one teaching someone else.

I’m feeling a bit annoyed at how although it’s a day off school today, we are given work to do at home so it doesn’t make a difference anyway. Ugh… and there is a deadline to it, we have to do our online submissions by 12pm. I’m so fed up, but it’s alright. It’s fine. I’ve said all I wanted to say, I guess. If there’s a reason why I’m not replying to y’all on tumblr message, the reason is that my life is in shambles and im not emotionally stable to make casual talk so im sorry for that K

Sigh I can’t believe I can feel so angsty but okay. Mm. … I don’t want you guys to worry about me bc I’d always like to believe that I can cope with this alone. That I can face all my troubles alone. I don’t want to be a burden to others. I know it’s wrong to be so harsh on oneself, but my unrealistic expectations of myself always get the better of me. I hate feeling this way. I really deserve healing (ironically) just like kenshin lmao. Sigh. I don’t even want to be such a scarred human being.

But it’s okay. It’s alright. I’m sure things will be better today without even batting an eyelash when I say that. Hopefully. may things get more tolerable and brighter

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